I left Texas last September from my second family selling their house; to be honest it never felt like a home. I've come back to Ohio to live with my ex and try being a dad again which is absolutely not a chance most anyone gets. I've put forth so much effort into being a positive presence in other people's lives but when it's just me I feel silent and stuck in this waiting mode. Just waiting for someone to need me, to feel wanted and valued. I don't write much and I know that putting my thoughts here is always safe. I really don't feel like living for myself anymore so I'll live for these kids and do everything I can to right the wrongs of my generational trauma.

It's said that the Year of the Snake brings wisdom, transformation, calmness, and tranquility. For so many years, I kept on trying to put myself into other groups and hope enough people would start liking me so I'd fit in. Now, as I approach 40 and feel the reality of mortality sinking in I have come to accept that was never going to happen. In this life, there are those that are center stage and others who work behind the curtain. I've been a supporting role for the lives of others for so many years now, not as the main character of my story but a presence in theirs. Funny enough, there are a select one or two that believe I don't have any self preservation and they're right. I'm safe from myself because I won't be the one to take me away from another, but when that time comes in any form I will greet that light as an old friend.

Just keep going forward.

So what usually kept me from going absolutely insane before was that I had 33 to look forward to. That was supposedly the widespread agreed upon age that a person is the happiest. Still young enough to do stuff you want, but wise enough to know best. Now, it's here. This is it... I'm in an absolute mental panic! I've been living in Texas and working as a manager, relying on my banked savings rather than my income. Now I feel like I don't even know the world I live in anymore. Stan Lee has passed away, I'm having to take alot more care of my body than ever just to stay functioning, and it seems to be all downhill from here. I hope that I'm wrong.

I feel like every year I go thru the same things, and yet this passed year I didn't even give my usual attempts at journals anywhere. It's all Facebook and various social medias. My uncle is not rising from his grave, yet I still feel like I want to make a good impression for him. I live in Texas now, which is a big move from Ohio, and I have to say I don't regret it at all. Regardless if I was paid decently back north, I was at a dead end job that would've had me doing the same things for the rest of my life. Being here is purposely keeping me outside my comfort zone and that is the only way I'm going to grow as a person.

I've been trying to play the game, because everyone that I used to play WoW with is gone and I'm crying with how lonely the game is now, but I am constantly hit with blatent toxicity. Taunts of kill yourself, get cancer, cunt, and other uncalled for slander with not one person actually willing to offer some remote form of helpful advice. I can't enjoy any game I play and yet there's nothing else for me to do. FF14 won't download, no one plays WoW anymore, I'm just going insane with boredom.

I found out last night that my mother lost her battle with cancer. I lost my uncle earlier this year to it as well. What has 2016 done right?!

Yep, here's where I make a journal because it's late at night. Halloween is over without anything happening and I am now a year older. Nothing really to say, as per usual, but I keep on putting journal entries here and there. Thank you to my friends who check this out and show your interest in my mental well being. I am grateful that you are part of my life, even when I lose my temper.

It's been awhile since I've made a journal. Oh well. So this went up on the Nostalrius forums.

http://forum.nostalrius.org/viewtop.....=2&t=44399

This is it, right here. Nostalrius has thrown the gauntlet and making the fans of Warcraft know that there will be a legacy server for them to play on. It is all on Blizzard whether they wish to capitalize or not. I didn't have the means to play World of Warcraft until the very end of Wrath of the Lich King, but believe when I say that I am a huge fan of WoW and would adore the chance to see the glory days of the game!

So yes, I saw the movie and I thought it was an acceptable movie adaptation of the story. I was entertained so worth the trip and even the $5 Mountain Dew lol! Does anyone want my code for the game? Post below

Well here it is, the big 3-0. I am no longer the 20 something man I used to be. I'm in an entirely new tier of decade. Death comes, but I do not take it lightly. I won't just accept that my mortal being must one day expire. I've still got some good years left and I yearn desperately to make them count.

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ref=nav_search

Please support an amazing Hanna-Barbara release done by two brothers from Montreal. If you watched this as a kid, bring back some good cartoons so that your kids can enjoy! If not, I insist you go watch it. Honestly Mark Hammil was in it, this 2 season show was amazing!

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ref=nav_search

I will be honest with you all, I didn't know the name from a hole in the ground. It's when I heard his voice that it all came crashing down on me.
Rest well sir, be at peace in the after life.

http://www.cartoonbrew.com/rip/stan.....88-111276.html

I didn't want to do a journal on the beginning of April just to make sure that no one could take it as a prank. The YouTube channel is going well, 18 subscribers with retweets of the channel coming from the Skyrim Reddit and Amazon.com so far. I'm very happy with how things are turning out and I want to do even more. There's a good chance I'll start doing some more classic games as a Twitch.tv stream and if that happens I'll link my channel here. Be on the lookout for some amazing games like Fallout 3 and Metal Gear series. The fun has just begun!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCi.....Ms1LYopsc-ny6Q is the link. I'm doing let's plays and whatever else sounds fun and exciting! Please give it a look, a like, a share, whatever you can and I appreciate your time!

I'm rather delighted that there are so many talented minds out there that create such wonderful and whimsical characters. There are even those that believe that some of their own creations are so deserving that they will give up the rights to the image they themselves have created so that it might be enjoyed by others. I am very appreciative of character auctions and how the rules are so simple that most anyone can understand them outright.

Now for the kicker..

I do not like logging in to find that a character has been put up for auction and almost immediately gets bought out with an autobuy plan. If you are going to have something up for an auction, then allow time for others to discover it and have an option to put in. If you are going to outright sell a character, put it up for sale and give it to the first one who has the money on hand to pay you immediately. Should you decide to put a money cap on your creation, I suggest allowing at least an hour if not a day pass before permitting an autobuy to commence. Honestly, there are many people with money just looking for the right inspiration to support.

Your read is greatly appreciated, but I'll not accept hate or negativity in the comments. I stayed polite and civil, you should too.

I'm looking to attend Furlaxation in Columbus next month, just wanting to know if anyfur out there has room to spot a rather casual dragon who only seeks a bed and occasional snacks ^.=.^

Enough said

For those of you out there who are mothers, be it in character or in real life, I wish you all a Happy Mother's Day. For those who haven't accomplished this goal in life, I'll be in the back with a bottle of wine and some smooth jazz hehe.

With the idea of a character auction, what all do you expect to get out of the deal? Artwork, ref sheets, previous story/ RP files? Or is it enough just to have the rights to an idea?

Today is history. I am going to give up all my card games and quit everything but WoW and Pokemon. I've spent too much of my life enveloped in video games and cards that I'm finding myself at almost 30 and with nothing to show for it. I recommend that everyone else find new purpose in their life and actually get out into the world, don't live life according to FB or updates on Tumblr. Get outside, remember what it's like to be a kid and just go play.

I'm super excited to see that  xpray is nearing completion of his latest comic. He's an amazing artist who has done a lot of good for the furry community with his amazing art style. Please make sure you are watching him and show your support for amazing artwork. Also, shark tits!

So as it's been a few months since I've posted anything, I'll give it a shot. The job at children's hospital has been going well. I find that most everyone who has a problem with it are those that are day shift and it apparently is non-stop during the morning until after lunch. I've been making a lot of shiny dragons in Pokemon Y and trading off near perfect Deino through wonder trades. It's been around 6 months since Xpray released his last teaser page for Last Survivor ep2 and I'm impatiently waiting to see that come to fruition. I feel a lot better about myself since I've been allowed to regrow my goatee, it's just something I've always seen as a part of me and working at McDumbass prevented me from having it. Also I'd like to toss out that McD I worked at has been having trouble keeping people since I left, so much satisfaction! I think that's enough, thanks to all who read this.

It's Christmas Eve as you're very aware. I just want to wish you and yours a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

After nearly 4 years of working at McDonalds, I've left it for good. I now work in the cafeteria for Cincinnati Children's Hospital. I've done my orientations and tonight will be day 2 of my career there. It really doesn't feel like work yet, I actually have jobs that get done rather than getting by for the next person to take over and complain about such. I truly feel like I'm starting to make a difference in my life.

To those who follow me, I'd like to thank you for reading this and feel free to comment on what you'd like to see of this dragon ^.=.^