Well, what can I say? It has been TOO long. I will not go into all the details, but life has not dealt the old dorgit a great hand. Heart, mind...went ka-pootz. Then, when all got better, drawing pad go BOOM. Well, got all in order and ready to creep back, tail between legs, with new pad, lap top and hopefully new attitude. I MISSED YOU ALL! Bear with me for now. My art will most likely suck, but I hope it will all come back.

Yer Bud
Borni

Hello all. Yes...it has been a while since last anyone heard from me. You would think that after getting my health back on track things would be better...but now I find myself in a black funk. I don't know why I am feeling so down. I can't seem to get interested in anything of late. Perhaps it is the changing seasons...perhaps the past problems jump started my bi-polar...I don't know. I won't be going to AC or Morphicon this year. Maybe I just need to step back, take a deep breath and figure out where I need to go from here. I feel...lost...somehow...

Yer Bud
Borni

Hello all! Well, I know it has been a while since I have been around, and I am sure that many of you already know why. But for those of you who have not heard, here is why.

In October of last year, I was diagnosed with tuberculosis. I went from 165 lbs to 130 in less than a month. I was on medication for 6 months, and one of the medications seems to have caused nerve damage in my back. Well, I went to my spinal doctor to see if there might be something wrong, but the PET scan showed there was nothing out of the ordinary with the spine--however, the scan showed an anomaly in my digestive tract. Before they could get this checked, I wound up with thrush (an infection of the upper GI tract) and it was so severe that I had to have an endoscopy to have my throat stretched open. I couldn't even swallow saliva. After this, they checked out the anomaly in my intestine and discovered I had a rather large growth. I underwent surgery on the 14 of July, and it was confirmed it was cancer. The good news is, the doctor was able to get all of it, and recent tests seem to confirm that I am cancer free! I will have to have regular tests every three months, and I am hopeful that they, too, will come back negative.

So, there you have it. I am back, but getting back into my art is still somewhat of a struggle for now. I still get tired easily. I am still having problems with very low platelet counts, so have to watch that I don't injure myself until I get the counts back up to normal. I will most likely be put on a different cocktail for my HIV, because they think this could be the reason for the low counts.

Well, I guess that is everything for now. I am doing well and hopw to start drawing again soon. I am looking through my art on this site to see if perhaps there may be somethings I haven't posted.

Take care my friends and it is good to be back :) I hope to have something new to show you soon.

Love
Yer Dorgit Bud
Borni

This is something I came over on YouTube that I thought was so cute! Hope you like it!

Love
Yer Dorgit
Borni

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8M7Ju4SRECw

Well, the results are in and I DO have contagious tuberculosis >.< I had to spend 6 days in the hospital in isolation, which was a nightmare for this free roaming dorgit. It is a time in my life that I do not want to recall. To be shunned and surrounded by people in masks and space suit like outfits, treated like something less than human is something I hope none of you have to ever endure. On my fifth day, I melted down and my poor mate had to witness me in the absolute depths of despair. It looked like I would be in the hospital, isolated, for a long, long time. But then a very kind lady from the Health department, my doctors at the clinic and many of the nurses got together and convinced the hospital's paranoid administers and their toady of a staff doctor that I didn't need to be confined to the hospital, that I could be sent home as long as I wore a mask and didn't go out in public. The hospital was afraid that I would compromise their insurance, that I would be foolish enough to go about my life as if nothing were wrong with me and endanger others around me. I was hurt and angered by their distrust of me. I won't go into the details of the events that followed, but I am home and doing well, though now, along with the HIV meds that I am on, I am presently taking 20 different meds >.<! Needless to say, I am not feeling too great just due to all the chemicals in me. I am tired and sick to my stomach most of the time, and will be on these meds for at least a year *sigh* On a very positive note, my mate of 19 years tested negative! Apparently, he has some sore of immunity to the strain that I carry. I am gaining weight, and my appetite has returned as well. It will take time, but I will get better, and if all goes well, in a couple of weeks I will no longer be contagious and able to get back to my life as normal. Well, that's it in a nutshell, loves. Tuberculosis is a serious disease, but curable, and better than cancer! For that, I am TRULY thankful! Take care all and I hope to be back to my art when I have gotten used to all these new drugs.

LOVE YOU ALL
Yer Dorgit Bud
Borni

Hello all. Well, first let me say that I am sorry to have been gone so long and that I have not replied to many of the posting. You see, I have been having back troubles again--numbness, pain, tingling in the hands and arms. I had a CT scan on Wednesday, and got the results today. It appears that where I had had a previous surgery, there has developed a pinched nerve, and there isn't a lot that they can do about it. I have been on muscle relaxers and a pain pill, and that helps, somewhat. But that wasn't the end of it. I wish there were an easier way to put this, but the Cat scan also revealed a large lesion on my right lung. I knew something had to up when my doctor called me herself today. I am scheduled for a PET scan this coming Tuesday morning at 7 AM and then I will be seeing a lung specialist at 3 PM that same afternoon. I am not going to let myself get upset. I am sure that it will be benign. I will let you all know as soon as I hear something a bit more concrete. Please say a prayer for yer dorgit. God and Goddess bless and I will write more soon.

Love
Yer Dorgit
Borni

Hey gang! Well, I am back from the AnthroCon, and it was the best yet. I didn't do a lot of art this time. I spent my time running around with my fur-iends and just taking it easy. I did do some art for the Art Show, and they all sold, but I wasn't there for the money--I was there for the fun. When we got there, there was a protest group across the street from the Westin: four pathetic souls wearing afro wigs and holding signs that read "Burn in Hell Furfags!" They were so laughable, yet sad. I mean, they threw a protest and no one else came ;))) They only lingered for a few hours. I think they ran off because instead of intimidating or angering anyone, they only achieved getting the con goers more fired up. Several of the con goers even went over and took pictures of them as if they were one of the attractions. *GIGGLES* When I looked out my hotel room window and saw that they were gone, I felt rather sad. It was like having a pet run away (not really).

My room mates were my mate, Colin Fox and my werewolfie, Lunarwolf. We got along fantastically! There was no drama, no tension. The fursuit parade was AWESOME! There were, I think, 353 fursuiters this year, and the last I had heard we had over 2800 attendees. But yet, it didn't feel very crowded.

The highlight of the whole con was when a group of us went to a small bar called Crystal and did Karaoke. The furs that sang were fantastic, and they told us that we HAVE to come back next year--and we will ;)

Well, now that I am back, I have decided to take the plunge and learn how to paint. I have two friends here in town that do acrylic painting and both have told me that they will help me. It has been YEARS since I actually painted (a landscape and a portrait of Gandalf), so I know it will take some time to get back into it. But I think that is what I need--a change of medium to get myself fired up again.

My health held out well at the con, though I did feel tired from time to time and had a bit of elevated blood pressure, but that is to be expected with all the running around and the like. I was debating whether I would go, not sure if I could keep up, but I did, and am so glad that I did go! I can't wait to go next year! It will be my 7th!

Well, I had better go for now. Thank you all for hanging in there for me ;) I hope to be more active now, as long as the weather doesn't get really hot--dorgit no like hot humid weather! Anyhoo, take care all and I hope to have something to post in time.

Love
Yer Dorgit Always
Borni

Well, here I am, in a new world. This is so much different than what I am used to. I like it. It will take some time to get used to all the functions, and I am not sure if I am doing this journal thing right, but it is interesting to have so many things to do. Who knows? Maybe I will use this as my dream diary...though I must warn that my dreams are a bit peculiar at times.

Well, it is after 3:30 in the AM and I need to go sit on the front porch with the "pride" and unwind with a beer. Will write more later.

Borni