Meeeeeh, my head hurts. x.x

And I'm still so tired... but I really shouldn't sleep anymore >.>'

-ERROR- sung by -*insert your fave vocaloid/utau version of it*

Can you see it? The tears in my eye

I'm blurred by the colors of life.

Why did you leave me?

Ask me- I will collapse.

Blue, red, and white are mixing.

I'm shouting from this world

What was I wishing for?

I was tired from chasing after it.

How much?

Am I broken?

I am broken...

But still I want to breathe.

to breathe.

Can you see it?

Like my dreams,

Final words are stuck- ERROR

That far day

The faint light is overflowing from the sky

What did you arrange and select?

Color of tears overlap

That floating body

Melts in the consciousness

What did you see and compare?

I'm sad, so I forget

How much?

Am I distorted?

I am distorted.

But I still want to breathe

To breathe.

I'm dreaming

The stuck final words

For you who I'm thinking of- ERROR

Giving,

forgetting,

being here-

Can't you just do that?

This crazy ****

Again, I laugh and kill ****

Are you breaking me?

Do you know what destruction is?

Even so, my tears hurt

They hurt me.

Did it reach you?

To the singing voice

I lay out my final words

But the overlapping colors are blurred

Am I broken?

I'm broken...

But still I want to breathe.

to breathe.

Just like the end of the dream

That I showed you

Even words are stuck- ERROR

For some reason it made me think of ... well ALL of the animals I've cared for <_>

Most of them had someone they thought cared that just up and ditched up. All of them become depressed if SOMETHING reminds them of their past treatment.

...*cough* alsoitremindsmeofthingsI'vebeenthroughyoureadnothing

THERE'S A BIG, CREEPY BUG FLYING AROUND ;A;

AND THERE ARE FIREWORKS OUTSIDE. I HATE THE NOISE THEY MAKE ;A;

*cries in corner* ;_; gahdameet...

IT ISN'T GOOD FOR CHU!

( Before you ask, I accidently ate some because my arse of a friend hid some in the sammich I was eating eAe Some sunscreen I'm ALLERGIC TO no less -_-)

I make this face a lot -> ene

Anyway, just got done with a friggen essay =A=

An autobiography. OKKOOLWUTEVARIDUNEVEN *splats on the floor*
I don't LIKE writing about me. I hate it, in fact. The only interesting things in my life is the SHIT I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT eAe

Is anyone there...? ;A;

meow e3e

How're y'all? -w-

Internet here at the library sucks eAe

I'll be even LESS active than I thought, y'all, sorry ;_;

Also, I can't send notes now for some reason T_T

So... My sister is now being rude and abusive to our pets -.-#

She kicks our dog, steps on him, yells at him even when he's good, doesn't give water to her rats, SPITS on them, and today she did ALL of that and INTENTIONALLY killed one of our new fish. She SQUEEZED IT TO DEATH.

I'm pissed off. -.- I really am! NO ONE has the right to do that, I DON'T CARE THAT SHE'S 8!! -.-
I catch her doing that again, I will personally take her to get therapy and POSSIBLE mental help. -.-###

I don't even care how mean I sound.
You intentionaly make an animal suffer, you get on my bad side.

I KNOW SHE'S MY SISTER, but SHE'S HURTING CREATURES WHO CAN'T DEFEND THEMSELVES.

*angrily sits in corner* -n-###

just walked to the library...
94 degrees and humid. eAe
BLEEEEH DDDX

anyway, i'll talk to y'all on my break.

I have to go to my mother's home... not as much time online, guys. ;_; No internet here...

Yup.

So brb

I REEEEAAALLY want to draw something... but at the same time, I have no motivation to even pick up my pencil x.x

I'm in the hospital. Well shiet.

Why? Because I did something stupid, that's why. >.>
No asking what I did, I'll NEVER tell you! -x-

Also, tomorrow I'm getting hormone levels checked, an ultrasound to see just how bad my cysts have gotten, aaaaand some other things. XP

Yay for me. *curls up in a ball*

-edit- still no dentist, btw. *chews on rubber because it actually helps the pain*

Ok... Since I'm tired of all these ideas rotting in my head, I think I'm going through with making a comic.
So... that means I need someone to help with the writing.

Also, I need characters.
So...Contest, anyone?

I need at least 5 more creatures.

The creatures should be SOME-WHAT realistic.
ie. Real animal species with some natural colors, which varies for species. I DON'T MIND MARKINGS BEING UNNATURAL!

-EDIT- If you can provide a backstory and personality, that'd be a HUGE help!

Keep in mind, any creature may DIE or be severely wounded in the comic. This is a comic about animal experiments, after all.

You will be in the description from the point in time your character appears, and you will NOT be removed even if your designed creature dies or parts ways with the main creatures.

Also, if you win, your creature will be a more significant character in the comic.
ANYONE that enters will be used as a part-time character.

Remember, these animals can have any number of wounds/growths, they ARE experiments! NO WINGS ON CATS, DOGS, OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT DOESN'T NORMALLY HAVE WINGS XP

My chest is tight, it's hard to breathe, my heart is racing, I'm sweating and shaking...
But I don't know why! I just woke up in a state of panic!

*points to recent submission* That Griffen in exchange for a semi-realisticly designed RARE breed of dog? ._.

Ok...One of you already knows the basis of the story I want to make...

A relative of mine dabbled in taxidermy and animal experimentation, of which is the main refferance for the story I want to tell (and is also the source for my adoration of "The Plague Dogs" and "Felide" >w>').

However, I tell stories through DRAWING, not writing... I'm awful at writing, as shown in my failing english grade.

Also, I think I'll need more characters than I have in order for it to fit together...

So... Any help with that?
I MAY make it into a bit of a contest....
Who ever can make a decent character of ANY exsisting species with a good backstory and rounded personality gets the character in the comic, and is placed in the description.

Keep in mind, this is a MAYBE...
NOT A DEFINITELY!

Just clearing off the previous journal >3>

note me please. I need to talk.
*trying not to vent* merf...

There once was a young woman... she was beautiful, inside and out; a sparkling gem in a pile of filthy stones...
Those 'filthy stones' were jealous of this gem; angry that they did not shine as brightly as she did. They treated her terribly; judged her, ignored her, tore her down...
She believed that SHE was the ugly one.
One day, an ever-changing creature, who swore up and down that they would never fall in love, found her.
Upon first meeting, they were taken by surprise by the kindness of heart and fun personality of this young woman.
Upon the second conversation, this creature realized they were falling for her, but tried to ignore it... That feeling got stronger with each day, and it became harder to fight that feeling...

...Well, they're going out now, so I think you know how that went! XD Love you, darling <3

So today, while I waited for everyone to get home/online, I actually left my house. HALY SHIET.

So...I pet and fed some stray kitties that I affectionately call Holly and Hazel. They're such good cats, it's hard/heart breaking to believe they're strays! ;_;

Afterward, I played with my aunt's dogs, Panda Bear the Beshon Frizé/ Shitzu mix and Little Bit the miniature pinchure... AFTER we trimmed/bathed Panda, who badly needed a summer trim x.x
Poor Bear hates his baths....

While I was playing with them, a damn hornet started chasing me around the yard. I came in, and I don't intend to come out until the end of summer! ene

*rolls around* DKVSYBDPHSH

*stops* oh hai ._. Yeah so... not as bad as I thought. The class will be easy .3.

I start on monday. So for NOW *rolls around again*

Getting ready to go meet with the teachers over the online summer school thing...
ehhhh my anxiety is making it hard to even type this, so forgive any errors....

See y'all later x.x