So because mentally I am unable to cope with everything that has happened to me in the last few months... I have decided that if in one month things don't get a little better, then in two ill be gone.

I apparently have the worst luck ever right now, and for starters I am going to be typing this journal with one-hand thanks to my shitty luck... (broke my finger yesterday... one of the weirdest ways imaginable) So... ill just start from the beginning of December to show, how lucky I am...

Diagnosed with an un-curable disease that makes you feel like you got stuff stuck in your throat 24/7 and guess who can't eat any of the foods I love anymore?! So now I have a very... bland diet

My mom's mom, falls and breaks a hip, so that leaves my mom to go to Florida

The bank account gets hacked... so no money at all for me! and lots of other shit happened with this that I can't really say.

My TV breaks, it was a great tv when it worked 32" 1080p 120ghz tv.... just up'd and died after 2 or 3 years,,,, a month after the warranty expires...

My 47 page paper for my science project that I had been working on for around, idk 9 months gets deleted; two weeks before the due date...

I needed to get a small minor surgery on my back... so had to take that.

I am used to not getting anything for the holidays so... that wasn't really depressing

Skyrim... glitched again! after a 80 hour campaign this time... so now I gotta start... again! Fuck you Skyrim! You were supposed to be a stress reliever not a giver!

I now have a messed up right shoulder from playing tennis, I hyper extended it or something, and still kinda hurts today as well (I re-aggravated it yesterday)

I got drilled in the balls by a tennis racket, again.... (hurts like hell, so I don't recommend it)

Gave my speech and got shredded to pieces, (you had to be there to see how shredded I was)

Decided to take a day off school to calm down and make up work to find out I got my account suspended for 2 days from something a friend sent me to cheer me up, so my day was shot then... only to re-find out (I forgot when i first found out, mainly because i didn't believe it at the first place) that the Vice President of the United States was at the high school, and all seniors were supposed to go...

Then yesterday, when i was cooking I dropped an egg and tried to catch it (which i did) and then the large jug of apple cider fell on my finger, at first i think i broke it, but now im thinking it might just be a small fracture, which sucks for me since i can't play videogames until it heals, or the swelling goes down... so hopefully before i got to take my final exams on Tuesday.

Also, I love how i emailed the accounts email for FA when I first found out the suspension... and still haven't heard back... yay me!

O and lastly I still need to get the final picture for my project so I can make the poster board, finish my presentation and get butchered alive by a bunch of people with PHds! Yay me! And this is only just the last month! Ever since my birthday, my life has been like this!

Some other awesome highlights since my bday include, getting hit by a car, mature art blocked on FA, burnt my hand so bad got the molten skin... and the mark is still there four months later, out of $120 or so which is equivalent to two months of saving up, my eye still hurts from another un-curable disease i have (can make the pain go away some of the time, but not all of the time), uhmm allergies are still shit, my wrist still hurts like hell and has nerve damage.... and now im taking 1,600 mg of advil a day... on a good day! (ODing anyone?)

Ill just leave it at that... (Yes, I can add more stuff to this as well!)

So... I am really close to sueing the government over the whole porn issue, (can have sex at 13 but can't look until 18? WTF!) or jumping off a 30 story building... and im afraid of heights!

So how lucky is everyone else?

I just love how in the last two days everything has turned to shit so fast... Got mature locked on FA so I can't even view the fucking art I paid for, Started coughing up blood, collapsed and hit my head... again, burnt my hand badly, drew a rage picture which has caused me to take over 2,500 advil in the last 24 hours, my eye is in so much pain, my project is failing, I failed 3 college tests, plus more other shit... its just getting worse and worse. Go me! So sorry if I piss anyone off, its just not my week I guess.

I have a lot to updat with my FA account... So I most likely won't fully update everything for a while... Please bear with me while the profile goes through some minor changes daily. ^.^

After downloading a whole bunch of. .. ... ... Porn onto my new phone, (around 100 images) I go and turn it off... When I turn it on again... They are all gone! Damnit! That took like 2 days to download all that porn >.<

I am working on a science project for school about aliens and such, so to all my watchers. In all honesty, what do you think is needed to have alien life exist?

I am giving all of the rights of both of my characters to  Procene until I feel it is wise to come and reclaim them.

The only time I will be using my characters is to pay off the commission that I have with  Zambuka and to finish the idea that I have with  Barraqda

Already paid for and started:

Reference pic  Iggi

Male character design  Rottingroot

Neera planetary pic Deja-Blu

Tentacle pic  Modman287

Already Paid for and not started:

Turian headshot

Vollyball Pic Series

Sex pic with by  CandyFoxy

Family picture

Pokeporn or Drayk Picture ($70/$90 paid)  Zambuka

Need to Upload

Shark Sex Pics

Unique species are a fav in this! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2615855/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2617808/ Really awesome icons, also tip them some money... Be really nice!

After seeing my good friend  SulferDragon do a commission list, I thought it would be smart to do my own ^v^

Already paid for and started:

Reference pic  Iggi

Male character design  Rottingroot

Shark Tailsex pic  Deja-Blu

Tentacle pic  Modman287

Already Paid for and not started:

Vollyball Pic Series  Deja-Blu

Sex pic with  Procene by  CandyFoxy

Family picture  Rottingroot

Pokeporn or Drayk Picture ($70/$90 paid)  Zambuka

1: Been in the fandom for around 5 years

2: I have finally became good friends with characters who have got me in the fandom

3: My first sona was an anthro stingray

4: I am a virgin in real life

5: I am pretty much straight in real life

6: I love sports (A fur who likes sports... shocking!)

7: My two favorite sports teams are the Philadelphia Eagles and Cleveland Browns (NFL)

8: The two people who majorly shaped my life indirectly are  Drayk and  Runa216

9: I am really intelligent, but act like a goofball

10: I don't have any friends in real life

11: I am pretty much straight in real life

12: I really want/need a fursuit

13: I really want/need a mursuit

14: I picked the name Nova because I felt like my life would end with a big explosion like a Super Nova

15: I love science and am a total Xenophile

16: Have had things worth more money stolen from me, then money I have earned in the last three years combined

17: The shortest time I had one sona was 3 days, and that was a Butterfly Eel mix

18: I have had around 8 different sonas in the process to the one I have now

19: I pretty much only like those with unique sonas

20: I am a completely different person in RL then I am online, which I want to change, but can't

21: I have beaten Mass Effect 1 six times and Mass Effect 2 eight times

22: I only have 6 disk video games

23: I hate how most of my best friends live on the west coast and the closest is around a 8 hour drive

24: I have broken both of my arms, at the same time. And I have had severe head trauma... so take what you will from that

25: I feel emotionally compromised and have been for the last two days

Okay so maybe a little more then 25 things... but still all true!

Three picture series, $30 to be in all three pictures.

Visit here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2520088/ for more information!

Well last night I was talking to my good friend Sariya he told me that he was going to attempt a Nuzlocke challenge... well after he explained it too me and such, I have decided I want to attempt the same thing from were I left off in Soul Silver (after the 4th gym)
These are his rules that I will be following ^v^
RULES

1) Any Pokémon that faints is considered dead, and must be released.

2) The player may only catch the first Pokémon encountered in each area, and none else. If the first Pokémon encountered faints or flees, there are no second chances.

3) A Trainer my not include Duplicate pokemon

4) 2 Legendaries in a party at a time

5) Every Caught pokemon has to be nicknamed

He has told me that it is very difficult and such, and well I am considerably bored over this summer so it is time to pick up some games... well so here I go challenge! Wish me luck ^v^

So ya, seeing how everyone has msn, i decided to get my own... my msn email thingy is c-sec_nova[at]live.com feel free to add ^v^

I got bored.... around a hour ago, so I thought to myself "What makes my sona unique? and What can my sona do?"

So, what makes my sona unique?

1: It is a Shark Eagle mix, the only sona that I know that mixes an Eagle with a Shark, and I only know of one other, who is a mix of an Avian and Cetacean.

2: Tribal sun eye, I decided that because my name is Nova and I love Xeno-Sciences that I would try and have a tribal sun eye, and well it turned out beautifully.

3: The body patterns, on shoulders, toes, fingers, and tail, They look incredibly unique and beautiful.

4: The wings, Outside of the colors and the patterns, the wings are removable. The wings can be cut off and then can be grown back when ever, but however it takes weeks to grow back. Most of the times the wings will stay cut off

5: His gender is not male, female or herm... but Cuntboy with a blue colored cunt

More reasons to come, I need to get off and such, will update tomorrow >v<

Recently I have been making a lot of people angry at me for how I have been acting recently. I have been acting rather childish lately and have made many people upset. While I have made some new friends in t he last month, I have noticed that I have been either losing contact with good friends or have destroyed the possibility to have a relationship with new people. For that reason, I would like to explain why I have been acting the way I have and apalogize for my behavior.

The first reason for why I have been acting the way I have, is mostly stress. Throughout the year I have been in charge of a major research project that I needed to work on, around a few months ago it had all fell apart, and consiquently in the last few weeks I have been dealing with loads of stress from the science project, as well as many other papers I have been working on. Usually when I am having tons of stress I lose sleep, and my brain can not function as well even with the medication I have. Thus I have been very, aggrevating to people, either by being annoying, undecisive, childish, immature and other ways.

Most recently in the last week, the way I have acted has gotten aggresivly worst because of the necessity to get my papers done. Today I have completed the majority of the papers, including the research paper which was 30 pages long. A lot of problems went wrong with that paper and the project, as well as other things in my life.

My health hasn't been to good recently have been having some issues with my throat and stomach, on top of very bad allergies and asthma. My throat and stomach problems have been around for around 9 months, and the doctors still don't really know what has been causing my health issues and every attempts so far have been met with failure. However my sickness does not really give me an honest excuse to why I have been behaving, and neither does my stress or personal issues (which will most likely never be discussed).

For all those who I have offended and have turned away from a possible friendship with me. I am truly and deeply sorry. I plead with you to give me one more chance if I have upset you in any way, but it is up to you however. While I would like the opportunity for a second chance, most people do not receive that opportunity so if you do not want to give me one I understand.

Sincerely
Nova

Keeper of Peace
Main Body: There would be a 'mechanized' armor that covers the main body. It will harden to protect the wearer on impact as well as give the user information about the object including what type of weapon was used, the distance from where it was fired, and the direction it was fired from to the users visor.

Arms: On each arm the user will have a device that can extend to a riot shield (using light carbon nanotube thin poles that would extend and circulate to protect the user) or create a carbon nanotube style blade, a dull version for non-lethal scenarios and a bladed version for lethal scenarios.

Visor: The visor can be either built into a helmet or be placed as a head piece

Weapons: Mixture of Grenades easily accessible, Pistol as a side arm, and an SMG. Excess ammo located on the legs.

Specialized Assassin (Air based or Underwater based):
Main Body: Skin tight clothes that cover the whole body with metal armor padding covering certain parts of the body. On the back there is a jet pack with small stabilizing boosters on the persons arms and legs. The jet pack using a special ion style jets will be able to give a boost above or below water

Weapons: A specialized rail gun sniper rifle, it is attached in between the Jet pack and the back of the user with easy accessibility. The rail gun rifle has a zoom that can magnify up too 1 mile and give feedback through a visor about the wind or water current as well as other things that are necessarily to take into account.

Helmet: The helmet as oxygen recycling ability that can recycle the air that you exhale and turn it into breathable air that can last for a few hours. The helmet's visor is clear and can act as an entertainment hub, and acts as the rifles H.U.D. so the visor can act as the Rifle's 'scope'

Feminine Beauty: (WIP)
Main Body: The armor is built like a one piece swimsuit with a skirted bottom. The armor is considerably thick (1 - 2 inches). On the shoulders there is a large covering protecting the shoulder blades, with a hidden mini rocket/grenade launcher capable of firing two shots (in each shoulder). The user wears high-tech clothes that match the skirt. Giving the wearer special abilities such as camouflage and etc.

Weapons: The wearer has two SMGs and two pistols, as well as a camouflaged blade.

Fall Back Samurai: (WIP)

Armor: The armor covers the whole body. On the wearers arms, there are twin blades that stick out and can move forward or backwards (depending on the situation). The legs, have small jets (same as the Assassin) The eye pieces are able to give out live feed back on the situations surrounding the other three members.

Weapons: Two blades hidden in armor that can appear on command, An assault rifle, pistol, shotgun, and smg.