For those who haven't read what I'm planning on doing for this project of mine of bringing life and to one day be in suit as Bruzo Dragonius is that even though I originally wanted my argonian fursuit to be made at least a plantigrade fullsuit which is a way I originally wanted to. I decided to commission it to be made as a partial.
The reason for this is because my maker, decided to use fleece and I asked about the bodysuit to be in the package and she talked me of commissioning the bodysuit with it because she claims the possibility of it turning out to be a onesie where I wanted it to be a realistic costume of an argonian made as possible. So I said well fine then make it as a partial. Due to the delay I got the response or my question about making sleeves or gloves that is long enough to make it to my entire arm length from the tip of my middle figure to my shoulder I'm hoping and love to think that she herself seen my v-log on YouTube to want to start on the actual suit itself then at least lay by it until at I pay for the commission in full most likely with Pay Pal than have it shipped to me. I bit my tongue to that statement of wanting it as such but id rather that then having the bodysuit to look more like a jumpsuit with a dragon tail. I promised no matter what, I will have my argonian suit to be a full body scale suit.
To make up for it, I been thinking, should I take a page off the artist and do experiments on certain materials and techniques to make my own bodysuit and somehow make the tail to look like it's built in even knowing it really isn't. In other words how could I create an illusion of the body and the tail to be in one single piece but in reality it's in 2 parts.
To make the body for it, I'm planning on buying myself a cheap second hand full length wetsuit and wrap it up in just duct tape to try give it a scaled effect to it and paint it to at least try and colour match it to the partial she will end up making it as. But first I wanted to experiment with my current wetsuit I have which is a half length. Perhaps wrap it up in tape and see how easy I can put it on and take it off and experiment with different ways in taping it. I'm looking for professional opinions on that matter on either should it work or should I commission a separate maker just to make the bodysuit. I need advise on the matter.

As most of you had now realised is that I had made a my first real V-log on YouTube entitled "Argonian.POV: Future Plans as Both a Fursuiter and YouTuber for Myself". But that is less likely possible if I didn't buy myself a Webcam which I did. So I think that is the $AU65.00 worth spent of my own money if I were to become an actual youtuber that follows the footsteps of some of my favourite of my fellow furry type ones like , , Al Cabone, and .
Anyway, I may haven't yet have a suit to make one as my own original character like I was planning to otherwise by now my channel would be more active with content but at least I did one talking about what I'm planning on doing in hopefully in the not too distant future.
Anyway in case you haven't yet subscribed to my channel although some of you my watchers had and I thank you personally to those who have so far and eventually thinking of doing in the future. I will promise you all I will make sure that I will get you interested in some of the content enough for you to subscribe to me. As of now I have 10 subscribers to my channel and hopefully rising.
So why is Bruzo's channel is worth watching?
For my next video I am planning on doing is most likely the first unboxing video of an agonian scalesuit I'm saving up on.
Also the future editions of Argonian.POV will be an online video. Not a journal I write here on FA. Where I talk thinks that matter in the furry fandom, recent events, fan theories wither it be in games or whatever. Kind of like Zabu's A Segals Thoughts segment on his channel.
I will be doing Q and A's with myself and some with my human non-furry close neighbourhood friend who is also aspiring to become a youtuber.
I will be telling stories to you all of my experiences I have in my life and also telling the backstory I made up for myself. Hopefully as a collaboration video I'm planning on doing with the guys of FudgeMuppet.
I was hoping to do various collaborations videos using Skype which later be put onto YouTube with people like  Pachuco, Spaz, Al CaBone, Zabu the Sergal, Katalina and her hubby to be JT, Flashhound and Christian Wolf and to some of the non furry youtubers like Michel Floyd who makes various balloon animals on his channel. If you didn't know about him then here's the link to his channel and if you are into balloon animals he is so good at it that he is so worth subscribing to: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCp.....nDW9OWmupUBBA. Plus I do want to do these with other well known non furry v-loggers as well hopefully. I wanted to do a couple of Omegle streams with you guys and put some of them in some of my videos. I want to do taste testing videos of different foods and beverages from around the world, Would also entertain you with some lets play videos and record footage of my experiences as well in the real world be it if I were at some cons or sporting events or even performing out in public and a lot more to more to come I'm planning on doing as a youtuber.
Also I wish I could show you this video I did straight through this journal like I know Katalina does to spare you the hassle of having to click on a certain link that takes you on to another site but I can't so instead of you looking up "Bruzo Dragonius" on YouTube and like that recent submission I posted into my gallery that is a stock art to this video, here's the link to this journal also:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HZPk4QiVo4k

As you know at the time you first end up reading this, Halloween is practically over in most parts of the world and it's now 1st of November or past that. As I didn't get to do this on yesterday on Fur Affinity and barely had a chance to even say this on my Facebook but a very late and very happy Halloween to all of my watchers!
Moving on! Considering that today marks 7 more weeks to Christmas Day and thus since New Years Eve comes a week after that usually (if you do the math you would know) that makes it 8 more weeks till my 26th. So here's a hint. To be technical, I was born in one of the most ridiculous days of the year to be born in for anyone if you even think about having a birthday party. The very last day of the calendar year. 31st of December. So yes, that makes me the New Years Baby. Or considering that I'm an argonian, I rate myself as a western variety of a "New Years Dragon".
Because of the fact that I am baby new year, I never had a real sweet 16, 18th nor 21st. Only because my human, non furry friends usually go out to nightclubs, go on pub crawls and go somewhere in particular just to watch fireworks and getting drunk while at it most likely. And for what? The fact that the year has past without the apocalypse thus mankind has lived the whole entire year. Big fucking whoop! That is my attitude every NYE.
But I'm use to not having real birthday parties anyway. No biggie really! But on the bright side at least I usually have people wishing me a happy birthday in person, by phone and on Facebook even before I have an FA. But knowing I have to share my birthday with billions of other people around the world and not having a day solely dedicated to me pisses me off. Not meant to be over dramatic or anything but still.
But it gets worse for my sake. As of now my mum had bailed on helping me to pay for even my compulsory 3rd party car insurance. The one by law in Australia you must have in order to have your car legally road worthy and to get registered and as is I had to pay for maintenance and service and other payments of my car already.
So that means every year I most likely had to break into my savings account which doubles as my fursuit account just to pay for the insurance and I really don't want to do that because that money I really want to go towards a commission of having a fursuit made for me to not only go wear in cons and other events as such but to own. I wanted to use that money to hopefully pay someone to make my dream of becoming a fursuiter as Bruzo Dragonius a reality. That is what I really wanted as both a Christmas and birthday present. Normally I see furries on FA get gift art of their fursonas, and if lucky plushies for their birthdays and some well received birthday wishes from their watchers and if anyone do that to me for my hatch day I will be appreciative. But on top of it all considering I find it difficult more than ever to save up on a fursuit I need help more then ever. I know some of you have plans on what you want to do with your money and I don't want to be a burden that stop you for doing that.
I could get a job to fund for that but I'm on a thing called in Australia a Disability Support Pension which means I can only earn so much extra pocket money before I get cut off from that completely so basically I have no confidence to that financially. Not like I don't want to work. Pretty much the opposite to that. Theirs no use for me depending on Patrion because I have no idea on what I plan on doing for some people pledging me an X amount of money to help fund this project of mine. My art commission stream is going shit because no one is interested in paying me for my art interpretation of their characters. Especially my Minecraft theme artwork I do sometimes for people.
I don't know if I can save up on getting Bruzo made as a fursuit by anyone alone while paying for my car insurance this year. And no I'm not selling my car nor getting rid of it as I may need it if I do get work and not only that but I enjoy driving as much as I would most likely enjoy becoming Bruzo. My Holden Commodore is the only car I'm allowed to drive as my parents won't let me drive their Toyota Aurion even if I were to donate my kidney to my mum while trying to revive my dad via CPR and being successful at it and to top it off my car gets jacked and found out it has been totalled and burst into flames as a result of a cop pursuit.
I will be so forever grateful if anyone would help me with this fursuit project of mine and/or this car payment as I am struggling at the moment to save up for both. If there is a fursuit maker out their who is nice and generous enough to make an argonian fursuit for me for free I would be jumping for joy. But Someone please help me have enough funds to pay for my car insurance without breaking into my fursuit account at least. I can't do it alone as there is no way for me to save up for both a fursuit commission and my car insurance and I value both equally as each other. That is my ideal birthday present this year as well as Christmas.

I know it's been a week since I put up my last journal. But within the furry fandom I went into the chat stream for the first time of mainly because one of my favourite artist is on it. I had a chance to ask a question to her about anything I should be aware of having a fursuit that is made of latex and any differences of wearing a fursuit made of flax fur. At first I felt snubbed by the hosts of Fur Media of not reading my question to her but they got to me eventually and I'm happy that I got an honest answer from Twilight.
I would've thought that she had absolutely had no idea on what it's like wearing latex as that I know that the fursuits of Sniper and Navy are mainly made from fur. And she mainly performs in those 2 suits in her YouTube videos. Also she advised me that like a normal fursuit even thought that the one I'm possibly getting of Bruzo will be made from latex I need to wear underarmour underneath as I herd from both Twilight and who is currently a fursuiter himself of an argonian like I'm aspiring to be. Their answers are simular but Twilight is in more detail as she know the difference between the 2 materials. I can't believe wearing a fursuit made of latex would be even more intensive for your body inside it then a common fursuit made from flux fur. But with me wanting to have an illusion of being the real argonian to other people, it will be for me a small price to pay health wise. And to rub salt in the wounds I live in one of the high temperature countries in the world in summer.
Oh back to what I think fursuiters and other furries mean by underarmour is basically one of those tight compression clothing most athletes wear while training or exercising like what we in Australia call as skins. I hope I'm right about what people mean by that because if so I have an idea of what they are.
I friended another one of my watchers on FA on Facebook who has finally got her fursuit recently and are currently at the Arizona Fur Con so despite this envy I'm having I'm so exited for her for that and enjoying her time there. And as I'm so supportive to her as do with the majority of my watchers I absolutely kicked my own scaly ass that I missed the unboxing of and with that I have just figured out how to go into my own Skype account. So yay for me for finally having a way to get into my own Skype and to Pom for finally getting her angel dragon fursuit and enjoying her time in the US!
I seen her in a couple of YouTube videos mainly of the fursuit parade as seen on https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRIXXw07n5E and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zefLW-MAIU. She is just behind some person dressed as Rigby of Regular Show. Well a couple of fursuiters down from that.
Also I just noticed a journal of the most likely maker of Bruzo put on Fur Affinity recently such as this one: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....#cid:47643737. I was thinking WTF as I felt snubbed by another Australian fursuit maker I turned to. It clamed the Kai is closing her fursuit commissions for some art stream she's doing and she has not yet given me a quote. I was so confused in that matter. Thank fuck I tend to misunderstood this situation between myself and where that project was concerned and so glad despite what she put up she is working thing out with my argonian costume and the materials she is using to make it. Just because of this drama I had with TMC with not sticking to what they advertised on their form. So I feel like I'm fucked up because of the false advertisement this maker plastered up on their website.
Also the other bad thing I experienced that I had advertised for my Minecraft themed art commission stream on Facebook and here as well as I made up a pricing sheet for it at a reasonable and cheap as can possibly be price and ever since I submitted that to my gallery not one answered to have it done for his or her sona. I don't know what gives or what's wrong with this idea in the first place. I have a Pay Pal, I have advertised that I'm open for Minecraft Character Sona commissions on both here and on a couple of furry related Facebook sites. What the fuck else that I have to do to get people interested in me doing it for them and pay me to do it! Also I don't know wither that raffle for a free fursuit commission on Weasyl is drawn yet and who won it. That's another thing that's getting to me!

Recently I had now learned that this Trans Pacific Protection had not passed yet so yay! Not only that but considering that and her friends are helping me to realise my dream for a day or 2 or however FurDU last for giving me a chance to suit in that convention but due to finances at the moment I had no choice but to decline but instead I hope I could at least suit at Oz Comic Con in Sydney next year. No chance as Bruzo nor Newy but as something as long I'm in fursuit. I'm so grateful and appreciative to you my fellow Australian furry and angel dragon friend for offering me that opportunity. So thank you for that despite the impact it would do to my fursuit envy. Maybe and hopefully it would weaken it like Nicorette does to urges to smoking tobacco or unfortunately like what I heard from one of my watchers, my online feline fursuiting mentor as in the same experience she had in between the first time she fursuited to the time she got one of her own (as explained in https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uF1kDiHbcJo).
BTW Kat you now have 105 subs to your YouTube channel the last time I checked Including me as one of them so nice and congrats to her for that milestone! She will be so grateful if she get more than that to her YouTube Channel. Here's the link https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCn.....PZZNmG0A/feed. I think I channelled myself to my fellow marsh friend, with some of his journals. If you don't believe me go to his page and while you're at it, scratch that + watch button while you're at it.
Also before I rap this thing up I want to announce that seeing that I will eventually be suiting in the future and maybe a chance that I could be as my argonian self in real life or at least are saving for a fursuit of at least one of my fursonas. I know that that the majority of my journals are about me as a future fursuiter either way and struggling to get over the boundary's to finally become one. So if I were to get one delivered or at least made and finished. I want to do something as a sign of thanks for helping me and supporting me through this and this goes to all who watches me. As a celebration of either Newy or Bruzo being born in real life as a suit and me finally becoming one of them I want to celebrate it with a bang like as in blow your faces off. No, not like committing terrorism or killing you so don't think that haha, as I have no intention to kill anyone. Well more like what meant by saying this. I'm keeping that as a secret but it will be something more exiting and most likely be put up as an FA journal.

This is getting from bad to worse. How could this fucking government of ours do this to us. All I wanted is to dress as Bruzo in real life and now this stupid law has passed. Something called the Trans Pacific Partnership has passed in Australia and the rest of the world. So Bruzo will never exist in the real world and never come to life and to my marsh friends. My fellow argonian watchers this will effect you as well no matter were you're at.
In the real world the argonian species are as good as extinct because of the greedy co operations are able and would most likely sue us if we were anywhere out in public and blogging online blogging as our own argonians especially if it's our main fursonas like mine. Because of this law Bruzo Dragonius in this world is officially or could be dead. Because why bother having Bruzo made as a suit where I would be forced to have it destroyed if I post videos doing what I dream of doing. Can't the big companies be happy that people are bringing their own species creations into reality. I'm so fucking pissed off!
And I'm starting to get over my fursuit envy. I did figured with some of my journals I written I had a fucking bad case of it and I addressed that problem to as a comment to one of her journals she put up of one of her story hour videos. She made a very convincing point to me as a replay and she herself is a fursuiter. The same type of person I want to become but as an argonian. Not a cat. Because of what she said to me had snapped me out of this state of mind.
But if that's the case I made an alternate fursona and to you other argonians my advice is if you want to own a fursuit I suggest you do the same thing as me. My alternate fursona is a Blue and Red Dutch Angel Dragon named Newy. (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17898806/). The theme for it's design meant to be Newcastle Knights which is quite the Rugby League team I follow and I think if I where to be who I want to be which is a fursuiter of any sorts that's the character I would come up with. You could say Newy is me as a DAD.
I really do want to be Bruzo but whats the point. I have no contact with Bethesda to get permission to be Bruzo in real life and anywhere in public and post pictures on Facebook and Fur Affinity with me in the suit for Bruzo anymore because the law forbids it. Cosplaying as a hobby will be nothing but dead. And I guess the only way I could have my Angel Dragon, made as a suit is if I ask Telephone to have a look of the reference to get approval and have it made for me if she approves of the design I then need to commission her business, which is Skypro to make it for me.
So unless this act is lifted I fear there will be no Bruzo Dragonius. As much as I want to be him, ahem am him I am so sorry I can't be my true self because this so called "Trans Pacific Partnership" forbids it. And if I were in my true form I would be persecuted for it. Like what the Islamic State do to all who ain't Muslim. Or the Imperials did to us Argonians back in Nirn. Maybe if I want to be a fursuiter I guess that it would be best if I become Newy and make a new FA page for my Angel Dragon. But first I feel I must get approval from to legally cover my own ass. Unfortunately.

It's been nearly a month since I last submitted a form online for a quote to an Australian fursuit maker who shall be remained nameless who fucked me over and over again to a point I wanted them investigated by ACCC because of them committing false claims on their site. And to make it worse it is now less then a month till Halloween. I would love to attend the EB Games expo this year which is now but something deep inside me is making me feel like meh! If I miss it, I miss it as I didn't felt like going this year. I knew as a gamer I would normally get pissed off if I didn't go but because of this thing in my head haunting me constantly. And the thing is it is on now in Sydney and today is the last day for that con. Because all my life I want to go there as Bruzo. Not as my human self.
I would've email a request to North Queensland Cowboys yesterday to have a shot of preforming in costume as their mascot for the one day because it would give me an experience closest to being a fursuiter. But unfortunately I checked their website in their contacts page and it said and I quote "You need to wait 14 days to get a reply from us." It was yesterday when I went into their website and knowing that today is the day I want to have a chance to get that unpaid experience I'm craving so much it sickens me. I knew for the fact that the day I'm writing this journal is also the day of the NRL Grand Final. It's an all Queensland grand final as the main game and the team I wanted to preform for is vs. Brisbane Broncos. The team I absolutely despise because of their coach no offence to any of my watchers who are fans of them. I am willing to get on the next train to Sydney to do that honour. Hell, I will be willing to do it free. But I am so pissed off at myself for not emailing them sooner.
I admit to even shaving my arms and legs and perhaps my chest so I can get every hear on my body into a baggie so it would become stuffing for a custom plush of Bruzo. Thus according to pagan folklore my soul would be inside that doll if I were to die and I will end up becoming a fursuiter in the after life because it would bits of me inside that stuffed toy and thus it would become a new vessel to house my soul and it would feel like heaven to me. Hey, I'm open to different cultural belief's and that's how desperate I am to be a fursuiter or anything besides being dressed as a human that I currently am.
Every single weekend now I am deprived of my sleep thinking when will I have at least this one lousy day as a suiter. 1 lousy fucking day is all I want!
To snap out of this mood and to at least give myself a chance to become my argonian I defied my mums orders and turned the internet on just to spent a couple of hours playing ESO as if I didn't do it would feel like torture to me mentally. And it would be anarchy in my family towards me and done by me at the same time. No one in my household would want that to happen including me. As a matter of fact even I would absolutely hate that to happen. It's no bullshit. I really do.
I had tried to research the known fursuiters in Newcastle or at least live within NSW because I wanted to see if they would be ok if I can borrow their suit to dress in for Halloween at least. But I fear that the answer would most likely be no. I even had end up looking for ads or statuses of other furries are willing to give away their old suits or at least their heads even if it is a cheesy toon head with a foam static or closed jaw and selling it cheep because they're upgrading to something better like the same head but with a moving jaw or even an animatronic head. I don't care if it's a bunny. Hell I don't even care if its out of a My Little Pony costume and TBH I will be angry if someone even dare to call me a brony. But the thing is every single ad for anything that resemble a fursuit I answered it pissed my off because it's either sold or they don't have it anymore.
I do have the joy of watching fursuiters do their things in cons and in public in costumes and they made me feel happy but the one fursuiting videos I cringe on but I watch out of obsession is unboxing vidoes. I mean whats the point of putting that on YouTube. Why this torture! and most likely that either have mates over in their house or have face time with them on Skype. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for them and also to my watchers getting there's like  ~Pompeii~ aka  MelanieShadowrose, and  Mochi. and looking forward to them getting one for themselves. So to them congrats of having them made for you guys. I feel down inside because no one is making an argonian fullsuit for me yet or any Australian fursuit maker had even game my an effort to quote me. Thus I'm not being too much of a bitch about it like some people and threaten to shut down my FA. So instead I will be the role model to my watchers and instead of just posting my own art and gift art I get from my watchers. Mainly and (thank you so much for putting the effort in giving me drawing in FA of my character) as of now I'm going to at least try and earn some money by opening myself for art commission's once I made up the price sheet and post it to my gallery. I'm starting with my Minecraft Character sonas so if you are interested. Be on the lookout.

I been thinking on some ideas on what to consider doing just to have the experience on what it's like to be in a fursuit or animal suit at least because most of my journals are about that. On realising this dream of becoming a fursuiter as a hobby. I've of course put a watch to her Fur Affinity like I noticed most fursuiters do recently. She thanked me for, I replied back say my usual shit and explain that this is my way of informing her that she's the candidate of making an argonain out of me. And by that making me that costume. But then I had analysed the FA page of  Eastern.Dragon.Studios. Before I gave a watch to Kaikirith FA account got fascinated on the simple fact that she is based in Melbourne. Now if you're most likely a furry that live in Australia like myself you would know of a fur con that usually takes place there in Melbourne called Confurgence. So that got me thinking that maybe if she completely finished making the fursuit of Bruzo in around the day before Confurgence or if she predicted that to me that would give me the incentive to fly to Melbourne from Newcastle just to pick up the suit instead of having it delivered to my house thus I have to wait for it to arrive. Also I will be so ecstatic if she finished it the day before Confurgence because at least I get to wear him and experience cosplaying at a convention in the same package. Like killing 2 birds with 1 stone. Even if it is a fursuit convention which is better I think. Facility wise. But that's in the future. I didn't tell her I would love to have it done by Confurgence as I don't like organising specific deadlines as all I care about is the quality at an affordable price.
But still I really want to be in a fursuit or anything like that for the fun of it and to experience it even before I started paying a commission to Kaikirith for having my suit made. I thought of advertising for any current Newcastle based fursuiters willing to let me borrow there suit for me to wear for Halloween since that Halloween is next month. Don't know of any suiters that reside in my hometown of Newcastle, NSW Australia. If you know of any that live there please let me know in the comments so I can contact them or at least have a fursuit or 2 as I don't know of any. As a matter of fact the ones I know that are nearest to me is based in Sydney otherwise that is out of the question for me when it comes to options.
The other idea is what a non furry mate of mine that lived next door to me suggested is contact my favourite NRL club Newcastle Knights and tell them that is it ok if I could for 1 game perform in suit as the Mascot so I can have this experience. I would but It wouldn't interest me because only the mascot or none of it's official mascots are an animal. Even if I would like to I'd get turned down mainly because the NRL season is near over as the grand final is this Sunday Australian time and Knights ain't in it. As they from the start are far from the 8. So instead I thought what if I can talk North Queensland Cowboys or the NRL board into giving me a no name NRL fan performing in suit as the Mascot for the Cowboys like the dog mascot. Then I thought would that mean I would've sold my soul as a true and passionate Newcastle Knights fan to perform as a mascot for another club even though I would be in a costume with the head on thus no one would see me human face to identify who wearing that costume. And I know for a fact that there are not known sport teams in my hometown that have animal nickname. Not even there own mascot that is an animal. Each one of them are a cartoon human and I want to be a mascot that is at least an anthropomorphic animal. Even my local mainstream soccer club which is the reason I designed the mascot of Newcastle Jets to be a Mechanical dragon that transforms into a jet (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17686624/). So I decided posting that as a what if statement in the Newcastle Knights fans Facebook group site to get opinions on the matter I'm thinking and asking for their honest opinions on this matter as anonymously as possible even deep down inside I'm that person thinking of that idea for myself but I don't want to risk my reputation among other Knights supporters and all it end up resulting to is 50/50. Some might would loose respect for me as a fellow knights fan and not count me as claiming to my word. And some seem to have mixed emotions about it.
I know that most of you don't watch sports and the furry fandom is full of so much forgiving and caring people like my watchers so what are your opinions on this matter or do you have any other ideas on how I could get this experience in fursuit or anything like that before I get my own. Besides waiting for my own agronian fullsuit. Knowing I have no experience or any idea of making even a proper foam and static jaw reptilian based fursuit head. Completely shit in sewing and only good enough to do basic repair work on suits and haven't even been in a fursuit or anything similar in my whole entire live as explained in my last journal I did.

With my last couple of journals I did, I do admit I can be a bit of a dramatic kind of person when it comes to wanting to finally bring my fursona into the real live world as in being in costume as my argonian character I made in ESO. I said that as you know in almost all my journals. And to be quite frankly IDK when I would finally write something that isn't about wanting to be Bruzo and finally my experience as Bruzo of at least a fursuiter or freelance mascot. I'm aware that you would be sick of me writing that and I'm sorry to cringe on that and I thank you again to all those watching me and have the heart of not un-watching me on Fur Affinity. In other words I am so so grateful and appreciative for your support of me on my struggles.
It's just that well TBH ever since I got into the fandom and open about it I wanted to dress up and cosplay as Bruzo Dragonius out in public and start doing that before becoming what the furry community label as a "grey mussel". Which is a term in case that you ain't familiar with it or question my intelligence of what that means is a furry that is middle aged like or older at least the age of 30+. I have not suited as anything other than another human character in my youth. Not even as a mascot for a school or a house team. So I haven't been dressed in a fursuit or anything like that even for Book Week or Halloween or even a school play. I'm actually in real life 25 years old, turning 26 in considering that this month is nearly over in 3 months time. So I know you might say something along the line of so what? I have 4 or 5 years tops as of now till I'm considered as a grey mussel. I know basic math and I know that if you are thinking about writing that as a comment to this journal. But I know that if you do make fursuits or LARP suits or whatever take like forever to make and I do understand that especially if it's high and immaculate quality or realistic as I'm a fan of and that is out of the mind of someone who has no fucking idea how to make a proper one. Thus whoever made Bruzo the way I want him be I will be so like...far beyond appreciative like above that line. Way much!
Secondly with this first Australian maker that I'm staring to get a quote off as written in my previous journal as a potential client of theirs. I felt that I am constantly insulted by them like every Friday and Saturday also as the designer and the human form of Bruzo Dragonius the argonian because it's been like 2 weeks or more since I filled in that form online an their site and ever since I have not have a single reply back from them in any shape or form. Made a bit of a pun in the last sentence! hehe
Anyway where am I? Anyway there people that preach about supporting the local economy by supporting local businesses or businesses based in you own homeland and all this patriotic crap. Don't get me wrong. I do consider myself a true blue Aussie. But the point is what's the use of commissioning stuff from an Australian artist where they are not sticking to their promises? Please don't say under this journal at you know a dollar they charge is a dollar in Australian currency because I know. But still. That's not the principle I'm on about.
But I feel a bit better now from watching funny furry and other videos on YouTube like the latest video of with and tasting different drinks. I wanted to be like them in my lifetime. I absolutely laughed to that so as a subscriber to you guys on YouTube thank you for your entertainment. As you see I do put a watch to each and every one of you 3 on FA because of what each and every one of you do on YouTube and Kaikirith of , thanks for your reply back as despite I wanted to get a quote off you not just how would it be made or planning to make it but I appreciate it on the fact that you made an effort to reply back. Thank you for making me feel better in your own way to you that are mentioned also.

How can my life get any worse? Like a week ago even though I had already got a quote off a maker already which I was happy and at the same time disheartened from it. The reason is that Clockwork asked for $8,100 to make a fullsuit of Bruzo for me. Weren't sure if they were an American maker but I have this feeling they are and if they really are as such I think they are asking for it in $US. So that is why I felt down about it. As seen in this link http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6990701/. And the way the Australian dollar is at the moment compared to the US dollar, it is like practically the same amount of Australian dollars that took me to buy my car.
So it has comes to this. Sometime last week I had went to the Australian furries Facebook page, liked to it and posted a status asking for any recommendations for and Australian fursuit maker that are known for making dragons, raptors and other reptiles as fursuits because I'm an argonian and we as a species fall in the same category as them. After all for a head base especially with a moving jaw for a person of the root like myself is basically a dragon base that I guess would be moulded into the head shape of an argonian. The admin liked and commented to my status and he pointed me to the site of  The.Menagerie.Costumes. I commented back and said thanks.
I clicked the link and looked around to this website, Had a look at their gallery of costumes they made. I admit they are not even half bad. Seen the dragons fursuits seen the price minimums of what they want for each type of fursuit be it just the head, partial or fullsuit. I then thought since they are an Australian company that also charge Australian dollars I see its a good deal the way my national economy is going which is ironically shit compared to the US I then clicked on "prices" then "quote" and it ends up being a form I end having to fill to get a single quote from them asking for my real name first and last I think. Although it I didn't know if I could put it under my fursona name. My main E-mail address and all the other shit I want it to be and look like along side with the ref. sheet the state in Australia I live in truthfully, ect. I noticed that the blurb in the bottom of the form say and I quote "Quotes are usually replied to every Friday, so please be patient".
I am as patient till the first Friday of my time since I filled in that form I checked my email constantly as I awaited for this single email I need so I could see the official price I'm up for this suit I so badly want being custom made for me. Every time I check all I see is nothing but spam and junk mail. All fucking day I check for this lousy e-mail and although I felt so a bit annoyed I thought to myself well maybe they are referring it as in a WAST or any US time zone so the next day which is yesterday my current time zone I was so obsessively checking for that e-mail and I was like *grrrr. I then vented my anger about this on my Facebook as a status and it resulted in my youngest brother commented something nasty on it because he is so much of a too closed minded and ignorant asshole and I ended up being dragged into an argument online and he became so much of a smart ass about it and than fucking blocked me on Facebook. I was like WTF. I had a couple of non-furry friends being smartass to me about these posts I made like one of them. 1 of which offered me to have his dog shaved and the hair glued all over my body for $50 then I ended up being a smart ass back to him about it to invalidate his idea.
And as I write this I am loosing it. My patience. My insanity as I constantly checked for this lousy quote in a form of an e-mail addressed to me. Mum tried to explain to me why it's taking me so to get this stupid e-mail I need to receive. I find it hard to buy into that as my patience are growing more and more thin as I know that that is a site of more experienced fursuit makers. Fuck I wish I have the incentive to posting that status to the Facebook group page "Australian Furry Buy, Swap, Sell" instead of this pointless status on introducing myself as a person and my future plans within the furry community and the link to my Fur Affinity. WTF were I'm thinking? *facepalm
On a lighter note as you see I did a minecraft related art of Telephone (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17706098/) and I posted it to there and did a shout out to about it with the link to it. I was so honoured with the result I intended to get as I told her I'm a fan of her as a fursuit maker and as Telephone the Dutch Angel Dragon and the person to single headedly thought out the concept of the Dutch angel dragon species witch a I do like. I was so excited about the reply I received from Telephone herself and not only that but she actually favoured it. Probs the detailing I put of her and not just of random 2D shapes of a Minecraft skin wearing the fursuit of Telephone like the rest of that kind if art I sometimes do. Maybe it's not only my love of Telephone as a character that inspired me to do this but it's also a fact I have a DAD as 1 of my watchers. So many thanks, Telephone for you liking and approving that art as that may be worth more to the price of commission to my Minecraft Character Sona arts because I could say it was certified by Telephone herself for authenticity so to those who want their angel dragons done as a Minecraft skin by me on commission I will make sure you will get a good price for it. Also even though you are not Telephone but because you are my first watcher who's 2 main fursonas are Dutchies I give my cheers to  FrostBiteDAD to be my second inspiration for that.

I'm writing this to vent out my anger towards my own family and by no intention I'm making anyone in my family seem like villains or assholes but considering this is a furry website and it's a furry related subject I feel it would be safer for my real life family's sanity and my own sanity to write it as a journal addressing this in FA. I could write it in Facebook but if I do my younger brother will be a bitch about and it will cause a bit of a blue in the house and I at least want my family to be happy and not be pissed off at me for writing this. And besides I am the only member of my family that ever have a fur affinity because as a matter of fact I am the only member of my family to consider myself a furry. Also I need to say things as it is thus it is not RP. This is a serious statement out of my head as a real human being addressing this topic. Sort of like one of those YouTube videos people make to vent out their anger but at except it's a journal.
Why the fuck some people like my own family look down on me for being out of the forest as a furry? Oh I get it because it is "stupid" according to people who ain't me. My own entire family but me are embarrassed if I were to dress up as Bruzo in public and were seen with them. They think people who dress up as their animal fursonas in public belong in a nut house. According to the rest of my family people can't be allowed to be anything but their boring human selves in real life. No expressing myself. Must conform to their boring human standards and constantly dress up in my human suit for my entire life. Hell, they will be embarrassed if I were seen on TV at a Newcastle Knights Rugby League game and showing support for my beloved Knights to win dressed as Bruzo and at the same time wearing my jersey because according to them a knight is meant to be a human, not a lizard. I say, so the fuck what? I told them the in ESO my fursona is an argonian in a class of Dragonknight. I am a Newcastle Knights supporter and same as Bruzo because you know why? I am Bruzo! Thus Bruzo is what I fucking tend for him to be.
My own dad who also live with me in Newcastle is a Canterbury-Bankstown Bulldogs fan. And the thing is he never lived anywhere in Sydney in his entire life and yet he goes for one of the competing NRL teams based in Sydney. But do I even attempt to even convert him to abandon his beloved rotten Bulldogs and make Newcastle Knights his all time top team. No I bloody didn't because I know he sticks to his team no matter what and I have respect for him doing that. Did I root and hope that St. George-Illawarra Dragons slaughter the Bulldogs. No because out of respect for dad I was hoping Bulldogs win the NRL Grand Final. Well at least the Bulldogs finished just barely in the top 8 in the regular season and progressing in the finals campaign and my favourite team finish with a very undeserved wooden spoon because of what happened in their last home game. But out of sportsmanship congrats to the Bulldogs for making it this far. You barely deserve it. As you owe your wins to this bitch who decided to streak across Hunter Stadium thus screwing the Knights chances to keep away from the wooden spoon.
The point is this. Ever since I am out of the forest as a furry I am wanting to become a fursuiter. I want to become my own character I have created and seen as Bruzo Dragonius the Argonian Dragonknight in public. I do wanted to bring Bruzo into the real world and go to various conventions as him and got out in pubic as him. I don't want to be told by anyone especially my closed minded non-furry parents I have to be in my human form around them or the rest of my own family. I'm sorry but their anti furry opinions that is being force in my head is to me not valid on the count it is nothing but fucking propaganda. As I speak I asked various makers for quotes on My character being made for me as a fullsuit via email and get the best price as possible and asked for recommendations for costume makers that would suit my budget and what I'm into for a costume.
That is how much I want to become a fursuiter. I feel I need no approval off anyone as I'm 25 years old to be what I want to do as a hobby and all I want is for them to accept me as still their son and brother but as a furry and eventually as a freelance mascot/LARPer and cosplayer. Theirs no harm in that and that is what I want to enjoy life as a single with little to no financial hardship compared to moving away from home.
It's not like I want to do what I'm against doing like doping on narcotics of any sort, killing random people for the thrill only of being a serial killer, animal cruelty of any sorts, going away to war-torn countries to fight for the Islamic state, etc. If anyone I know did that I will end up at least be ashamed of them. But something trivial like dressing up in public in my costume that I brought with my own money by commission? FUCK OFF and GO TO HELL!
Sorry to be so negative writing this journal.

Come be apart of it! https://www.weasyl.com/journal/8933.....-head-and-more

I just returned from a chat with Zabu online as he was doing his artist stream. I among other furries that were involved had a couple of laughs. I admit, he is an outgoing and laid-back sort of bloke. He is a nice person in real life. And Babylon also appeared in the background. There was others 1 had a chat with like my mate  AngeltheCosmicWarrior and  FlashHound as well as another sergal I had met on YouTube, Slade and also made good mates with. Angel, Thank you for messaging me about that stream on Facebook and my man Zabu, if you read this on FA or watch me Thanks for the invite.

With that last journal I wrote up I was thinking of if there's any other weird ways that anyone want to have as their ideal way of burial and to see to my if fellow argonian watchers would wish for my idea to happen to their bodies should they cacked it themselves. Although be in mind I have no intention of wishing death to myself or any of those of the same fursona species as me or in this case any of my watchers who is watching me right now or in the future.
So thank you to those who commented and are concerned me. I appreciate it. So moving on from that subject and onto next topic that this journal is about.
I'm thinking of an idea for one of my performances while in suit I thinking of doing in non furry fan conventions mostly. This idea I'm thinking of pays tribute to the guy who was the CEO and President for Nintendo that if it weren't for him the type of game where characters from different games out of the 1 console fight each other wouldn't exist. And that is the last great Satoru Iwata. This performance would suit Bruzo as a character because he himself is a warrior and basically that's what they do is fighting.
I call this fad "SSB style LARP'ing". And it does involve strictly 2 or more cosplayers in costume undergoing a LARP battle. Basically the type you see in renascence fairs mostly between 2 knight or in a battle re-enactment or some sort. But in order for this LAPP performance to be as such you need to be in a costume as your character you could only pretend to do moves your character does as well as of course act as your character. Also since it is inspired by the Super Smash Brothers game franchise you need to do this only with another cosplayer who dressed as a character that is under the licence of copyright of the same owner as your character you cosplay as. So for example If I were to do this sort of LARP performance to be called as such I could battle another argonian cosplayer, or of other races and character within the Elder Scrolls games franchise. I could do this with someone dressed as Corvo out of Dishonoured, as their character out of Fallout or strictly out any other game published by Bethesda as my fursona is licenced to that studio. But if I do for example do this performance with someone cosplayed as Batman, Pikachu or anything else that isn't licenced to Bethesda, that doesn't count as such. That is just a plain LARP battle.
Any thoughts? Please comment!

I'm intending this as a can of worms type topic that talks about if you died, what do you want to happen to your body when you kicked the bucket or in lemans terms after you died. I know that is a grim subject to hear someone else talk about. I mean with me for instance. I intend to stress every time my parents think about wanting to die but that is the thing we in society must cope with.
There are furries out there especially fursuiters like  FlashHound posting a status in social media that wanted to be buried in fursuit. Even with the fursuit head on the tombstone. And have the tombstone say the name of the main fursona instead of the persons real birth name. I think that is the cool way to be buried and I would respect the wish.
I admit that before I even made an FA for Bruzo I tend to be so much of a fanatic of The Elder Scrolls and not only that I am a fan boy of argonians to a point that the species of my only fursona is as such. Hell I have not played as any other race wither it be Skyrim, ESO, or any game of the series. I had even researched on their fictional culture.
To those that play Elder Scrolls would know this but I remember looking up the way Argonians bury the deceased members of their tribe according to the lore of the Elder Scrolls universe. Well in case that you don't know what we argonians mean by the Hist, We mean that as a tree we mainly worship under like some sort of totem. Their said to be one for every argonian tribe in Black Marsh. The way we bury our deceased ancestors is that we bury them in this slimy liquid that is produced by the tree called the "Hist Sap". That is what we believe is the transport vessel of the souls to 1 body to the next generation of argonian hatchling which then eat the sap as that we believe is how we get our souls. And through that is the way we believe we get reincarnated and as another argonian like our souls get recycled.
So the point is should I die before I even received Bruzo as a suit. I want to have a burial like that of way my fursona gets traditionally buried by other argonians. Except being buried in slime it would be in a traditional grave but instead of a tombstone I want to be buried under a fruit tree. That would be my Hist tree. I would request by law that this tree should not be allowed to be cut down nor have it's fruit harvested to be eaten by living humans but by other fruit eating animals like fruit bats, possums or whatever because if the argonian lore are true, I don't want to be reincarnated in another human suit. Also since their will be no tombstone in my ideal grave I would like to have a plaque on my grave reading "(my real human name) aka, Bruzo Dragonius 31st of December 1989 - (my date of death DD/MM/YYYY)" at least.

This Journal would might as well be called a part 2 of http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6945427/
Not too long ago I had sent out an e-mail to a fursuit maker that I love the work of and thus I think would be an ideal creator of Bruzo who's site goes under the name of Clockwork Creature all I did asked from them is a quote for my fursona to be made as a suit by them. I asked them for a quote on a realistic as possible costume of him complete with a moving jaw. I knew it would involve plantigrade feet and a tail that would move as natural as it would of an actual 2 legged dinosaur. For that is what I exactly asked for to be included and to be replicated exactly of a concept of his appearance though a concept sheet I made myself of Bruzo (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17081309/) I send as an attachment to this email.
I awaited for this quote ever since. Now just recently I received this quote I was waiting for. Because of the quote I received and the price they were asking for I was so disheartened. Because I wanted so badly wanted to be a splitting image of my sona in reality. I had got myself into this shit because I was so consistent and desperate to become my argonian sona in real life and go in conventions of all sorts as dressed up as that character.
Hell I been writing statuses up on my Facebook on that fact. Even shit like me wanting to get out of my human suit. And I can't get out of it because for some reason it's like some sort of deadric blob bonded itself to it. Sort of like the time when Peter Parker found this alien symbiotic slime than then replicated itself into a form of a black Spiderman suit as like in the 2nd or 3rd Spiderman movie Toby Maguire did the lead in. I'm suffocating in my human suit. This blob is crushing every bone in my body. It has consumed my tail to a point it can't regrow and it crushed every bone in my snout and jaw and I feel this suit is like the only cure to this parasitic blob on me as I can't cut it with scissors as it would regenerate every time I do that.
This cure would set me back $8100 which would take me forever to invest my money up to that amount. As that my wage is at most $800 per fortnight. Got expenses I keep having to pay as is. Hell even if it were a cheaper option like a partial it would be a shorter time period but it would still feel like forever. I feel happy that at least I had bonded with another furry who is one of my watcher on FA to a point me and him chatted and exchanged art to each other that we made to each others likeness. He draws awesome anime I admit proudly and I am thankful for and for that I love to have this friendship last till the day one of us dies and look out for each other even in our afterlife. But only if I have that sort of friendship with a fursuit maker like Telephone, Arooki, Rinn, Blasterblurby, Sparky or a fursuiter who is in a committed relationship with a fursuit maker like Zabu. It would make it financially easier to have may dream of suiting up as Bruzo a reality. Like I would be set for life.

Considering that I am saving up for my fursona to be made as a suit I had came up with a couple of predictions on how it would impacted on me. Most likely it would personally be of a positive outcome. Some may not be necessarily a reason for it but I considered as a huge privilege as such.
Firstly I wanted to address the fact that I now have 22 people watching me on Fur Affinity as the time I written this journal and I do appreciate the support. I also noticed that as you saw in my gallery that I received my very first art as a gift from a friend I made on FA, Angel Santiago (aka, Angel the Cosmic Warrior). Make that 2 including the one of myself and Angel hanging out with each other portrayed by our sona's. ( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17455820/) I do love them both as a fellow artist of what he did. And I did gave him a little something in return which is as you know is his dragon sona as a Minecraft character. If you are a fan of anime, please give him a watch . He dose great work with drawing anime. And he is an awesome friend of mine on Facebook. So for that as a fursuiter I will end up as being popular as a fellow furry I'm a fan of, Telephone. But not for being as cute her but for my coolness. I'm not being pigheaded about it. Just that I have others peoples opinions to back it up. And yeah people would huddle around me just for photos and selfies with an argonian and I expect and welcome it as well as hugging other people wether they are out as humans, or other suiters.
The other predictions I made is that I will end up being in other conventions outside Australia as both trade, pop culture or furry including being at an E3 in LA and being the first fursuiter to be sponsored to attend E3. Most likely by Bethesda and will end up doing a masquerade as a part of their show with perhaps a couple of other sponsored cosplayers of not only the Elder Scrolls games but of the upcoming Fallout games. And as a gamer it would be a huge honour to as I'm a fan of Bethesda as a studio through Elder Scrolls. Maybe for a DOTA game like what Blizzard did recently.
Also considering that I'm a huge fan of Zabu the Sergal, I will end up making various videos like the ones he makes. But however considering that I made my fursona through a video game I would end up getting a call up by ABC (Australia) for a TV interview for a games review show called Good Game or their twin show Good Game SP. As both in my human form and as Bruzo. And I concider that as also a privilege If you ain't familiar to that show please look up Good Game on YouTube. They also stream that show there and here's the link https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCS.....ytO_xhA6x5v21Q
Like I said, I will end up even going to furry conventions dressed up as an argonian. Maybe Anthrocon perhaps in the future. Maybe as the Rinn among the argonians because I might be the first to enter a fursuit dance comp. I admit I'm not that mush as a dancer. :3

This is like my 12th journal and that is so awesome for the fact that I'm on FA for about 3 months now and I have 15 watchers on this very site. I am so fucking stocked that I'm the only person I met eye to eye that has an account to this and I been complimented about my art that I mostly did using Paint. Wither it's the concept sheet that I made of my ESO avatar/fursona that I'm saving up to get as a costume, Elder Scrolls Online gameplay photos either the one of Kat and JT as if they are video game characters and my selfie or just a gameplay photo I took in the same angle of and cropped on purpose to make it look as such and 2 of my work of various sonas as if they are skins on Minecraft. 1 of which is my sona and the other so far that I made is the one of Zabu and I got a couple of faves of them.
I call this line of work "Minecraft Character Sonas" and hopefully there are many more to come. As of now I did one of an argonian and a sergal but I'm experimenting to see if I could do some more other species in the future and if you like them I will do them as a commission for you if I had PayPal up and running. I'm not sure that it's your honest opinions but to oblivion with that. I can't thank you enough. You all may be strangers to me but no matter who you are, your species, race, nationality whatever. You are all considered as my friends. I might chat to you on Skype, Omegle, PSN and YouTube. If you play ESO I might end up meeting you in Tamriel somewhere and I might hang out help you out either in dungeons, defeating various enemies as some I find very difficult to defeat by your self like some of the dadra and I'm being honest. Anyway thanks! :)

Apart form watching videos of Youtube, checking my e-mails, being on my Facebook and bloging and sometimes submitting my art onto this website onto FA (what I mostly do on the computer), I tend to looks for fursuit makers to help make Bruzo as a fursuit for me. So I obsessively tend to look for makers that I would love to nominate and commission as his maker. Most of which I do like and for the ones I do like I tend to give them a watch. I know and am aware of the money and the time for him to be made no matter who I choose.
I don't know! Really! I had a chat with some of the makers I like. Sent out emails to them just for quotes and hopefully I would have the money to have my sona made so I can legit become him physically in real life. Not only playing as him on ESO. I wonder if some makers would even email me some photos of the progress of the costume being made just to legitimatise myself that I am sure getting my moneys worth and another email or a message on my Fur Affinity to inform me that Bruzo is fully built as a suit and is getting ship to my front door in most likely a cardboard box addressed to me be it in my real human full name or in the name of Bruzo Dragonius.
One person have told me why not make the head from scratch just so you could at least be one step towards your dream in becoming this argonian character out of either cardboard or carve it out of foam but there's only one problem. I lack confidence in sculpting foam and using a sewing machine. I can only sew for repairs only and that if I hand sew. I don't know what else to do. I know that cardboard degrades easily so there go's going outdoor with the cardboard head on. At this moment I'm awaiting commission quotes from a maker who goes by the name on Clockwork Creations as that I'm into realistic style fursuits as that may be the one that would make Bruzo for me exactly to my design.

For those who watches me on FA, If you are not familiar with my Argonian.POV journals, well this is like similar to Zabu's "A Sergal's Thoughts" videos except that it's a series of journals instead of videos on YouTube ATM and you know that my fursona as an argonian. Not a sergal. So this is an argonians thoughts on things.
For first one of the series I am writing about the event that so tragic and have a very huge impact to me as not only a member of the WWE Universe but a wrestling fan in general. The death of Roddy Piper.
If you are not familiar what I'm talking about last weekend I read on my Facebook posts that have reported of Hot Rods untimely death from a heart attack. This wasn't the first time I grieved a death of a wrestler. I also mourned the death or "American Dream" Dusty Rhodes and long before that of Eddie Guerrero according to Wikipedia 05.
I was like fuck. He had a lot of life in him. and he did a lot as a wrestler. I never met him in person. Not long since I learned he stared in a Sci-Fi movie.. But my thoughts are to his friends, family and co-workers. I love to and actually do believe that hell be up in heaven wrestling with Andre the Giant, Eddie Guerrero, Dusty Rhodes and that kid that died with cancer not long ago that likes to be called Connor the Crusher. Also the Ultimate Warrior.
As a human and as my fursona I do believe in reincarnation.
If Hot Rod were an argonian he would be berried near the hist tree as that they believe that their souls will be recycled via the hist sap which will eventually be eaten by the hatchlings straight after they hatch as it's believed throughout law that is how our argonian elders believe we receive our souls. But unfortunately his not one of us.
So thank you for entertaining me and other WWE fans and may you Rest in peace.

Before I even made myself a Fur Affinity page under my sona name I have successfully brought the car I wanted with my own money and not intending to get rid of it because I am too fucking attached to it as of right now. You may as well say I should be happy that I finally got the car I wanted and as one of those car enthusiasts I'm at a borderline between happy and ecstatic. Perhaps thankful that I'm a proud owner of a Holden Commodore with actual rims. Not just has plastic hub caps over wheels that are just basically ugly oversized steel thimbles that are attached to the axels with tyres around it like it so it resembles too much like a matchbox car. Also I always wanted a car that suits my age to drive in as in demographics and not something that looks like those types that people my parents age stereotypically drive around in to church or the shops and back and at least have an N/A engine that has no less than 6 cylinders and this car of mine has met the criteria I wanted.
But alas that is not what I'm worrying over. As everybody knows that having a car can cost money. Even I know that. But I got the car I saved up for with my own money that I wanted and proud of it.
But there is something else that frustrates me. Just that ever since I'm openly into the furry fandom which is also half the reason why I logged into this site I always wanted to actually and aesthetically become my argonian fursona in real life. In other words become a real life actual cosplayer, LARPer and fursuiter.
I know in order to at least become a fursuiter you need to at least own a fursuit. I once tried making my head using a cardboard box, used toilet rolls, rubber bands, scissors, plastic bags, a stapler and duct tape. And perhaps a thin bandage for the eyes. But it turned like shit. Only because I couldn't get the mouth to move only with my mouth but had to head bang as I talk to move the mouth. Not the proper one I wanted anyway even though it meant to at least resemble a dragon.
So at the moment I am trying to balance my own money for all this fucking car related payments for my Commodore, which I'm not planning to sell, Because that is the only car I most likely am allowed to drive by myself. Considering my parents would hardly lend me theirs and if I don't get to drive a car for a very long period. I get very hard for even my parent to get along with. I would go ballistic!
So that with commissioning a proper fursuit maker to turn this thing in my bucket list into a reality with shipping to my front door. So I'm in a bit of a pickle because out of the 2 priorities, I can only at the moment afford to choose 1 over the other. But to me I find it completely, utterly and emotionally awkward to a point that it's beyond impossible like balancing my money for both of these things.

I was on YouTube recently and I have discovered a huge coincidence. I was featured in 2 separate videos in 2 separate channels of which I have subscribed to and both is of the sergals that I'm a huge fan of though YouTube because of their respective activity. Wither if it's Zabu's comedy though his blogging videos, sketches and lets play videos. Or Rinn with his dancing. Also I do look up to these guys as my mentors within the furry fandom. They both are of their own expertise so smart. And so have so awesome looking fursonas as well as fursuits to back it up.
Anyway the main point is I had featured in 2 videos on YouTube in channels that are not mine but out in the same day and I felt so privileged to be featured in. One which is a video celebration of Rinn's 1,000 + subscriber milestone to his YouTube channel and for the second time had my question answered by Zabu himself in his recent Q and A which is Elder Scrolls Online related. If you 2 sergals are watching me on FurAffinity or recently visited my FA site I personally from the bottom of my heart want to thank you for giving me these opportunities. Huge respect to you my sergal friends. Peace!

Video topics to this journal:-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFdr585o_0o
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tz-KUJ9GDOs

Just writing to let my watchers know either it's the 10 I have now or more in the future that I'm in the progress of making a FurAffinitiy group page that are dedicated to us Argonians. Now this is pretty much a part 2 of the last journal about this I written last month.
I'm currently making this group site a reality so basically it's a group site for and by us as a fursona species. And in order to join is very simple. If you have an argonian fursona, an argoinan suitor, played as an argonian in any of the Elder Scrolls games or just like argonians. It is a work in progress and it's coming soon so if you are interested be on the lookout.

Argonian race and Elder Scrolls copyright, Bethesda Softworks

I must admit I notice that this Anthrocon to the Fuzzbutt community is like the Sema or E3 of fursuiters. I really notice this and I didn't long had an account on Fur Affinity and yet this is the most trending event as of this month in this site. And to me this is ironic calling myself a Fuzzbutt because of the fact that I'm an Argonian and us Argonians hardly have fur. But instead scales. Some of us as a species have feathers but the point is it's like the big thing in this community. I for 1 respect that!
Maybe it's down to a point where I won't mind going representing my species and to check it out. But I know that it's all the way in the US and I live in Australia so that sucks. Maybe I might meet a certain Angel Dragon called Telephone in the future or meet a curtain Sergal who inspired me to not be shameful of being a furry who I watch on YouTube and calls me his little Skyrim commenter in his last Q and A. Which I'm proud to be. I'm talking about you Zabu. Also I notice that others of my sona species are so much into roleplaying because as that I'm of the observing type. Saying stuff that Argonians would say in the Elder Scrolls games for one which I think that cool and most of my watchers are Argonians as well but even to some who are not, I once again think you for watching me on FA. 9 so far. Also I notice that a certain Chinese Dragon who people already know on YouTube called Tien Long. Went to this years AC. And that made me think that wouldn't it be awesome if this Argonian would be filmed on YouTube battling Tien in that convention. I mean in terms with that sort of LARPing I would guess that it would be like if you are familiar to the Dragonball series the first Battle of the Gods special when Goku ends up fighting Beerus. And I would end up with the same power advantage as Goku.

Well this journal is a part 2 of the last diary log. Just wanting to add that the Kahjit that recruited me is under the name of I remember Panthera of Thundra. He says that he got that name from watching Thundercats. And so far with this guild I got into well I could say that so far it consists of only beast races. And I think I know this because I got an invite to spend time with him and I don't know if the other female Argonian he plays the game with is his real world girlfriend.
At the time I was doing a separate quest to them. A solo quest where I end up having to recue a girl from Coldharbour. The guy that is known as The Profit sent me there and it involved taking her on a tour about her history where I had to collect her thing of her past. I wanted to get out of there bada-bing-bada-boom. Quick. As that I wanted to finally do 1 quest with them at Cyrodil. then I ended up having to face this weird monster that looked a bit like Hermas Mora of the Dragonborn extension to Skyrim but turns out to resemble her I think inner demons so I helped her kill it and return back to the living world or if you familiar with the Elder Scrolls games, Tamriel. So I did that then ended up at Cyrodil with 2 of my new guild I ended up half assing a quest they end up finishing and knowing that I tend to be the only member yet to have a mount of some sort. Pantera has a horse and I think Marge the fire mage who is this female Argonian has a Lion to ride on.
We ended up using various medieval tank type weapons like rams, catapults with various projectiles. And hit targets. Then we end up having to repair these weapon I had absolutely no idea how to do it. So that is what I'm stuck on. I had fun using these weapons on the game. It was so fun. But instead I tagged along while they did this quest.
The next morning I went back on my PS4 and noticed I had a friend request off my guild master who PSN ID is in fact Thedotorssj5. I in fact accepted his request and we swapped items in the game. Thanked him for having me as a friend on PSN from that time we had a chat while we played ESO . Mostly doing different quests.