Just don't like the silence and don't like that I'm gaining nothing from this, I hate the lack of anything really and I've been doing this for myself for so long that the tanks just ran empty, There's people that just join that immediately eclipse me and they get loads of support, Got friends that open for coms and they instantly fill up but when I open for coms I get like 5 messages and never hear back from them.

Honestly I don't know why I stick around cause I'm clearly not wanted around

Worst part in all this is that some people blame the comic and told me to quit, I've always wanted to do a comic since I was 17 and when my dad died it hit me back then that I was nearly 30 and I hadn't even attempted to make a comic all I had was characters with no usage and bios that made them seem like heroes and villains. When I told the people that told me to quit the comics this however they still told me to quit the comic and it just hurt more.

So I got art that gets no traction
I open for coms and stay empty
I start a comic with my characters that nobody cares about
a reason for doing it all which people were assholes about
and I get eclipsed by the newest of people that join

So why should I keep going?

So with Saints and Sinners chapter 2 I have sketched pages 13-16, the Problem is 16 is the good path/bad end page and I don't know how to progress so I am just going to take a break from it until I talk about the bad end.

I could do the good path but whats the fun in that if the Bad end isnt done first XD

anyways what to do now I dunno

https://strawpoll.com/XmZRQvMKWgd heres a poll I just cant decide XD

thats all the pages uploaded shockingly (wasnt expecting that last one to be done so soon but it was already sketched out) so uh guess I shall be doing the characters now.

I have sketched from page 6-page 12+1 bad end

what I will be doing is finish them off and and upload them one at a time, got the final changes shading and speech bubbles to do but its something

its my bday and im 34 nuuuuuu

Fuuuuuuck im gonna be old DX

https://x.com/Trybat1/status/1937309033867645137 poll is here so vote on it XD

you may be wondering why no night-bat continuation? its at a good place for now tbf lets give other things time to breath

you may also be wondering "wheres the cowboy comic continuation that won the last poll" well its sketched out (down to the bad end at least) and I need to do the Good path continuation but cant really post anything (or really shade it) till its checked by squashedflat whos currently on vacation (its a self imposed wait by me cause it's squashed character I used and I need to make sure it's in character/looks good) and I cant dedicate to the shading as thats the last bit I do

Why no flattening trope option? well despite it being a while since I did one between 3 and 4 (a whole year nearly) its still to soon to do a 5 and it was a big dedication when doing them so thats a break, tell you what I'll make some monster girls for halloween and use them for a flattening trope so 5 will be monster girls maybe

I know the other options are either new comic or a continuation of an older comic but I feel like those are pretty explanatory (tho it would make more sense to do one last rather than first)

Break from comics/Fan art just means I'll do other things fan art could be game art anime art or even friends characters art who knows just whatever comes to mind.

https://x.com/Trybat1/status/1933717881650639096

We got 4 comics I could begin or continue here

One is the detective noir Part 2 Beginning

One is the cowboy Part 2 Continuation

One is the titanic Beginning (yes I went there)

One is a Nazi Sheep (She's clearly the bad guy dont worry I havent gone nazi fur on you)

I forgot I had started this series and the last one a year ago June 10th woof

so whats this one gonna be? eh if your in carbs group you probably got a hint already but "wrong password" is what its called

The reopened up trauma thing is still blasting me so motivation is in the ground so wont be drawing much till I get that drive back (usually time away or excited to draw one thing that struck me usually aids in it) but yeah I have done the Night-bat Chapter up to a comfortable break point so I can just step away and leave it on something you guys would like

So what will I do during my break from night-bat? well go back to the Cowboy comic cause I left that at the beginning and should probs continue to its stopping point

I can also do other things like commissions but first things first I gotta just recover for a bit

So over the next few days I'll upload Night-bats newest pages one page at a time.

The reopened up trauma thing is still blasting me so motivation is in the ground so wont be drawing much till I get that drive back (usually time away or excited to draw one thing that struck me usually aids in it) but yeah I have done the Night-bat Chapter up to a comfortable break point so I can just step away and leave it on something you guys would like

So what will I do during my break from night-bat? well go back to the Cowboy comic cause I left that at the beginning and should probs continue to its stopping point

I can also do other things like commissions but first things first I gotta just recover for a bit

So over the next few days I'll upload Night-bats newest pages one page at a time.

long story short someone made me relive my trauma and just didnt care that they did, the trauma was an event that had me close to just ending myself and they made no effort to apologise or even care, all they cared about was that they got what they wanted

what the fuck man I cant deal with this

I've had my break and smaller set ups and character designing hell one of those was rarely going to get used in the comic (however it did give some good practise for Poly)

So anyways yea back to the comic I got like 2 more pages to sketch out then I can start uploading them here

Poll to decide on the next thing I do

https://x.com/Trybat1/status/1924559377463132351

just vote there

weirdly enough I have gone through the weirdest of weekends starting on friday to now I just keep getting reminded that if I were to disappear nobody would miss me because people dont even remember me. Was talking to a friend about something and it ended up bringing up a mutual but then that mutual posted a thing on twitter about friends they can remember and I wasnt on the list so at that point it was like "lol make jokes" however that was last night not friday, had some IRL events happened where I came across from my members of my family that I was just forgotten and one of them even chimed in with what happened on friday makes me an abuse victim it was something I shouldnt have to go through, I havent been called a victim in over 15 years so something I didnt think to much about and something I made jokes about has just combined into "oh shit this might actually be serious maybe I am just forgettable and nobody cares" so I dont know where to go from here

honestly what do I do?

the original journal of me venting is here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#jid:11117270

the update however i was right they are gone like everywhere they just up and left again so I was 100% right not to trust the scumbag

if you want a hint their sona was a lion

So I wrote myself into a corner so I need to fix that with something comic related but its technically a fun thing for me, which is a new character hurray, after that I may do something else we'll put it to a vote XD

anyways comic progress
Page 7A: Uploaded
Page 8A: Uploaded
Page 9A: Uploaded
Page 10A: Done
Page 11A: Done
Page 12A: Done
Page 13A: Panelled out needs drawing properly
Page 14A: Panelled out but needs more planning
-nothing else planned but needs more-

so I know everyone just dumped their art since the place came back up but I think it will be better to just slowly put my pieces out rather than a huge bulk of it so I'll space the uploads out a bit

So I have been working on Night-bat and have yet to post the done pages (cause of here being down) so heres what I got
Page 7A: Done
Page 8A: Done
Page 9A: Done
Page 10A: Done
Page 11A: Done
Page 12A: Panelled out needs drawing properly
Page 13A: Panelled out needs drawing properly
Page 14A: Panelled out but needs more planning
-nothing else planned but needs more-

so yea I was gonna do something in secret and also do a poll to see what people wanted to see but after doing the "something in secret" part its resulted in a very one sided decision so I guess I'll be working on that straight away

Now to prep

well we got an updated reference to do and then maybe a fan pic of something or coms if someone wants a com, then back to night-bat XD

And before anyone thinks im beefing with a particular artist no its not that one this ones got a feline persona

Its been 10 years dude you’ve done this so much that you coming back again like nothing happened just pissed me off you, talk for like a week make all these big promises and never follow up on them because you just leave for a full year. You said you were going to fix stuff and that “your actions will speak louder than words” but your past actions proved your quieter than the words you yap, I don’t understand why you thought drawing a pic of my bat would fix things because that was never how you were going to fix things with everyone infact drawing my bat proved you werent going to fix things but stay the exact same, why would gift art prove they were incapable of change? Well I showed a few people the gift art and they all said the same shit “thats not trish” then I find out thats a common thing with you, you take the person’s character and you ignore everything that makes that character that character hell my bats one of two things petite with glasses and some booty or mega hourglass and you somehow did neither how can you miss that hell even the hair was wrong. If your just going to throw something out quick like that and ignore everything about the character in the process you had no intentions to fix things you were hoping for a quick forgiveness and from what I heard and also saw you do that to other peoples characters not just mine.

You could have drawn me a thousand gift pics and I still would not trust you, Why? Cause you did this last year and the year before that and the year before that before you just disappeared it could have been a day a week a month the next 5 minutes you could just be gone and left everyone to be ignored for months and I dont want to be involved with that cause you just act like nothing happened every single time. You messaging me out of the blue after my last message to you said “I dont want to do this anymore, dont message me” that was sent july last year and you not only ignored it you messaged as if when I opened the dm that wasnt going to be the message above yours like dude come on

Also dude you blocked me and kicked me from your dead group yourself just because I said I wasnt going to block you but instead just ignore whenever you messaged me because I didn’t want to deal with you and you could also see how it felt. It would have been better if you just stayed gone because nobody trusts you and we’re just expecting you to leave

To anyone that’s probably gonna be mad at me for this and comment that your mad at me for this HE’S DONE THIS FOR 10 YEARS I DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH HIS SHIT ANYMORE AND HE’LL BE GONE SOON ANYWAYS I DONT CARE IF HE DREW ME GIFT ART IT WASNT AN APOLOGY IT IRONICALLY PROVED HE NEVER CHANGED

https://x.com/Trybat1/status/1913042956325388781

I should probs dedicate my time to one comic so what do you prefer?

Saints and Sinners Chapter 2 with Joe

Night-bat continuation where we follow the body snatcher or the squirrel

What comic do I focus on? the result of night-bat that I kept to myself? (chase the squirrel or follow the body snatcher) or continue on with the possum comic?

I will be taking a small comic break but we'll see how it goes, commissions and other arts will still be going tho so if you want a com gimme a message XD