VISITATION

Friday, May 18
5:00 PM to 8:00 PM

Valhalla Funeral home
698 Winchester Rd.
Huntsville, AL 35810
(256) 852-8500

Lucy passed tonight, in a room filled with family standing around her with loved ones near by. She slipped from this world just after 11:45 Tuesday night Among family there, my other sister Brenda and both my brothers. Her husband Jim , my other brother in law Steve, my twins wife Sonya and a friend of the family John Colby. Lucy and I both had a lot in common she tought me growing up that your heart and your head may not always get along but they mean well all the same and that you can't pick love it picks you
Lou Ella Hallmark brown beloved sister and trusted friend

I will go wherever you lead me on rivers of roses or rain I will follow the signs that you leave me through  the Mysteries of joy and of pain, I will always search for your light in my darkness though  I may stumble through shadow  and shade 

For knowing you are with, then of whom shall I be afraid 

You have lifted me up when I had fallen and driven the ghosts  from my door you have comforted me in my sorrow. Wiped my brow when I've been sick and sore. You have shared in all of my  triumphs  and blessed me with your stein words to show me my way 

For knowing you are with me, then of whom shall iI be afraid. 

Your love and your light lives on within me and in every memory we have made   You pass from this world not to be forgotten, but to leave behind your sorrow and pain 

you stand with our mother in heaven   Watching over us for all of our days as we know that you are with us , and there is none of  whom we shall me afraid 


5/15/2012

as some of you know the last few weeks have been some of the hardest in my life, my sister Lucy is holing but growing more faint by the day, i have been having chest pains, thinking it was nerves i just went on dealing with what we have going on with her. i ended up going to the er because the pain got really bad i was thinking it might be the flu or pneumonia because it was hurting like that when i got sick two years ago but after many test and x rays and such they found a tear in my aortic valve. i am talking a lot of meds and will be out of work for at least a few weeks. it's unsure if this will heal over time by controlling my blood pressure but i pray that it will, keep me in your thoughts, if you do so i would even ask to pray for me. i did get to come home, but for how long, no one knows. i have been told if for any reason my if blood pressure go's above 120 or i start hurting again to call and go right back to the er to have them hold me in i c u again. I'm not going to cry and ask why, this is life, it is what it is. but i want all my friends to know that no matter how this ends. i love you all. may we all find better days.

happy birthday to jade and kp hope you two have a great birthday and i miss you both "licks "

tho i will not be making it, i wish you all a safe trip there and back and a great time there :)
mace linked this too me, i thought it a fitting song for the weekend

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOt6.....layer_embedded

work had me running my but off and so has been going on, but things have not bad and yay i got a new phone, if you don't have the new number and need it, hit me on yahoo :) not much more than that going on so i'll leave you all with this thought :)


a wolfs blood runs hot even if the man in us shiver and shakes in the cold, and Though we can deny our nature, It makes us less in control

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.
"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

i wont make this a long post, some things are best said short and sweet. may this season be filled with love and warmth. no matter where you hail from or how you say it, be it Fröhliche Weihnachten or Milad Majid peace on earth and good will to all



Merry Christmas :)

http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/77.....-strong-parody really hope that this guy ends up working fast food the rest of his days....

so much has been going on, work it so stressful but like can get that way, i seem to see so much change and i have my share of blessings and burdens . i heard this song today by LeAnn Rimes { Give }

this made me think of someone. i wish would take a long look and see the truth in it.

Everybody’s reachin’ for something
Every day a pullin’ and tuggin’
And always wantin’ a little more
Holdin’ on to hurt like an anchor
Treatin’ those we love like strangers
Takin’ names who keepin’ score
We all know, what we’re really after
Somewhere along the road, we got it backwards

If you want to give love then give it
If you want to feel some forgiveness
Then you’ve gotta let go and do some forgiving of your own
If you want a friend then be one
A little bit of kindness show some
You’ll be surprised of how much finds its way back home
It don’t matter what it is
If you want it, give.

I been down right stubborn,
At one time or another,
And found it easier to bend.
I’ve had a shoulder to lean on
Been the one who got to be strong
And peace was waiting at both ends
I’ve felt the power, I’ve seen what it can do
It’s seemed so simple, so simple that it’s true

If you want to give love then give it
If you want to feel some forgiveness
Then you’ve gotta let go and do some forgiving of your own
If you want a friend then be one
A little bit of kindness show some
You’ll be surprised of how much finds its way back home
It don’t matter what it is
If you want it, give.

If you want a friend then be one
A little bit of kindness show some
You’ll be surprised of how much finds its way back home
It don’t matter what it is



welp that's all for now :)

so yea,,,,,,,, i am alive, i am doing good, if nothing more than overstressed and somewhat over worked with the new job. things here have been busy as hell and lots and lots going on. not a week after getting the new job both my manger of 3 years and her assistant where move out of the store on the same day. so yea lots of change :) i have kinda stepped back from the hole furry scene. it's always going to be part of me, but i have my own life to put first and make something of. it may come to some as a shock to some but after a break from really trying to date, i have started seeing someone. he's a great guy with a warm soul. blue eyes that can melt ice. we are taking things at there own pace and seeing where it will go. at this point i just know. he makes me smile and there are things we bond on that i have never had with another. parts of me he not only understand but deals with in his own life. sp yea, that's about all, hope you are all good and things are going great :)

that is all :P

so, i have my stuff set , this be the last log for brim for a bit, time for brim to sleep, sandulf wants to run free for a bit. you can track me at http://www.furaffinity.net/user/sandulf/ i'll be posting and hunting there. "gives dragon hugs all around" i did want to say this before i go shune took the path he took, no matter what his reason and why he went about it, or how careless he was in doing so. i forgive him. i wish him all the best in this life. no matter who it is with. i do very much mean this. no matter how much he may want to dislike or even hate me back. i'd ask my friends to do the same and just let it be. "gives a wave good bye"

you know that old saying,when you leave you can never really go back home, that's a lie. i went back to my family's land today, first time i have really been back in years. i had told mace and shune i wanted to take them, this was a bitter sweet trip but one mace and i took. one needed so we could both have some healing and so i could better put who i am and where i came from into the eyes of someone i love. there i can hide nothing, i simple am me, take it or leave it. no walls, no hiding, no shame or fear, just free. there is a lot that came of this. mace now knows me for who i am under all the things that i use to shield myself from a world that would never understand me or just see me as a freak.
i have never let myself be so open before, don't get me wrong. i have loved with all my heart and soul, fyre, kp, shune, all meant more than i can say or put into words. but standing by that river in the woods mace at my side, my heart full of hurt and loss yet stuck by the untouched beauty, the sun showing down though the thick trees, the water trickling down the hillside, the wind blowing and the smell of wild flowers and nature in it's most raw form, i felt i was home again. i did not let mace see me cry, tho he knew. i did not cry for shune, only for the loss of a love that could have grow into something unbound by words. we walked for a good while, talking and mace in his simple way knew i needed this. we took most the morning there. coming back i fought the want to just run off and not look back. but here i am and i have said going back won't take so long as it has.

i have been thinking a lot of my role in the fandom and who i am and much deeper where it is i want to find myself going in a few more years. i have come to this, my dragon side has and always will be a part of me it's like my skin, but there's another side. my birthright my blood line. my shaman teachings and the alpha, the pack leader, the hunter that runs free but watchful. my wolf side, SANDULF meaning { true wolf } so for now brim will be stepping back for a bit. while my wolf side runs free and has time to find his own and grow. in doing so i am in no way letting go of any friends, this is not me starting over, this is me letting myself have growth. i'll still be posting here. but i'll have more of my true self. not what others would make me or have me be. i am free now and thank you all for your understanding. " howls out and calls to his brothers" come out, come out. let us run wild and free

other than some ongoing drama, the last few days with shune and mace where great, we spent the days together just being around one another, showing eachother how much we loved one another and at times, just being silly. shune went thursday and got a new tat, i went friday and got one myself. mace now has a laptop so we all got a bit spoiled, the thing is we all really bonded together the last few days.it was not just us haveing fun but all three opend up and shaired a bit more of themselfs with our odd but happy litlle pack. it was a good time, both have just gone home today and i already miss them so damn much. welp that's ab out it for now.

mace and shune came down last night to spend a few night together, nace is getting ready for trucking school and shune and i both have ben very busy dealing with things on our own, so this time together was mych needed. shune went today and got his next tat, i must say that it came out looking great, it'll take some time to heal but we'l be geting some pics real soon. ther than that we are just hanging out and spending time together as we can. i will say there has ben a bit of a odhappening with a new fur on fa, he'd sent shune a few tells here and there shune befriending him found out real fast this guy is not all there. in less that two days he's come to some understanding that he and shune are ment o be mates, that he in real life is a wolf from some other realm and that the two should meet, like in the next two weeks. shune trying to be a friend did let his talks go a bit far but at the same point he'd let mace and i both know this gu was out there saying all this, shune brought logs. just to show to what part this guy had gone to lure shne to b ham for a meet that he would fly from out of state for, a few others from this site have talked with this same guy, i have not asked but after we have all talked it sems he's pull almost the same stick with others. so befor warmed. anyone wanting to know his scren name here may ask me, i am not puting it here as that would be flate out rude, tho i do fel this gu who is new to furry "less that 2 to 3 weeks" may very well be a stalker. after sending him a tell asking h im to stop any such talk with shne that he was mated and he had a pack he over looked anything i had sead sent chune a tel with him standing right here saying, your friend brim sems to thikn he's your mate. i'll let you deal with him... this gu has something really wrong with him.... be on the watch he tends to go for cowboys and wolfs.

there has been a lot of talk as of late about true friends, i could sit and rant all night about what a true friend is or is not. plan truth is this. a true friend shows you who and what they are, it's not kind words and ass kissing that make up a friendship, it's a common goal with both to be there for the other in good times as well as hard times. it's being a shoulder to lean on and an ear to witch the other feels they are being heard. it's a paw to hold and a voice in the dark saying hey you are not alone. i've been around a bit. i'm still learning like all of you but i have come to a understanding of this, most from my own short comings with much of what is listed. what i know is this, if you are going to openly lie and hide things from me that deal with me and my life, you are no friend no matter how much you say so. if you put intent of your own wants and needs before my feelings, knowing that what your doing will and can hurt me, you don't care about me you care about yourself so stop lying to us both. don't run behind my back talking about me and starting up shit that has no real need to be started for no better reson than your life sucks and you have nothing better to do with your time. if making me look bad is what it take for you to look good or have more friends pat you on the back, good for you but it is my understanding if i have seen this after you called me your best friend, so will others and it is just a matter of time before you are called out just for what you are. drama follows you like a fly to shit. if this is not true prove it and i'll not say a thing more. otherwise this is the very reason you are no longer and will not be apart of my life in any way. you are welcome to milk this for all you can with other so called friends. lets see who you have to run to when all is said and done.

i spent the day with one of my two mates, shune he brought along his dad to see the new place and to spend the day together, it was great. we al had a nice time, we all went together to the furry dinner, spent time with friends and had anice dinner together, i must say tho, the two went out of there way and bought me a new sword, not just any,it's hand forged blade by a master swordsmen. i am still in shock over it. all in all this day has come and gone with me haveing the feeling that i am very lucky and very loved. thank you shune and din for a great day and a smile that will not go away anytime soon.

so we have net set in the house again and things are going great, my break from the net has given me time to get the house mostly set and put into place. mace and shune both have seen the place, along with kp foxpaw we all got most my stuff moved here late last week. i owe them much thakns for all there help, tho shune spent a lot of it not feeling so great. haveing him there was all i could have asked for. lots to still do here and with any luck we'l be geting some pics of the place soon so everyone can see the new dragons den. untill then i just have a lot going on and a lot more i want to get done.

i love it here, it has a safe and cummfy feel here. i will always have more i want to do but for now just comeing into a place where i an rest after a long day and feel like it's all
gone away is the greatest feeling .

got the key today to the new place, did a walk though and the power shuld be on with in the next day, now to get water and cable and we re all set, took shune over and let him see the place, other than that just been packing stuff up and getting ready :)

ok, so i really hate packing and i have been doing just that for two days now,,,, cross your paws for us, we should be getting into the new place this comeing weekend, if we can get power and water all set,, i have a good bit done here, mace and shune will be coming up tusday, i know having them here will make things seem better and i really want them to be a part of this move, i want this to be a home for us, a safe place and one that we know we can find rest in when the world has hit us to hard, this is week hve not beed the best, but bit by bit thay are falling into place.

okes back to packing yayyyyyyyyy

with so much going on, the move, work and packing. it's been busy as hell. as it looks, we'll be moveing in about two weeks. the new place is going to be great once we get in and things put into place. we want to get something together, have a cookout. let you guys see the new place, have some food and drinks and just chill. mace and shune should both be down for the move, being as this will be as much a home for them as it will be for us. sam will have the back yard to run in and that will make haveing him down when shune is much better than leaveing for shunes dad or granddad to take care of.
we are all so over the going on's rcfm weekend. it's not worth the wast of time to worry, i did try to talk with taba and clear things up. did not go so well. that's up to him, even after the talk i'd like to be friends, mace and shune would as well. but that's all up to him. in any case. that drama is over and things here are getting back to there norm.

i can say this, the con may not have gone as i would have liked it, things may have gone way wrong. but i really have seen just who my friends are and who i can count on. i have and intend to keep up better with friends that i had lost touch of and some i just don't spend the time i should with.

sometimes i guess even a dragon needs a good kick in the ass to wake him up.

blame can be tossed around till any one person is blue in the face, i am not going to start some long winded rant and i am not tossing names about, but a few will know and understand what i am talking about.

let me make a few things clear that have not easy for me to come to in any way and a lot of thought has been put into this.
my mateship with shune and mace my have been tested this past weekend but it damn shure was not broke.it took two peolpedo make this mess, but at the same time shune took his shair of it and did so with love and grace. unlike the other side who in his own words seems to blame anyone but himself. there are furs that have been made to feel like thay have to take sides. i do not want anyone taking sides.i have not taken a side but being a mate means you stand by them for the good and bad and like it or go fuck yourself, i will be doing just that. for the few who have been there and showed there care , thank you. to the other that helped fan the flames. what comes around gos around


i'll end with this. blame can be pawned off on anyone , you can stay pissed, upset or hurt all thay want, but it's not going to stop anyone from being alone when it's all sead and done.

well with all that has been going on some good news, in just a few weeks, we'll be moveing and will have lots more space. i know that as for myself, the back yard will be great for haveing friends over and frilling out. it got more room for all of us as well as both mates and shunes dog sam to go out and run around. this has been so long over due and it really is something great. wish us luck and once we are in we'll be haveing a dinner and house warming.

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