I've been thinking a lot about this lately. I still would like to finish it, but I've run into a problem. This project started with Tom back in 2010 and I liked his so much I turned it into portraits of all my main crew people. Some of them held up okay, but some of them...not so much. This project is almost 10 years old. My drawing style and skill have changed since then, I also added a bunch of new characters. I am considering starting over, or at least redoing the ones I'm not happy with anymore. I'm still figuring out character traits for everyone. That's the problem with having a lot of characters. (And being a writer)

Anyway, I digress. I really want to finish this project, even with having nearly 20 portraits to do. I want to get back into drawing more regularly again because I really miss it. I might take a break from fursuit making for myself (minus a commission I have lined up) and focus on art for a little while. There are still some things I'd like to get better at, such as drawing humanoid characters and posing. I've been having trouble with art turning out the way I wanted it to and having the motivation to even do it in the first place, but I think I burnt myself out on fursuit making and want to switch back to art for a bit. I've been having inspiration and motivation to draw again and I'd like to seize it. I just hope that the Moskau Project doesn't give me burnout too. At the very least I want to draw more art of my crew and “Experimental” story characters. Possibly give some characters an update/makeover. Work on character designs and personalities. I enjoy making characters and telling stories. Ever since I started working and got my first job 10 years ago my creative side has been diluted. I miss spending all day making art and talking with my two best friends, Will and Nathalie. Those where good days.

I don't want to jump the shark and say “I'm going to start drawing more” because every time I do it never happens. I don't want to be full of false hope so I'll just say I'd LIKE to draw more, but I can however say that I WILL finish the Moskau project.

Because of the fact that I don't draw and write like I used to, my hands cramp really bad after 10 minutes. I've tried stretching, and often might I add and I still get hand cramps. Maybe my endurance is just down because I'm not used to doing it often. Maybe I just have to tough it out and work trough it slowly. Honestly besides lack of time/energy/motivation, that is the main reason why I don't draw like I used to. Pain. I have no excuse for not writing my story though. I can type faster than I ever could 10 years ago and my story telling has improved. I see it as I've taken the last decade to focus my sewing/crafting/costume making skills and observing daily life, working on character development and ideas for my story. Sometimes you just have to take a break by learning and observing. Do some people watching, its both entertaining and a learning experience. Also I've been figuring out how to adult.

Anywho, I hope I can make this work. I feel like I've leveled up enough to carry on and advance more. We shall see what the future holds for me. I still want to make fursuits and things but I think I just need a break for a while. Burnout is serious.

Sorry for the lack of posting. I'm not dead, just really busy with real life stuff. I'm trying to find a new job and a new car, things just got a little hectic. I am working on a new fursuit, and a surprise one for a friend. I'm also working on a teddy style plush pattern. So I got all kinds of stuff coming. I hope to start posting more art more regularly here soon. I'm pretty excited for the fall season, I've already decorated our house and it makes me so happy. I love fall.

This FWA has been an absolute blast. It's been a long time since I've con-ed this hard. I suited more this weekend than I have in a long time, if probably ever. I've met some new friends and got to see my old ones. It's been a good weekend and a much needed break from reality. Today I am recovering and relaxing in my quarters. Probably going to boot up some DS9 here soon. I swear, I will be the only one without post con depression. It's been fun, but I'm ready to sleep in my own bed again.

WE ALMOST THERE.


Where are you staying?
Main hotel.

Who are you staying with?
and

Day of arrival/Departure?
Wednesday afternoon till Sunday morning.

Transportation?
Driving down from Chatt.

Who will you hang with during the convention?
My neighbor friends from last year and

How can I find you?
Big dandelion colored liger! (But if you wanna meet up with me or somethin, Twitter or telegram is a good place to do so. SashaLigress for both)

Are you cliquey?
Not really, I'm pretty friendly and willing to hang with just about anyone.

Will you be suiting?
Hell yeah! I didn't spend the last 5 months slaving over a new suit for nothin!

What’s your gender?
Female

Are you taken? Are you looking for a mate?
Yes, I am taken.

How tall are you?
5'6"

Can I talk to you?
yeah, sure! c:

Can I touch you?
Only if I know you.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are good! But snuggles are reserved for close friends.

Can I visit your room?
ONLY if I know you really well.

Are you nice?
I like to think I am.

Will you draw/do badges/do trades?
Yes but ask first.

Are you going to any panels/shows/dances/competitions?
Yeah I'll be going to Kazplay's panels, messing around in the Zoo, and hitting the dance floor.

Can I give you stuff?
Please do!

Do you smoke/do drugs/vape?
I'm not about that life.

Can I buy you a drink?
I'd prefer you didn't.

Will you be going to parties?
Unless by "Party" you mean watching dumb YT vids and eating snacks, then hell yeah!

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Just yell "Sasha" I usually am quick to respond. My vision is terrible in suit so wave at me or something.

What/where will you be eating?
Stuff I'm bringing, and probs the food court.

Can I come with you for food/fun?
If we're friends, yeah!

Can I take your picture?
Absolutely! But you better tag me!

You know there are times where it would be nice to be recognized in a crowd of fursuits at a convention, or someone noticing my work online, but 99% of the time I am really, really glad I am a nobody in this fandom, or just online in general. I am just a nobody making stuff and sharing photos of my creations on the internet. People often forget that what you post online is forever, not only that but you have to remember that if you post something in a public place, WHERE EVERY SOUL CAN SEE, people have a fair shot at making fun of you.

Internet is forever

Don't post things you wouldn't want others to see.

These rules are very important. So don't get butt hurt when you were the one advertising your stupidity in the first place. So basically, don't be stupid, stupid. If you are going to get upset over every little thing said about you, your fandom, anything you like, or a person you like, then you need to stay away from the internet. Having pride in something is fine, but don't let it blind you. It's okay to change your opinion of something based on new information.

I'm glad I don't have people making fun of me.
I'm glad I don't have thousands of people wanting to be my friend just for free stuff.
I'm glad I don;t have my own Encyclopedia Dramatica page on me.
I'm glad I don't have artist bewares on me.

I'm even glad no one wants to commission me. I like being a nobody. Attention and popularity is overrated anyway. I can go to a con and do what I want, when I want without a flock of followers tailing me wherever I go.

/end rant.

One of my friends is doing a badge givaway! go check her out her art while you're there, is amazing and worth every penny!


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8199219/

I'm planning on getting a thermal laminator soon and I'm really excited. I'm surprised on how cheap they are now. I always thought they were 100-300 for a basic model, turns out you can get a decent one for 30$! Why didn't I think of that before? I can do heat sealed badges! I may just do some badge commissions. anyone interested?

Having a pretty good time with my friends, we're staying in a cabin up in the mountains for the weekend. Today I'm going into town to do some fun stuff, not sure what, my friends haven't told me what's in store. So far it's been pretty awesome. Even if the internet is slow and I have no cell reception. haha

Anyways, the birthday girl is going to bed for some well deserved sleep and then off to fun.

-Sasha

So uh, I haven't made a journal in forever.
I think it's about time I did.

So my trip in November went well, had lots of fun. First vacation in a long time that actually felt like one. It's been a huge mess since then. My work accident gash has healed, although sometimes it still hurts. I probably severed a nerve. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I'm being stabbed. Hopefully that will fade over time. My giant hives has long since gone away. Work has been a total mess. Last day I worked was my birthday, that was almost a month ago.

Lately I've been panicking trying to get everything together. My dad is moving back to Virginia this summer. I plan on staying here. Nothing could drag me back there. Other then the few friends I have scattered about, there is nothing left for me there. I have worked hard to make a new life in Minnesota despite still being in limbo with moving. Jin and I are planning to move in together up here. We're both working our tails off to make it all work. I may have to get rid of a lot of my possessions. I don't think they will all fit in this tiny apartment.

I am also in need of some medical attention. I can tell my eyesight has gotten worse, time to go see the eye doctor again, and I'm overdue for a dental cleaning. I haven't been to the dentist in like 6 years. :I Been too busy with moving and other crap. I know I have cavities too because my teeth hurt, but not all the time. I found what seems like a nice place down the road by my doctor and dermatologist, I'll give them a try. Now if I can just get some balls to call them and ask for an appointment. That's a whole 'nother problem. Damn, why must I be so introverted?

I have been active on most of my sites, but mostly go on my Tumblr. I've been trying to draw but I've been so busy I hardly have time for anything. Being an adult is hard.

I'm trying to work up some courage to put in my application at one of the other factories here. Delkor has fallen off a cliff. The temporaries haven't had work in a few weeks and we won't have work for a while if ever. With all this stuff going on, moving, seeing doctors, trying to save money, moving again, and being on my own for the first time, I'm on the verge of another mental breakdown. At least Alexei is finally fixed.

Well that’s all I can think of for now. I will try to be more active. I've been writing more in my tangible journal than I have here, obviously. My last post was six months ago….

I’m alive and stuff. Just thought you guys should know. I haven’t posed a journal since before I moved.

Yeah. Got a new job, like doing it 75% of the time, living in an apartment that is rapidly losing my approval, but all in all I like it here. It’s nice to be back in the Midwest again. Still looking for a new car, I had to leave Dimi behind. Might have found one today. If it’s still there by the end of the week and the research turns out okay for it, I’m giving up on being too careful and buying it. [This thing drives like a freakin tank.]

I’ve mostly been active posting on Tumblr, I still check this everyday and stuff but I haven’t posted any art or journals in forever. I haven’t really drawn in forever either. This move has pretty much taken everything out of me.

Been doing a lot of research and planning to see Jin this fall. Really excited. I’m trying to save up all I can for the trip.

That’s about it. Not much has happened…well a lot has happened but it’s not worth mentioning.


To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] Marian faux screenshot thing
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine
[ ] Day plushie for Fell--Larka

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi (Jak and Daxer)

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
None

Today has been one heck of a day. I sold Dmitri to my friend at work. I had a hard time leaving him. At least I know that she will drive him and he won’t end up in some trash heap, junkyard, or even worse a smash up derby. ;A;

So that’s done. I mowed the lawn today with a push mower. The grass was almost two feet tall in patches because we’ve had to let it grow out waiting for the seed we put down to germinate. So the mower was having trouble cutting the grass. It decided it was done before I did. Just for being out for like an hour I got a little bit of sunburn on my arms, the worst of it is on my shoulders. I wondered why they felt so hot to the touch, and then I went into my bathroom where the lighting is better and I could see it. Sometimes it sucks being GermIsh. [German – Irish] I don’t tan, I burn and quite quickly as it seems.

After that my mom and I ran to the bank to put the money from Dimi in my account, and to the DMV to deactivate my plates. It was the most painless, fastest, and easiest trip to the DMV ever. I wish every trip could be that way. You know you’re an adult when you hate going to the DMV.

For the last few weeks my mom is going to have to drop me off at work and pick me up. I’m thinking of quitting earlier than I had planned. One of the main reasons for me to keep working was first I needed more money, who knows how long it will take before I get a new job up there and two, I needed to sell Dmitri before we left. But everything turned out better than we hoped with Dimi.

We have been under so much stress lately. Now we’re yelling at each other, irritable, and the signs of stress are obvious. I really hate this waiting/limbo period. It’s like we want to do things but we can’t because we’re waiting on answers or information. It sucks. The realtor comes next week to take pictures so I’ve been scrambling to clean up my room and the upstairs basically to make it picture worthy. Guh. Even on my days off from work I still have to do so much work at home so I’m not really getting any real days off. We’re all exhausted mentally and physically.

All I can say if I didn’t have wonderful friends I would be rolling-on-the-floor, foaming-at-the-mouth insane right now. <333 Thanks brother for taking the brunt of it. You always listen to my bitching and make me feel better. I swear we keep each other sane. Nath, you help me everyday all the time, I love you so very much. Both of you have helped so much with my depression and this moving crap and I greatly appreciate it. You two are my friends, my best friends.

I wore one of my new pairs underwear from BunnyJump last night and of course the monthly circus decides to stop by early. >:C Luckily it didn’t actually get on my new pants or I would have flipped. Of course the one time I wear my new favorite pants and TOM stops by…My uterus is an asshole.

I went through the vast pile of receipts I’ve been hording in my room. lol Most of them, not counting the craft store ones were Monster, donuts, or candy. One of them was milk, bread, and Monster.

PRIORITIES.

I need to stop buying so much junx.

Well I’m beat, I’m heading to bed soon here.

Love,
Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] Marian faux screenshot thing
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine
[ ] Day plushie for Fell--Larka

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi (Jak and Daxer)

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
None

So um, last night I fainted for the first time in my life. It scared me pretty bad. I was in the shower, having a good soak and I felt nauseous all the sudden, I figured it was nothing and continued on but then I started felling really weird, so I leaned my body against the wall of the shower. My legs felt like jelly and I just had this really strange feeling. My vision tunneled, my hearing dulled, next thing I knew, I found myself outside my shower on my bath mat. I must have lost some feeling too because it didn’t hurt that bad until after I was in bed. I know I hit my back and shoulders, but I must have hit my head too because it hurt. The only thing I don’t understand is when I came to, I was on my stomach and one of my legs was still caught in the tub.

The curtain was completely pulled to the other side so I knew I fell through. My hearing was still dulled I could sort of hear the shower but it was garbled, my vision was blurry and unclear, and I was so confused as to what happened. All I knew was I had to hurry up and get into bed. At least if I fainted again I would be safe there.

I’ve never fainted before, I never want to do that again. It was as if someone flipped my off switch. I talked with my friends about it and did some research on syncope, and I feel better about it now. To those I talked to, thanks for listening to me go on about this, it means a lot to me that you’ll listen to me babble on about how scary it was. <333

So other than that, I’ve had a nice few days off here. Laying around, reading books, watching Star Trek and Doctor Who, drinking tea and eating Jammie Dodgers. Unfortunately I ate them all. xD Time to order more. I should be working on my resume so I can turn it in and get out of the hellhole I work at.

I’ve been inspired to write again, we’ll see how far it gets. I’ve wanted to write more Experimental for a while but I’ve been so damn depressed lately. It comes and it goes.

A few days ago I finally got my Eleventh Doctor plushie. Saturday when I found him on my steps after work, I zipped through the shower and promptly took a nap with him. xD It was the best nap I’ve had in a while. God I’m such a nerd. C|

I also got an amigurumi Ood, just like I wanted for my birthday. His name is Theta 6 and we are best friends. |3

Sometime I may post some pictures.

I’ve just about finished the care packages I’ve been working on. I know I’ve been saying that a bajillion times, but I do plan to have them out within a week. I’m going to send a bunch of people presents. I’ll let you all know when the time comes.

 kuroyo19 has gotten me all inspired to write more Experimental and draw all these pictures! I don’t know what to do with myself! We should work on our Lilo and Stitch fandom stuff together. <333 I love you dear.

Also I would like to mention that Jinwylie is another one of the best friends I could ask for. Thanks for cheering me up these last few weeks. <3 You’ve really been awesome to me. We should go urban exploring sometime. You got me all geared up. XD

Tomorrow I think I am going to finish my stamp project, I am making some hand carved stamps, which I will show when I’m done. Also for those of you who aren’t following my Tumblr, I am working on some Moskau valentines. I hope I can finish them by the 14th. Making them has made me realize how much I’ve missed my crew. I hope to fix that. I’ve strayed away from my Moskau project, I’m finally wondering back. My characters are always in my head, blundering about, making me laugh sometimes in the middle of something serious. They are always alive in my mind, but sometimes my life makes me shove them back from drawing or writing about them, this saddens me. I miss when I used to draw and write all the time. I think my crappy job got me in this rut. My job has no stability, and that’s hard to live on. Anyway…

I’m feeling like I’m forgetting something. I got interrupted by dinner when I was writing this, oh well, I’ll remember later.

Love you guys.

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Ello my lovelies.

Today is the day that I become fully responsible for the vessel I parade around in.
[That sounds a bit Dalek to me…]

That’s right the big 21. Funny thing is, it doesn’t even feel like my birthday. There’s no snow and it’s nearly 60 outside. I still haven’t had a chance to make my snow Dalek yet, there hasn’t been much snowfall all winter. It’s been very green here in Virginia.

So anyway, not much planned for today. Just chilling with my friend Jasmine, watching Classic Who and having tea and cake. Apparently all my coworkers thought I was going to go out and get drunk today. FFF, I have better things to do than to drink. Just because I can drink doesn’t mean I should. Also my family has a nasty history of alcoholism, and I should stay away from it except the occasional drink anyway. Besides, I think it tastes gross. I hate beer, I hate white wine, hate margaritas, hate the way tequila smells so it can’t taste that good… I just don’t like it. I would much rather have tea.

So yeah…people around here are bored so all they do is drink and fuck. My idea of parties and having fun are much different from people around here. I like to create art, drink tea, have intelligent conversations, and eat junkfood with my friends. People around here get drunk off their asses and then wake up feeling like they want to die and can’t remember anything that happened the night before or even how they got home. That’s their idea of fun…not mine.

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Last night the power went out while I was taking my shower. My bathroom has no windows so it got hella dark. I was scared the Angels were coming for me. xD It came back on a few seconds later, thank god. Then this morning we lost power again, didn’t get it back until almost noon. Funny how electricity is one of those things where it’s like “oh no computer, no problem I’ll just surf on my…oh…”

So as it turns out, Jasmine couldn’t hang today, we are planning something tomorrow. I still haven’t had any of my birthday cake yet. I ate too much for dinner and couldn’t eat any more. So I’ll save it for later. My parents are already in bed, my mom is exhausted. xD

lol When I opened my presents from my mum and dad I kept asking "Is it an Ood?" "Did you get me an Ood for my birthday?!" Needless to say they didn't find it as funny as I did. All I could think about was this video while I was saying it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?featur.....;v=PkOcm_XaWrw

So didn’t really do anything today but loaf and faff around. But that’s okay, sometimes doing nothing is nice. My last week here at work has been draining, and I had seen my first violent customer. Luckily we had an awesome manager on shift and he handled it very well. It’s nice to know if shit goes wrong, he will protect us.

Anyway I’m going to watch some Enterprise or something…perhaps dig into my cake.

Talk to you guys later.

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Hey guys,

Happy New Year! Hope all is well. This year has been going well for me so far. I’m looking forward to this year, last year sucked balls.

My birthday is fast approaching, and I’m still not sure what I’m doing, probably just chilling at home. Nothing special. Perhaps Jasmine and I can hang or something. I kind of want to go fursuiting. It depends on if it’s snowing or not. Her paint can’t get wet. :/

So I decided today that one of my biggest projects this year is to one, draw more, and two make references. New references, for all my characters and my species like the Reo-Raxians and Snaârgs. I think for my crew I am just going to make simple references unless otherwise needed, like Jenny. I am going to make a list and post it on FA to keep track of everything.

Sounds like a big undertaking but it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a while. Like all my old ‘universe references’ for Sasha. I’m redoing a lot of her outfits…such as her infamous Hellsing reference. xD I also need to make a reference for her hologuise.

So what are you guys up to this year?

Peace,
Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19 [one last thing to collect.]
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie [one more badge and one last thing to collect.]
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Character and creature references (progress list )
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Forgive my…obscene absence. I’ve been busy with personal matters and for the last few weeks. I’ve been what feels like deathly ill. I think I caught two different bugs back to back, which is why I’m still kinda sick a week and a half after my symptoms first surfaced. At least now my voice is coming back.

So anyway I’ve been doing some personal projects but not getting very far on them, and I still haven’t made everyone’s holiday present yet. Here it is, Christmas eve’s eve and I have nothing. :| guess they’re going to be a little late. Sorry guys.

Work has been extra sucky lately. It’s drained just about every ounce of energy I have. Although being sick doesn’t help. I start to feel better after resting for a day and I go to work, work for a few hours and I’m back to feeling like I want to die. Whatever this is, you really do have to rest or it will get you back if you try to resume your social life.

So this past week has been pretty much nothing but watching Doctor Who, sleeping, and light work. All this Doctor Who really makes me want to come with him on adventures, but then again who wouldn't want to? TAKE ME WITH YOU. /leaps into TARDIS. I need a Doctor.
I have off tomorrow and Christmas, ALL THE RESTING FOR ME. ALL MINE.

So yeah, really sorry I kind of died for a few weeks. I’m kind of back now. I will try to be more active and work on shit so I can show you guys. But first I must get over this virus. When it’s over I can laugh at everyone else because I’ll be immune to it. Just about everyone in the store is sick.

I can’t tell you how happy I am that 2011 is almost over. Good riddance. It was one of the suckiest years of my life. Fuck 2011. It felt like everything good and bad happened. Mostly bad. I lost too many people this year, one of them my great grandma. Not to mention the last three months I’ve been in a spiraling depression. Yeah, bugger this. Hello 2012.

Also a small side note. The last few weeks I have been working hard on the care packages for Jinwylie and Kuroyo19 and they are both near completion. I just have one more badge to do for Jin and a trip up to the mountains to get something for both boxes. It won’t be long now guys. C: So very sorry it took me so long. <3

Alright well, that’s about it then. Hope you guys have a good holiday(s).

Love you guys,
Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19 [one last thing to collect.]
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie [one more badge and one last thing to collect.]
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

So all I’ve done today is play Minecraft and sleep. I have to work at 5, not to excited about it. I’m hoping most of it will calm down by then. I only have to work until 9 so I think I can make it. Already I’m imagining the hundreds of Mcdoubles I have to make. :C

Anyway I’m not going shopping today because I have no money to spend. Not to mention I hate black Friday, people are crazy and will do anything to get what you’re holding. Fuck that. I stayed inside and hid all day. The only time I’m going out is to go to work.

Tomorrow I am going to go look at cars, again. I hate dealing with sales people. But I’m not buying anything yet, just looking. I have my mind set on that 2005 Outback at the Subaru dealer. It’s 14,000 way out of my price range but it’s a newer car, just had a bunch of parts replaced, and looks like it’s been well taken care of. But this also means that I have to get a car loan, which also means I will be paying this car off for 3 years at least. I also am going to have higher insurance because it is a younger car than Dimi. I am feeling better about giving him up, but I’m still sad.

I got a call, well actually several the other day from this mechanic that wants to buy him for me to chop up for parts. He offered 500 for him. I was thinking HELL NO, the tires ALONE would be that much. My car has good parts, parts that are in good condition, it’s just he has a broken head gasket. If I had the money to repair him, I would. If he bought Dimi from me at 500, he could chop him up and get three times that much for his parts. There must be a shortage of Subaru parts right now. But yeah, this guy wants him really bad. Both my dad and I told him no.

I am trading Dimi in, possibly for that 2005. It has heated seats! :D That was one of the things I liked about driving my dad’s bug.

So anyway, that’s what I’m doing today and tomorrow. After the car shopping, I plan on playing more Minecraft or Tron Evolution. I finally bought it last week and it just arrived in the mail.

Stay safe guys! And I hope you had a good turkey day. My dad and I had ziti and lasagna this year.

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Ugh, where to begin?

So my mom is still gone. Seems nothing has changed in my aunt’s pregnancy, not that I really care. I just want my mom back home again. She may not be home until before or after Christmas.

My car is acting up AGAIN. It feels like every time I work my ass off at work and earn a little extra money I throw it into this black hole of a car. It’s been like what? About two weeks since I got my car fixed with the crank sensor? And now Dimitri has a leaky coolant hose and is leaking all his cooling fluids. Or at least that’s what I think. It could be that and a radiator hose/water pump. I don’t know. I’m hoping that I can get him into the shop tomorrow after work.

I’m just so mad about it though. My only motivation at work is to get some money so I can save up for something nice that I want, and every time I save up enough to get something, my car breaks or I have to pay something off or buy something I need. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling like I’m poor and have no money.

WHY CAN’T I HAVE NICE THINGS?!

My life has been this downward spiral of just one thing to another for the last two months or so. It’s really bringing me down. I’m tired of it, I’m tired of crying all the time, I just want things to get better already.

Every day I go to work crying, I come home crying.
I wish someone would call me already so I can get out of this crap hole. Work has just been getting worse and worse every day. I can’t hold on much longer.

/falls off chair like a slinky and slinks away

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Hello again.

So since I’ve gotten my car, a week ago or so it broke down. I was so pissed. I spent all of my hard earned money on a car of my own and it breaks. Turns out it was the crank sensor and it was a $300 repair including tow.

So yeah, that happened.

For Halloween my two friends and I went to C-ville and hung out at the pedestrian mall. We parked kinda far away because it was free but we had no idea that it was a little hike down there. Well turns out I forgot my wallet so jasmine and I headed back, we got in the car and we decided to move it closer as long as we’re at it. Note that I don’t like, nor am I good at driving in confusing city roads, four lanes of traffic, odd/nonconforming traffic patterns, etc. So we turned out of the parking complex and I could barely see around the corner to see if anyone was coming, I thought I was clear so I turned in to the lane, I barely missed hitting two cars, thought I was okay, nearly avoided two more cars and by the time I looked up, I noticed I passed though a red traffic light. I was too concerned with avoiding the other cars I wasn’t paying attention to the light. And guess what? Low and behold of course there was a cop behind me, flashing his lights. All I could think of is oh shit, I really don’t need this now. It was an accident, I didn’t mean to go through the light, it was a miracle I didn’t hit anyone or let them hit me.

So I find a safe place to pull over, we go through the shebang, he goes back in his car and he takes forever, meanwhile the tension is chewing through my body like bears. I could tell he wanted to let me off but I ended up getting a ticket, he didn’t give me a wreckless though, but I got written up for disobeying a traffic signal. I still haven’t told my parents about it, things have been tense here at home lately. It could have been so much worse. So much worse. But I’m alive, my friend is alive, we didn’t get hurt, I didn’t hurt anyone else, and my car is undamaged. Things turned out okay.

By the time we got back to the tea house, I felt god awful. I didn’t want to drive anymore and I just wanted to be home. I did my best to shake it off and finish having a good time with my friends. But overall Halloween night was fun. I think my favorite part was walking to the mall in fursuit for the first time, seeing and hearing everyone’s reactions. I will have to post some pictures of my costume soon. I didn’t take the camera with me that night so I didn’t get many pictures. I’ll go into some of the stories in the descriptions.

So yeah I am planning on getting a camera of my own, after I pay off my ticket. I still don’t know how much it is, and I’m not going to court to pay it off. My friend told me they tack on extra fees from coming to court. So yeah if you guys have any advice about tickets, let me hear them. I’m scared.

So that’s about it for now. I’ll fill you guys in on more stuff later, I have to go to work soon. The next few days are pretty much going to be

Get up, go to work, come home, eat sleep repeat.

The last week has been really hard because I’ve been pushing myself really hard. They’ve suckered me into coming in on my day off and coming in early. Why does it feel like I am always filling in for their mistakes?

Anyway, talk to you guys later.

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Why hello again,

So tonight I made some more progress on my fursuit, here’s what’s left:

-saw off the heels on my boots and attach the toes, fur them and paint the stripes on
-finish painting the tail
- fix lower jaw so it doesn’t slip off my head
- finish/attach the neck
-finish other handpaw
- finish second pair of sock paws
- do the shirt

But I’ve figured I only need to make it a small partial for Halloween. So here’s what I really need to do before then,

-finish painting the tail
- fix lower jaw so it doesn’t slip off my head
- finish/attach the neck
-sew right handpaw

So yeah, not so bad. I have to work tomorrow and it’s like for 11 hours, AND corporate is coming in to do an inspection…but I have Tuesday off which I plan on working on this all day. If I can get the bootpaws done, it will just be an added bonus. I think I might just make it.

So anyway, guess what? I finally got my very own car. It’s a white Subaru Outback. I paid for it in full, $3,250 which was practically a steal. Anyone that lives in New York or Virginia knows that every car has to pass inspection, thusly, cars are much more expensive. There are not any $500 beaters here so I saved up and I got a car. I love it to bits, when I test drove it; it was love at first sight. I came back later that day and bought it. I still haven’t decided what to name it, at first I thought it was female but now I’m not so sure. So for now it’s referred to as “Baby” or “The Sashamobile.” I’ll post some pictures soon in my scraps and you guys can help me name it. c:

Also I have a bit of a problem. With the way things are going at work, it looks like I may be working on Halloween. I didn’t get my request off soon enough, turns out there’s a new rule that only four people can request off for a day at a time, and it’s first come first serve. So I missed out. Also I just got my request granted to be put back on nightshift. xD So I may end up working Halloween night. If I do then I guess I’ll just go out in my costume that morning/afternoon. It might be better that way anyway because my vision is kind of terrible in my head and even with a handler/spotter it would still be hazardous to walk in the dark. I’m still not sure what I’m doing. One thing’s for sure, I’m not going to Bush Gardens.

I got a free ticket from work a few months ago because we got a 0 on some inspection thing, but it expires on Halloween. And I can’t get off to go. It seems a shame, it’s like a $66 ticket otherwise. :C So that makes me sad.

Although, you know what? Now that I think about it if I do work that night, we could end up so slow that we close early. It has happened a few times before. If we make less than $50 an hour we can close. No sense in staying open. I’m expecting everyone to be trick or treating or having parties, not at McDonald’s getting 15 Mcdoubles. I could be wrong but I’m going to stay hopeful. Halloween is like the only holiday I really care about.

Anyway I should get to bed. I have to open the store tomorrow and that whole corporate thing. They’re threatening to suspend people if the place isn’t clean. Because we all know a sharp stick works so well. Forget the carrot. The way I see it, I have little bills to pay, and my car is paid off. If I get suspended, I’ll just take it as a forced vacation. I an’t even mad. So yeah I need some sleep to handle that. The past few days I’ve been so sleep deprived I’m like a zombie and my brain is not with me. I want to sleep in but I can’t do that until Tuesday. At least tomorrow I will have someone else helping me open grill.

Impress Corporate, LIKE A BAWSE!

Okay bed now. Night guys, have a marvelous day.

-Sha-sha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Hey guys.

So I have a few things I’d like to talk about. Firstly Halloween, I have no idea what the hell I’m doing. Not to mention I still have not made any progress on my fursuit. I’m still in “either I’m working or sleeping” mode. I really need to shake out of that if I want to get this project done. Well actually, I lied, I did almost finish one of the gloves. Here’s what I still have to do;

-saw off the heels on my boots and attach the toes, fur them and paint the stripes on.
-finish painting the tail and sew the top closed
-finish sewing the seams on the head/ fix lower jaw so it doesn’t slip off my head
- finish/attach the neck
-finish handpaws, one is almost done
- finish second pair of sock paws
- do the shirt

It doesn’t sound like much but it’s at least a week’s worth of work, and that’s if I’m working constantly. I don’t know, my grandparents are coming up soon, perhaps I can have some time to work on it then.

Speaking of which, yeah my grandparents are coming up this week. We’re going to Gettysburg this weekend. We’re going to see stuff and maybe do the ghost walk. Also back to Halloween things, I have a ticket for Bush Gardens I got from work a while ago that expires on the 31st, so I may be going to Williamsburg sometime soon as well. I don’t know what I’m doing for Halloween, I have three friends that want to do things with me and Bush Gardens and…I don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t even know if I’ll finish my costume in time.

Okay so, today I installed Kaspersky to Vlad. I need to shut Panda up because my service expired. Since my parents couldn’t decide what they wanted this year for anti-virus, I got my own since I actually liked Kaspersky. Also, another segue, this reminded me of the Tron inspired doodles I did of my computer and what all the programs would look like. I should finish that and post it so you guys can see, they are quite amusing.

Anyway, so yeah Kaspersky is installed and temporarily distracted with updates. xD After that he’s probably going to go to my CPU and bother the crap out of Vlad. Like “Vhy is vis such a mess? I must fix. Kaspersky vill fix.” Meanwhile Vlad is trying to scrape him off the walls. xD

So that’s a thing. xD
Also, I would like to say this year has FLOWN BY. I had meant to get my ID finished MONTHS AGO and it’s still a half inked sketch. DAMN. Work has really stolen most of my free time. I hate it. I miss going to school, I would rather go to school than work all the time. So I’m just going to refine it and make it my ID for 2012, since it’s halfway through October already. Seeing that I’m most likely not going to finish it anytime soon, I’ll just make it next years. Besides some of my interests have change since then.

So what else is new? Oh my friend’s friend came down to see her today. She is also friends with my other friend Jasmine so I’ve been hanging out with them the last few days. I made a character for her LARP and she is totally badass. Jasmine described her as “Slightly terrifying.” Apparently I made her really well, despite this being my first RP character to use in a game. So I can’t wait to play her and figure her character out. This is going to be fun.

Also back to art, I’ve wanted to do some Helling fanart lately for some reason. I redid Sasha’s written reference and I was working on her new Helling reference but I’ve been stuck at what her human disguise looks like. I decided she needed one because her tromping around as is…yeah. Also I realize now how purely OBSCENE that reference looks out of context. Now I understand why when people look at it and go WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK? Out of all my art in my gallery, THAT PICTURE is my most hated. xD In my original plan for that part of the story, she just stayed out of the public, and came out at night to kill Zombs, but even if she was careful seeing a six foot tiger/lion alien is just a bit unsettling…So um, yeah I’m going to fix that. She’ll have a hologuise to cover her looks up so she won’t cause havoc and break the Prime Directive. I’m also redoing her BPRD reference because it’s just out of date. I’m going to change and add some things too.

So yeah lots going on this month.

About the job thing, I did apply to Target distribution center for a seasonal job, but I haven’t heard anything yet. I really hope they call me. I need to get out of the awful place I’m at. You guys know this.

So anyway, speaking of bad jobs I hate, I should get to bed because I have to open the place tomorrow. But at least I will be opening grill. Grill is the one thing I like doing there.

So goodnight guys, sleep well.

-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] Computer themed doodles
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2012
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Species: Ligress

1. Reason/story behind your fursona's name
I don’t know really, I’ve just always liked the name Sasha. Not sure where it came from, it’s not like I had a childhood friend named Sasha. It just came to me one day.

2. Reasons why your species represents your personality.
I’ve always considered myself very feline. I like to be alone, although at times I do want company, but only on my say so. I love water, I suppose that’s a tiger thing, I hate getting dirty unless it involves art supplies, I love the nighttime, I love to climb things, and I like to run. I also love the unbridled spirit of cats, they do whatever they want when they feel like it. I've also always felt a deep connection with them even at an early age.

3. Any special aspects to your fursona (wings, demon side, ect.)? Are there reasons behind them?
Sasha has two earrings, one is set high and the other low, that was an Egyptian/cartoon cat thing that I always thought was cool. She has a dark ego because I have a darker side too. I often burry it in my overly nice personality and not let it show but after I bottle up bad emotions for too long, I tend to explode. Then, I’m not too nice. There are times I want to ransack a place and upend everything, this is the manifest of Dark Sasha in my story.

4. Is there a stereotype about your fursona's species that holds true to you?
Most cats can’t stand to have their paws dirty, nor can I. like I said unless it’s paint, clay, or etc, I don’t like to have my hands covered in ick. I’m a bit of a germaphobe and I tend to wash my hands too much.

5. If you had to find a more suitable species to be your fursona to better match you as a person, what would it be?
I donno, maybe a goat. I do love to climb things, trees, rocky hillsides, buildings…I don’t eat everything though, including non-edible items. xD

Stolen from  AAARGH <3

I twisted my knee at work and I did a doozy. Somehow I knew when I started working there 6 months ago that I would end up twisting my knee in the freezer, and that I did. I was looking for cinnamon melts because I was doing breakfast pull, I turned around, and before I knew it I fell over the carts stacked up in the corner and onto the floor. I knew right away I had to get out of the freezer. Back there, it’s sound proof, which is why I go back there to scream sometimes when I’m frustrated. So unless someone came looking for me in 20-30 minutes, no one was going to find me back there. [It’s like -11 or colder in the freezer.] So I clawed my way out of the freezer, into the walk in, and out into the storage room where I immediately plopped myself back down and cradled my knee. I was crying pretty hard at that point. I thought well at least out here someone can stumble upon me. I sat there crying for a good minute so I tried calling out to one of the crew and that’s when I saw my manager was walking towards me.

He saw me, and I saw his expression turn on a dime. He grabbed one of the other crew, they both scooped me up and set me in the crew room. They asked what happened, I told them about my birth defect and all that jazz and then they asked if I wanted an ambulance/ and or to go to the ER. I looked at him like “Are you serious?” I wasn’t going to the ER or going in an ambulance just for a twisted knee. There isn’t much they could do about it. The doctor would be like “Yeah, you twisted your knee, here’s this neoprene thing and some painkillers/anti-inflammatory.” I didn’t need to pay $20+ for something I knew what to do about. So I asked for a bag of ice and I sat back there crying because it was swelling already and it hurt like a mother. I don’t remember having one where it hurts so bad to touch it or bend it but yet I can stand putting some weight on it. After being back there for a good 20 minutes, crying my eyes out waiting for the initial pain to subside so I could walk, finish breakfast pull and get out of there. I needed to get home and lie down. So I waited it out, when I felt good enough I clawed out of the back room, finished my job and asked to leave in which it was totally fine with him. I had to tell a bunch of people what happened on my way out. xD

So I came home at about 9:45, took a shower and went back to bed around 10. I’ve been asleep since and I woke up about an hour ago. I’m mad at myself for wasting the day like that. I was looking forward to having a short shift at work and coming home and getting some stuff done. I can still get things done and I can stay up late tonight because I have off tomorrow. Thank god. I don’t have to go in again until Friday afternoon. By then I hope it will be batter, but every time I twist it, it’s different. About the only thing that stays constant is it pops and grinds for at least a week, sometimes more as it resettles and the tendons find their place again.

I should be putting ice on it right now, but I don’t want anything touching it. I’ll try again later tonight. I think the reason why the big bag of ice at work hurt so bad is because it was putting too much pressure on my knee, I really only needed a little quart bag with six ice cubes in it, not a Mcgriddle bag full of ice. xD The only way I can describe the pain is it feel like it’s badly bruised, like I wacked it against something really hard. Most of the pain is coming from the bottom of the kneecap.

So yeah that was my day. :|

I’m going to go make things. I got quite a bit of work done on Sasha’s left handpaw yesterday. I got it about halfway sewn and I was dancing in my fursit last night to test it out so far. I did some filming too and I was going to do some more today after I got home but I can’t dance with a twisted knee. Not for at least a week and that’s with a brace or ace bandage. So there go my plans. xD I can edit the footage I did shoot though and I’ll put that on YT later.

So yeah, how was your day?

Love,

Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Badge for Mizuki
[ ] Skull gift
[ ] handmade soaps for Jasmine

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2011
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Hello guys.

Sorry it’s been so freaking long since I did a journal. I’ve just been so busy with work and what little of my social life I can fit in. last week I worked 55 hours, and this week I worked like 40 some hours. All the kids went back to school so we were stuck with like 7 or 8 people that could come in before 3. Really hard to run a store with so few people. One morning I was up front by myself running from drive thru, to the middle where the warming bins are, to front counter, and back again. Lobby was full, drive thru was backed up all the way out to the road…God that was a bad morning.

Runnin’ the store, LIKE A BOSS.

I really need to get out of that place. It’s taking a toll on my heath. I’m so burnt out from working these long hours until we hire new people, tired from working inconsistent strange hours, and the sheer amount of stress in that place is immeasurable. You got customers yelling at you for stupid shit, managers yelling at you for what have you, and if you’re in the kitchen you’re getting yelled at by the crew to hurry up to get their service times down. After a while you stop caring about times, it gets there when it gets there. Also another one of my good friends left us, left me. :C At least I gave him my cell number so we can still talk to eachother.

So anyway I have the weekend off, which is nice. Sadly I don’t have Monday off, I hope it’s really slow because everyone will be grilling out. Monday is pay day so I’m kind of excited to see how big it is and then I’m going on a Think Geek shopping spree to reward myself for my hard work. xD Also I am really close to getting my own car too. I’m not looking forward to paying insurance, gas, repairs, and stuff but that comes with owning a car.

Anyway enough of the boring ‘real life’ stuff.

I’m planning on going on vacation sometime to like Virginia Beach or something. I need some vacation time. Everyone else has gone on vacation but me. :C

I got some more progress on my fursuit done, it’s not much, just one of her handpaws. I really want to start working more on her bootpaws but I need a saw strong enough to get through the metal screws in the heels. That’s pretty much the only thing holding me back.

Anyway that’s about it. it’s storming pretty bad right now so I suppose I’ll go. Oh real quick before I split, speaking of storms the earthquake that hit the east coast was really strange. I have never encountered quakes before so it was a new experience. I didn’t feel the initial quake that was like a 5.9 but I did feel an aftershock that was at 8 that night and another about a day later at 1 am. I haven’t felt any more since but it was kinda scary to see all my things on my shelves shaking.

Okay storms getting worse, I’m going now. xD

Love,
Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Badge for Mizuki
[ ] Skull gift

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2011
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael/Laar character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

Well I finished my LoT necklace, but unfortunately, my parents took the camera so I can’t show you it’s awesomeness. I guess it will have to wait until next week when they get back. Damn I should buy my own camera…

It’s really freaking hot today here. The thermometer says 97, it’s gotta be at least 75% humidity, possibly 80 or 90%, so you step outside and you sweat. Not even do anything and you’re sweaty. Definitely a day to stay inside. I’m going to have to water the plants after the sun sets, I just can’t be out there right now. So it’s 97 but it feels like 115. :C

I went shopping yesterday for ice cream and other stuff, I got a new hat when I went to Target. It’s the same style as the one I lost but it’s made of denim instead of khaki. I love it just as much if not more as the one I lost. As a bonus, it was on sale too! :Y

I got my necklace from Dreams Designed on Etsy today. I absolutely love it and I can’t wait to show it off. I haven’t taken it off since I got it. Once again I’ll take a picture or two when I get the camera back. Or maybe I’ll go out and buy my own damn camera. xD I’m voting on number two.

So anyway I’m really surprised that with my great grandma being dead, that I haven’t come undone. I told myself a few years ago that when she dies that I’m going to have a hard time letting her go. Maybe that’s it; I’m still in the doubt stage. I have hardly cried at all and I just keep on going with my life. Is that good? With how close I was to her I would have thought the last couple of days would be spent curled up in a ball in my bed crying and or sitting on the couch like a lump eating candy, cookie dough ice cream and watching movies. I don’t know. I feel like I should be crying now but I’m not. I am sad but not horribly depressed my life is on hold sad.

So yeah, I’m going to clean up the huge mess I made making my necklace today. Talk to you guys later.

Love,
Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie
[ ] Badge for Mizuki

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Vash
[ ] ID 2011
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]

So I’ve been a little busy lately, if you haven’t been able to tell. Somehow great grandma is still alive. They put her in the hospice like Sunday/Monday and they took her off water and food but not oxygen. I’m surprised she’s lasted this long, from what I’ve been told, she’s been ‘sleeping’ most of the time and not conscious. She probably won’t make it the week. :c

On a happier note, I got to be in grill today at work. Well most of it, I was on front for like two hours because there was no one else to be on front. Happiest day working I swear. The grill team is so relaxed compared to the front. But then again, the grill does have its stressful times but I’ve found you just have to concentrate on one sandwich at a time. And I got my very own apron today too. I like making food at work. c: First time I’ve come home from work in a good mood. My fingers are burnt from handling hot food, my back hurts from leaning over the table for 7 hours, but I enjoyed it.

I’ve been trying to get some projects done like my Spoiler necklace but family came Monday and stole me away on my only two days I had off this week. :C Then my work schedule has been like back to back. I’m so tired I’m kind of out of it. Like a mindless robot on auto-pilot. I think I got four or four and a half hours of sleep last night. /headdesk

Anyway I hope I get to be in grill tomorrow too. I really enjoyed it. I’m bringing my new apron from now on. So yeah. This summer has been nothing but GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO! Where did the summer go anyway? Anyway I’m still expecting a funeral soon. :c I’ve been so busy at work I haven’t had a lot of time to think about great grandma.

OH, I almost forgot. Dood, guys I’m going to see Harry Potter as soon as I can. I don’t know when yet but I’m shooting for Tuesday or Wednesday. I don’t have very many days off again next week and the schedule’s all funky again, but I’m so excited to go see it. Who else is going?

Well I’m off to bed.
-Sasha

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To Do List:

Gifts:
[ ] Nalice [as Castah] and Sasha in The End of Line Club.
[ ] Care package for Kuroyo19
[ ] Care package for Jinwylie

Projects:
[ ] Colab with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab Meme with Kuroyo19
[ ] Colab story with JewelMistic
[ ] Base collab with Jessi

Personal Projects:
[ ] themed necklaces
-HB
-Spoiler, rip and Black Ace
-Vash
[ ] ID 2011
[ ] Moskau crew fan stamps
[ ] Moskau uniform full references in color
[ ] Moskau ship sketches
[ ] Dr. Y’vael character sketches
[ ] Mirror Sasha full reference and comparison

Contests:
None

Art Trades:
None

Commissions:
Day plushie for Fell--Larka [ I swear I will get this done. Day is just on the backburner for now.]