Wow, I was kind of a little shit 10 years ago, huh?

Recent events have given me a little perspective and going back over my profile, it's kind of painful. A few years ago I basically just stopped uploading anything to this account for twofold reasons. First, a lot of it was human centric and I thought and worried that due to the nature of the site, it might be looked down on. I don't think that's true anymore, I think less interest may be gained but I think I was worried for nothing. And as an artist told me recently "Humans are just another kind of animal." The second is the obvious one that, I just stopped drawing and doing artwork. I still do it but not fetishy stuff anymore, that has been mostly relegated to writing.

So what does this mean?

It means i'm actually going to try and use this account to put up some things and do more than just lurk and least the occasional nice comment. I've got a lot of commissioned artwork sitting in my folder that could be uploaded here, both furry and otherwise. So i'm going to do a complete overhaul of my profile from top to bottom and put stuff out later today, ideally. This is also because I kinda realised I have almost 200 watchers! Not sure why you guys are here but thanks for sticking around, maybe you'll enjoy what I put out. Maybe not.

Here's to the future, whatever that entails.

Just what it says. I have become 18. What a day, eh?

All i've gotten this year is a new video camera, but it's perfect for the videos I plan to make in the future.

I'm thankful for still being around this long anyway... not much else to say, so time to enjoy my day ^^

DID YOU KNOW THAT...

My Birthday is next Sunday.

NOW YOU KNOW.

So yeah, i'm looking forward to that, n shit.
Just letting you know if you want to get me a gift.
...please get me something, i'm not getting a lot this year ;-;

You may now all stop holding your breath, i have returned happily from Whales undamages and, oh who am i kidding.
For the three of you that read this, Whales sucked and I just wanna get back into art so, expect stuff from me.
Love ya all

I'll be at Whales for the next week, back next Saturday i hope. Just letting you all know why i'll be dead. Bye!

Yeah, i stayed up til 1 AM to post this, what of it?
Anyway, its my 17th birthday today so...woot.
I gotta feel like it matters, hence this journal ;w;
Might post some art. Might post a story. Might do nothing...hee hee.

Cryptic title aside, it's my birthday in 20 days. Woooooot.
17's a pretty uneventful age. I still can't drink legally (Not that that stops me >w>) and i still got another year of Sixth Form. Still, i do like the number 7 so i guess its kinda cool.
...i just noticed i posted a journal like this exactly 20 days before my 16th last year...huh.
Anyways, love you all, peace.

Stolen from maximeph
Comment and I'll tell you:

1. What I primarily think of you as (ex. awesome artist/writer/animator, fan of X, member of Y, etc.)

2. The two colors that you are in my mind

3. A song that reminds me of you (Note: Song may or may not be recognizable to you.)

4. The last thing I did related to you in some way

5. What I tend to call you and say about you when I talk about you to people in RL

6. An animal I think fits you

7. Something I've been wanting to tell you

8. To go repost this on your profile

I've been working on this for a while now and i'd like to show all of you guys.
http://www.mediafire.com/?ks2j1yoqsf8g62x
In case you don't know how to download it, find your minecraft file and open your saves, then move it into the file.
If you can't find it, enter this into your search bar on your computer
%appdata%\.minecraft\saves for windows
/Users/*username*/Library/Application Support/minecraft/saves/ for mac
`/.minecraft/saves for linux

Anyway, the rules of the map are fairly simple.
1. No breaking blocks besides wool when gestured to
2. No placing blocks besides levers and items you find in chests
3. Read the notes, they're in the file

Hope you guys enjoy it ^^

Neko. Thats what i've always called myself. And why? Because from what i've read and heard, it's an umbrella term for the word "Nekomata" which means to have the ears and tail of an animal. I'm not certain whether it's completley correct but i've lived by it on FA for more than a year now. But... people keep mistaking me for a cat boy by my saying it and correcting people is getting a little annoying, and honestly, it makes me feel i don't belong. So... i'm considering packing up being a fox and becoming a cat neko instead. Maybe i'd feel more accepted then if people knew what the hell my fursona was. I don't know though...

What do you guys think. Should i change this?

Also, apologies to Maximeph, Xenflower and Joe for late drawings. I'll get on it soon, i promise ;-;

This concerns people who i owe art, Blitzzangoose and Milestailsprower, keep reading. (If i forgot someone, note me)
My laptop's fan is sadly broken and i must send it off to be repaired, which will take two weeks. My laptop had Paint.net on it and i cannot download it on my main computer so i cannot ink pictures. Also, my scanner is broken so i can't even scan stuff in. This should only last about two weeks so i'll get back onto them then, but until then, im sorry. That is all.

So sadly i shall be gone for a week. So for those who see this....laters. I will get those gifts i have planned going.

Ok guys, GCSE's coming up so i may not be posting here as much BUT i have some news. There's a massive gap between my exams so im gonna use a portion of this time on gifts for some of you lucky people. Not gonna say who, not gonna hint or anything, just so i can get a happy burst between this immensely stressful times. So, cross your fingers =D

For the last 6 hours...i have been waiting patiently for Portal 2 to redownload, after i uninstalled it hoping a certain problem i have would go away. But no, it loads up again, i try to play the game as it break down again! I am sick of this!
It tells me that the video card or whatever closed and then opened up again. This error has caused me to shut down my laptop multiple times and i've had enough.
So i took a look at Portal's requirements and it said it needed an X video card or something. I checked mine and it wasn't that. So i found a place that i can download one and NOW it tells me the installation has failed and that i should look at a log that i can't find.
Someone, please help me out because i've basically wasted a whole day on this and i've had enough... please help...

Wow its really crept up on me. My first birthday here on Fa...wow X3
Hmmm maybe i should ask for some gifts... oh but i dun wanna seem to pester people...
Any thoughts guys?

Just walked 10 miles for charity...and good lord am i regretting it. I have lumps on my ankles and blisters on my soles. It hurts...
Oh that and, I have Minecraft now, along with a working laptop.

Yes, sadly my laptop has succumbed to the fatal blue screen of death...
I don't know if my files will be ok, i don't know if it will ever work again
All i know is, im back to the normal computer again...
So i may not be on as much...for which i apologise
Urgh... this sucks..

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2100678/
want some free art?
then go go go!

I seem to be forgetting a lot o them recently. If im supposed to be doing ne for you, please remind me here. Also, if you want a request, now's a good time to ask.

(begin rant)
First off for the whole week, i was grteiving about my recently deceased grandfather.
Second i had to get ready for three seperate exams while feeling so crappy.
Next, my Dad left for a ski trip so no-one could rop me off in town to get a game i've sought after
Also, My DSi's left and right triggers have decided to stop working
And finnaly, when i thought i could get a break at the weekend, i have a huge piece of french to write and learn, a Gegraphy case study that im expected to get full marks on, and a physcs project on showing over 5 different types of energy. GAH!
Life is spitting on me without even calling it rain.
(end rant)
Yeah, so if you catch me acting down, you know why.

How do you know what you mean to someone?
How do you know what they see you as?
How do you know you're a true friend?
Do they tell you how much you mean to them?
Do they talk to you when you have problems?
Do they console you for a sad event?
Do they listen when you sing their name?
Do you feel jealous at how any call them friend?
Do you envy what others do for them?
Do they understand what makes you cry?
Because when the chips are down
And Death comes knocing
You find out who your friends are.
Harsh.


Just a rant in poem form about y envy of people who have great friends who do fantastic things for them...god i hate being new. Feel free ot ignore, im just in a bad mood .3.

then hurry hurry hurry!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2029421/

It is over... Robert Trotman, granfather on my mothers side, has passed away a few minutes ago. Goodbye Dedda... i will always love you....you were the best grandfather i could ask for...goodbye...

Im... finding it hard to keep up my happy face here. Fpr those of you who don't know... my grandad is currently in hospital with cancer. He is not going to recover...and in the next few days...i am going to lose him. Please...don't try to tell me to make the rest of his life better because he has no quality of life. He cannot hear...or see properly...and i've been told it enough. So... im afraid that i may not come here for a while....or if i do...i may be a lot sadder. Please understand that this is a difficult time for me... i have not had to cope with death before... this is my first experience of it. And it hurts. So i ask you all to be patient with me... understand if i don't respond to comments or notes or comment on your latest masterpieces. I hope you can...because in the next few days... this neko will cry.

then hurry here!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2015787/