Omg seriously if I could even begin to tell you how many of my trades/commissions are inked. Like I've inked about 3 pictures a day. The problem is...I can't seem to color, though my coloring (in my opinion) is improving, I've been having such a hard time doing it.

My main medium is markers, I'm not very good with other form of coloring. Water color mehhh...sometimes but usually no...And I've been having a hard time doing this.

So... Needless to say it's not going to be much much longer on my pictures, I think but 2 are unstarted out of my list of 16. I just gotta get the coloring done, and upload.

So I'm going to open trades again but only 5 trades/commissions at this time. Cause in the course of the next week or so I'll be coloring all of the pictures I currently have.

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5. Spot reserved for  twinklestah

Everyday, more and more so sprint kills every little hope I have. Today they fired my sister...But thats another thing. I have to work saturday for 8 hours. I usually don't work saturday or sunday, I work all week and get the weekends off. But because of the launch of the stupid palm pre I'm working saturday...
Where it gets better, today there passing a law that no longer pays overtime wages. So all overtime will now be regular wage, so ontop of only getting one day and working 10 I won't be making over time.
It gets better too. Now we have to do contract renewals on every call it's a mandatory to try and update peoples contracts. Why this sucks, if you've ever worked in a call center you will know what compleate and total bastards customers are. So now I have to keep them longer and harrass them about this. I'm already on my final for my average handle time and now there throwing this in.
And theres more...Oh so much more...

Ontop of this I hate my apartment, it's always filthy no matter how much I clean it. Everythings a mess, I have like no time to work on my art, ect.... Bah it's been a really great month...really great

My grandpa just recently passed away, and I thought I'd take it better than what I am. I try to become comfortable with death cause I know sooner or later everyone will go through it...but still its alittle hard right now. I miss him, I didn't have to much ability to go and see him, expecially with the past two and a half years of him almost constantly being in the hospital. But still I loved my grandpa. No matter how bad, how odd the kids where he loved them all the same, and so very much I don't think there are awhole lot of people out there like him, he died from cancer that no matter what was done refused to leave him alone, and he was very very sick the last 2 years of his life...But yeah, I don't believe in god but this is the poem they put in his memorial card. I think it's just about one of the saddest things I've ever read, and it reminds me so much of him. As he loved nature...Anyway

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God looked around his garden,
and found an empty place.
He then looked down upon the earth,
and saw your tired face.

He put his arms around you,
and lifted you to rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
he always takes the best.

He knew you where suffering,
he knew that you were in pain.
He knew that you would never,
get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough,
and the hills were hard to climb,
so he closed your weary eyelids,
and whispered, "Peace be thine."

It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
for a part of us went with you,
the day god called you home.

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Just needed some mourning, so maybe I'll stop crying before work.

Maybe so random artist will be all like, hey, I do these icons and I want money. I don't really know whos doing icons but I want a new one, and I don't want to draw another one myself. So yeah if your doing icons (anybody) let me know and I'll see if your the icon for me :3

I'm going to Lothlorian tomorrow for elffest, was supposed to have left today but me and my Mr. Fuzz bottom draggy pants, didn't make it out of town til 7pm and gave up on putting up a tent in the dark.

I'm really really working hard on my commissions, I've bearly worked on them to my usual standard, but I mean I'm really putting everything into it, I got really tired of good coloring, shitty line work, and or good line work shitty coloring, so I'm really fucking digging into this, and I've made quiet a drastic change in my art, even developing more of a style that I can actually notice. Which makes me happy, I'm redoing all the commissions I haven't finished but I'm going to try like hell to have them done and or (i like that word today) sketched by the end of this weekend so I can show everyone what I'm working on so no one will think I'm just forgetting about my side of trades/commissions. Ramble how many periods did I use in that last paragraph? I don't think I used the proper amount *nod* anyway just an update.

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Ps. Speckledpaws if you read this, I'm having a really hard time drawing a bunny in a library. But I did have an interesting idea, and was wondering how you feel about surprizes. :D

Pss.
Lothlorians a nature sanctuary around Bedford IN, they have pagan festivals, and it's really gorgeous for all the furries who like camping, dancing around fires, and chainmail...And the fact that it's on the crosspoint of several laylines :D check it out http://www.elvenhome.org

I'm trying to find thicker lamination sheets and have no idea where to begin I think the ones I use now are 3mil, i'm looking for something between 7mil and 10mil but don't know a good place to find these. A websites more preferable as most places around here don't carry lamination sheets.

Also looking for a slot hole punch that I don't have to pay an arm and a leg for.

If anyone knows anything please let me know :3

Work has been compleatly eating my soul, along with my sever unwillingness to want anything to do with adult life. A shell of my former self. I guess theres not really a whole lot to think about the matter wether I want to be an adult or not I am and I have to deal with it. I'm just not so excited about paying bills, and learning to drive, getting a car, getting a house, getting a life, despite the fact that the life revolves around the job. It all just seems like one big meaningless loop. I mean I suppose I put to much thought into my everyday life to see the point in such behaviour. What do all these things mean in the long run? Why am I about to work nearly everyday for nearly the rest of my life just to have material things that won't make me any happier anyway. In the long run what does having a house, having a car, having nice things mean? Just to surround yourself in comforts to make you feel better about having to go to work the next day to pay for these things...Why??

But as I've stated I just have to get over it, your an adult now...You need to behave like one.

I'm going to be moving into an apartment with my Kristoff soon, so I'll have to start paying bills, I just hope I can figure out filing of the taxes cause so far I have no freaking idea what the hell that even means. I know that money is taken from our paychecks...And then we file once a year to get some of it back... But I don't know how to do that and I don't even begin to understand taxes. I can KINDA understand but not really.

Regardless that was offset ramble I'm getting back into my art, slowly, I've started experimenting with different things, and different ways of drawing things, I'm kinda putting more definition behind linework to give it more of a distinct style, I just have such a hard time mixing style and realizm but it's getting there.

Commissions and trades should be done soon, I just need to color/finish coloring alot of them.

I haven't worked on my art for three weeks which makes me feel bad with the incredible amout of things I need to get done.
I have quiet a list and haven't worked on them.

I just haven't been able to do it, nothing has came out right and though I'm trying I just have kinda lost it for right now when it comes to my art. I haven't figured out a good way to do art and work and things. So I am working on it its just very slow.

So please be paticent with me, I will have your art done within the next 2 months that I promise.

And I'm really sorry to all my commissioners and traders that it's taking so long. D:

Don't hate me, it's my first art rut I've been in.

That horrible horrible job just steals my soul.

NEVER work in customer service for a cell phone company, omg the friggen people. The stupid stupid people, and the stupid things they ask. D:<

I got a job working as a premier care representative for sprint. I work 5 days a week for 9 hours, I get four hours of doing what I like time soo... Trades and commissions might take abit longer than I hoped for.

Whats almost done right now:

Kite Wanderlust badge is almost fully done.
Ninnins commission is about 3 colors away from done.
Neko2 commission is inked, going to start coloring soon.
Shadowpelts trade has been sketched starting inking.
Kairi's trade has been sketched
Speckled paws commission has been sketched, having difficulty with positioning, might take longer than hoped.
Cavrams ref sheet had been fully inked, then screwed up coloring so is being redone again.

And thats it for right now :3

For everyone who re-watched me, and all that jazz thank you. I have crappy dial up or I'd go to each of your pages one by one to thank you for following.

For all of those who watched me after I watched you, unaware that I had watched you before, thanks for liking my art now!

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I got really tired of the username, so decided to make a new account. And I only say this before I get a welcome to FA comment. I'm not new, I've been here, and quiet frankly I don't think anyone should welcome someone else to FA. They should tell them to run while they still can.