Ever feel like you want everyone in your miserable little death empire to curl up and die, including you, and then get on a one-way train direct to hell? Because I do. All of the time.

I haven't talked about it here because What Is The Point, but I've hated living as part of the united states for a good many years. Exact dates are hard to nail down. Certainly since before I made this account, and this state of affairs will probably continue until the day I decide it's all too much.

Let me put it simply: We Are The Bad Guys.
We've just done too much wrong. We've killed more people than we can count. We've erased more names than we can remember. We've dropped more bombs than we can imagine, and we will keep dropping bombs until the only place left to destroy is our own ground. The only language we know is violence.
I know we could probably change, but why give us the chance? We've been given chances before, to do the right thing, and we haven't taken it. Not once.

I am, whether I like it or not, a part of this war machine. This is why you should want me dead.

Names. I am so bad at them. I will name something one thing, then think of a much better one later on. By which time it's too late, name number one has stuck.

If I randomly change up the names of things, do not panic. You are not imagining things, I am just being Indecisive.

Also: I still need a name for, well, me. The Lizard is still just the lizard.

Also also: I am almost as indecisive about folders. Let's see how long this system lasts...

hello. Please forgive the rant at this forsaken hour.

the creature has failed to sign up for Spring Classes. Despite being able to sign up for spring classes at any time in the past 4 weeks.

i want to hurt it. The body mostly, but the creature too. I want them to have Consequences. And they probably will have Consequences. And I will have Consequences. As is just and fair. Idiot.

I hate the body and the lazy mind, and I love the creature, and I fear death. i am a complicated and deeply unhealthy thing.

so college is a thing that is happening for me. Hooray!

*throws a single handful of confetti in the air and then goes to sleep for the next 36 hours*

-1
+B is wearing a T-shirt that reads "She's my sweet potato"
>B: "Thanks for getting me this shirt! Though I can't say I fully understand it.
-2
+View from behind B. V is putting on a similar T-shirt, which we can't read because she is facing away from us.
>B: "What does yours say, Vi?"
-3
+V has turned around and is pointing to her shirt with two thumbs-up.
+The shirt reads "I yam."

Someday I'll get around to it.

The Crossroads (DnD-style fantasy, but the author keeps going on long rants about speculative evolution and humanoid conspiracies. )
+ First iteration development for Stella, Iki, Damien, & Tenya.
+ Second iteration development for Vivar & Borealis
+ Document on The Delta / Coral Gates
+ Documents on magics
+ Timeline for Ahn's domain and surroundings.
+ Document about The Stokers
+ Portrait plate for Ahri

Kairn (A world recreated by a being who has no concept of fiction)
+ Sketch of zombies, bombers, Root Hearts
+ Comic page test with Baker?
+ More about the Fae
+ More about the settlement

Home Again (The third of my happy-ending apocalypses. Also the setting of Tyvian's City. Overlap between Home Again and Kairn)

The Moon Strikes Twelve (Sci-fi, but I was listening to Oingo Boingo and Siouxsie and the Banshees when I made it.)
+ Postcard from The Well
+ Bone Cave renders
+ Finalize "moon" design
+ Procedural "lunar" material, plus renders.
+ figure out where the desert rail system fits in

Floating (For things that either fit in several settings at once or no settings at all.)
+ Document on Malnai
+ Python Turtles program is type in Malnai?
+ Sketch of The Ashen

Asides (Unrelated to my settings. Also, memes.)
+ Raahi is at the soup store talking on the phone with his boyfriend
+ "the queen is coming."
+ Stella: "aight Vi I'm back, I got all the- VI WHAT THE TARNATION-"
+ Season of Mists movie poster

Personal (like Asides but, well, personal)
+ Self portrait
+ Three Wolves portrait (Eyn, Kiragn, Tenya)
+ Self portrait of that time I was a dragon

I figured stuff out, so, uh, guess I should replace the journal?

uh
with what? I don't know.
But I'm thinking of making / getting some digital manequins (spelling?) to help me practice drawing things that aren't flat. Also:

Heads. I have no idea where to start with heads facing different directions.
So, I should make some model heads. And then put them on the manequins.
Or sommit. IDK.

(Update: Am slightly an idiot. Please disregard the following)


So uh this seems like a nice place, as far as places go.


uh.

Now I don't really have much art. More like, concept sketches. And occasional renders.

But I can't figure out how to put it on here.
Maybe I have to make a journal first?

Uh. Oh, hey, if you're seeing this, you probably know how to make submissions! Maybe? Please?

I don't know.
I guess I will click Create/Update Journal and see what happens