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Posted 16 years agoMove On
Posted 16 years agoLast night, I got the answer from Andy, my ex, that I'd been dieing to have. He doesnt know if we'll ever be friends again. To me, thats a great answer, because at least it wasnt a no. I didnt expect a yes, either.. but an 'I dont know' really is great because I know we'll be friends again that way. With as close as we were, as much as we enjoyed one anothers compant, with as much as we got eachother.. theres no way a friendship like that can just.. die. I've had worse break-ups before, and over time have been able to patch it up with the dood - we're friends now. So.. I'm glad to know I wont lose somebody who I loved so much completely.
Shit happens, people make mistakes. I made my fair share of mistakes, too. We move on, we change. For now, I need to fix myself in order to properly enjoy my life.. I know that now.
So, that being said! Anybody looking to OC or otherwise draw together, let me know. If you play WoW and would like to hang with me in game, let me know! If you want to chat with me on AIM (and mind you I'm not always the most social person), let me know.
I need friends, people to talk to and spend time with to help me learn who I am, and who I am not. I've spent too much time focusing on other things first. So yeah, poke me..
And thank you to all who have shown me support in the last few months. I'm shocked and pleasantly surprised by how many people really like me.. it makes me feel speacial, and lets me know I'm not alone in a time in my life when I thought I was.
Thank you all so much. <3
Shit happens, people make mistakes. I made my fair share of mistakes, too. We move on, we change. For now, I need to fix myself in order to properly enjoy my life.. I know that now.
So, that being said! Anybody looking to OC or otherwise draw together, let me know. If you play WoW and would like to hang with me in game, let me know! If you want to chat with me on AIM (and mind you I'm not always the most social person), let me know.
I need friends, people to talk to and spend time with to help me learn who I am, and who I am not. I've spent too much time focusing on other things first. So yeah, poke me..
And thank you to all who have shown me support in the last few months. I'm shocked and pleasantly surprised by how many people really like me.. it makes me feel speacial, and lets me know I'm not alone in a time in my life when I thought I was.
Thank you all so much. <3
Close a Door, Open a Window
Posted 16 years agoI've been a mess. As some of you know, I've been having some issues with my now ex boyfriend for a while. It's been rough on my heart, my mind, my everything.
Last Wednesday, while in his car on the way back to my home in Michigan, we got into a heated argument. About what isnt important. Tempers flared, he hot me on the arm, I smacked him telling him to never hit me again, and he punched me in the face. No little love tap. I was hot hard enough that my head hit the passenger side window and I did pass out shortly afterwords, I think from the pain. My eye was already black and blue when I came to a few moments later.
My mother called the police as soon as we got home, and Andy was taken to jail. He spent about 24 hours there before being arrained or what ever. Probation for 6 months.
I'm pretty broken. I've already forgiven him not only for his outbreak of violence, but for the other ways in wich I was treated poorly. I know now that the relationship was never more then a friendship. I know now that I'm not able to have a proper relationship because I dont know who I am or what I want in life. I need to find out those things before I can ever allow myself to love again.
Still, it feels like Im bleeding, my heart is crushed.. I wonder if it's even beating. I'll never be able to talk with him again. Ever. Ever. Ever. It's killing me. I know I did what I was supossed to do, but I'm not sure it was the right thing to do. I never even got to tell him goodbye. I never got to look him in the face one last time. Oh, God, I miss him.
I need to find who I am, so I'm trying hard not to dwell on this. And as much as it hurts, I'm taking this far better then I thought I would. I have true friends and my family to back me up and help me through this. It's going to be hard as hell, but I can and WILL get my life going again.
I need to draw again.
I need to sing again.
I need to love life again.
I need to learn to drive.
I need to look at getting a job.
I need to look at going to school.
I need to live this life I've been lucky enough to have.
Still.. I hope with ALL of my heart that Andy and I can someday be friends again, that we can talk and have fun again. I had so many great times with him, even though things went bad, and I want to have more someday.
But I think he's in the same boat as me. I think he's lost himself some and isnt quite sure where he wants to go in life. I hope the best for him, and pray for him and I iwsh I could do more.. but it's up to him.
Maybe if we'd met when we were both mature, when we both knew who we were and what we wanted and how to get it.. I think then things would have been diffrent. I'm sure of it. But we didnt meet then.. we met now, and I dont question God's workings. We were ment to meet at this time in out lives. Maybe some good is ment to come from this, like I think it is.. like I hope it is. So, even with all this pain I hope it's not in vain.
Please say a prayer for him. Please say a prayer for me.
Last Wednesday, while in his car on the way back to my home in Michigan, we got into a heated argument. About what isnt important. Tempers flared, he hot me on the arm, I smacked him telling him to never hit me again, and he punched me in the face. No little love tap. I was hot hard enough that my head hit the passenger side window and I did pass out shortly afterwords, I think from the pain. My eye was already black and blue when I came to a few moments later.
My mother called the police as soon as we got home, and Andy was taken to jail. He spent about 24 hours there before being arrained or what ever. Probation for 6 months.
I'm pretty broken. I've already forgiven him not only for his outbreak of violence, but for the other ways in wich I was treated poorly. I know now that the relationship was never more then a friendship. I know now that I'm not able to have a proper relationship because I dont know who I am or what I want in life. I need to find out those things before I can ever allow myself to love again.
Still, it feels like Im bleeding, my heart is crushed.. I wonder if it's even beating. I'll never be able to talk with him again. Ever. Ever. Ever. It's killing me. I know I did what I was supossed to do, but I'm not sure it was the right thing to do. I never even got to tell him goodbye. I never got to look him in the face one last time. Oh, God, I miss him.
I need to find who I am, so I'm trying hard not to dwell on this. And as much as it hurts, I'm taking this far better then I thought I would. I have true friends and my family to back me up and help me through this. It's going to be hard as hell, but I can and WILL get my life going again.
I need to draw again.
I need to sing again.
I need to love life again.
I need to learn to drive.
I need to look at getting a job.
I need to look at going to school.
I need to live this life I've been lucky enough to have.
Still.. I hope with ALL of my heart that Andy and I can someday be friends again, that we can talk and have fun again. I had so many great times with him, even though things went bad, and I want to have more someday.
But I think he's in the same boat as me. I think he's lost himself some and isnt quite sure where he wants to go in life. I hope the best for him, and pray for him and I iwsh I could do more.. but it's up to him.
Maybe if we'd met when we were both mature, when we both knew who we were and what we wanted and how to get it.. I think then things would have been diffrent. I'm sure of it. But we didnt meet then.. we met now, and I dont question God's workings. We were ment to meet at this time in out lives. Maybe some good is ment to come from this, like I think it is.. like I hope it is. So, even with all this pain I hope it's not in vain.
Please say a prayer for him. Please say a prayer for me.
Happy Babylon Day!
Posted 16 years agoThe 4th. A day we celebrate a bunch of white slave owners who slave owners who didnt want to have to pay taxes anymore!
America has a long way to come, in my eyes.
Until the philosophy which hold one race superior
And another
Inferior
Is finally
And permanently
Discredited
And abandoned -
Everywhere is war -
Me say war.
That until there no longer
First class and second class citizens of any nation
Until the colour of a mans skin
Is of no more significance than the colour of his eyes -
Me say war.
That until the basic human rights
Are equally guaranteed to all,
Without regard to race -
Dis a war.
That until that day
The dream of lasting peace,
World citizenship
Rule of international morality
Will remain in but a fleeting illusion to be pursued,
But never attained -
Now everywhere is war - war.
And until the ignoble and unhappy regimes
That hold our brothers in angola,
In mozambique,
South africa
Sub-human bondage
Have been toppled,
Utterly destroyed -
Well, everywhere is war -
Me say war.
War in the east,
War in the west,
War up north,
War down south -
War - war -
Rumours of war.
And until that day,
The african continent
Will not know peace,
We africans will fight - we find it necessary -
And we know we shall win
As we are confident
In the victory
Of good over evil -
Good over evil, yeah!
-- Bob Marley, 'War"
America has a long way to come, in my eyes.
Until the philosophy which hold one race superior
And another
Inferior
Is finally
And permanently
Discredited
And abandoned -
Everywhere is war -
Me say war.
That until there no longer
First class and second class citizens of any nation
Until the colour of a mans skin
Is of no more significance than the colour of his eyes -
Me say war.
That until the basic human rights
Are equally guaranteed to all,
Without regard to race -
Dis a war.
That until that day
The dream of lasting peace,
World citizenship
Rule of international morality
Will remain in but a fleeting illusion to be pursued,
But never attained -
Now everywhere is war - war.
And until the ignoble and unhappy regimes
That hold our brothers in angola,
In mozambique,
South africa
Sub-human bondage
Have been toppled,
Utterly destroyed -
Well, everywhere is war -
Me say war.
War in the east,
War in the west,
War up north,
War down south -
War - war -
Rumours of war.
And until that day,
The african continent
Will not know peace,
We africans will fight - we find it necessary -
And we know we shall win
As we are confident
In the victory
Of good over evil -
Good over evil, yeah!
-- Bob Marley, 'War"
Volunteer
Posted 16 years agoI've been accepted to volunteer at the local Mother House, and today was my first day. I worked in the gift shop from 1pm to 4pm, it wasnt bad and I liked it. I priced, tagged, and arranged jewlery around the shop.
Trying to get out more, do more things. Hopefully this will help.
My soundcard is still very dead. It needs new drivers, but I dont know where to look or how to get them on the machine right. Having no sound is a major handicap for me, especialy when it comes to WoW. No raids without being able to hear people shout directions. *sigh* If you think maybe you can help me fix the problem, please let me know. I miss talking on vent with my guild and listening to music.
The boyfriend and I are back together.. for the moment. I'm not really sure if his heart is in it, though he says it is. I fear he's just holding me over till he feels I'm strong enough to deal with a breakup. But I dont know. Maybe it's just my fears talking.
I'd rather not talk about what all led to our getting back together. It's a long and painful story.
He's in DC right now. The community band that he's in is taking some sort of trip there, to preform.. I dont remember what for. His dad plays in the band as well, so both his father and his mother are going along with him. He may be visiting a guildy who lives in the area, wish is cool. I'm kinda jealous. He'll be home, back in Fort Wayne, early Monday morning.
In more WoW news, Ive made a guild. A little BS thing for some of my low level alts. It's called Burning Babylon and is very Bob Marley and Rastafari inspired. If you'd like to join, let me know. It's on Cenarius server.
Anyway. I think thats it for now.
Trying to get out more, do more things. Hopefully this will help.
My soundcard is still very dead. It needs new drivers, but I dont know where to look or how to get them on the machine right. Having no sound is a major handicap for me, especialy when it comes to WoW. No raids without being able to hear people shout directions. *sigh* If you think maybe you can help me fix the problem, please let me know. I miss talking on vent with my guild and listening to music.
The boyfriend and I are back together.. for the moment. I'm not really sure if his heart is in it, though he says it is. I fear he's just holding me over till he feels I'm strong enough to deal with a breakup. But I dont know. Maybe it's just my fears talking.
I'd rather not talk about what all led to our getting back together. It's a long and painful story.
He's in DC right now. The community band that he's in is taking some sort of trip there, to preform.. I dont remember what for. His dad plays in the band as well, so both his father and his mother are going along with him. He may be visiting a guildy who lives in the area, wish is cool. I'm kinda jealous. He'll be home, back in Fort Wayne, early Monday morning.
In more WoW news, Ive made a guild. A little BS thing for some of my low level alts. It's called Burning Babylon and is very Bob Marley and Rastafari inspired. If you'd like to join, let me know. It's on Cenarius server.
Anyway. I think thats it for now.
Now what?
Posted 16 years agoI'm alive.
A good friend called an ambulance, they came and got me. So I'm okay.
I'm still really depressed, but I wont go that far again. I need to get my act together. Please cheer for me. =)
A good friend called an ambulance, they came and got me. So I'm okay.
I'm still really depressed, but I wont go that far again. I need to get my act together. Please cheer for me. =)
It's getting to be too much
Posted 16 years agoIf anybody has any knowlage of supernatural... things... Please, please talk to me.
So, here's the deal!
Posted 16 years agoI know I've been gone for a while, off in my own world and dealing with my own crap. Life is like that sometimes, and I'm not the most social person to begin with.
But things for me are going much better now then they have in years, so I'm happy! I'm getting over my fears and starting to live life for the first time. The next step for me, is to make some money.
Due to issues with me being on my dad's insurance plan, I'm unable to get a job unless I'm in school full time. I dont have the cash for school at the moment, sadly, so I can't go apply for work anywhere and risk loosing the insurance I need to help me pay for medication. Quite a hole I'm in. =P
So, I'm going to start taking commissions again. Whatever amount I can make would be helpful in getting me on my feet - If I can show my dad that I'm serious about getting my act together, he'll help me pay for college. That would help me solve alot of my problems. And I think the best way to show my dad how serious I am is to work hard and make some cash as best I can.. the only way I can, right now.
So! Commissions! I have yet to settle on prices, but I do know that they will all be done in traditional media - paper, pencil, and my Prismacolor Pencils.. maybe even paint if people would like. I feel that would be easier for me in the long run and the art would be higher qaulity as well - I can also mail off the actual image to the commissioner!
With that said, please let me know if you'd be at all interested in purchasing art from me! I'd like to have an idea of what to expect when it comes to volume before I get my hopes too darn high. =P
If you want to contact me, your best bet is to send me a message here on FA, or e-mail me at Kitty_Rosa_Rules[at]yahoo.com . <3
But things for me are going much better now then they have in years, so I'm happy! I'm getting over my fears and starting to live life for the first time. The next step for me, is to make some money.
Due to issues with me being on my dad's insurance plan, I'm unable to get a job unless I'm in school full time. I dont have the cash for school at the moment, sadly, so I can't go apply for work anywhere and risk loosing the insurance I need to help me pay for medication. Quite a hole I'm in. =P
So, I'm going to start taking commissions again. Whatever amount I can make would be helpful in getting me on my feet - If I can show my dad that I'm serious about getting my act together, he'll help me pay for college. That would help me solve alot of my problems. And I think the best way to show my dad how serious I am is to work hard and make some cash as best I can.. the only way I can, right now.
So! Commissions! I have yet to settle on prices, but I do know that they will all be done in traditional media - paper, pencil, and my Prismacolor Pencils.. maybe even paint if people would like. I feel that would be easier for me in the long run and the art would be higher qaulity as well - I can also mail off the actual image to the commissioner!
With that said, please let me know if you'd be at all interested in purchasing art from me! I'd like to have an idea of what to expect when it comes to volume before I get my hopes too darn high. =P
If you want to contact me, your best bet is to send me a message here on FA, or e-mail me at Kitty_Rosa_Rules[at]yahoo.com . <3
Nuuughn..
Posted 16 years agoI'm alive.. but I'd rather be sleeping. Dead sleeping.
Advil PM, here I come!
ZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz...
Advil PM, here I come!
ZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz...
Loque’nahak
Posted 17 years ago..Now that I feel that I am a high enough level to safely tame the rare elite Loque’nahak, I am camping her spawning points. Leveling? Sure. After I get this cat.
Beep beep. Who got the keys to the Jeep?
Posted 17 years agoVvvvvrweeehr.
Happy Xpac Day! Rash of the Itch King it nearly upon us!
Pray for my soul.
Happy Xpac Day! Rash of the Itch King it nearly upon us!
Pray for my soul.
Birthday Fun!
Posted 17 years agoI was born today, yay! *^_^*
I'm at my tank/boyfriend's house for my Bday. Have been here for a bit more then a week. Thanks to Calaver, who was kind enough to bring me out here after he came to visit me for my birthday last weekend. =D But yeah, thats why I havent been around. Like. At all.
But yeah. I've been very excited for today! Not cause I was, like, born today however many years ago, but... today is the Big Patch! The final patch before the new expansion, Rash of the Itch King, comes out for WoW. New talent points, a barber shop, all kinds of new stuff for me to play with. Yay! It's kinda nice it happens on my Bday. What a gift. =D
I'm in a good mood for once, so I'd thought I'd tell you all.. I LOVE YOU MAN. ;_;
<3
I'm at my tank/boyfriend's house for my Bday. Have been here for a bit more then a week. Thanks to Calaver, who was kind enough to bring me out here after he came to visit me for my birthday last weekend. =D But yeah, thats why I havent been around. Like. At all.
But yeah. I've been very excited for today! Not cause I was, like, born today however many years ago, but... today is the Big Patch! The final patch before the new expansion, Rash of the Itch King, comes out for WoW. New talent points, a barber shop, all kinds of new stuff for me to play with. Yay! It's kinda nice it happens on my Bday. What a gift. =D
I'm in a good mood for once, so I'd thought I'd tell you all.. I LOVE YOU MAN. ;_;
<3
WoW Warning #420
Posted 17 years ago..And you thought you'd seen the longest AB ever.
You will be wrong.
You will be wrong.
Uhm, WoW.
Posted 17 years agoGuess who is running Kara for the first time tonight? >D
Squee!
Oh, and I get my surgery on Monday. I'm nervous about that, but I've got tonight's dungeon to take my mind off it for a bit. My sister is also giving me.. stuff to take my mind off it afterwords.
Dont do drugs, kids! Wait till you're eight-teen, first.
Squee!
Oh, and I get my surgery on Monday. I'm nervous about that, but I've got tonight's dungeon to take my mind off it for a bit. My sister is also giving me.. stuff to take my mind off it afterwords.
Dont do drugs, kids! Wait till you're eight-teen, first.
Chosen
Posted 17 years agoWith the help and guidance and advice from all of you who replied to my last journal, I've managed to get through all that.
Talked to Ken about my fears. Turns out I'm not the only one who feels like that, he wants to better himself as well. He said we could do it together, that it would even be fun, and I cant help but feel it would add fuel to the fire of love for us to better ourselves together like that.
Yay for the Couple Excersize Plan!
I feel a bit bad about telling the other man no. I havent been in a situation where more then one person wanted me at a time since High School, and I forgot how it can suck. I'm unused to being desired so. I'll live, though. ^^
Thank you all for being there for me. I may suck at being social, but I really really really really apriciate every one of you. I wonder what I did to deserve such love, but I'm glad I did. Thank you.
Talked to Ken about my fears. Turns out I'm not the only one who feels like that, he wants to better himself as well. He said we could do it together, that it would even be fun, and I cant help but feel it would add fuel to the fire of love for us to better ourselves together like that.
Yay for the Couple Excersize Plan!
I feel a bit bad about telling the other man no. I havent been in a situation where more then one person wanted me at a time since High School, and I forgot how it can suck. I'm unused to being desired so. I'll live, though. ^^
Thank you all for being there for me. I may suck at being social, but I really really really really apriciate every one of you. I wonder what I did to deserve such love, but I'm glad I did. Thank you.
A Song for the Broken Hearted
Posted 17 years agoSo yeah. So much for trying to be more social. Just cant seem to pull my head out of my ass, like dealing with more then 3 people (outside my family) is too fucking hard for me. Maybe I'm lazy.
Single and Not Single. Yeah, taken already. That took, what, one week.. two? I wonder if that makes me a whore. His name is Ken, he's 12 years my senior, and I'm scared to death. He likes skinny girls, and as those of you who have met me know I am not one of those. Other then that, we seem like a great match. So, I'm dieting like a starving child in Africa. /sigh I was planning and working on loosing weight anyhow, but now I feel so rushed..
And yet, there is another person hanging around. I dont know if he's more right for me, but, he at least likes me just the way I am right now. I mean, I sent pictures to him of me in just my fucking underwear, and he thinks I'm the hottest thing since toast. I dont love him, I love Ken, but being accepted like that is enough to make my feelings waver. And I dont like it.
Thus my motivation behind my newest picture.
Thanks for all the faves and comments on it, if I wasnt feeling so dead inside I'd thank each of you more personaly, but, hey. I worked hard on the image, it felt good to get my emotions out somehow. I just hope I didnt fan the flames.
In Other News, the surgery I need is taking forever to get going. The place I wanted to go to, The University of Michigan, doesnt take my dad's insurance. So, it's off to a diffrent hospital, to go through that whole riggamarole again.
Life is so fun, ne? But there is always sunshine sometime after the rain.
Single and Not Single. Yeah, taken already. That took, what, one week.. two? I wonder if that makes me a whore. His name is Ken, he's 12 years my senior, and I'm scared to death. He likes skinny girls, and as those of you who have met me know I am not one of those. Other then that, we seem like a great match. So, I'm dieting like a starving child in Africa. /sigh I was planning and working on loosing weight anyhow, but now I feel so rushed..
And yet, there is another person hanging around. I dont know if he's more right for me, but, he at least likes me just the way I am right now. I mean, I sent pictures to him of me in just my fucking underwear, and he thinks I'm the hottest thing since toast. I dont love him, I love Ken, but being accepted like that is enough to make my feelings waver. And I dont like it.
Thus my motivation behind my newest picture.
Thanks for all the faves and comments on it, if I wasnt feeling so dead inside I'd thank each of you more personaly, but, hey. I worked hard on the image, it felt good to get my emotions out somehow. I just hope I didnt fan the flames.
In Other News, the surgery I need is taking forever to get going. The place I wanted to go to, The University of Michigan, doesnt take my dad's insurance. So, it's off to a diffrent hospital, to go through that whole riggamarole again.
Life is so fun, ne? But there is always sunshine sometime after the rain.
Love, BedBugs, and Open Canvas
Posted 17 years agoI've got bedbugs. I cant sleep at night, since the little bastards crawl all over me and suck my blood. I've been going to sleep at 11am for the past week or so, and sleeping no more then four hours. So.. I'll be up all night, and I think I might OC to waste some of the long hours away. Lemme know if you're interested, and if I dont fall to sleep at the keyboard, we can work something out.
Updates
Posted 17 years agoI've been away for quite a while, and it seems some of you are worried about me. >_>;; I'm alive. I just havent had any desire or ability to draw anything in months. It's one of the worst art-blocks I've ever had. It's got me kinda depressed, along with a few other things.
I require another surgery for an issue that continues to resurface. It's nothing lifethreatning, just very bothersome and painful. I also have bedbugs.. so I havent been able to sleep at night in a week or so, since that's when the little bastards come to bite the piss out of me. I also nearly broke my foot.
All the above have put my summertime diet on hold, wich just adds to my feeling blue.
Calaver and I split up a few weeks ago. It was a mutual thing, and I'm totaly fine with it.. the fire just went out, as it sometimes happens. So yeah, this bitch is single. =P
My only escape recently has been inside World of Warcraft. I've gotten my Night Elf hunter to 67, and my guild (Team Tater - Strikerz, they merged) have been very kind and helpful. Other then chatting on Vent I have been antisocial. Even worse then normal.
So yeah. I'm still alive.. there's just so much shit in the air.
I drew for the first time in a long time last night. New character. I'll see if I can get it scanned sometime soon.
I'm sorry for leaving you all hanging, and I'll try to be a bit more social.
I require another surgery for an issue that continues to resurface. It's nothing lifethreatning, just very bothersome and painful. I also have bedbugs.. so I havent been able to sleep at night in a week or so, since that's when the little bastards come to bite the piss out of me. I also nearly broke my foot.
All the above have put my summertime diet on hold, wich just adds to my feeling blue.
Calaver and I split up a few weeks ago. It was a mutual thing, and I'm totaly fine with it.. the fire just went out, as it sometimes happens. So yeah, this bitch is single. =P
My only escape recently has been inside World of Warcraft. I've gotten my Night Elf hunter to 67, and my guild (Team Tater - Strikerz, they merged) have been very kind and helpful. Other then chatting on Vent I have been antisocial. Even worse then normal.
So yeah. I'm still alive.. there's just so much shit in the air.
I drew for the first time in a long time last night. New character. I'll see if I can get it scanned sometime soon.
I'm sorry for leaving you all hanging, and I'll try to be a bit more social.
Unm, OC?
Posted 17 years agoYeah. My BF and I want to OC. And I want people to come. Cause I want to draw with people who can.. draw. Or think they think they can draw. As opposed to being able to draw and thinking the cant'.. I love you hunny. =D
No. Really. I'm just being dumb.
Sooooooos if you want to draw, leave a comment, and I'll send you the IP.
Only 2 slots avalible, sorry!
No. Really. I'm just being dumb.
Sooooooos if you want to draw, leave a comment, and I'll send you the IP.
Only 2 slots avalible, sorry!
WoW call!
Posted 17 years agoA new WoW call! I'm looking for peoples to play with. My main toons are on Cenarius, but I'm looking to start new toons on new servers that have friendly friends on them. =D Lemme know if you want to play with me. ^^
Cat Advice Needed
Posted 17 years agoI cant sleep. I've been worried about my cat, my daughter, Kitty Rosa.
As you may know, she and I just moved into a one bedroom appartment with her 'daddy',
calaverx11, in Chicago. While this isnt the first time she's lived in an appartment, she seems very bored. Almost depressed. The veiw here isnt very good, as opposed to every other place she's ever lived, and we dont have any other animal 'brothers' or 'sisters' for her to play with, either. ..We wont be able to get her a friend of any kind for a while, sadly.. I said we shouldnt till I find a stable job..
So here is my question: What can I do, for little or do cost, to make my baby's life alittle more exciting?
As you may know, she and I just moved into a one bedroom appartment with her 'daddy',
calaverx11, in Chicago. While this isnt the first time she's lived in an appartment, she seems very bored. Almost depressed. The veiw here isnt very good, as opposed to every other place she's ever lived, and we dont have any other animal 'brothers' or 'sisters' for her to play with, either. ..We wont be able to get her a friend of any kind for a while, sadly.. I said we shouldnt till I find a stable job..So here is my question: What can I do, for little or do cost, to make my baby's life alittle more exciting?
Yay!
Posted 17 years agoI'm moving back to Chicago with calaverx11 today! Hopefully for good! =D We've managed to at last get our own place, so yay! Looks like I'm going to be able to find my ass a job now.. dammit. >_>;;;
Anyway, I'm taking everything really important and needed out there, on this trip. Including my kitty, Rosa! She'll be a city kitty again, since she once lived in Tucson, AZ, with me. I wonder what she'll think when we drive though down town. XD Yes, we;ll be travling by car, but it's okay.. My kitty LOVES car rides. x_x;;
So yeah! Funiture and bigger type stuffs are to co later! ^^
calaverx11 today! Hopefully for good! =D We've managed to at last get our own place, so yay! Looks like I'm going to be able to find my ass a job now.. dammit. >_>;;;Anyway, I'm taking everything really important and needed out there, on this trip. Including my kitty, Rosa! She'll be a city kitty again, since she once lived in Tucson, AZ, with me. I wonder what she'll think when we drive though down town. XD Yes, we;ll be travling by car, but it's okay.. My kitty LOVES car rides. x_x;;
So yeah! Funiture and bigger type stuffs are to co later! ^^
Merry Friggin' CHRIMMIS. =D
Posted 17 years agoYay! Happy funtime! Even though I'm technically an adult at age, 22, Christmas STILL gets me geeked like a 6 year old. XD Albeit, I get geeked for different reasons now. Back, when I was still a kid, I was geeked about gifts, and santa, and singing xmas songs in chior, and the mysteries of Jesus, his birth, his parents, the Magi.. Now, I'm more excited about spending happy time with those I love. I guess that's the difference between childhood xmas and adult xmas. The one thing then and now have in common, other then my general good mood, is the wonder I feel for the nativity scene in general. As some of you know, or may have guessed, I am not "Christian", I do not confine my spiritual beleifs into a religion, a tag, or a name. But still.. It's great to wonder just what did happen on the night of His birth. And, to top it all off.. the History Channel plays the coolest stuff this time of year! Yay! ^^
I want you all to have a happy, gleeful, wonder-filled, nostalgic chrimmis. ^^
I want you all to have a happy, gleeful, wonder-filled, nostalgic chrimmis. ^^
Dood. Seriously.
Posted 17 years agoSeriously. Dood.
..Very yes.
..Very yes.
Over it.
Posted 17 years agoYeah. Sorry for the drama the other night. That was the result of a bunch of things building up inside me, and the littlest annoyance being a breaking point for me. Coupled with not taking certain medication correctly, and a nasty cold.. yeah. Again, I'm sorry.
At the same time, perhaps it needed to happen. Perhaps thats what it needed to take for me to realize that Carnak, who is supposed to be me.. isnt. I wont kill her, for I do still love her.. but.. I think I'll be changing her a bit in the time to come. At least, her personality. Plus, I'll be continuing to develop my pink, orange, and yellow girl too, and draw more of my older characters.
I want to appologize once more, and let you know I'm over it.
Also, I wanted to let you all know that I'm going to try to be more social.. Oc more, comment more, just chat more with my friends and fans. I'm a really shy person, so I tend to hide.. even from those I know. I'll do my best not to anymore.. your support in this would be fantastic. ^^;
At the same time, perhaps it needed to happen. Perhaps thats what it needed to take for me to realize that Carnak, who is supposed to be me.. isnt. I wont kill her, for I do still love her.. but.. I think I'll be changing her a bit in the time to come. At least, her personality. Plus, I'll be continuing to develop my pink, orange, and yellow girl too, and draw more of my older characters.
I want to appologize once more, and let you know I'm over it.
Also, I wanted to let you all know that I'm going to try to be more social.. Oc more, comment more, just chat more with my friends and fans. I'm a really shy person, so I tend to hide.. even from those I know. I'll do my best not to anymore.. your support in this would be fantastic. ^^;
