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Tonights Homework sketches [OPEN]
Posted 13 years agoSo i need to practice angles for faces and sketches to better my art and am opening as much spots as i possibly can in my sketch pad! Prices are pay what ever you want but if you would like to get free sketches I please help and share my fa to those wanting art and ill ink the sketch and possibly add color (if I have the right colors for your character). However adding any cash will help pay for extra colors and will get u an additional sketch. thanx again and looking forward being artsy!!!!!!
Great news and meh news
Posted 13 years agoAs far as it goes for MFF I will not be going cause im spending my money on my 20th birthday in November which should be exciting.
Now alot of you fuzzies have been asking when my fursuit will arrive well it wont be, now im told, until the end of the year. Im ok with that cause now i dont have to worry about my parents finding it or anything and it will be a great start for the new year. Reason why? Well she is pregnant and is 3 weeks due for her baby (give or take). the paws, tail and arm sleeves are done but for right now id rather have the full suit shipped then pieces ^^. Back to important events... as far as it goes with my birthday commissions are awesome presents and if i really like it I do tip very well ^^ i love seeing different art from all you guys and i recommend artists on a daily basis even if it means we do art trades xD.
Speaking of art Im going to open for commissions in a couple of weeks as soon as Im comfortable with my new style, as most of you have seen. I will still upload and keep an eye on my twitter for free slots for doodles (i get bored in school have to keep occupied on my off periods)
Otherwise thats my news love you all and have a great day.
Now alot of you fuzzies have been asking when my fursuit will arrive well it wont be, now im told, until the end of the year. Im ok with that cause now i dont have to worry about my parents finding it or anything and it will be a great start for the new year. Reason why? Well she is pregnant and is 3 weeks due for her baby (give or take). the paws, tail and arm sleeves are done but for right now id rather have the full suit shipped then pieces ^^. Back to important events... as far as it goes with my birthday commissions are awesome presents and if i really like it I do tip very well ^^ i love seeing different art from all you guys and i recommend artists on a daily basis even if it means we do art trades xD.
Speaking of art Im going to open for commissions in a couple of weeks as soon as Im comfortable with my new style, as most of you have seen. I will still upload and keep an eye on my twitter for free slots for doodles (i get bored in school have to keep occupied on my off periods)
Otherwise thats my news love you all and have a great day.
Planning Ahead (MFF)
Posted 13 years agoOk I want to try to hit MFF THIS year and I have money Im already saving up for it by then I should have at least $400-500 saved I just needed to ask anyone who is going to MFF if you were driving If I could tag along Im willing to pay gas ($100 in gas and maybe some snacks x3 ) as well needing a room there I can pay my part on the spot by november and it would be a great way to show my fursuit and get into the dance comp. as well a great late birthday present for myself. if any are in need of another roomie for MFF or if any are willing to pick me up i am willing to pay thanx ^W^
Thus I have a decision on my hands time to think outloud
Posted 13 years agoOk so basically im bk in high school cause they messed up on my credits, ill be done within a month or so! But while in this little epidemic I've been thinking... I've decided that, after graduation, Ill be moving back to CO Springs or moving to Boulder. I can find a decent job in both cities and all that jazz. Ill make it to the Fritz meet every month, Aurora Furs will b every 2 weeks. With other things, its been spinning badly, being single for 5-6 months did impact me, i did focus on some things and didn't focus too much on a relationship until I was ready, sometimes things don't go as thought. Idk about another relationship but either way I'm waiting. My fursuit will be coming in around the mid to end of next month, Ive gotten some updated pics of my fursuit and its great looking so far. Also this week a great fur friend WingDog gave me a 13ft Disney Bolt Poster and it is amazing!!!!! With everything else...such as where i am now... im in aurora...back at my parents...only for the remainder of this "school year" and there are already problems, my dad is one of the biggest, not going to get into any details, but he has been harrassing my little bro and me and other things. It involved me tackling him... with how this all is im definatly going to have to make sure my fursuit is protected! Other then that, this is all my decision.
With moving as well I've also considedered moving out of state but im just thinking out loud, err, typing outloud i guess... but maybe its a good thing, maybe not. But its all about things happening for a reason... meh... ill figure things out officially by howl, which I cant wait for.
love you guys <3
With moving as well I've also considedered moving out of state but im just thinking out loud, err, typing outloud i guess... but maybe its a good thing, maybe not. But its all about things happening for a reason... meh... ill figure things out officially by howl, which I cant wait for.
love you guys <3
Let it begin!!
Posted 13 years agoWell now Im about fully upload all my mixes and such to FA and Soundcloud, since I have practiced enough with my turntable to do it.
The first mix ill upload is my Reptile/ Bangarang mix (premiered at RMFC 2012 at the suite parties and one of the events I held)
The others are to be continued otherwise enjoy
The first mix ill upload is my Reptile/ Bangarang mix (premiered at RMFC 2012 at the suite parties and one of the events I held)
The others are to be continued otherwise enjoy
RMFC REVIEW
Posted 13 years agoAfter a great Con it is time for the review and the top memories.
Well ^W^
The last 3 days of RMFC I stayed with Hazy, JJ, Amaya and Fang in room 405 at the double tree hotel. To my surprise I have a total of 13 badges ranging from Idess to DeathJungle and more. I DJed 4 suite parties even JWolfsky's which was a great honor to. I danced my tail off at the con every night!!! I spent all my check on lots of things but I believe my greatest possession is the bolt sketch hazy got me!!! I went to lots of parties and still had a great time (with lots of hookah) Lakota introduced me to a great fursuiter Mylo, she is really cool and has a great suit! Since last RMFC and this year, I know an increased amount of furries and Im glad to meet and know them all! Though my suit still hasnt come in I will get it maybe in september! I held a panel at RMFC called The Furry Corner aka Paws Cast for our REVAMP!!!! Its coming back. Met all my favorite fursuiters sadly Digby wasnt there :(. FOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!! I will have a suit and in the running to be a judge for the fursuit dance comp. I will DJ next years dance. As to add on hung with Gina and all the others at Buffalo Wild Wings and at the con which was great. All the suiters were amazing I love and miss you all and cant wait until next year.
Well ^W^
The last 3 days of RMFC I stayed with Hazy, JJ, Amaya and Fang in room 405 at the double tree hotel. To my surprise I have a total of 13 badges ranging from Idess to DeathJungle and more. I DJed 4 suite parties even JWolfsky's which was a great honor to. I danced my tail off at the con every night!!! I spent all my check on lots of things but I believe my greatest possession is the bolt sketch hazy got me!!! I went to lots of parties and still had a great time (with lots of hookah) Lakota introduced me to a great fursuiter Mylo, she is really cool and has a great suit! Since last RMFC and this year, I know an increased amount of furries and Im glad to meet and know them all! Though my suit still hasnt come in I will get it maybe in september! I held a panel at RMFC called The Furry Corner aka Paws Cast for our REVAMP!!!! Its coming back. Met all my favorite fursuiters sadly Digby wasnt there :(. FOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!! I will have a suit and in the running to be a judge for the fursuit dance comp. I will DJ next years dance. As to add on hung with Gina and all the others at Buffalo Wild Wings and at the con which was great. All the suiters were amazing I love and miss you all and cant wait until next year.
Let the con begin
Posted 13 years agoIm already at the con so if any wants to hang I'm at room 405 hehe or just around the con
TMI Tuesday (I guess Ill give it a try)
Posted 13 years agoOk so i guess Ill answer some questions whether X rated or general so lay them on me lol. I've never done this before and wanna hear all the questions in ur fuzzeh little heads x3
TMI Tuesday (I guess Ill give it a try)
Posted 13 years agoOk so i guess Ill answer some questions whether X rated or general so lay them on me lol. I've never done this before and wanna hear all the questions in ur fuzzeh little heads x3
RMFC MEME!!
Posted 13 years agoStole this from 
Q: Where are you staying?
A : The Double Tree Hotel of course (will update room # later on)
Q: When will you be arriving and leaving?
A: Early thursday (if opens early) or early friday and leaving at the total end of the con!
Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A: Ill be rooming with
and her mate 
and some others x3
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: I will be moreorless in dealers den or chatting with furries, taking pics, or sketching about ^W^
Q: What/where will you be eating?
A: Whatever I crave really but idk
Q: Will you be having a room party?
A: Maybe, but might go to others
Q: Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
A: MAAAYYBBEEE >.>
Q: What is your gender?
A: Male
Q: Are you single?
A: ATM I am currently in a dating part of the relationship before it gets anywhere else so no i am not single.
Q: How old are you?
A: Iz 19
Q: How tall are you?
A: 6 foot 5 inches (IMMA TALL WOLF)
Q: If I approach you, will you chat with me?
A: Don't be shy just say HI! I love to chat.
Q: If I see you, how should I get your attention?
A: Just yell my name Alpha or come up and hug me and stuff to chat.
Q: How many furry conventions have you attended?
A: this is my second one next is CMF (maybe), MFF, FC and AC
Q: Do you own a fursuit?
A: I do (technically) but its still in progress with Adorable Foxie
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: you can give hugs but snuggling are for furs I know sorry :/
Q: How can I find you?
A: At my room or in the hallways lurking x3. naaa just in the halls drawing or at events or where ever, this wolf is a ninja
Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A: mikes is my weakness so is jack berry blast
Q: Can I look in your sketchbook?
A: Of course you can ^W^
Q: Can I draw in your sketchbook?
A: No reason why not, let your imagination wonder
Q: Can I take your picture?
A: Of course you can.
Q: If you:
-creep (stalkerish)
-yiffy as hell
-UBER CLINGY
-have extreme B.O
Please don't approach me
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I lvoe to talk, lets get a chat on.
Q: Can I ask you to dance?
A: I am a sponsored breakdancer, great shuffler and such so of course
Q: Do you do do free art, trades, commissions, badges?
A: Yes I do arts so feel free to ask.
Q: Where are you staying?
A : The Double Tree Hotel of course (will update room # later on)
Q: When will you be arriving and leaving?
A: Early thursday (if opens early) or early friday and leaving at the total end of the con!
Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A: Ill be rooming with
and her mate 
and some others x3Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: I will be moreorless in dealers den or chatting with furries, taking pics, or sketching about ^W^
Q: What/where will you be eating?
A: Whatever I crave really but idk
Q: Will you be having a room party?
A: Maybe, but might go to others
Q: Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
A: MAAAYYBBEEE >.>
Q: What is your gender?
A: Male
Q: Are you single?
A: ATM I am currently in a dating part of the relationship before it gets anywhere else so no i am not single.
Q: How old are you?
A: Iz 19
Q: How tall are you?
A: 6 foot 5 inches (IMMA TALL WOLF)
Q: If I approach you, will you chat with me?
A: Don't be shy just say HI! I love to chat.
Q: If I see you, how should I get your attention?
A: Just yell my name Alpha or come up and hug me and stuff to chat.
Q: How many furry conventions have you attended?
A: this is my second one next is CMF (maybe), MFF, FC and AC
Q: Do you own a fursuit?
A: I do (technically) but its still in progress with Adorable Foxie
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: you can give hugs but snuggling are for furs I know sorry :/
Q: How can I find you?
A: At my room or in the hallways lurking x3. naaa just in the halls drawing or at events or where ever, this wolf is a ninja
Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A: mikes is my weakness so is jack berry blast
Q: Can I look in your sketchbook?
A: Of course you can ^W^
Q: Can I draw in your sketchbook?
A: No reason why not, let your imagination wonder
Q: Can I take your picture?
A: Of course you can.
Q: If you:
-creep (stalkerish)
-yiffy as hell
-UBER CLINGY
-have extreme B.O
Please don't approach me
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I lvoe to talk, lets get a chat on.
Q: Can I ask you to dance?
A: I am a sponsored breakdancer, great shuffler and such so of course
Q: Do you do do free art, trades, commissions, badges?
A: Yes I do arts so feel free to ask.
ONE SERIOUSLY D*CK MOVE!!!!!!
Posted 13 years agoOver the past days over this aurora shooting my hearts go out to all of u deeply! And honestly the reason for the title is due to the fact that I was lied to and Jessica peterson is still alive she was in on this disgusting lie with her boyfriend and tried get attention towards this horried and saddening event and I was the target based off the fact that I knew some people. I cried over her and my prayers went out to her but finding this out today and investigating whether or not she was still alive cause there were no names of her in the paper, internet, etc. I am appauled and am ashamed to have gotten some of u in this. Seeing as I went to the hospital for her she only had cuts on her and everything and gary lied about saying she got shot and made me worry even more. Yesturday he texted me that she died and now I feel very dirty and just seriously they are not going to be in my lives ever again, seriously! WHO IS THAT DARK AND EVIL TO LIE ABOUT THIS AND HAVE A WORRIED FRIEND POST FOR PRAYERS AND REGUARDS AND BE A REBOUND FOR THE WORST!!! once again there are sincere apologies to be made and he will give a letter to me, both of them and i will post it on fa and everywhere. THEY WILL PAY AND WILL REAP WHAT THEY SOW!!! I just cant believe they would do such a thing and using me to grab u guys was so wrong. Im pissed to all high hell and never will look upon them again.
once again my prayers and condoliences are out to all who were in this tradgic event :( I feel dirty about this know there are some evil people put there that want attention, even for the worst of things :(
once again my prayers and condoliences are out to all who were in this tradgic event :( I feel dirty about this know there are some evil people put there that want attention, even for the worst of things :(
RMFC PRE ORDER BADGES ARE IN [CLOSED!!!!]
Posted 13 years agoIm opening for rmfc pre order badges
Badges prices are cut for the con to $15 for a large badge with is a good deal hehehe
note me or comment if interested only have a small amount of slots available
1.
tidushuskey (Paid)-%70 done
2.Scottie Lab (Paid)- %50 done
3.Mellow Jerry Fox ({Paid)- %50 done
4.
lokoino (unpaid)- Havent started
5.
starlet )(unpaid)- Havent started
6.
phantasmic(paid)- %40 done
7.Azzy (paid) Sketching
Hurry in
Badges prices are cut for the con to $15 for a large badge with is a good deal hehehe
note me or comment if interested only have a small amount of slots available
1.
tidushuskey (Paid)-%70 done2.Scottie Lab (Paid)- %50 done
3.Mellow Jerry Fox ({Paid)- %50 done
4.
lokoino (unpaid)- Havent started5.
starlet )(unpaid)- Havent started6.
phantasmic(paid)- %40 done7.Azzy (paid) Sketching
Hurry in
A new single
Posted 13 years agoReleasing a new single with some featured artists in it and a new face in the hip hop industry release will be tomorrow
Alpha Update #4
Posted 13 years agountil I realize I havent quite been up to date on my updates, its been pretty hectic this week. For a jist of things my mother pushed me to the point I blacked out in rage, like some of us do out of anger. However for this I woke up with my fist in the wall and I was shocked to see that cause I NEVER did that before. Reason? Well same old same old, "Furries are this and that" "You guys are so blaaa" But now officially I cant stand it anymore at that house and moved in with my furry sister May.
I do pay rent now that i officially work at coors field (Denver Baseball Stadium) as a stand worker and cashier. The pay is fairly decent for a first job though the hours I get off are horrible, as in I get off average 9pm or 10pm depending on the game or how busy things are. I usually take light rail to nine mile and walk the rest of the way since no buses run after midnight in my area, I dont get home until 2am lololol.
Otherwise its great and I love it. And based on the fact most of ya furries saw me at the 2012 Pride Fest Im not going to St. Louis for family issues and Im not going ot be coped up in a car for 16 hours dealing with my moms BS. I love her to death but sometimes...
Other than that this week was great ^W^
As for commission status
Most furs commissions are done and yet to upload them as soon as my ipad is off the charger.
I do pay rent now that i officially work at coors field (Denver Baseball Stadium) as a stand worker and cashier. The pay is fairly decent for a first job though the hours I get off are horrible, as in I get off average 9pm or 10pm depending on the game or how busy things are. I usually take light rail to nine mile and walk the rest of the way since no buses run after midnight in my area, I dont get home until 2am lololol.
Otherwise its great and I love it. And based on the fact most of ya furries saw me at the 2012 Pride Fest Im not going to St. Louis for family issues and Im not going ot be coped up in a car for 16 hours dealing with my moms BS. I love her to death but sometimes...
Other than that this week was great ^W^
As for commission status
Most furs commissions are done and yet to upload them as soon as my ipad is off the charger.
Alpha Update #3
Posted 13 years agoSoooo sorry for the delay wifi issues occured.
SO for the jist of it, me and my dad got into it...again yesturday... he pushed me into the banister, thank goodness i caught myself. However, my big bro stood up for me and helped me out.
For the trip it WILL be to St. Louis, MO (June 15th-20th will be back on the 21st)
As of TODAY my art is on hiatus EXCEPT for the commissions im working on for:
Hazy- Art Trade
Kiara- Ref
Lyron- Ref
Jet- Ref
Orlando- Art Gift
Dingaroo - Art Gift
have a handfull!!!!!
And today applied for coors field in downtown denver, 30 minutes later get a call for an interview tomorrow in mid afternoon!! (Thanx
xx_nightstar_xx Wish me luck
As well had a great time at Phantasmic Birthday party and 
trotter_buckskin great food and stuff!!! Wouldnt of happened if i didnt got a ride from 
xXxAngelusMortisxXx UR THE BEST.
_____________________
Last Week
for an overview went to Elitches Garten with May, Kiara, Lyron and Kythar and had a great time celebrating Kiara's b-day.
Plus
Finally went back to the aurora furs meets and glad to be back its been tooo long >:(
otherwise my mood for the day--> AMAZingly excited
thanx and Alpha wuvs u all
SO for the jist of it, me and my dad got into it...again yesturday... he pushed me into the banister, thank goodness i caught myself. However, my big bro stood up for me and helped me out.
For the trip it WILL be to St. Louis, MO (June 15th-20th will be back on the 21st)
As of TODAY my art is on hiatus EXCEPT for the commissions im working on for:
Hazy- Art Trade
Kiara- Ref
Lyron- Ref
Jet- Ref
Orlando- Art Gift
Dingaroo - Art Gift
have a handfull!!!!!
And today applied for coors field in downtown denver, 30 minutes later get a call for an interview tomorrow in mid afternoon!! (Thanx
xx_nightstar_xx Wish me luckAs well had a great time at
Phantasmic Birthday party and 
trotter_buckskin great food and stuff!!! Wouldnt of happened if i didnt got a ride from 
xXxAngelusMortisxXx UR THE BEST._____________________
Last Week
for an overview went to Elitches Garten with May, Kiara, Lyron and Kythar and had a great time celebrating Kiara's b-day.
Plus
Finally went back to the aurora furs meets and glad to be back its been tooo long >:(
otherwise my mood for the day--> AMAZingly excited
thanx and Alpha wuvs u all
Alpha Update 2.5 wait wut?.?
Posted 13 years agoKk so here it is
I'll be up in Denver for a month for some good news, my mom talked to the school I have 1.25 credits left and willing to do summer school so that said ill be graduated by July. For the first time my mom took my side so props. In advanced in 2 weeks my art will be on hiatus so get ur commissions in ASAP and for those who bought some already, I am working on them and will upload them hiatus or not.
I will make it to the aurora fur meets a bit more often and stuff.
With travel turns out we are going to st. Louis instead of Spokane wa. Same date still (June 15th) otherwise hope to see you all soon alpha wuvs u all
I'll be up in Denver for a month for some good news, my mom talked to the school I have 1.25 credits left and willing to do summer school so that said ill be graduated by July. For the first time my mom took my side so props. In advanced in 2 weeks my art will be on hiatus so get ur commissions in ASAP and for those who bought some already, I am working on them and will upload them hiatus or not.
I will make it to the aurora fur meets a bit more often and stuff.
With travel turns out we are going to st. Louis instead of Spokane wa. Same date still (June 15th) otherwise hope to see you all soon alpha wuvs u all
Alpha Update #2
Posted 13 years agoHello Everyfur
Overall
Well this week was pretty much a doozie... some time ago (like 4-5 days ago) I ended up bailing (having an accident) on my skateboard at the skatepark. Some of you may be wondering y I havent been texting you...well take the thought that im not texting you cause i hate you out ur head X3. Its cause i broke my phone in the accident and scraped my hand up very bad. I will be texting today (technically today since im doing this at like 2 in the morning, stupid insomnia >:( )
Traveling
Next, based of the fact of my father >.>... I will be headed up to Spokane, WA on --->JUNE 15th<--- ill be back in a week or so.
Activities
This summer I plan to get a breakdance team together (ranging 4 to 5) it will be all furry. If you do not know how to breakdance and want to join I will give 1 on 1 deminstrations on basics to expert. Note me if you are interested.
Im also putting together a rap team (furry rap team like "Bad meets Evil" if any are interested note me and no its not the stereotypical rap its the positive, motivating rap. (average 2 furries).
More Updates
Overall things have been good...Im glad you all are here and I wuv you *hugs* I will try by best to make it down to more meets but in the mean time its still the Fritz meet and the every 2 weeks Aurora Furs Meet, and the CS Fur meets.
Anything else b4 u pass out?
I LOVE YOU ALL and MISS YOU ALL VERy MUCH!!!!! *huggles*
And working on some new music keep updated!!!
Overall
Well this week was pretty much a doozie... some time ago (like 4-5 days ago) I ended up bailing (having an accident) on my skateboard at the skatepark. Some of you may be wondering y I havent been texting you...well take the thought that im not texting you cause i hate you out ur head X3. Its cause i broke my phone in the accident and scraped my hand up very bad. I will be texting today (technically today since im doing this at like 2 in the morning, stupid insomnia >:( )
Traveling
Next, based of the fact of my father >.>... I will be headed up to Spokane, WA on --->JUNE 15th<--- ill be back in a week or so.
Activities
This summer I plan to get a breakdance team together (ranging 4 to 5) it will be all furry. If you do not know how to breakdance and want to join I will give 1 on 1 deminstrations on basics to expert. Note me if you are interested.
Im also putting together a rap team (furry rap team like "Bad meets Evil" if any are interested note me and no its not the stereotypical rap its the positive, motivating rap. (average 2 furries).
More Updates
Overall things have been good...Im glad you all are here and I wuv you *hugs* I will try by best to make it down to more meets but in the mean time its still the Fritz meet and the every 2 weeks Aurora Furs Meet, and the CS Fur meets.
Anything else b4 u pass out?
I LOVE YOU ALL and MISS YOU ALL VERy MUCH!!!!! *huggles*
And working on some new music keep updated!!!
Commission Prices
Posted 13 years agoFull page badges (special edition)- $25
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7973213/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7973241/
Regular bages - $16
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7962264/
Sketches- $5
Icons- $7
Lined art- $8
Flats- $10
Refs- $30
Heads - $13
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7875253/
Waist up- $15
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7883529/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7857964/
Full page commissions -$30
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7909513/
For any extra characters is $3 per character added.
Will NOT do
Scat, hard vore, fat fur, rape,
Will do any other than that
Payment is by PayPal at alphazetsju[at]yahoo.com
(Colorado furs can pay cash and get a $5 discount on commissions over $15)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7973213/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7973241/
Regular bages - $16
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7962264/
Sketches- $5
Icons- $7
Lined art- $8
Flats- $10
Refs- $30
Heads - $13
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7875253/
Waist up- $15
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7883529/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7857964/
Full page commissions -$30
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7909513/
For any extra characters is $3 per character added.
Will NOT do
Scat, hard vore, fat fur, rape,
Will do any other than that
Payment is by PayPal at alphazetsju[at]yahoo.com
(Colorado furs can pay cash and get a $5 discount on commissions over $15)
Alpha Update #1
Posted 13 years agoWell...
Its been great to move to the springs and finally start over, however, for the past 2 weeks I have been under immense stress and depression. All in a nutshell? The stress is 15% regular everyday stress 15% from school 70% from my dad. Why my dad? Well a couple of weeks ago he decided to text me 9 texts in a row about how much of a failure I am, wished I was never born and shuned me from the family, sure I took it hard, talked to some friends. If he feels that way about me then let it be. I shouldnt take anything like that to heart especially from a father who apparently says he doesnt love me. Tied with it my hair has been falling out in handfulls, not the summer sheding affecting it. As well sleep deprived nights in which my insomnia got really bad and nightmares started to return. As well as with my music and rapping, need to work more, especially from the trolling incident last week.
Now to the depression...I'm not talking the drama, whoa-its-me kind its more-or-less the fact my school contacted me... Im not graduating this year, from high school due to the fact its out of range. ITs a online class how in the living fuck is that possible. Graduation is this monday or tuesday so who all has my cell phone number, please keep me company so I dont think about it.
OTHERWISE---
Its been great so far, increased more time to skate at Memorial Park, LOOKING FOR MORE SKATING FURS IN COLORADO!! ANd my art as increased 10000% as many of you noticed, thanx for believing in me ^//^" I will try to make it to as many meets as possible. Fritz meets I will go to on his monthly basis, the aurora meets I will try for every 2 weeks otherwise this has been Alpha update week 1 thanx. <3 <3
Its been great to move to the springs and finally start over, however, for the past 2 weeks I have been under immense stress and depression. All in a nutshell? The stress is 15% regular everyday stress 15% from school 70% from my dad. Why my dad? Well a couple of weeks ago he decided to text me 9 texts in a row about how much of a failure I am, wished I was never born and shuned me from the family, sure I took it hard, talked to some friends. If he feels that way about me then let it be. I shouldnt take anything like that to heart especially from a father who apparently says he doesnt love me. Tied with it my hair has been falling out in handfulls, not the summer sheding affecting it. As well sleep deprived nights in which my insomnia got really bad and nightmares started to return. As well as with my music and rapping, need to work more, especially from the trolling incident last week.
Now to the depression...I'm not talking the drama, whoa-its-me kind its more-or-less the fact my school contacted me... Im not graduating this year, from high school due to the fact its out of range. ITs a online class how in the living fuck is that possible. Graduation is this monday or tuesday so who all has my cell phone number, please keep me company so I dont think about it.
OTHERWISE---
Its been great so far, increased more time to skate at Memorial Park, LOOKING FOR MORE SKATING FURS IN COLORADO!! ANd my art as increased 10000% as many of you noticed, thanx for believing in me ^//^" I will try to make it to as many meets as possible. Fritz meets I will go to on his monthly basis, the aurora meets I will try for every 2 weeks otherwise this has been Alpha update week 1 thanx. <3 <3
New arts type completed
Posted 13 years agoI am now officially considering myself a toon artist I am working on digital art on my iPad and it is very very good so far I am willing to open 3 slots to free commissions right now and will upload them ASAP
In order to get in the slot please spread the word about my page for more furs who want commissions due to financial issues holding me down (link ur comment)
Prices are now:
$20 for badges (digital)
$18 for badges (traditional)
$27 for full page commissions (digital or traditional)
$30 for ref sheets (digital or traditional)
Thank all for believing in me
Free slots
1.
k-wolf (done)
2.
paws_fox1 (25% done)
3.
greywolf80s (done)
In order to get in the slot please spread the word about my page for more furs who want commissions due to financial issues holding me down (link ur comment)
Prices are now:
$20 for badges (digital)
$18 for badges (traditional)
$27 for full page commissions (digital or traditional)
$30 for ref sheets (digital or traditional)
Thank all for believing in me
Free slots
1.
k-wolf (done)2.
paws_fox1 (25% done)3.
greywolf80s (done)Happy b-day chris
Posted 13 years agoThis is to you chris for all the times u were there.
that I miss u everyday and love u so much.
You turned 26 today congrats buddeh but i wish it lasted more.
That I'll be there for you and u waiting for me.
remember the chocolate I gave u and I sung I'll be there by the Jackson 5 for ur b-day present when i was in middle school?
Good times
Mellow Jerry was there and glomped u and kissed ya in front of everyone x3 how shrud lol x3
Chris I miss you and wish your stay was longer but the stay was void by a drunk driver.
<3 <3 u And you made this alpha who he is today.
I love you Chris and Happy
R.I.P. Chris 2011
that I miss u everyday and love u so much.
You turned 26 today congrats buddeh but i wish it lasted more.
That I'll be there for you and u waiting for me.
remember the chocolate I gave u and I sung I'll be there by the Jackson 5 for ur b-day present when i was in middle school?
Good times
Mellow Jerry was there and glomped u and kissed ya in front of everyone x3 how shrud lol x3
Chris I miss you and wish your stay was longer but the stay was void by a drunk driver.
<3 <3 u And you made this alpha who he is today.
I love you Chris and Happy
R.I.P. Chris 2011
The next fur meet
Posted 13 years agoDue to the troubles of gas this months meetup is canceled but May26th at 8:00pm at Leelas European Cafe our furry friendly place. Once again sorry for the sudden notice and hope to c u all soon. *wolfeh huggles*
Truths revealed
Posted 13 years agoIn all I feel I feel u should have been there for me more.
I feel that you should have loved me. Ore instead of the stereotype "middle child" u held me as.
I feel that you should have shown the "role model" I saw u to be when I was younger.
I feel you should have apologized to me fom past emotional pain u...
I feel lost
I feel that you neglect me.
I feel pain from you.
I feel abstinence from you.
I feel adolescence from you.
I feel all this unsettleness and undesirably hurtful emotions from you.
Why were u there for my sister, little brother and oldest but always saw me 2nd best.
Why is it you see me as a punching bag and not as your own son.
I am your son.
I love you dad, your my father, but how could you turn your face?
I feel that you should have loved me. Ore instead of the stereotype "middle child" u held me as.
I feel that you should have shown the "role model" I saw u to be when I was younger.
I feel you should have apologized to me fom past emotional pain u...
I feel lost
I feel that you neglect me.
I feel pain from you.
I feel abstinence from you.
I feel adolescence from you.
I feel all this unsettleness and undesirably hurtful emotions from you.
Why were u there for my sister, little brother and oldest but always saw me 2nd best.
Why is it you see me as a punching bag and not as your own son.
I am your son.
I love you dad, your my father, but how could you turn your face?
Free art raffle from a awesome friend
Posted 13 years agoHey all there is a free raffle going on for this amazing artist
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3351753/
Chk it out
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3351753/
Chk it out
To all furs I know
Posted 13 years agoWell yesterday I moved to Colorado Springs an will b living up here it will b a bit harder to get to aurora fur meets or anything but it's better out here for me and everything. I will be working at Dairy Queen and all that but otherwise the meets I host will still be monthly the next meet for Leela will be the 28th of this month. Otherwise Denver/Aurora furs I shall c u guys around Alpha wuvs u all <3 <3
