So much has happen lost so much and if you guys are still there sound of so i can find you guys again. Hope you all been well . Holla at your girl !


..... sorry about that , lil hyper from choco coffee smothie thingy .

So one thing I love is gaming .Saw a add for the dating game Amourus . Figured what the hell right ? Well I never downloaded it because when I got to the site knew it was sketchy as fuck.

Whelp my mate dose it anyway . Sound drive crashes video crashes . Had to get ride of it and restart my comp. Heads up FA you are advertising a program that hurts comps . -__-

Now just waiting to see if credit information was stolen of steam . Wish my mate actual thought first before he let his dick download a game that could have stole information while I had my steam up and checking my banking.

: D So hey guys if you wanna play a cool game called fuck your shit up play Amourus . I swear it's like FA dose not even check it's ads.

Soooo things got kinda bad ,But! Turned out for the best , with how well I am becoming now . I let my self get so sick that I had lost the abilities to think coherently ,speak properly and even walk. I have my Thyroid medicine now , got some of the infection removed and source removed. I can walk again and trying to lose weight . As you seen by my submission ,working my way back into drawing .

Sorry for the link posted with it but was super hyped and that was the song I was listing to . I need to draw more steam and metal themed stoofs.

Oh finally have an apartment and loving it . Was rough for a while but now we have a nice lil set up . Friends come over now and again for tea . Honestly would like some more but life can't be parties 24/7 lol ....d-don't tell Andrew that because ...

PARTY HARD !!!

Geez guys I see a lot of you droping left and right in my leave and I wonder what happen. I don't know but I hope every one is ok .

I also been looking back at my comments , profile and old art post . I see how I was and how I am now and realize . Life has taught me hard lessons I needed to learn . So much so I cringe at the 2009 self .

I duno just life is fucking good guys....If you stuck it out with me you know far to well what has come from this profile and me .To finally sit here and fucking enjoy the breeze . Thank you My friends , my family ,my loves . Thank you for helping me see this moment in life

To those I lost I still mourn you and never forgive my self for being a ass .

Still hate that I have not finished my set goals like my GED.

OH!

But I did finally finish one of my dreams. I made the perfect biscuit from scratch . Look wise was done about a week ago and today. I stopped dead in my tracks with my tea pot ,almost dropping it when I got the flavor right. Actually turned to Zach and said I have no idea what to do with my life now . Then I realized I had dishes to do and I am a home maker now .Lol

Still poly and still pansexual tho my patience for some has diminished since I learned more about polyamory .

I miss shimi I wonder how he is...

The groups normally stop discussion the main topics and just turned into adult complaining about dick pics . ugh

Also got a fav new saying . "Not my monkies, not my circus .Not my problem" It has helped me a lot since I love to do my job keeping the peace in groups I am in. I am not a Mod here so I should not comment . not my monkies lol

I also need to find me some overall jeans but can't find any . It's so frustraighting sick of force slacking . I am not trying to be all in the hipity hop jive . Just to dam fluffy and squishy . Says I am like a giant boob .

I am not a booby ,I am a potatoe and I believe in you .

So the crime in the world is just crazy now...>..> well it has always been crazy . That's never gonna change.

Chaos !!!!!!!!!

Oh Recently got me a soft figurine of boba fett . Loving it so much and figure I might join a Mandalorian Merch clan . They are a bunch of fans cosplayers who wear the armor and got together to form lore clans .

Oh also some thing new I discovered Dark horse publishes Aliens,Predator, AVP, and promithius comics . Along with other comics that I would be living in a box if I gave into my fangirling .

Fangargaling poping in my head .

Some are a interesting read . But I gotta go , need a drink I can feel my sinus well from dehydration because of taking to long to write a journal .

Be safe and be good . Love peace and sooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuullllllll!

Give away time ,I will be giving away a game code for Hammerwatch .One on facebook and one on FA .Contest ends weds and then names will be drawn .

Furries making fun of furries who are hybrids if they have more then 4 species in them.Because you know such a thing is funny right? Just like some one with more than 4 racial back grounds is funny right? yeah lets all laugh and make fun of them for having more then a pur breed in them .>.> Fucking racisim on a furry level that is specisim .I know i made the joke one day it would happen . But honestly see it, this fucking soon.Also the fact a simple "no offence given" magicly makes it better. Yeah walk up to someone in the lgbt community and call the faggots and say "no offence given"see what happens . Or how about we start screaming racial slurs? because you know "no offensive given" is that magic word that makes it all better.


I'm sorry, but I have seen decay in the fandom. But this is just a rot that will never go away.Now that it is a fad to be a furry.Just for the sake of swag? Makes me want to throw up .But then again A furry is not a other kin so making fun of their spirit creature is no big deal to them .Since it just a fandom and you know .No offence given .

No longer homeless ! Yaay! Also got back to my streaming and crafts!Mine become a fur suit crafter well hand paws to start off with. I am loving the pillows I am making from shirts. If the hand paws turn pout ok I will sell them but the first sets that are gonna be odd will probly be givin away free to friends. XD

Yaaay I am heading to furry fiesta in texas. I hope to meet all my old friends from the last one and some new ones. Claw I promise I will find you and I will hug you boss.XD I miss going onto furcadia I wish they did not delete my account but oh well.

I am going with my mate Zach so I will be showing him off. : D maybe I might meet some one special there and and some one new to my Poly Family . Or goof off and run around like a fool like last year .Lol

Well at the title says ,my master got in trouble his engine caught on fire and i thought i do drawings/donations for him.If you know me i normaly do not do this but for him and if this works out well i will do it for other friends .Who might need cash for rent or food. But this one is for my master.


I think i will do a drawing a donation , I would say a $1 min for a drawing but fucking paypal dose a$0.30 charge in fees and other fee if some one id not in the states. XD So i would not like to be in debit so lets say $2.00 min - what ever you feel like giving. I am not the best artist but dam it i will try my hardest and face it. It not a hundred dollars and it is going to a goods cause .

I will literaly draw any thing . If you like my lineart more then fuck yeah .If you like my flat colors can do.if you want a full shaded ...yeah can not gurantee it will be godly i am hit in miss on those. So be a pimp and hire this art slave.Doooooooooo it!


*shakes her boobies around* You know you wanna :D

Well i learned this. if i want life to be better i need to make it better. If no one else will try the dam it i will.

I am going on vacation you can say or simply .I am leaving the fandom .I am giving up being an artist. Honestly stress is tot eh point i give up so i am seeking help. I am some one who has depression but for the sake of my mate have forgone comitting my self . So much pain from just body being sick,mind being sick,the normal temdingto my family helping them live better lives. I do not feel sad for i helped better so many i feel i can finaly relax in peace. So all account i have even to do with art i am deactivating .Skype facebook all gone. I am tired of taking time from others just to help some fix there lifes. True it dose them good but it also hurts that one.my guardian is sadly one of said furs. A love i never took the time to grow and florish.Every one has a mate and there not killing them selfs anymore so i am at peace with this.Im going to be selfish and tend to my self for once. I let work consume me. Most of my friends are probly laughing at me saying working but. Gosh so much from running forums to game staff. To testing programs,to late night studying. A shoulder to cry on to fashion consultant.


One thing i hated about my self was the farses i always put up always acting to pervy . Or to strict hell only people who seen me for the real me. I mean the real me are zach ,snow flake ,shimi , and bryan but even still there sides of me they never seen. Gawd i have evolved and changed so much over time. I do not know who i am any more in the scene is my mind is not writ . Infection and meds side effect have takken its tole. I know i will get trolled for this but i rather have my last say before i can niot grasp relaity any more. Even my friends here . I look at names and pics and wonder who are you? With help of my family i was able to fight a long time . But all things have an end. So ether in a padded room or just laying in my bed.
Traped in my own Insanity i am just letting go.

So with these last words of clarity before i slip into madness i say this. Be good : )

High mother of the florindals . The whole species started from her . Creatures from earth ,nature ,and darkness . Christina Amethyst Stoneflower once proud earth dragon who died .Losing her body to the anceint evil she had seal inside her. Protecting her old mate and young but failed. Time passed she recreated her body from the void she was lost to . Many called her a heartless from a game she her self once loved to play . Who could blame them a person bursting forth from the shadows.With her sick humor she went with it . Spending a few years in her new body.She managed to recover some strength ,going back to her realm to her castle remains. to find the bones of her love and the child . She felt somethign stiring inside her as her home came back to life.She bursted twards the throne room .Through the gaping hole in the walls to the door.her safe room she opened it and fell to her knees crying. Her two trusted servants and her first born still lived ! She smelt there scent through the miles of forest and flowers the dementinal room held locked away. Letting out a roar thundering the plains she jolted as she herd from the other side miles away a roar called back. Reunited with her loved one burring her love and there child she lived on . She begin her toil in her labs augmenting her body bring it back from shadow . Not dead not living . Fusing with animals and plant she recreated her self. Remebering what that one person called her. She marked her self ,Cutting the heartless logo onto her body . She healed almost instantly but the new area was black.She needed to study this some day but not today for she had other plans. The stone that once grew on her belly now only seemed to affect her scales in color . Took her long to relize she was a earth dragon no more. what she was...was an abamonation. So she sought out more of her kind . So she took a mate for her own . A husky she turned her world into a new one more fruitfull and ever growing. A world bathed in dusk . The females of florindals are born in eggs as the males are born live birth .From observations males grew hostile in eggs eaters and killers of all thing. Shocked by this she altered her form. She gave her self two vaginal canals one where only males can be born and one females can only be born. Her bordy produces toxins that killed the other sex sperm to make sure of this. Males developed twin cocks but so did the females yet there were fakes . Clits That grew to mimic the males but did not produce sperm unless no males where around. So all females were herms . She wanted to make sure her kind would thrive . There block genitals and exposed skin not covered my scales all glowed . This was due to the light of the world.The glowing signaled arousal and time for mating. Year past she mother ,great mother, ancestral mother of millions of her kind. Time passed slow in her world . Her kind did not die nor age there was no need for it. But that did not make them gods sure age could not take them but sickness and injury could . She saw many of her young die but that was expected. She loved being there seeing the newborn being born . Makeing sure males where always given milk from there mothers or her own breast. Marking them with special marks for each tribe .as they drank. Long ago she figured to give her kind breast not for food since they eat mostly fruits in this world .That the milk would tame the males making them calmer and more female . but the more milk they drank made them more female. she even noticed over time some males when drinking to long turned into females a slit forming under there cocks . She always pondered if this is why the females had the click cocks but what made them change? What made then less agressive .She never put the time in this since monitoring the males and there flesh craving ways. She did not want her own eating each other. But being her own they had her curiusity . They to traveled the world using the darkness in them to make portals to go to the other realms to find mates and start lifes . She knew what they were upto and encouraged it at times . Telling them if they ever asked what you are tell them you are a royal heartless. Rubbing the swollen egg filled belly of hers .The royal creast on it that she was only allowed to wear.

So i am creating a new species ! Coming up a world how they are born . The whole kit and kabootle . Also explains why i choose the name royal heartless for them. It actualy has to do with my kind leaving our world and when every one from this one. Sees us enter they called us heartless . So to mock them we go with the name and call our selfs royal heartless . But that is not what our true species is. We have our symbol a winged heart . The mark is placed upon us by the queen who ,researched why we was being called this and went with it ! Needless to say wen she went to earth she fell in love with games and the strange planets customs. Most other worlds she visited only had a few things she liked about it but this one had potential as she said.

Honestly my story was not going to be like this but every one keeps tagging me as kingdom hearts copyright . For a purple heart with thorns . So i went with it and became a heartless . Since i was made from darkness and a fan of the game. SO yet again i am roling with it. I am a mad queen i say a mad one muahahaha

done streaming thanks for veiwng

http://www.livestream.com/dragonmedianetwork WITH MORE BADASS ATUDE

so for those who do not know i will be live streaming some game play the new pokemon hentai game. http://www.livestream.com/dragonmedianetwork

come watch me play borderlands and the crappy quality because i have no idea how to broad cast live on my ps3 . http://www.livestream.com/DragonMed.....etwork?t=63515

so i disided to give this a try.any one else out there who plays ?

Know this my friends . We were all noobs at one point in our life's . No one had it harder no one had it easier. We all had to work hard and aspire to what we have became today.But we also remember ,every now and again. We had some one stronger then us . Pick us up and help us threw one challenge and give us a hint on how to move forward. So remember if you see some one down and struggling do not flaunt what you have and taunt them. Show them and guide them. You never know one day the lvl 15 newbie . might become the lvl 50 night that saves your life.This is a lesson ,life,sports, games,and survivole teaches us . Just because we all learn it differently . Dose not mean , it is not true. We all had a hand at becoming what we are today,And most importantly .What we can become tomorrow.

You know it saddens me to say this but. in my oppinon borderlands 2 is not as good as the original. i think becuase i might have been playing one with my brother. I realy did enjoy the bonding time and the fun we had. but the new one he has not got it yet. so i had to solo it. ...When i bought the game i was insulted by the guy at the register...was bullied into getting extra content which i keep saying no thank you but *sigh* ....T__T so i spent a a fortune on a game i do not like and for a bad bad day. i feel so guilty money could have been used for me and huskers....so i could not even play it for nine hour with out the urge to cry and throw up.....then more helish stuff happend so in a game review not as good as one so far...and no it is not like i did not get far i got in game by two bosses and got my first gold named wep from the first mini boss.....i know it was luck but still i feel kinda...well cheated...i would have liked to have workd harder for my first gold color revolver.

ok i just saw a yogcast play of guild wars 2 and i might get it. Dose any one play it ? or should i just renew my WoW account and find a furrie friendly server and start anew. I am bored of AQW i am maxed out lvl wise and as for mine craft only got one person to play with and he is barely on . so i am thinking of new games time.

So i am back from texas every one. I can back kinda early becuase a friend of mine almost micarried and she needed my help. But we were able to get my husbans court info done and every thing is A ok now. so my husklers is not going to jail lol.

i do not know this but is it the same with every one ? As in do you need proof of your drving history to settle a defensive drving course ? i know heer in louisisana no you do not. but in texas yeah you do. D: almost could not make it back becuase they were to lazy to print and get the papers them self so we had to pay for it.

but all is good. we got to have fun with his dog brody and say hellow to his mom. XD when we left we forgot the tv was riged to see what se was watching so. we were shocked to se um >////> adult movie playing .

needless to say it was yiffy time....and after dinner in the kitchen....then again on the couch....v//w//v

BUT I HAVE A UKULALE NOW ! also zach fliped out that i can diaphram growl like metal sigers can like deathklok fo example.ahh but that was my trip in a nut shell .


OH ARBYS IS FREACKING TASTY !!!!

Ok my sia program io have figured out a lot about it that gets me by but. i used to be able to controll the preassur on it . but for some reason the pressure stoped working a long long time ago....now that i am some what desent with my other skills this i need to get back up and running since. my line work ...god could be better. So please if you have any advice on how to fix the prreasure problem please tell me. ~C.A.S

Ok i need opinons on my line less art ? is it getting better? can any other artist out there give me some tips on it ? I am tired of working hard on shading and coloring just to have the line work ruin the pic.