Huh. So I do believe most people got into this Shinies donation thingie. I'm curious about how it is working, probably gonna test it on my own to see how stuff goes.

Also, I would like to take a minute to serious talk here. Last week I got involved in a minor accident that left my upper arm hurt. Probably you won't be seeing much stuff done from me cause it's still on recovery, and dunno how much it would take to be fully healed. I'll let you know once everything is back on normal.

Thanks gus.

Hello guys. At first, and some will agree on me, that a species change on a fursona isn't a big deal or nothing to write home about, but I'd also like to see your opinions and it seems that is important to discuss this.

Ever since I joined FA, I remained to be an arctic Wolf, but people keep comparing me to a dog or some other canine than that (maybe for the way I draw myself xD ). And now, since the Samoyed dogs had been a viral sensation and a new trending dog breed, it would be easier and better for me to change from being a Wolf to one of these dogs and go with the Flow.

I know it's nothing usual to see a drastic species change, and some people don't accept these kind of changes easily. So please let me know if you're ok with this switch or it's better for me to remain as an arctic Wolf

Can't wait for your comments!

-C

Greetings, everyone.

College has arrived once again to my work Schedule and it seems to be more demanding with homework, Project and stuff for it. So it might be more time taking than seemed while building up the class Schedule. I took the desicion to close temporally my commissions intake for the rest of the semester (maybe on Spring break I might open a few slots, but Maybe) so I can finish in time what needs to be done.

Don't worry if you already got into my queue and those who won the Not So Myster Date YCH. I'm still working on the stuff people commissioned me before, and will be my focus for these couple of months

Hope to keep bringing you Big quality content you like, and keep in touch with you guys

-C

Tired of trying so hard to be part of people's lives and world

Tired of people seeking for a smile of mine when Im torn to pieces

Tired of loosing more than winning when making someone smile

Tired of everything

It's well known I'm a lazy writer. That stablishes that I decide to write a journal each blue moon. Tonight is one of those blue moons, approaching the fact to make this journal the last of 2018 here in my profile. The intention of this writing is to make a final vent with my personal thoughts, feelings and experiences this year has let me.

I must confess. I -HATED- this year, for real guts. Can't exactly say if this is the worst year I ever had, since there are others which worse situations that still linger inside me. But I'm confident to say how fucking awful this year was cause most of the time it was filled with crap.

Back in Summer I finally learned to give everyrhing I had for achieving the worst posibility in any issue, cause giving it a cause to go on is more pathetic than just giving up like a real man. Several non sleep hours, days, even weeks for appealing a mere feeling of self satisfaction that would be broken once I begin a new task

A person who I fell in love for, almost left me for granted, letting me question if I must go on as an artist, as a human being. Still offering this heart of mine just to see them smile once more. All because there is people that believe that smile is worth everything, a smile that's never yours or mine.

Friends that abandoned me when we wee destined to be closer by the time we get to know each other better. Just a gentle reminder that I don't deserve happines just by giving it to other people that barely know I exist.

It's difficult, real difficult for me to last until the December 31st as these things are still a reality to me. Somehow I'm here, and I'm still here. Thankful for not this shit of a ride that has been the year 2018, but for the people that has joined me

Yeah, it was a sucky year, but I also lived. I lived the best experiences outside (and inside xD) my confort zone, experimenting with new people I met on the road, knowing new stories and falling in love with other ones. I also found my newest fandoms and motives to keep myself making new art for the days to come.

So, in conclussion, I'm waiting real bad for the last night of the year. Cause I don't know if it's going to be the last one I witness, cause this year is going to be finally over, cause it's a beginning for a new life, and because the only way I can go... is forward.

For 2019

-C

This journal is a place where you can ask questions to Wade and/or involving him. This will be useful to get to know the character better and build his backstory/personality.

Wade = www.furaffinity.net/view/29420452/

For a big part of my life, I grew up with love for the superhero genre, in any media possible. What began with the bite of a spider, leading to the revival of a World War 2 soilder. From a man that transformed his anger into strength, to the man that turned weakness into iron. Between blind lawyers, fantastic spacemen, warrior panthers and explorer squirrels. Being a space raccoon, and a magic doctor, the main pillars for me not only in comics, but also being an artist.

This was a real common fear I had between my artists, artists who got inspired like me, people who saw the galactic epics these 10 years, children who grew up with the cartoons. We didn't want to count the days remaining to this moment, even knowing it was coming. The world has whitnessd, for more than 75 years, the power of story making and letting a bit of wonder into our daily lives. We were expectators of heroes with immense Powers that can handle everything, but as human as you and me. With problems so real that the relation we had with these heroes, will lead to any solution possible.


This... is a man who did more than everything during his life. His career being the seed for much more. A man who made us believe in everything, and to stand up no matter what. This is for the man that, with a single clap, made a sound that today is still roaring, and will keep on going, for the years to come. This...


This is for Stan Lee

1922 - 2018


Hello everyone.

I still don't know how did I manage to survive these couple of months, mostly because I spent the 2nd half of october dead by cough. This was a weird case cause normally I have cough for a weekend máximum, but this was real odd. Thankfully I got it covered and won't be a problem for the rest of the weeks to come.

Now, I'll try my best to be serious for now. This... isn't an easy semester for me. I took a wrong decision of being open for commissions the second August started, leaving me balancing between school stuff and commissions, leaving some sort of delay on both stuff. Now, I managed to finish my current queue for the month, but there's a high chance I close for commissions, depending on the work load the semester has to offer me. But I'll try to let you informed about it, cause I wanna make my best to manage my work Schedule and still be able to sleep (though some teachers suggest Not to sleep at all)

November, in a nutshell, would mean "Near Death due Saving the semester". I know it's gonna be a Infinity War level of doing stuff, but I'm working off to have the strength to get through there. I also wanna thank for the support you guys gave me by commissioning me, adding my stuff to your favs and watches. It really shows the stuff I do means something, and that keeps me moving forward.

Thanks to you all and good luck this November

-C

"How can I take back, from the person that doesn't deserve to be in my life, the priviledge of me being in love with them"

"i survived years of self loathing, self sabotaging, and people not recognizing my work. But the wrong person almost destroyed my art career."

Hello everyone! I'm Cedric with a Little announcement to make

At this year, I had created an OC of my own based on Japanese Folklore -> Tatsuya, a Bakeneko (or japanese Cheshire Cat) that is an enthusiast in Muscle Growth and Weight Gain for the glory of growing his clients to show their true potential. And rn, since he has been a bit forgotten at the corner like Jesse under her owner's bed, I came up with a small idea.

Those commissions, that also feature Tatsuya as a suportive character OR the main character on the picture, will have a good 20% discount on the total Price! So, as an example, if you ask for a doodle worth $50, you're gonna pay 10 dollars less!

So I hope this elevates the sales a bit and gives the character some more backstory and presence, making this a win-win deal.


Thanks for the attention and have a good evening!

-C

Ello Hello! My best friend  darthtater342 is in the middle of some economic issues linked to his school tuitition, so he decided to be open for commissions! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28091432/

I highly recommend giving it a try, bc he has a real good art style and is flexible with almost anything that you want! It would be more than flattering to ask him for a doodle.

To get to know Tatsuya and Cedric as a character the better, and also to experiment more with their personalities, I'm in the mood for some Question and Answer for both characters, and the person behind all the magic as well.

For all my viewers who ever saw the last journal I made, and / or voted on the poll. I would like to explain a few things.

This couple of weeks were real hard for me: Linked to a depressive episode I got to overcome with the help of real good Friends, but something happened today that was the boiling point of it all and, in a rage mode, I created the poll you saw a few hours ago.

Truth is... The more I get involved in college, push myself harder and harder with each semester I take, I become more exigent with my art, both general and what you see in my gallery. There were a few breaking points, this semester only, where my emotions and stress bottled up to pretend Im ok and that I can manage with a lot of stuff, they overboarded and took control of my actions and thoughts. The majority affecting my FA account. It wasn't the first time I ever menaced to close temporarily the account for the sake of my sanity, I even talked about it with close Friends of mine such as  Valeyard  Silemo999 and  darthtater342 and got me back in the tracks one day more.

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you with my downer thoughts, or journals, or even art. I would like to take this opportunity to ask for an apology, and let you guys know I appreciate every single inch of love you guys give to me, and I also wanna say thanks for those supportive messages and putting your confidence and love in me.

Thanks for everything, guys

-C

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Ive never happened to ask myself that question, even though I heard it a lot of tines in my life. The truth is, it is a real introspective question, that helps to analyze if youre really likeable or if its worth to have any friend.

I am not sure how to answer that question. I recognize the flaws and strengths I have, and I am conscious of the friends I made on the road and what do they admire of me. But honestly, I highly doubt if I can tolerare myself if its somebody else or a twin of me.

What about you? Would yo be friends with yourself?

For me, and the people of Mexico that watch me and know me, these are real bad news. Well, at least for me.

Another democratic procedure happened, another elections occured, like each 6 years. Never thought this time, it would be the saddest. Mexico's elections have a bittersweet, no, more like acid story with one of his politicians, that always went to be the president for 3 times in a row. In 2006, he lost after being SO close to win, only loosing by (in my opinion) one of the most honests presidents there could be. In 2012, well, the winner was no better than him, but at least he cared for my country. This time... my fears came true. Andres Manuel Lopez Obrador, the presidential candidate I hated the most, has become the president of Mexico.

Who is this man, you may ask? My ego ain't gonna dignify that with a response, but in a nutshell, AMLO is like a less prepared and more angered version of Donald Trump. A true liar that built his campaign in base of lies, throwing shit at the other candidates and his people as well, and also making alliances at the very last second with the people he was against on 2012, just to roast the option that I believed was the most prepared, or at least the least evil, Ricardo Anaya.

And not only that. AMLO has followed the very steps of Hugo Chávez, the single man who turned Venezuela into ruins. In his madness against the commonly called "Power Mafia", he went full comunist in a bad way, attempting or Forcing this new economic mode in a country that depends fully on the capitalism and the econimic style described in previous years. I've talked with people close to my family, Friends, and country mates, who had real fear of losing their Jobs, what they have built with sweat and blood for decades, thrown away by the victory of this single man and his ideology.

I hope this video explains more detailed, or with more context, the story behind AMLO's career and things he has done: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KaE1vagD9Xg and this article describing perfectly the situation of what me, and so many relatives, think and feel about the whole situation https://www.nytimes.com/2018/06/29/.....click&contentCollection=timestopics&region=stream&module=stream_unit&version=latest&contentPlacement=3&pgtype=collection

Pueblo de Mexico, I know these days to come are going to be uncertain for us, but I wish you strength to endure these 6 years, go give the best for each of us who work hard each day and night for a better country, and not letting this excuse of a man taking the lead of the country, but the people instead.

Vive México

Vive

Hey guys! As some of you may know, this is the college semester I've spent the most of money on. Exactly 100 dollars in a single class, Portfolio, where I was told to make my own website, then print a banner for an art expo featuring my art and other classmates', in the form of a printed art book with our contact, info and featured artworks. As I would like some money to compensate that outcome, I'd come to the idea, inspired by several teachers, to finantiate the art I've done, doing, and willing to be done.

Meanwhile I figure out a lot of things this new decision will come with, I'm gonna start with an easy step. And that's getting tips on the website Ko-Fi. Kofi offers their users to view for free the artwork published by the artist, and then donate a minimal amount of 3 dollars any time you want, to support the artist work and get the chance to earn a piece as a thank you for the money.

As I am going to receive real money, I started the page as my regular art / portfolio name and profile. That means some furry stuff will be featured there as well, and so in my regular portfolio websites, BUT the kinky art you're used to will NOT be there at all, meanwhile those who support me and can afford a kinky piece from me, it will be submitted here only.

http://ko-fi.com/U7U4FO8S
http://ko-fi.com/U7U4FO8S
http://ko-fi.com/U7U4FO8S

So thanks for understeanding that decision, and I hope you can support this lil' wolf's career and money income. Thanks a lot

-C

Hey guys. This will be a temporal journal, but I'd like to announce that I'm searching for a furry artist who focuses on mega sized Muscles (sorta the sises Bobert or Snares Lion normally do) or really swole bodies. Plus, I wanna see if said person is currently open for either commissions or art trades. If you know any, please send me a note with the details about the suggested artist. And if you are also looking for someone with the same quota, don't hesitate leaving a comment over here.

Hey guys, it has been a real while since I've written a journal over here. A lot of things have happened since my birthday, and I'll try to do my best to resume a bit of the most important aspects.

1: CONQUE 2018: In the first weekend of May, I got the chance to visit one of the most famous and important Comic Cons there is in Mexico, CONQUE. Taking place in Querétaro (not so far from my state), it reunites the finest of artists, writers, cosplayers and etc. of the geek world and rejoice in a world of art sales, meet and greets, and talks about their projects and such! It was a fun time and I can't wait to go for the next year

2: PATREON: This has been a thing since April, but didn't want to make it oficial over here, mostly like a "limited edition" but I thought it would be nice to announce it as well. My good friend  Renard_DeFleureax has opened a Patreon account since last year, and we went through a new agreement. He will write the monthly stories and I get to illustrate them! You can find all the details on the submission over here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26923722/ and if you wanna support me and Renard, click on the patreon here to donate: https://www.patreon.com/bigstories/memberships

3: DEMO REEL AND WEB PAGE: I'm proud of the first and sore about the second: Part of the planning of my Portfolio class is to make a Demo Reel featuring our art and a web page (yes, a web page) for our stuff as well. I didn't like the idea about the web page since it involves paying like 20 dollars for the whole set and another 20 yearly. BUT! here I am and I'd like to share them with you and receive your feedback!

DEMO REEL: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRvhI5SAvgE

WEB PAGE: http://valaren-art.xyz

I hope you can get a bit updated with it. No bigger stuff happened by then, but wanted to share them

See ya until next journal

-C

As you can see on the title, Im officially 23 y/o!

I know, I'm being sorta cocky doing this, reminding all of you when my birthday is. But I just wanted peopel to know, because I know Friends that didn't know about it.

Hello everyone. I would like to get real serious for a moment and share you something that is really important for me while growing up and nowadays.

As some may noticed on my profile, or while talking to me, I do have the Autism Spectrum. What's that? A person with Autism is a person with neurodevelopmental disorders such as speech impediment, issues with social communication or interaction, and repetitive patterns, interests and activities.

An autistic person can be recognized by this specific things that the mentioned person does

- unusually intense or focused interests
- stereotyped and repetitive body movements such as hand flapping and spinning
- repetitive use of objects such as repeatedly switching lights on and off or lining up toys
- insistence on sticking to routines such travelling the same route home each day and doing things in exactly the same order every time
- unusual sensory interests such as sniffing objects or staring intently at moving objects
- sensory sensitivities including avoidance of everyday sounds and textures such as hair dryers, vacuum cleaners and sand
- limited use and understanding of non-verbal communication such as eye gaze, facial expression and gesture
- difficulties forming and sustaining friendships
- lack of seeking to share enjoyment, interests and activities with other people
- difficulties with social and emotional responsiveness
- delayed language development
- difficulties initiating and sustaining conversations
- stereotyped and repetitive use of language such as repeating phrases from televisión

Approximately 1/3 persons with Autism are non verbal at all, while others have real struggles while talking with other people. There are cases where communication was only possible by the assistance of electronic devices. The autistic person has difficulty in Reading other people's emotions or feelings by the facial expressions, body language or any form of communication rather than verbal speech.

1 of 68 kids in the United States only, are diagnosed with Autism. It is more common to find the spectrum in boys rather than in girls. It is believed by studies that Autism might be generated by DNA and the enviroment.

THERE ARE NO SUCH THING AS CURE OR EXAM TO DETERMINE IF A PERSON IS AUTISTIC: But with diagnostic observation, educational and psycological exams, it would be possible to determine if a person has autism. It is the better to do these kind of exams or analysis by the age of 2 or 3. In higher ages is more difficult to do though.

The Asperger síndrome is cathegorized inside the Autism chart, but it lacks the struggle of intellectual development of an autistic person.

Each person with autism is different, as it has SO MANY levels of Autism inside the spectrum. Some have a real severe intelectual dishability and other ones have a superior intelectual hability. Here is a list of habilities a kid with autism would develope https://www.angelsense.com/blog/top.....et-overlooked/

AND NOW A BIT OF BACKSTORY

I was born in 1995, when Autism was barely a thing. I've been diagnosed by the age of 2, but it was when I was born that my parents were told by the doctors that I would not be able to walk or talk during my whole life.

During my preschool and early elementary days, I was attending a special education school (a real close interpretation of hell) and a private clinic who "trained me" in the typical situations of the real world, ceasing my typical autistic behaviours and patterns, and regulize my language skills. Sadly, at that period of my life, I suffered bullying in an intense way. It wasn't until the last year I was there that I developed a real hatred to myself, and it drived me to do things such as hurting myself, throwing shit at myself, over praising people that wasn't me, and even suicide attempts.

By the 3rd grade, when I moved to a Private Catholic School, the same school where my older sister studied, I had the chance to develope myself in a more real scenario, as the autism spectrum had decreased to a light level. But the self hatred thing did not decrease neither got worse, and it was a real struggle for me while growing up. It wasn't until High School that the situation was minimized to a small series of "modesty" disguised as acting nice.

And due to Autism, I excelled at the academic aspect of school, being one of the highest grades of almost every classroom I was in. In 2008, my father passed away, and it did no better for my self hatred situation. As I was trying to deal with the pain and sorrow of loosing my father, I tried finding a proper catarsis for it and my self hatred. I found that moments of peace in Drawing. As a hobby, I've been drawing since 2009, but in 2011 I formally began to drive myself to an art career.

ABOUT THE AUTISM AWARENESS

April 2nd is the international Autism Awareness day. I tried to put my best effort in writing and letting all my demons out in a journal by the sake of the occasion, so the people who follow me or would like to know me would know how it feels like to be autistic or see the things a person with autism has to go by. This information I provided is never enough for a person willing to help people with Autism. It requires years of investigations, endurance, and caring for an autistic child.

As a personal thought, I beg you not to watch or recommend watching Rainman with the intention of Autism Awareness. It gives not a bad interpretation of an autistic person, but personally is not the best choice. A movie I would recall for it would be "My Name is Khan" it reveals a more natural way of living of a person with autism.

If you or a person you know has autism, please let me know at the comments and help me spread the info about autism, for both the help and the awareness

Thank you for Reading, it is really heart warming because I'm sharing something that is really important for me and I'd like to, well, give it the proper importance.

That would be all

-C

Hey guys. Sorry for the lack of updates over here, I've been real busy with school stuff and personal projects I've been wanting to do and finish. I'll try to be short on here, but still wanting to explain it all.

As you saw on my title, I finally took the courage to reset my computer to a fabric state. Since December I've been dealing with a constant BSOD called Bad Pool Header, you can read all that happened at this journal over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8577258/ Anywho. The problems came and go for these months. It was driving me real insane and didn't allow me to work on my stuff. I did previously try to reset the computer twice during the first days of this issue, but somehow the laptop didn't let me to complete the procedure.

These days, I've been involved in more homework from college, mostly for my Concept Art, Portfolio and Advanced Animation classes. Those required a lot of work time and consistance on the computer, forcing the computer further more. In the meanwhile, the computer issue has turned worse. So in a final crisis attack generated by the stress, I finally decided to reset the computer.

Good news is that, as this is a Windows 10 Computer, there was an option that allowed me to reset the computer BUT keeping all my files untouched. So after the reset, it shows my laptop as if I didn't. I only receive a PDF showing all the deleted programs. Bad news, on the other hand, is that I have to reinstall all the programs that I need and use manually. It was a thought progress, but I managed to install only what I need.

This won't mean any change of my work style, artwork nor anything at all. I just wanted to notifiy you, so there's probably gonna be more digital artwork from me. Even now, that I'm going to be on Spring Break and gonna be able to do ALL THE FURRY SHITPOST THAT I WANT!!!

Anywho. That would be all for today. Take care, everyone.

What am I going to tell you?
You're better off not knowing the trouble I'm in,
I don't want you to worry about what I've just seen,
About where I've just been
You don't have to be a part of this
I don't think I want you to be
You don't need this
You don't need me

https://youtu.be/IBicqqc_UWg

"I dont love you, and I'll always will"