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Been a while since I vented here once
Posted 4 months ago*sighs* Where do I begin... I blew it up sky high and allowed my insecurities to get the best of me and undermine those around me. For what; some desperate anxious attempt to seek for attention and sympathy and ease the anxiety of people not being interested in staying in touch or/and being around me? It turned out to be just a sick joke.
Man I really need to grow up. :(
I have been undergoing therapy and I have to admit; it has not always worked for me.
Though in the end, because of it, I did manage to change a LOT in some ways and understand myself better and what I can do to challenge the darkness such as my past demons and anxiety.
I am more or less sensitive around others and even what they think of me but what's the point?
Also, you know what, I have been stupid to take all the negativity to heart from the beginning while I was told it was not all personal and I failed to heed the advice from some good beans here.
EDIT: Perhaps radical acceptance may be beneficial for my issues. But for all I know, all of this is trial and error and processing what is going on. I let it all consume me for so long because I failed to aggressively pursue a therapist due to financial matters and insurance reasons. I became the thing I was afraid of becoming. *sighs* Having to deal with the feelings of social rejection and dwelling on the past sucks ass.
Man I really need to grow up. :(
I have been undergoing therapy and I have to admit; it has not always worked for me.
Though in the end, because of it, I did manage to change a LOT in some ways and understand myself better and what I can do to challenge the darkness such as my past demons and anxiety.
I am more or less sensitive around others and even what they think of me but what's the point?
Also, you know what, I have been stupid to take all the negativity to heart from the beginning while I was told it was not all personal and I failed to heed the advice from some good beans here.
EDIT: Perhaps radical acceptance may be beneficial for my issues. But for all I know, all of this is trial and error and processing what is going on. I let it all consume me for so long because I failed to aggressively pursue a therapist due to financial matters and insurance reasons. I became the thing I was afraid of becoming. *sighs* Having to deal with the feelings of social rejection and dwelling on the past sucks ass.
!BONUS ENTRY! Araivis’s bonus raffle!
Posted 10 months agoPlease be all sure to join and review the instructions on how to participate in this free art raffle! :3
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The official Extinctioners fan server for all is here!
Posted 12 months agoRemember that there is an Extinctioner fan server for everyone to join freely. Enjoy your favorite characters such as Artica, Scarlet, Phenix and many more?! This place is the place and they are all waiting!
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I am sick and tired of humans
Posted 2 years agoWhy can’t they already all be dead and only humanity still exists in an alternate reality where only the planet decides what is right and wrong and that they are not furless abominations.
It’s just that at first I thought humans are alright but not perfect but over the years I realized all of us humans are flawed deep down because we either look too alike to each other visually or culturally or have different genders or goals in life. Maybe if everyone literally looked different like anthros, maybe people would be more compassionate towards each other but I may be wrong.
I also wonder why did we end up born as humans on this rock at this time? Is it our destiny to live this way or all of this is merely chance? Anyway, I cannot wait until all humans on this planet eventually become extinct in the far future. The Earth needs healing along with the animals and good natured people.
It’s just that at first I thought humans are alright but not perfect but over the years I realized all of us humans are flawed deep down because we either look too alike to each other visually or culturally or have different genders or goals in life. Maybe if everyone literally looked different like anthros, maybe people would be more compassionate towards each other but I may be wrong.
I also wonder why did we end up born as humans on this rock at this time? Is it our destiny to live this way or all of this is merely chance? Anyway, I cannot wait until all humans on this planet eventually become extinct in the far future. The Earth needs healing along with the animals and good natured people.
Woke up from being chased by a wild west style manic
Posted 3 years agoI seriously had a horrific dream of getting hunted down by some manic who wants to kill me or challenge them to duel them so I can live and kill them or them killing me. Basically it was that guy who sent me a death threat and promised that my time was coming soon. They even stalked and shot me while flying a helicopter. The bus driver even did not care and was informing me I was being disruptive despite taking fire.
I saw him on the bus and suddenly he mentioned to a friend that at ten o’clock he is going to finish me off. I then got off the bus and startlingly walked into a department store but suddenly overheard the same guy who then told me out loud, “YOU'RE DEAD KID, DEAD TONIGHT”!! I then began to panic and went from normal me to calling all the troops mode. I got inside and saw a guy chilling and he asked me, “are you ok”? I then just told him that I am in serious danger from a lunatic who wants to kill me tonight.
Fast forward to 10pm, he manages to find me by stalking me down and draws a knife close to me but then offers me a chance to live by dueling him in a knife or wild west gun duel. I reluctantly accepted it and he handed me a hacksaw and pulled out a much deadlier version of the saw he handed down. Later, we then had to do it on the bus cause no bailing out of the duel. Nobody dared to help me, not even the police. At that moment, I had to fight like a man and outsmart this wannabe Biff Tannen. The rest is history.
I saw him on the bus and suddenly he mentioned to a friend that at ten o’clock he is going to finish me off. I then got off the bus and startlingly walked into a department store but suddenly overheard the same guy who then told me out loud, “YOU'RE DEAD KID, DEAD TONIGHT”!! I then began to panic and went from normal me to calling all the troops mode. I got inside and saw a guy chilling and he asked me, “are you ok”? I then just told him that I am in serious danger from a lunatic who wants to kill me tonight.
Fast forward to 10pm, he manages to find me by stalking me down and draws a knife close to me but then offers me a chance to live by dueling him in a knife or wild west gun duel. I reluctantly accepted it and he handed me a hacksaw and pulled out a much deadlier version of the saw he handed down. Later, we then had to do it on the bus cause no bailing out of the duel. Nobody dared to help me, not even the police. At that moment, I had to fight like a man and outsmart this wannabe Biff Tannen. The rest is history.
Any tips and advice on blogging?
Posted 5 years agoI have just opened up a blogging site with the domain registered to me as www.Techsandtips.com and I am merely a beginner in the field of blogging. I would like to be successful and monetize it for expressing my ideas and niches. Anyone is welcome to add anything if they are pleased. :3
Happy Womb eviction day! X) level 28
Posted 5 years agoToday is my 28th birthday and I have leveled up by one level. Also, I had to wait in line just to make my exit and don’t tell me how many people were ahead of me, until the ushers told me i can cut them and out I came.
I have just watched and realized something valuable
Posted 5 years agoFrom a wise man who once mentioned that the only thing we have to fear is fear itself, that certainly can be the case for me though I am yet to conquer it myself.
This bit from Star Trek DS9 helped me opened my eyes some more and help me face my problems head on.
I am quite guilty of suffering from my own self being feared as I am not quite afraid of what I am confronting. I have just begun my ultimate quest to eventually redeem myself, slowly but surely. Thank you all dearly.
This bit from Star Trek DS9 helped me opened my eyes some more and help me face my problems head on.
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I am quite guilty of suffering from my own self being feared as I am not quite afraid of what I am confronting. I have just begun my ultimate quest to eventually redeem myself, slowly but surely. Thank you all dearly.
