My piebald ball python turned two yesterday, i wasn’t home unfortunately as I was upstate for work, but I’ll be home today to give him all the love,
I’m very proud of him, not only is he a fantastic snake but he’s helped a few overcome their fear of snakes. He’s also the first reptile I’ve kept for over a year,
He’s definitely made things better for me this past year and a half

So here it is, 30 years of calico, fuck, I actually made it,

So I was supposed to be getting new stickers from a new friend but it was suddenly canceled and refunded,
It would seem my guardian Angel is still very hard at work to keep me from having anything at all, so now I sit here asking: why bother? Why am I keeping this account? So I can still be watched by this guy? It’s been three years now and he’s still hell bent on destroying me, maybe he’s actually trying to put me in the ground the way he’s going about this,
It’s funny I haven’t seen the guy since November of 2019, he pulls all this and he won’t even have a grown up conversation, he’d rather screenshot and crop my shit and send it to whoever will listen to him, well here’s something you can screenshot and even frame up on your wall:

I quit,

I give up,

You win

Please leave me alone forever

I am actually terrified of you and I don’t want to see you or your boyfriend,

I’m signing off furaffinity for good, so I can get as far away from you guys as I can,

Yeah, that’s right, it’s been about two years since I last got stickers but I found someone to do them, kinda recycled stuff from a disgruntled “art whore” so I’m literally getting them half price, and I made a new friend from the situation since we’ve had similar problems with this guy,
Also more art of Judas on the way, bassed (pun intended) on my favorite movie Scott pilgrim vs the world, I saw the sketch tonight and it’s looking awesome,

Well, this morning I woke up to news, one of the people I had a problem with back in 2014 committed suicide, and it made me think how important it was that we buried the hatchet back in 2018, tomorrow isn’t promised and something that closure may just be the last time you ever see that person,
Rest easy pal, I’m so sorry

So yeah as the title reads it’s been crazy, after such a great loss it seems things are beginning to mend,
I got a new tattoo, a little mouse on my right hand to honor my nephew my little mouse, it’s the first one I’ve had done without a toxic person there with me so essentially breaking the curse, last one was in 2018, so it’s been a while
I’m selling my first bass, the one I got at a yard sale, I love it and all but I was tempted and it’s time I got myself something really nice again, so I bought a brand new pj bass and hopefully I continue to attempt to learn
Fall stuff in Michaels: my favorite time of year always happens after July fourth, the craft stores start off the season with their fall and Halloween stuff and it’s always able to get me through the rest of summer, with Covid last year I didn’t get to go often, but now there’s nothing standing in my way, so I might be blowing the rest of the money on Halloween stuff,
I’m off to bed now since it’s almost midnight, goodnight all

So last week has been really tough, thankfully my hobbies helped a lot to keep my mind off it,
Last Tuesday, at 8:20 I learned my baby nephew of 1 1/2 months had died unexpectedly in his sleep, last night was the service and it was rough. I am a proud uncle of almost 8 so this was a huge blow. I’m thankful that my family seemed to come together for this and hopefully we stay together, for the sake of this “little mouse” we lost,

So get this, I buy a guitar on reverb from this guy attempting to run a guitar shop out of his apartment, that cool and I can honestly admire that, because that what I’m trying to do as well. So this guitar was advertised as needing truss rod work and nothing else, I bought it knowing this and hoping I’d get the chance learn how to replace a truss rod, but I got it plugged it in and messed around a bit after tuning it and I wasn’t getting all of my pickups, the added humbucker wasn’t getting sound, the guy told me that all electronics were good before shipping allegedly, which I believe was a load of crap there was glue residue on the strings from his packing material, but I still gave him a 4 star review, it wasn’t as described but I wasn’t unhappy with it either it was still a very good guitar, and as it turned out the truss rod wasn’t even broken or stripped like I was told, the reason the nut was spinning was because someone loosened it so much, I literally just had to tighten it back up, then today I took the pick guard off and looked inside and the humbuckers ground wire wasn’t even attached, like my guy, you said you checked all this, and you bitched at me for giving you a 4 star review when in actuality I should have given you a one star after how you talked to me, yeah I’m the first four star you got but I’m sure I won’t be the only one. If you’re going to run a store you need to put out your best, I’ve been doing this stuff for only a month and I was able to fix your shit and you have the nerve to get mad at me for taking advantage of the fact that I can buy guitar in poor shape and turn it around almost instantly to the point where the guy said I can’t buy from him anymore, my guy, after how you talked to me you don’t have to worry about that again.
But after all that I’m happy to say I have a beautiful black “tuxedo” 2013 squier bullet Stratocaster in fantastic working condition

So an idea came to me last night and I ran it past my longtime friend, I buy the guitar blanks, make it so it’s a perfect canvas for paint, then let them use it for a painting when they’re done we clear coat it and make it nice and shiny and I finish putting it together, we sell it and split the profits or keep it depending upon how we feel about it

So according to my Facebook memories it’s been two years since the first time I played dnd, that’s pretty crazy,
Unfortunately it’s been two months since the last time I got to play or dm, and my attempts to get a new game going all fell through, but hey maybe I’ll do an origin story, who is mouses parents and why is ersi regarded as the protector?

Last night was awesome, I invited an old elementary friend over last night, they were my first best friend back in third grade and we were both pretty upset when I moved both didn’t think we’d see each other again, but it’s crazy because as I was dating my friend I got a friend request from them, we caught up a bit but not as much until last November, then a few weeks ago I invited them over so they can see the snakes, and last night they came, and we talked for almost three hours, told me I had a crap unicycle and they were bringing theirs next time, the also want to help me with painting and do painting sessions together. It’s really crazy, some friendships can really survive distance and time,

Aye guess who’s going to nyc pride, yup me, I can’t wait, even if I end up going alone I definitely want to go this year,

So for the past few months I’ve been planning a trip, I trip to Disney world for June 13th, unfortunately those plans fell through and I can’t go anymore, my Id expired and there no way I can get it done in time,
It’s my own fault for waiting last minute, but my mom will be able to enjoy Disney in my place,
But now I can chase other endeavors, I could buy a new snake, gets some art, get Evie a bigger tank, get a guitar kit,
I’m depressed that I lost all that vacation time, but I’m sure I can find a way to make the most of it, maybe I can go to pride or plan a nice day in the city for myself of get so dnd stuff for my group,
I’m going to try my best to not let this get me down

So an idea popped into my head before: “make a fake account and attempt to make it a popular furry, but there’s the problem, someone like me could never do that or be that, yeah I like art of my characters but I don’t do it for views of for fans to see it and enjoy, I get it for me or to help a friend, I can’t afford getting art all the time and I’d run out of ideas, even seeing some of these popular furries with 500+ stickers on telegram is a bit ridiculous... like why is that really necessary? And popular furries are fake as hell, I knew a red fox who played off that he hated bronies but I got him to watch the show and he even told me he liked it, then five minutes later he posts anti-brony stuff,
I guess that’s the gimmick, you put on a front so no one knows the real you... but if no one knows who you are then haven’t you lost yourself?
Idk I guess I don’t see the value in it or the purpose for that matter, I’ll stay a nobody or maybe even be infamous for something... I’ve got a few people that hate me guts so I could always ride that wave lol

Something I’ve been considering lately, am I a furry?
Yeah I have anthropomorphic animal characters but I’m also a writer/character creator, I have human ones too, but that’s the thing, I am not Kyle, Judas, Rivin, mouse, xya, kimari, Lucian, etc, I am calico, and I’ve never tried being anyone otherwise, maybe Joseph, but that was when I was bound in the binary,
Anyway, I think that’s why I keep swapping characters, because I’m none of them, but I do put a bit of me in each of them,
By anyway... I don’t think I’m a furry, then again what really makes a furry? Let me know what you think

Yesterday at work I thought I saw a good friend of mine walk past the store I was building, so I texted him him and turned out I was in his turf, I showed him my guitar and he sold me a nice 2014 squier telecaster for me to fix up for my uncle, so now I have 3 projects at once
Follow me on Instagram at calico_nights

So I’ve been working hard on my squire Stratocaster and fixing it up all nice and what not, I have big plans for it compared to how I originally “fixed it” I won’t be posting it here though, it’s not furry related and I think I’m eventually going to fade from fandom again, using this to look at the darker adult side of the web lol...
But anyway you can probably find more updates and such from my Instagram calico_nights, you’ll also find some other things I do on there like photography and a bit of resin printing,

So lately I’ve been wanting to get back into building guitars, and there was a nice jazz bass kit I found, nice five string fretless, I was going to do a whitewash burst...
But then I noticed that my uncles priceless fender prodigy was in need of work and that he would likely have to retire her. We were looking at new squier guitars, he’s always had his eyes on getting a telecaster.
Then the kit showed up on my Facebook feed, and I decided to put the bass project on hold and I plan to get this guitar and make it how he likes without telling him it’s his until after he tests it out for the last time.
This uncle is very important to me and even got me into guitars even though I didn’t have the patience to learn to play, but it did inspire me to learn how to build and fix them,

So for a few years I’ve been attempting to write a Pokémon story, it’s about my character greggory knight aka nights who is an intern for professor elm, he lives in blackthorn city and he’s a dark type trainer, after the death of his precious houndoom, his partner Pokémon for so long his friend ez from Galar contacts him to come meet with him there, when he goes to bring his zorua he is forced to put the Pokémon in quarantine for the time being. Ez tosses him a pokeball, giving him his first galar Pokémon nickit, nights and ez have a few small adventures in galar until nights comes across something, an injured shiny rookidee in a Thorn bush, nights helps her out and gets her to the Pokémon center, revealing she had also suffered a broken wing,
Nights helped to rehabilitate the flying type until she was flying again, but when he was ready to release her back into the wild she refused to go, and evolved into a corvisquire,
Shortly after that nights gets a message that zorua can return to him,

(This is all that I have for now, this isn’t the whole story but just a quick summary, I hope to get back to work on it soon, thank you if you read this)

So I’m about a month, June 12 to be exact, I’m headed down to Disney world for the first time, I’m super excited, I’ve been trying to save as much as I can, trying not to dip into the savings too much, luckily I haven’t needed to yet, but it is getting harder, but that only means I have to work harder,

The rides I’m most looking forward to are Mickey and Minnies runaway railroad and the haunted mansion, I can’t wait!!

I’m currently waiting to get some more money but here’s what I got planned so far:
A portrait for Xya my half gnoll,
A portrait for Rivin
A flat fullbody for Judas
Eventually a reference/art for Aleister the piebald raven/kenku
Raichu picture
Maybe more feral kimari,
If anyone has any recommendations for affordable artists let me know,

Calico you crazy guy/person, why did you post an empty journal earlier in the week?
Well good question person I just made up in my head, it’s actually a simple answer, I was going to write another vent about stuff but then I figured, who cares? These people are delusional and they’re going to believe their own lies and it sucks that no matter what I say I’ll never get back what I lost, so I guess it’s just why bother right? Wrong! It’s called leaving the past behind and building the future, these people are going to keep trying to kill any relationship with artists or friends I have because I guess they feel threatened by me, or maybe in their fantasy world I really did do all those things, I just find it funny how these events were originally a blur and they out of nowhere I’m accused of theft and abuse and the events and settings are all mixed around, but I digress, when the lies fade or get mixed up the truth will finally come out, and if I heard about it I’ll probably laugh, like I did when that brony group realized I was right,
Which btw I’m not “hard banned” from, kinda hard to be banned from a group when you’re the one in charge of the telegram group, again these people are delusional and think they know what is going on, but they don’t, they don’t know shit,

I guess it was a mini vent but I think this will be the last one hopefully,

;)

Back in 2012 or close to that I rebuilt my first guitar, it wasn’t intentional, it was sitting around my room and eventually I decided to try repainting it, but then I ended up getting new strings and saddle for it and it work, though the paint job hasn’t aged well...
Well fast forward to today and I’m looking forward to ripping it all apart again with a new coat of paint, pick guard, knobs, switches, and jack plate, I have some high hopes for this project,

I’m also planning on getting a bass kit, so I’m going to be building on from almost scratch as well, as soon as I’m able to get some more spending money, I’m a bit broke at the moment

If you keep taking everything eventually they’ll have nothing left to lose