So sorry everyone, but my old Discord tailswisher was hacked recently and I've been unable to get it back via Discord's channels. So, I have made a new account chakattailswisher if you still wish to chat with me. Also, my apologies for leaving my FA pretty much dead for years, I've been struggling to find my way in life and just haven't had the energy to keep up with this site. That said, I'm doing well and now live in a new city with a new job. So, hopefully, things continue to look up.

Hey all, I don't know how many of you live around Tennessee or frequent it, but I've been chatting on a great TN Furs discord group for around a year now and they're great people. So, feel free to join or spread the word if you know anyone in TN. ^^ I'd love to make some new friends.

https://discord.gg/bUbMeHu

Hey all, I'm looking for a new 5th Ed. Dungeons & Dragons dungeon master for my group that I play with. Our current DM has been getting burnt out and I'd love to see some new players, as well. So, if you have a group that is looking for new players or are a DM looking for a new group, PLEASE let me know. ^^

There are 6 of us all total, but we are fine breaking into smaller groups if need be. We all use Fantasy Grounds, which should make games easier.

We'd love to talk to anyone interested. So, please spread the word and help me help out my friends.

6-7 person group ranging from experienced to only a few games under their belt
Male & Female players
All players have Fantasy Grounds
All players free to play on Sundays
US based players (most in Eastern Time Zone)

Hey guys, I'm not dead, just nothing much to say. >.<

However, I am looking to commission someone to do a picture of my fursona, Tailswisher, that I can place on a playmat. I've been getting back into Magic: the Gathering with my IRL friends and I'm loving the new set's theme: Aztec dinosaurs! So, I'm looking to get Tailswisher drawn up in Aztec garb with a little raptor companion by her side. I honestly have very few detailed pictures of hir, and as such I'm willing to shell out an entire paycheck on this piece since this is one I really want to show off.

So, please, if you have any suggestions or recommendations for artists to look at/contact who would/could do a full color illustration for roughly $200, I'd be very grateful! ^^ I know a lot of the best artists charge that price for sketches nowadays, but that's all I'm able to work with as I only get ~$400/month as a merchandiser. ^^;

Hey guys, I got a question: Do any of you know someone or know how to make standard card size custom card proxies? I would also be okay with people taking cardstock art commissions. I am looking to get some cards made for my friends and myself for the Magic: the Gathering card game.

If you'd like a bit more information, the first 2 are a joke between my group of friends about one of their EDH commanders Krenko, the Mob Boss. We all the time joke about how his name is actually Krenko Bob Ross and he makes happy little tree tokens instead of goblin tokens. So, I'd like to get a picture of Krenko looking like Bob Ross with the altered text if possible and a goblin wearing a tree disguise for the "happy little tree" token.

The other 3 are simply tokens of old magic cards that never got tokens made and I'm tired of just using dice for them. I'd like to get a green 2/2 Cat Warrior token that is produced by Jedit Ojanen. The others are a 1/1 red Cat token (produced by Firecat Blitz) and a 1/1 green Cat token (produced by Waiting in the Woods).

Hey there everyone. I'm sorry for the slow production of new works. (I admit, I've been neglecting FA and posting my works on DA for while...sorry.) Finding a job has been taking a lot of my time with little success in return. T.T

But, I got reminded of an old picture series involving Tailswisher cosplaying as some of my favorite characters from my childhood and I was thinking of trying to revive it. ^^ Would anyone happen to be interested in helping me out by drawing my fursona, Tailswisher, dressed up? Doesn't matter your skill level, I'd just love to see more people draw hir since it's been quite a while since I've gotten a picture of hir drawn up...
Tailswisher:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7513678/

Here are some examples of the previous works:
Commander Shepard from Mass Effect: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11942227/

Jak from Jak & Daxter: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11900295/

Creeper from Minecraft: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8512568/

Renamon from Digimon: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8427498/

If you've been wondering where I disappeared to, don't worry. My desktop computer kind of exploded when I plugged it in and I've had to wait and get it fixed. I'm itching to get back into art, though.

I've gathered a lot of linearts from my travels over at DeviantArt, but I'd like to put the call out to my friends and any followers still hanging around for some help.

I want to know what you would like to see from me as far as new art goes. Personal art, adopts, art trades, commissions? (I know that's being optimistic, but I'm excited.)

Also, I'd like to know if anyone knows of any awesomely kind artists willing to allow the use of their linearts so that I can get better, PLEASE let me know.

EDIT:
I think I'm gonna start back with some personal images first to re-learn Painttool SAI. Then, I'm gonna try and go back to finish up some SUPER LATE commission/art trades that I am OH-SO-SORRY about guys! T.T Please, don't hate me.

Hey guys, just thought I'd let you all know about the convention I'll be at this weekend, April 2nd, called OMNICON that will be at Tn Tech University in Cookeville. I'm even going to be running some panels. ^^

I'd love to meet some people and make friends.

I can't believe it's been almost a year since my self-imposed hiatus from the fandom. I'm not sure how many people will see this or if you will even read this, but apparently in my 9 months away I've garnered more watchers... Thank you, I guess? ^^; Now, the purpose of my hiatus was to do some soul searching and get my life on track. Well, in IRL news:

* I lost my old merchandising job and got a new one with more hours and better pay.
* My desktop computer died and I've been using my mother's laptop which may or may not be slowly dying...
* I hated and then grew to love the latest Doctor
* I became an addict of the Skylander series...

Now, the soul searching part of my hiatus was supposed to consist of me gathering my thoughts and FINALLY getting the backstory, bio, and personality of Tailswisher finished as well as putting together a draft of my story/book idea: Wayward. However, my brain decided to turn off all creative juices and I've not been able to do a single piece of art, photography, or even a tidbit of literature.

Instead, I feel as though this may have had the opposite affect upon me as I've begun to question myself:

* Am I a disappointment to my parents?
* What am I doing with my life?
* Why do I still only have the same 3 friends I had a year ago? (by that I mean why haven't I made new ones)
* Is Tailswisher really me or is shi a incredibly incorrect portrayal of myself?
* Do I belong in the fandom anymore?
* Do I contribute anything or am I just wasting other's talents and time?
* Why do I always feel so alone?

I'm sure some of you who were around last year remember the terrible depression I fell into when I was isolated in my room all the time. I'm in no denial that with the return of winter comes my depression as I've certainly felt it gnawing away at me over the last few weeks.

To try and combat my loneliness, I've scoured over the internet and my new phone's apps desperately searching for a social website/app that could connect me with people nearby only to encounter the same problem I've found every other time: there's no one within hours of me. Why is it so hard to make new friends?

Anyway, I've resorted to contacting a few "self help" pages on Facebook (the only place I could get advice) and they recommended opening up and venting. I've certainly vented and I feel that sometimes that's all I do. So, I'd rather spare you guys. I'd instead like to just start talking with people again.

So, I'd like people to recommend any phone apps you use to communicate with friends or websites that I can use to make new friends or just talk with you fine people. Feel free to message me if you'd like, though comments are fine, too.

Hello...to anyone still paying attention to my posts. I know I've not been chatting to people or posting anything in a good while and I wanted to reassure people that I am alive.

I'm just at a point in my life where I've lost my drive for things. Games don't give me the thrill they used to. I've lost interest in the few hobbies I had. I barely go anywhere or do much of anything anymore. I've lost contact with so many people I used to hold close. I feel as though something desperately needs to change or I might end up in a bad state of mind, again.

Warning: I will most likely ramble on about emotional stuff after this point.

I just don't know what to do with my life... It seems as though no matter what I try, I can't do anything right. Every time I feel happy, something sad ruins it. In 25 years, I've yet to find my purpose, my reason for being. I've yet to understand any of this existence. I can't find a point in life or myself.

Have you ever had the feeling like you're supposed to do something, but you can't remember what it is? Every time I feel like I might know what that something is, life smacks me in the face and the cols reality of my life sinks back in. For instance, remember a year or so ago when the Mars 1 program was announced? I was genuinely thrilled to hear about NASA finally sending a group of people to colonize (or test colonization) another planet! I wanted nothing more than to be apart of that; to explore a new world ripe with opportunity and be of use instead of just dead weight. However, when I went to their website and started watching the entry videos of everyone else, the same sinking feeling I was all to used to came crawling back up my spine. I saw people with hopes, dreams, skills, and talents far outweighing anything I could think up. It hit me that I had nothing to offers; nothing to bring to the table in a mission such as that. I never sent in a video for the Mars 1 program. Not because it was a one-way trip (something I was fine with) nor the fact my mother said she'd kill me if I left to go into space. I gave up because I realized that I would be nothing more than dead weight to them.

Hell, the realization is that in 25 years, I've been a moderate student averaging B's in high school and then flunking out of college, I've been a fast food waiter, delivery driver, telemarketer, salesman, and food vendor. Just as I'm sure millions of other people have been and will continue to be. I've made no mark on history nor on society (online or otherwise). I've never known love beyond that of the basic love for our family.

And in those 25 years, I've had no hopes, aspirations, dreams, or goals. I've lived day to day my entire life except for a few fleeting instances where I thought I could make a change and try something new and bold only to find myself failing again and falling right back into the same rut my life has always been in. In another 25 years, I may be gone. The average lifespan of males in my family is around 50 years anyway (even with modern science and healthcare keeping people alive a lot longer than they used to). So, is this a mid-life crisis? Perhaps a 1/4 life crisis?

Perhaps it's nothing...

Hey guys, I know that no one has shown interest in my Halloween adoptables idea, but if anyone wants anything done by me, please let me know. I'd like to get some commissions so I can buy some games I've been wanting to play on the Halloween Humble Bundle Sale.

Hey there guys. I'm so very sorry for not posting anything in forever! T.T It's just that with my desktop having issues, my car being wrecked, and nothing really interesting happening in my life whatsoever, I didn't think there was anything worthy of posting... However, I'd had a few friends of mine on here check up on my recently wondering how I am and where I've been. So I thought I'd check in to give any of you lovely followers wondering if I'm still kicking peace of mind. ^^

I've been really wanting to get back into art recently with it nearing Halloween again! ^^ Would any of you be interested in Halloween pics? Probably something simple like icons or chibi/feral pics? I'd only ask donations, since I don't see my art as being worth anything.

Yup, another rotation around the sun and another year closer to death. That makes me a grand total of 25 years old as of today. I don't really have any plans. My mother took me for breakfast at Huddle House and here in a bit, I'm probably just going to go to the local card/comic shop in town. I did splurge a little on myself yesterday, though, lol. I bought 2 pokemon bundle packs from Walmart and pulled a few Mega pokemon and some special rare cards. So, woot! Also, bought myself a tiger ninja costume on my xbox 360 last night along with a velociraptor pet. XD Because...why not, right?

Well, I knew it wouldn't last. Life raised me up to smack me back down. >.<

Firstly, another update on my life. I did manage to get the job with Crossmark working as the Event Supervisor (aka the demonstration person) for Walmart in my town. I basically get to stand around for 6 hours and hand out food samples and coupons. It's easy work for good pay, but completely random hours and uncertain days. I could work for 4 days a week or not work for 2 weeks.

Now, second update, the other Walmart job I mentioned before (the remodel position for the entire store), well, I got turned down even when they hired all my friends all because I answered their questionnaire wrong. I hate those things. >.<

Good news is that I've been working with my local card & comic shop to help it get back on its feet and drawing in a bigger crowd so the store won't close down. It's the ONLY place around for upwards of an hour's drive away to find a card or comic shop, let alone a place for nerds or even just social interaction within a young-adult range.

Bad news is that I'm god-awful with money management skills and I've spent nearly 85% of my last/only paycheck from the trucking job I had. I'm down to around $100 left to my name.

Worse news is that the trucking company just sent me a letter saying they expect me to start paying $200 a month for fees/etc. starting next month (or rather in about 3 weeks). >.<


I am so screwed here. T.T I won't make anywhere near that kind of money with this demo job and the only other jobs around here are going to be factory or food services. With my money gone and my desktop still screwed up I can't even make an attempt at selling my crappy adopts that no one want. *sigh* No one likes colorists anyway. People only want those who can draw or craft or write or compose. I have none of those talents, no one to teach me, and no money to fund any of it, regardless. I'm just S.O.L. with life in general. T.T

Hey guys, I'm so so sorry about being so inactive for so long. >.<

I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my desktop: I pretty much have to get several brand new parts as it's so out of date right now. Unfortunately, that means putting off any commission work even longer.

One new thing to note is that I've finally joined the realm of the seeing-impaired. XD That's right ladies and gentlemen, Tailswisher now wears glasses as it turns out we have trouble seeing things in the distance. ^^; So I might start getting pictures of hir with them on.

Also, would you all like me to start posting more pictures? I know I've not done that in a good long while. >.>;; They would all be posted here  Tailswisher of course. Just let me know what you'd like to see more of from me right now.

Another update for you all is on the job front. I FINALLY found some job leads!!! I just finished up the last bit of paperwork for a job working as Walmart's new demonstration person (aka the one who goes around handing out coupons or cooking up free food/drink samples for people). I'm also in the running for getting hired on as a Walmart seasonal employee (separately) for a huge store remodel job. So wish me luck getting that as the demo job is only part time and has random hours.

Lastly, OMNICON 2014 was very fun. ^^ I got to run a retro game arcade most of the weekend, help out with several Magic: the Gathering panels/tournaments (including a 7 person EDH/Commander free-for-all!), and even ran a My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic fan panel showcasing some of my favorite videos. I even got to meet some furs in real life! I met  dracosderpyhoof,  epsilon13 and  ventious.

Hey guys, I'd like to advertise for a convention I helped start up and run several years ago. OMNICON (TN) is held every spring at TN Technological University in Cookeville, Tennessee. For instance, it is next weekend (the 28th-30th) and is free admission. I'd like to help out since I was away for the last two years and couldn't make it. Plus, I'd like the chance to meet up with any local furs as my IRL furry friends list is VERY small.

So, any Tennessee furs interested in a free nerdy convention ranging from videogames to anime to sci-fi/fantasy literature to cosplaying please show up to give support to this college club run convention. ^^

I'd LOVE to meet people, so please let me know if you plan on showing up! :3

http://omnicon.us/
https://www.facebook.com/OmniconTN

I found out today that my desktop computer has had a hard-drive crash. >.< I have no idea what's wrong with it at the moment or if I can salvage anything off of it. *sigh* So, since I don't know if this laptop can do SAI as well it may be a little longer on the new art. >.<

On the plus side, I met with some friends of mine at the card shop today and I got right back into Magic: the Gathering (though I sucked hardcore at it) and even got me interested in Vanguard. Plus, I'm now signed up for a new MtG: EDH league (Commander decks). So that'll be fun. ^^

For anyone wondering, I did make it home safe with all my stuff the night before last. I pretty much passed out and slept most of yesterday. The new job search begins now. I will be trying to get some of my commissions/art trades knocked out the next few days, though. So look forward to that. I am looking forward to seeing more of you guys though. ^^ If anyone has any ideas on what I can be doing in the meantime though feel free to chat me up. I'd like to improve my works so, ya know...I'm not a FA bum sitting around getting looked down on by every other artist out there. ^^;

Well guys, it was short lived (1 month of training and 1 month on the road), but my truck driving career is now over. I just got fired while here in Fontana, California. I wish they could have told me when I was in Illinois. Far closer a drive back to Tennessee. >.< Now I'm gonna have to get on a greyhound bus tonight heading for home.

Well guys, right as I was heading back to move on to my Phase 1 trucking upgrade something bad happened. I was up in Illinois and got put on a small detour road through a town. I took a right turn too short because there was a car in the other lane I didn't want to hit and I snagged a lamp post with my trailer and knocked it over...right across from a police station to boot. >.< No one was hurt and the truck and trailer didn't take any damage, but the lamp post was smashed, of course. As the company I work for has a zero tolerance for accidents while still in training I probably don't have a job anymore. This happened a few days ago, but it's been a week since I've been able to connect to any wifi signals. I'm in Las Vegas right now waiting for my trainer to finish up a drop before we head back to the Salt Lake City truck hub for them to review my accident and give me the definite yes or no to being fired. As it is, it's taking much longer since I've been suspended from driving since the accident.

So, I just thought I'd update you all. I've failed at something, again. I just can't seem to stop screwing things up in life. T.T So, if this goes the way I'm thinking I'll get the boot from the company, probably get something on my driving record, and have to pay a percentage of the cost for the lamp post. Add to that the fact that I only made about $500 this whole time and I'm just barely going to be able to pay back my parents for food money when I started out. >.< So, I won't have made ANY progress towards paying my debts off and I'll have lost ANOTHER job. *sigh*

Anyway, if anyone knows of a good job they can get me, please, let me know. I might as well start looking, again.

Well guys, my phase 1 training is up (or supposed to be). I've completed my 20,000 miles / month of on the road training, but I'm not sure if I'll be getting moved on or sent back home. Something about not having done certain training right. *shrugs* Either way, thought I'd check in since it's been forever, or at least seems like it. T.T I miss you all something fierce! Hugs for everyone and know that even if I'm not seeing all the journals and stuff you post, I still care you guys. *hugs*

Well guys, it's been almost a month and I'm almost out of phase 1 training. Honestly, I want nothing more than to go home. T.T I really am not liking this job. For instance, right now I've got a fever and have been semi-nauseous all day, but I've had to drive through Nebraska and Wyoming. Ugh... Plus, they expect me to do some additional book work while I'm out here! I can barely get enough sleep and stay awake at the wheel and they want me to do homework on 3-4 booklets, too. >.< I WISH I had some other skill to rely on, but I guess sitting on my arse day and day out will have to do. T.T

Anyway, in my half-awake delirious driving thoughts I've been trying to come up with more story to my VERY long overdue story series. The more I think on it, though, the more I'd love to turn this idea into a game, sort of like CoC or an actual flash game with music and pictures. However, this would cost tons of money I don't have to throw around, so just ignore that. ^^;

However, there is something I'd like to try...giving a voice to Tailswisher. That's right, lately, I've been wanting to hear my character talk. So, while I can't offer anything in my current situation (I don't even have time to work on my colorations. >.<), I'm curious who'd be willing to help out by lending their voice. ^^ Now, it would be a female voice, but that's the only stipulation. I'll let everyone just roll with whatever they think Tailswisher would sound like to them. I don't have a script or anything for people to read, but just say some sentences and include some key words: hun, Wayward, Chakat, and Tailswisher.

Pretty simple, right? ^^ If you're interested, please put together your audio clip and upload it here or youtube and simply link me the clip so I can hear it when I next get wifi.

Hey guys, sorry for not checking in in so long. It's VERY difficult to get wifi out on the road. I just happened to find a very weak wifi connection here in a parking lot next to an AT&T place. I wanted to let you all know that I'm still alive and slowly adapting to my new life of 11 hours driving and then sleeping on a bouncing bunk. I truly wish I could talk to you guys more. I miss you all very much. Hugs for everyone! *hugs* Just leave me comments so I know you all miss me, too, and I'll read them next time I'm able to check my messages. ^^

Hey guys, just a heads up. It looks like my phase 1 truck trainer might be picking me up tonight to head out on the road for my 20,000 mile training run. So if you don't hear from me for a good while, that's probably why.

Yup! I got an unexpected call this morning that I was to take my CDL test today even though they had told me before that I was to have today off. Well, that put me in a bad mood and I was sure I would fail and be sent home. However, I actually made it past the backing and squeaked through my over-the-road portion and passed! So now I finally have my CDL license after a little over weeks of training! ^^ So, now I just have to wait around until they tell me when I head out on the road for my phase 1 training with a trainer to who knows where for 20,000 miles.

Thanks for all the well wishes last night you guys. ^^ At least all this time wasn't for nothing and now I just have to stick it out for 9 months so I can avoid having to pay $3,000.