Saw the big rat again in Shell Beach today dead and it still scared the fuck out of me, which I don't in my mental state at the moment o.o;

Made a new friend and mentor I guess in Shell Beach name Little Joe. 55 years old and built like a brick house. o.o We exchanged playful jabs to the chest and I'm glad he didn't haul off and crack me! He asked if I wanted to go out to the backyard and let him show me how wrestles Greco Roman style, I told him I was good. He also tried to regenerate some brain cells I fried. XD His main criticism of me was he hated I had tattoos and I'm way too skinny. *Shrugs* :/ He's one of those who's seen it all & done it all and wanted to see me win in the game of life. ^_^ His Mom taught Shirley Temple's Mom how to curl hair. He's a bit out there, not to mention he drinks, but he's cool. Can't be all that bad if he wants to see me get ahead in life. And he believes I'm 6'2" since I'm taller than him and he says he's 6'. Plus, I got a deck of cards and a pretty nice shirt out of the deal. Shirt's a bit worn since it's older than me but I like it ^_^

Later after I left his house, had like 3 preteen girls flirtin' with me XD

And on a final note, I finally saw Debbie does Dallas. Pretty good movie ^_^

Out walking today, couple of nice people stopped & talked to me and the gentleman even gave me some candy for my walk. Jolly Ranchers even! ^_^ Makes up for almost getting ran over in Arroyo Grande AGAIN!

Windy as fuck today! My course while out walking got detoured in Shell Beach when I saw a BIG rat wondering on the sidewalk on Hwy. 1. o.o Saw some beautiful houses while walking on Ocean Blvd. ^_^ And I already wore out a new pair of socks :P

Hopin' & prayin' I get the job at The Cliffs. If I do and get the cash flow goin', wanna see about get my own place. Until then, might be movin' in with Steve's friend, Kathi, in Arroyo Grande since Bruce's is gettin' out soon and gonna be livin' here again. We'll see how this works. Kathi's cool, I just wanna see what her apartment looks like first. I just wanna move to living room here.

...Yeah...there's some crazy trivia stuff I wanna talk about,,,but I don't think it's a good idea...not here anyway... XD

And I don't wanna post a rant about Brian & Dennis being greedy, petty, thieving pigs. There not worth the time u.u

Is it me or is FA feeling...different nowadays...socially?

2 years ago, my folks and I made friends with this gal name Mary and her husband, Mark. Over the last 2 years, we've helped each other out a lot. They're alright...but can be annoying and overbearing and very weird. Mary's a tall blonde who I thought was fine and we flirted until she started talkin' like some crude hillbilly dude. And she can grow a beard better than me. Now when I look at her, I see Greg Allman. When I went home for Christmas, she hugged me and picked me up and then commented on how skinny I've gotten since she last saw me. I like tomboys, but she went overkill on that. o.o Mark's a good guy but you can tell by looking at him that there's something off about him. He looks like a hillbilly Shimp from The Three Stooges. Recently, they moved back to where they're originally from in Paradise. Shortly after that, Mark took a walk in the woods around where they're currently staying. Come night time he hadn't come back and he took Bubba, Karyssa's former dog they adopted after the fallout my folks had with her and Jordan, with him, so Mary called the sheriffs to search for him and Bubba. It took 'em a while, but they found Mark in the woods 20 miles from the house him and Mary were stayin' at with Bubba huddled in his jacket to keep him warm. When the sheriffs asked him why he was in the woods, so far from the house where he was stayin' at, he told them he was there to hibernate and then growled at them. Apparently, Mark thinks he's a bear now. o.O They eventually convinced him to go with them back to the house but he still believes he's a bear despite the sheriffs and Mary tryin' to talk some sense into him. Mary called my Dad and had him talk to Mark...

Mark: Grrr!

Dad: ...So you think you're a bear now, huh?

Mark: Yep.

Dad: Ok...

So yeah, Mark has lost his mind. Whether it was drugs, being married to an overbearing bitch like Mary for so many years, or when Mary's son "accidently" hit him in head with a sledgehammer twice in the past...or all the above

First off, last night sucked after I finished my test. Told Steve, Brian, & Denise that I aced the test, only Steve was happy for me. Brian & Denise apparently didn't care last night since it wasn't about them. >:( Then Brian & Denise overstayed their welcome and didn't leave until 10 this mornin'. I spent most of the night being antisocial while Brian & Denise were in bipolar mode, with Denise tellin' Steve her sob life story, like anybody would care about that self-centered pig. This mornin', I heard 'em having sex in the living room, glad I didn't see that. I mean Brian's 45 and it shows and Denise looks older. Them fucking, I keep picturing a bulldog mounting a basset hound. I told Steve about it this mornin' while they were leavin' and told him it sounded like Brian was mounting a sow pig, and we had a good laugh on that one. But before they left, Brian redeemed himself by getting us groceries from a food bank ^_^

Now to the misadventure. Steve and I went to San Luis to the hospital to take care of a bill I had from goin' to the ER last week. Steve and I are wired by this time and Steve was unsure of going because I looked it. Look who's talking, Steve. XD We got there and when we got to the receptionist station as you first enter, it's for drug & alcohol rehabilitation. I thought, "Ha ha, Steve." When we asked where we need to go for the payment program, the receptionist looked at me weird for a second before answering us. I thought it was because her english wasn't all that. As we go further down the hallway, I'm getting weird looks from everybody lookin' my way. When we got to where we needed to be, there was a lot of people waitin' and we were told the wait could be a while and we might not make it in before they close. Me and Steve decided to leave. Steve even told me he noticed I was getting weird stares from everybody in there. I don't think Steve ever took his sunglasses off while we were in there. XD Next, we went to Food 4 Less since we needed groceries and didn't know Brian had a box of groceries at our door at the time. Steve was still unsure if we should go to the store in our state, but I insisted. It's a college town, like we're the only ones around that are wired. That proved to be goofy too. We were getting funny looks from everybody and I was tryin' to avoid eye contact with this army dude that was in there because he looked like a cop. XD

So yeah, last night ended crappily but I call today a win ^_^

Aced ^_^

Interview went excellent! Now all I gotta do is do an online food handling safety course and wait for management to make a decision ^_^

Mom's Birthday was nice despite being sick the night before and on her Birthday. Got her a new pair of gold earrings for her Birthday. Dad drew her nice birthday card but luckily I looked it over before he gave it to her because he accidently put 57 on there as here age she turned 56. XD

Stay was cut short though, but for good reason. I got a voicemail from The Cliffs today and I got ANOTHER interview TOMORROW!!! ^_^ Steve couldn't come get me until late tonight because Randal was over, so Mom took me back because she wanted to see our apartment anyway. Her visit was awesome and not just because she treated Steve and I to Panda Express. ^_^ This visit was more pleasant this time than the last one, so much that I'm now missin' them

And this time I have to walk to my interview because Steve has to take his Mom to the doctor and there's a thunderstorm tomorrow XD

And Steve got "stuff" to party but I'm holdin' off 'til after my interview ;p

Well yesterday was that censor ordeal. SOPA, POPA, and Congress tried to pounce us with censorship. And this is how well it for them...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lJeEqC-7sY



In other news, I was suppose to take a test this morning for a job at the Lucia Del Mar school district but they wouldn't let me because my name was not on the list. Assholes. And on the way back to the apartment, I almost got hit again in Arroyo Grande by some stupid old man! C'mon, AG, not everybody gets around in a car! I feel better after a 4 hour nap. Hope things work out with The Cliffs ^_^

Will be offline this weekend because I'm going home to Derby Acres to celebrate my Mom's Birthday ^_^

Got shot down for work at 3 places, including Roundtable.

Some old bitch almost made roadkill out of me in Arroyo Grande!

Went to the ER because my neck & back has been hurtin' me so much lately, that the pain into my arms and the ridge of my hands go numb. X-rays show I'm healthy. Got prescribed pain meds and sent me home with norcos and somas and accidently dropped the somas back at the hospital.

But there's hope...talked the director of human resources at The Cliffs and might have an interview for a job in the restaurant or the resort itself! Here's hopin' ^_^

And not because I've been up for almost 4 days but these words are from a one-time drug counselor. There really is no such thing as being scared straight. I know I've caught major hell for my partyin' ways from my family, from my old crew, and even a lot of you good people here at FA, and it's all understandable and very noted, but that won't clean up my act. And ultimatums could seriously do more harm than good. But the bottom line is, I'll stop on my terms, not anybody else's, and that's straight up reality.

After that, I did some more thinkin' about the idea of movin' Welty, Matt, and Robert in with me when I get a place...and I'd love to see & hang out with 'em again, I also realized a snag in that plan too. Back then, our idea of a good time consisted of video games, watchin' movies & tv, and playin' games like AD&D. We did other stuff things too like paintball or hang out in Bakersfield, but the previous stuff I mentioned was our main things. And those guys still do shit like that to this day. Fuck, Welty's a 31 year old virgin who only lives for video games anymore...and workin' at Target. But truth be told as well, those things are no longer my idea of a good idea. I liked video games...kinda...I mean I brought my old GBA with me when I moved here with one game cartridge in case of a rainy day, which is about the only time I play it, I've never really been into movies. I can't sit still and watch something for a couple hours straight that kept my interest. Never could. And since I moved here, I never watch tv anymore and I'm perfectly happy with that. Now, all I wanna do is party, get out & socialize, and get pussy! And when I was tellin' the guys about how awesome it is around here, I felt like they were wantin' to avoid talkin' about all that altogether. And when they learned how wild I've become, the shit practically hit the fan on that. So now my idea of a good idea greatly clashes with their idea of a good idea, which I can see that makin' our reunion turn out not as great as we all want it to. And I hate the thought of the possibly that I might've outgrown them.

Can anybody spare any cans of spray paint? XD

Joking aside, I talked to my buddies, Matt & Robert tonight. Looks like Robert's marriage is goin' down the shitter like Matt's did. Matt was married to a total for 5 years before divorcing her, Robert's married to a psycho drama queen, Welty and I haven't down the aisle yet and doubt either of us will. XD I came to the conclusion that the 4 of us just ain't marriage material. See, we were our own little group from our late teens to early twenties. By 2003, we all went our separate ways. Needless to say, tonight's conversation got heavily nostalgic and we'd like to hang out with each like before. So I came up with a Plan B, yes, a Plan B to my New Year's Resolution. Once, I get a job and get my own place, if my folks don't move in with me, I'll then move Matt, Welty, Robert in with me. Just Robert needs to divorce that crazy bitch and get back here! My folks are top priority, but they don't seem eager to move in with me. They don't want me to think I have to care of them for the rest of their lives, but I don't see them as a burden, never will! But also, I think we all might agree, that after 32 years, it's time I let go of the apron strings. ._. But we'll see. Either way, I'll have to clean up as none of them will be thrilled at how crazy I've been partyin'

Wow, it's past 8 am already?!

Couple days ago, I saved a ton of pics from my computer onto Steve's memory stick deal so he could upload some new pics noto his computer to add to his pictures which he runs sometimes runs on a slide show on the computer and on the tv in the front room during the day. That makes 135 pics altogether now on the slide show. Yesterday, during the party, we've had to have seen all 135 pics 135 times over during the 6 hours our party was goin'. Now I'm lookin' through my cell phone to see if there's any pics we can add to the slide show. Not sure if he'd wanna add any dirty pics. Think we should add anything from my gallery here? I know he doesn't wanna see any of the rl nude pics of me that are on my cell phone XD

Couldn't scrape up the money to go to FC but hey, it ain't the last you've seen of me XD

Partied tonight with Steve, Carl, Brian, and Denise. Carl brought Steve and I some lavender soap, lotion, and candle from his Mom's farm. Wouldn't mind workin' there since it's in Bueller, outside Santa Barbara. Maybe get my folks and I can move in there too if Carl and his Mom'll let me work there full time.
Denise was being a bitch. The last couple of nights, she's been unpleasant company, wantin' to be the center of attention and being bitch when she isn't. The night ended with her bitchin' out Brian as they left which was 20 minutes ago because Brian's respectful enough to not wanna overstay his welcome and she just doesn't have that kind of respect. >:(
Steve earlier gave me gram for my share but before he went to bed, we agreed to just let have half a gram tonight since I already smoked quite a bit earlier tonight and I still had the entire gram tonight, I would've smoked it all tonight or this morning and that could end badly for me .O

For all those who are concerned about my drug problems, just be glad I won't go this far like this "rock star"

http://www.spike.com/video-clips/dv.....cal-attraction

Woke up too late to go job huntin' today, so after I played around online for a while I applied online for GNC and Radio Shack since they're hirin'. Gotta call the manager at Radio Shack tomorrow to set up an interview. Maybe it's me, but the mood here in FA felt odd today. *Shrugs* I'm gonna step out for a bit to stretch my legs.

The boy you punched in the hall today, Committed suicide a few min ago.
That girl you called a slut in class today, she's a virgin.
The boy you called lame, He has to work every night to support his family.
That girl you pushed down the other day is already being abused at home.
You think you know them.
Guess what, YOU DON'T!
Re-post if you are against bullying.
I bet 99% of you won't.
Repost this if you're that 1% with a heart.

Interview at Roundtable went pretty well ^_^

Here's a lil' trivia: the night I spun out on crank back in Derby, Steve figured out that I smoked 3.5 grams that night. That's an entire 8 ball!

One of my all time favorite artists  serenakitty

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3073935/

Check her out ^_^

Weeks ago, the side of my right went numb and haven't got feeling back in it since. Yesterday, the ridge of my right hand has gone numb too. Thank God, both foot and hand still function properly.

Now for good news! Tomorrow, I got a job interview at Roundtable Pizza at 11:45 ^_^

And while some of you worry about my drug abuse, I got news for ya, there's much worse out there

http://www.spike.com/video-clips/dv.....cal-attraction

So mi amigo,  shadowflame18 , wants your 2 cents on this issue: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3070523/

Heard the name but never listened to 'em. Heard 'em last night and glad I did ^_^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBwF_XQ1vwM&feature=related

Been celebratin' from Dec. 26th 'til...now. XD But it's over. Everybody's broke and out of "party favors". Probably a good thing too. Steve and I have been havin' a hell of a time sleepin' all week. Steve missed a get-together with his sister New Year's Day, I couldn't muster up the energy to go job huntin' today, Brian ran out of his meds today and was on the verge of losing his mind, and Carl's on probation. Until next time ;)