Long story. Don't feel like telling at the moment.
But. Dad talked to me while out at dinner last night. Whatever.
He's gonna get me a different car and I got internet back.
Bla.

But. I guess I'll be sticking around for a bit... I guess..

Uhm... I owe people stuff.

I don't even get to catch my kiriban.

but. Less than 50 on both. If anyone's interested.

First to notify me with proof gets it.

Bye. Love you guys...

Going home today...
So... Today's my last day for a long time that I have internet.

I've enjoyed my stay, especially getting to talk to my beloved again...
As well as a few others.
One in particular (not a friend nor watcher, on the blocked list), not so much.

But hey. What can ya do.


I love you Rachel. More than anyone... More than anyone could ever hope to.
Grr~. <3

Don't know how many I'll do, but I gotta get my fill! <3

Join me here at join.me!

https://join.me/sevendays

I. Am in the mood to draw skunks. >:I
I also want a skunk char of my own, but. D: I'd never use her. And I prolly wouldn't get attached. :/

Butyeah. I love skunks. D:

Uhm. Yeah. :I

Hey heyy. YEahhhh.

https://join.me/sevendays

once in forever. :I
I drew a pony, you guise... D:

https://join.me/sevendays

103 Pageviews until 3K
71 Favorites until 1K

Don't forget to catch my kiribans. The time is drawing near...

.... And I'll do what I can about the art. And besides. If no one catches it, nobody has to worry.

Iono.
I feel like such a dick sometimes.
*shrugs*

... I didn't mean to leave on Hiatus...

... It wasn't my choice.

... My lovely step dad went crazy... cut my ethernet line with scissors... so that I couldn't use it again.
He's fixing up my $5k Stickshift Mustang... just to sell it off.

... He says I can't have nice things.
He is convinced I'm not going to college, nor make it on my own or with anybody else other than them.
He says I can't rely on my grandparents because they're gonna die soon. And that my aunt has no money.
He says that I don't clean the house. When, in fact, I clean it every day. I'm sorry you track grass onto our hardwood floors and complain about me not having swept the floors in a week.

He says. He can't wait for me to get out.
He said. Once I leave, I can never come back. As in, I can never move back in.
He said. My older sister, who is 21 and lives in TN, wants to come down and live with them. For god knows how long. And they'll let her.
They'll fix up the bonus room that he never worked on for the 4 years he said he would. And put her in there with luxury items.

I hate. My step dad.
And I hate. My mom. For not doing anything about him.
Because of her, I could have committed suicide. A long time ago. I have every detail planned.
But. I've had someone to keep me around a bit longer... And I love her more than anyone.

School has been stressing me out. Along with my "family".

... So... My life has been officially repeatedly fucked. Over. And over. And over.
I'm out of here as soon as possible.

But. This is the corruption of my life.
I'm at my aunt's house for my Fall "Break". Which, technically, is two days and a weekend. Not a week-long break of goodness, oh no.

Oh yeah. And my tablet's been broken since like. 3 days after I got my internet cut.
So. Yeah. :I

FML.

Don't know if I'll be on for a while.
Lost my cell phone and he's gonna sell my car.

I hate my dad more than anyone ever.

He cut my internet line. Because he's a dick.
Here I am, almost old enough to leave home forever and not have a single word spoken to me about it,
I've been 'internetless' a.k.a. 'grounded' for four years, and I still can't have the freedom I need?

Fucking bullshit.
And now they're in Atlanta, enjoying Dragon Con with my aunt.

So. I guess,
I'll get on whenever possible,
and submit when I can.

Chances are, I'll only be getting on, at most, twice a week.


Life's not fair.

I wanna do something different.
I need a vent.
I need to get all this energy out from being cooped up for so long.

I wanna draw.

I wanna offer 5 slots for colored sketches.
I want them to be. Mm... Five dolla. $5.
They will be simple.
And I love nude. <3

Visual reference only.
Note me if interested.

Feel free to advertise. :D

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Yeh yeh, gettin' close to that thar 3k (that's 3,ooo) pageview kiriban.
Nothing special. :p

However. Catch it, screenshot it, send it to me.
Whoever sends it to me first will get:

- A colored sketch of winner's choice (refined sketch, flat color)


:B Catch it.

Also got a 1k favorites kiriban, offering the same.

So. You guise.

I may have mono, the kissing disease.
It is spread through saliva (most commonly), but also airborne--through coughing and sneezing.
Almost everyone is a carrier for it, and I just happened to get it and its symptoms.

And. A certain someone ( )is being a dickfuck about it.
Go to hell, man.
Thought you weren't even gonna fucking talk to me, so why now, and assume I'm laying out having great sex? 'Cuz I'm fucking not. I've been the most miserable a person could feel, close to dying.
I've sat here, worrying that my throat was gonna get so swollen that my throat would close up.
At night, I've had choking dreams. I would abruptly wake up, gasping for air, coughing even.
I've been dead tired, and the only things I've had enough energy to do is to eat and sleep.

Just go fuck off with Jodie or something, man.
Go be a piss off.
I'm tired of your shit.

So don't fucking tell me I'm acting like a child.
This is real shit.
And I'm scared to death about it.

... I might have to go back to the doctor tomorrow...

Tired as balls. Long ass week.
Finally got majority of homework/projects done at home these past few days.
Been staying up too late to do them.

Glands are swollen, look like they've got white butterflies tattooed on them.
Going to the doctor in the morning, prolly strep.

Fucking tired as balls.

Need to get stuff done on here...
Barely able to go check all my submissions, haven't replied to anything though. Maybe when I feel better....
Sorry guys.... :c

I started on some really awesome full-bodied adoptables. Just gotta color them, then I'll post 'em.
Prolly gonna be a large-ish fle, since I drew them big and then scaled them down...
But. I do have some favorites in there, on in particular, so she's going to be a bit higher priced... I'm really hesitant about selling her. D:

Also. SCHOOL.
Gotta finish an Entrepreneurship project for ECON, ujvgbnqvalsbncadfbhnajdsv by September 1st, which also involves me bringing delicious foods! :D

I also have a Comic project of sorts ( due tomorrow, not gonna be finished, though Dx ), for Lit. Blablabla.
So that's been eating my time.

Also. Yesterday.... I got to see my amazing lover,  sh0tty, who brought us delicious Starbucks!! 8D We watched a couple movies (Paranormal Activity 2 and The Ring 2) with my mom and sister (blah), then went walking afterwards before we had to part ways again.... But perhaps. Every weekend, or every other, I'll get to see her again. <3

As for my WIPs and any other requests or trades, I haven't gotten around to them just yet. After all... I don't get clean requests, so I can't quite get anything done at school. But I've taken an interest in watercolor painting textured backgrounds, and then adhering a cut-out image (such as a cross or a fursona) on top. <3
They come out so amazing. <333

But. That's about it.
Love you guys.

Love you, Rachel. <33 So much. Hope you feel better soon!
Enjoy some soup, then take some meds. Oh. And sleep. c: <33

If I were to make and sell. Full-bodied, maybe full-colored adoptables, chibi or regular,

Would anybody be interested?
Would range like. $2 to $5. :I

Just curious.

Pessimistic

You tend to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person, which for you is simply a realistic outlook. Your feeling is that this world can be a depressing place, and only a fool would think otherwise.
You do not waste your time searching for the silver lining in every cloud, nor do you believe it's your job to cheer up the people around you with happy talk.

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Volatile

You go with the flow when it comes to your emotions. Whether you're happy or sad, you show it, and when something upsets you, or you're feeling stressed out, those around you will know it right away.
You are not necessarily the one person in any group who can be depended on to stay calm, cool, and collected in a crisis; you aren't known for keeping your emotions under wraps.

Creative

You are good at solving problems, coming up with original ideas, and seeing connections between things, connections that most other people miss. People with a high score on the "creative" trait often are employed in such fields as finance and scientific research, and enjoy avant garde and classical music as well as literary fiction and scholarly non-fiction.
You do not shun abstractions and concepts in favor of the concrete and tangible.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Organized

You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.
You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.

Impassioned

You have strong opinions and high standards. When others let you down, you're not opposed to giving them a piece of your mind, even if it sometimes mean hurting their feelings.
You are not necessarily a "live and let live" kind of person. You don't always make allowances for others' incompetence or allow annoyances to wash over you. You don't feel it's your job to make everyone feel relaxed and comfortable regardless of whether they've earned it.

Emotional

You let it all hang out, and those around you always know what you're going through.
You are not isolated from your emotions; no one would call you "cold-blooded," or even "cool as a cucumber."

Rational

You see the world clearly and objectively. You know there's a logical explanation for everything, and a logical solution to every problem; which is why you're such a good problem-solver.
You do not take your sweet time when presented with a new task to complete or problem to solve. You don't avoid assignments that require you to learn new skills.

Abrasive

You are accustomed to rubbing people the wrong way; it's simply what happens when you express your opinions. In your opinion, there's nothing wrong with being controversial.
You don't have a "live and let live" attitude when it comes to other people whose opinions clash with yours; you see no reason to give the benefit of the doubt to someone who is just plain wrong.


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I now feel the need to get a manly looking girl dog. And name her Dave.

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...It's not uncommon.

... Sorry I'm a let down. And inactive.

School. Sucks. Ball(oon)s.
And. The only time I've had time to myself... is none.
I get up at 5am, get on bus at 6:30, get to school at 7, school starts at 8, gets out at 3:15pm, I get home at 4:20, eat, do chores, and sleep until next day just to do it over again.

And on weekends. My dad is supposed to take me driving. But I hate my car. I mean, it's a gorgeous car, but... I hate driving it. I hate driving stickshift.

But. My dad's oh-so proud of my little sister, who just entered middle school, because she joined the Golf team. And my dad's all about golf. So he's all ouigvhfhnuzfnbhjbfnbdxbvoinjwsdfnn about her, so very proud of her, as is my mom, so he's taking her golfing as much as he can, while my little brother and I, just sit at home...

...Nobody's proud of us.

He has ADD, and failed a grade. He has a short attention span, and forgets a lot... My dad thinks he's too feminine. I think he's perfect.

I'm bipolar. I struggle in math, but I've never failed a grade. My parents, mom especially, hate my hair because I have a little bit of color in it. I like girls. A LOT. Mom's not proud at all. My girlfriend got me home an hour later than I was supposed to be... My dad was pissed off to hell, and said I can't go over there to spend the night anymore, etc. He likes her a lot less.
I hate him. Whatever.

My sister. Makes straight A's on everything, and excels in math. She's in chorus and joined the Golf team at school. She's more into science shows, or how it's made, or surgical disorder something or other, parasites, all of those kind of shows. And when I wanna watch a cartoon (which she should be watching), she get's upset and pouty. Everybody's proud of her because of her achievements.


But as for my brother and I... we've been left in the dust.

Sorry to rant. Thought I'd throw out an update I guess.
Sorry, you guys.

Like a soft baby duck on a warm Easter morning,
I love me an aggressive woman topping me in bed.
Lucky for me, I have just the lady.

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Also. School sucks, you guise. I'VE GOTTEN NOTHING DONEEEEEEE EXCEPT TO SLEEEEEEEEEP.

I couldn't be any more proud of myself than I am now.
I'm pleased where I'm sitting in life,
I'm in love with the most amazing girl in the world (my parents aren't so happy),
I'm just. Ready to get out of here.

I'm so happy.
I'm so at peace with myself.


I love you, Rachel. I really do.

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