You walk into a room with your fellow cult members. An eerie, but comforting feeling is in the air. News that the Hale-Bopp comet has arrived has everyone, including yourself excited and anxious for what's to follow. Glancing around the room, you feel a connectivity between yourself and the other members, perhaps it's the fact that we are all dressed in matching apparel. Nike shoes, gotta have them, and matching jumpsuits create a scene like we are a sports team or something. We are all handed a mixed drink, to take of the edge of our travels. You personally hate the idea of being on an aircraft for an extended period of time, but everyone else is doing it, why not? What could go wrong? After putting down our glasses like tickets in an airport, we all lie in our seats. Staring up as a plastic bag is wrapped around your face like a respirator, you glance over and see me smiling. Together we will empty our souls from our bodies and board the flight to get to the “next level”. Preparing for takeoff...

What's your opinion on using this as an intro for a research paper on Heaven's Gate? (ya know, that drink-the-kool-aid kinda cult)

Sorry for being distant/unavailable. I went from working two jobs to going back to college. Along with the large workload from college, I work weekends at a PT job and work another side job when needed. I've been too busy to hangout with anyone other than my siblings. I don't see many of you guys/gals anymore. I hope to get out to some furry events and possibly visit some of you during the summer.

Anyone play that is local to southern nj? I'm trying to play as much as possible this summer...

It's a maze inside this cave and my frustration is building. My head hurts and my heart is racing as I search for a way out. There are creatures everywhere and they seem to be multiplying. I'm down to a dagger, which is enough to take down a few more. Should I give up on humanity and become another monster? My options are running thin as my torch's flame is barely flickering.

First time I...(age)

Fell in love?
Somewhere after 21, blindly

Lost your virginity?
21

Lost someone close to you?
I forget, late teens

Consumed alcohol?
9th grade at a Metallica concert

Received a kiss?
13

Went to the hospital?
3, encephalitis

Had a broken heart?
never, just bummed at times

Lost a pet?
16

Got arrested?
14, vandalism

Broke a bone?
3, nose and arm, 2 separate instances

Got a job?
17

Got a boyfriend or girlfriend?
NEVER

Went to a concert?
14/15

Met someone famous?
Joe Flacco. Went to high school with him.

Got in a car wreck?
not a wreck, just little dinks and such

Dyed your hair?
17, tried dying it white. Came out bleached blonde

Flew on an airplane?
3, to Cali

Went to another state?
see above

Got a tattoo?
never

Had a piercing?
never

Smoked pot?
13, with my sister

Smoked a cigarette?
17

Went to Disney Land or World?
Disney Land=3 yrs old World=NEVER

How many do or have you had?

Long term relationships:
none

Dated with somebody of another race:
once, if you consider it a date

Times your heart has been broken:
maybe once

Times you passed out from drinking:
countless, thanks college

Pets:
2 guinea pigs, a dog, a cat, and lots of fish. None are still here...

People you hate:
A good amount, secretly

Times you were dumped:
0

Times you dumped somebody:
0

Who has one? I just got one recently. I am Calamitymutt on there. Add me? just tell me who the hell you are when you do...

I think I will enter the dating world. Like many of my thoughts or ideas, I will probably not follow through with it and rot some more, lol. I often find ways to look at things and convince myself it is not a good idea or see flaws in the people before even meeting them. I always judge a book by it's cover...It's a curse and a blessing.

My unemployment is running out and I am scrambling to get a job. My birthday passed 2 days ago and I got wrecked at the bar saturday to celebrate. I applied for a job with my dad's union today. I hope to begin to start a career very soon and move on in life. I have been keeping to myself lately. Sorry guys.

I got a dare from  IsoWolf

Comment on this journal and I'll...

1. Tell you something I learned about by looking at your Fa page for 13 seconds

2. Tell you a colour you remind me of

3. Tell you a prominent memory of you

**4. Ask you a question **

5. Tell you something I like about you

6. Give you a nickname

7. Tell you the object that is to the left of me

8. Dare you to do this yourself in your journal

So, it's November... I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I have been keeping to myself too much lately. There are things I have wanted to say, but usually end up deleting half way through typing. I have never been good at expressing my feelings or thoughts. I hope to be able to draw something, since it has been a couple years since i have done anything. I seem to only be able to draw well when I am depressed in some matter, which is weird considering how I have been lately. I am trying to start doing things again. I need to not get caught up in drama within my household (The whole thing over stupid shit). I have been job hunting (which I am hopeful to get a job very soon. Unemployment can only help a little) and thinking of going back to college (for a math and/or comp sci degree). Also, I have been trying to get into a routine of being healthy and running again.

With my potential jobs that I am looking at, I could either end up finishing my degree at Rutgers Camden or New Brunswick. I personally want to go to Camden, but either will do. I am looking to finish my major in Comp Sci and either minor or major in math. I have a lot of math courses under my belt, so I am definitely going to look into that.

I am looking to get a gym membership close by and start hitting up elliptical machines/tread mills hardcore. I want to be able to run like i used to. My best mile time back in the day was 5:45, I believe. That may be unreachable, but I sure as hell am going to try. I feel shitty knowing I let myself rot for the last 1-2 years(besides indoor soccer). I don't know what happened, but I am starting to get my focus back.

Thanks for reading my disaster of a journal. I don't feel like fixing any errors in this.

so...I got a hypno commission a while back...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8999198/

where can i get a neon green spandex jumpsuit? i have no idea where to look...

http://southjersey.craigslist.org/v.....884841597.html selling some things.

I haven't been posting anything lately on this site and decided this journal should happen...

I have been starting to work lately, just got a job 2-3 weeks ago, but yet to receive a paycheck that is "livable". Things should be picking up there and I am going to get more hours. Feels good to have a job finally. I last had one in october right before I moved down to south jersey. I have been scraping to survive lately, though it has been successful so far. I have also been talking to a really great guy as of late and it has kept me happy despite the financial burden I have been having. I am looking forward to spending some time with him soon. Also I have been trying to talk with the air force about the possibility of a career through them. I may qualify to be sponsored to go to school for computer engineering which would be really awesome. I have had a rut in working out, but slowly am getting back into it, since my job is physical and leaves me tired at the end of the day. I at least have been playing indoor soccer every week in a league to get some exercise and continue to play the sport I love. I look forward to work picking up and hearing more from the air force, since landscaping related work is not what I want to do for a living.

I don't really care if this interests you guys or not.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zuwW9IVwZ0U

This song kicks ass! <3 Iced Earth

1. How old will you be in five years?
29 or some other age between if i die

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Flightline, my brother, and a lot of other people

3. How tall are you?
5'8.5"

4. What do you look forward to the most in the next six weeks?
Either Christmas, my birthday, or new year's eve. Pick one.

5. What's the last movie you saw?
Bad Cops? I think that was the title

6. Who was the last person you called?
my sister

7. Who was the last person to call you?
my sister

8. What was the last text message you received?
"Hey ags...just reminding you to come here tonite. Just be home before 5am. I have to be at work early.

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
 Scurrow

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
texting because i hate talking on the phone

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Drinking...a lot

12. Are your parents married/divorced?
They are both on their 3rd marriages.

13. What time did you wake up today?
10:40

14. What color are your eyes?
blue

15. What are you wearing right now?
soccer shorts and a teal tshirt

16. What’s your least favorite part of sex?
regret

17. Do you like Christmas songs?
Feliz Navidad and The Bruce Springstein one are the only ones i like.

18. Do you have a favorite place or places?
the woods or soccer fields

19. Do you have a least favorite place or places?
Camden, Trenton, and Ewing

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
Probably some mountain somewhere

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
On the street, begging for money

22. Do you tan or burn?
i burn and it turns into a decent tan

23. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Usually without, but i do not have a curtain on my window atm

24. Would you ever wear a thong?
only if someone is putting cash in it

25. How big is your bed?
Full sized

26. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
I feared Pennywise the Clown and Possession

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
laptop

28. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
My sister's ridiculous laugh

29. What color are your sheets?
navy blue

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2

31. What is your favorite season?
Spring

33. What do you like about winter?
snow and lots of blankets at night

34. What do you like about the summer?
the beach, fishing, swimming, bbqs, wearing sandals, and more people are active

35. What is your favorite aspect of spring?
Nice weather and tax returns

36. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
1, I have moved around New Jersey almost 10 times now

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
New Brunswick, Monroeville, Mantua, Audubon, Washington Twp, Lawrenceville, and if you count dorming...Camden

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
bare feet

39. Are you a social person?
Yeah

40. What was the last thing you ate?
A blizzard from DQ

41. What is your favorite restaurant?
Ruby Tuesdays or Antonino's Pizza

42. What is your favorite kind of ice cream?
sherbet

43. What is your favorite dessert?
brownies

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Italian wedding or cream of broccoli

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
blackberry

46. Do you like Chinese food?
yerp

47. Do you like coffee?
hell yeah

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
2 bottles

49. What do you drink in the morning?
coffee and OJ

50. What church/temple/synagogue/other do you attend?
None

51. When was the last time you went to church/temple/synagogue/other?
My mom's wedding during FAU4

52. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not really meant it?
yeah

53. Do you like to cuddle?
well...I am a giant faggot

54. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
The middle

55. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?
a bureau so i can put my clothes away

56. Have you ever gotten stage fright?
yes

57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes

58. Do you know how to play poker?
yeah

59. Do you want kids?
Fuck No

60. Do you speak any other languages?
I took 2 years of Spanish in high school, that's about it

61. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
0 times

62.. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
I dunno

63. Have you ever written a letter to a politician?
nope

64. When flying, do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
window seat

65. Do you know how to drive a stick?
manual is very fun to drive, except when you are drunk

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
drinks

67. What's your preferred method of paying for things?
debit card

68. What is/are your favorite TV show/s?
I don't watch many shows anymore. Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune

69. Can you roll your tongue?
yes

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
This dude Logan I went to High School with

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
I have one and it is in my bed, no where else to put it...so technically I do

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
Mike Tyson's Punchout song when you are running behind the bike between matches

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
Nope

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
a Phillies shirt

75. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?
When I am pulling an all nighter I am known to

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
open, because there isn't a door

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees
a big bear

78. Do you flirt a lot?
Do I flirt? Someone inform me.

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
bbq sauce

80. What are you most afraid of?
being alone forever

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
i've learned and forgotten

82. Have you ever run out of gas?
for the first time...a week ago. Work truck when I was coming home from deliveries

83. Sum yourself up in 10 words or less.
fag jockish nerd dumb silly

84. If you were an evil bastard, what would you be doing?
probably raping someone before i kill them

85. What was the last book you read?
i think it was Carrie by Stephen King

86. Do you read the newspaper?
sometimes

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Sports Illustrated and some music mag

89. Do you watch soap operas?
no

90. If you were taking a poop and eating a bowl of cereal at the same time and you dropped the cereal, which would you do: finish pooping then clean up the cereal or clean up the cereal then finish pooping?
i'd probably take my shirt off and absorb the milk while keeping my composure for dropping a deuce

91. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
There are no frames here

92. Jane Austen, yea or nay?
Who the fuck is that?

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
directions

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
lavender

95. What is your favorite board game?
Scrabble

97. How is your relationship with your mother?
decent i guess

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
Mr Marino. Had him for Chemistry, AP Chemistry and AP Calculus

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
a day

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
 Dustinz helped me with my laptop

Where the hell is question 96!?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6817125/

artwork. I feel i shouldn't post it to my gallery since it is already in 2 other people's shit already

i was there. i drank and did things...

sang karaoke
yelled at people
was a douchebag
drank the whole time
tried fighting someone
sounded possessed when i woke up in the morning and fucked up some lamp shade that did not see that shit coming

that's all i got. Did anyone get video of me singing karaoke? Only vid i saw is of me yelling at karaoke...

no you fucking cannot. never. don't talk like that, you sound like a FUCKING IDIOT!!!

1. You must post these rules (Very Important indeed).
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this." You legitimately (AKA, really, truly, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.


i was tagged by  Reaux
__

1. do prefer pens or pencils? pens

2. how do you feel about my little ponies? fuck that shit

3. describe your favorite pair of shoes. my green mountain dew Adidas superstar 2's i won

4. did you play with LEGO as a kid? what about now? yeah and no

5. do you enjoy ice cream cones? or are you a freak of nature who eats ice cream out of a cup or bowl, when cones are readily available? cones are the shit

6. have you ever given or received a friendship bracelet? who was it for or from? nope, i'm not a fag

7. tell me one (or more!) thing(s) you are really good at: soccer and tennis

8. now tell me one (or more) things(s) you WISH you were really good at. Reading people and astral projection

9. if you could play any instrument, what would you choose? either drums or the sax

10. if you could purchase a fursuit from any maker, who would you choose? assume money is no object. I don't know many makers and their various styles, so I am going with a no on this.

11. tongue rings: hot or not? not. the only piercings i think are hot are nipple piercings

___
here are my questions

1. how did we meet?

2. would you help me commit a crime?

3. what do you think of me?

4. What is the scariest thing to happen to you?

5. Do you hate Nickelback as well?

6. Where would you hide if I were to look for you?

7. Do you like horror or comedies more?

8. Drink with me at FF?

9. What's you favorite sport? why?

10. What is your favorite color?

11. What would you do if I was on fire?

i tag (i'm trying to pick people i know who haven't already been tagged to do this meme!):
 Kooky,  Scurrow, robowolf,  ponyponypony,  bubby610,  Cometthewolf,  kitsunefoxman  Ante,  Kabangeh,  Bios,  Pawsproductions

decided to make one. Calamitymutt is what it be.

won my game i played in earlier. Juked out a good amount of people and made them look stupid, lol.

Yesterday I arrived at work at 9pm. Ended up being put on an emergency overnight shift here for the holding of others' animals. Pulled an all nighter and had to work today because of flooding and coworkers not being able to make it in. At 3o'clock we had a caravan led by animal control come here and need us to hold 17 dogs for camp bow wow because the'r facilities flooded and they needed to evacuate the dogs. My manager says that 1 person needs to stay and wait for the dogs to be picked up by Camp Bow Wow in Bridgewater. They are just leaving now to get them...

All the roads out of here, except for one, are flooded. Last time i heard(2 hours ago), The road had water high up it's side, but not yet flooded. I will probably not be out of here until 7. That road is going to be flooded. 2 nights in a row here. I just want to go home, shower and sleep. I am so tired that I have the sleepy ha ha's...The only good thing is that my next paycheck is going to be nice. I feel like I have been bent over a chair and raped repeatedly by a man named mr. mustache, who apparently is so ballin', he has a mustache above his cock, as well as on his face.

Kill me, I'm right here. Do it! DO IT NOOOOOOOOW! Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

I am going to be sleeping at the animal shelter with a coworker for the night. We've become the holding facility for people's animals if there is an emergency. I can only imagine the chaos that will ensue when the hurricane hits.

What if?~

● I died:
● I kissed you:
● I fell:
● I lived next door to you:
● I showed up at your house

unexpectedly:
● I stole something:
● I was murdered:
● I cried:
● I asked you to marry me:
● I was hospitalized:

~Would you~
● Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?
● Keep a secret if i told you one?
● Hold my paw?
● Study with me?
● Cook for me?
● Love me?
● Date me?
● Have sex with me?

~More ~
● When and how did we meet?
● Describe me in three words.
● What was your first impression of me?
● What do you think of me now?
● What reminds you of me?
● Could you see us together forever?
● When's the last time you saw me?
● Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?