If you read my journals, than you probably know all the shit thats been happening as of recent. My desktop is being an asshole because when they unhooked it or whatever they didnt shut it down properly and now when I turn it on, it's nothing but a black screen and I cant do shit with it. All my commissions were on my desktop. So pretty much all those files are lost. I'm working on getting it up and running, but for now the only commissions that are going to be getting done are the ones that I haven't started yet because I really dont want to redo the commissions I had worked on if I dont have to.

All art thats been getting done has been on my laptop, which is awful for doing art on and I hate it but I need to make money some how.
I hope you all understand.
Thanks

So guess who's not living at that house anymore. It's me, this guy right here. I got home a few nights ago and they gave me a court summons.
(My cat Penelope literally just jumped up here and stole my fucking sandwich, the whole fucking thing wtf)
I probably won't be active on here for awhile until things get figured out again. I'm staying with my grandmother. My aunt and uncle are staying here too and their two screaming children that I have to watch pretty much all day. Bogart is settled right in, but I haven't seen Penelope eat much since we got here (well besides my fucking sandwich she just stole, damn) I have a major headache and I'm really super super sick and anxious and I haven't taken my meds in a few days because I forgot them at the damn house.

ANYWAYS
sorry for being slow with replies, a lot of shit is happening
court is April 6th @ 11pm
im really scared

I've been wanting to do a sketch book auction for a long time now but digital Art has always been my main priority but since I don't have any of the stuff to do digital art at the moment and I am in need of funds, now is the perfect time!!

The thing is, would you guys be interested?
The sketchbook would be small, maybe 30ish pages, all of those pages would be filled with your character or characters of your choice. You could suggest ideas you would like to see in the sketchbook
The only thing is, the medium I would be using would be random
For one thing it could be straight up pencil, and the next thing could be watercolor. Each picture would be a surprise!

Starting bid would be around $30, that has shipping included in the price
I might even customize the cover of the sketch book with your character if the cover allows me to do so

Let me know what you think of this idea? I really like it!! :3

I need to buy a new tablet because the one I had got thrown out. Ive got $40 to my name. I'd also be willing to do art for you(once the tablet arrives of course) I don't want to spend much of my money because I need to buy cat food and kitty litter, which will probably be around what I have.

If you don't have one, but have a friend who does, please refer them to me!
Thanks,
Walsh

I've been really busy and stressed these past few days. Sorry for not replying to comments and notes until now.

I've moved back in with the people who threw me out. I threatened to get the police involved and they got scared and said I could live here again. I don't want to live here, but I have no where else to go at this point. I dont have any of my stuff (tablet, desktop, clothes, ect.) So I'm going to have to invest in all those stuff. My first priority is a new tablet so I can start doing commissions to collect the funds to move out and help Charlie. I'm typing this from my laptop, which I had with me the day they threw all my stuff out, thank god.

I don't know if any of you remember the cat, Charlie from about a year ago when he almost died. Well he's pretty much going to die any day now. He's peeing/pooping himself and refuses to eat and drink. He's hardly moved from one spot. When I moved back in with the people, I noticed he had peed himself on the couch so i cleaned him up and wrapped him up in a towel because he was really cold and then got yelled at for wasting clean towels. Charlie isn't my cat, but I pay for all the vet bills and shit so he might as well be. He belongs to the people I live with. I'll also be collecting funds for Charlie. I'll attach some pictures of him below:

(you can see he peed himself in this one)
https://www.dropbox.com/s/5zu4e9sk4.....30.32.jpg?dl=0
(a video of me trying to get him to drink some water)
https://www.dropbox.com/s/2pnsun5rt.....81%29.MOV?dl=0


Charlie died

Im typing this from my phone so please excuse any spelling errors or weird autocorrect things. It's also fucking midnight and I'm exhausted from panic attack after panic attack.

I got home at 9:30 tonight and all the things in my room where gone. All my clothes, blankets, my computer, my tablet, everything. They told me that I can't live there if im suicidal. Like whoops, sorry I have severe anxiety and depression from an event that YOU put me through.

All I have is a few shirts and a couple of pairs of pants and my tooth brush. I literally have nothing. Im staying with my friend for tonight, but he said that I can't stay here. I have my two cats with me, which is kind of a problem because no one will take me and my cats.

The police just left because they apparently got a call that I was going to kill myself. Probably the doing of the fucking asshole who kicked me out.
My fiend is pissed at me for having the cops come to his house.

Im so fucking stupid

If you can, please donate to my paypal http://www.paypal.me/badkittystudios
It would really help me out because I literally have nothing anymore but my cats and some clothes.

Im so scared

I've been wanting to move out for awhile now, but after today, it is clear that I need to go somewhere FAST. Im typing this from my phone. I don't have the money to move out just yet, so im asking for you to please spread the word and donate if you can or get a commission or something, im begging at this point. The people im living with are verbally and emotionally abusive and I can't take it anymore. He went into my room and took my chinchillas and set them free in nthe back yard and took all of their food and supplies and took them to the dump. Im devastated. I don't know what to do. He threatened my cats, so I've been keeping a close eye on them and not worryif about my chinchillas and he fucking set them free. I live in a national forest so there is no way I'll be able to find them. Im so upset. It either move out of kill myself at this point and honestly killing myself seems like the better thing.

Please please please help me before he does something to my cats. Im scared for their lives.

You can donate at http://www.paypal.me/badkittystudios
Please please help me im scared

I've been putting off writing this journal for about a week now to see how much it would effect my drawing. I fractured my wrist, not sure how, all I know is that I did. It's been hurting for about 2 weeks and I finally decided to go get it looked at, thinking it would be tendentious or something. Turns out I actually fractured it somehow, I honestly have no idea how this happened.

Anyways, I'm still able to draw despite having a splint/cast thing on my arm. All is well, however after a certain period of time, it does start to hurt. So I guess art will be slower than it already is for the next few weeks while my wrist heals up.

The doctor says take it easy but I can't taKE IT EASY WHEN MY JOB IS DRAWING AND MY EDUCATION REVOLVES AROUND BEING ABLE TO PLAY INSTRUMENTS !!!
I'm definitely not going to take it easy lol

You should follow me bc I post my feelings 24/7 and I need constant reassurance that im not as bad as I think I am

CattPrince on Instagram
Local-Doubt on Tumblr
Semi-Automatiic on Skype
OdeToBlasphemy on Snapchat

I think that's it, if I left one out I'll add it once I remember!!

I wanted to write.. A will kinda for this account in the event that I die. The possibility is very real as of late and im genuinely terrified for my life.

In the event of my death, I will have  officergrimes announce so via journal on this account. Owed commissions will not be finished, I apologize. I'm a student and in serious debt with hospital bills, almost all money I make goes toward being able to care for my animals as well as myself. Because of this, I usually spend all money I make as soon as I get it. I know I shouldn't but art is my only job as of now.
My characters will be divided among my friends (officergrimes, madsochist, xshadowstar, seadragonryo, and kibaookami) they can decide to sell them or use them however they wish.

-{STORY}-
When I was younger, I lived with my mother and her now ex boyfriend. Her boyfriend would beat me and my mother, and when my little sister came along, he would start beating her too. Her more severely than me, but not as bad as he would my mom. Once I filed a report to CPS about what was happening and he found out that it was me and when my mom, my sister and I tried to leave, he pulled my mom out of the car through the window by her hair, smashed her phone so she couldn't call for help and held a gun to her head, daring her to run. He ordered me and my sister into his truck and he started driving back to the house. We were able to get away and we jumped into a passing car and went to my grandmothers house. He drove all over town looking for us with the gun in his passenger seat. My mom and him eventually got back together and she forgave him and life went on normally.
My mom did have a 60 day restraining order on him, but because she didn't press charges, that went out of effect.

The reason why I'm scared for my life is because i filed another report to CPS yesterday after noticing bruises all over my sister and her crying when I dropped her off at her dads(my moms ex boyfriend). She begged us not to leave her and it was awful and both my mom and I were in tears. My little sister is only 7 might I add. Her dad is going to know it was me, he'll assume so and then he'll come after me like he did a few years ago. He might actually kill us this time. Im scared. I've been having nightmares, I can't focus, I haven't slept well. I'm so exhausted all the time. Andrew wanted me to get up and do stuff with him today but I was too exhausted to move off the couch.

I'm going to be getting what V-day commissions I have left and then I'm going to take a small hiatus. I'm seeing my little sisters dad this Sunday, so if I am murdered, it will most likely be that day.

I'm seriously thinking about auditioning for DCI
Does any of my watchers have experience with DCI and the audition process and how the audition camps are run? I'm planning on auditioning on mellophone but I know that my chances of getting in on that would be slim so maybe I should audition on baritone instead? Also how would someone go about preparing for an audition of that degree. I've auditioned for smaller bands in the past and those are always tedious, I can't imagine how the auditions are for DCI. Was also thinking about auditioning for the marine band or something like that. But DCI is my main focus as of right now.

but yo let me know if you have any info/can point me in the right direction!

Sorry for the lack of updates on Bogart here lately, I've been so busy and depressed and I can't even take care of myself tbh but hello I am here.

Bogart is doing fine so far! However, both he and his sister have come down with a cold I think? I don't think it's serious enough to see the vet just yet, but we'll have to wait and see I guess. As well as a cold, all the animals in my care have contracted fleas. My indoor/outdoor cat Charlie is to blame for that. My dog, Oakley, has got them so bad that she chewed off all the fur on her butt while itching them. I have some flea shampoo on the way and hope to get everyone flea free ASAP.
I try to update Bogarts facebook page one every few days if you'd like to get recent updates! (https://www.facebook.com/Bogart-The-Cat-178578535811774/timeline/)
We only have $451 to before we reach our goal of $800 for Bogarts surgery to remove the mass in his intestine! Thank you all so much and please continue to spread the word! <3
Thank you guys so so much!

After noticing a lump on my lil boys stomach, I dipped into my spay-and-neauter fund to take him to the vet. I found out that he has leukemia in is small intestine. Not only that, but he is FIV positive. The only hope to save him is surgery to remove the mass and chemo therapy to make sure it's gone. I am in so much debt already, there is absolutely no way I can pay for all that.

The vet said about 40% of cat diagnosed with leukemia live up to a year after their diagnosis. The thought of losing him hurts so damn bad. I got him after a failed suicide attempt and he has been the best therapy I have ever received. He's been the only thing keeping me alive since I got him. Without my little buddy, I don't know if I could continue living myself. It sounds a bit crazy, I know, but he means so much to me, I can't even express it in words.

I'm taking donations to pay for his medical expenses (i can provide vet receipts if you don't believe me??)
All commissions are half their normal price.

I can't promise when commissions will get done. My job keeps me busy, I hardly ever have time to shower anymore. Plus I'm taking care of Bogart and making sure he's comfortable. Because of this, don't expect commissions to get done quickly. Im so very sorry!

Please please please please share !!!!
I don't wanna lose my best friend at only 4 months old.