She's got her donation stream back up!

Here's the link to her journal which has everything you need, including stream link!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9030513/

A great artist and friend of mine is having a spot of trouble. I won't be going in to much detail, but I can verify that she is in serious need and is very deserving of any and all help recieved.

She's doing a donation stream with donation tiers right now. Any amount at all helps for her very urgent issue.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30136879/

I've been crying for the past half hour and I don't want to, but I can't make it stop.

Everything I am, or think I am, or that I'm not has all hit me at once and it just won't stop.

I feel like a terrible person. My brain tells me that I'm a disappointment, that I'm not worth the time that I take from others. It tells me that I don't matter, that everyone is bothered by my existence. It also tells me that absolutely no one is bothered because I'm not worth being by. I'm terrified that one day my fiance will 'wake up' and see how gross and unworthy I am, and that he doesn't love me, and leave.

And I believe every word.

I'm going absolutely no where in life. I want to do better, be better, live better, but I'm stuck where I am. I have no skills for a better job. No money for a better life or health. No motivation for...anything.

I have lost interest in everything that I once relished. I stare at all my crafts- knitting, sewing, crochet - and video games and I just...I want to have fun, I want to enjoy myself but I just....don't. It's so frustrating and devastating.

At the end of the day I'm alone because I forget that I have relationships that need upkeep and I believe my brain when it tells me that I'm annoying them. I believe it when my brain tells me 'don't bother, they'll just blow you off or count down the seconds til the conversation's over.'

I can't ask for help because of the same reason. I'm terrified. I'm terrified posting this and I'm sorry. I'm truly and legitimately sorry to make you read this, to take time away from your day for something as pointless as ME. I'm sorry that I've ever made anyone feel like they had to care, or that they were mistaken to care. I'm just....sorry, and that's all I can offer.

An absolutely lovely lady is trying to get rid of adopts that she's made, and they're adorable! You can check them out here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/...../107388/Adopts

And there's a closed species she has with one of my absolute favorite artists that are so stinkin adorable and she has some incredible designs! You should check them out too and nab one while she still has them available! I have two myself! You can check them out here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....290817/Bunyuns

Definitely look into getting something from her if you can, certainly something for everyone with her! <3

Alright~! For those of you interested in my updates, it's definitely time for one~! Oh gracious did I drop off the face of the earth.

I just ordered foam for my first suit, as well as a headform and a balaclava. I have hot glue and schissors (yeah,,,I'm gonna need to get new fabric scissors, I broke the rules of use already).

I have plans to make a few for myself, including my fursona, my new shark, and hopefully two more if I'm able to nab the adopt and species I admire. I also plan on making a red panda as well for my fiance, but he may change his mind in wanting to participate as he's not of the furry community.

I plan on having everything ready to go by my first con: Anthrocon in 2018.

I haven't started it just yet, this is just a list of materials I need. I like being organized and whatnot. ^^

Head:

-Wire Mesh
-Thread and Needle
-Foam
-Plastic Bowl
-Razor
-Balsa Wood
-Brads and Rubber Bands
-Sculpy
-Fun Foam
-Felt
-Green Acrylic Paint
-Black Chiffon
-Black Lame (or Vinyl)
-Baby Blue Fur
-White Fur

Paws:

-Thread and Needle
-Baby Blue Fur
-Black Lame (Or Vinyl)

Hooves:

-Old or Cheap-o Sneaker
-Foam
-Rubber Mat
-Masking Tape
-Razor
-Hot Glue Gun
-Hot Glue
-Thread and Needles
-Sculpy
-Baby Blue Fur
-Black Lame (or Vinyl)

Tail:

-Thread and Needles
-Baby Blue Fur
-White Fur

Body:

-Thread and Needles
-Zipper (Long and Heavy Duty)
-Foam
-Baby Blue Fur
-White Fur

Alrighty then~! I'm feeling the need to sketch, but, I have no inspiration~! D: This is bad (That's bad, it's very, very bad~!) >>;

Anyway, I'm offering up a free sketch to anyone that sees and replies to this. If I feel I can do your fursona/idea, then I'll have at it~! I know I dont have any submissions up, and I'm gonna fix that soon, I just havent had a chance to use the scanner.

Here are some examples of my artwork:

http://i938.photobucket.com/albums/.....oto_bopjt4.jpg

http://i938.photobucket.com/albums/.....oto_biv4t4.jpg

They're just photos of the actual pictures, sorry for the bad quality.

So, if anyone sees this and is interested, just comment your interest and idea and I'll get right to you~!