i've had it up for some time i have been open to Texture Commissions for VR avatars, Simply basic work as to this day i still dont feel like im too skilled, i get better every time but *shrug* every artist of any kind is thier own worst critic.

i havent really charged friends much as i never felt ok doing so but IRL for the next few months will be a tad hard w/ the US Goverment Shutdown.

so my prices are:
25$ for simple designs/Recolor
35+ for Complex Designs

Terms are:
Due to i work at my own pace turnaround times can be a little long, i strive to get it done fast but not to the point its clearly rushed.

i can work w/o a SPP or PSD Present but they will make things take alot less time.

They must be an avatar i own or the creator's ToS allows the SPP/PSD to be shared w/ an texture artist. (i will not go against this! Also Yes i have seen some out there that have an Additional small DLC that is *JUST* the Base PSD/SPP to hand to someone for work on it.)

No, any Work as of this post on October 20th, 2025, is subject to this Rule that it cannot and shall not be used in AI Training. 99% of avatar creators forbid this allready, if found to be used in AI LLM training, you will be blacklisted a chargeback filed and Reported to avatar creator.

Avatar Piracy will not be tolerated. "ohh but XX Maker is No longer selling it!" "What about Milkpot works?" i dont care about the reason, unless the creator has Passed away and thus can no longer be obtained for that reason and that reason alone and the IP Rights to that creation hasn't been passed to someone else. Violations of this will be like prior rules above, a Chargeback will be filed creator & Purchasing site will be notified as well FurAffinity Staff.

Like First notice, due to Times can be at times short or long i cant always guarantee when i can get it done if its taking too long, you are free to go elsewhere but you will be refunded. if you cant take that it will take a long time (i dont go months long but im not often done same day.)

Payments will be by PayPal. Yes i know the controversy around them of late but i can use fund usually within minutes after payment rather than other methods at times can be days before they're available.

Refunds will be permissible half way thru but not after, i can do small adjustments after its completed. but i will not do radical changes/Complete remakes. you will get screenshots along the way and feedback each step will help keep Mistakes/misunderstandings low.

regarding Platforms:
I understand Not everyone knows HOW to upload to VRC, and i will help get it uploaded/Setup on Resonite. you're on your own with Chillout VR. (i legit havent bothered learning how to upload there in ages, )

on completion, you will be given a .unitypackage for VRC and a .resonitepackage for importing into Resoniteafter that it's all yours to do Almost as you wish with (Rules about AI Training apply no matter what.)

I can't take this soon being so far away.. much less living with my brother.. he lied about the apartment, he lied about my room (gave me the smallest one. ) said I could take as long i need to find a home .. NOPE 2 years tops. Wants me off disability asap so I can find a job like his ..

I need a home .. again.. when I just moved, severely crushed I had to move away from who was a REAL brother to me  chaosdeathdragon .

If anyone can house me I'm Happy to talk discuss what I can pay what I can do to help esp if it's close towards NC

but im starting to wonder if i need to just... Disappear. Not in the morbid sense... but,

the stress of this move has shown me i dont really belong in a fair few Communities... that not as many people who said they care.. actually do. the consistent abuse from family... the fact i have likley a stress ulcer as i cant eat anything w/o feeling severely ill, ... i said this yesterday n not really anyone but 3 souls said anything... "No Cure for when the heart hurts and the Soul Suffers, where the world wants you to drown in Misery."

I'm a System.... i have headmates... so for me if i disappear.. the physical would Remain but i'd prob "Hide"

"ohh its not that bad.." "its just moving jitters, stop being a drama queen." "you're overreacting." yea you try having your life riped from under you by force because the area is being petty and your only option is barely a step above being homeless while you wait on a real solution/place to go to show.., while the countries current politics actually making matters worse for you, where you get made feel you need to "KYS" (if ya know ya know.) for just being diffrent... for being disabled... being labeled as a burden...

maybe it really is just moving jitters but i feel lower than i did august '20 :/

i posted it on my socal a fair bit n last place was going to be here.. (im sure my friends are sick of seeing it .) but https://gofund.me/499bc803

i'm being forced out of my home in here in NC w/  chaosdeathdragon who i've had the joy of living with the last 4 nhalfish years.. the south has tried killing me many ass times, but i survived. We both have our places to go, him back w/ his parrents (which come the 25th he likely will have low contact as a result how his parrents are..) and i have my brother (which i haveto deal w/ my aunt.. who'd rather see me dead.)

for me i live off Disability .. which aint much.. and its gonna ruin me harshly just on this move. a Uhaul one way for a 15 foot box truck going 11 hours aint cheap (700 +75 for insurance +roughly 15$ per x# of additional Miles and average of 2.56~3.10+ a gallon for gas.) then i got to be on the hook for a hotel cause no way my brother at 45 has it in him for a drive that long in one go.

i have shy of enough saved, but every bit helps ease the burden for the gas, insurace, food along the way, extra miles, hotel room n my first month rent.

the goal i set is to aim for covering the whole trip n costs to ease what i have saved. if you cant help donate, spreading the word helps.

so without going into a fair bit of Personal Details that snot mine to share, the City here forced roomie's father's hands (who owns our home n land) to sell to the beautification project, by raising the land taxes to well over 10x past what it is normally... we've been given our effective eviction notice and be out by date which is end of March. i'm still expected by his father to continue rent/bills along with i still haveto cover food and living costs (toiletries cat food litter etc.) so i really dont have the room to save up. i have here on my BSky account a link to a gofundme i setup the other day.

https://bsky.app/profile/caelthunde...../3lfvt53rlas2k

even if you cant help Financially, you can help by spreading the word. i'm honestly scared and desperate... and ontop of that i have family on my mothers side actively trying to sabotage where i can go, all because she hates the disabled and those on assistance.

(while nothing came from this last posting .. less than 48 hours remain... for everyone ty for helping. cant say its been a super blast being in NC.. but the 22nd it's time to not say "till we meet again" but goodbye X_x.)

Discord: CaelThunderwing
InkBunny: CaelThunderwing
Twitter: CaelThunderwing
Weaysl: CaelThunderwing
Blue sky: caelthunderwing.bsky.social
Telegram: CaelThunderwing
Resonite / VRC: CaelThunderwing
I will be posting ABDL content on IB from now on as well as an ABDL twitter/ bsky later when I can make the accounts I will update here

I'm most active socially on telegram and Discord.

I won't be leaving here but activity will likely slow further.

"ever have a dream/Nightmare even if vauge.. forshadowed something that's happened/actively happening durring the time you were asleep? Yea me too."
i cant say w/ events thats gone on for me in teh last two weeks that i'd like to dismiss it as what i get for eating sketchy ass ramen for dollar general before a nap ...

but i laid down briefly from the timegap just before thru just n hour after the annoucement went up.. the dream had someone i knew walking away... forever.. and i try to just solve it by drowning.. n quickly woke up.. it more or less after i woke up and had the moment to look at fa whats new/check multiple pings on discord and telegram, i couldnt believe for a mo what i saw.. i thought it was a sick joke and i wasnt laughing...

No .. while i hope what hapopened was far from what did , it still forshadowed someone i knew (granted i hardly spoke to him much in early ass days. i was hardly even "just someone he knew." (i more or less had misgrievings on early drama. and had been introduced directly by friends..) like if he were still alive and i poked i 100% would be sure he wouldnt remember who the ** i am.. i wasnt known as Cael Thunderwing for all that long yet back then, (i was more known as Chibisuke from days on DA.) its gonna be hard to believe he's gone ... not of his own making but the fucking American health care system telling a dying make screw you.

makes me , someone who's got less possibly severe issues, being on Medicaid where he could not.. feel like shit. like twisted thinking "if i was off it maybe he could of been.. could of gotten shit check out." but no it'd just mean i'd die just as sad a miserable death from lethally high glucose at some point.

RiP 'neer, least now you dont haveto deal w/ that cough now... and sorry.. for my misgivings of issues long in teh past.

Released to the world November 15th, 2005
Died by Discontinuation of online Digital services & Marketplace on July 29th, 2PM EST 2024.

Digital Entitlement checks (Auth/"do i own this?") and ReDownloads will continue to function via Settings - > Download History

some of my memories had been of getting my brother his start in FFXI (11 not 14.) on the 360, watching Movies and "teaser" episodes off the marketplace, hours spent playing Hexic HD Uno and a handful of Xbox Live Arcade titles.

what have been some of your memories with the 360 if you had one?

So the last month's been... a little hectic.

i've been silent on alot of fronts due to stress being a big factor. here at home, my roomie has lost his job for a more asinine reason than last time, (("come back when you can learn to be dedicated to the job" [as roomie nearly dies at the store due to a medical condition thats gone to the wayside Just for the sake of the job.. like excuse the F* outat him for his kidneys almost shutting down WHILE ON THE JOB.]))

im now responsible for the power water n Net ontop of what i had been (Gas in truck, phone, food n toiletries for cat, household toiletries, Food for our selves past EBT. misc things on patreon that wasnt above 14$) + i haveto makeup 100$ lost in a recent cut in my EBT benifits. (went from 231 to 131) while before i usally would end up w/ about 2 to 3 hundred left over at the end of the month WHILE he was working w/ the added food bill punch and being responsible for the power n net n water again... im going to be lucky that i'll have any more than 50$ by end of the month. so when i've gone n had a usb power supply explode in my face last night (it poped open a small hole throwing bits of caps at me bellowing out smoke and stinking up the damn place.) i cant even afford now to get my Fiance  alllicialuminefireen a 25$ pass to Furality, much less replace that USB power supply n leave what i got outta last months savings alone for god knows how long before i can spend on myself again, as now im in "well i could get this cheap 2$ trinket but that 2$ could be cheap eats." mode.

its like its prior to 2019 all fucking over again.. god fucking damnit.

in referance to this Journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10821960/ "Making the outside match the inside" , yesterday i had a follow up to a tri-monthly checkup (medication and adjustments/bloodwork.) and poped the question w/ my PCP (Primary Care Physican.)

he was MORE than accepting got a hug from him and has refereed me to an Endo. i should be getting a call back within the next week for an appointment to start from there discuss matters and hopefully to start Meds and begin my journey on a Sex change MtF.

i have struggled since the mid to late 2000's with Gender Dysphoria. i have looked at myself in the Mirror, only to look back and be disgusted by a Male body and i stare between my legs to see a useless piece of anatomy. whiel in michigan i was beholden to at the time regulations requiring to pass a mental and physical wellness check before i could be seen. and failed the physical check (all i had was i was lil over 250lbs n slight anemia.). its been 3 nhalf since moving to NC, and i looked as "Hurrr de DERR south lands of "Mah guns n muh freedom!" that it was an openly death wish to try, MUCH to my amazement i was sorly wrong and so much LBGTQ/trans support here! my depression was allready peaking and seeing the comic "Dragon HRT" just made me finally go "Fuck this enough emo depresso. im getting old its now or never before long..." .

im happy to finally get started, i have a big enough support network in place (friends who identify as trans, an online sis Hiromi Kitsune who's got surgery around the corner! n who she herself has been transitioning since the 2000's)i have friends on FA . on social media in SL, and on discord to fall back on. a New chapter in my life's beginning . one i was all but thinking was never going to open. i have a lovely name picked out and im prepared for a long journey ahead.

not as deranged as it sounds at first but.. more n more over the last year , im getting increasingly disgusted and sick of my own appearance, my own damn voice.

sadly given my health has only gotten somewhat worse since the last attempt to even seek medical clearance in Michigan .. it's finally hitting i can give it a try down here in NC despite it being the near-deep south. publicly displaying being Trans much less Bi is almost a death sentence.

going to when i have a doctor appointment w/ my PCP tomorrow (Tuesday.) im going to see about beginning transitioning.. i look at it this way i have an increasingly shortening window to physically begin doing so as im reaching my 40's. and the fact i am a type 2 diabetic, i have heart and kidney issues, and im (SLOWLY) losing weight but still morbidly obese (310 lbs) its likley im going to be denied based on physical health conditions as *ATLEAST* in michigan most required you to be of sound mind ( HA as if im anywhere near sound to those that know me well.) AND sound body.. and its the " sound body " that i was denied every time.

and my mood when it comes to this just gets worse n worse about "Making the outside match the inside" everytime i have a dream that does just that, and even so much wanting to tell my remaining family. I know my brother will accept it ( albeit slowly not cause he's ass backwards , he's just been a lil slow to accept big change that fast.) and my mom's remaining side of the family is really conservative. so im.. more than likley going to be disowned. ( though its gonna be a smol shame as i just over the last 3 years after so many years, made clean w/ an aunt who consistantly clashed right up to my grandma (her mom) died in 2019)

Not going to lie what's pushed my mood to the final tipping point after over 3 years being in NC, was reading this in full, https://twitter.com/AyvieArt/status.....81775352099126

straight from a freshly responded Ticket


Fur Affinity Staff
[Staff Member]
01/02/24 11:47 am
Thanks for contacting us, as we understand these new laws can quite a bit to process. North Carolina House Bill 8, the anti-porn law, has a carve out which states websites with significant portions of adult content (over 33.3%) must engage with content filtering. However, site wide, our content is under that number quite a bit. We continue to review and monitor these policies as, unfortunately, those numbers can change.

https://www.ncleg.gov/BillLookUp/2023/H8

We will continue to monitor and asses the situation.


the bill does state teh threshold is 33%+. and should FA meet/exceed that before the bill ends up repealed, then FA will act accordingly.

atm the bill makes using a Porn site w/o Verification that meets the criteria, is illegal and bypassing measures is likely a fineable offense. e621& pornhub is accessible via a VPN but otherwise if your in NC, you cannot access these and related sites n services starting yesterday (Jan 1st)

may the holiday be Merry and an enjoyable time this year.

Going on here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10753629

i want it to be known cause future comissions might tow the line on the ToS w/o context.

1: Size
Cael was always written as (( at the time)and will stay this way, 4'5" she was ment to roughly be 1 foot shorter than myself IRL. and this was the intention till this year roughly! early this year i finally got off my duff and started seeing a local physician in my hometown in NC (( the more i kept having my doc up in michigan at the time continue refills it was as news to me, risking his medical license. ( laws had gone into effect in 2021 most likely due to how bad the pandemic had ramped up in the height of 2020) that nation wide PCP's (Primary care physicians) cannot see out of state patients/existing patients currently out of state till they return to their home state. )) . i had secured a appointment by may but my height wasnt measured in, but other vitals were.. come the next one in july when i had to get refills on meds, and this time the nurse doing my intake got my height. now Prior to this i was last measured 5'4" in 2019, so when at this appointment i came up to 5'9".. i was completely Shocked! i made the active call to keep cael at 4'5" as i had allready written in her history she didnt grow much from out of the egg at mere 3 feet tall, to 3'5" by her pre-teens to 4'5" by the time she turned 21.

2: Gender
this is a mix on how i had pictured her and my history from birth to present. while irl i identify as female, im biologically male and at birth they couldn't tell what i was. signs i was going to be female based on scans and how my mother was carrying. but out i pop out sporting a surprise. (much to my fathers dismay so im told. as in apparently he fainted.) i was raised as male but by my late teens early 20's i was finally told as i had come out gay to my parrents and things clicked. For Cael i wante dto mix what i was and what i wish to be, so Cael is by hatching-time, a herm! (i dont get it done much because alot of artists at the time i Could get anything done or prize giveaways i entered at the time hated herms or did them poorly. (( that and it wasnt most of my friend's cup o tea ...))

3: Where going forward the ToS gets murky,
to quote a trouble ticket about 2 Kobolds i had, which have been deemed unsafe on FA, "While all of those characters are okay to have uploaded as they are, they would not be allowed in NSFW content, given that they have childlike proportions. However, if they are given adult proportions, they would then be acceptable in NSFW content." any NSFW cael depicting a large size difference,will be given adult aspects larger than she WOULD have or likley be on IB/Weaysl. to which i would likely first run it by via a trouble ticket before ever posting on FA. I understand short adult like characters border on verry touchy and bad subjects that it likely would only belong on IB, as i know at 4'5" it just is hard hard to keep an adult outward apperance. (not till you touch on Shortstack designs. to which i have such a piece i p[lan to upload soon. )

4: Cael with others in twin/group comms.
in most pieces that she's going to be in with others outside my Mate, she will be drawn at just a bit shorter or eye level w/ those she's with. i will never get or be part of gift art/etc with characters that are not mine and force them to be as Smol as Cael.

Mana dragons are known to be large, massive tall creatures. Cael? Not so much in comparison she is just an "Forever hatchling" that got grew older, just never up. (( and to some she's grown OUT :P as a pun on her weight.)

this is due to change after i've had alot of time to Process.

Simply put/TL;dr i 've gone down a deep ass route that mimicked my ex, and what were friends saw me going down that same path esp after whats just happened well yea there's a reason i said "were" friends.

long story,
for a few years before i moved i had already begun to distance from them, it wasn't out of hate, or malice, or to be a prick. It's just.. i don't know what to say? as harsh it's going to sound if they come across this.. i guess Disinterest? or more accurately i wasn't someone i was even back then anymore. the last few interactions i wondered why say friends rather than Acquaintances, because i talked with them that infrequently. Even when i stopped by in Second Life with them, i'd speak/type so infrequently i was best described AFK or just "There."

Tonight was FAR from my best evenings. My mental state is getting worse the less sleep i get, but that's no excuse.

Tonight, one of the two (im trying not to name or dead-name anyone. so this is staying as vauge as i can [Like i got people who +watch me that are dumb enough to do anything ?].) shared a image they took from lost media a old video and they wanted to show off and get my opinion on that. in my infinite crap-wisdom, i chose that time to say i had chosen to revise my stance on AI Art *within reason* (training off your own stuff/art and with a standalone completely offline model running in software.) and before i could edit the message/add to clarify i was NOT Calling what they sent AI generated. had i been the usual "Off in my own world" or had just shutup about it.. i'd still know them and not had what i said come across as a crass insult. as w/o context or even clarifying up what i had said and the poor timing, yea it appeared as if i called it AI Generated. but .. if not having a second to clarify what i did/said was more then enough to send what remained of a "Friendship" off a skyrim-cliff. then the slightest drop of a pin was going to do it. that's how distant things have grown.

"Just what did you say?" well given this was me at the hottest of my temper and it's been long enough for my broken ass mind to "cool" off, alot escapes and we've both deleted each other off all forms of contact. they retain screenshots. but. i went off.. i started to swear, i got rude, crass, and my absolutely worst habit surfaced.. Self-Harm, i struck myself hard enough to split skin under my right-eye, and bruised heavily my left. i punched at my walls enough to redden my knuckles (but not bloody em.)and made it clear to them that it was what i had done.riiight as i was gong to shower off to start cooling down come back and apologize for things and *try to clarify what my poor attempt at timing was, to make clear i was NOT insinuating/accusing them of it. and got a talking to, a long 14 min voice message and just as that "flame" of my temper was about to snuff out, it sparked back into a roaring fire.

i responded in a way i wish i had'nt.. said roughly what kind of friends were we?, mentioned to a question their soulmate had stated and agreed that "no friends shouldn't stay the same forever , they do indeed change" and dove into self loathing pitty party crap. cause looking back at the height of when we were good friends and dating the person they now see in me to now?, i have changed and not for the better.
This is where i admitted to how far we distanced apart. How i've become cold, crass,rude, Nasty, Self-centered, selfish, manipulative. admitted im not exactly the best mate to my own. and said if the Voice message was going to be tearing me a new tail hole, i'd pass till the morning, and have-to explain to the hospital staff to now why i have two large shiners and split skin under the eye (tbh that's likely going to get the damn study put off till it clears up.). and "after all that im going to get a shower, fix something to eat and call it a early night." and in that time and coming back, the message history was gone.contact showed no longer a phone number but just a (!) a last seen: Never, and cleaned chat history. i was blocked everywhere.. here, steam telegram, bluesky, IB discord.. EVERYWHERE. i said peace on the last that hadn't yet been touched n quickly "error loading profile." (blocked there.)

so at the worst of myself i proved i had gone the same hellish path as my Ex. The same self pitty, the same Self-loathing, the same self-harm n self hating. and both no longer had the energy to see anyone they cared about go down this path... yes i had seen as we distanced apart.. but i didn't see or couldn't see they still gave a shit about my dumb-ass., i had known them for the most part about who they are *online* and one of em a bit IRL.and i just nuked them From orbit. people i had known since the early damn 2000's... friends i had known for the better part of 20 years. (or atleast is how it felt .)

Going forward there's going to be things/places completely offlimits for a good-long-while, since attending them will just.. dredge things up, and even if things were ever forgiven (but never forgotten. as i dont want this night to be.)its never going to be the same,.

There's no going back after this. what's done is done. And all i can do is reflect on this, Try to get better and move on. keep close to memories and learn from this.. there's a few people still keeping me sane left in my life, and if i value them like i should of who i just lost? is Seek help.

everything outside ONE submission has been either removed or "Removed for me"

even then i feel verry afraid for when im about tosubmit it n one Piece for review. but *I dont feel safe here..* much like other short furs/furs w/ short sonas etc. even as an Adult *Cael Is Short*

i Wont be posting much (despite i hadnt been doing so to beginwith) when it come sto all things Smol, or espically ABDL/ Sizeplay/or Age regression related. nice to know *Diapers* are now 100% fetish related according to staff /s

because comments will likely be a cesspit. im Disabling comments. will update w/ Weaysl, IB and Twitter accounts later.

(Tweet boosting)https://twitter.com/weeaboo_boi/sta.....36502144983040

Tweet boosting to bring any awareness i can! if anyone that follows me has ANY information please message these people on twitter:
https://twitter.com/weeaboo_boi
https://twitter.com/whirlpool2112

or comment at the following missing person's report here:
https://www.facebook.com/515840657/.....692975658/?d=n

ohh please  Bendor be Safe ;-; doing Anything rash what you've eluded to.. its a verry permanent solution to a verry temporary Problem!