I know that tonight is the night we can officially say "fuck off" to year 2016. Because it's the year that caused the most pain to all of humanity and furries alike.

Because we all know about death after death times 10. And for that, we lost such amazing and well known celebrities like Prince, David Bowie and the one I morn the most, Carrie Fisher. Only because she is, AKA Princess Leia and I grew up knowing her character of early release Star WarsTrilogy.
We also lost some of the others known in this small community we know of the furry fandom including Lemonade Coyote and Grandpa Kage. Those I personally never got to know but they are such awesome with the way they contributed to the fandom. Especially with Grandpa Kage is the type of parent I with I have as a furry. So yeah, that is why 2016 is fucked up and also the fact that some power hungry and egotistical businessman got elected as president of the US. *cough* Trump.

But the only thing is that 2016 can finally die. And that is concidered as an amazing birthday presant Father Time had given me.

Speaking of which, today is my 27th anniversary of my real live birth. Just so you know but you would know seeing how I posted it there on my FA profile. So if you want to send or make me something as a birthday present, you can. Be it as art of Bruzo of some sort. And if you do no matter how good it is I will be apreciative. But as always I will not be expecting any presents from anyone. The only thing I expected is Bruzo becoming a fullsuit which it has as I got the bodysuit finally.

Until next journal or post here on FA, may each and every single of my furry friends have a happy and safe new year. Here's to 2017.

To all my friends in the fandom regards to where you are in the world and to what species you are, I on the bottom of my heart wish each and every one of you a very merry Christmas. Despite the fact I didn't receive any art for this year around this time. But I don't expect any.

Anyway, I am in the process uploading a video you my channel on youtube and if I do I will post it here. May end up being late to premier it as it would be christmasy. But as is, it's taking a very long time to convert the edited video to a suitable format to be uploaded onto YouTube.

I don't get it. I'm not being that much of an attention whore or whatever but there are things that bugs me.

I mean I don't know what gives. I mean why are my journals really ignored. I mean does people not care anymore about some of the shit that happened in my life.

Like for instance. I vented about all this BS that have me not welcomed to the December BBQ and I feel people are like meh.

I also lost watchers on FA for no particular reason and what is worse is that I get no artist boost nor shoutout of both my YouTube or here.

I mean at least I have 260 followers on furry amino but where YouTube is concerned, I still have just 72 subscribers.

I am getting to this feeling in my gut that FurAffinity is in a brink of dying. Because of not, people would help me out with my problems here or at least make an effort to settle these things.

Hey all of you my watchers. How's Halloween going going for you guys?

Mines just didn't turn the way I wanted to. I mean you know that Halloween of 2016 is the first one since I finally have my first ever fursuit. All I wanted to do is to celebrate it by going on an outing in one of my suits somewhere not in woop woop. Preferably at a costume meet in Newcastle or the NSW hunter region somewhere. I just don't care what sort of event there is. Can't be as my sona as that he as a suit is due for a new tail at the one i made fucked up on me since FurJam and if I did Bruzo would be seen as lizard that is missing a tail. Most likely as something that didn't appear to be half assed as a costume such as my mascot cosplay of Umbreon otherwise I would roam the street as Bruzo. Hopefully next year if I have a new tail made in time. If only my tail didn't decide to fall apart like it did and make it out as that I'm in the streets as my fursona patrolling and protecting the innocent people, young and old from killer clowns and make it as a joyful and fun tradition as well as a less fearful festivity just for the young ones that are trick or treating. Like some other cosplayers the decide to dress up as comic book superheros and seem to petrol the streets for the killer clowns and those that are going way too extreme in scaring innocent bystanders.

Sure Halloween is about horror and scarring people dressed as monsters and as is originally intended to scare demons. But there are assholes that are fucking up the festivities for the kids that were otherwise wanted to do trick-or treating.

Really, I didn't want to go too elaborate as is going that far to the festivities of halloween as I'm too old to be that elaborate to the customs of the holiday. I just wanted to go out somewhere in a fursuit for a couple of hours. That's all.
Besides, that is what Halloween encourages people to dress in as in beside there existent human selves.

But there was nothing on that i could go to that encourages people to dress up in costume in my area that I'm aware of anywhere in my area. But instead I needed to be imaginative on the possible ways I can make as a fursuit outing. First thing I thought of that my RL dad was taking my RL mum out grocery shopping at a local shopping center that day. and despite it weren't traditionally the time of Halloween to dress up in costume, I wanted to come with as I wanted to go out in one of my fursuits. They are dead set against that idea as they are too fussy.

Like get this! Not even in Halloween (where it is encourage to where a costume in public no matter where you are in the world) they not would allow me to be around them while I'm in any of my fursuits. And it was sweet fuck all. As is in all my life I seen little kids around in public areas dressed as Spiderman, Ironman, Batman, etc. even in days that it isn't even book week nor coming home from any kids fancy dress party or dressing for that. Am I PO'ed seeing this? Hell absolutely not. But yet my RL paternal family would hardly let me dress in whatever I want and be around them. My non fur baby brother allowed me to come with him at an EB expo dressed in my mascot cosplay as Umbreon (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21509592/) thank fuck only because while we're out in the convention simply because he don't want drama while he's out with me and TBH neither do I. But he refuses to let me be in character around him as my character on the day.

But even on Halloween, my parents do not want me around while in any of my fursuits no matter how much I begged them. And every single time I bring this issue to them causes drama and I am apparently the catalyst for it. As in I always have the burden for this drama. All I wanted is to try and celebrate my first Halloween as a fursuiter the way i wanted and apparently I can't as there are nowhere to go within the local area I can go to.

Absolutely fucked my plans up. Like what gives. I'm so frustrated at my own parents for that. Not like I'm forcing this furry thing down their throats like I supposedly am according to their bullshit.

But now I feel that I need to go somewhere else and at another date ASAP to make up for the Halloween that I missed for that plan of mine that I made for myself way before Halloween of 2016. And I don't care when and where because if not, then it would make it difficult to manage waiting for the furry meet at Sydney Olympic park in 2 months time and I am so planing to go there.

But you know because of the killer clown trend going around that stops most of the Halloween costume event in my hometown, my first Halloween as a fursuiter completely sucks as there are no where I can go out to that is encouragable for me to go out in at least one of my suits that I'm aware of at the time.

To be off tangent, I noticed that I reached 100 watchers on FA. Which is amazing and thus I'm so so happy with achieving thank to you guys. I'm thinking about doing something here on Fur Affinity in for or a raffle of some sort like the prize would most likely be an adoptable character of my own free liberty design or a thank you video on my channel or debuting a live stream with you all, similar to  TienLong's grumpstream and  Kagemushi's winestream like I wanted to get up an running. My histstream. So not like you won't watch me for nothing. I always love to as well as wanting to give back to those supporting me. I cannot thank you enough. I love you all.

But as always I hope by the spirit of the hist, that you have or had a very fun, scary and happy Halloween to enjoy no matter how you celebrate the holiday!

As you know by now that around a fortnight ago I was suiting up at the EB Expo in Sydney cosplaying in my Umbreon. I had a very amazing time as i get to go out suiting which i enjoy really much. I had a lot of photos taken of me in the suit by a lot of attendees and the kids at the convention really love my suit to a point they wanted to have a bit of a play around with this Pokemon that i am and I brought a lot of smiles to there faces.

Perhaps a lot of fursuit shenanigans I performed for them. At one stage I had a belly rub and petted and yeah I gave a lot of hugs to those who wanted it for umbreon. I was also had a hand at doing some fursuit dancing in the Just Dance booth. Well practically sort of because i had a turn of the game and i want to play it in fullsuit. Just to have a feeling of it and I'm at the end of the song I danced to, Before I left the booth, I regrettably ruined the magic as I was going to literally pass out from this exhaustion. I mean I wouldn't be much of a dancer fur like i was eager to prove myself as. Especially suited. That moment makes me appreciate the performers enduring ability to dance dressed as what I'm in that I saw on YouTube. And not to mention competing like that in fullsuit. And not once I have seen suiters ruin the magic even in front of the audience and Judges on stage. Trust me. It is so even more difficult to dance an a suit than out of it. And personally I learnt it the hard way. I better stick to other forms of fursuit performing like cosplay character performance or what we call in the cosplay community, mascot-ting which I enjoy doing anyway. Not actual fursuit dancing like you see at furry conventions. Perhaps LARP style combat calisthenics as acts in masquerades and cosplay comps in future convention i go to as Bruzo.

Speaking of which. As I was planning on entering a cosplay comp while I was at the EB Expo. I was thinking on entering Umbreon to it but the time I decided to be at the registration booth, the comp was closed for rego. I was so upset because the fursuit i was wearing isn't of my intended sona. But the suit is my baby and I'm there to give umbreon the use it was designed for. This suit is my first experience in a real fursuit and I want to see it's potential in getting me a win in the cosplay competition as that it's actually a mascot cosplay costume. Well there should be no other excuse on entering a cosplay comp other than the suiter wanting to be in the show. And wanting to achieve something as that I am very competitive in the field of cosplay as that I never did any sport for an actual sports team as a hatching. But lucky for me there was a Pikachu mascot that is entering the competition as seeing that there is another Pokemon suiter at the convention and is entering, Because I was the last minute entry, the guy in the Pikachu agreed to enter as a group with me. He didn't have to but he did. He is a very nice person to group with a complete strange like me. Perhaps because I to was a mascot as a Pokemon. So I at the last minute entered as a group of the 2 strangers in Pokemon costumes and performed together in the comp. Sucks that we lost in the group category. But I should be the one to blame as I didn't officially registered even originally with Pikachu and the Pikachu was originally entered as a solo. But no drama nor but hurt on my behalf. As at least I have fun bringing smiles to peoples faces.

But there are some dramas that I experienced as I went into the convention itself my wallet which I had bring somehow went missing. Most likely since I finished suiting up before i got in. Or earlier as I got off the bus that My baby brother, his mates and I caught from Strathfield Station to Olympic Park of which is the host venue of the convention. I had noticed that it went missing as that I wanted to see a live show of a game review show here in Australia called Good Games and I didn't have the right pass to get in for free so I had to buy a ticket. So I searched every single crevasse in my backpack and eventually it want missing. I was so angry this had happened and moreso towards myself. I was like. What dafuq. I was in stress mode. I was at this point that I broke out of this cute puppy dog character I'm intended like all eevees tend to be like And I was in distress mode. So at least this entry into the cosplay comp took my mind off a bit.

But as for pictures of my time in that convention. As I were promised by some of the photographers that I will find them on there social media pages. Been like nearly 3 weeks now since EB games expo had ended for this year. Out of all the photos that had been uploaded on the internet of the convention especially of the cosplayers. Facebook, Instagram, or video footage on other YouTube channels. Sadly and man I'm stressing over this none of them have me in that suit in the day of the convention. Otherwise, not only will it be posted on my facebook but more will be posted on my FA gallery.

Hey, Originally I wanted to make a fursuit rant video on this topic to be on my YouTube channel. But for some reason, a non furry friend talked me out of even planning to make it. As it may cause a retaliation towards me by those assholes that dress as clowns. Because I did videos way before I got my first fursuit. And unmasked as my real life human form. I foolishly didn't use Facerig as I didn't have that program uploaded on the computer nor have different animations of my avatar which would be my fursona like a fellow furry youtuber, Kotherix. So people would know what I look like unmasked and that means I would be an easy target to get bashed by these that are involved in this stupid criminal activity. So I thought it would be best if i rant here on Fur Affinity where it would be safe.

For those that don't know what I'm talking about, as I heard. there are some numerous clown sightings late at night in the US that seem creepy but get this. It's a marketing campaign for some remake of "It". A horror movie about a killer clown that is based on a book written by Steven King. I know that there are random cases of people who dress as clowns in full costume and makeup and that are seem to be stalking normal bystanders for no other reason but as a PR for this remake. Even I thought it is cringy and creepy as fuck. No wonder I prefer the company of other fursuiters then clowns. But not that I'm 100% anti clown as I befriended a photographer who is commonly known as Twisty because he mostly cosplayed as a character of that name out of Freak show and another even though that she doesn't seem to wear makeup of a clown but her fursona which is also a fursuit she has is an anthropomorphic mouse that appears to be a clown. I thankfully have nothing against them what so ever.

But this is what gets to me the most. Back in that country of United States, there has been a crime-wave of people dressed as clowns only to rob people and place and numerous random bashing. But Bruzo, why are you concerned about something that happened overseas and not where I am? Because there are also a crime wave of copycats here in Australia of the same type of dickheads that dress in full costume and makeup as clowns doing the same type of shit and I won't be too surprised if it continues through Halloween. I mean seriously. Dafuq is up with this ridiculous and stupid trend. Don't these people have anything better to do then to commit such this utterly stupid crime. People like them are the reasons that in some places, it's illegal to go in public dressed in fursuit let alone a mask. And if this continues it will completely fuck up Halloween when it is the one day of a year that is deemed appropriate to be anywhere in the world to be in public dressed up in a costume especially a fursuit of any sort. And now if it continues those fucktards will fuck it up as it would be even illegal to wear a mask nor makeup in public for Halloween even if it's to go trick or treating. I can imagine now for example little jimmy wants to go out as Batman for Halloween and can't wear his Batman costume complete with a plastic mask but instead only allowed to wear a t-shirt with a logo and pretend to be batman for candy. Or if a kid has got a fursuit made by Lavafox but cannot go in public wearing that even for candy because it's apparently been made illegal.

This is getting beyond a complete unfunny joke now. And as I'm talking about clowns, this is not intended to be a pun. It is so uncool. It is stupid as well as harmful. And this needs to stop right now. Because even I do enjoy Halloween and I personally don't want it to be ruined be some real life Joker wannabe. And I live in a country that doesn't traditionally reckon Halloween as a day on the calendar to celebrate. Neither do anyone who enjoys dressing up for this occasion.

I really don't want to write journals to bitch on things I think as trivial as this but I really need to vent out on this issue in some form or another.

https://youtu.be/X-NE01v4HGk
If you have any questions that you want to ask me. You are more than welcome to type it in to the comments down below.

You know, I had took a 3 hour train ride from my hometown and that is including changing trains at Central. Literally had to carry my head and tail I made for my own argonian fursona and a backpack with my other essential shit including my wallet and I phone. I do not bring another person with me like that it's recommended for fursuiters. And man, it is so worth it. Woop, woop!

I mean think about it. A 26 year old man who lives in a city where the furry fandom is so much of an alien subculture here. And enjoys cosplaying and fursuiting. But has not been to a real furry event before this. Not to mention my social skills are so shit.

Also by the way. This is actually the first time I went out in public anywhere as an argonian in the name of Bruzo. People were in awe as I put on this partial like the times I did as being in this mascot cosplay fullsuit of Shiny Umbreon. Even in the trains coming to and from the meet. Even in Central station and in the suburb of Wolli Creek which is South East of Sydney. I meet some amazing and awesome people that are both non suiters and fursuiters. Some of which include one of my sempis of both of the furry and YouTube community  PocariRoo,  Muttasaur, etc. I get to have photos taken with them. All of them are very nice people.

Some People wanted to take pictures of me which is cool. I had made a lot of friends there. The only drama I had over there is my tail being decapitated and ruined as that it actually fell apart from the kidney the I taped and hot glued it too. It is unfortunate but the partial I was wearing is still at it's testing phase. I put the blame on myself for that as I thought my work on the tail was structurally sound but neither the glue and the duct tape hold together. It was an absolute disaster on my behalf. But I didn't let that get to me as much. I still had fun and enjoyment from it.

But there is this 1 main thing I regret about it. That is I didn't book accommodation anywhere in Sydney. Not to mention that I didn't register for the whole weekend of the event. But because of the distance between where I live and the place the event took place in the accommodation is my top priority. Because it is stupid to catch 4 trains per day of the weekend all that way. I was there of a very limited time and I had no choice to pull a one dayer. And that is a very stupid mistake I also made.

And in this day to the next suit outing, I'm suffering Post Con Dep. There is much I wanted to do like hug many other fursuiters take picture and selfies with them. Getting to know them more as not only as their fursonas but also as humans in the costumes. Also I miss hanging out with them but what can I do? No choice but to wait for the next years one or better the next furry event I can make it to.

Because it's my first real furry event I been to, it is really something that puts a smile on my face as I can finally be out of my shell and express that way I see myself as. I am not an only out of towner in the meet. I know the majority of furs even though all but 1 which is Muttasaur reside in NSW. But wither there fursuiters or non suiters. I consider the attending furs as my distant family. I just want to say in closing that to the staff that put thing together, the fellow attendees and the volunteers. If you read this I want to thank you all for this effort in making an event that is encourage able to be expressive to ourselves and cater to those in NSW who have no financial means to go interstate just for a furry event. I am looking forward to have our paths to cross again. Be it as a convention or a meet. Be it as  FurJam,  FurDU,  Confurgence, Anthrocon or whatever. You are all awesome.

You know that  FurJam is on this weekend and if you don't it is. And I will be so going but unfortunately planning on pulling a one dayer. But none the less I am so fucking pumped up to go. As though this ain't the first time I been in a furpile as that I already been in one at Sydney Nova mid this year. But really, I haven't been to any real furry related event in my entire life ever since I became a fur. And hell yeah I will be suiting. and I am so getting more and more ecstatic and exited for every day subtracted to the date of the event. I mean I want this day to come to come now. But I know I have to wait at least till this Saturday. That is how many? 4 or 5 days.

I know the jam starts on a Friday night. But I'm going on a Saturday morning and I'm most likely go by train. But then it's all a matter which one of my suits to go in which is either Umbreon or Bruzo who is my newly made and second fursuit. IDK.

Speaking of which. As you all know by now, my main sona is now a fursuit that is brought to life by me as his maker and the suiter. I don't want to write too much so I will let this video explain it:
https://youtu.be/_BbwyiaWnEM

So I declare my hiatus from v-logging absolutely over as by now I have more video ideas on the topics of Argonian.POV which from now on will be actually be in suit as Bruzo Dragonius. I reckon I might get around at least around 100 subscribers to my channel on Youtube by the end of this year. Perhaps moreso if I collaborated with other youtubers. Watchers on my FA would reach around the 120 mark because I got myself down as a fursuiter on my profile. I'm also thinking about making more skits to make for my videos. As is, I'm thinking on making a con video at FurJam and EB Expo this month. Also I'm planning on doing another Q and A video on YouTube to be uploaded by Wednesday in Australian time. And do my take on "What you want to know Wednesday" where you ask me some questions about myself or furry related topics you want to know about. As long as you don't ask me too personal questions and keep it at least ATM, PG13

I know that the concept of the What you want to know Wednesday videos on YouTube had been done heaps of times before by another furry but the reason I'm planning on doing it to this concept because I wanted to have it in line of TMI Tuesday in most parts of the world. So even though this journal isn't the official one to open my coming Q and A to, doesn't mean you ain't allowed to ask me any question between now and the opening video to announce it.

To my watchers that I also have as friends on Facebook. I think I need to write this because I feel I need to come forward with this issue I been having. And hoping that if you read this that you can be aware of what I just gone through.

As of late, I received messages of my old Facebook account from who I friended saying something about that I actually messaged them about this fake lottery and the bullshit that personally I wish it ain't that. It claimed that I "actually" won $67,000. That it's all "legal" and "legit". Making out that I was jumping for joy exited receiving that cash. But the truth is that it is nothing but BS. It claimed that it's actually the real me.

The thing is that sometime around last week, I got messaged from a friend about this fictional Facebook Freedom Lottery. And it claimed that people's accounts get picked at random to win the money and in order to claim it, you need to message some person who is actually impersonating a lawyer to claim it. Which I did. Then it comes to writhing down my personal details. I know it is one of the most idiotic think any person in general and the most for me.

I should know by now not to buy into those scams. But I did sort of. But I was desperate for money that I would buy into these lies. I know it's too good to be true. But as soon it asked for $US750, I did the smart as possible thing and backed out. But it was too late. Now I was blocked from my own account as the password has changed on me. I had to make a completely new Facebook account for my self with a new password and a different profile picture so my friends would know the difference between the real me and someone impersonating me. Thank fuck I didn't give away my bank details. As that is beyond retarded thing to do. So Thank fuck I did not looses more money than I gained.

Am I writing to say this to say "Hey it's awesome that I got pulled in to this bullshit because I supposedly am getting tens of thousands of dollars that I actually ain't seeing nor getting"? No. It sucks to get scammed for anyone. I would not recommend anyone to have that happen to themselves. The reason I written this is because I want people to be aware that this has happened to me and I'm stupid enough to let it happen like that. I know a majority of my friend are smart enough to not buy into it. But please do not buy into what my old Facebook account say. If any of hat shit happen. Please report it. If you blocked my old account because of this annoyance it giving to you I don't blame you. It would be best to. I made a new one that is the real me. As far as I'm concerned, the nickname I give my old account is "Bruzo.exe". Which suits it well. Please do not fall into this scam like I did. Fecause not only it affected my Facebook but it may did affect my PSN account, email and possibly my YouTube account. Thank fuck it didn't do much damage. But it could have. But to those that are affected by this, I'm so deeply at the bottom of my heart am sorry.

There are things that have been bothering me. No this is not about this artwork I so badly wanted done for me. As a matter of fact I had it done by a very nice person who I commissioned and it turned out amazing because of the effort Mikey (aka  IvoryPocky) had made. I am in love with that art and adore it.

But there is something else is bothering me. And I get all grumpy if I spend longer then a month out of suit. I get into moods, stress and depression if I remain human for longer than a month. I tend to feel to become something that I hate about the furry and also the cosplay fandoms. A drama douche. I like all of you don't like that kind of crap in this community even though we all result to no choice that it exist in all cultures.

The last time I been in a fursuit is the time I filmed myself doing the running man challenge in Umbreon as part of the 50 subscriber milestone I have for my most active YouTube channel. That is like a fucking month plus. It's near the end of August which is thus the end of winter in Australia and I have not been in Umbreon simply because I have not been given the appropriate time nor reason to do so. That is why I'm too focused on building my own my sona suit because I want to put my mind on other things I really want done on the positives in place of this fursuit angst. Because the sooner I get Bruzo completed, the sooner I can make future v-logs as him on YouTube as a way of entertaining my subscribers at least and spend time in a fursuit. Especially the suit that I had put my own heart and soul into.

And now the matter at hand. As that it's for sure and official that I will be going to EB Expo hopefully and be as a Pokémon with my anti fur brother and his boyfriend. As an additional suiting excursion for me to FurJam in the week before. I paid for all 3 tickets to EB expo. I going there as mainly a fursuit outing for me as well as checking out the up and coming video games where the other 2 are only for gaming. I'm happy for once that my baby brother permitted me top suit around him in at least in travel to the convention but the dog (not intending to use fur puns but it's the way I sometimes speak normally) move is that he will not do me a favour and act as my trainer just for this day nor be around him is a fursuiter.

And the thing is that a. if I had to carry a heavy bag on my shoulders that heavy, the fur would stretch and easily get ripped so hopefully I can leave home wearing umbreon for EB Expo and b. I need to be with him as I lost my phone and I need to have know where he is encase I need to meet him. I don't want to force him stop doing the things his interested in doing as I want him to enjoy his time so he would help me doing the things I personally enjoy doing. But I do not want to loose enjoyment by not allowed to do things I so love doing. Because that causes drama for both myself and my brother and I hate that to happen with passion. I want to go to cons as a resort to the things I enjoy doing. That's it. Not to cater for a dress code a person is forcing onto me to satisfy their preferences. It's bad enough that 1. I not often get to go public suiting as I do not have a willing handler to help me out so please my fellow suiters, don't say your handlers bailed out on you at the time you need them the most and then tell me that you are going to a furry convention following that in the same piece. Because I will end up commenting and say at least your have or had someone willing to be your handler where I personally had no choice to solo suit.

Bad enough I never get to go to a Rugby league game or any sporting event in suit or out in public. It's nothing personal to any of you.

As is despite that other thing I did which is bad and potentially dishing out repercussions to me doing so. I don't want to talk about because it's irrelevant to what I'm writing about, I'm so looking forward to EB Expo and FurJam.

This is a bit of a short journal as that this is a bit on the progress of making Bruzo as a fursuit for myself. But as you know. I had proudly finished 1 part of him and that is his tail.

Now for this I'm now making both the hands as well as painting and assembling the mask which I plan for it to double as a head base. And thanks to the weather allowing for me to do this. I was able to start painting my mask. The weather was reasonable for me to do the painting as even though it's still winter when I started the painting. It did seemed to be warm enough for me to do that for the past couple of days even though the weather is behaving like a pregnant lady having schizophrenia week in and week out. As in 1 period it started to be a nice day that is nice and sunny with the temperature in the tops of the mid 20s. Like mid to late spring type climate then it decided to spoil my schedule on my project by being wet and miserable. Like what it did decide to do on most days I decided to go out fursuiting.

So yeah. I decide to work on the hands and the head simultaneously. For the hands I did decide to make them out of the left over vinyl I used as a skin to cover Bruzo's tail as it overestimated the length I needed from purchase and lately I shortened the tail by roughly around I'm guessing 30cm. But as I made 1 glove, I had a hard time getting it on as I accidently made it too small. So I decided to scrap it and brought myself a pair of gardening gloves, glued the claws I made myself and planning to eventually "fur" them with a scale type fabric all over except for the palm and of course the claws.

Also In other news, my package of 2 balaclavas that I brought from e bay arrived at my front door. The reason that I brought 2 is that I wanted 1 that I can use as a base for my argonian head and the other 1 want to have as a one I could wear underneath in the future of suiting up as Umbreon or any other fursuit character I plan I may or may not get as a fursuit.

But when to expect Bruzo to be officially be finished? Well I'm in not rush to have my project finished as I want to set the deadline for myself on this suit by Confurgence 2017 but if anything goes well for me, I'm estimating that pet project of mine would be finished by around the period between Halloween and Christmas.

I want to make a statement on the issue I'm facing ATM. Not too long ago, I bided at a YCH auction that  Gem-Wolf did. It was for a Pokémon Go themed YCH art. I thought it would interest me. Because ever since I saw an artwork that is commissioned to a fellow Pokémon cosplayer  MegaCharizardX of her sergal fursona as a trainer for and with her fursuit. Since then, I'd like that art like that done for me. But instead, It would be my main fursona (soon to become my second suit) with a shiny Umbreon.

The reason I want to pay money to have Bruzo as a Pokémon trainer of his (my) umbreon Is because I have not received much photos in my pokemon fursuit at conventions that I didn't need to pay for. Those that are taken by photographers be it as professional cosplay photographer that volunteer to take photos or work for an editor of some sort to those that took their kids to conventions I was at. The shiny version of umbreon is a huge significance to me as a fur because he is the suit that I put on the first time I be in a fursuit. That Pokémon is my Bab at the time I got him. And for that I really wanted my 2 cosplays (at the time I receive the art Bruzo Dragonius will be a complete suit hopefully) to be in the one art piece.

Not that I'm against artists charging through Pay Pal all together to draw for the commissioner or competing against other furs for these type of things. Be it as an action, buying slots, raffles or a dance off. Not that I don't have internet banking nor even a Pay Pal. As a matter of fact, I have both. Just that 1. admitting that I had help wiring some of my money from my savings to Red Neb Studios via my pay pal. At the time I commissioned for a mask blank for me to use as a resin blank for my argoninan fursuit head I am planning to make for me. And 2. this Pay Pal is giving me the shits as I find it near impossible to transfer my money from one of me bank accounts to my Pay Pal account as that I only last time I transferred $AU400 just to pay for my argonian mask blank. And as of now I have 0 on Pay Pal because I only transferred my money which I spent on my argonian resin blank.

IDK. Gem Wolf is the only Australian artist I found that are doing the closest resemblance to the artwork I wanted to have done. And I like my could've been argonian fursuit commission, I'd feel I only afford to commission artists that charge the Australian dollar at highest. Gem seems to be a heaps good artist. Don't get me wrong. I do not want to give up my prize but I'm still new to Pay Pal. Pay Pal is so user unfriendly to my standards. I received a notification from Gem saying I still haven't paid her yet and I will when I can. I'm trying to redeem my reputation from artists as one nearly fucked me right up reguarding my argonian fursuit commission by plastering my name on the artist beware site.

Fuck I wished I did not have a dislike to my dance video I used to enter the Kerfluffle because that itself fucked me right up in the comp. So thus gave me a disadvantage because judges pick on that criteria I think. Because if I do win (not like I would anyway, I'd use that request to do art of Bruzo with a shiny umbreon.

I do not want to tell anyone what to draw for me for free. People are more than welcome to draw whatever and whoever they want. If you want to draw my fursona, for me, awesome. I will appreciate the effort. But if you don't so be it.

But I could write an essay on this. But that is all I want to get out of my chest.

Hey all! This is your favourite argonian youtuber writing this in one hell of a happy mood. Despite the way my team is going this season in the NRL which is shit and destined for the wooden spoon for the second season in the row. But fuck it! I did not go all that way to Brookvale Oval on Sydney's north shore just to watch my team to potentially have their asses handed to the very team I loathe mainly because of their yobbo fans. I'm talking of course Manly Sea Eagles. Not meant to take it out on any furs that supports Manly (who it's confirmed follow little as in a certain to no sport) or eagles in the furry fandom.


Instead, I stayed home watching and being part of the chat during  tienlong's Grumpystream. Speaking of which. I did not recall of being a patron of Tien nor anyone online. I'm not saying that I'm not a supporting person to other's known online especially in the furry and YouTube community like myself. Just that I feel that I don't have the financial means to be someone else's patron. But it's apparent that I am a patron of a celestial eastern dragon. But I took advantage on the offer and requested a drawing of myself with Tien Long. So I requested a drawing of me being taught martial arts by Tien himself. He drew me as a dragon like him even though I ain't a dragon. I explained that I'm an argonian which is a lizard. But I'm cool with him drawing me like that. As a hatchling, IRL I have a huge interest in dragons to a point that it's one of my choices of what I want to be as a fur and most likely be if there are no such game as Elder Scrolls. But before that drawing to commence I said, "what me?". I cannot believe it like what I actually am thinking is "Dafaq?"


But yeah. I was oblivious on that fact that I'm actually a patron of someone. That ain't like me. Not that I don't want to be a patron of anyone. Just that I don't feel that much financially inclined to be a patron because of the lack of money for both my pet project I'm working on and that's of course building a scale suit form of Bruzo himself to hopefully go as him in cons and make videos as Bruzo the way I intend be as. Not as a human v-logger on YouTube. Not only that but I got conventions I want to go to like hopefully Confurgence of 2017 in Melbourne. So more so I need my own patrons and obviously to do so I need to make a patron. Not only to buy equipment and software to better my content like a clichéd youtuber. But like a clichéd fur and cosplayer, to go to cons I dream of going and meet my friends and favourite furs in real life in suit as my characters be it either as my shiny Umbreon or hopefully my main intended argonian fursona, Bruzo Dragonius. But not to actually put to my pet project which hopefully will be done by confurgence next year.

Speaking of which in case you don't know. I'm so excited that on last friday, the very package that I am dead by waiting on that is sent all the way from the US I paid for with my own money. Addressed from Red Nebula Studios. I finally got my mask kit that will be a part the head of my suit I'm working on. I ended up very ecstatic of this package that I wanted my viewers to witness this unboxing. And to do this as I promised I made the unboxing video and uploaded it to my channel on YouTube. If you want to see the video here it is:
https://youtu.be/ld4Rjq-KGKU

So what will happen in the for the duration of my suit build?
There will not be much change in activity of me in FA and on Facebook. But the video uploads in my YouTube channel will be less frequent then it is. As that I am taking a hiatus on doing V-logs but instead making cons and fursuiting videos as Umbreon. Not talking about the fursuiting maintenance and ethics like clichéd youtubers do, yet. If I can, I could squeeze in some collaborations with youtubers. Only if they want me in their videos. But I promise to share you some progress photos of the argonian every now and then. On Fur Affinity and Facebook as well as the usual art and photos I intend to put in my gallery. I will do my usual commenting if I feel the need to. I really do enjoy getting subscribers to my channel as well as receiving art from you guys which will most likely be on my gallery and no worry. I will not be a dick and refuse to credit the artist.

I finally have some real amazing news that I love to share with you. It ain't me venting all the anger, stress and frustration about my experiences.

Perhaps except that I regretfully missed the 1 winestream Uncle Kage hosted that I so looked forward for a 3 hour bus trip from Newcastle to a Rugby League game at the Shire south of Sydney. Just to see my team, Newcastle Knights loose to Cronulla Sharks, 36 - 4. That is the stream  Kagemushi himself organised to actually have Telephone and her hubby, Radio with him. Not only that but as I predicted because I watched bits of it on YouTube which is on  nightdragon0's YouTube channel, not only  Ino89777 in suit as her Dutch Angel Dragon. The suit and character that is well known in the furry fandom for a heaps good reason. Hell, I'm a fan boy of Telephone as well. And Radio in suit as one of his fursonas. Not as in suit Radio the DAD. But also my favourite pianist  Foxamoore is also with them. Your dragon fursuit Hyshaji which looks amazing is the reason I subbed to your channel and although I was frustrated of missing that stream for a loosing game in Cronulla you gave me another reason that I have subscribed to your channel. Don't worry, I ain't taking out my anger on any fur what so ever for my latest miner and trivial misfortune. Just that I happily thank you so much for uploading bits of it.
https://youtu.be/apYFTHUdmG4

That is out of the way. Now to the good news for myself as well to those supporting me through Facebook, YouTube subscriptions and FA and perhaps FN. I am so happy that recently, I had checked my emails and I came across this message Red Neb had sent me. The amazing news is that the mask kit is made and as I'm writing this, It's on it's way to Australia all the way from the US. It even came with the tracking number they kindly gave me so I can easily retract its location of it and process the package is going though.

And when it gets to my doorstep like I said, I will be making an unboxing video like I promise. Along side my 50 subscriber special. Which I will be start making once I reach at least 2 more as ATM I have 48 subs to my channel. So if you are interested in checking the 2 up and coming videos and future content beyond that, Please subscribe to my channel if you haven't already so you will be one of the first to know about it. Here's the link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCk.....4yPHzA2qDnWDyA

Between the unboxing video and the costume reveal I'm thinking about taking a temporary hiatus from making content on my channel until my argonian suit is finished so you can see the absolute finished product. The only video I will be also making in that time period is my 50 sub special which will be a Bruzo's Internet Challenge episode involving the Running Man Challenge. Maybe if I know how to do this right I will debut my series of my own gaming videos. And maybe my entry videos of the next Kerfluffle. Oh fuck it! Perhaps my convention videos of  FurJam and EB Expo. But I at least am taking a hiatus from V-logs.

Speaking of FurJam, I have registered to be part of it. In fact, unfortunately, I'm pulling a one dayer and only for the BBQ meet because I am not confident in booking accommodation for myself. Even in Sydney of also where I live is the reason I'd need to book for accommodation for longer then the period. And the main thing I'm into furcons is I can hang out and go out suiting with other furs which I do enjoy. And also getting this first hand taste of being at a furcon or meet.

I knew this would come in handy and as for  Katalina thank you so much for telling me how to do this!

This is the video this journal is on seeing that I write long journals.

https://youtu.be/cBn8X0hm8KQ

This will be very short. As nothing had happened that is interesting for me to talk about that I haven't announced on here or on YouTube. Just a couple of things.

First and foremost, a friend on Facebook of mine who is known really well in the furry community (Most likely because of the number of furry conventions he has been to)  KhordKitty had lost his luggage in a bus home from Anthrocon. It turns out that inside luggage which he lost is his bodysuit. I seen posts on his Facebook page about it and it's just that as a fursuiter myself, I really do sympathise with him. It's that sad and upsetting to be in Khord's current situation. Or any fursuiter who lost even parts of their fursuits. I thought I wanted to help him out in a random act of kindness to spread awareness on the matter not only on Fur Affinity but in form of an episode of "Bruzo lend a hand" on my channel on YouTube. In hopes someone would find it and return it to him.

Secondly, speaking of which as this is out of curiosity. I noticed of journals other furry youtubers posted that contained a screen showing a video out of his or her channel. I noticed this on journals of  Katalina and  CoonArt. How on earth could you actually do that? As that I'd be interested in learning how to do it. Is it some coding you have to do? Or something. Please somebody. Tell me how!!!

Also another thing I want to address to you all that are interested but I noticed a journal that a group page is doing. Apparently, whoever is the admin of is commissioning art of medieval themed fursonas of other furs so for more info please click this link if you are interested in participating: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7690811/

This will be short this week. I know that in my countless journals, some of you by now would be annoyed about me going on and on about my argonian sona being made into a fursuit or at least a cosplay. And I wanting to finally become Bruzo IRL the way I visioned him. If not that, feeling held back and restricted from putting on a fursuit and go out somewhere. And I admit to that. I apologise to you all my watchers and thank you for not un-watching me.

Just that I'm so attached to my scale sona that I want to bring him to life and share him to the entire world. Not just only to those others who play Elder Scrolls Online on PS4. Just like I love to put on a fursuit for the fun of it and go out somewhere in it to bring joy, smiles and positivity to people who otherwise may be living in a shit world we're in. Wither I suit as Bruzo or Umbreon I know and realise I'm doing it for fun and as a hobby. That is my motive. I enjoy the fun of cosplay and fursuiting and I by no means am serious about it like you would treat it like a chore. Because I'm happy when I do it.

The point is that I am happy to announce that I will become Bruzo physically wither or not I'm out sourcing from a fursuit maker. He as a costume will be made mostly as a personal pet project of mine mostly. But in collaboration with Red Nebula Studios as I just brought an argonian mask blank from them online. And be mostly painted by a non furry friend of mine who dose graffiti. That professional street art type. Not this common trashy tagging type shit that the some teenage kids do that is deemed as illegal in terms of vandalism. I ain't sure that the head will be made as a fursuit head or a mask only. But will be a moving jaw like I intend for it to be. But if it dose end up as a fursuit head, it would be a resin balaclava based. As in the face will be painted resin and furred around the face mostly with faux crocodile leather I found online in Spotlight (http://www.spotlightstores.com/fabrics-yarn/specialty-apparel-fabrics/felt-fur-fabrics/faux-crocodile-leather/p/BP80330974). I think it's the fake synthetic type.

So do not worry, it means it isn't real croc hide. If it turns out to be, the fabric itself will be twice as much expensive and I will be so disillusioned. As that I'm against using real animal hide as that I do not believe in animals being slaughtered just to be harvested for fashion. I believe they should be only killed for meat and be in a humane manner and most parts to be deemed as eatable or at least used in cooking.

I plan for the hand sleeves and hands to be made with the same material and if I intend to make the tail it will be also furred with that as well. Providing that for the tail I want it to be moving naturally with me as the wearer like it would for a 2 legged dinosaur if dinosaurs are still alive. But for that I might commission a maker to make the tail for me or buy one online or at a convention.

Speaking of which. To those of you who attended Anthrocon, I hope you enjoyed your time there. I for one is wishing to fly down to Pittsburg to see and suit with you. But in reality I could not make it this year because the flights alone even in economy is ATM too much expensive. Because it is like an international flight on my behalf. And I knew from the get go that I had no option to man up and accept it. If only I'm at least American, I can have much more financial intention to go. I'd love to though but some day I will make it to AC in person. That is a dream for me that is far from reality ATM.

But segwaying into another topic, I trust to those of my American furry friends that today in Austraila as this journal is written is very important to your customs and your culture as a nation. It may not be as important down here and normally as an Australian it shouldn't be of my relevance. But I'm thinking of you as I made friends in the fandom I would love to meet in the flesh in the US. No matter where you are the world I do always think of all of you. But this day is the day as you know marks a date in US history where United States of America finally gets independence as a nation. And as a friend of you all my watchers in America I acknowledge that this is your special public holiday that I'm celebrating with you in thanks for your support wither you are a watcher of mine in Fur Affinity, friend on Facebook or subscribed to my channel on YouTube. I want to close of by saying have a happy and amazing July 4!!!!!!!

I know that I announced about this on my Facebook. But in case you ain't friends with me on Facebook nor subscribed to my YouTube channel, I signed up for and competed in a furry oriented online dance competition organised by  khordkitty called the Kerfluffled dance off. Till then, I had never ever made a dance video nor danced in a fursuit before. This was by far my first time doing both. And knowing there was 2 divisions of the comp. Fursuit and Non-suit, I competed in the fursuit division as of course my pokesona and under the name of "BreBluzled".
:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vHKdGy5xZs:

The notable furs I could've competed against in my division was  FlashHound and  TwilightSaint as Sniper. Despite that it was an online dance competition where to compete is for each round you progress is to record yourself dancing, upload it to YouTube and no matter if I'm doing this in private, I was so nervous. Because I know I'm being judged on this. I'm actually competing on something I may or may not be good at. I had to also submit the link to my entry video as an email to Khord himself so he and the other judges including but not limited  wolflumin AKA ,Rinn.

I didn't face off against neither Flash Hound nor Sniper in this comp as they were in separate brackets to me in the first round. But however my most favourite fursuit dancer, Rinn is watching me dance on YouTube and it was an honour to perform in front of him. I didn't know how the judges would rate it as. I knew I had Muffinscake in the first round and I wasn't too familiar with this other fursuiter.

But the next day, I was cut and pasting the link to this video only to notice there was 1 dislike and 0 likes. Not like I was buthurt over a dislike in any of my videos as this was the first time I felt this way because this was my entry video in an online dance comp. I'm getting judged to compete in a dance off and I got a dislike already how would the judges feel about it? Will they ignore the fact I have a dislike on it. Or will they think well considering this umbreon fursuiter got a dislike, and Muffinscake got none what so ever.

Unfortunately I got eliminated but fortunately she didn't clean sheet me with the judges votes. As she served me 5 -1. Not all 6 like I predicted. I'm not buthurt on the fact I got eliminated on the first round. But this is what a dislike dose to a competitor in a competition. It could've effect the votes and make the competitor feel insecure about the results. Thankfully, that 1 dislike isn't by any of my subscribers. Perhaps this dislike is a dick move by a troll because it's not like the judges themselves would do that.

But hey, fuck it! This comp is for fun and it will be always a next time. The prize are free pieces of art of your OC/ sonas and if you are a semi finalist you also get that same prize but fewer then the winner. Not like the prize is money in US currency, an all expenses paid furcon invite or money going towards a fursuit commission for your chosen character or sona (I'd use it to commission for Bruzo to be brought into real life as a cosplay/ scale suit and finally get to physically become him). But either way, at least I get to step out of my comfort zone and realize my potential and getting at least a remote chance to compete in such competition. Also the other motivation like most other furs is I do love getting free arts of my sonas. Not like it's any pressure to. Because if I really want them done, I'd commission someone or earn them somehow.

As a Segway, seeing that at this time of the year where it is sooooooooo freezing here in most parts of Australia, I decided into buying another Kigurumi (onesie) on E-bay. This one is of my pokesona which I grew so attached to ever since I received my first fursuit of this very shinny Pokémon to a point of getting one. Be in mind that I am so sorry to those who don't have a fursuit yet that I seem like rubbing this in. I already paid for it using my Visa debit card. I am so looking forward to getting it. At a time like this I thought I could use something like that and seeing that it's of one of my sonas is what makes it so special to me. So maybe if I do get this in the mail, I might do an unboxing or unwrapping video of this set of PJ's and show you my watchers and subscribers.

Hi, my amazing watchers on FA. I hope I'm not boring you too much. As you know this is the first journal I'm writing since I had been to the most amazing convention I had ever been in as a fursuiter yet. And that is of course this years Supernova in Sydney.

I kid you not. Even though that here in the east coast of Australia, it was expected that there was going to be another low which could potentially bring cold winds, rain, and in some areas, a winter storm complete with flash flooding. And ironically it was expected unfortunately from last Friday to Sunday with the worse for it happen on the last day. But thank god mother nature behaved herself as it hardly rained. That is as I went to that very convention. And that means I did not have to wait till I arrived to the cosplay convention before I suit up.

As a matter of fact the weather was so perfect that I could put the body on and I would not get wet thus ruin the suit before I left home to catch the Newcastle to Sydney train. But I did not had any part of my Umbreon fursuit on. Just my under armour, thongs or what some of you call flip flops and street clothes. I was wearing winter apparel because it was around 6.00am and it was freezing. BTW, I was carrying 2 bags for myself. A backpack with some essential equipment to take with me going suiting including 2 bottles of Powerade, and brush. Plus my phone and a camera as I were making a con video while I was there. Umbreon was in a separate bag the I also carried with me.

I ended up driving to the station as my dad who was dropping me off was suspecting to be at least barely tipsy from drinking beers the previous night. Turns out when I got there thankfully I weren't the only person in the local train station. as a matter of fact. Sure I may be the only suiter in the trains going to and from Nova but I wasn't the only cosplayer boarding.

Now fast forward to near this time I actually changed. As I recall. The train was approaching the NSW Central Coast. And I met this interesting middle aged to somewhere in the mid to late 50's. I was told by the lady or the male to move one of my bags off the seats. That is the big carry on bag with the fursuit in it. Not the backpack as that's on the overhead compartment. Forcibly, I did and apologised. As the couple were looking for a seat. I explained why the bag is on the seats in front of me. And then I opened the bag revelling Umbreon's head and just then I stript my street clothes revealing my under armour. And suited as this very Pokémon.

The majority of the passengers in this carriage was in awe as it happened. I now am my pokesona. Including this lady I chat to on the train about Supernova, People got there phones out. Taking picture of me. The lady said she wanted her daughter or grandkids to know who or what is sitting behind her as they are huge Pokémon fanatics. That's what she claimed. The Asian teens on the train who saw me were amazed at this costume. Like wow. It is awkward suiting up on a moving train and in pubic transport but I was confident about how suitable the wether is going to be for me in suit that I just did it anyway.

Now fast forward to the time I actually arrived at Sydney Olympic Park and I was at the front of the train station and as I was preparing myself, some guy came to me asking for selfie with me. I said sure as long he get's patient of me fully in suit which he was. He got what he wanted and I was on my way to the actual venue of the convention. Along side with the fan mobs that came with it. I find it very flattering.

But the people were yelling out Umbreon, Umbeon. I waved. And finally I was in the building despite the other awkwardness of having to get a wristband and having to go through a curtain door. So frustrating. Regrettably even thought I had my wallet with me, I didn't have cash out. And there is this photo op I was eying of which I had to pay cash for. And I thought this could be my only chance to remotely have a decent photo in suit. But this photography table don't accept card payments. But I really wanted to have a picture taken in suit. So I left my bags took my wallet to the nearest ATM. Where I had to pay a $2 surcharge to only get $50 out. And return. Out of Hindsight I should have got $100 in cash out before I gone.

Don't get me wrong. I love getting pictures taken as a Pokémon. Or in fursuit in the matter. Let it be selfies, a group photo with other people and with kids. I love kids. Not as in paedophile like. And love entertaining people.

But that's not all things amazing about Supernova. Even though it's a cosplay convention, I'm more exited on the fact that this is the first time I met other furries in real life and the majority of them in fursuit. Not just other cosplayers but other fursuiters. I had met and I was exited as kid in a toyshop. I had got myself in a fur pile a couple of times. 1 is a dog with wings that I did shenanigans with. Another fullsuiter as a matter of fact. I high 5ed him, I saw an actual dutch angel dragon fursuiter which I had a chat to. A dogs BTW. It was amazing. Meeting other furs. Also I had a chance to speak to an unsuited furry who is wearing a tail who is a fox named as I remembered  DragonovX. sometimes I like to read their badges to learn the names.

Another interesting group of people that I meet is an Eevee group. That included a Vaporion, Glacion, Flareion, Espion and get this, another umbreon but he was a normal version. Not a shiny like me.

I could explain some more thing about the things I experiences at Supernova, both the good and the bad. Mostly good. But as I write this piece, I still have a little con crud and again some form of con dep as there are people I could've meet who are the celebrities and other interesting cosplayers like the one who is suiting as Bowser. And this Raptor named Foxtrot. Plus there was other art I could've commission for of my sonas like a chibis of both Bruzo and Umbreon. Things I could've brought as gifts for my brothers and myself as souvenirs for myself besides just some picture I paid for of me in suit as a Shiny Umbreon on a flash drive. I could go on and on about my experiences in Supernova like a memoir or essay. I'm thinking of going next year but hopefully as a part of a fur group. Hopefully I could go for all 3 days cosplaying as 3 characters including 2 of my primary sonas and perhaps Job out of Lawnmower Man. So if you got comments or questions about this awesome experience I had you are more than welcome to submit them.

I don't know if other YouTube v-loggers get this sort of block on what topic on what to do the next video on. Especially if they did made and upload numerous videos like me. But even though that both of the ideas will be made as episodes of Argonian.POV, I'm not that sure on what should I do next and thus what topic I make a video for following that. These are the 2 topic I were thinking of making video of:-

Mascot Fur Life
I do want make a v-log on this topic. For the reason being is that I want to share my interest of what I'm into lately with my watchers and subscribers. As this may also most likely be the type of thing my intended audience could be into. Seeing that I'm a furry youtuber. For those that don't know about Mascot Fur Life, is a collaborative small film project that is YouTube exclusive about a fursuiter or a furry dreaming of being a soccer (football) mascot. I want to have this as a topic to talk about because it's appealing to me as both a furry and a soccer fan. Also it relives one of the reasons that inspire me of getting into fursuiting.
Trailer for the project: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FIsCtTZKZhY

Pros and cons of fursuiting at a cosplay convention vs. a furcon
I see other furry youtubers talk about the expectations on suiting and going to cons in the lead up near the to the con they're going to. Especially if they are fursuiters themselves. Not only making announcements of going to cons like Anthrocon, FurDU, MFF, Confuzzled, FWA, etc. I not been to a single furry convention in my life yet. So I'm yet to experience these things eventually. But I as you know did suit up as a fursuit cosplayer at a small comic book convention which is classed as a cosplay con. Same as I been to an EB Expo which is a video game trade show that doubles as a cosplay con. But seeing that I will be suiting as Umbreon at Sydney Supernova. I think it will be appropriate to talk about it. Plus I haven't yet done fursuiting related topics on my videos yet. Knowing that I'm a youtuber that actually owns a fursuit.

Hi, to all my watchers on FA. How's your week been going so far? Or your time at conventions wether you are suiting, cosplaying or whatever. Be it that some of you are at either Confuzzled or FurDU. Sorry if I seem so negative but I'm really happy for you enjoying these conventions as yet I do wish I was there with you.

I will start first as I need to vent some things off. Sorry to seem like shit. But I don't want to cause drama or anything but this needs to be written as that I'm frustrated with nature for doing this to me.

First and foremost because of this shit we are copping here not only here in Newcastle. But in almost the entire east coast of Australia and in the form of a low pressure system causing the flash flooding, heavy downpour of rain, I even had to result to cancelling my plans of taking myself on a road trip from here where I am now to Parramatta west of Sydney to fursuit and cosplay at Popcon this month. *hssk* I ain't happy about it at all! Because well the main reason I was going was to ale my PCD that didn't actually take it's effect on me till FurDU last weekend.
Even if I did stick to my plans and go all the way up the M1 to Parra today as this journal is written, my plans on attending will be at or near the verge of being fucked up anyway. Because as is this monthly con I was about to go to and so damn looking forward to driving to and suit up as my Pokesona at got cancelled. Postponed till the next month.

Ha! I may be angry and upset about it as that wether is not permitting me to do what I do enjoy and love which is fursuiting at an event most appropriate for. But I ain't surprised and shocked that much. Because this low had taken its toll on the venue that host this monthly mini convention which is the PCYC there. But I guess it's one of these times where I have no choice but to take the positives out of the negatives instead of being more stupid and wearing my Pokémon fursuit out in the wet wether. And risk ruining it through matting as well as the paintwork on the my umbreon's eyes being potentially messed up from the water. I'm not pointing figures at anyone as that no real life mortal being have the ability to control the weather. I wish I have the real life means to do so but IRL I don't and those that seem to have the technology that allows them to is simply playing God.

But thank fuck I brought myself a ticket for Sydney Supernova this same month on a Saturday. So despite I now have to wait an extra fortnight at least to really make up for FurDU with the fursuit outings I missed that I could've gone to. So thank fuck I got myself a plan "B" outing to make up for it. But I'm dying from waiting on this weekend to start which is of Sydnova.

For those of wondering what it's like with that Knights guard of honour thing I was a part of, It was a great and honourable experience I took part in. It would otherwise be awesome if the Newcastle Knights won it against the Eels. The other thing that is upsetting is I didn't get to be a part of that in suit. In other words unfortunately BreBluzled the Umbreon never got to spend at least one day as the Knights other mascot like I would love for him to be and be in me own fursuit. Not even if this shiny umbreon would be seen that day with the Newcastle Knights rugby league jersey. So even if that Monday night game is on the last day of FurDU. So If God did answered the prayer of a fellow fur. It's not what really what I intend for in mind. But despite that also, I still got some form of enjoyment out of it.

Another highlight of this week is that I travelled by train to Sydney to go to State of Origin 1. I was sitting in the Batchly Blues area. The pre game entertainment is phenomenal with the lights in ANZ stadium behind off and the pyro techniques on the pitch was like wow. The game itself was amazing. And I had a couple of drinks at it. Which consists of 2 apple ciders and a XXXX Gold. But the team I was following New South Wales lost 6-4 to Queensland. That's upsetting to me but also not surprising.

The real most best highlight I had this week is that despite I was late in this stream yesty morning which is in most of your time zones 2 nights ago, I was in the chat of the Wine Stream. Not only  Kagemushi was there by himself. But  TienLong was with him. I mean it was heaps funny as always. I can't stop laughing. Normally Uncle Kage and Tein are like in their own ways funny. But if you put these this mad scientist like Uncle k and the celestial Asian dragon in a room together with a computer and a web cam is like as hilarious as the TV show Top Gear. Hell even more than that and this argonian have one twisted sense of humour. Kage and Tien. if you guys are reading this don't you dare think that watching you are just boring only because you are being pissheads in front of a web cam. And old. Don't you dare think that that we only watch you because we have nothing better to do. I enjoy both of your company and I cannot wait until your next one. Especially if both the 2 world famous dutchies in the fandom, Telephone and Radio being there with you in the next coming wine stream, Uncle Kage.

So that is the end of rant. So how about you people?

As of now, this convention that got all the Ozfurs so hyped up is on now. Including me. Called FurDU. Why? Because it's in one of the most awesome locations in Australia, Gold Coast in Queensland. Hell, I been there twice already and I will recommend to all these people who watch me on FA and follow me on FN who even plan to set foot in my homeland for a break and haven't been, don't leave without spending at least a couple of days there. You will love being there. I'm so fair dinkum about it!

Well anyway enough with the PR advertisement about FurDU and the Gold Coast. I know I gone on and on and on and on like a broken fucking record about wanting to go to FurDU because it in it's self combines the 2 thing I absolutely love in the bottom of my heart. Doing shenanigans in a fursuit and what I think is the most amazing location I have ever been to in my entire life so far Queensland's Gold Coast.

I'm a nice person once you get to know me but I'm more social in a fursuit or cosplay as I am in then unsuited. As a Pokémon, I'm more playful and energetic. Because I like to seem like an Eevee who evolved into Umbreon prematurely. I'm like that in Gosford.

But then comes this hype about FurDU. All the other Australian furry youtubers been on about going their and seemed exited. Including but not limited to  PocariRoo, Blaze Fox and Awesome Rusty Rex. Who is still currently there. Causing me to feel left out as I'm the only youtubing Ozfur who is not going. Which made me so fucking upset. As because of all the payments I had to make out of most my savings account had gone toward my car payments and as is it is at this month I just finished paying for my car. But I didn't save enough in time to go. Never got to. To those there, at least I'm happy to see that you're enjoying it so far. That's all it matters to me ATM. I'm so jealous though but happy for you.

To top it off there is another cosplay con that happened in this same weekend that I could've gone to a bit more near in Coffs Harbour I could use as an alternative but that is also too much if a trip from where I am for me. So really. I knew this con dep got is hitting me that hard that my sanity is suffering. I was insane enough to post statuses of tasks I would love the con staff to do. That even I think it's impossible for them to consider doing in such short timespan and for logistical reasons. I requested art from attending artists at this convention to draw me pictures of my argonian character (which I seen myself as) in the style of the theme of this weekends furry event which is cartoons. Which is one of the mediums I love as a hatching. I even written statuses on Facebook of myself stressing in not going on the Facebook page and wishing for the attending furs enjoyment.

By the hist, I got some supporting comments despite the uncertainty towards  Kaikirith of why she liked to that. We won't get into that right now because it causes too much trouble and as is I may need her to just bury the hatchet she has towards me. But there is some nice supporting comments. One of the furs commenting that despite using my real name said he'll be preying for me.

But then I had this phone call from Newcastle Knights recently saying because I'm a member of the NRL club I get to be in this thing in half time called the Guard of Honour. Where basically, I get to meet and high five the Knights players as they go out for the second half of their home game against Parramatta Eels this Monday night in my time zone.

Could this be that prayer answered by God himself by another fur? Knowing that God knows all including that I am a passionate Knights supporter. God would also know I am passionate about fursuiting. Also the fact that I'm this depressed and upset over the fact that I weren't able to attend FurDU and the difficulty of finding cheaper and easier alternatives of being in suit at the duration of it. And my entire family isn't making it easier for me but they know I love to romp around as Umbreon whenever I can.

I'm so exited about being a part of that group at half time. I know I need to and intended to be wearing Newcastle knights merch which I also got. But I'm uncertain if my umbreon is allowed to spend a day as a mascot of theirs because well I do want to and love to be in suit should the Knights loose to cheer up the young fellow knights fans which fursuiters are known for and love doing. Cheering people up and make them happy. I for one am admitting to.

But my parents told me that the club which I follow all my life with such passion through the good and bad won't allow me to do that as that I ain't have enough to do with it to be able to do that. And to dress as a knight. Not like one as in the anthropomorphic animal that turns out to be one as in Disney's Robin Hood meets Three Musketeers with even a hint of Star Fox in one. But the way reality depicts as them as human. But how the fuck they'd actually know about it. They want nothing to do with me being in costume. They have less relation to the Knights even then me but yet they claim to know everything.

I know that they even don't know all of the code of conduct of all things NRL. I'm sure as hell they don't know the supposed dress code of being in the Knights guard of honour but never admitted to not knowing. Like have they ever get to do the same thing I got called to do? No. The only people that truly knows all about it is the club themselves so that's why I emailed the Knights themselves about it and awaiting the reply from the board. If they don't want me to be the mascot. Fine I respect that. I really feel privileged as being in the Guard of Honour is as a human.

I get it now. They are more supportive of me doing the things they are fans of only. Not even what their ain't into but I am. Because they are so anti furry that they don't want me seen in public as anything but my miserable human self. Maybe they just don't get the big picture about this thing I'm in which is the furry community. I need to be in reality but I don't want to accept it and be in it 24/7, 365 or in this year because it's a leap year 366. Not expecting anything from my friends including  ~Pompeii~ at FurDU to cheer me up like at least artwork commissioned by them as a gift to me. But if you do conceder it will do it's job because I know you are thinking of me more. Perhaps done by them for free and in good gesture. I will appreciate every bit off that same convention you give of dedicate to me. If you don't, it's fine. I can handle it some way or another and make positives out of it. If you are at FurDU or even any other convention be it a fur or cosplay I will for any reason I won't make, please all I'm asking is enjoy every minute of it.

I would love to see footage of you actually enjoying it and photos. Be it as Anthrocon, FurDU, Confurgence, etc. End of rant!

This is my second journal this week but this is only a quick one. To those that watch me on this site, I did what I said I will do should this attack happen again, I jumped on the FN bandwagon by making one myself. I too Furry Network is a very new site for me to go to. In case you want to follow me also on FN, Here is the link: https://beta.furrynetwork.com/bruzo/