I thought that my little Angel just got sick and needed some time to get better. She just died a few minutes ago. She never wanted us to be sad. All the time she showed she was feisty and wanted to be with us. She looked tired and had moments as if nothing was wrong. She was such a sweetie. I let her down. I wish I could've done more for her. She was my heart and now she's gone. 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

I didn't knew he was dying until yesterday. A few days before he was a little sweetie, perching on one foot all the time. I thought he was happy. Yesterday he started to lose his balance and wasn't moving right. We did what we could since the vet wouldn't take in birds. He just died around 1:40AM. I loved him soo much. I'm crushed. I feel like a failure. I knew eventually I would lose him but not like this. Poor Angel, she's alone now. I hope I can keep her happy. :(

My dad had a heart attack and is in the hospital. Needed to clear some blockages in his heart and had two stints put in it and they're holding him till they feel he can go. My dad keeps his medical problems secret from me. I had to learn that he has an enlarged artery that goes to his stomach and it could rupture if he does any heavy lifting from my mom. I also found out from my mom that my dad had chest pains for the past few days but that didn't stop him from going out and shoveling for two hours and coming back in and telling my mom to sign stuff in case he dies. We told him he needed to go to the hospital but refused but eventually we got him in and I'm glad we did.

I never was so afraid in my life. We both left our jobs, he retired, and we were going to try something else together. He did all the taxes for me and was in charge of much of the financial side of things here. I didn't know what I would do if something happened to him. I have my brother but I don't know if he'd know how to take care of things. I hope he comes home alright.

Just found out today, Albert Pena passed away in September. He was a friend that always gave me words of encouragement when things looked bleak. I feel bad that I wasn't a good enough friend for him. Never met him in person. I hope he forgives me for not being a good enough friend. :(

Today I came home to hear that Pearl, one of my cockatiels and someone I loved very much had died. I heard her screeching and my mom said she fell off of her perch. She couldn't see at all and she was scared. I held her and said I'd take care of her if she was blind. I didn't know she was dying. What have I done? I promised I'd be there and I couldn't save her. I'm sorry Pearl. :(

On May 16, 2013: My little love bird Buddy, died. I had her on my shoulder and she went behind my back and I asked my mom to go and get her. Buddy went potty on me and then she jumped. I saw her on the ground and went to get a washcloth for my back. My mom followed after me and didn't notice Buddy on the ground. My mom stepped on her. She cried when she realized what had happened as did I. I had her take Buddy to the vet to be sure. Buddy back was broke as well as her neck. I now have to keep an eye on Chewy, who was her mate, to be sure he keeps eating and doesn't die of depression. I feel depressed as well. It's not the same without Buddy and I wish I could've done things differently that day. I hope someday I can be happy again :(