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Furry hang out on Saturday 25th of May
Posted 12 years agoMe and my Furry room mate are hosting a furry and kinkster party on Saturday, May 25th, while our room mates are out of town. Its kind of a kinkster and furry mixer, so anyone who wants to come has to be at least 18 =( sorry. BYOB if you want to drink. House is in South Tampa. Message me for details =3
I was almost killed today
Posted 14 years agoIts weird for me to hear myself say that, but it's true. I am somewhat burned out on telling the story, and really feeling exhausted and achy, but I kind of want to journal it, just to help remind myself how fragile life is.
I was on my way home from work, the typical drive I take every day. Rush hour, everyone is barely crawling, stopping, moving a little faster, slowing, and then stopping again. It's like this from the moment I get on the highway.
I need the left lane. I slowly make my way into the center lane, much against my own usual paranoias, between two semi trucks with trailers. The one in back is lagging behind, I only probably assume in my mind because of slow accelleration, I never really thought it was possibly because he was paying no fucking attention to the road.
move. stop. move. stop. Its typical rush-hour, and I boredly stare at the back of the truck in front of me, occasionally glancing to the left lane to see if a spot had opened up yet. I was stopped now, my car about a carlength back from the front truck, when suddenly my car is slammed into from behind like a wrecking ball. I am immediately lurched back, while my car is thrown forward weightlessly like a ping pong ball. With another slam, I hit the back of the other truck, my entire body snapping forward painfully as both airbags burst.
At first, I just looked around, and I think I might have made a whimper sound. Its all somewhat a blurr. A man ran up to my door, tapped on the glass, and when I couldn't bring myself to respond, he tugged the door open and asked me if I was okay. I was, mostly... thankfully... though I couldn't even speak to tell him so. I was in shock
The motherfucker who hit my car tried to claim that I hit the other truck first. I don't even know why he would try to claim something like that, other than him litterally (im not exhagerating, even the police officer on the scene confirmed this) being just... insane. There was something mentally wrong with him. HOW DID HE GET A BIG RIG LICENSE?!?!!?
Enough of that. To the point, I find myself grateful that I hadn't been very close to the other rig; my car was weightless scrap metal compared to the two trucks. Had he not flung my car into the back of the other truck, and instead, sandwhiched my car in between them (as he claimed happened), my car would have crumpled like tin-foil, and I would have been crushed in the wreckage.
Listen to your instincts when you drive. It's the only thing that saved my life. I usually am too afraid to even put myself between Semi's, but I let myself slip this time, and it was almost the last
I was on my way home from work, the typical drive I take every day. Rush hour, everyone is barely crawling, stopping, moving a little faster, slowing, and then stopping again. It's like this from the moment I get on the highway.
I need the left lane. I slowly make my way into the center lane, much against my own usual paranoias, between two semi trucks with trailers. The one in back is lagging behind, I only probably assume in my mind because of slow accelleration, I never really thought it was possibly because he was paying no fucking attention to the road.
move. stop. move. stop. Its typical rush-hour, and I boredly stare at the back of the truck in front of me, occasionally glancing to the left lane to see if a spot had opened up yet. I was stopped now, my car about a carlength back from the front truck, when suddenly my car is slammed into from behind like a wrecking ball. I am immediately lurched back, while my car is thrown forward weightlessly like a ping pong ball. With another slam, I hit the back of the other truck, my entire body snapping forward painfully as both airbags burst.
At first, I just looked around, and I think I might have made a whimper sound. Its all somewhat a blurr. A man ran up to my door, tapped on the glass, and when I couldn't bring myself to respond, he tugged the door open and asked me if I was okay. I was, mostly... thankfully... though I couldn't even speak to tell him so. I was in shock
The motherfucker who hit my car tried to claim that I hit the other truck first. I don't even know why he would try to claim something like that, other than him litterally (im not exhagerating, even the police officer on the scene confirmed this) being just... insane. There was something mentally wrong with him. HOW DID HE GET A BIG RIG LICENSE?!?!!?
Enough of that. To the point, I find myself grateful that I hadn't been very close to the other rig; my car was weightless scrap metal compared to the two trucks. Had he not flung my car into the back of the other truck, and instead, sandwhiched my car in between them (as he claimed happened), my car would have crumpled like tin-foil, and I would have been crushed in the wreckage.
Listen to your instincts when you drive. It's the only thing that saved my life. I usually am too afraid to even put myself between Semi's, but I let myself slip this time, and it was almost the last
BEWARE if you have Chase Bank
Posted 15 years agoIf you have Chase, look at the back of your debit card. If it has this:
http://cache.u47.net/11703/blink/im.....of_card_lg.gif
Your shit is going to get stolen. It's called blink.... it allows you to use your card without actually swiping it. It's supposed to let you just wave your card near a credit card machine rather than having to swipe it through. What idiocy is that? All that is going to accomplish is allowing your account number to transmit from your wallet like a beacon. It happened to me; a few months ago I had some fraudulent charges on my card. I didn't know how somebody got my card info, I'm usually REALLY careful. Turns out, crooks can buy something called a scanner, and carry it in their pocket. All they have to do is walk close enough to you (or accidentally 'bump' into you) and the scanner collects the card data because of the card's BLINK feature.
Anyway, if you have Chase, and see the blink logo on the back of your card, walk into a chase bank, tell them they are a raving group of fucktards, and demand a card without it. Chase knows full well the risks of the Blink feature, and doesn't even give their customers foreknowledge of the risks. I actually didn't even ask for blink, it was just standard at the branch I signed up for my account at. So you may have it too and not realize it.
Anyway, don't continue walking around with one of these cards. Its not a question of if your card info is going to get stolen, more a question of when
http://cache.u47.net/11703/blink/im.....of_card_lg.gif
Your shit is going to get stolen. It's called blink.... it allows you to use your card without actually swiping it. It's supposed to let you just wave your card near a credit card machine rather than having to swipe it through. What idiocy is that? All that is going to accomplish is allowing your account number to transmit from your wallet like a beacon. It happened to me; a few months ago I had some fraudulent charges on my card. I didn't know how somebody got my card info, I'm usually REALLY careful. Turns out, crooks can buy something called a scanner, and carry it in their pocket. All they have to do is walk close enough to you (or accidentally 'bump' into you) and the scanner collects the card data because of the card's BLINK feature.
Anyway, if you have Chase, and see the blink logo on the back of your card, walk into a chase bank, tell them they are a raving group of fucktards, and demand a card without it. Chase knows full well the risks of the Blink feature, and doesn't even give their customers foreknowledge of the risks. I actually didn't even ask for blink, it was just standard at the branch I signed up for my account at. So you may have it too and not realize it.
Anyway, don't continue walking around with one of these cards. Its not a question of if your card info is going to get stolen, more a question of when
OMG
Posted 15 years agoI has a foot.
o.O
o.O
Me, naked
Posted 16 years agoI posted an image of myself, I welcome you to see it if you like. It is me, naked. Its pretty current. You can read the explanation before seeing it if you like.
http://chaca.deviantart.com/art/Nud.....nity-142362247
This is a study. Why are we so self-conscious with our bodies? Why is it we hide ourselves? I just have trouble understanding it at times. This is a study of that I suppose. What is it that I should hide, and why do clothes manage to do this? Why is it my sexual parts be any different than anything else? I'm no model. I don't belong in a magazine. You see just me, an average normal male. My body isn't sculpted like a god. But why should this be shameful? I am going to allow this to be seen for the next 24-48 hours. I am just curious what kind of responses I will get. Will you think of me differently, now that you've seen me nude? Some might say I'm courageous, or maybe even stupid.. for doing this. But.. why? What have I lost? Hasn't any other male on the planet got about the same parts? Why do I have to hide?
http://chaca.deviantart.com/art/Nud.....nity-142362247
This is a study. Why are we so self-conscious with our bodies? Why is it we hide ourselves? I just have trouble understanding it at times. This is a study of that I suppose. What is it that I should hide, and why do clothes manage to do this? Why is it my sexual parts be any different than anything else? I'm no model. I don't belong in a magazine. You see just me, an average normal male. My body isn't sculpted like a god. But why should this be shameful? I am going to allow this to be seen for the next 24-48 hours. I am just curious what kind of responses I will get. Will you think of me differently, now that you've seen me nude? Some might say I'm courageous, or maybe even stupid.. for doing this. But.. why? What have I lost? Hasn't any other male on the planet got about the same parts? Why do I have to hide?
Auro's weird Knock-knock Joke
Posted 16 years ago
auro[22:05] auro: lol.. knock
[22:05] tlkchaca: who's there?
[22:05] auro: us?
[22:05] tlkchaca: us who?
[22:05] auro: lol get online if you can too
[22:05] tlkchaca: that's the weirdest knock-knock joke i've ever heard >.>
*laughs histerically and insanely... and then.. blinks*
Making fun of the french
Posted 16 years agoOkay, not really. I just am being weird. On facebook... I don't know why... some people sent me a message completely in french. I don't speak french, nor do I know how these people decided to message me on their list. No matter.. an opportunity to mess with someone must not go to waste! So.. I plugged their message into Babelfish.yahoo.com and translated it to get the gist of what was said. Then, I typed up a response of complete nonsense, and will run it back through babelfish to send back to them. They... of course, will hopefully just think my french is VERY bad and make fun of me. We'll see where this goes ;) I will post both (english and french) versions of the messages passed back and forth below. We'll see how fun this gets XD
Original message from them:
Bonjour tout le monde,
La vidéo 10 h le mag est désormais en ligne sur le lien du groupe.
Bon reportage à tous, moment très émouvant !
Amicalement.
Amandine et Marie.
((Roughly Translated: Hello everyone, The video 10:00 the mag is from now on on line on the bond of the group. Good report with all, moment very moving! In a friendly way. Amandine and Marie.))
My Response:
Hello my little tomatoes.
I would like cheese for my small mule party. Where are my pink hats? One time I laughed so hard bologna came out of my nose.
This message will self destruct in ten seconds
That is all.
((Rough translation to french: Bonjour mes petites tomates. Je voudrais le fromage pour ma petite partie de mule. Où sont mes chapeaux roses ? Une fois j'ai ri ainsi Bologna dur est sorti de mon nez. Ce message destruction d'individu en dix secondes C'est tout.))
Original message from them:
Bonjour tout le monde,
La vidéo 10 h le mag est désormais en ligne sur le lien du groupe.
Bon reportage à tous, moment très émouvant !
Amicalement.
Amandine et Marie.
((Roughly Translated: Hello everyone, The video 10:00 the mag is from now on on line on the bond of the group. Good report with all, moment very moving! In a friendly way. Amandine and Marie.))
My Response:
Hello my little tomatoes.
I would like cheese for my small mule party. Where are my pink hats? One time I laughed so hard bologna came out of my nose.
This message will self destruct in ten seconds
That is all.
((Rough translation to french: Bonjour mes petites tomates. Je voudrais le fromage pour ma petite partie de mule. Où sont mes chapeaux roses ? Une fois j'ai ri ainsi Bologna dur est sorti de mon nez. Ce message destruction d'individu en dix secondes C'est tout.))
My Friends... Can you forgive me?
Posted 16 years agoI've been neglecting you. I've been so busy... school and work. But even moreso... the few free moments I seem to get, I allow one person to take almost exclusively. I feel as though I sacrificed all of you for the sake of this one friendship.
If you won't forgive me, I will understand. I was selfish, and didn't work to keep my bridges open. It put a lot into perspective. My local friends... and... even my net-friends: Can you forgive me? I learned a harsh lesson from this, and I only hope that maybe some of my bridges aren't burned down entirely.
If you won't forgive me, I will understand. I was selfish, and didn't work to keep my bridges open. It put a lot into perspective. My local friends... and... even my net-friends: Can you forgive me? I learned a harsh lesson from this, and I only hope that maybe some of my bridges aren't burned down entirely.
The change of a Fursona
Posted 17 years agoWhen I was still married, still with my ex.. she gave me a choice. She finally gave me an option to make a character. I could make him anything I wanted him to be, do anything as him that I wanted, and basically have total freedom. It was a means for me to be homosexual through the net.
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/364530/
That was when I made Tobu. He is my bunny character. I could have made him any species, any personality, any color.. any gender even. He was my embrace of complete freedom. He was me.. not caring what others thought. I didn't try to make him act straight, or care what others thought of the fact that he had glasses:
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/1670697/
or the fact that he was a little bit geeky. Or even moreso.. I embraced the fact that he was a bunny.. he enjoyed being submissive.. and playing around with those he cared about. The bunny.. I hadn't realized until now.. is me. I made him me in pretty much every aspect. My ex helped me really see that tonight, more than anything else. I think it was mostly the realization that when given absolute choice on what I wanted him to be.. and by extension, what I wanted to be... I chose each little characteristic that made him who he is. So... I guess what Im saying.. is.. that.. From now on.. I am a rabbit. Hear me make squeeky rabbit noises
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/364530/
That was when I made Tobu. He is my bunny character. I could have made him any species, any personality, any color.. any gender even. He was my embrace of complete freedom. He was me.. not caring what others thought. I didn't try to make him act straight, or care what others thought of the fact that he had glasses:
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/1670697/
or the fact that he was a little bit geeky. Or even moreso.. I embraced the fact that he was a bunny.. he enjoyed being submissive.. and playing around with those he cared about. The bunny.. I hadn't realized until now.. is me. I made him me in pretty much every aspect. My ex helped me really see that tonight, more than anything else. I think it was mostly the realization that when given absolute choice on what I wanted him to be.. and by extension, what I wanted to be... I chose each little characteristic that made him who he is. So... I guess what Im saying.. is.. that.. From now on.. I am a rabbit. Hear me make squeeky rabbit noises
No matter what.. never forget...
Posted 17 years agoGiant clown penises cum children
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOXnxmlEkY0
Oh, by the way, mute it, cause it's stupid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOXnxmlEkY0
Oh, by the way, mute it, cause it's stupid
Video game kinks?
Posted 17 years agoLet's bring these sexy characters out from the console to our wet dreams shall we? Human or furry, they got it all.
1: Shadow (Shadow the Hedgehog) ((OH MY GOD I WOULD BE HIS SLAVE O.o ))
2: Sora (Kingdom Hearts)
3: Tabaxi (A very lickable race.. in OBLIVION)
4: Roo ( Streets of Rage 3 (Old school!!))
5: Jak ( Jak and Daxter Series)
6: Fox Mcloud ( Star fox)
7: Sly Cooper ( Sly Cooper Series)
8: Nightcrawler (Xmen Series)
9: Nanaki/Red XIII ( Final Fantasy VII)
10: Kimahri ( Final Fantasy X)
11: Shadow the Hedgehog (Shadow and Sonic Series) ((yes! he deserves a second entry!))
12: Ness ( Earthbound)
13: Spyro the dragon (from.. well.. Spyro the dragon)
14: Felicia (Dark Stalkers) ((she has always brought the purr out in me))
and finally.. last but certainly not least...
*Drumroll*
15: Shadow (Shadow the Hedgehog) ((I can't get enough of him =O_O= ))
Now it is your turn to post your top 15 or even 10.
I tag the Following:
dorn
Dassu
porsche098rune
Drakenhartt
StarrLion
Ihsman07
Ongan
autotraumatic
1: Shadow (Shadow the Hedgehog) ((OH MY GOD I WOULD BE HIS SLAVE O.o ))
2: Sora (Kingdom Hearts)
3: Tabaxi (A very lickable race.. in OBLIVION)
4: Roo ( Streets of Rage 3 (Old school!!))
5: Jak ( Jak and Daxter Series)
6: Fox Mcloud ( Star fox)
7: Sly Cooper ( Sly Cooper Series)
8: Nightcrawler (Xmen Series)
9: Nanaki/Red XIII ( Final Fantasy VII)
10: Kimahri ( Final Fantasy X)
11: Shadow the Hedgehog (Shadow and Sonic Series) ((yes! he deserves a second entry!))
12: Ness ( Earthbound)
13: Spyro the dragon (from.. well.. Spyro the dragon)
14: Felicia (Dark Stalkers) ((she has always brought the purr out in me))
and finally.. last but certainly not least...
*Drumroll*
15: Shadow (Shadow the Hedgehog) ((I can't get enough of him =O_O= ))
Now it is your turn to post your top 15 or even 10.
I tag the Following:
dorn
Dassu
porsche098rune
Drakenhartt
StarrLion
Ihsman07
Ongan
autotraumaticPsycho or not?
Posted 17 years agoI never know whether it's my own psychological depression talking, or if it really is how I see it. I told my best friend in this city today that I was dating Hanzo. He seemed okay at first, but now he seems like he is avoiding me. Damn it.. my depressive nature is screaming at me "you ruined the friendship. He doesn't like fags" but I've learned over the years to tune that out. It usually is just my mind, and not really what is going on. BUT.. nonetheless... I can't help but worry that he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. It would suck if it was. Yah, those of you with like 20 friends could say "well screw him, he's an asshole if he doesn't accept you".. but.. well.. I only have a couple friends... = I hope I'm wrong..
Why gay marriage is wrong. (taken from everybody)
Posted 17 years ago1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
I know this thing is worn out, but I love it. It makes me chuckle every time. I wanted to keep and share it; what better way of doing that then putting it in my journal?
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
I know this thing is worn out, but I love it. It makes me chuckle every time. I wanted to keep and share it; what better way of doing that then putting it in my journal?
I love you guys
Posted 17 years agoThose of you who stick with me and help me through these times where my emotions walk over me, empowered by the words of others, I love ya. If I could ctrl+alt+Del and end the task of "fucking screwed up emotions" I would XD You guys are great. I have to be slapped back into focus every now and then... and those of you who really care manage to do that. For that I will be forever greatful. As for my art.. I have no intention of stopping, I just had to get all the sadness and anger out.
Anyway.. yep... here's my latest work. I'm rather pleased with it. Who cares what others think? ;)
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/1283042/
Anyway.. yep... here's my latest work. I'm rather pleased with it. Who cares what others think? ;)
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/1283042/
Too Bad! XD
Posted 17 years agoI did Karaoke tonight again. Luff it. I would make a recording for you to hear if you're curious, but.. well.. I used up my voice. My best song yet, 'White Wedding' by Billy Idol was also Ironically the song that made my voice go after the song was done. OMG did I get applauds though. Luff it!! Rock is definitely my Genre. My two best songs so far: "Loser" by 3 doors down, and "White wedding" by Billy idol. Keep in mind.. i'm not good.. at all. I just sound good when you're drunk.. if that XD
My furst Furry Convention!
Posted 17 years agoWell... these last 3 days I was at AFF (all fur fun) 2008. Where to start? I really enjoyed it and found myself sad to leave. A lot of surprising firsts, I will say that. I met a lot of furs there, and have a good amount of new friends =)
Uhm.. hmm.. fresh on my mind, topic one: Are all the fur cons at times just big... orgies? Or just this one particularly. o.O Everyone was having sex with everyone else it seemed like. I just can't see giving yourself entirely to someone you don't know. But it kinda felt like that was what everyone did. "oh... gods yes! mmm.. harder... what's your name again??". Needless to say, it made me feel a tad left-out at times. I would kind of leave so that others could have sex. I didn't want to join in.. I need emotional connection to not regret sex. I'm kind of odd I guess.
heh.
Uhm, great shows there! Tons of fun =) A lot of games and stuff, and time to get to know some of the other furries. I had trouble getting myself to talk to a lot of them though. Urgh.. I don't know why I'm so horribly shy, I figured I wouldn't be around furries, but I was. There was this one really cute guy, a white wolf named Will. I finally got up the courage (only after a couple drinks, sadly) to walk up and talk with him some at the big furry dance though.
Oh!! The dance! ^.^ This was the first like... rave-type thingy i've ever been to. Annnnnnd.... *whisper* i never danced 'til now. >.> <.<
I think I did okay though. I got a glow stick too. I need to figure out how to open up socially. The fox I went to the convention with said I dance good. Weeee! ^.^ I miss my friends already. I'm gonna contact them. Oh, and one of them i'm gonna be doing an art trade with ^.^
yah.. so any way *bounces up and down* that was it! ^.^ I also got a purple little stuffed bunny there
Uhm.. hmm.. fresh on my mind, topic one: Are all the fur cons at times just big... orgies? Or just this one particularly. o.O Everyone was having sex with everyone else it seemed like. I just can't see giving yourself entirely to someone you don't know. But it kinda felt like that was what everyone did. "oh... gods yes! mmm.. harder... what's your name again??". Needless to say, it made me feel a tad left-out at times. I would kind of leave so that others could have sex. I didn't want to join in.. I need emotional connection to not regret sex. I'm kind of odd I guess.
heh.
Uhm, great shows there! Tons of fun =) A lot of games and stuff, and time to get to know some of the other furries. I had trouble getting myself to talk to a lot of them though. Urgh.. I don't know why I'm so horribly shy, I figured I wouldn't be around furries, but I was. There was this one really cute guy, a white wolf named Will. I finally got up the courage (only after a couple drinks, sadly) to walk up and talk with him some at the big furry dance though.
Oh!! The dance! ^.^ This was the first like... rave-type thingy i've ever been to. Annnnnnd.... *whisper* i never danced 'til now. >.> <.<
I think I did okay though. I got a glow stick too. I need to figure out how to open up socially. The fox I went to the convention with said I dance good. Weeee! ^.^ I miss my friends already. I'm gonna contact them. Oh, and one of them i'm gonna be doing an art trade with ^.^
yah.. so any way *bounces up and down* that was it! ^.^ I also got a purple little stuffed bunny there
Karaoke!!!
Posted 17 years agoYep.. I did it again! I find a passion in it! I love it... for once in my life I get to be center-stage... all attention on me.. and not feel like I have to be awesome. I sung the song "Loser" by Three Doors Down, and got a huge applause for it. I loved it. I did good... well I think. I hit every note... I felt like I was one with the song. Mind you, I only have the guts to do this with a couple shots of liquor in me. Heh. I have about 4 in me right now. I felt more alive tonight than I ever felt playing oblivion, roleplaying, or anything else I do in my room. I need to remember this. Perhaps this is why I feel compelled to jot this down, to remind me to go out. I had about 5 friends there at the corner bar, and it was fantastic. Actually one other thing, I played darts. I won 4 out of the 5 games I played. Ironically in my FIRST 6 THROWS I got a bullseye! It was amazing. I should have taken a picture or something. the first three throws went into the bullseye (one was a double-bullseye too), and the next set of shots, two hit the bullseye and one missed the board entirely (dunno how I managed THAT one). Anyway... yah. =D
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Extra credit to whomever figures out what I'm asking of you ;)
Extra credit to whomever figures out what I'm asking of you ;)
The long road ahead (update to Life Crashes)
Posted 18 years agoWell, it's been about a week. I got home here from Florida friday morning. I want to personally thank you 5 for your replies to my journal with your supporting words: Dassu, RCRsuskin, Rafeal, Ongan, and Jing.
My mom survived surgery; that I can't even describe how thankful I am for. I never thought when I moved up here that I would never see my grandfather again; and I certainly never imagined I would never see my mom again either. But.. it almost happened. Had that doctor not acted fast, and accurately, she would have died.
She had a massive brain tumor =( some of it is still there; they couldn't remove it all. Now starts the radiation therapy and such. I can't stop thanking the gods enough for letting her survive so I could see her again. I will be flying back down there in about a week or two to be with her again.
Again, thank you all greatly for your support and caring. I could never really describe how much it means to me
My mom survived surgery; that I can't even describe how thankful I am for. I never thought when I moved up here that I would never see my grandfather again; and I certainly never imagined I would never see my mom again either. But.. it almost happened. Had that doctor not acted fast, and accurately, she would have died.
She had a massive brain tumor =( some of it is still there; they couldn't remove it all. Now starts the radiation therapy and such. I can't stop thanking the gods enough for letting her survive so I could see her again. I will be flying back down there in about a week or two to be with her again.
Again, thank you all greatly for your support and caring. I could never really describe how much it means to me
life crashes
Posted 18 years agoMy mom is going into emergency surgery tomorrow. I am going to be flying out to go to florida tomorrow. I probably will have an emotional breakdown as soon as the news really sinks in so I probably won't be able to reply for a while. I just felt like I needed my closest friends to know where i've gone. I can't stomach talking or thinking about it yet.. so I just needed to post something general.
Apparently I have a fan?
Posted 18 years agoWell.. tonight was the second night I went to a bar. Just a normal bar, not a gay one, not a 'dance club'... just a bar. That in itself is kind of it's own story, but needless to say I had a good time both the first night, and tonight.
Anyway, on to what my title was about. Well... after getting about 2 or maybe 3 drinks in me.. I'm daring enough to Karaoke XD Yep... that's right.. and apparently I'm told that I'm not bad. Actually.. one lady went far enough to tell me I was her favorite... several times o.O What songs was I insain enough to sing in front of a room full of strangers you ask?
"Losing my religion" by REM, and "Let her cry" by Hootie and the Blowfish.
Oh.. the first night I did it too, but only sung one song: "Turn the page" by Bob Seger (sp?)
Yep.... mew.
Anyway, on to what my title was about. Well... after getting about 2 or maybe 3 drinks in me.. I'm daring enough to Karaoke XD Yep... that's right.. and apparently I'm told that I'm not bad. Actually.. one lady went far enough to tell me I was her favorite... several times o.O What songs was I insain enough to sing in front of a room full of strangers you ask?
"Losing my religion" by REM, and "Let her cry" by Hootie and the Blowfish.
Oh.. the first night I did it too, but only sung one song: "Turn the page" by Bob Seger (sp?)
Yep.... mew.
I got a tablet!
Posted 18 years ago^.^ yah!! I got one finally. The store had one... on CLEARANCE!!! o.O It was normally 134.99... but they clearanced them out for 20.99!!!!!! I was like "Holy #$@#$#$%#$%@!!!!!!" So after spewing more profanity in disbelief then the typical 'gangsta rappa' in a song about ho's... I bought it ^.^
So this is my first drawing on it. Came out okay for my first try I think! =D I didn't cheat at all! this was completely drawn, colored and shaded with the tablet! no mousey involvement ^.^
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/872918/
So this is my first drawing on it. Came out okay for my first try I think! =D I didn't cheat at all! this was completely drawn, colored and shaded with the tablet! no mousey involvement ^.^
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/872918/
Farewell... and I'm sorry
Posted 18 years agoWell... I finally came to the realization that I really just can't stay here. I find that this site depresses me more often then it pleases me. Please don't call me Emo or whatnot, that wouldn't really be fair. It's not my fault that I get depressed. Believe me, it's not something I look forward to.
I used to pleasantly believe my art was at least somewhat decent, and the thing that I think saddened me the most is that this furry art archive kind of shattered that delusion that I had. VCL at one time could only tell me how many times my picture was 'viewed', but this place; as wonderful as it is for good artists.. or more importantly, pornography artists; only allowed me to see that a few here-and-there would be suckered into 'viewing' my work; but almost none would see it as worth remembering.. or much else.
I hate to even admit this, because somehow it makes me feel worse, but I put a ton of hours into my art. For this reason, I am paranoid about losing it: the main reason I keep it on the net, at least somewhere. But somehow I just feel cheapened here, and that others who slap stuff together in a matter of minutes manage loads of favorites, barrages of comments, and page views galore.
Anyway, those of you sweet enough to watch me for whatever reason you chose, I'm sorry if I am disappointing you in any way. Believe me, the last thing I would ever want to do is upset or anger the couple of furs that for whatever reason decided to watch what I would upload.
I'm gonna delete the stuff that I don't value as much first, but I'm still undecided if I will be keeping some of my more painstakingly-completed works here. As I said.. I feel the need to back them up; if not just for the sake of making sure that my work wasn't for nothing. The only reason I really want to delete them all is because I know myself; it's a vicious cycle... if any of my art remains here, I will be tempted to glance at the numbers, and slope my mood once more.
It's almost funny to think about: When I would come here and become sad that I was pretty much in the shadows, I would tell myself "Well who cares. You just draw for yourself.." to make myself feel better. Well... I really don't.. or didn't. I originally started uploading my works because I just wanted to believe I was good at something, and wanted others to agree. I cringe thinking about those who will hate me and call me an overly emotional loser because of this, but I just feel like those of you who gave me a little bit of your time deserve an explanation at least.
Blah, anyway, now that I've rambled on uselessly. Thanks again for those of you who gave me a few smiles and some kind words. Not very many words can describe how much it meant to this snowy-colored lion.
See you all later.
I used to pleasantly believe my art was at least somewhat decent, and the thing that I think saddened me the most is that this furry art archive kind of shattered that delusion that I had. VCL at one time could only tell me how many times my picture was 'viewed', but this place; as wonderful as it is for good artists.. or more importantly, pornography artists; only allowed me to see that a few here-and-there would be suckered into 'viewing' my work; but almost none would see it as worth remembering.. or much else.
I hate to even admit this, because somehow it makes me feel worse, but I put a ton of hours into my art. For this reason, I am paranoid about losing it: the main reason I keep it on the net, at least somewhere. But somehow I just feel cheapened here, and that others who slap stuff together in a matter of minutes manage loads of favorites, barrages of comments, and page views galore.
Anyway, those of you sweet enough to watch me for whatever reason you chose, I'm sorry if I am disappointing you in any way. Believe me, the last thing I would ever want to do is upset or anger the couple of furs that for whatever reason decided to watch what I would upload.
I'm gonna delete the stuff that I don't value as much first, but I'm still undecided if I will be keeping some of my more painstakingly-completed works here. As I said.. I feel the need to back them up; if not just for the sake of making sure that my work wasn't for nothing. The only reason I really want to delete them all is because I know myself; it's a vicious cycle... if any of my art remains here, I will be tempted to glance at the numbers, and slope my mood once more.
It's almost funny to think about: When I would come here and become sad that I was pretty much in the shadows, I would tell myself "Well who cares. You just draw for yourself.." to make myself feel better. Well... I really don't.. or didn't. I originally started uploading my works because I just wanted to believe I was good at something, and wanted others to agree. I cringe thinking about those who will hate me and call me an overly emotional loser because of this, but I just feel like those of you who gave me a little bit of your time deserve an explanation at least.
Blah, anyway, now that I've rambled on uselessly. Thanks again for those of you who gave me a few smiles and some kind words. Not very many words can describe how much it meant to this snowy-colored lion.
See you all later.
MINEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 18 years agoyour chance to run my life
Posted 18 years agoYep yep! I'm giving you all the chance to run my life ;) well... at least for tonight, or maybe tomorrow night. I will mostly leave it to a vote.
Should I go to the gay bar? XD
Vote yes or no, and even give a reason why if you want.
I've never been to a gay bar before in my life. Ah heck, I've barely been to any bars before ever, but I'm bored, and kinda lonely.. so decide for me. This should be fun ;P Unless no one votes or gives any feedback.. then... well... it'd be kinda depressing o.O
Should I go to the gay bar? XD
Vote yes or no, and even give a reason why if you want.
I've never been to a gay bar before in my life. Ah heck, I've barely been to any bars before ever, but I'm bored, and kinda lonely.. so decide for me. This should be fun ;P Unless no one votes or gives any feedback.. then... well... it'd be kinda depressing o.O
