Due to my home life and my parents, I can't do commissions right now. I'm scared of what my parents would do if they saw me on a furry site right now. I'm so so sorry everyone. I won't be here as often anymore.... I'm so so sorry.

I'm so freaking infatuated with this pokemon! Salazzle OC incoming!

Salazzle is 100% my favorite pokemon of this generation. She's strong, fast, s̶e̶x̶y̶ unique to typing! I LOVE HER! Still might be a tie between her and Noivern though.

Ask me anything and I will respond with a blatant lie!

She's having suicidal thoughts after a breakup, but i can't handle that. Maybe one of you can. Please http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7936008/

Things will be delayed because of holidays. I'll pick up on Tuesday of text week. Sorry about that! I can't control all of what's going in my life right now.

You know, if there was a song that embodied my current mental state, it'd be this one. https://t.co/Caj1C2OE6M every note means so much. From the manic guitar amongst the calm collected nature to the slow rhythmic beat. The spurts of happy interments and the overall flow. It's melloncholly, with spits of madness and happiness. I've never felt more connected to beats and notes before.

Today Im a birthday barret!

I went to counseling today really scared about mentioning me as a femboy, I was scared she'd think it was a problem. So, I explained how i felt about everything, about how much emotional pain I've been in, my depression and anxiety problems and about dressing up how i want to. She didn’t have a problem with it. She did want to make sure I was showing what’s inside with how I dress instead of letting my dressing up define me. But overall things went well. She’s gonna try to find someone that isn’t her to help with me talking to my parents about this because she doesn’t feel qualified for that, and I respect that a lot. She said that she can’t make my parents feel a way, and despite what she says they can still punish me for things but an authority figure will help. She’s gonna help me find someone more specialized in what I’m dealing with to help me, which is awesome. And overall, I’m gonna make it through. Even with all of this, I probably won’t even be able to fully be myself at home, (Obviously i don’t want to wear a skirt and leggings everyday ), but enough to where I can make it through as long as I live here. I’ll be able to make it, it will still hurt for a long time, but I have so much more hope now. Everything is gonna be getting better. Aria is one step closer to being shown in my personality. Today has been massive and I’m so happy that she doesn’t think this is a bad thing. I was extremely scared about that, but it was apparently unwarranted. I’m so much closer, and I know I can’t make my parents accept something like that, but maybe this will all help so I at least don’t get punished for being myself. They might never accept this, ever. But maybe they’ll learn to tolerate it. And I think I’m ok with this. I love my parents, I just hope they understand that with all the eventually happening.

Anxiety attack are becoming more and more common and I'm starting to feel true depression. I can't be myself around my parents and it's taking a mental tole. This has been going on for years and steadily getting worse and a lot worse sense I got hit by that truck. I can't even dress slightly girl around my parents or they freak out, and I've been denying that side of myself for 5 years because of them. I won't be able to hold out here for another year assuming i even move out the day i turn 18, that's 367 days that i can't handle unless my counselor pulls out something for me. So, on Tuesday I see my counselor, and I'm going to bring up my femboy side. I've mentioned my parents don't accept my girly side but I never went into detail. 2 things can happen from their. Either she think that it's a bad thing and tries to get me to stop and that would just kill me mentally.... or she think it's ok and I can bring in my parents to talk to them wither her. Hope and pray..... that's all we can do. This is tearing me apart. Lacy (My girlfriend) painted my nails the other day and I cried. I felt whole look at them, I cried because I felt like myself, I was content with who I was. And my parents made me wash it off because it's "to feminine" and guys can't be that apparently... I felt my soul tear, this was so painful i don't really feel anything right now other than an ache in my chest....

I have fun doing fancy things with my FA page and I want to know if anyone else would like it done to theirs. It'd be PWYW with the option of free. If you'd like something done to your page, let me know! Take my page as an example, but I can do whatever you want to it. You don't have to give me access to your account or anything. I'll just give you the text of the profile page that you can copy paste in. If you'd like one, comment or note me please! Thank you, have a great day! 💜

Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/catsnakebat/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21693517/

Account showing progress https://www.furaffinity.net/user/pr.....ssion-account/

It's on the 16th and that's really weird to think about to me. Not sure why, but it is.

Can someone tell me why my shouts are so small? They don't even take of a 4th of my screen on my end.

im sorry im white imsorry im mostly straight im sorry ive caused you pain by existing i didnt mean to im sorry your life is worse being i exist i didnt mean to be born with my skin color or sexuality i dont mean to hurt you i really dont want to hurt anyone

Over the past few weeks, It's been more common. It's just been depressive feelsing in the past, now it's... more common, I'm scared, after today at home and tonight's election..... with how mmy head has been. What the fuck brain. What the fuck is wrong with me.

I'm screwed now. Cool.

I'm gonna start exercising and taking care of my body more. I'm 114 and 6.1, that's not good. I want to get to 125 and keep it around there. I'm gonna have the body I want and be the best femboy I can be 💜💜💜 Now I just have to wait until I move out so I can actually wear what I want... But I'll be ready when I can!

Oh yeah, my birthday is on the 16th.... that's in 14 days, that's always weird to think about.

A funny YCH from a great artist http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21610557/

It's getting harder and harder to keep up my mood after the truck hit me. Thankfully I have friends and more importantly, I have Lacy. I'm alive, but it's hard to keep up happiness when you get hurt that bad. Being in a car is so stressful I'm fighting on an anxiety attack the whole time, god forbid try to drive. It's mentally draining every time i have to go anywhere, I've fallen behind in school because of all of this and I might fail biology. I'm just..... It's hard to find motivation to do anything.

Sense being hit, my mental health has been almost as bad as my physical if not worse. I already have ACTUAL anxiety, and this isn't helping. I feel like a burden and I feel helpless, I know this burden part isn't true but it's still in my head and I can't get it out. Also I can keep hearing Lacy's screams from after we got hit... It's mentally draining and I have a lot less motivation to do anything and I'm a lot more easily irritated. I'm not mentally well, and not being able to walk isn't helping that.

Spooky

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7876127/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7876127/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7876127/

So, me and my girlfriend were hit by a pickup truck while walking across the street. Almost all the way across, Lacy screams "Oh sh-" and then screams a sound that is haunting me..... I got hit by the truck head on, and i was between the truck and Lacy. Lacy has a broken whrist but is fine everywhere else. I didn't have anything break by I'm messed up pretty bad. We're probobly gonna sue the city and get as much as we can from the issurance settlement too. So, sorry about the inactiviity the last few days. That's why :/

If you guys want to see me, I'd be glad to meet up with any of you! I'll be purple haired and all femmed up for the con <3 Let me know if any of you would like to meet up. My telegram is GaleAria if you want to try and plan something!