i miss everyone on here.. life has been shitty recently.. ah also i made a new tumblr http://badgatto.tumblr.com/ i post my drawings there now and not really anywhere else
im kinda getting ready right now for uni interviews so hopefully if everything goes well for the next 3 years ill be down in cornwall at falmouth fine art and having a good time and being happy
i hope everyones really good, i miss you guys

the problem is that im terrified!!! i got scared and sad and kept breaking down because of the internet and social stress i miss you guys
http://sta.sh/2zmuv84jqfc?edit=1 hey heres some stuff... from my october folder except with most of the jojo fan art taken out, i miss you and im awful and im sorry

faster than the eye can see

ive been doing nothing but drawing jjba fanart recently!!! its terrible!!!

new art blog HERE

http://g4tt0.tumblr.com
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starting over again feels good. im trying to get out of a cycle of hating myself and everything i do

goin back to my roots
http://cosmogatto.deviantart.com/

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.livestream.com/catboygenius

cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wasnt sure whether id be able to get a new computer for my bday but it happened and its perfect!! just now i tested out streaming w livestream procaster and its all working fine! exciting huh...!!!
you can all listen to my really good taste in music while you watch me drawing does that sound good to you guys or what...

Basic

Name: embarrassing welsh name
Nickname: gatto
Location: wales
Age: 17
Height:????????????????????????????? medium
Zodiac sign: leo
Any pets: 2 cats and a dog
Favorite thing about yourself: i brush my teeth 2 times a day
Worst habit: it takes me a few weeks to finish a single anime but as well im isolated and unsociable
Fun fact:

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: agender
Sexual preference: pansexual
Romantic preference: panromantic
"Kinsey Scale" score: not sure
Relationship status: tfw no gf
Myers/Briggs type: infp apparently which is the same as deanna troi? but i dont relatew to her
Hogwarts house: hufflepuff

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": night owl i dont actually work until everyone is in bed and the house is quiet
Bath or shower: shower
First thought in the morning: honestly nothing. i used to get angry at myself for waking up late every daybut now i dont mind
Last thought before falling asleep at night: man im gonna be so productive in the morning!!! but i never am.

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: student
What do you do well: essays but only if i care about what i have to write... i cant be detached
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: doing my art degree... i really hope..


Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: no
Smoke: no
Do Drugs: o nly people who have irl friends do drugs
Exercise: absolutely disgusting
Have a go-to comfort food: i feel more comfortable if i go for a while without eating... not sure
Have a nervous habit: bite all the skin around my nails... also my mouth... everything bleeds quite a lot and its annoying...

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): gatto hair. but it would be nice if it was more curly
In Others: love peoples hands... also backs are nice.. ankles are good also eyes
Mental/emotional quality(in yourself): my limitless fucking astounding amounts of charm and charisma
Food: fish is good
Drink: coffee we calculated how much coffee you would have to drink to kill or seriously hurt yourself once
Animal: cats are the best
Artist: jean michel basquiat.. keith haring.. secretly i like damien hirst also... i need to find more women artists actually
Band/Group: devo and talking heads obviously!!! merril garbus of tune-yards is my idol also
Author/Poet: asimov is my top fav but frank herbert is a close second...
TV Show: star trek and the a-team and red dwarf and like.. i dont even know what else. gundam is amazing
Actor/Actress: i honestly dont care usually but i love dwight schultz a lot........

oh my god you guys have no idea how much iw anna do stream s where people request stuff you have NO IDEA if i wasnt restricted by how near death my laptop is id do a stream every night/whatever time itd be in everyones timezones

whatever like im so so embarrassed about drawing in front of people in real life but over the internet i feel like... damn thatd be so much fun

my anime playlist is better than your anime playlist

i didnt have it in me to get out of bed this mornignand when i went back to sleep i had a nightmare that someone stole my food... i got angry and beat them up
like........... every dream i have is either something like tthat or me getting a datemate of some kind i think my priorities are very clear

ive been vaguely annoyed recently because my friends are ignoring me. its not a big thing though so i dont have a reason to actually shout at them but i end up doing all these stupid things to try and make them pay attention even though they cant take 5 minutes out of a video game to talk to me

ive been worried about college, im going to art foundation next year
ive been excited about it for months i wanted to skip my holidays so that i could go there straight away but now that ive had so many weeks to start feeling afraid about it... my friends from school will be there mostly but im just worried.. im so worried

my entire time in primary school and secondary school was just horrible on account of me being autistic... difficult to make friends and i ended up being on the outside all the time... i have a kind of chronic shame and embarrassment whenever i go outside and ive been staying indoors all through the holiday..

a good thing though is that the counsellor there wrote her entire paper on gender dysphoria and im really excited and scared and lucky to be able to have her there next year... my friend says shes lovely.. in the mean time a counsellor from camhs, the old place that did more harm than good actually sent me a letter asking if i wanted to see her... she is also a gender specialist, despite the last guy i saw there saying that there are no gender specialists in north wales

i dont know.. ive been feeling worse and worse about my body over the course of a few years.. its always been difficult to control and awkward and now i know why and im honestly just hoping i get some surgery before i try to diy it

i should go back to shitposting in journals instead im sorry

HEY florams doing some super good commissions and you should get one i think like... how can you resist this adorable style... aaa

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13964862/

my alternate fursona is a praying mantis.....................................................

does anyone have any theories ? i have this with musicians more than visual artists and i dont tknow why.... i can love someones sculpture or art without loving the person who made it (with maybe some exceptiomns) but i have a lot of crushes on musicians and im not gonna list them cause im embarrassed but nearly everyone whose music ive been listening to recently ive felt some kinda degree of affection towards (as a person)

http://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/al...../self-titled-3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rONasb9H24Y

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxcuaLkIpmo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQFhVAVI5cw

missed one http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Owm7GUhogk

also http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwsT.....4552D833E1987F

sorry i just keep updating this as stuff turns up http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxaHF_U-nqs

i unironically enjoyed the film bitter lake

my art is so all over the place i dont have a cohesive style anymore and its really annoying me!

alright well last year i did nanowrimo and wrote 51k words about catstronauts before getting really embarrassed about how bad my writing was and forgetting about it until recently ive been going through a thing where i cant stop thinking about writing a sequel
i wrote down some descriptions of the characters the other day

-lacky (lucy/lacy) - siamese/oriental girl cat, probably agender, very cold and unfriendly, doesnt like human (in this context animal) contact much at all but gets lonely so shes caught being prickly and alone. she eventually implants robotic parts into herself and becomes even more cold and rational

-cyclops/cyclops v2 - robot that lacky made. tall and lanky, ‘speaks’ using a variation of morse code (beeps/chirps)

-cat (ivan) - mog boy cat, kind of boring, he spent the whole of those 50k words whining about how he messed up his friendship/relationship with lacky

-felix - trans guy russian blue cat, sorta chubby and really obnoxiously friendly and happy all the time about everything, hes a technician at the cosmodrome

-rats - tough and muscly trans girl bull terrier, quiet almost all of the time but she sometimes gets into really scary rages, shes the ‘leader’ type thing (im not sure what you would call her) of their group when they go into space on the stella



dear princess celestia im so alone

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nobody k nows how they even got onto the ship in the first place
they are terrible at maths and sciences but you know. theyre enthusiastic enough that they try hard to learn enough
for now they have a week long adjustment period to the faux gravity, nobody does much work except for ship maintenance as it is docked to the first space station check point before the warp jump border

so essentially gatto gets under everyones feet/is constantly in the way as they surreptitiously try to bump into the captain and various other officers that they have heart-eyes for

for now they are in charge of a small ant colony and an aquatic life experiment (they have to feed the ants and the goldfish)