while i do not draw as much as i used to or even write, life sucks that way, I am trying to get active again, specifically in my graphic design skills. so i need to advertise that more, as well as just kinda let yall know. unemployment cut me off. the pandemic made me lose my job last april. and since then i have been on unemployment. and. well. as of september 4th i am no longer eligible for unemployment due to not making enough money last year (figure that out). to top it off no one has hired me yet, seems no company wants me, yay, and our rent went up coming up soon putting us at over 1000 bucks for rent.

pretty much my wife and i are in a bad spot that i am trying very hard to get us out of but it is rough. so i am asking, if you guys want some graphic design work please let me know and we can work something out. or if you just wanna support me on my twitch channel that works too! reminds me i need to make a art piece for that dont i... hmmm.... ideas, ideas....

anyway thats the jist of it all. oh. also i should say. i got married last july to the woman who has helped me through ALOT and i would not be who i am without her, that much is for sure. sorry i have been so silent. i hope i can change that in the future.

I got invited to the affiliate program on Twitch!!! i can actually start making money off of it now. i dont know who came from this site to follow me, but thank you if you did, this morning was awesome to wake up to that invite in my inbox.

so since i havent been on here too much besides lurking and watching, you all havent heard i was engaged. and as of Saturday, July 25th 2020, i am now married to  primshine25 and i am extremely happy about this.

also, if you missed my previous journal i do stream on Twitch now and will be streaming tonight. just dont know what yet. so itll be a surprise for everyone!!!!!

Hello everyone! it's been a long time, like... years. 3 since my last journal. huh. damn. well i am here, i am alive. and I stream on twitch, you can find me here,
https://www.twitch.tv/bubz491
come on by and see me. i stream pretty often. about 4 times a week at least. but have been super busy lately, i am getting married in a couple weeks so alot of busy stuff. i will be live tonight though around 7 EST with Transformers War for Cybertron, please come on in and give a follow. i dont bite.

hey all! been awhile i know. still hunting for a good stylus thats affordable for me, which man that narrows it down for me. just wanted to say that hey im 26 now. im an old ass bastard now. but hey. year older year wiser and this year i learned that housing is expensive and house hunting fucking blows. but more on that when more viable options become available. till next time, later furs!

so sorry folks. i got a laptop! its an ASUS and i lvoe it. i just need a proper stylus for it and drawing will commence. i have been working on Dragon Reign, fully rebooted, events and characters are changing. either way. its all going good. life has been treating me well. youll see me more active i promise. till then, stay awesome everybody.

slowly, but surely things are coming. after the new year i will be replacing my old laptop with a newer model, not a Mac though. Mac was great for schoolwork and everything like that, but i need something more. something i can really use to enhance my art and learn the programming i need to know. i am still in the market and as i said wont be till the new year, but once i have it then youll start seeing little things from me again. also! i might be moving accounts to a more permanent one with a better name for myself, and actually have the name Gyaku if at all possible, gotta check that first and make sure it is available. to those of you i talk with on a regular basis, please make sure to keep my ass in line, you know how bad i can get. anyway, that is all for now. hopefully the new year brings better things than this year did and the year before that, and the year before that.

good news this time, all good news. i have a magnificent gf, for 2 and a half years now, a fantastic job for 1 and a half years now, and im regularly going to cons now, like mff next week! for the second year in a row!!! wooo!!!!

gonna spend it at home. we are celelbrating it on tuesday with the family. for today, i got my best friend coming over eventually, my nephew will be here, and my gf a little later tonight. id say its gonna be a good quiet peaceful day.

I have read over the first chapter and find myself unable to finish it. I am going to remove the entirety of the story, maybe, but more than likely i will reboot it, the events will be the same but the writing needs a major improvement, like holy hell. will keep you all posted.

and I've had no luck with a job. DX so I'm taking today to myself. relaxing, no worries. just gonna play some mortal kombat 9, get killed by shao kahn a ton woo!!!! finally beat that one hopefully.

I'm in a black polo and jeans and will have a large black coat on, I chose to leave the hat at home cause it is really filthy and I forgot to clean it. So you'll all see how thin my hair is. Yay. -.-

who is going!? cause my gf and i are gonna go! and i cannot wait! we will be there all day on saturday! ill be in jeans and a nice polo, i do wear a trilby on my head, it covers my bald spot, so you can find me that way.

so i haven't been doing a lot lately mostly due to time constraints and focusing on finding a job. well the other day i thought i had found that job, a event coordinator and advertiser job, right up my alley a perfect job for me. I interviewed yesterday and it went perfect, it was a mostly in office job, not a lot of on site stuff, i loved every second of the interview.

now onto today! i was told i would have an onsite interview, which made sense, so i went to a meijer about 45 minutes away from me for said interview. once there i met a very nice lady and we began. she showed me where they were set up and explained to me what they do. i asked would i be doing this, giving presentations, or be in the background, as in set up, she told me that i would be giving presentations nearly all the time, as that is my job. I panicked, i tried not to show it, but i told her i am not comfy with that kinda stuff, i am not a public speaker. as a courtesy i stayed for the presentation and at the end she asked me a few questions, and i asked her a few. we parted on good terms but i called my mother immediately and told her everything and that i was shaking like mad in a full on panic attack.

i am now home, i have a beer with me, i have godzilla on the tv and have told my father and my brother, my father said that they were scamming me from the get go but using a bait and switch and felt really bad that this happened cause i was ecstatic about this job, my brother on the other hand said, and i quote “lol. yay misleading ass-hats.” if not for the fact i have an extremely supportive family this failure would have driven me absolutely mad and sent me into a depression. I’m taking this weekend to myself. for now I’m gonna blow off steam by playing some games. kinda wish hyrule warriors was online. wouldn’t mind some friends to play with.

so i have a new job where i work from 6 in the morning to 11 on tuesday and friday. i know, real money maker. but today i am leaving at 10 instead of 11 so that i can go to my grandfather's wake. i regret to say that he had passed from this life on saturday morning. my family was expecting this for a very long time, and this past week was really hard on him. but my mom and her 4 siblings made their father very comfortable and were always there to see him, i don't think a single day went by this past week where one of his kids weren't there. friday as i got home from work my mom was leaving, and told me that she was going to see him, and that the doctors thought he wasn't gonna last the night, he actually made it till about 10 am saturday morning, sadly none of his children were there for him, someone was, i don't know who though and i don't want to ask my mother as she is taking this whole ordeal hard. anyway, today i am going into work, I'm actually leaving in a couple minutes, and then coming home and getting ready for a wake that i am far from prepared to go to, and i will be there from 12-8 tonight, at least, then we turn around tomorrow and have the funeral. i am not ready to say goodbye to my grandpa, but it is something we all have to do. i have gotten some amazing support from my friends, both online and off, and even my gf will be there tomorrow. it eases the pain, but i miss him too much for it to disappear. anyway, thought i would give you all that update on my life.

down in Novi, it's next to one of my friends, and we were curious. so we will be there a little later. this ought to be interesting.

I just received the greatest call ever! some light on this situation first, I have been out of a job and stuck at home since the beginning of November when my previous job at a golf course ended, well yesterday was the third interview I have been too in the last 5 months, and all three interviews were within 2 weeks of each other, anyway, yesterday i nailed the interview sending it outta the park, and was told today that around 3 pm I would receive a phone call regarding the job. Well at around 2:50 ish i got a call and was asked when I can start! It isn’t anything glamorous that it for sure, but it is still something with a paycheck that is relatively close to home and is only in the mornings so i have the day to myself. So yes, I am excited as hell that my 5 month long vacation is finally done.

i broke 100 watchers… i had no idea. thank you, each and every one of you. i should probably be more active here. heheh.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5029430/

this is from a good friend of mine and she could use some help. shes a great artist and makes soem cute work. go check her out and give her your love.

yup i am here. and here is an update on life. life is busy. life is good kinda busy. school is ending. and i have one more semester to graduation. yay'n'stuff. also, since i will be getting Animal Crossing New Leaf feel free to send me your 3ds friend codes and i will add you all when i get home and finish my homework. deal? awesome.

cause im going to the motor city comic con today with one of my best friends, and a friend from his school. cant wait this is my first con. true i would rather have gone all weekend but eh.

what is the point of it? setting off a bomb at a marathon!? REALLY!? i pray that they find and kill this bastard.

http://edition.cnn.com/2013/04/15/u.....ons/?hpt=hp_t1

go here!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4435647/

help them!

this is a link to my sisters journal, Zephyrr, her and her mate Kirimi really need a roommate in the San Diego area that is babyfur/diaperfur friendly! dont send me your replies send your replies straight to them!


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4373350/

heres the link to my Ask Knightstar blog.http://askknightstar.tumblr.com/
empty i know. but i need a start somewhere right?… right?