Is my fark a new species?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17070888/

got to this link to enter in a free art raffle.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6911322/

I wish i had a mentor who would help me with my art and help me learn to draw.

What is wrong with picarto, I was trying to test my stream and see if everything was running and I can't seem to get it to work, on top of that, I can't seem to get logged on to chat. What is going on with Picarto?

I have been thinking, I wonder what my characters would look like sonified.

I hate slow days and today is a slow day. I am so bored and there is nothing to do. I guess thinking about my new tablet is making thins boring and not so fun I usually like to wast my time watching people stream. but there there doesn't seem to be anything going on.

Please it is really important, your rights to your art is at stake.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6902949/

Please help an artist out by buying some slots from his YCH and commissioning him.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17128169/

If I got a tablet, would any of you watch me make a fool of myself as I try to desperately draw something? Considering I am a beginner.

Edit: I got my tablet ordered, hope to get it soon. I am super excited.

So, I have no idea how long this will last, but I have been drawing and doodling for a while and I have become an artist in training. I don't know how I will be able to get any pics uploaded since I don't have a scanner nor a tablet. I just want to give this whole thing a shot.

this is something I have seen people do around and thought it would be fun to try.

*RULES :

1. Pick a character you've created.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were that character.
3. Tag at least four people to do this meme (hahanope)
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal (see above)


*Character picked: Mark "Chains" Parkson



1. What is your name?

My names Chains well really it's mark but I usually go by chains.

2. Do you know why you were named that?

Mark no, but I was given the name Chains for my special weapon.

3. Single or taken?

Sadly single

4. Have any abilities or powers?

Pyrokinesis or fire monipulation

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!

Wait, what?

6. What's your eye color?

My eye color is emerald green.

7. How about hair color?

Hair?

8. Have you any family members?

I have James and Richard, my team and brothers

9. Oh? How about pets?

Too busy for pets.

10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.

I don't like evil and dictators. people trying to take over the world.

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

Um, I've been to busy, I guess reading and playing the violin

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?

Really, I'm a bounty hunter, I've hurt people before.

13. Ever… killed anyone before?

Again, a bounty hunter, sort of in the job description.

14. What kind of animal are you?

I am a red fox.

15. Name your worst habits.

Um, not sure.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?

Not really.

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?

Straight

18. Do you go to school?

I'm a bounty hunter, I haven't gone to school in a long time.

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?

That would be nice yes.

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?

I don't think so.

21. What are you most afraid of?

losing my brothers.

22. What do you usually wear?

I usually wear a blue t-shirt, boot cut pant, combat boot, tan trench coat and a leather felt fedora.

23. What's one food that tempts you?

Meat

24. Am I annoying you?

Not really, it is hard to annoy me.

25. Well, it's still not over!

Okay.

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?

depends how I get paid.

27. How many friends do you have?

Do my brothers count?

28. What are your thoughts on pie?

I love pie!

30. Favorite drink?

Soda.

31. What's your favorite place?

A nice place to sit and relax.

32. Are you interested in anyone~?

Um, I have someone.

33. That was a stupid question.

It was?

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?

neither, I can't use my powers when I am wet.

35. What's your type?

My type?

36. Any fetishes?

No.

37. Seme or uke?

Do what now?

38. Camping or indoors?

Indoors

I am not done like done with the fandom or anything. I am done with the complaining. complaining about not able to draw or write All I know is that I haven't found my purpose in this fandom yet. I can't just sit and not participate in creating. but like I said I haven't found my purpose. I guess I no longer consider myself a writer, nor an artist. Maybe a musician if I can learn to compose music.

I wish i could mearn to draw, but i can't find any sites that will teach. I don't have any cash for leasons either. I don't knkw what to do.

I should also add, the tutorials i have found just seem so confusingsayong you need this and that and it has to be like this.

I've been thinking for a while and wondered, Could a fursona also be considered an imaginary friend. The way I think of this is that I sometimes feel like I talk to chains, I communicate with him when I am happy, sad or scared or angry. There are other times where I think he is in control especially when I am angry. I feel like he is there to protect me and help me. This sounds so much like inside out.XD

So, What do you guys think?

You know a lot of times I feel like I am the most popular fur in the fandom, only to realize that nobody knows who I am and even cares. It is really disheartening at times. Makes me feel useless and crumby. I feel like I have no friends and that if you can't draw then good luck finding any. Is this true or am I just being to paranoid?

I have an honest question that I am quite curious to ask. Why do you all watch me. I'm not an artist, I am terrible at writing. i have no artistic talents. So, knowing this, Why do you watch me.

Another question is how did you find me to begin with?


(Not part of the journal, but right now I really want to toss my laptop out the window.)

There is a free art raffle

Click here

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> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6849437/


(this will be up till the raffle is over.)

I love writing, to get all my thoughts and imagination down on paper (Be it badly,) is one of the greatest feelings to have. So, Why am I not feeling the drive to write. I have ideas I just can't seem to do it. Is it because of school, am I just to busy. Why? I don't know, maybe I have become discouraged when someone looked over a little of my first chapter of fox fire and told me it was bad that has made me stop wanting to write.

I'm so emotionally drained right now, I can't think straight and I feel so tired. I just hope tomorrow will be a better day.

You know what I find interesting? I have three fursonas and I only use one. I connect with the others because I have designed to represent a different part of my personality. Mark (Chains) is my serious and get the job done side, James is my hyper and like to mess with people side, while Richard is in between. So, they are supposed to be equal, so why am I only using one? I can understand Richard, I don't have a ref yet. However, james already has an image.

I just seem to use Mark more than I do my other to.

I have been hearing about FA letting adult ads onto the site. I am not saying I don't believe the people who are saying this; however, so far I haven't been seeing it. I just hope it stays this way. I don't want FA to become a Porn site, I come here for the community. I also don't want my family to see me on Fa and think I am on a porn site if they do see me on it. Hopefully it stays the way it is, or they remove the adult ads. If it ever gets to where I feel like I am on a porn site, I will leave, I do have a deviant art account.

So, I am out of a job and I think I have developed a bad habit of buying too much art. I really need to stop spending so much and get a job, I am also needing the money for collage. on another note I bought something that I think will be really cool. I plan on uploading it when it comes in the mail in probably 3-4 weeks. I am so excited and I think it will be really cool.

Have you ever bought so many commissions from people you start forgetting who and what commissions you have.

I know it is early, but would anyone be willing to draw me a cover for Fox fire?

Through much thinking and pondering, I decided I would keep both forms of my sonas. I might have the silivar as the main form; however, I just love the fox form too much to just get ride if it. So is my decision.