As per usual only post in this Journal when feeling down.

July 1st 2019 a friend of my lost his fight with cancer. He was a good friend, and one I personally enjoyed chatting with for long hours, and creative collaboration with him. He is forever a friend.

Today, an old friend of my'n that I haven't talked to in a long wile lost his father. My friends father was a good man, with a great heart. He may not have made huge controbutions to the world in his life but he did make big controbutions to me. He was the father of a good friend, and a good man. He was the husband to a good woman and a loving mother. He was a doctor and good at his job. In his sphear of life he did great things, though to the rest of the world he isn't even a blip on the radar.

I may not have seen my friend or his family in years but today I feel for them. A great man was lost to the world today...but a piece of him lives in my memory and in thoes of his friends and family. May he Rest In Peace.

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Tag three, and they do this shit

Daniel Gamba
Julia Gamba


How Old Are You?
Daniel:24
Julia: 24

What's your height?
Daniel:5’5”
Julia: 5’5”

Do You Have Any Bad Habits?
Daniel: annoyingly worrisome at times
Julia: I don’t have any….ok yes I do…..ok I like to tease my twin every chance I get

Are You A Virgin?
Daniel: No
Julia: No

Who's Your Mate/Spouse?
Daniel: Hopefully Melanie
Julia: Who isn’t, kidding, at the moment I don’t have one.

What's Your Favorite Ice Cream Flavor?
Daniel: Coffee
Julia: Phish Food YUM!

Have You Killed Anyone?
Daniel: Yes
Julia: No

Do You Hate Anyone?
Daniel: The Order (a group not a furson)
Julia: My tax accountant well x tax accountant he ran off with this hussy….well never mind.

Do You Love Anyone?
Daniel: *Blushes* Melanie
Julia: Hmmm…nope don’t think so…well I love all of my friends. Side note bad habits: talks to much

What Is Your Job?
Daniel: Teacher/Studio Manager
Julia: Sometimes I work at the studio….sometimes nope that’s pretty much it, My brother brings home most of the money.

Boy Or A Girl?
Daniel: Boy
Julia: Can’t you tell…dua


What Do You Do To Relax?
Daniel: Star Gaze, Read, Ride my motorcycle
Julia: Sex,

What Song Do You Think Would Describe Yourself?
Daniel & Julia: *snickers together* the doublemint gum song

Any hidden talents no one knows about you?
Daniel: If I told you I would have to kill you…seriously
Julia: I can put my legs behind my head :P

What Do You Think Of Your Creator?
Daniel: The human is cool…lets me do what I want…nice guy.
Julia: I agree with my brother. And if you haven’t figured that out yet look above.

What Colour Is Your Hair?
Daniel: Blond
Julia: Ummm…classified…no its …. Crap I don’t remember.


I Tag any reader that hasn't read yet. HAHA I WIN

I've noticed I genraly only post on these things when I feel like shit? Today, no different. I guess its a place to vent, knowing some may look at it...some may even understand, and hopefully some will take comfort in the fact they are not alone in their own feelings.

For me, well I guess it would be best to start once again with a question. Have you ever been so in love with someone that you were willing to let them go because you thought, at the time, it was what would make the other most happy. That in doing so you would get what you really wanted for them and that was just for that person to be happy in life no matter what. I have, and now I think perhaps I should have fought at least a little harder.

Whats sad about this is that it was around four years ago now, and I still feel like this. I didn't for a while, I had alot of things distracting me. Now though, now that school is done, my fire department training is done, a time now I should proubably feel successful, I don't. I just feel alone.... I don't know what to do about it, or how to do anything about it. Proubably really isn't much that can be done about it. Short of course of overly dramatic methods, and that just isn't me at all.

For now I think i'll just go to sleep, and hope tomorrow will be a better day...I doubt it at this point, but one can hope, one can hope.

I want school to be done. I want to be abile to do what I want to do..like keep up with my forum...practice more artwork...I want to become great with my art and develop my characters. My goal is to have a character like Eric's Sabrina. One so loved and known.

As per usual I try and try and then end up paintbucketing everything...I started work on hopefully makeing my artistic work better, even trying to start a comic strip for the forum I belong to. Problem is, I seem to be able to do strait on portraits but thats about it. When it comes to beveling faces and even attempting a body...well things don't always work out so well. Oh well back to practice..