Started yesterday by hittin' the ground runnin' full throttle but Craig hooked me with Vanessa, business and personal ;) even though I almost blew it, but thanks to fast feet & quick thinkin', I may have a date today or tomorrow.

Aside from other drama today, got Dawn's suncatcher done in record time, surprisingly. And when she comes & gets it, I gotta see about making Christina one

Nettie and I were talkin' about our upcoming birthdays...Made her happy when I told her I was gonna get her a present...Also gonna make her a refillable lighter...Think I also made her really when I slipped her a lil' somethin' somethin' in her pocket >:D

Today's been pretty wonky. Had a little fight with mom over a misunderstanding that put me in a bad mood as I'm still pretty miffed about dad & Kristie's deal. Fuck it, she paid for since I used a little bit of the money she gave me to run errands to buy a can of butane. As for dad & Kristie, I got a plan...and I'll tell you...after I execute it. XD It's gonna be one hell of a surprise as it'll kill 2 birds with one stone by fucking up Kristie's pretty little 2008 Mustang GT and her racing career as well as bring dad's 46 year win streak with his custom built motors to a screeching halt. Old man needs to learn some humility anyway. Went to pick dad's overalls up at the dry cleaners and the mexican bitch there is so fuckin' stupid it was frustrating! Glad Sara was working at the store today. We had a little talk and she cheered me up. Not too many bitches look sexy in those Albertson's uniforms but boy howdy, she can, especially in shorts <3

Ashleigh might be comin' out to hang but I ain't gonna get my hopes up. Not being emo, just I know how she is. Love her as a friend but could never fall in love with her...would still fuck her, though >;D

Fuckin' Terry tried throw me under the bus on a drug deal over a Dale Earnhardt pocket knife collection he traded for dope. His brother, David, gave him that knife collection to his dad and his dad gave it to Terry. And Terry told Dave that I went to their house to do the deal. Bullshit, he came here with the knives. So they were here wantin' the knives back. No dice, boys. Dad and I shut that down. They can buy it back...with cash...and we want might charge 'em a little extra for their troubles...cocksuckers.

Finally finished that suncatcher...doesn't look bad...not perfect...but not bad...now gotta do one for Dawn. Should I be trippin' that I accidently strung the star beads upside down since they're five pointed? Fuck it, I ain't redoin' it, it's already hung in the kitchen window, and all hell's gonna break loose sooner or later...

Apparently, Kristie can be fired from her job after all. XD Lost her job today for repeatedly showing up late and she's contemplating filing a lawsuit <.<

Been a topsy turvy type a day with jokers to the left and clowns to the right >.>

Nettie came over tonight. She wanted me to grow my hair out some so she can cut it again because she said she cut it shorter than what she wanted to. Her puppy almost ran away but I made a dive save to get the leash. XD Fronted her some headache dope for Zack but they don't know what it is lol!

Mom & Dad just got home from Dad's doctor appointment and it didn't go well. Doctor fucked up and told him there's nothing they can do to help his PAD because he smokes.

I know we said some fucked up shit to each other last night but I don't want his health to go to hell in a hand basket. This may not end well :(

Remember Kristie? The cunt I dated a few years ago who ripped me off for $800? Well according to Dad tonight, she's back in graces with the family...except me. He was beamin' proudly at how she's safety coordinator/vice president at the trucking outfit she works at and he thinks it's cool that she slept her way to her position and that she can't be fired and how him and Ray are gonna soup up the engine in her sports car. Dad told me that her rippin' me was a life lesson learned, as if she was in the right and I had it comin'. And how fucked I was, especially for getting even with her by ruining any hope of her getting her son back.

I never felt so betrayed. Wonder how long he's really been hatin' on me like that...and why? Is it because I'm a drug addict and now he has to share his dope with me? Is it because now I'm slingin' dope and I picked up on it so fast to his shock chagrin that he feels his place in the business is threatened? Or is he really eatin' up her lies so much that he's now lookin' upon me in a negative light because of how much she's demonized me in the past?

I'm really lookin' forward to leavin' again, I don't care if I wind up on the streets! 'Cause the only I'll ever wanna see him again is to get high! Maybe I outta give him a reason to really hate me, like take his dope and take this business from him! Why should I work for him when I can work for myself and show more dignity than he does since he thinks brown-nosing his connection and customers is the way to go! I always wondered why so many people turned against him...and I think I'm startin' to see why.

Meant to update yesterday but I passed out. Went to Jesse's son's birthday party yesterday. It was cool seeing Jesse again since the last time was 3 years ago working at GPS. Had a barbecue, hotdogs were great but the hamburgers had no flavor. Definitely needed seasoning. Kids were playing with squirt guns. Fuckin' Jesse filled one of the guns with with blue juice lmfao! Cake was good too. Had a mini food fight with the excess icing. One dude caught Jesse's girlfriend in the face and she ran him down and got him good with a big gob of icing right on the ass and leg. Tell you what, for being 6 months pregnant, she is fuckin' fast! XD

Zack & Nettie came over while I was gone, wantin' me to give them a ride into town to get groceries and spice. Unless they're gonna give me gas money and buy me groceries, they can go suck a dick. I'm growin' my hair back.

Got home later that afternoon and worked my ass off 'til 1 AM and passed out. Didn't help I've been up for 2 straight days.

Other drama I don't wanna talk about and won't talk about just yet but major life change maybe be on the horizon. Stay tuned.

Guess my hair's gonna grow since Nettie cut it anymore because she's afraid of losin' her piece of shit boyfriend and I can't afford to pay anybody else to cut it. Oh well, I did my good deed. I'm just disappointed that's she's that weak >:(

What a night.

Ray misplaced Dad's best cordless screwdriver, causing a manhunt with Ray being a total dumbass. Fortunately, I found it XD

Kim didn't know when to leave and Robert made an ass of himself where Dad was about to drop him, me makin' a subtle death threat to him, and Dawn was pissed off with him XD

And poor Nettie had a mishap which she had to chop off the length of her hair. Poor girl was practically in tears. She fixed it, but she didn't like how short it was, even though the style looked really cute on her. :) To make her feel better, I'm gonna have her cut my hair short tomorrow morning. Haven't decided on what style to go with, I was gonna let her decided what looks best on me, I don't care if my head gets shaved, which I'll have done if she no shows on me XD

Today's his Birthday! 62 years old ^_^

Been a ton of people here today and it's been a pretty fun party overall^_^

Been partyin' like crazy lately which is not news with me anymore. XD Taking a break from building a sun catcher this mornin' that Dawn and I been talkin' about for a while now. Not goin' on a whole lot since Dawn's been too high to explain to me how to make one but at least she got me started yesterday. And she acted like she wanted to stab me with my own knife when Treva started flirting with me at the time o.O;

Forgot to mention I did 3300 push-ups yesterday ^_^

"Keep A smile on your face, dont let anyone put YOU down! :) "
~ Nettie

Time to step it up. Got a be a leader, not a follower. Can't let my Muse down <3

HARDER, BETTER, FASTER, STRONGER

Last week sucked ass! Yesterday was Ray's birthday and there wasn't much to celebrate. One of his pups got killed on the highway and it was the one that I got tight with, so I shoveled her off the highway. T_T And Ray's startin' to show how much of a friend he ain't, among others. Can't take too many more stab wounds to the back. Gotta go help Craig set up his weight machines here in a bit. Hope the rest of the day gets better. Startin' to get leary of those around me irl <.<

Fucked up title, I know, but a fucked up night last night. Yesterday was my folks' 37th Wedding Anniversary and it definitely could've been better. Dad had been sicker than a dog the last couple a days. That evenin', he was freezin' to the point Mom & I covered him with 20 lbs. of blankets. Around 9 pm, he was burnin' up, very lethargic, and weak, so Mom called for an ambulance. Mom went to the ER to be with Dad while Ray and I stayed behind to guard the fort. Shortly afterwards, Kris came over and hung out with us. Half hour later, Mom called and needed her ATM card, which I forgot I had in my wallet, so Kris gave me a ride over. Unfortunately, Mom kept textin' me to grab stuff AFTER WE LEFT, causin' us to double back twice and me to secure the house twice. Believe me, I take no chances with the security of our home. Mom kept textin' me to grab stuff and I finally to tell her no-can-do, Kris and I didn't have the gas to keep doublin' back like that. The trip over couldn't go fast enough with Mom's melodramatic texts, but I shut that down peacefully. The moment we got to the ER, I wanted to go home. Dad was being impatient and not wantin' to wait for his blood test results, but Kris went home and I just hung out in the waiting room. He finally got discharged by 3:30 am and it's been mellow since. He had a potassium deficiency, and kidney & bladder infections. At least he's startin' to feel better. And I've been goin' only on 2 hours of sleep ~_~

The only highlight of yesterday was me doin' 1900 push-ups XD

Had a shitastic day. Started with chasing off Cowboy Joe, fuckin' bitch. Then Mike & I load up the truck with metal to haul to the recycling place but the truck was fuckin' up whenever we got on the road and fuckin' Ray wanted to be a drama queen and bicker with us because he had to take down a fence today. To top it off, I spillt gas in the truck of Mom's car >_<

The evening got better as it was party time. Got so fuckin' high and my bod had glitter all over it from this hippie chick gettin' all touchy feely with me. Not to mention Gerri almost poppin' out ;p

Jill called boohooin' about her roommate and Jackie kickin' her out and now she's homeless and she had to give her dog away, to Missy, coincidentally. All I told Jill was good luck and I gotta go. Can't afford to take her in.

Had to take Mom to the ER tonight due to a migraine headache she's had for the last 2 days. Good news is she's feelin' better and got to come home ^_^

Went out on a date with this chick name Jill. Didn't go like I intended...then again, I didn't expect my night to go like it did...My date didn't last long, an hour tops, when Mom texted me, mad that I took her car to go on my date, and made me bring her car home, even though she gave me the ok to take it, but she was half asleep when I asked her and she doesn't remember me asking. Needless to say, I was embarrassed and pissed off I had to end my date like that. Mom may have saved my ass, though. After I took a bath, I got a call from Jill's cell phone, but it was my cousin Jackie using it and her and Jill got some feud goin'. Jackie was lookin' Jill, somethin' to do with Jill's dog and her roommate or some bullshit. I told her where I dropped Jill off. Apparently, Jill is more scandalous than I realized. Not to mention, Jill was being a drama queen. I even had to talk her out of starting a fight with some other broad. And there's NO WAY IN HELL I'm defending that bitch against Jackie. That's the only time I'll run for my life if Jackie was out to kick my ass. She's not one to with. While I got angel wings tattooed on my back, she's got devil horns tattooed on her forehead and they fit her O.O;

Sunday night, I passed out before I could bathe & shave. That was a fucked day.

Mom woke me up a few hours to take care of a little busy with Rick & Don, friends of ours who are in the process of moving from San Jose to Bakersfield. It was good to see them again after 8 years and I made $180 off them. ^_^

Rusty and Cajun Chris came over shortly afterwards and I made $20 off of them and we cleared the air on a major ordeal Sunday :D

Dad, Ray, Mike, and I went to California Valley to help Sonny & Sandra get ready to move. Ray's dumbass work made us work as a disorganized unit and me being wired caused chaos around the house but that was kinda funny. XD It was kinda slow going and boring unless we were gettin' high, especially with Dawn. XD We worked 'til 6:30 pm until Dad talked to Mom and an important business matter came up and we had to bail.

Sonny and Dawn came over later for a little bit. Sonny, Dawn, Dad, and I smoked a joint which was ok.

Raymond found some glass deal used for cookin' meth in Sonny's tool shed that he took made into a crank bong. Now that was FUCKIN' FUN! XD

Today was hell. It was both a reality check and a learning experience that had me do a serious self-reevaluation. But thanks to family (Mom, especially), friends, and God I got the answer I so desperately needed. While there's areas I'm deficient in which I can improve upon I realize there's areas I'm deficient in that I ain't gonna improve on anytime in the near future. Everybody's got their strengths and weaknesses. Even Superman's got his kryptonite. I need to take what I'm proficient in and use it to my best capabilities. Use my strengths to my full advantage and replace my weaknesses with something I can work and disregard the norm, the popular decisions that don't agree with me, and all arguments that bear no weight of logic.

Remember Will? The guy down the street from me I made friends with back in July who got me doin' crank to begin with? He got busted today for possession of drug paraphernalia and possession of stolen property. Not only does he sling dope, he's a thief. For months, he's been rippin' off oilfield companies, including the company he works for and he has a gravy gig with a salary a person would kill for! And his wife is pregnant!!! And he wouldn't just steal pipe and copper wire off leases, he'd steal tools, equipment, diesel, even welding trucks, stuff worth up to thousand and thousands of dollars and he keeps them in his backyard until he either sells 'ems or decides to keep 'em! And he brags about how smart he is and how he's always one step ahead of the law. But he steals from the leases nearby too. Genius. *Rolls his eyes* He's fucked now

Dad was sleepin' with his slippers on when one of 'em fell off. I pick it up to put it out of the way when he made a loud noise in his sleep that startled me to the point I reared back with his slipper lol!

Roxy was limpin' when I got home today, holdin' her front left paw up. I go to check it and Lucian, one of her pups from last year, runs up to jump on my knee and clips me good in the jaw with his front right paw. Little bastard, I was checkin' to see if your Mama was alright XD

Just smoked a bowl and fumbled the pipe. The good news is the pipe didn't break, so no party foul. The bad news is I caught the bowl while I was lighting it! HOT!!! HOT!!! HOT!!! HOT!!! HOT!!! HOT!!! *Blows on his hands*

A friend tonight told me tonight the wings tattooed on my back makes me look like The Archangel Michael. As awesome as that is, I have to admit I'm clueless about The Archangel Michael. When I think Archangel, I think X-Men lol!

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