Exciting, I can finally update my FA to be the same as all of my other socials! I left "Borxoii" behind for a lot of reasons. It's a past version of myself that has since changed into something completely new, it almost feels like a deadname in a way. I strongly believe all websites should allow @ changes for free to all members, even if it's only like once every 6 months or something. So in that sense, it is kind of sad that I can't fully change my @, but I'm still more than happy to be able to have a different display name. Now all my socials match!

Hey yall, I've really gone on a journey of self-discovery and acceptance over the last few years. I've also spent a significant amount of time offline, interacting with real life furry spaces, making friends, etc. I'm really looking forward to FWA and AC this year (this will be my very first FWA!)

I've also been getting more involved in real life kink events with my primary partner! Fun!!!!! I'm really looking forward to attending more AD panels and events at FWA this year.
HENCEFORTH, this journal is meant to provide a content warning for the kind of art that I've already been making and will continue to make going forward!

Content Warning: leather gear, BDSM, transformation, vore, teratophilia & horror themed kink, pooltoys, macro/micro, pup hoods & petplay, egg stuff, discussions about soft/murrsuiting, potentially other kink themes.
I'm generally very 'pro kink' (needless to say, kids and animals cannot consent, so don't make any bad faith assumptions here. Kink is safe, sane, and consensual)
That being said, if fetish art bothers you, you probably won't want to follow me for your own safety and comfort. Or FA now offers tag blocking, so there are new more accessible ways to manage your space! It's up to you! No judgment at all if you decide to unfollow/block me.

I don't get involved in any sort of "discourse" about this subject, and I'm not at all interested in doing so. I strongly value nuance, bodily autonomy, and case-by-case basis judgment about any kind of artwork or piece of media, pornographic or otherwise. A large group of mostly young adults in this community have a tendency to see the phrase "pro kink" and immediately jump to the worst possible assumption. Please do not do this, talking about genuinely illegal/predatory behavior is very upsetting to me. By immediately seeing someone involved in kink and assuming they are abusive, you're doing Republicans' jobs for them, going around calling random kinky queer people predatory. So seriously, don't do this. I may unfollow/block you if I notice that you get into a lot of conflict about heavy topics, even if I agree with your stance, just because seeing posts about this can trigger my OCD.

As someone who grew up in very Christian right wing anti-nudity and anti-kink social circles, I had many friend groups both in person and online (often on Tumblr and Twitter), who believed that BDSM is inherently abusive, and that you're a horrible person forever if you make one mistake (kink related or otherwise), and as a result I developed fairly debilitating moral scrupulosity OCD. A lot of queer people already experience a fear of being creepy, since straight people stereotype us as creepy or demonic or whatever the hell else. Really, my OCD is/was (I say 'was' because it is now in remission) an ongoing extension of my childhood fear of Hell, or eternal punishment, or ostracization from community with no chance of forgiveness. So frankly, I now believe that being sex-negative is a reactionary and inherently anti-queer opinion to hold. Being surrounded by constant fear and harassment and harsh judgment deeply stunted my growth as a person. People on furry Twitter and Instagram still try to convince each other that random furry artists are predatory for... weird but harmless things like wanting to get eaten by a cartoon talking dragon?! It's really quite horrific, the harassment and abuse I've seen random queer people get over weird but ultimately harmless art. So please, I ask in good faith, if you are the type of person who gets involved in a lot of conflict or "callouts" about this subject, kindly unfollow me so we can go our separate ways.

Getting involved in weird kinks is one of the better decisions I've ever made in life, frankly. Authentic self-expression is both deeply healing and deeply cathartic. My therapist has been very supportive and encouraging of my journey into exploring kinks, and I've done a lot of research into kink and psychology (I'm a graduate student, so research is one of my side passions). I'm really appreciative of all the people who stuck around even after I started posting scribbly dragons fucking pooltoys!!!

And with the current state of our world politically, we have WAY bigger things to worry about than a guy who's into pooltoys or monsters or what have you. Your energy would be much better spent helping people in your local community who need it. So I guess this is also a kind of call to action. I recently joined a furry community Discord group focused on mutual aid, and I'm hoping to get more involved in really helping other people that way. I've come to realize that most people have good intentions. If you're someone who finds yourself getting wrapped up in a lot of online discourse, you're probably a person who has a strong belief in making the world a better place and preventing harm (even if you are going about it in a counterproductive way, in my opinion). Ultimately, that passion is a strength. I would encourage you to use that energy to email your representatives, or start a garden and share what grows, or attend a protest, or send some money to someone in need, or create art about your feelings. We're all angry and looking for an outlet, but let's not forget that our real enemy is the ultra wealthy and those looking to strip marginalized people of our right to exist. We must resist the urge to get distracted by infighting, and we must look for ways to better our community that are more constructive and based on supporting those in need.

(P.S., if you saw me delete and rewrite this journal, it's because I got very very anxious lol)

The American healthcare system is a murderous void of greed. I hope he rests in peace. Free healthcare for all now, no compromises.

FA has long been the only website to host my entire gallery of work- my sfw and nsfw work, my weirdest kink art, my writing, my shitty sample music, and a level of authenticity that I find difficult to express on other social sites. And I know a lot of others feel this way too.

In a worst case scenario, you can follow me elsewhere at -> https://linktr.ee/dragontaur

But my hope is that we can pull together and keep this site around for a long time. I hope despite the sad news that you're all doing well. Don't forget to tell your friends you love them while they're here.

ANTHROCON IS IN LESS THAN 2 WEEKS!!!! I'm so incredibly excited for my first opportunity to be in the art show!
I will be selling in the art show:
-The picnic bear fursuit
-A mandarin fish x cheetah fursuit, made by me but the original design by mortes_corvus
-A very intricately designed pair of ocean themed paws
-The tropical paw + tail feline set (if they do not sell online by the end of June)

During the week of AC, I will not be taking on any new drawing/icon commissions, AND any commissions currently in progress will be paused from July 1st-9th while I visit family and attend the con. That being said, I only have 3 clients in the queue right now, so I shouldn't have any trouble finishing up the queue before that :]

I will definitely make an update post after the con! Sharing what sold, what didnt, and how the experience was. I'm hoping to make an AMV with all the photos & footage I get! Feel free to say hi if you see me around (My suit: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53011349/ ) I'm autistic and very socially awkward, so I might just kind of stand around not knowing what to say, but I love meeting people regardless! My suit is VERY well ventilated (aside from the armsleeves which get very hot) so I end up suiting at least 60% of the time at cons lol

YO!!! I signed up for the Anthrocon 2024 art show! The site says that all who sign up before the end of March are guaranteed space, so I am hoping that means this will be my first ever art show!!!

WHAT TO EXPECT AT THE SHOW:

-If the picnic bear and the sunset gryphon partials don't sell online by the end of April, they will be in the show!
-If one of these suits does sell online before then, then I will bring the salmon head to the show instead! Just the head because that's all I have time to complete before the con- but the buyer would have the option to upgrade to a mini partial or digi fullsuit after the con.
-I will also be debuting a new tropical fish themed cheetah partial at the art show! I will show it online closer to the con.

I'll post another update about this closer to the con, but I'm REALLY REALLY EXCITED!!! This is my first foray into having my work shown at an in-person con (I have had one piece showcased at VR con Furality Aqua before), so I would really appreciate it if y'all checked out my work at the con, even if not to buy it, just to see it in person!!!

I will be taking a social media break until sometime in mid-October!

I will still be checking my Dealer's Den and Discord for fursuit sales/questions! So please contact me on Discord @ draconic_absurdism if you have a question about my horse suit or one of the paw sets I have for sale

I will also still be active on Discord servers, I just really need a break from the expectation to be present online 24/7 so I'm taking a month off :3
I hope you all have a good beginning of fall! Love yall ^_^

(I'm still gonna be continuing my art challenge, but I won't be uploading ANYTHING until I get back)

Hi friends, I got handed a bluesky code by my friend so I made an account!

https://bsky.app/profile/dragontaur.bsky.social

Dunno how active I'll be there, but I figure it's good to at least have an account!

I just started grad school and some wild family stuff has been happening, so I've been really overwhelmed lately, but I'm doing my best B) I'm gonna be spending more time at my mom's house bc of everything going on, so I'm trying to strategically move my fursuit stuff from my apartment to her house and back whenever I can so that I can keep working on my queue

Currently working on metal/alt themed custom paws for a client, and a salmon fursuit head that will be offered up as a fullsuit slot!

Just a quick PSA since I may be posting a lot of art over the next few months: I have a LOT going on in my personal life right now, family stuff and starting classes soon. A close family member is going to rehab for alcoholism, my mental health has been shaky and I've been extremely overwhelmed just trying to keep up with the everyday tasks of talking to people and getting work done. I can tell I need to make a change or else I'm going to hit a wall. I have such a habit of putting others' happiness before my own, which is a good trait to have in moderation, but I really need to focus on my own happiness

It feels like no matter how many times i try to force myself to be open to drawing for others, It is moreso something I Have to do rather than something i Want to do. I get this overwhelming sense of dread when people ask for art for their birthday/a holiday because of how hard it is for me to draw for others. It's not like i always Hate doing it- I've had a lot of fun doing comms in years before, but I'm at such a point in my life where things are changing so much all the time, and I'm just incredibly overwhelmed by the prospect of having to do commissions again

And heres the other thing- my art style changes so much that i dont think i can be a Commission Artist. people have no idea what theyre getting. every piece i make looks different, which I personally feel is a strength to have as an artist (being able to draw in many styles!), but commissioners dont always want that- they want consistency, and to know that their oc will look good in my style. i often get commissioned for things i worry i may not be able to draw well- i have a very sharp angular monstery style and i want to veer more into horror & bara territory, but i always get commissioned for cutesy pastel characters. which is nothing against people who have those characters, i value all of my customers, its just something that is holding back the direction i want to take my art. i need more practice honing the subjects i Want to draw, which means i need time to make more personal art and do studies. and i have to do what makes me happy even if it disappoints others. i have always had a habit of putting other peoples happiness before my own, which is a good trait to have in moderation, but i cant keep doing something that gives me dread

Fursuit part commissions remain open, but art commissions are closed indefinitely, and I don't know if/when they will reopen. Fursuit part commissions are still fun to me, and they're currently my main source of income. As the years go by, I find myself only enjoying doing art for myself. This is a fact I've known about myself for a long time, but I always talk myself into continuing to do commissions for the extra money it brings in, even though it is hard for me. In a completely ideal world, I would only draw for myself

But I want to do what makes me happy, and what makes me happy is doing personal art & fursuit part commissions. Drawing is a hobby that's very special to me, and I don't know if I ever want to monetize it again. Whether I'll *have* to monetize it is another story. Maybe if I have to do comms again in the future, I may be picky. Have people fill out a google form and only choose prompts that interest me, so as not to have to directly turn anyone down. Because it's the saying no part that's hard for me- I fear disappointing others. It sounds like a good system to me! We will see!

I know username changes haven't yet been made available on here, so I can't actually change it yet, but I'm going to be working under a new name from now on.

BORXOII -> DRACONIC ABSURDISM

"Borxoii" has been with me since day one. That's who I was when I was a teenager and a developing artist, but it carries with it some unpleasant memories that I want to move on from. It also has some major spelling issues. Many times I've tried to share my username with a friend and they haven't been able to spell or pronounce it. I also no longer feel represented by a canine-themed name. I'm a dragon/boar! I still have a borzoi character, but he is no longer my main sona.

I'll be changing my username to some variant of Draconic Absurdism on all websites that allow it. On sites where that name is too long to fit into the 16 character limit, I'll most likely be Dragontaur or some variant of that instead. Either way, I want this change to be publicly known so nobody gets confused.

If you own a fursuit or drawing by me, you can still credit me as Borxoii until FA starts allowing username changes. However, I'd prefer being referred to as Draconic Absurdism from now on, and that's how I will be labeling my future work!

CHECK OUT MY FIRST EP DOG IN A GLASS BOX
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83ojMBVJ9WM

BE SURE TO LISTEN WITH GOOD QUALITY HEADPHONES IF YOU CAN!!!

I’LL BE UPLOADING DIFFERENT KINDS OF MUSIC UNDER DIFFERENT CHARACTER ALIASES. “EU4IA” IS MY CCCAT EUPHORIA AND WILL BE USED FOR A VARIETY OF EXPERIMENTAL GENRES. “WYN” WILL LIKELY BE USED FOR HARSHER MUSIC WITH VERY PERSONAL THEMES AND MESSAGES. I MIGHT USE OTHER NAMES IN THE FUTURE AS WELL, WE’LL SEE!

I’M STARTING ON A LONGER, MORE POLISHED ALBUM TODAY WHICH WILL INCLUDE AN EXTENDED EDITION OF SUPER ULTRA ADHD TRANSGENDER BEASTMODE, AT LEAST 3 OTHER ORIGINAL EDM SONGS, AND ONE MORE AMBIENT TRACK

HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GOOD WEEKEND!!!