that time of year again looking to do trade try to take commissisons again though art is now $10 a pop looking for fursonal costume suggestions too

some time ago I got a new scanner and thats because my dad let me use his card and after getting an ebay account I am now perma banned and dont know what to do.
I just want to buy figures movies bookd comics and an portable game emulator (and I keep hearing sell but no buy no shop just sell and I am on the verge of a breakdown from this

well at some point my net died and never came back and when my dad tried he lost his mind and he doesnt see the net as vital so I was going insane till he lucked out and he got something something he wanted for a long time actually and boy does it work. now I am trying to catch up and man its a pain deviantart cut me off after soso long twitter was insurmountable I now feel like a failiure and this month has been so wasted I hate the south, nothing good comes from it. it gave me hope then pulled the rug on me so many times I have given up hope on this place

My isp died on me twice and was unreliable for other times making me crazy to say the least. I am hoping to get something new and better.
looking forward to halloween any ideas? also includes costumes for my fursonas
the rest of the year Ill be doing a bit of catch up on what I missed because of all that has happened this time

recently I got anew laptop but I cant seem to upload firefox windows 11 wont let me
been having trouble sleeping too the bed is well 10 years old and my hips end up hurting and I cant seem to get comfortable and it has been trying to throw me out I have almost fallen out of bed like regularly to a point where I swear I am developing ultra instinct from it. any cheap short term solutions till we can get around to replacing it?
I also feel overwhelemed trying to keep up twitter is getting fast DA is filling with people turning art into pay per view AI doesnt bother me as much as these people having the nerve to try to profit off of a shortcut. it a reason why I havent posted art in so long.
this and other reasons are making me lose it, feeling like an abject failiure who cant seem to get anything done

recently I got anew laptop but I cant seem to upload firefox windows 11 wont let me
been having trouble sleeping too the bed is well 10 years old and my hips end up hurting and I cant seem to get comfortable and it has been trying to throw me out I have almost fallen out of bed like regularly to a point where I swear I am developing ultra instinct from it. any cheap short term solutions till we can get around to replacing it?
I also feel overwhelemed trying to keep up twitter is getting fast DA is filling with people turning art into pay per view AI doesnt bother me as much as these people having the nerve to try to profit off of a shortcut. it a reason why I havent posted art in so long.
this and other reasons are making me lose it, feeling like an abject failiure who cant seem to get anything done

because I want to comepete with other artists and tired of feeling like a loser and a failiure(last year wallopeed me hard)

looking forward to things tv will be my friend for the most part stores look better and such
looking for suggestion including costumes for my fursonas and I am more suggestable

got it back thanks to support but still someone pulling this is not cool and I know I am getting fed up as this year has been one disaster after another and I dont know how much more I can take
also I was hacked for awhile but still hopefully no damage done

my dicord has either been hacked or destroyed because of a accidental acccusation and I couldnt prove I was me

recently Ive noticed alot of my art is getting better view numbers why and why is mature not getting much vs the safe stuff also what about elephants am I doing right?

my old girl is 8 going on 9 years will need to have her put to pasture before she breaks a leg. What I am looking for is a 17 inch screen (movies comics etc usb ports (for a mouse flash/portable hard drives maybe a keyboard.) also looking at price.
halloween is coming looking for ideas including costumes for me pm me or suggest it in a journal so it doesnt get lost also dont be afraid to be stupid sometimes they seem to be my most popular work

my old girl is 8 going on 9 years will need to have her put to pasture before she breaks a leg. What I am looking for is a 17 inch screen (movies comics etc usb ports (for a mouse flash/portable hard drives maybe a keyboard.) also looking at price.
halloween is coming looking for ideas including costumes for me pm me or suggest it in a journal so it doesnt get lost also dont be afraid to be stupid sometimes they seem to be my most popular work

this morning my mother died she was 65 (serious I was expecting her to last longer) it started 6 months ago with a stroke which I kept secret for the most part and when she came back I was stuck at home with my dad taking care of her which drove me a bit insane then she went back for something and tried again for therapy but the insurance cut her off before she was 65 (which feels illegal) and another trip for another reason and no less than a week after her return she gave up the ghost.
she was loving mother to me but not to my late brother who died last year and her relationship with my father was a bit worse than the comic strip the lockhorns but he never cheated and they could cook and she was the one who got thrown out of parties sometimes. she also was not a fan of furries but knew she could not stop me, she thought were all perverts (and my dad compares her to a mule sometimes) she was also kind of a racist (but felt hate groups were cowards and did not do enough at times during rants) but again she was my mom a woman who rushed me to a doctor or hospital when I got sick or hurt even when I was off the insurance and shrugged off the cost. she also helped me learn to drive.
Somtimes she made loving her difficult
will be online no funeral or travel

been exploring twitter (no account) been wondering should I even bother as well I dont like the idea of being of us being too public but too many of us have run off there or simply joined for some reason and when a certain monster was president and can be again unless he is stopped
also I understand getting political in the fandom dont know how to do it without going full on rabies mode. I like the fandom and dont want admins kicking me off a site I practially live on.
also have a bday coming in August if anyones interested

commisions are open and now it $10 for pic (everyone else is jacking up their prices so why not me) still $2 for extra character maybe a background
stories $15 per 4 pages ( i know thats where my talent lies)
no paypal or internet money but I am willing to work for barter help me score art maybe score me an image pack make me a patron through you for a month or so make me an offer and while I am at it I just want to say I want to get something out of this life can you blame me? and I do love it here

well I was quiet this month because my comp continued to fight me recently I got it what it needed and now its behaving but showing signs of its age so I may one day need to replace it. I am also posting my halloween leftovers because I want to and to make up for lost time and no thanksgiving pieces but if I was put in a group piece or something I might have. Christmas will be minimal if any really.
also wanted to say I am supporting the strikes for kelloggs and nabisco but wonder when their over as my resources stopped talking about them.
been thinking of getting a streaming tv device but well I am also looking for free stuff as I am essentially net broke.
also want to say I got zootopia on dvd thanks to walmarts promo deals

my comp still sucks my net is slow and 2 weeks ago it went out and it took days for it to be restored but it still sucks my comp also freezes at odd times on other programs not crash just freeze. I got system mechanics and its not really much help I miss my avg my browser did get a bit better but it does not quite work any helpful ideas
seen the numbers on my recent posts okay what am I doing right and what can I do to keep up this momentum?
halloween is coming wondering what to do for it

my firefox has been acting up frrezing crashing (out of nowhere at times) slow to start and have to try again and again. youtube makes weird noises at times. when I click on twitter I dont always get what I click onthe account disconnects and Ive been forced to connect just to keep it synced up

welll my birthday is next month just letting you know
looking forward to the back to school sales for art supplies.
wondering if anyone wants to see more stories from me?\
looking for trades commisions are open (no paypal will work for bater money order image packs just want to feel ike winner when I do something)
who reads horrorhound magazine or the creeps or savage avengers or are familar with mary janice davidson laurel k hamilton brian lumely or knows who captain harlock is?
wondering if the delta will cause another quarentine because of the anti vaxers or the next pandemic will come causing people to have to wear masks and our president should make vaccines manditory as too many people refuse to for dumb reasons and its gotten old. I am also hoping to be prepared for the next one a bit better.
as for why I was gone my brother died but the story we've been given feels spotty at best and the police were no help even though we were blood relatives.alos we never got to meet up with the widow as she was not answering the phone and seemed to want us to leave before anything could be done. well the trip home did also mean tastykake cream filled coffeecakes and herrs bbq chips and a home pizza and the real pain was the trip.

something went down and I wont be online too much so no discord no comments but I will be online looking and faving I may talk about this stuff when I get back

first of all I am vaccinated and we did it early and by luck but then all of a sudden they start offering cash and prizes for this and wonder if we shouldnt have waited (was willing to as it I didnt want to steal from someones grandma but again luck and short line) I feel annoyed they need them because I did mine when I was asked nicely, like with the masks and social distancing. I believe in it and not the stories of bill gates putting microchips in us.
Then you have the fact certain people dont want to investigate what happened on jan 6 one guy treated it like a tour of all things. and dont want to make the world better just maintain a status quo and that time is over. The virus has open a rift and now is the time for change as people no longer intend to go back to work for less, be forced to work for tips and force the rich to take a hit for once instead of making common people shoulder their cost.
also were living in an age where our movie libraries are threatened by consolidation and soon certain people will have everything. its kind of messed up. One of them surprsingly enough is charles band of all people
been looking for a new free vpn as the one I have kind of sucks right now and I do do my research

my google (youtube) account now wants my phone number for dumb reasons do I finally give into the beast that wants one more hoop which sickens me (also flip phone but Ive grown to hate them and barely turn it on) I also fear were give up too much information in general leading to our identities being stolen and too many people knowing too much why does youtube need so much when people use it like they do?

mayternity is coming and I thought why not contribute well the main thing for this is you get a piglet, but my pig is the mother also some adult swine who have to admit their mother was a c;lown.
also would like to talk about my guess stuff I do it to learn about my audience to see what they will recognize.
please be over 18

mayternity is coming and I thought why not contribute well the main thing for this is you get a piglet, but my pig is the mother also some adult swine who have to admit their mother was a c;lown.
also would like to talk about my guess stuff I do it to learn about my audience to see what they will recognize.