To anyone you wanted to more than anyone in the world. Like for instance your favorite band or person etc... What would you ask them and who would it be?

I am fucking obliterated right now, seriously I don't even know...

Pretty much everything...Why? cause I'm blazed 24/7 literally, it's an expensive habit, but like shit man what the fuck are we saving up for anyways?

What do you guys like to do when your high?

A few of my favorite activities though would be and in no particular order:

Play anything with strings, lately though it's been electric guitar I cannot put it down.
Sex
Eat only after I've starved myself long enough cause it usually ruins the high, but the highlight of that is getting to do it all over again
Play some counter strike, I hardly get to anymore cause I'm usually playing the guitar and I've had my day and it's irrelevant here cause none of you would even be a challenge so you wouldn't understand.
Listen to music
Whore the fuck out of youtube
Chill with friends
Think refractively


That list could go on and fuckin on.

I'm back on FA!! Looks like I'll be here for a while =] Been working my ass off and having a blast on the weekends. Gonna upload some mo0sex "music" on here sometime in the near future. I'm in class right now and it's boring as fuck. What's everyone been up to?


Cads

The drama thing, I don't really care at all what you think. If you feel the need to post something negative about me for something you don't know anything about. Feel free to, I don't really care =] I still love you all <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOnHZg3zODg

Alot of bad shit has happened lately for me, but I haven't let it drag me down for too long of periods at a time. I lost or got fired from my job which is a much better outcome than what I had expected to happen to me. It's a long story and if your interested enough maybe I might tell it to you. The good side of things is that I no longer will be working with liquor, well I don't know that but I won't be working in a liquor store. I've had such a hard time with working there because I'm not gonna deny the fact that I love to party.

Basically, I have too much lose and I'm seriously lucky as a mother fucker like I always seem to be. At the same time I only got one life to live so I gotta have some fuckin fun ya know? I'll be making plenty of money if I can manage to survive or get through college hopefully sooner than later to go have some fun.

Hey man for real though
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gvb65dCMjZI

I know that some of you won't understand =]

Got tatted up today, it felt really cool actually. It sorta feels like a Violet Wand that's the best way to describe it, though I highly doubt anyone else on my friends list or let alone FA has had the pleasure to experience a Violet Wand. Instead just go get a tattoo and join the bandwagon of cool kids. I'd post a picture of it, but it's late and I also don't know if it's suitable for FA's terms of services. Not that it's in like a provocative place. Needless to say I will be getting much more done in the near future =]

Seriously this dog is pure and total awesome. The definition of loyal and determination is within him and of course love =] This is pretty amazing though in all honesty a dog that can climb bushes and trees? No obstacle can stand in his way or can it? I am so surprised I never have taken pictures of him or posted any videos of him, this was just this past weekend. He is still just a little less than a year old.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Yhimf_u_jI

My birthday it was pretty cool, I got lots of smoke. I then had a good weekend chillin with LW and the crew. Went to the Eagle, it was aight. I got shit faced and someone I don't really know gave me a ride home in my car. Thanks whoever that was your a savior, and thank you Yoken for setting that up. You guys are awesome for always taking good care of me.

Rock on man!

Vacation in a few months totally lookin forward to it. Where should I go?

I turned 24 today =] I don't know what I be doin with my life sometimes for sure. But I'm going somewhere someday that's all I know. I got tons of good friends and I miss those whom I don't see as often these days. Thanks to everyone who has stuck by my side. Keep on rockin man!!

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This is the beginning to a new end. Where I will put all of the bullshit behind me and not look back. It's time to start writing music and looking forward to the future again.

Let me tell you all how much I love ungrateful people. About as much as I love getting kicked in the balls. Seriously though I should go into detail about how much a certain someone is a real selfish asshole. But I'm above all of that shit now all I gotta say to said person is don't start a fucking war you'd never be able to win, you can't compete with a real pitbull mother fucker. Now really I'm a mean horrible guy who would dish out over 200 bucks and let you stay at their pad for a few weeks? *laughs sarcastically*

On a side note, things shall return to normal once again in my life come the end of the month. All I gotta say is get lost in music man. Fuck all the bullshit and just sit back and enjoy the ride for what it's worth.

I'm okay, I have just been under alot of pressure and stress lately with college and everything going on around me in my life. Sometimes I feel as if I can't just take a step back and just give ME some time without being a bad or mean dog. I value my own personal solitude for a multitude of reasons. For one it keeps me level headed and goal oriented. And I shouldn't feel bad for wanting that I'm always ever changing and I think that it makes my life a more interesting place. Thanks for the kind words though and thoughts I'm lucky to have good friends. *big hugs*

no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow Life is not like a perfect square, my properties of zero products, FOIL ALL WORK NO PLAY no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow no more tomorrow Then I close my eyes and I go to sleep

It's always something or another seriously...

But in all seriousness dood I got a really amazing gift yesterday from a good friend. He gave me a nice LTD Floyd Rose for free for some odd reason people give me things, but I'm nothing but a piece of shit and I don't understand why these things happen to me. But I'm thankful for it. Time to go search for an amp that doesn't cost me a million bucks. Even though you might try and tell me I'm not a piece of shit, I guess you would need some windex to clean that shit up then maybe you could see right through.

I've not been around online much, because I'm super busy. I also just wanted to say that I'm very lucky to be alive after this last week. I don't wanna talk about it very much, but I need to quit doing that to myself. I wish it were as easy as 1, 2, 3 unfortunately it isn't it's been a problem for a long time now...

He never mentions the word addiction..........yea right

Needlelessss to say I'm okay now for the most part. I'll be back in tip top shape by the end of this week.

I don't care if monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and wednesday too
Thursday i don't care about you
It's friday i'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
Tuesday wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's friday i'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday wednesday stay in bed
Or thursday watch the walls instead
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's friday
I'm in love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSmfNxmaQHc

I love this band. With all of this music in my head that I've heard from all over the world. I don't even know where to begin with writing lyrics for songs that I keep coming up with. It's hard to portray my world or how I see others and my perspectives on life because they are so abstract. I'm also a bit of a perfectionist and with inspiration to write great songs for great and wonderful people and animals, I'm conflicted or at a loss of words for things of such greatness.

But I'm a very happy dog right now. This is one of those days where it feels great to be alive.

What it is ain't exactly clear. But anyways I'll miss you Bernie wherever you went =]

I need to change my game plan up. Been up to no good lately, and just continueing to make a mess of things for myself. So with that being said I just gotta take a step back and learn how to say NO. Simple as that

Gonna be looking for new places to roam come this next quarter of school. I wanna get away from everyone around here for a while. I get vacation sometime in August I think maybe July I can't remember. It'll only be a week and I wanna go do something cool. Shit around here pretty much sucks for me, I got myself into a whole mess of trouble recently and I don't know how to get out. I got nobody to turn to this time.

I wish things were the way they used to be. I wanna be free again =] I want a reason to not look back. I want someone in my life who actually wants me as much as I do them. I want someone who I can share my lifestyle with, not someone who doesn't want to involve me in such acts. Instead of having somebody to love, I want somebody to love me back for once =[

I'm failing hard this semester in school. My teacher can't teach this shit to us, things are mad fucked up here in Georgia. What am I supposed to do? I don't know if I should drop the class or not, my father doesn't want me to. If I could actually dedicate myself to getting together with him once a week he swears he could teach it to me. That's where the problem arises, I can't stop partying for the life of me. Then I feel like shit for it afterwards. I didn't have this problem last semester I dunno what is different now. My mentality lately has been pretty down the drain. My mind is always in the gutter and I'd always rather be playing around with music. I need to just crawl into a cave and not come out for a while until I'm done with school lol.

Or maybe I should just go to school for music and fail at life all together? I don't suppose it would be fail, but nothing compared to what I could do if I worked at it. I wish I had a simple mind, or I wish I never knew what I know now. I wanna go study music overseas, I wanna travel around and listen to other people play music and teach me things I've never heard before. I wanna discover sounds that seem long lost and forgotten, I'd like to soak up every ounce of it that is possible.

Fuck I don't even know bro, it's like 10 AM. Is this karma coming back to kick MY ass? Nah, I don't think so I'm the deliverer of Karma. Sometimes I hate being so abstract. Give me some strings and we'll call it a deal.

My therapist said not to see you no more
She said you're like a disease without any cure
She said I'm so obsessed that I'm becoming a bore, oh no
Ah, you think you're so pretty

Caught your hand inside the till
Slammed your fingers in the door
Fought with kitchen knives and skewers
Dressed me up in womens clothes
Messed around with gender roles
Dye my eyes and call me pretty

So I really have been busy lately to the point of I have no time for anything this past week. I've had alot of up's and down's thanks addiction. Umm besides that I've been busy with school and contimplating my next move in life. So for real you guys I'm sorry I haven't said hello or sent out any emails. Maybe oneday here soon I'll have some time for all of that again. I got a busy week ahead of me, I got some company coming in Thursday and some more on Sunday. Once I get done with that I'm gonna take a chill break for a week. No business, just work and school.

But today it's beautiful, I'm gonna go pick up Fred and bring him back over to the house to play for the day. Hopefully, him and Kain get along just fine we will see.

Prolly the worst 420 I've ever had. Started out my day with finding my cell phone in the front yard after that badass rain storm. Spent the next few hours argueing with Omni. Had to give away Vier and the worst part of it all is I didn't even get to say GOODBYE my love. I'm so sorry that in this life there is nothing short of disappointment after disappointment. But really in reality there are only bad moments in time. Yesterday just seemed to be full of them. The only good part about it was spending time with Crimson, I really thank him alot for being one of the only friends in my life who's always there. Someone you can always count on, I have a few friends like that but no furry friends. He's definitely one of the first.

Vier I'll never forget you, I hope you find a wonderful home. I hope those people treat you well, I didn't even get to meet them or say goodbye my friend. That's what hurts the most, not saying goodbye *cries*

Can't wait to see you next month Buster. I need a big hug right now =[

I've never seen a worse teacher before in my life. I literally can't like put into perspective what happened the first day of class, the guy just fell apart. Then today he comes in and still is unprepared, gives us a test that is mostly over things that isn't even in the book I have for the course. Like honestly, I don't even know what to think. So I spent about 2 hours after just walking out today down at the student center filing a complaint. Even if I get moved into a new teachers class or something I will still be behind because this guy hasn't even started going over what we're supposed to be learning. I know how the school shit goes, and this isn't how it's supposed to work. No wonder Georgia has one of the worst literacy rates and it's namely due to the fact that the educators are the ones who are illiterate.

*growls*

Was totally fucking rad hanging out with Crimson down at his place. His new dog is soo cute. We got stoned as shit and ate massive amounts of Checkers then went back to his pad for round 2. Started up some Buttery Nipple shots followed by some Tequila shots then I downed an entire 4 pack of Horny Goat. We met a bum over at the abondened apartment complex near his house. And listened to this weird dood tell us stories for like 3 hours straight. Was pretty random definitely was Epic. Shoulda got him on camera now that I think of it, but I didn't wanna infringe lawl. All in all the only thing I didn't do much of was jam out because I seriously ate way too much food. Cause after bum sessions we went over to Denny's and crammed like another 15 dollars worth of food down our stomachs. Went home and passed out. Can't wait until next time man we'll definitely do something cool like go camping out here.

"we do not condone to rape in this household" lawl

Kainrape!!!