Okay.. It snowed pretty good here in Twin today. I hung out over at my sisters and bro-in-laws. We where sitting on the front porch. They where having a smoke break. I came up with the craziest idea.. My idea was to drop my pants and set in the snow bare butt... and I did.... IT WAS FREAKING COLD!! But yet fun... Boardom makes you do weird shit... Hell it was fun. I made one hell of ah skid mark across their yard. It was freaking halarious! One of these days I'm going to cam cord it and put it on you tube!

I'm so close on giving up on trying to find a G/F... I don't know what my deal is but... I simply can't find someone... It's been almost 2 years sence I had a decent G/F.. I just wish she didn't pull the crap that she did or otherwise, we may still be together.. I just miss having someone close and special in my life. I've dated other girls sence then but, the relationships only lasted a week.. If that. Now I can't find anyone that has any kind of interest in me. Heck theres been even times I've started to question myself. That screws with your mind. I've had more guys hit on me than girls in the past year... I make a lot of female friends but none of them seem enterested. When I ask the seem to go into a freak mode and totally egnore me. Then they go out and find themselves a B/F... Then I get depressed.... Everything I've done for them and all the advice I give them and try to earn their respect and be a true friend, they basically say Fuck you!!.. I don't know what my problem is. I behave and treat them with respect and try to help them out when ever I can.. I get kicked in the nuts every time I ask one out on a date... I'm so tired of this!! I don't want to have sex and try to get in their pants! I leave that stuff out in a relationship.. I've been used by women to try to get me to get her pregnant. Thats when i draw the line and end it... I've tried many methods on how most guys get dates and not a one works for me... I simply try to be myself and that doesn't work. I don't mention that I'm a fur and I don't talk about strange discussions. I try to start a conversation and all I get is "yeah" "cool" "oh nothin much" "I'm doing ok". I go on and try to discuss something their interested in.. Same thing. About only 4 words come out of their mouths. I try hard and I try not so hard. I can't find a balance... I've talked to many poeple about this problem.. They say maybe you ought to try a guy... I'm like.... Hell no... I'm sry I'm simply not into men... I just don't feel that way twards guys. If I could I would.. That's simply not there. I guess it must be my looks or my body type.. I can't figure it out. I've asked people if I look that bad.. Everyone doesn't give my a straight answer... If you want to see what i look like, check my profile pics. Me personaly, I don't think I look bad. I'm comfotable just the way I am.. I dunno maybe I'm not made for love.. Maybe its a good thing.. Or maybe it's not... I'm to where I don't care anymore.

It's that time of the year to go back to school. To some of us, it may be refreshing and to most, it's the worst thing ever. Me, I'm not a fan of school. Today was my first day over at MVHS. I'm a senior this year (THANK GOD lol). Today I was dreading it sence it's a new school and all. But later during the day I started loosening up and actually started to enjoy. I have a fiew good friends from the old high school and a couple I met from summer school. Alas theres no furs that I'm aware of at this school. Oh!... the realy nice thing is that my teacher is good looking! I actually have an attractive teacher for once! I'm guessing shes around her mid twenties and she is also single. I wouldn't plan on dating her. That would be a little weird sence shes my teacher and all. The realy nice thing about this school is that it doesn't start till 8:30 a.m. and it ends at 2:25p.m.!!! Very nice! Just the down side to this school is that they are extreamly strict with their policies... If you even curse, you get sent home. They also have a dress code which is very understandible. The cool thing about it they haven't mentioned anything about not whearing a fur suit lol. That would be fun to come to school once in a fur suit. I'd have a lot of fun! But I don't own a fur suit. Someday I'll have one. Oh yes! Next summer I may get a realy cool job working over in Wyoming. I could make nearly $26.00 an hour!!!! for an 8 hour shift!. What my occupation will be driving one of those humongus mine trucks that you see on the descovery channel! Very exciting! Man that be fun as hell!

Thats about whats going on with me for now and thankyou for reading my journal. B-)

new name: Road Wolf B-)