I dont normally like posting things like this but this has been going on for too long now.

Back in April 2013 I commission a badge from Cherry Soda Fox on FB/FA and was once a month or so I would message him to ask how it was going. In January 2014 he told me to stop asking him about or he would keep pushing it back. Today I message him to ask for my money back because it been more then a year now. He said he couldn't do that because he did not have work and then block me.

I am not telling you not to commission for work. I am just saying I am piss off at him and there is 30+ USD I am not getting back now.

Journal number 13

So Why I am calling this the week of cuddles is that after who knows how long it been, I am getting to cuddle more then just one night a month or so.

It all started out on Superbowl Sunday at Draco's place when after the half time show me and Ezhno started to cuddle after that he gave me a ride home and cuddle some more because he had some time to kill. Tonight, Tuesday, I am going over to Rizzell's Place for some more cuddling. Then on Thursday Ezhno coming over for the night and we plan on cuddling more. To top it off, Saturday after the Mini Fur Meet, Apollo is planing to come over to cuddle also.

One week, four days off cuddling, three different furs

Journal Number 12

Something happened that I thought would never happpen yesterday, December 21 2013 in Leavenworth Washington. We Had a fur meet of 7 fursuiter and 8 others. I have been trying so had for over 4 years to do a meet in Leavenworth and it final happened.

Journal # 11

I have posted this on my Facebook and sent it out to most my furiends in a text and now posting it here.

To any of my friends that is getting this text, I wanted to tell you something that only a hand full of people know about me untill today. Five years ago something happened to me. Something to this day still hurts me. Five years ago I was rape. The guy who rape me was a old friend from middle. I had him came over to visit and hang out for a few days. At that time I know he was bi. It was late the first night be was over and we wanted to cuddle. I put a movie, and we cuddle naked on my bed. I was in his arms, nuzzling back into. About 30 min into the movie I start falling asleep like I normally do when I cuddle with guys. I am not sure how much time went by but next thing I know I was waken up by him pushing his penis into my butt. There was nothing I could do, he was the same size as me. I was crying the hole time. When he was done with me all I could do was cry and told him to get out. To this day I can't talk about sex of any kind, can't do it, can't think about sex. There are time were I can't even handly cuddling. I love cuddling but most guys I have cuddle with want sex out of it.

Journal Number Ten

Got into Spokane around 1700 (5:00pm) and made it up to Moorcat, where I was/is staying for the next few days.

Because there is more than me staying at Moorcat's this weekend I am rooming with Kiyoshi on his bunk bed. Kinda funny is that a tiger is letting a Husear (husky bear mix) have the top bunk bed.

Saturday is free to doing whatever comes to mind aka morning of oompa music.

Sunday will be a busy day of time with boyfriend, fur meet, fur dinner and Staff meeting for AFF. Yes I said AFF staff meet. We are getting the Spokane Fur Con up and running again. Plans are to get it up for 2014

Journal Number 9

Long time, no see you guys. Like the subject says thi.s is my holiday wrap up.

My holiday season was uneventful this year kinda. Went to Spokane, saw some friends. And got to hang out with my lovely boy friend.

Not much was given for gifts. Pretty much everyone got chocolates, even tiger who is allergic to chocolate. My boyfriend was the only one who didn't get chocolate. He got to Wembley nights in a hotel room with me and some lovely guest hold which I will post pictures of later.

Journey #8

I had hope, hope of a better place for me and my mate to live. Getting us both out of homeless shelters. But that went to hell in a handbag.

On monday I was going to be leaving for Nashville Tennessee but my ride put it off till tuesday.

On tuesday his car broke down just outside of Leavenworth Washington and told me it would not get fix tell wednesday.

Wednesday came around and I went into Leavenworth to meet up with him @ 10am. Noon came along and he final text me saying he over sleep and that he would be there in a hour. 2:30pm and I get a text from him saying he got fired and has to go back to tennessee and can't pick me or my mate up.

So now me and my mate are in two different homeless shelters with no hope and no where to go.

Journal #7

Tomorrow I move back out of my mom's place. On February 14, 2012 my mom kick me out of her place. Why I have no idea. I had about $100 USD to my name. I ended up getting a ticket to Spokane WA were I had a furiend that said he could help me out with a place to stay. Joke was one me, once I got over there he said that he could help me right now but one of his friend said she would. So for the next 4 weeks or so I was living in a homeless shelter that was close to downtown.

One day I started talking to a guy in Lakewood WA, a guy I really like, he said I could move in with him. So I called my mom up and ask her if I could come home for a week to get my stuff before I move to Lakewood and if she could come get me in Spokane. She said yes and on March 6, 2012 she came and got me.

Bad news came to me the next dad. The guy I was going to be moving in with one of his friend message me on facebook and say. Tyler is dead. He was walking home last night when he got jump and beaten to death. I started crying and to this dad have not let up on it much.

I ended up texting a furiend in Nashville Tennessee, knowing that he had been wanting me to move in, asking him if I still could move in and if he could come get me. He said and will be here monday March 12, 2012 in the evening.

Know I am just waiting on him to get here. I know my mom will not let me stay much longer here. I have ask but she is bull head. So hear is hoping Tennessee pulls thru for me.

Sorry if this journey is just a bit too long but it is what it is.

~Boses Husear

Journal #6

I was on facebook mobile this morning a good furiend of mine posted something that me stop what i was doing a think for a little. After thinking for a little ask him if i could repost his status so more people can see it.

So here you guys go Grubbs Grizzly status:

"Okay, I'm just gonna say it. I've heard several people now tell me they have left the fandom because of the way they were treated by other furries. They have felt rejected for a wide range of reasons, all of them ridiculous. For example:

1. You didn't pay enough for your fursuit. You have to pay more than $1,000 to be a real furry (are you f***ing kidding me???)
2. You're too serious about being a furry (WTF?)
3. You're not a fursuiter. Only fursuiters are real furries (f*** you)
4. You don't know the history of furry. If you don't know about early furry comic books and how we got started, then how can you say you're a furry? (eat me)
5. You're not among the popufurs, therefore you don't matter.
6. You're too old (pardon me while I shove Geritol up your butt).

I like to think it is a small percentage of furries who do this, but the longer I walk among you, the more I hear about people being rejected by other furries and deciding that furry is not for them. To those of you who deliberately reject people trying to join the community and find friendship, I say, "SHAME ON YOU!"

Furry is not about having money, it is CERTAINLY not about being popular, it is not what you wear, who you hang out with, or how "serious" or not serious you are. It is about WHO you are.

I am a furry because I feel a strong connection to Bear and because there are many friends I have found here who I would not have met otherwise. I am not about to leave, but I am thoroughly disgusted and ashamed of those furries who reject people (many of them already feeling rejected by society) to satisfy some ego trip or to try and assert some artificial and obnoxious definition of furry.

If I knew who you were and had you in the same room with me, I would put you over my knee and give you a spanking, because you are acting like moronic children."



So what do you think about this.

Journal #5

Just a little over two months tell RainFurrest 2011 in Seattle, Washington.

Here for a little bit it look like I would not be able to go but thanks to kind heart fur that is picking me up and letting me stay with her I going to get to go this year.

With that said. I did get fired from my mean job so thing are going to be hard but I think I can get some spending money for this con.

I hope to see all of you there.

Boses

So yeah subject just might say it all.

This Journal is just to tell you what is going on in my life.

As some of you know I work a few job in the summer. Will on Sunday the 26th of June I got a email for Leavenworth Summer Theater in Leavenworth, WA. In this email it said something that kinda piss me off.

Here is what the email said:

"Bo,

You missed 7B orchestra today, even though you were told you couldn't miss any rehearsals.

Because you aren't fulfilling your contracted duties, we are not going to be able to use you in the orchestras this summer.

Please return both orchestra books to 928 Pine St.

Susan"

They know before I gave them my the contract back that I could not make the rehearsal on June 25th and they were okay with that.

So for now I have no summer job.

1Would you yiff me?
2Do you think I paw-off more then 10 times a week?
3Do you think my fursona is sexy?
4Would you freak out if I started to rub your thigh if we sat together?
5Do you think im gay?

post your answers

OKAY I AM REALLY BORED RIGHT NOW AND CANT THINK OF NEW MUSIC TO WRITE

So yeah. This years Apple Blossom was okay.

We are going to start back a few days. hmm... Wednesday the 4th sound good.

It started out just like every other day at Wenatchee Valley College. Tweakie came in after she was done with her classes. she came up to me and Kujo and said that a friend of hers is on his way in. As we are sitting around waiting for him "Azi", Tweakie should me and Kujo some pic of him and told us a little about him. Azi walk in and the First word out of my mouth was COLLAR.

Thursday the 5th I was texting Azi and got him to pick me up at The Super China Buffet in East Wenatchee. Azi pick me up and went to his place to hang out and play some vid game. After we got done playing vid game he run me to my ride home.

Friday (Furday) the 6th it startend like most Furdays go for me. College, after classes sit around the school doing. I started texting Azi and got him to come in and hang with some of the pack. When Azi got to the college I said that we need to get you a ID tag (or something like that). so Azi and I pick out a ID tag for him. He also get his paw painted for something that we did for the pack Alpha. After that we went to Ami's place to get it ready for the BBQ that would be on Saturday. When we got done at Ami's. Azi, Kujo, Tweakie and me went to Petco Where the Furries go to get Tweakie a collar. By the time we got to Petco is was close. So we went to Starbucks to get coffee and called Tweakie mom to see if she could hang out longer. Tweakie said yes so we ran to Tweakie's place to go get some things. We pick up some thing and went to Azi's place to hang out. So we get to Azi's and all get out and go inside. Kujo start the night by playing a game on the xbox. I get out my laptop and Tweakie and Azi get on Azi's desk top. We are all doing something different but at the same time doing the some thing. We get to some time after midnight I think and I said that I think we should go to bed. so we get ready to go to bed. after who know how long of sitting in the dark one of us says something about furry porn (Kujo I think). so we turn on the desk top my laptop and Kujo's laptop and Azi's iPhone and all start look at furry porn. sometime after we all turn thing back off to go back to bed.

Saturday the 7th (BBQ day) so yeah. Azi, Kujo, Tweakie and I are Azi bed talking about something. We know that the BBQ started at 9 but we had to much fun looking at porn the night before. I think we got out of Azi after 10 but maybe later than that we run to Petco to get Tweakie collar than Safeway to get some food for the BBQ. We got lost going back to Ami place. we get there and the food is not done and we need Zach to show up. Zach gets there and has a friend with him. so we start eatting. Ladies went first than the Gay guy. next was the bi guy and last was what every i did say. so we all get some nom nom and sit down and star noming on food. after we all got done noming we started to place Guitar Hero something.after that was look at the food pack thing and I missed my bus and now I am wiriting this all down at Azi place.

YAY for Gay Furry Friend

HEHEHE

So yeah. I am work on some song to upload to FA most of them are to big for FA but I will get some smaller file up ASAP.