So because this series is ongoing with no end in sight, I would like to say a couple things.

1. To that guy, I didn't read your novella of a message, okay? I'm not really interested in continuing this ridiculousness when I can't even reply. If you want to leave me alone, then do it. I was literally leaving you alone until you started bombarding me with messages.

2. Because this harassment is ongoing, I'll be moving accounts for my own good. I do have a couple commissions lined up and I will be contacting you directly regarding this.

Okay, so I didn't want to make this journal. I really didn't. But to that one guy who keeps messaging me, and I know he'll find this because he'll probably be ego surfing to make sure I did what he wanted, No. My answer is no. Kindly go fuck off.

Alright, that was the short version, the long one is this. I was content to live and let live, but I keep finding his nasty little messages everywhere I go. I've been awaiting this moment for a few days and I want to gladly take this opportunity to do what none of his little cronies in his echo chamber of a discord server have any balls to do and put him in the spotlight for a hot minute.

1. you called me childish, siting that I got angry at things. Yeah, this is true. But keep in mind this is coming from a little snot nosed troll child who thinks he's the second coming of Chris t for gay men. Dude, you supported our most childish president openly. You know, the guy who did literally what you said I was doing figuratively while I was just trying to get a good night's sleep? The one who wouldn't listen to a reporter and kept interrupting him when asked questions, coining the heinous phrase, "fake news"? Yeah. that's who you idolized. Also, you don't even have a job, nor do you go to college or pay rent, so you're really not one to talk. Not even kidding. All this guy does is sit in his room and play games all day and watch anime with his online boyfriend. He even mopes around when his boyfriend has to work for a living. Like, bruh. One day in a mascot suit when you were like...12 does not make you an adult. I might have been a little nicer, but when you talk shit to someone, jump to assumptions and then block them to make sure they can't say anything in response just to get the last word in, I'm disinclined to be nice or respect your flawed appraisal of me. Which brings me to point 2.

2. I'm autistic. Yes, I might pass as that weird guy who is otherwise normal, but I've been battling with the symptoms my entire life. And this is a big thing because to your logic, being autistic excuses any wrongdoing or shitty behavior on your part. The only difference is I don't pull the autism card because it's tacky and gauche. Also in incredibly bad taste. So why do I bring it up? Because you claim to have depression, you claim to have...actually aside from that, I don't think he ever really explained himself beyond "I'm autistic, so I can't sympathize or empathize with others." Like, dude. That's a sociopath. You just described a sociopath. I doubt you even have depression. You don't even know what it's like to be trapped inside your own body by your shitty defective brain. You act like you're so far above everyone else, and then you claim I'm coming into your wheelhouse to talk about autism? No. YOU'RE coming into MY wheelhouse. I really don't want to compare problems here. I just want to say that I have a myriad of social, behavioral, and mental disorders that have hounded me since birth, and it really is a pissy thing of you to claim you're above me and everyone else, using your "autism" as a shield against criticism, while you use mine to attack me. If you're going to play that card, the least you can hope for is for someone to play the old reverse draw four on your ass.

3. Oh by the way, you're not even that attractive. You're average at best, tbh. But for some reason all your friends think you're a slut and just give you free shit. You've never even had to pay for a single game in your library, I'd assume. you know, come to think of it, that's probably why you're better than me at games. I like to play until I get bored and do something else because my time is limited by work and the need for sleep. You play a game until you literally hate it and have to take a few months off from it. Which, fine. If you like doing that, whatever. but to then call me out when I'm not as good as you reeks of undeserved elitism on your part.

4. Yes, I'm being mocking now. I can't remember outside of one instance where I've EVER even come close to mocking you, and that was only because you just got finished saying how awful and terrible your life was when you don't even know how good your spoiled ass has it. I would LOVE to just sit around all day playing games and eating pizza while talking to my boyfriend and being surrounded by followers. I call them that because despite you having 20 or so of them, you apparently don't even consider them friends, as you've personally told me multiple times. You're a taint. A little piss baby who thinks of himself as the greatest thing to happen. Even though...

5. Your character? He's a self insert Mary Sue neko boy. Just call a spade a spade and call him a catboy. you try to dress him up like he's this godlike being, but I'll wager most of your fan base just likes cat boys. And poor them! You treat your artist friends like your own personal dress up doll makers while giving them very little in return. And yes, maybe that's not the case, seeing as I don't know them all that well, but if you're going to jump to conclusions, than I certainly can too. But hey, you have your story and you're sticking to it, right?

So....tl;dr? Do you want to start a fight here? Like, an actual fight? Because just name the time and place and we can have at it. if not, kindly shut the hell up and stop messaging me asking the same question. Especially if you block me afterward like a coward.

Thanks.

Don't you just love when you go to bed for the night and wake up to a wall of text and a smear campaign against you? Boy howdy, let me tell you, that's the life right there.

For context, a former friend ostracized me from their gaming group, and said they wouldn't be playing anymore, so I left the discord group they chatted in. I hadn't been invited in about a year anyway. Having a download running, I left my pc on that night only to wake up to a wall of text and a very lengthy goodbye.

So I tried to respect their wishes by not explaining I wasn't even awake when they were messaging me. I doubt it would have done any good anyway.

I went to their page to figure out what the hell was going on after getting a message from them this morning. I find out they'd launched a smear campaign against me. Over me leaving a discord group.

I should be upset, but I think I'm more just in a deep state of whatever. Weary if anything. Am I perfect? Hell no. I understand that. I know I'm deeply flawed. Broken even. But another thing I am is way too old for high school playground drama.

That's why I'm not naming names and going into more detail. Live and let live or whatever. I can't force anyone to like me, but no one else can tell me what to do with my own page either. It's a mess, yes. But it's my mess.

Hey everyone, i just wanted to make a quick journal to let everyone know that this user

 drrichtofen720

Is a scammer. I waited for 3 years for a commission from this person and not only did they never give me an update on their own, but the few times they did reply to my asking for one, they hadn't even started it. When asked for a refund, he straight up ignored me. I really didn't want to make this journal. Don't make the mistake I did and give this charlatan money.

Hey all! I'd like to start off by apologizing for the lack of activity on this account. I posted a couple previews to hopefully date the desire for new content, but I will be posting in earnest again. Hopefully soon, but it really depends on how fast I finish my other project. I'm writing a novel, and I'm trying to get it finished this year hopefully. I still have ideas and still really want to see them happen, but due to certain events recently, this one has taken priority. Thank you all for your continued support and patience.

Hey all! I started my Patreon back up and any and all who subscribe from May 7th, 2019 to May 20th, 2019 will receive a special short story written by me at request! Hope to see you there! ^^

https://www.patreon.com/Cespar

So, I'm doing a project, and I find myself needing original drawings of monsters, beasts, creatures and the like. Does anyone know of someone I might be able to commission for these sorts of things?

Is anyone going? I might show up, but I'm not certain.

Sorry for the lack of activity. I haven't been feeling the best lately. I do plan on doing more with Beauregarde Lane, as well as a few other ideas I had bouncing around in my head. I'll try to have something out within the next week, and I apologize to people who followed me wanting content.

I hope everyone has a fun night. No Halloween special this year, my heart's not in it, to he honest.

So...the Patreon thing didn't really work out, but I'd like to thank the few people who saw fit to throw the odd dollar at me. much appreciated! I now work full time, and have a steady job, so I'm not as hurting for coin as I was. Also...I've been debating sharing this here, mostly because of the jarring shift in content between what I make here and there, but I have a youtube channel where I review games! I anyone wants to see my crappy videos, you can check them out here!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCd.....qONC2w8dF4vZg?

Hope you like!

Heya!

So, I'm going to start by saying thank you to all my followers here, without any of you, I wouldn't be bothering to write. That said, There are going to be a few huge changes over the coming months. For one, I made a Patreon, where if you'd see fit to, you can help support my work and ensure that I have the freedom to keep doing what I (and hopefully you) love.

Now! does this mean I'm going to stop posting here? Does this mean that I'm going to forsake those without money? No. No it doesn't. All content will be made readily available here as well, but with a two week wait. I will post previews, however, the first place you can read my stories will be on Patreon.

I've already got a few stories lined up and ready to go, so I hope to see you there! ^^

https://www.patreon.com/Cespar

Hey all, sorry I haven't been posting anything worthwhile recently. It seems things aren't as bad as I thought they were going to be. I have a new job, which has been taking up a lot of my time recently, so I've been able to start taking care of things over here. I've just been really busy. I'll try to have something out to read/look at soon. Thank you all for bearing with me and following my page.

I'm sorry...I'm so sorry.....I might vanish for a while soon.....like.....forever. If i suddenly stop logging in...well....I'm sorry, and I've enjoyed all your comments and all the friends I've made here....

Time to get that old journal out of the way.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BGQmmDEDYiI

i don't think I'll be posting anything more to my page. not like anyone cared either way, right?

(EDIT!!!)

Since I need a creative outlet either way, I've decided to keep posting stuff here. I'm sitting in three sketches that will never see the light of day if they aren't posted here, so yay, and stuff I guess.

Hey all,

So....things recently happened and I am in dire need of any and all cash I can get my hands on. if you like my work, then good news! A tale of your very own can be told for a mere $1 per page! during this time, any help is gladly appreciated, even if you just give me a quick signal boost. if you have any questions or comments, feel free to note me!

Thank you for your time,

Cespar

Oh my god, thank you guys! You are all awesome! Thank you! XD I honestly never thought I'd have more than maybe 5 watchers, but I'm glad you all seem to like my work and I promise I'll post more soon! I'm just so unbelievably happy! Thanks all of you!

Does anyone remember The First Date? Would anyone be interested in reading a sequel of it? I just really like those characters. XD

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Doing what I can to save the place I love. Even if that means merely spreading the word. Come on people! Don't let them control how we use this wonderful, amazing, terrifying place we call the internet!



https://youtu.be/lTGElV-2GQk

You no longer live as cattle, will you rise and join the battle?

So...I've been working on something a little different. No, scratch that, completely different. i know i haven't posted in a while, and it might not be your cup of tea if you're strictly here for big bloated guys, but this is something I've wanted to do for ages. I'll be posting a snippet of it soonish, just bear with me until then. and yes, more bloated boys will follow, i promise.

Could someone maybe explain why there's so much fanart of Wendy going around right now? XD Not complaining, just feeling like I'm not getting the joke.

COMMISSIONS!
Hey all! So I'm going to open commissions for a bit. Just to see if anyone wants them. My rules and prices are as follows.
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PRICES!

$6 (USD) per page

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If you would like a custom written story just for you, simply note me with details. (I do ask that you be as descriptive as possible. it makes my job that much easier. ^^) Also let me know how many pages you would like. If you would like a longer story, simply let me know and we can work something out. If you would rather your story not be posted to my gallery, just let me know and I will send you the completed story via Dropbox link instead.

Please keep in mind that longer stories will, naturally, have longer turnaround times. Despite this, I will try to have commissions done in no more than two weeks. Payment will be accepted through paypal.
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RULES
1) I will not do anything revolving around pedophilia, scat, gore, or the like. If you are unsure if your commission falls under that umbrella, simply ask away. :)
2) I will not write about any topic I know nothing about.
3) While I will write stories about established characters (ie fanfiction), I ask that you give me time to research the source material so I might do my job to the best of my abilities.
4) Please, no political or religious asks.
5) If the final product is not to your liking, please let me know and I will work with you and edit it to your satisfaction, but all sales are final.
And finally..
6) I reserve the right to refuse certain ideas, and I will let you know if I am uncomfortable with it.
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COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!


1) Anon (PAID)

2)  secret-inflation-account (PAID)

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Just a little update. Things are going much smoother now, so I'll try to post more. I'll have more Andril soon, as well as more Goostuffin. thank you all so much for bearing with me as I try to figure stuff out.

...Also, allergies royally suck. DX

So...I got a new job which is paying pretty decently, (at least better than my old one) but at the same time, due to the location it's making me a nervous wreck. I don't know what to do. On one hand, being there makes me panicky and nervous and on the other hand I need the money. Ugh....Anyway, I should have some new stuff up next month at the latest. I'm pretty swamped this month, but I do have a few things in the works!