>.>
I'm starting to wonder if I did something to make people mad at me, it seems like noone really wants to talk to me...And damn my shyness I have such a hard time talking to people, and then spazz out and think there mad at me when they don't talk to me. But they probably arn't talking to me because they think I'm not paying attention.
To quiet for my own good, I'll work on that.

I really need more fuzzy friends, I've got my irl ones but really haven't bonded with anyone in the fuzz artist community. I've got people I adore to peices but I seem to find it hard for me to actually get into best friends in the art community, and I wish I did. Gonna have to start talking more, I'm working on it.

Oh, and the jems of jewels is occuring.
I have 3, 3 freaking scanners, they all work. Ones missing its power cord but the others they work. They work like mad >:D, but...I can't get them to friggen work on my computer. I'm installation retarded. I really freaking am and I have so much crap to scan. Atleast 8 finished peices. And a few, things I really can't finish cause they look like crap and will restart them but still want to upload them so people know I'm working, pictures.

It's so impossible anymore D:
WHY WONT THEY WORK???? D8<

I know it's economically poor time for me to be asking/pleading for commissions...but I'm really in some desperate need for extra money.
During the winter months which it's creeping to rather quickly I don't work often at all at my job. After this weekend I might work 2 days a week. Because with how cold it's been our mom and pop restaurant and ice cream parlor are loosing business fast. So I'll be making even less money.
I've had a few unexpected bills to pay, and am flat broke...
I couldn't even afford to get my boyfriend anything for our anniversary which makes me feel so god awful ):
And I need to start saving for Christmas...And his birthdays at the end of this month...And I have not even $5.00 saved up to put towards any of this, and I know I won't for awhile. I did have it saved up, slightly but due to a rodent of mine eating through 2 cages and escaping multiple times, I had to spend what little I had saved on that so the cats wouldn't eat him.

Needless to say I'd be unbelievably grateful to anyone who could spare some money and take a commission, also I'd be really happy if anyone could help repost this or something so maybe more people could get interested.
Also I think I have some kind of lung sickness, I can't remember what it's called I picked it up from mfm, and it's still here and getting worse again. Hopefully I won't need to go to the doctor...I don't have insurance and really cant afford to get pneumonia.

Anywho my prices are this:
Pencil sketches-$5.00
Inks-$15.00
Color- $25.00
Color with background-$40.00 (this includes 2 chars, where the others are one char)
Full Body Badges-$25.00
Pop Badges-$20-(buy 2 for $30)
Steampunk Badge- $15
Critter Badges-$10

I love halloween it makes my life better everytime it gets closer, when your a spooky little beast who adores all things creepy, crawly, sticky, slimey, dead, crunchy you love halloween.
I've been stalking up on crap like mad, halloween stickers, fake plastic fuzzy spiders, bats galore, skeleton bits everywhere, webs, and of course caaaandy.

I haven't decided what I'm going to be for halloween, its a tie between a pirate, or alice from alice and wonderland. Well skanky alice, or maybe a latex nurse >.>

Anywho, I'm still looking for trades noone seemed interested in my last post cept for Amaze and Rabid who I've done trades with and love there art, but I'm trying to find people I haven't traded with before.

And don't really have the time to browse for people.

Taking 3 spots D:

I know I said I wasn't going to take anymore trades do to wanting to work on things other than my art there's somethings I want to try and play around with and need guinea pigs.
I'm not really looking for badge trades, I'm wanting to do full pieces with backgrounds and a plot behind them. So of course I want this in return.
I also want autumn/Halloween themes in these, in my half of the trade and the other persons.
And I'm only wanting to take 3 trades atm, and with people I haven't previously traded with before, unless I'd really like a full color piece from you which is quiet a few people.

Also I am done with  shadowpelt badges for her and Kairi, and I managed to make them the champion digimon instead of rookies on my 7th attempt at them.
I've also got  abighaile finished, and alot of other stuff. I need to get a scanner cord and have been broke, cause I can't spend money good and got a new degu. So one day soon there will be massive up-loadings :3

I just had an experience with a rather rude artist, who left a lovely comment on my page asking me to unwatch them because I didn't comment there art, wasn't 'committed enough' which is bullshit.
I'm not one for starting shit but I know people have previously mentioned having problems with addlesee, who I was watching do the fact there art was very well done.
I don't comment much alot of people know that due to the fact I rarely get on, and for other reasons. But requesting to be unwatched because of lack of talking to an artist is the most retardedest thing I've ever heard.
I was paying attention to there art like I do with all of the artist I watch. If I don't comment its because I really didn't see anything to say. And no offense dear addlesee, but your arts very boring and plain. It's well done, which was why I was watching you, but lacks any inspiration or real creativity behind it, the scenes are boring, none whimsical, lack color and interesting characters. So no I didn't comment because I didn't have alot to say other than, "this is well done" which I don't post because I only post critique.
And I know I can't say a whole lot my arts usually just one person characters on a blank background, this is usually what I'm asked to do. But I try to make up with expressions interesting colors, and a feeling behind every picture. But I'm not perfect and I don't expect outrageous devoted fans because of this. But seriously I'm not going to go through my list and send everyone a message saying, "Hey comment me or GTFO" that's very pig headed and arrogant.

Sorry its a ramble that probably will start shit but, If they wouldn't have blocked me I could have commented them and told them my thoughts.

Also this is a response journal for my pimping artist post I made, please anyone who watched this person, stop because in the long run there just going to be an ass to you. Because your not committed enough to like there art.

I doubt I even want to attempt going to mff, I spent $800 bucks there last time and my pockets are still sore over that decision. I've got alot of things that I plan to work on in hopes of having a booth at pagan festivals and such.
I haven't worked on anything I haven't had time to, I've tried but I've worked nearly every day, and went camping a week and a half right after getting back from previous con, and trying to spend time with friends,family, and adorable man I haven't exactly been able to make time for the art yet. Though gauging on lateness in things I commissioned/traded for I really don't think I should spaz as much as I do about my arting time period cause it seems like 85% of other artist take there seriously dear sweet time.
But yeah that and muse of drawing furries has died, alot, Ive been examing intimately faces of humans and have been working on contures and how to perfect my faces and expressions. I figure if I can get them down with humans adjusting them to furries wouldnt be that hard.

But I do intend to start on them this friday again regardless, though I'm not going to accept trades for awhile after I get all my list done. Save for the people who I haven't quiet taken trades with, but have been contacted about.

Anywho I'm getting more into my spirituality, and abstractish things, so I've been working with these and have found more mundane things not quiet so interesting. Not that I'm stopping them I just really need to work on my own projects and haven't had a chance to at all recently.

*dreamy sigh* Things are good right now though, I consider, I've been alot happier, I usually am when I get more intouch with nature, and love.

Live
Love
Be
Believe
~Spook

or if all else fails a room. Im trying to find someones to room with so far 3 people are going with maybe 4 and im looking to get a suite at the overflow hotel which i think is a hampton inn and in my opinon is better than the westen. Anyone looking for a room? Kinda wanting female room mates have had problems in the past with men roomies but as long as theres no creepy stuff its all good. The room so far is $129 whole con this will be less if i can find over 5 people to go 6 or 7 would be nice

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MFM 2009 was defiantly the greatest tap-dancing con I've been to in a long while. Like seriously I don't think I've ever had such a great time at a convention before. And I'll tell you why, it goes alittle something like this...

Well first we rolled up day of con and nearly missed everything that happened that day. We didn't get there till about 6 cuz we couldn't check in til 3 so I was trying to get there around that time. This was a fail, next year going a day early. We unpacked signed everything and where set. So we hung out slightly then slept.

Next day I went by myself to the artist alley. Which was nerve wracking enough cause I'm very afraid of doing things on my own, but I powered through it like a champ. I'm slightly passing out after setting up, and a lovely lady walks in the room and makes a comment about it. This lovely lady turns out to be  blackfrost who complemented my art by saying I had good anatomy, which means alot cause shes one of my favorite artists. So after she wanders back to her table I'm wide eyed and awake realizing its going to be a good day. And it was.

I got commission after commission after commission, and I finished most of them that day. I didn't get any pictures though and I'm sad about that, but at least I know the commissioners are happy with them. Though I did loose one persons contact info and I really need it so I can finish there badge and mail it. Anywho, total I got 12 commissions in 2 days and made over $100 bucks, which for my prices is awesome. I did spend the whole con drawing, but I usually do. I got to meet  krystal-fox in person and she's really neat and crazy, as well spent quiet abit of time talking with  flyingfire whos probably one of the sweetest people I think I've ever met at a furcon.
I didn't see awhole lot of  gorath and his herd but he's usually roomed with us, and the fact he didn't this con I think had alot to do with it, that and he doesn't seem to want to hang out with anyone anymore :'(
I actually spent more time with  grylor than him xP.

Anywho it was an amazing con, there was the drama but not nearly to the degree of what it usually is.

Oh and the con Chairman is a bastard who made me cry, but I think he made everyone cry. Especially if the con means alot to you, making everyone think this years con was going to be the last mfm. It is in that hotel, mfm has a new home and I'm super excited. I'm going to work on special badges just for that with a new home, old friends theme.

I'm glad there switching hotels, I think from the hellious mold in our room and the air conditioner we could shut off me and Morgause have fallen quiet ill. She's actually got a pneumonia, I'm close to it but I think I'll be ok.

I know I got this same sick last year after leaving, and I wasn't around any sick people at all so I believe it's from the hotel and a weak system from lack of sleep and food.

Anyway that was my con report it was amazing, if you happen to have any of the commissions I did there or anything lemme know I'd like to put them in my gallery.

 speckled-paws asked me to post a journal pimping some artists. Hardly anyone reads my journals cept for about 7 people who always manage to pop up which is nice :3

Anywho artist who should be checked out if they aren't already.

Edit: actually don't watch  addlesee they're full of themselves

Second,  kitewanderlust is an awesome lil deer gurl whos art I lurve, they should also be checked out.

Third,  eiri Who I've already gone on about before but who's art is still none the less terrific. She's one of my bestest friends irl.

And fourth the person who asked me to do this journal  speckled-paws who's art is coming along rather nicely and should get more love before he's such a popular artist noone can get a word in, and he'll have to have security guards fighting off his swarms of fan girls. Which I imagine if he gives his art his all will be in about a year or 2.

I need bottle caps before the con. I know this is kinda short notice but if anyone is going to MFM or such I need bottle caps cuz I'm going to try to do my bottle cap necklaces, which yes I did start doing. I've made 3 but besides the one on my neck which is pretty good I gave the others away already. I'm going to charge like $5.00 or so maybe less for them at the con and see if they sell.

So I'm gonna try to get alot of bottle caps and if anyone could help me out it'd be awesome <3

I asked Ninninz cause I know he usually has lots of woodchucks and what-nots during cons but I'd still like to have some when getting there so I can work on them. And I doubt there will be drinking til that night. So I may have a source of some but the more the awesomer

After going through my gallery to get pictures for my portfolio (*cough* cause I don't back up any of my files) Ive noticed, either complete lack of crotch on most of my mail pictures unless Gor-Gor helps be with the bulge.

The confession is, I have a vagina. I do not comprehend penis' nor do I comprehend where they are at in relation to the pants. I'm unsure where bits usually drift around at, or how to do the wrinkles on the pants in relation to the bulge.
A few days ago my boyfriend had me hold my hands down where the dangly bits would normally be at and I realize how difficult being a man could really be.


I'm unsure of how to fix this other than to stare at crotches of the men folk.
So regardless I've been trying to work on adding those additional inches in the crotch area on my men-folk and stop giving all my pictures girl crotches. If your picture has a girl crotch I do apologize it didn't seem wrong at the time

Thank you for reading over my crotch ramble.
-Management

or a scanner. I decided before the con like right before the con I was going to move out of my boyfriends appartment because, A) we haven't been together long enough and I don't want a serious relationship, B) I aboslutly hate the other people that live there mainly his sisters duchebag boyfriend, C) I was tired of cleaning up everyone elses shit, D) I've been extreamly manically depressed and angry, so I believe that doing this should help me out. Hopefully, hopefully something will make me happy again.

I don't know what my problem is or what causes it but I just can't be happy it seems.

Regardless, this journal is about the general lack of internet and the general lack of a scanner I've gotten a few things done...Well did then restarted them because I think they look like crap but I have got one badge compleatly done. Now I just need to get 3 more and my table sign done in the next 13 days and I'll be fine >.<

It's getting closer so I thought I'd post this now. I know some people are going to be there...but there driving up with us :D, mainly you mr. fox, you know who you are.

Anywho, Morgause, Rayzors,  eiri, Dryst,  foxflux, and myself will all be driving there together and staying the 4th-through the 7th, so arriving early day of con and leaving day after. What I was wanting to see if anyone else was going, perhaps anyone who's done trades or got a commission by be so I could deliver them.

Also I wanted to know if anyone was going who would like a pick-up badge or picture, either a trade or a commission.

Just so I can meet more people at the cons :3

I'm running a special on badge prices at the moment and am taking 5 slots for these. Important note before I get into details, these will not be started until after MFM unless you plan on being at the con for delivery. So they will not be starte until after September 7th.

Alright now that that's out of the way, I'm offering a deal for the first 5 people who take it. My pop badges [http://www.furaffinity.net/full/2420026/ ] and my full body badges [http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2554855/ ].
Usually the pop badges are $20.00 a peice, and the Full body badges are $25.00, but for a short time if bought in pairs they are on sale. Instead of paying $20.00 for one pop badge you can pay $25.00 for two. As well with the full body badges you can pay, which are $25.00 a peice and $50.00 for two you can now pay $35.00 and get them.
They can only be perchased in pairs, and shipping is not included. If you aren't going to MFM for pick-up, then shipping is an extra $3.00.

Anyone interested?

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

P.s. I've got 3 more pictures to do before my list is gone, so your picture will be done before these are started. Unless it's a trade, because I dilly dally on those.

Apperently I'm to dumb for the internets, I'm having a hard time finding things so if anyone could help that'd be lovely.
First I'm trying to find blank keychains so I can make customizable keychains for peoples out there.
Now I can find these at wal-mart here but ther $1.99, or so for 1 of them which is outrageous, and there pretty big. Now that's not really that much, I realize but in order for me to keep them in supply say have about 10, I'd be spending $20 or more so pricings for these keychains would be rather high prolly around $8-10 if I did sell them which is quiet abit for a keychain.
Second I'm trying to find a good sticker maker/website where you can print of custom stickers, preferably viynal (or however that word is spelt cause I can't remember right now) so they'll hold up to extream wear and tear. Also preferably something cheap.
3rd blank buttons or button maker so I can make custom buttons. I've got 2 blank huge blank buttons from BF's and 2 from hobby lobby which one of those is missing and the other I made for gorath though he never wears it ): Also can't find these for a reasonable price or smaller than what they are.
So if anyone knows where to get any of these things please let me know

Edit:
Attention, artist of any sort and all people who read this
Go check this artist out  eiri

She's f-ing amazing and such an awesome person, and one of my real life artist buddies and she needs more love.

If you wanna help an artist get known post a journal to help get her name out there.

I'll make you a deal I'll do a free one character no background or basic background full color the works, a work worth $25-30 for the first person who posts a screen shot of either her having 50 watchers or 1000 pageviews.

:3

Children these days, so quick to grow up, when I'd give anything for just a few more years of being in my early teens, maybe things would have gone differently.
This is about my little sister, she means a whole lot to me. She's like a little copy of me, who idolizes everything I do, including wanting to be an artist and will draw kiddie drawings of furrys because she sees me doing it. Which is awesome, she's such an awesome munchkin. But she's growing up and it scares the hell out of me, shes growing up even quicker than I did. Which is alot of my fault, because I treat her like an adult instead of a child to try to make her tougher when it comes to there real world. The other part of her growing up so quickly is my useless layabout poor excuse for a mom. Who puts her in way to adult situations like, "Call the cops, Jerry just beat the crap out of me so I ran him over with the car" x.x Yep thats my mom, the poorest excuse for a parental unit I've come across. Puts her needs before her children, uses her children as a scapegoat for never having to pay for anything like bills, and makes her children go through things no one should have to go through. Like no food, no clean clothes, abusive boyfriends, and general violence all around. Which made both me and my elder sister older in our minds then we actually where. Devin is no excuse.

But she's 9, she's freaking 9 years old. Not even in her teens yet and alot of things I've noticed are scaring the hell out of me. Like today, I saw her at my grandmas, and she's got eyeliner on. Well put on eyeliner, 9 and wearing makeup like an adult. As well, she's got a myspace page, which is set to private like all accounts are before year 16 is hit and it unlocks. But to make an account viewable all you have to do is send a friend request. Now I'm very mad at her having a myspace account because of how young she is, hell neopets, google search fine but actually making a profile is different. Well, this guy...I need to freaking find this guy and remove his nutters before he can do anything....Anyway, Devin clearly states on her profile her age, and has pictures of herself being dumb, which clearly show how young she is. This freaking guy asks for her phone number (She's also got a cell phone)...And because she's 9 and doesn't know how the internet works because of my moms poor parenting skills, she gave it to him. The sick bastard calls, and is hitting on my 9 year old sister on the phone *gets real pissed* Which is compleatly unexceptable, my mom should have deleated her page right there and not let her get on anymore social sites, but no she still has her page. Devins just not allowed to give out her phone number online anymore.
And the last thing that scares me, she has grown boobies. Which I didn't think 9 year olds grew boobies, but I guess I was wrong because she's got them. Its a very short time away before she starts dating, and with all the dumb shit she's seen out of our dumbshit mother I caaan't see this ending well for her, and I worry so much. Because I know my older sis lost her v card at 13, I lost mine at 14 and she's next. I'm hoping my accesive nagging about not letting boys in her pants till she's atleast 16 has gotten into her head enough. But I know she's going to be such a pretty teenage girl, because of how pretty she is now. I just hope her strangeness and creativity keep all the hormone crazed jock assholes away from her and she's smart enough to not let a sleeze talk her into doing something she doesn't want to. I also hope she doesn't get pregnant before shes 20...God...I'll be 30 then.


Anyway just a night ramble before going to bed about how quick these kids are growing up anymore. I think alot of the world is composed of bad parents who either produce bad children or exceptionally smart children who figure out what not to do in life by watching there parents.

-extream unhappy face- I use my fa journal to bitch because all my other sites are commonly accessed by people I know who I usually don't like them reading. Always so snoopy, but anyway this isn't a usual bitch fest.
Somehow I keep getting talked into doing all the art for my work, last night my boss gave me 16...Fucking 16 pictures I have to have drawn by saturday. Drawn, inked, and colored, there going on the icecreame trailer I manage over. 16 pictures, 4 pictures of walking tacos, 4 pictures of nacho's and cheese, 4 pictures of icecream, and 4 open signs. I'm not getting paid nearly anything for these and there killing my supplies. Ontop of the 16 pictures I have to do, I have 7 trades waiting to get finished, and 5 commissions. X.x The trades and commissions arn't really a problem though I do need to have them done before mfm which is the first weekend of september so that leaves me alittle over a month to get done with 12 pictures done. Ontop of this I have like no time to work on anything, my boyfriend doesn't like it when I draw and will usually start playing wow or being anti-social any time I do my art, even though I mingle while I'm doing it. So basically I'm just unhappy about my list at the moment, and will once again ask people to forgive me for late art. Almost all of my older stuff is nearly finished, I have a bad habbit of starting new things before I get the old ones done, but I'm working on all the old stuff today so maybe I'll have a few uploads for people later this evening.

I started off in a really great mood, and everyone I've talked to today has just come off with a really shitty attitude.
I just downloaded second life and I don't understand anything at all. I've figured out how to make my toon fat and muscly, and how to move and fly but other than that I don't understand anything.
I asked for help from a friend and he basically acted like I was retarded for not understanding, another friends being an ass because he doens't like my boyfriends, sister's boyfriend (it's confusing :p) and basically has been like, "no I'm never going to come to your house while that assholes there" :| I didn't do anything scheesh... God forbid I ask for help, or ask a friend to come over.

Blah, sorry I'm angry )8<


So needless to say I need help with second life, can anyone help me out?

Alright theres alot of things about this site that logically arn't right, out of all the fucked up fetishes people get away with here the only one I compleatly and totally disagree with is the cubporn/child porn.
Everybodys heard this rampage blah blah blah artist should be able to do it blah blah blah, only intolerant people want to see it banned blah blah blah. As much as I have my own opionion about this matter just for the simple fact ITS FUCKING WRONG, plain an simple it's just fucking wrong. I mean any other fetesh passes over this with no problem. I still have my beefs with rape pictures because it's also wrong but atleast it's adult, two adults. But this is a rant that I'm not getting into.

That's not what this post was about at all, cub porn manages to get away from the LAW that has banned child pornography, even though from what I've read even images such as cub porn in daily life will get your ass thrown in jail. I can't wait till someone actually brings this issue up legally. But once again I'm rambling and thats not what I'm on about.

What I just came across unfortunatly wasn't cub porn, oh no, it's human fucking childeren. Not furry babies, no little earred and tailed catboys, but childeren. Some of the images where based of disney childeren characters and digimon childeren characters. Still fictional, but actually human. Fictional characters based of childeren, with bodys very human, and very wrong.

How the fuck is this okay? Cubs are one thing actual childeren with childeren bodies, how the hell is that not child pornography, and how the hell is that okay? It's visually more of a child then the cubs, and if the artist isn't using referances...Which is wrong, then they'd have to be fantisisng in order to get the bodys accurate correct?

Isn't that a pedophille?

Why Yes sir I think it is.

Jesus tapdancing christ, like I said this isn't dissing cubs or cub porn artist or anything like that, it's for the ones that are doing human childeren.

Does that just seem like abit to much for anyone else or is it just me?
Are childeren okay to draw porn of now?
Not cubs, baby humans. ):<

Srsly

D:
D:
Pudding,
Seriously it's just one big f-ing problem after the other, I knew I should have stayed in my nice safe secure hole in the floor instead of thinking it was a good idea to move in with my boyfriend. Don't get me wrong I love my boyfriend (he could do with less procrastination though) but this thing keeps happening when it comes to art.

First several commissions/trades finished have gone missing, gone. Looked over the whole damn house for my laminated works and I can't find them, and I know the ferrets didn't take them I checked there hiding spots.

Second I loose a marker everyday, I've lost half of my cool greys I just bought and then more colors daily.

Third, I finally got my scanner and everything set up, but I can't find a good photo editing softwear anywhere. Seriously I cannot put my copy of photoshop on either of our two computers, I can't download it from anywhere, I can't move the files from one computer to another. And I've tried using closly relaited software like .gimp, and paint.net and neither of them work worth of crap either. .Gimps better than paint.net but it locks up all the f-ing time.

Forth, due to the fact all the trad crap keeps disappering I decieded to try my hand with digital which I can do okay I just prefer not to do it because it's complicated. I have an aiptek tablet, that I was going to use, the pens missing. So I found Kryssys Wacom tablet, again no pen scoured the house and found the pen. (Thank god) started working real hard on this one picture. got the main line done after the sketch, am going to save and put in a new layer. And it crashes, the software crashes and deletes everything.

Fifth, I just got my boyfriends ref sheet done, but I put in all the lettering and crap in with an editor. I seriosly cannot put lettering on this picture with .gimp or paint.net.

X.X When the hell will this get easier? Whats going to happen next the scanner expload and I break both my hands?

If anyone knows where to get a good torrent of photoshop cs3 with the keygens, and no hacks or viruses please for the love of pete let me know.

About to hit go and scanner makes weird noise though I scanned the picture inside over an hour ago o.O

Shit theres another virus on the computer

Omfg I just realized that like my whole gallery is filled with things with white fur.

Like srsly u guiz. I wanna do a really really f-ing difficult fur colorations or really colorful furr colorations that don't have any white in them so I can get more practice.

First person to respond with a ref of there character who's got really bizzar markings/fur color gets a free badge. Which will be started along side with the new trades I'm taking on

Darn enter button, I've stated in an earlier journal that I'm taking trades again, I'm also taking commissions. One thing to know, it usually takes me 2-3 months to finish a peice. Because I've got a list. And I use 2-3 months as a max. All trades and commissions are currently 75% done, and I will be uploading like made the next few days.

But I'm taking commissions and trades

5 slots for trades:
1.
2.
3.
4.  abighaile (if she's still up for that)
5.  fraulein
6.  twinklestah

??? I've got this massive amounts of shrinky dinks that I went out of my way (I mean out of my way) to get thinking omg they would be the funnest thing in the world. 6 months later I haven't used a single one.

Why is this?

I don't understand D: what can you use on shrinky dinks that doesn't just smoosh off as soon as you touch it? Like srsly everything I've tried so far made a big mess on me and left little remaining evidence that I had even touched the area.

Halp I wanna use them and I'm apperently to blonde to understand the science behind the dinks