I am deeply sorry for my very long disappearance from this lovely website. Well I am now 19 years old and I am in my second semester of college. I am going to Ivy-tech for maybe another semester after this current one I am in now, but I am not sure yet. I really won't be on here much anymore due to college, but that doesn't I am leaving FA at all. I just have to focus on my life and not this place. I will maybe post some of the art I have made over the months of my disappearance. I will give you all more updates in the future when I have the time to. Also I am very excited for Fallout 4! yup just putting that there for randomness. Now I give you all a bow of gratitude *bows*

CURSE YOU DEATH!!!!!!! First you take one of favorite actors from Fast and furious and now one of my favorite funny actors. *crys in corner* LONG LIVE ROBIN WILLIAMS!! He is in a better place now.

I died at the robot voice part

for it is my birthday! I turn .....wait for it .......18.............. which means, you guessed it .....nothing...lol. So yea I'm just going to enjoy this day indeed and now I end this journal with an awesome song.

and also for got the to say that on May 17th (which this is really late saying this) was my anniversary of me being on Furaffinity for 3 years YAY! (epic fail for not posting this sooner)............ anyway yea just to post this journal to say that I am not dead and stuff and now I end this journal with music from a game I just played a day ago and also I am now playing Warthunder on the PS4! oh and those sketches I have will be posted on here....... I SWEAR THEY WILL IF I CAN JUST STOP BEING LAZY !!!!!

As I have said before Life just comes in and sweeps you away so yea.... I'll upload my sketches later today hopefully. So keep a look out for them.. NOW BEGONE WITH YE!!!!!!

Why do I say this because I was about to upload some of my sketches, but then I've seeing journals about a submission issue and well that really sucks. So yea I guess I'll wait until then.

YES IT IS THE ONE BUG THAT NEVER DIES AHAHAAH! (face palm) Yea that was a terrible start, but anyway lets get to the real stuff. I guess I have been gone for few days....so I have decided to return to this place and stuff...
I also have a question for you all .... I've been thinking of uploading my art that I have been making in my sketch book on here, but I don't know if I should and no it's not something inappropriate or anything like that, so what do you guys think I should do? Finally now for some music

Well happy Valentines Day... yup I don't really care for this holiday to be honest. So yea, hope you all have a great Valentines Day and stuff. Strange thing about this day is that I have never gotten a card from anyone besides my family. Oh well I guess no one likes a demon like me and I wonder why? *laughs evilly while drinking tea*

Well I feel a little better, but still feel like crap from this cancer known as depression. So now to the real talk.. I have been watching a lot of anime lately. I mean A LOT of anime like about 20 series in like a month or even more ( I have no life). I am currently watching an anime called Mondaiji-tachi ga Isekai Kara Kuru Sou Desu yo ? Which sadly only has .....10 EPISODES!! WTF :C I demand this show a second season and many other shows as well. Although the show came out year ago. I like this a lot because of three things. 1. the character Black Rabbit (don't judge me......please) 2. the intro music. 3. the other characters. I am also watching Sword Art Online. I know I am late for the bandwagon of this anime ( it came out in 2012 and 2013) If you wondering where I watch these shows I watch them on http://www.crunchyroll.com . Now must I ask you all something. What is your favorite anime shows that you have ever watched? Now I end this journal with some music

When everyone you know and love has faith in you , but the only the person who doesn't have faith for you is yourself. That's what I've been feeling for about a year now and I'm so sick of it. I mean for some reason almost time I think about myself ...I think about myself as a fool, disgrace, and a failure. I don't know why I think this way or feel this way about myself.... , but I do know one thing. It feels like hell. It feels like I'm fighting myself every day just keep myself happy , but deep inside I feel sad and cold. I try to get rid of these sad thoughts, but they just keep coming back to me like a demon stuck to my soul. I don't what to do , to be honest. Sorry for writing this depressing journal , but it's just this has been on my mind for awhile now... so sorry for the trouble.

This year of 2013 was one of the greatest of my life I think. I had my ups and my downs but it was mostly Ups then anything else.
So I hope 2014 will be a great year indeed. I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEW GAMES ON THE PS4!!!!!!!!! I hope one day in 2014 I can host a Raffle for my watchers with my character Bug. (he wants to be in other pictures with more people), but anyway Happy New Year to all of my watchers who read this journal. So now I leave with some music

Stolen from Sarynx
A. AVAILABLE-
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA are you joking ......I don't want anyone

B- BIRTHDAY
July 1st


C- CRUSHING ON-
NO ONE!!! (although I did at one point)


D- DRINK YOU LAST HAD-
Coca nut milk


E- EASIEST PERSON/People TO TALK TO-
My mother

F- FAVOURITE SONG-
hmm it would have to be Master of Puppets by Metallica or Under and Over it (Remix) by Five Finger Death Punch


G- GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS-
BOTH I MUST SAY


H- HOMETOWN-
Anderson, Indiana


I- IN LOVE WITH-
Again I am not in love with anyone


J- JOB-
I was a Video photographer, but now I do nothing since I am in high school still.

K- KILLED SOMEONE-
in KILLZONE Shadow Fall and in World of Tanks


L- LONGEST CAR RIDE-
From Indiana to Florida it was about a 12 hour drive


M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOUR-
Mint chocolate chip

N- NUMBER OF SIBLINGS
3 sisters (for I am the only dude besides my dad in my family)



O- ONE WISH-
for once I would like to be happy about myself


P- PERSON YOU CALLED LAST-
Haven't called anyone lately


Q- QUIET EVENING OR PARTY NIGHT-
I must say Quiet evening (I don't really like parties to be honest)


R- REASON TO SMILE-
When I make my family proud


S- SONG YOU LAST SANG
Don't Stop Me Now by Queen


T- TIME YOU WOKE UP-
10 A.M.


U- UNDERWEAR COLOUR
Blue


V- VEGETABLE
GREEN BEANS!!!!!!!

W- WORST HABIT-
Biting my finger nails (I CAN'T HELP IT!) (T_T)

X- X-RAY YOU'VE HAD-
On my teeth


Y- YOUR OPINION OF THIS MEME-
I think it was very fun!


Z- ZODIAC SIGN-
I AM THE MIGHTY CANCER!!!!

I GOT A PS4!!! I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR SO LONG and now I have it......... *has a small heart attack* I got two games with it as well I got KNACK and Killzone Shadow Fall. I'm playing KNACK right now as we speak and it's a fun little game. Although I had to make a new PSN account. because I forgot I deleted my old account, but oh well. So If you want to add on PSN my account name is "bizmark00700" and no Bizmark is not my real name just so you know!

is to have a great Holiday and a happy New Year and such. Now I shall leave you with some music.

The madness I'm talking about is the rumor of "FA is going to Fail", just because it went down for a week, and other stuff life that. It's sound like another problem (like the ps4 having bugs and stuff) ,but you know what I don't really give a crap anymore. When FA does actually go down then I'll move to another site, but then again the NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF HELL with websites like FA will never end if you actually think about it. So yea that's my opinion about this madness of right now.

Well FA is back up (yay) but HOLY SHIT IT'S SLOW. I look at my submissions notification and I'm "oh god why do I watch so many people...." now im stuck here deleteing old stuff now..............WHY FA WHY!!!!! and also there is going to be a new GODZILLA MOVIE!!!!! so here is the trailer!

Well I feel a lot better from the break from society and also that journal didn't apply to anyone on here on this website. Also I'm finally selling my PS3 so yea. I still feel so cold..... https://soundcloud.com/elevensevenm.....-punch/s-bNzLD ( get it cause it is the name of the song.......)

There's one thing I hate about this world is people in general sometimes. Not everyone of course, but you know what I mean. Pardon my fowl mouth , but sometimes I just want to fucking knock someones head off just to shut them up. That's one of the thing's I hate about myself is my anger and I feel terrible when i get angry. I try not to, but holy shit HOW CAN YOU NOT GET ANGRY AT PEOPLE THESE DAYS! I try to be a nice guy when all I get sometimes is SHIT SPITTED INTO MY FACE! I guess trying to be nice is a GOD DAMN SIN!? This is also why I like to be alone sometimes. I guess this is also one of the reasons why I am Asexual too now that i think about? I'm just gonna take a break from society for a few days. So yea goodbye for now.......

GO HERE ! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5221922/

lits is having a Free art Raffle and it is ending on November 30th!
Read all of the rules and enter here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5218455/ and also YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5217229/

well when I said I was going to sell it well I don't I can you see the thing is that my Ps3 is about to bite the dust and don't feel like giving someone a Ps3 that will die on them in less than half a year so yea, but if anyone would like to have it still , just say the word and I'll work something out.

first time hearing anything like this , but hey I'll try it out. so go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5140779/