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General | Posted 14 years agoBunch of anthro animal fans on a site featuring, amongst other things, beastiality, rape, incest, scat, watersports and formerly paedophilia, choosing to complain about a banner featuring cartoon anthropomorphised critters?
Really?
REALLY?
I don't usually give a toss either way but I like ponies.
And I just want to point and laugh at alla you who're leaving to childporn central/InkBunny over it.
HA. HA. HA.
chortleatthekooky~
Really?
REALLY?
I don't usually give a toss either way but I like ponies.
And I just want to point and laugh at alla you who're leaving to childporn central/InkBunny over it.
HA. HA. HA.
chortleatthekooky~
Florence and the Machine - I'm Not Calling You A Liar
General | Posted 15 years agoI'm not calling you a liar,
Just don't lie to me.
I'm not calling you a thief,
Just don't steal from me,
I'm not calling you a ghost,
Just stop haunting me,
And i love you so much,
I'm gonna let you,
Kill me.
There's a ghost in my lungs
And it sighs in my sleep,
Wraps itself around my tongue,
As it softly speaks
Then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To Fall,
To Fall,
To Fall, at your feet.
Oh but for the grace of god go on,
And when you kiss me, I'm happy enough to die.
I'm not calling you a liar,
Just don't lie to me.
And i love you so much,
I'm gonna let you
I'm not calling you a thief,
Just don't,
And i love you so much,
I'm gonna let you,
Ohh,
I'm not calling you a ghost,
Just don't
There's a ghost in my mouth
And it talks in my sleep,
Wraps itself around my tongue,
As it softly speaks
then it walks, then it walks
then it walks with my legs
To Fall,
To Fall,
To Fall,
To Fall,
To Fall,
To Fall, at your feet.
Oh but for the grace of god go on,
And when you kiss me, I'm happy enough Lady Gaga - Teeth
General | Posted 15 years agoDon’t be scared
I’ve done this before
Show me your teeth
Don’t want no money (want your money)
That shit’s is ugly
Just want your sex (want your sex)
Take a bit of my bad girl meat (bad girl meat)
Take a bite my me
Show me your teeth
Let me see your mean
Got no direction (no direction)
I need direction
Just got my vamp (got my vamp)
Take a bite of my bad girl meat (bad girl meat)
Take a bit of me boy
Show me your teeth
The truth is sexy
Tell me something that’ll save me
I need a man who makes me alright (man who makes me alright)
Just tell me when it’s alright
Tell me something that’ll change me
I’m gonna love you with my hands tied
Show me your teeth
Just tell me when
Show me your teeth
Open your mouth boy
Show me your teeth
Show me whatcha got
Show me your teeth teeth teeth teeth
Got no salvation (no salvation)
Got no salvation
Got no religion (no religion)
My religion is you
Take a bite of my bad girl meat (bad girl meat)
Take a bit of me boy
Show me your teeth
I’m a tough bitch
Got my addictions (my addictions)
And I love to fix ‘em (and I love to fix ‘em)
No one’s perfect
Take a bite of my bad girl meat (bad girl meat)
Take a bit of me boy
Show me your teeth
I just need a little guidance
Tell me something that’ll save me
I need a man who makes me alright (man who makes me alright)
Just tell me when it’s alright
Tell me something that’ll change me
I’m gonna love you with my hand tied
Show me your teeth
Just tell me when
Show me your teeth
Open your mouth boy
Show me your teeth
Show me whatcha got
Show me your teeth teeth teeth teeth
Show me your teeth
My religion is you
My religion is you
Help need a man
Now show me your fangs (my religion is you)
Help need a man
Now show me your fangs (my religion is you)
Help need a man
Now show me your fangs (my religion is you)
Tell me something that’ll save me
I need a man who makes me alright (man who makes me alright)
Just tell me it’s alright
Tell me something that’ll change me
I’m gonna love you with my hands tied
Show me your teeth
Just tell me when
Show me your teeth
Open your mouth boy
Show me your teeth
Show me whatcha got
Show me your teeth
Teeth teeth teeth
Show me your teeth
It’s not how big, it’s how mean
Show me your teeth
Open your mouth boy
Show me your teeth
My religion is you
Show me your teeth
I just need a little guidance
Show me your teethStarborn Vagabond
General | Posted 15 years agoIs it possible to feel homesick when you technically don't even have a home? Because that's kinda how it's all feeling right now.
I miss a place I've never been, a face I've never seen and a love I've never felt.
How is this possible.
I miss a place I've never been, a face I've never seen and a love I've never felt.
How is this possible.
Birthday
General | Posted 15 years agoA year older, a year wiser, a year of wear and tear and healing.
Greatful for having such great friends as the lot of you, you're the safety net when I crash.
Here's to cakeday.
Greatful for having such great friends as the lot of you, you're the safety net when I crash.
Here's to cakeday.
You.
General | Posted 15 years agoIf you're reading this, which I doubt you are, I'd just like to let you know that hey, guess what, you've won.
You got everything you ever wanted out of me. You got my heart, my soul. Every scrap of me that was invested in you in any way has been stripped out and fed to you.
And now I have to watch as you delightfully tell me everything I once treasured and loved no longer exists as a husk of it flounces about in an eerily familiar manner.
I don't think you care enough, but sometimes I wish you'd see how much damage you've done.
You cannot build something only to yank away it's foundations and expect it to just stand there as though nothing happened. You do that, it crumbles, it breaks and it collapses in on itself.
You made me feel like I was everything I could be, but perhaps I was a fool for ever trusting that connection, as it was thrown back in my face so casually.
If this doesn't make sense to you it's okay. It's not meant to mean a lot to everyone. Or anyone, really.
You got everything you ever wanted out of me. You got my heart, my soul. Every scrap of me that was invested in you in any way has been stripped out and fed to you.
And now I have to watch as you delightfully tell me everything I once treasured and loved no longer exists as a husk of it flounces about in an eerily familiar manner.
I don't think you care enough, but sometimes I wish you'd see how much damage you've done.
You cannot build something only to yank away it's foundations and expect it to just stand there as though nothing happened. You do that, it crumbles, it breaks and it collapses in on itself.
You made me feel like I was everything I could be, but perhaps I was a fool for ever trusting that connection, as it was thrown back in my face so casually.
If this doesn't make sense to you it's okay. It's not meant to mean a lot to everyone. Or anyone, really.
Random Word of the Day
General | Posted 15 years agoKerfuffle.
In other news, screaming obscene things at somebody only ever works if it's not inside your head...
In other news, screaming obscene things at somebody only ever works if it's not inside your head...
There was a journal here
General | Posted 15 years agoBut I lost the will to write up anything. Feh.
Same-old same-old.
Could be doing better but I could be doing worse, so it's that state of apathetic limbo that leaves you marooned in your own thoughts for hours at a time.
There's room in the boat for more. Pull up a seat and we can have a drink or few.
Just don't put your hands in the water.
Same-old same-old.
Could be doing better but I could be doing worse, so it's that state of apathetic limbo that leaves you marooned in your own thoughts for hours at a time.
There's room in the boat for more. Pull up a seat and we can have a drink or few.
Just don't put your hands in the water.
Confession
General | Posted 15 years agoI'm not sure how to say "I'm very insecure about myself" to people when to most you're just a voice in a mind.
There is art ahead, though. You can enjoy that, even if it is the same sort of stuff re-hashed. Maybe one or two new things, depending on how it goes.
And no I do not exist solely to lounge about naked or in my boxers. I swear I wear clothes. And have feet.
There is art ahead, though. You can enjoy that, even if it is the same sort of stuff re-hashed. Maybe one or two new things, depending on how it goes.
And no I do not exist solely to lounge about naked or in my boxers. I swear I wear clothes. And have feet.
2010 Was...
General | Posted 15 years agoThe year that taught me all about liars.
Or perhaps that everything I was lead to believe was a lie and that the person I thought understood the most really did not understand me. At all.
I dislike being lead down roads only to have people double back on me.
Convenient things happened and left me stranded all the more.
So much for love, right?
Or perhaps that everything I was lead to believe was a lie and that the person I thought understood the most really did not understand me. At all.
I dislike being lead down roads only to have people double back on me.
Convenient things happened and left me stranded all the more.
So much for love, right?
Auld Lang Syne
General | Posted 15 years agoShould auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and days of auld lang syne?
For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
And surely ye’ll be your pint-stowp !
and surely I’ll be mine !
And we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
We twa hae run about the braes,
and pu’d the gowans fine ;
But we’ve wander’d mony a weary fit,
sin auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
We twa hae paidl’d i' the burn,
frae morning sun till dine ;
But seas between us braid hae roar’d
sin auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
And there’s a hand, my trusty fiere !
and gie's a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll tak a right gude-willy waught,
for auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my jo,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.Happy Holidays
General | Posted 15 years agoAnd all that jazz.
Love the people you love, tolerate the ones you hate etc etc.
Hope y'all had a good one.
You, though, need to realise how damn lucky you are.
Love the people you love, tolerate the ones you hate etc etc.
Hope y'all had a good one.
You, though, need to realise how damn lucky you are.
Sky's the limit
General | Posted 15 years agoAnd I broke it.
Anyway.
Not going anywhere, so don't worry. Will be more Ceylon-relevant art at some point.
I don't think I'm going to recover much but whatever. It'll do.
Anyway.
Not going anywhere, so don't worry. Will be more Ceylon-relevant art at some point.
I don't think I'm going to recover much but whatever. It'll do.
Current State Of Things (FA and otherwise)
General | Posted 15 years agoNo.
Just... no.
Too much bullshit going on.
Just... no.
Too much bullshit going on.
Goodbye
General | Posted 15 years agoI don't know if I'll turn up again.
Figments don't really need galleries to themselves now, do they?
So long and thanks for everything.
If you need to get into contact, note the relevent person.
Figments don't really need galleries to themselves now, do they?
So long and thanks for everything.
If you need to get into contact, note the relevent person.
Am I the Villain?
General | Posted 15 years agoWhy is it whenever I try to make a point I am immediately dismissed as selfish, demanding and obnoxious?
I'm not being hateful, or spiteful. Perhaps a little hurt but I only say how I/we feel.
But no. Apparently bringing these feelings to light instead of repeatedly hiding them under the rug is a BAD THING and warrants being shunted away even more.
Why don't you ever look at things from another perspective for once? Why is it so hard for you to see how things look from OUR side of the fence? Y'know, the side that's had absolutely shit luck this year, which doesn't look like it'll get better for the forseeable future.
Then again this will either A) fall on deaf ears, B) be seen as another personal attack or C) completely skipped by when all I want is, y'know, to help.
I'm not being hateful, or spiteful. Perhaps a little hurt but I only say how I/we feel.
But no. Apparently bringing these feelings to light instead of repeatedly hiding them under the rug is a BAD THING and warrants being shunted away even more.
Why don't you ever look at things from another perspective for once? Why is it so hard for you to see how things look from OUR side of the fence? Y'know, the side that's had absolutely shit luck this year, which doesn't look like it'll get better for the forseeable future.
Then again this will either A) fall on deaf ears, B) be seen as another personal attack or C) completely skipped by when all I want is, y'know, to help.
...
General | Posted 15 years agoI had a whole journal typed up but it's really not worth the effort when the person it was for really couldn't care less.
Suffice to say, you'll never understand what it feels like.
And it's never demanding every waking moment, which you like making it out to be. I don't. I never have. Just want some level of interaction I had before, but because that part of you is apparently defunct and usurped by this new fucking thing, I can't. Not even the simple things.
Do you know how it feels to feel disposeable? Replaceable? Utterly worthless?
It's hard to talk anymore because I'm wrong. I'm always wrong. I'm always selfish, demanding, pitiful.
But perhaps I just -am-.
Suffice to say, you'll never understand what it feels like.
And it's never demanding every waking moment, which you like making it out to be. I don't. I never have. Just want some level of interaction I had before, but because that part of you is apparently defunct and usurped by this new fucking thing, I can't. Not even the simple things.
Do you know how it feels to feel disposeable? Replaceable? Utterly worthless?
It's hard to talk anymore because I'm wrong. I'm always wrong. I'm always selfish, demanding, pitiful.
But perhaps I just -am-.
The Weepies - The World Spins Madly On
General | Posted 15 years agoWoke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on
Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on
I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still
Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on
I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBk3ynRbtsw
Lost
General | Posted 15 years agoI don't know who I am anymore.
Or better yet, I don't even know what I am anymore.
Was everything I was convinced about before just an illusion? A dream? A fantasy to some extent?
I thought I was anchored in something real. Perhaps not physical but real.
It hurts me deeply to think that, in the end, I might never have been more than a figment.
I apologise if this confuses you but I'm unsure of how I can, y'know, explain it further to make any sort of sense.
If you know, you know, though.
Or better yet, I don't even know what I am anymore.
Was everything I was convinced about before just an illusion? A dream? A fantasy to some extent?
I thought I was anchored in something real. Perhaps not physical but real.
It hurts me deeply to think that, in the end, I might never have been more than a figment.
I apologise if this confuses you but I'm unsure of how I can, y'know, explain it further to make any sort of sense.
If you know, you know, though.
Clear Skies, clear thoughts?
General | Posted 15 years agoMaybe. Still a bunch of... not good but there's not much I can do about that.
Ho damn is it getting cold, but it does leave the sky all clear sometimes.
Spookiest thing about an overcast and snowy night though is the red haze that settles over everything. When it should be pitch black, everything is a pinkish colour. And cold. But eery.
Vapour rub is the best thing ever.
Also chocolate.
Would also put in something about eating nuts (THEY'RE EVERYWHERE OKAY) but I run the risk of pun-ishment galore.
Finally, does anyone else ever look up at a starry sky and feel... homesick? Not sure how to describe it, but I do sometimes.
Ho damn is it getting cold, but it does leave the sky all clear sometimes.
Spookiest thing about an overcast and snowy night though is the red haze that settles over everything. When it should be pitch black, everything is a pinkish colour. And cold. But eery.
Vapour rub is the best thing ever.
Also chocolate.
Would also put in something about eating nuts (THEY'RE EVERYWHERE OKAY) but I run the risk of pun-ishment galore.
Finally, does anyone else ever look up at a starry sky and feel... homesick? Not sure how to describe it, but I do sometimes.
Dear Weather
General | Posted 15 years agoI don't like you right now.
Yes, frost is pretty, but not when I'm stuck out in almost sub-zero temperatures.
Currently wondering why I always forget to put on my woolies. I need them sewn into my jacket I swear.
Also, whoever invited the truck and trailer of POTENTIAL FLU/COLD to the party, gtfo.
Need lemsips in lemon flavours. Maybe a book. Some music. Hell company would be awesome.
Also a log fire. Somebody get me a log fire right now. With hot chocolate and a nice woman to cuddle me under an eider-down. Oh yeah, that'll do.
Meanwhile, back in reality, I will go back to being curled up under a blanket watching somebody play Assassin's Creed Brotherhood.
*dons woolly hat, scarf and gloves* *(||:[
Yes, frost is pretty, but not when I'm stuck out in almost sub-zero temperatures.
Currently wondering why I always forget to put on my woolies. I need them sewn into my jacket I swear.
Also, whoever invited the truck and trailer of POTENTIAL FLU/COLD to the party, gtfo.
Need lemsips in lemon flavours. Maybe a book. Some music. Hell company would be awesome.
Also a log fire. Somebody get me a log fire right now. With hot chocolate and a nice woman to cuddle me under an eider-down. Oh yeah, that'll do.
Meanwhile, back in reality, I will go back to being curled up under a blanket watching somebody play Assassin's Creed Brotherhood.
*dons woolly hat, scarf and gloves* *(||:[
Unkle - Burn My Shadow
General | Posted 15 years agoI have burned my tomorrow
And I stand inside today
At the edge of the future
And my dreams all fade away
I have burned my tomorrows
And I stand inside today
At the edge of the future
And my dreams all fade away
And burn my shadow away
And burn my shadow away
Fate's my destroyer
I was ambushed by the light
And you judged me once for falling
This wounded heart will rise
And burn my shadow away
And burn my shadow away
An' I see the light, too light for love
An' I see the light, too light for love
An' I see the light, too light for love
An' I see the light, too light for love
An' I see the light, too light for love
Burn my shadow
An' I see the light, too light for love
Oh...
An' I see the light, too light for love
Burn my shadow
An' I see the light, too light for love
Away
And burn my shadow away
And burn my shadow away
Oh, how I loved youIf you can't keep a good dog down, shoot it.
General | Posted 15 years agoNot sure you know how it feels to be kicked in the teeth every. Single. Day.
Being reminded that no, you're not there, nor were you ever there. That you're nothing anymore.
No, you don't know how that feels and neither do you care.
It doesn't matter to you if I hurt, if I long for the company I was used to. Not even the extras bother me anymore, no. I'm no longer recognised and shunned near constantly to the point that... there are no tender hugs. No hellos, goodbyes or moments.
It's just a kick in the teeth and a point in the opposite direction, like a needlessly scolded dog. A dog that has no idea why it's being kicked out and away from the only love it's ever known. A dog that remains ever loyal and unconditionally loving, that you turn to for the smallest amounts of affection on your terms and yours alone. Any other attempts recieve the cold shoulder.
You said you'd always want your alium, nomatter what happens.
Well, she's here. She always will be here, regardless of how appreciated it is or not.
Fortunately there are one or two people willing to tolerate her.
Being reminded that no, you're not there, nor were you ever there. That you're nothing anymore.
No, you don't know how that feels and neither do you care.
It doesn't matter to you if I hurt, if I long for the company I was used to. Not even the extras bother me anymore, no. I'm no longer recognised and shunned near constantly to the point that... there are no tender hugs. No hellos, goodbyes or moments.
It's just a kick in the teeth and a point in the opposite direction, like a needlessly scolded dog. A dog that has no idea why it's being kicked out and away from the only love it's ever known. A dog that remains ever loyal and unconditionally loving, that you turn to for the smallest amounts of affection on your terms and yours alone. Any other attempts recieve the cold shoulder.
You said you'd always want your alium, nomatter what happens.
Well, she's here. She always will be here, regardless of how appreciated it is or not.
Fortunately there are one or two people willing to tolerate her.
Something I Don't Like
General | Posted 15 years agoIs the occasional, rage-fueled desire to just rip you apart because of my own inadequacies.
As though pulling you to pieces would make it all go away.
It won't nothing will, but it still happens.
Also, I'm fucking cold.
As though pulling you to pieces would make it all go away.
It won't nothing will, but it still happens.
Also, I'm fucking cold.
Sarah McLachlan - When She Loved Me
General | Posted 15 years agoWhen somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me.
Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.
So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "I will always love you."
Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me. 