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UPDATE: You guys are the best ;^; <3
Posted 4 years agoI can't believe how much love and support my last journal got
I have had so many people reach out to me and offer love and support, it's immense. Thank you everyone <3 I am very moved by your care and kindness.
I spoke in that journal about the work I did to get my home sorted. For everyone who has expressed an interest, here is a before and after of my home. I managed to do this in a fricken week, handling the majority by myself but having some wonderful people step in to help. There was so much to do and I didn't get photos of everything (like the colour the water in the carpet cleaner went...) but ultimately I am happy! I have to tidy up my garden next and when the storms pass I will get to it.
I am so tired from it all now though. I am finally able to start relaxing and processing what's happened, and it's tough. As everything though, this too shall pass.
Thank you everyone for the warm welcome back <3
I have had so many people reach out to me and offer love and support, it's immense. Thank you everyone <3 I am very moved by your care and kindness.
I spoke in that journal about the work I did to get my home sorted. For everyone who has expressed an interest, here is a before and after of my home. I managed to do this in a fricken week, handling the majority by myself but having some wonderful people step in to help. There was so much to do and I didn't get photos of everything (like the colour the water in the carpet cleaner went...) but ultimately I am happy! I have to tidy up my garden next and when the storms pass I will get to it.
I am so tired from it all now though. I am finally able to start relaxing and processing what's happened, and it's tough. As everything though, this too shall pass.
Thank you everyone for the warm welcome back <3
Explanation for absence. Life's been tough.
Posted 4 years agoHey, it’s been a while. The last year has been incredibly challenging. I would never have predicted I would be in this position 12 months ago, but such is the way of life.
A brief summary:
Work: I became a Project Manger in the Homeless charity I worked in roughly 3 weeks before the pandemic started. It was incredibly difficult as I had to oversee and guide severe safeguarding situations, while managing a team of 15 and correcting service mistakes the previous management created, while navigating the pandemic and the effect on the service / staff. It was one of the most challenging experiences of my life, and I managed it for only 9 months. I knew I had to leave when a professional from a hospital asked why I was upset that they had discharged a terminally ill schizophrenic individual with double incontinence back into my care without any form of palliative care arrangements made. It was too much for too little pay.
Relationships: I am no longer engaged. My 6.5 year relationship ended just over a month ago due to my ex’s substance abuse. I have been utterly devastated by this. I walked away after he blamed me and lied to me, but not before I made sure his mum was informed so his family could support him. I would have involved them sooner but I naively accepted it when he said he had told them himself. Rookie mistake. It’s been fucking heartbreaking.
Finances: Separating from my fiance has meant I have needed to move house. My ex’s debt meant we had little savings, all money being from my salary, and I gave him half when we split so he could secure himself alternative accommodation. It didn’t feel right to not do so. I have had to do a lot of work in the property I am renting, as it hadn’t been cleaned in likely 2+ years. I have some great awful photos if people want to see haha
The landlord wasn’t interested in doing anything and as far as they are concerned the things like the hob with the smashed up edges and the oven without a temperature dial still worked so were good enough. I have paid out the rent and deposit, a new oven/hob (I’ll take it with me when I eventually move on), sofas, new lighting (I suffer with migraines from poor lighting ;^; ) and paint, as well as hiring a van to move my actual belongings with. It’s a lot of upfront expenses, but actually the trade off is long term affordability in comparison; where I am in the country a room in a shared house goes for £600 alone.
So yeah. My home, my work, and my relationship have all changed in the last 5 months. To say it has been intense is an understatement. I haven’t felt so scared and upset in many years. The emotional draining, physical exertion from moving and the mental challenges of balancing everything and a new job has just been overwhelming. I am finally starting to feel things are calming down. It’s been so fucking hard. I’m now pretty much broke; when the final bills come through from my old tenancy I will likely be starting over from £0. Not gonna lie, it makes me feel sick and anxious to know this but I am doing my best. Bake sale anyone?? Hahahah.
I don’t honestly know what my activity is going to be like, but I am still making art and doing commission work. I am going to try and get more involved in the community again. I miss you all. It's always fun talking with people here. My aim really is to start streaming again. Just bare with me though as I continue to navigate this new life path.
<3
A brief summary:
Work: I became a Project Manger in the Homeless charity I worked in roughly 3 weeks before the pandemic started. It was incredibly difficult as I had to oversee and guide severe safeguarding situations, while managing a team of 15 and correcting service mistakes the previous management created, while navigating the pandemic and the effect on the service / staff. It was one of the most challenging experiences of my life, and I managed it for only 9 months. I knew I had to leave when a professional from a hospital asked why I was upset that they had discharged a terminally ill schizophrenic individual with double incontinence back into my care without any form of palliative care arrangements made. It was too much for too little pay.
Relationships: I am no longer engaged. My 6.5 year relationship ended just over a month ago due to my ex’s substance abuse. I have been utterly devastated by this. I walked away after he blamed me and lied to me, but not before I made sure his mum was informed so his family could support him. I would have involved them sooner but I naively accepted it when he said he had told them himself. Rookie mistake. It’s been fucking heartbreaking.
Finances: Separating from my fiance has meant I have needed to move house. My ex’s debt meant we had little savings, all money being from my salary, and I gave him half when we split so he could secure himself alternative accommodation. It didn’t feel right to not do so. I have had to do a lot of work in the property I am renting, as it hadn’t been cleaned in likely 2+ years. I have some great awful photos if people want to see haha
The landlord wasn’t interested in doing anything and as far as they are concerned the things like the hob with the smashed up edges and the oven without a temperature dial still worked so were good enough. I have paid out the rent and deposit, a new oven/hob (I’ll take it with me when I eventually move on), sofas, new lighting (I suffer with migraines from poor lighting ;^; ) and paint, as well as hiring a van to move my actual belongings with. It’s a lot of upfront expenses, but actually the trade off is long term affordability in comparison; where I am in the country a room in a shared house goes for £600 alone.
So yeah. My home, my work, and my relationship have all changed in the last 5 months. To say it has been intense is an understatement. I haven’t felt so scared and upset in many years. The emotional draining, physical exertion from moving and the mental challenges of balancing everything and a new job has just been overwhelming. I am finally starting to feel things are calming down. It’s been so fucking hard. I’m now pretty much broke; when the final bills come through from my old tenancy I will likely be starting over from £0. Not gonna lie, it makes me feel sick and anxious to know this but I am doing my best. Bake sale anyone?? Hahahah.
I don’t honestly know what my activity is going to be like, but I am still making art and doing commission work. I am going to try and get more involved in the community again. I miss you all. It's always fun talking with people here. My aim really is to start streaming again. Just bare with me though as I continue to navigate this new life path.
<3
I am still alive XD
Posted 4 years agoI promise!
Change of job and real life stuff has just consumed me
I will be back with art shortly, as I am still creating <3
Hope you are all well!
Change of job and real life stuff has just consumed me
I will be back with art shortly, as I am still creating <3
Hope you are all well!
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* YOUTUBE CHANNEL *:･ﾟ✧*:･...
Posted 5 years agoHey! I have officially kicked off my art youtube channel!
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCe.....UUHAGalJjF5OVg
I hope to see you there ;w; <3
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCe.....UUHAGalJjF5OVg
I hope to see you there ;w; <3
Here's where else to talk to me!
Posted 5 years agoHI ALL
It's been 4 months since my last proper update. I am busy as ever, working full time, but am still somewhat active socially!
If you wanted to see what I get up to or want to talk more, you can find me here:
https://twitter.com/Chandraken
https://discord.gg/ZW8NgSH = My discord server
I hope you are all well! <3
It's been 4 months since my last proper update. I am busy as ever, working full time, but am still somewhat active socially!
If you wanted to see what I get up to or want to talk more, you can find me here:
https://twitter.com/Chandraken
https://discord.gg/ZW8NgSH = My discord server
I hope you are all well! <3
End of 2019! What do you want in the next decade?
Posted 6 years agoAnyone else feel that you blinked, and suddenly 2019 is over?
It's been the fastest moving year I have ever experienced! It's always interesting as well, marking the end of a decade. At the last one from 2000-2009 I was just starting secondary school, and then was in my 2nd year of university!
This decade I have accomplished more than I thought I could and at the same time my original goals have been waylaid. Who knows, I may revisit them in the next 10 years?!
I have graduated university, then gone back for a conversion year. I was going to try for a masters after that, but circumstances changed. I needed to support my family. I ended up getting a job in a SEN school where I stayed for almost 5 years. I explored the idea of becoming a teacher, but felt it wasn't for me. I left to work in an organisation that supports homeless people, and I have been so very content here! If it paid a little bit more I would call it a dream job. For now I am exploring my way through this sector and if I can further my career here I'm golden,
I left the family home this last decade. It's been such a blessing for my well being. I finally felt I could breathe and flourish in my own home. I've realise that's something that's important to me - creating a safe base and a welcoming home for everyone! I live with my fiance and cat, blessings from the decade, but I regularly host gatherings too and I love it. I want to be a mama hen for my community <3 I'm hosting a New Years gaming party tonight after finding a group of friends had no plans. I am looking forward to it!
It's funny how in recent years I am aware I am not as active online. My need to escape has resolved in many ways. I find that being in such high demand in person, I tend to use my time online more quietly now. I enjoy lurking. I'm still very much active art wise, but with limited free time I put all my efforts into getting work done, rather than investing energy in streaming and such. I may change on this in the new year, I do enjoy streaming after all! It can just require a higher energy output - but also means I don't get my fix of Critical Role hah!
We'll see.
So plans for 2020 onward?
Try to buy my own home. I love my house I rent, but there's certainly things I dream for (a bigger oven - better hosting!!). I also want to invest in lots of nice furniture and furnishings to make a proper nest. A sofa bed is currently in my sights so guests can stay over more easily <3!
I would also like to get married. These things can cost a silly amount of money though. Not because I want a grand wedding mind you, but having all my friends there is super important.
I guess part of this goal then is to step up on my career ladder again to bring in more income...
....to then immediately spend on holidays instead of sensible things haha! I do enjoy travelling. A large part of me wants to save up all the money for a wedding and do a world tour instead. I don't think I could cope with the uncertainty that would bring though, so I will settle for holidays!
How about you? What do you want to achieve? Nothing is too big or too small to share!
I hope the next decade presents to you many opportunities and happiness <3
Happy new year all! x
It's been the fastest moving year I have ever experienced! It's always interesting as well, marking the end of a decade. At the last one from 2000-2009 I was just starting secondary school, and then was in my 2nd year of university!
This decade I have accomplished more than I thought I could and at the same time my original goals have been waylaid. Who knows, I may revisit them in the next 10 years?!
I have graduated university, then gone back for a conversion year. I was going to try for a masters after that, but circumstances changed. I needed to support my family. I ended up getting a job in a SEN school where I stayed for almost 5 years. I explored the idea of becoming a teacher, but felt it wasn't for me. I left to work in an organisation that supports homeless people, and I have been so very content here! If it paid a little bit more I would call it a dream job. For now I am exploring my way through this sector and if I can further my career here I'm golden,
I left the family home this last decade. It's been such a blessing for my well being. I finally felt I could breathe and flourish in my own home. I've realise that's something that's important to me - creating a safe base and a welcoming home for everyone! I live with my fiance and cat, blessings from the decade, but I regularly host gatherings too and I love it. I want to be a mama hen for my community <3 I'm hosting a New Years gaming party tonight after finding a group of friends had no plans. I am looking forward to it!
It's funny how in recent years I am aware I am not as active online. My need to escape has resolved in many ways. I find that being in such high demand in person, I tend to use my time online more quietly now. I enjoy lurking. I'm still very much active art wise, but with limited free time I put all my efforts into getting work done, rather than investing energy in streaming and such. I may change on this in the new year, I do enjoy streaming after all! It can just require a higher energy output - but also means I don't get my fix of Critical Role hah!
We'll see.
So plans for 2020 onward?
Try to buy my own home. I love my house I rent, but there's certainly things I dream for (a bigger oven - better hosting!!). I also want to invest in lots of nice furniture and furnishings to make a proper nest. A sofa bed is currently in my sights so guests can stay over more easily <3!
I would also like to get married. These things can cost a silly amount of money though. Not because I want a grand wedding mind you, but having all my friends there is super important.
I guess part of this goal then is to step up on my career ladder again to bring in more income...
....to then immediately spend on holidays instead of sensible things haha! I do enjoy travelling. A large part of me wants to save up all the money for a wedding and do a world tour instead. I don't think I could cope with the uncertainty that would bring though, so I will settle for holidays!
How about you? What do you want to achieve? Nothing is too big or too small to share!
I hope the next decade presents to you many opportunities and happiness <3
Happy new year all! x
Merry Christmas!
Posted 6 years agoI know it isn't the 25th yet, but considering my last update was 5 months ago I figure being a bit early isn't too much of a crime ;)
Merry Christmas everyone! May it be as good as possible <3
Merry Christmas everyone! May it be as good as possible <3
Update!
Posted 6 years agoHello everyone!
As an update, for those who don't follow my twitter, I recently had a period of upheaval with my mum moving in with me to escape her abusive fiancé.
She's lived with us for a week, and we have secured her accommodation in a shared house for more permanant lodgings.
It's been a surreal week; there's a lot of baggage there. It's ended really positively though! It has been good, if sudden and not planned.
It has left me with expenses though as I supported her. To assist with this I have created 3 YCH! The first is up and available here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32365602 - if you like sexy, sleek, feminine types and toebeans this is for you!
Thank you everyone for all your support ❤️
As an update, for those who don't follow my twitter, I recently had a period of upheaval with my mum moving in with me to escape her abusive fiancé.
She's lived with us for a week, and we have secured her accommodation in a shared house for more permanant lodgings.
It's been a surreal week; there's a lot of baggage there. It's ended really positively though! It has been good, if sudden and not planned.
It has left me with expenses though as I supported her. To assist with this I have created 3 YCH! The first is up and available here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32365602 - if you like sexy, sleek, feminine types and toebeans this is for you!
Thank you everyone for all your support ❤️
Furry life online- loving it so far!
Posted 6 years agoIn case you haven't seen, there is a new site that's been developed called Furry Life Online and so far I am thoroughly enjoying its features! It's musician and author friendly, has a really pretty album format, and overall I like the feel to it. https://furrylife.online/profile/45-chandraken/ Is my profile!
The developer is super responsive and takes on feedback and bug reports and acts quickly. I highly recommend you check them out c:
Commissions open! Immediate start available <3
Posted 6 years agoHey friends!
I am currently open for commissions, everything is available! I can start today, and I am FIRED UP to art *_____*
My prices can be seen here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/chandraken/
I am also open for character designs, slots on my YCH's, badges and anything else you can think of <3
Current YCH's:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31019381/
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31100808/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31752981/
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31760465/
Working on some big pieces / chat journal!
Posted 6 years agoHi all!
I realise my FA tends to go without updates for roughly a month at a time. My bad! Truthfully I find it hard to remember to update with just chatting journals such as this one, especially as I work full time. I am currently working on two rather large pictures and I cannot wait to share them with you!!
One is a commission, the other a personal piece <3
It feels good to have a balance -w-
How is everyone doing? I hope you are well.
What is everyone working on at the moment? c:
I realise my FA tends to go without updates for roughly a month at a time. My bad! Truthfully I find it hard to remember to update with just chatting journals such as this one, especially as I work full time. I am currently working on two rather large pictures and I cannot wait to share them with you!!
One is a commission, the other a personal piece <3
It feels good to have a balance -w-
How is everyone doing? I hope you are well.
What is everyone working on at the moment? c:
FA to allow blatantly sexual acts as mature instead of adult
Posted 6 years agoThoughts please!
I reported an image which depicted an overtly sexual act between two characters as it was listed under mature and not adult. I have done this many times in the past just to get the rating changed, not the image removed; I am not necessarily a prude but I have my filter on so I don’t see such content. The response I got from staff was that type of content will be allowed under the new rating systems they are going to implement.
How do you feel about this update? I personally am pretty disappointed. I don’t enjoy that type of content, nothing against the creators or people who do, it just isn’t really my thing. By enabling people to share it under a “mature” rating, I will have to increase my own filter rating and then not see the content I do like. Seems like a bum deal.
Help me see why they want to make this change?
I reported an image which depicted an overtly sexual act between two characters as it was listed under mature and not adult. I have done this many times in the past just to get the rating changed, not the image removed; I am not necessarily a prude but I have my filter on so I don’t see such content. The response I got from staff was that type of content will be allowed under the new rating systems they are going to implement.
How do you feel about this update? I personally am pretty disappointed. I don’t enjoy that type of content, nothing against the creators or people who do, it just isn’t really my thing. By enabling people to share it under a “mature” rating, I will have to increase my own filter rating and then not see the content I do like. Seems like a bum deal.
Help me see why they want to make this change?
Discord server!
Posted 6 years agoIn case people didn't know, I have a casual discord server! It's a friendly chilled place to hang out, see a few sneaky peaks at things and make friends. If you would like to join the link is https://discord.gg/fS4UaxS
Hope you are all well!
Hope you are all well!
COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!
Posted 6 years agoHi my fluffybutts!
My commissions are open! I have 3 slots open. My prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30039262/
1. Xig
2. OPEN
3. OPEN
My queue can be found here: https://trello.com/b/wYm89a0e/art-projects
Shoot me a comment or a DM to claim >w<
My commissions are open! I have 3 slots open. My prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30039262/
1. Xig
2. OPEN
3. OPEN
My queue can be found here: https://trello.com/b/wYm89a0e/art-projects
Shoot me a comment or a DM to claim >w<
YCH up!
Posted 6 years agoHi everyone!
Just a reminder I have a multiple character slot YCH available here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31019381/
I am offering a raffle for a slot when I reach 500 watchers on my twitter! https://twitter.com/Chandraken I am very close so feel free to pop me a follow and retweet there ;)
Just a reminder I have a multiple character slot YCH available here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31019381/
I am offering a raffle for a slot when I reach 500 watchers on my twitter! https://twitter.com/Chandraken I am very close so feel free to pop me a follow and retweet there ;)
2018 Reflections.
Posted 7 years agoCW: Cancer, bereavement, domestic situations
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It’s that time again; reflecting on yet another year that has raced away faster than I’ve known what to do with it - and I know this isn’t New Year’s eve just yet! 2018….you’ve been tough. I wanted to write a bit more of a long journal to help explain why I haven’t been here or active as much as I was in the past.
This year has had a lot of pressures. I have faced family bereavements, with my last biological Grandparent and an Aunt on my mother’s side passing away. A week after my Grandad’s death my dad was diagnosed with a throat cancer and that sent me reeling. There was so many rapid changes of treatment approach (from “just surgery” to full on alternating chemo and radiotherapy) I didn’t know if he was hiding something or just didn’t know himself what was going on. I found out the night before a team Away Day for brainstorming ideas at work and had to keep it together in my new job, crying in front of my new manager as I told her but then getting my shit together and getting on with the day. That was hard. I had to cancel work, rearrange to do weekends instead to take my dad to appointments. At one time I had spent the morning with him, but got a call in the evening that he was declining in health quickly and was taken to hospital. His cancer food replacement was sending his diabetes completely out of whack. Seeing dad shrink physically and emotionally has honestly shocked me deeply and is something I am still processing. He’s always been a force of nature, and seeing him so ill I didn’t know what to do but to keep doing anything I could to help. He’s on the mend now, officially not having any treatments, but he had hid an additional lung cancer diagnosis until confirmed it was a false reading. I have insisted on reading his discharge letters to prove it. Boy did that give me anxiety. We almost lost my step Grandad too this year, another cancer diagnosis, but luckily for him the doctors operated immediately and he has recovered. That was if I recall properly 2 weeks after my dad’s diagnosis, and he was visiting at the time from Australia. Everything felt so out of control for a long while, the first third of the year was just spinning wildly.
The middle third of this year was pretty much entirely spent on preparing to move, and supporting my dad. My arsehat of a previous landlord tried keeping the entirety of my deposit (£1300) and we had to fight it for months through the deposit protection scheme to get it back, which we were awarded! That was good, but the stress of having to buy all new kitchen appliances like a fridge when you don’t have your sum of money back was infuriating. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Just after this came my dad’s wedding. We flew out, 28 of us, to celebrate for 6 days together and for the service. This small 6 days still had enough of their own conflicts and moments of upset. This included the day of the wedding having my Aunt tell off both my dad and now step mum for their fighting literally the night before which my brother and I had to de-escalate (nothing like running from the bottom floor of a hotel because you know the sounds of a fight and legging it before realising you’re in nothing but a thin anime t-shirt and panties….oof). The service was beautiful and everyone enjoyed it, but at the other end of the wedding night me and the same brother then intervened in a domestic situation with my other brother and his girlfriend…..You couldn’t make it up. I was exhausted.
I’m now waiting to see if my mum needs to move out of her own volatile relationship and home. She was going to move in with me last week, but then changed her mind. I just have to be patient and wait to see if she needs the support. There’s pretty much been something happening at every point this year.
With that said, it’s certainly not been entirely bad and there have been many beautiful moments. This year my wonderful partner proposed to me. He has been my rock and my support with everything going on. He knows the full on craziness of my family and yet still chose me. I can’t get over that! He supports me in everything I do, and I don’t know what i did to deserve it but I aim to provide it all for him too. We are a very effective team.
My brothers and I have all grown closer too. Me and my youngest brother are pretty much best friends, and we call each other almost every day when he’s at uni, even if it’s just to talk while peeling vegetables for dinner! It’s great having such a nice relationship. My middle brother as well has matured a lot, and I am excited at the thought that our relationship can continue to grow. As a family, and a wider one including my aunt and cousins, we are more appreciative of the time we have together and this christmas was one of the fondest ones I have had in many years. We played games the entire time and there was no bickering or moments of drama. It was really fantastic.
My work is going well, with my manager continuously noting how pleased she is with me and how I work. I need the praise (lol insecure), but more than that she’s been so amazingly supportive with everything that’s happened. If I needed to change the day I work she cleared it, no problems. She reminds me to take care of myself without judgement, and I couldn’t ask for a better manager.
I also now have a lovely house. Renting, sure, but it’s lovely and mine for now. I am very grateful for this.
I’m pretty healthy too, for the most part. I’m waiting for counselling to try and address the kinda trauma this year has sprinkled around to see if I can break my insomnia. I won’t be defeated! I participated in the Cancer Research Shine Walk around London, walking 26.2 miles around London on a wet night in October. We raised over £1000 as a group, and it was a great (painful) experience! I will probably do it again in 2019 but perhaps actually train this time beforehand?? Truthfully I didn’t realise how long it was until the day beforehand when I realised it wasn’t going to be a 3 hour jolly but more like 9…..8hrs 56 minutes was my time and I am very proud of myself.
That’s where I think I will leave off for now.
It’s been so full on and hectic.
I am looking to 2019 with hope it is calmer. I have some exciting art ventures planned, and I am really enjoying creating. It’s been such a wonderful outlet! I want to thank all my watchers and commissioners. Your support this year has helped me tremendously, both with encouragement and literally - you guys all helped me buy my fridge and washing machine!
I wish you all the very best, and hope you have a Happy New Year!
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It’s that time again; reflecting on yet another year that has raced away faster than I’ve known what to do with it - and I know this isn’t New Year’s eve just yet! 2018….you’ve been tough. I wanted to write a bit more of a long journal to help explain why I haven’t been here or active as much as I was in the past.
This year has had a lot of pressures. I have faced family bereavements, with my last biological Grandparent and an Aunt on my mother’s side passing away. A week after my Grandad’s death my dad was diagnosed with a throat cancer and that sent me reeling. There was so many rapid changes of treatment approach (from “just surgery” to full on alternating chemo and radiotherapy) I didn’t know if he was hiding something or just didn’t know himself what was going on. I found out the night before a team Away Day for brainstorming ideas at work and had to keep it together in my new job, crying in front of my new manager as I told her but then getting my shit together and getting on with the day. That was hard. I had to cancel work, rearrange to do weekends instead to take my dad to appointments. At one time I had spent the morning with him, but got a call in the evening that he was declining in health quickly and was taken to hospital. His cancer food replacement was sending his diabetes completely out of whack. Seeing dad shrink physically and emotionally has honestly shocked me deeply and is something I am still processing. He’s always been a force of nature, and seeing him so ill I didn’t know what to do but to keep doing anything I could to help. He’s on the mend now, officially not having any treatments, but he had hid an additional lung cancer diagnosis until confirmed it was a false reading. I have insisted on reading his discharge letters to prove it. Boy did that give me anxiety. We almost lost my step Grandad too this year, another cancer diagnosis, but luckily for him the doctors operated immediately and he has recovered. That was if I recall properly 2 weeks after my dad’s diagnosis, and he was visiting at the time from Australia. Everything felt so out of control for a long while, the first third of the year was just spinning wildly.
The middle third of this year was pretty much entirely spent on preparing to move, and supporting my dad. My arsehat of a previous landlord tried keeping the entirety of my deposit (£1300) and we had to fight it for months through the deposit protection scheme to get it back, which we were awarded! That was good, but the stress of having to buy all new kitchen appliances like a fridge when you don’t have your sum of money back was infuriating. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Just after this came my dad’s wedding. We flew out, 28 of us, to celebrate for 6 days together and for the service. This small 6 days still had enough of their own conflicts and moments of upset. This included the day of the wedding having my Aunt tell off both my dad and now step mum for their fighting literally the night before which my brother and I had to de-escalate (nothing like running from the bottom floor of a hotel because you know the sounds of a fight and legging it before realising you’re in nothing but a thin anime t-shirt and panties….oof). The service was beautiful and everyone enjoyed it, but at the other end of the wedding night me and the same brother then intervened in a domestic situation with my other brother and his girlfriend…..You couldn’t make it up. I was exhausted.
I’m now waiting to see if my mum needs to move out of her own volatile relationship and home. She was going to move in with me last week, but then changed her mind. I just have to be patient and wait to see if she needs the support. There’s pretty much been something happening at every point this year.
With that said, it’s certainly not been entirely bad and there have been many beautiful moments. This year my wonderful partner proposed to me. He has been my rock and my support with everything going on. He knows the full on craziness of my family and yet still chose me. I can’t get over that! He supports me in everything I do, and I don’t know what i did to deserve it but I aim to provide it all for him too. We are a very effective team.
My brothers and I have all grown closer too. Me and my youngest brother are pretty much best friends, and we call each other almost every day when he’s at uni, even if it’s just to talk while peeling vegetables for dinner! It’s great having such a nice relationship. My middle brother as well has matured a lot, and I am excited at the thought that our relationship can continue to grow. As a family, and a wider one including my aunt and cousins, we are more appreciative of the time we have together and this christmas was one of the fondest ones I have had in many years. We played games the entire time and there was no bickering or moments of drama. It was really fantastic.
My work is going well, with my manager continuously noting how pleased she is with me and how I work. I need the praise (lol insecure), but more than that she’s been so amazingly supportive with everything that’s happened. If I needed to change the day I work she cleared it, no problems. She reminds me to take care of myself without judgement, and I couldn’t ask for a better manager.
I also now have a lovely house. Renting, sure, but it’s lovely and mine for now. I am very grateful for this.
I’m pretty healthy too, for the most part. I’m waiting for counselling to try and address the kinda trauma this year has sprinkled around to see if I can break my insomnia. I won’t be defeated! I participated in the Cancer Research Shine Walk around London, walking 26.2 miles around London on a wet night in October. We raised over £1000 as a group, and it was a great (painful) experience! I will probably do it again in 2019 but perhaps actually train this time beforehand?? Truthfully I didn’t realise how long it was until the day beforehand when I realised it wasn’t going to be a 3 hour jolly but more like 9…..8hrs 56 minutes was my time and I am very proud of myself.
That’s where I think I will leave off for now.
It’s been so full on and hectic.
I am looking to 2019 with hope it is calmer. I have some exciting art ventures planned, and I am really enjoying creating. It’s been such a wonderful outlet! I want to thank all my watchers and commissioners. Your support this year has helped me tremendously, both with encouragement and literally - you guys all helped me buy my fridge and washing machine!
I wish you all the very best, and hope you have a Happy New Year!
Commissions Open!!
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone!
I am open for commissions! I am open for all types, including charms <3
My prices here are http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/chandraken/
If you are interested please note me and we can discuss!
Inktober!
Posted 7 years agoHey!
I am offering Inktober commissions!
These are 35usd for inks and 45usd for colouring, with full artistic liberty! I will decide if it’s a headshot to a full body piece, but you get to chose the theme. Not sure what to pick? I can do that for you too ;)
I will be using pencils, markers, gel pens and paints to create these. Want it shipped to you? Just say and I will send your work laminated to your doorstep.
Note me for deets!
I am offering Inktober commissions!
These are 35usd for inks and 45usd for colouring, with full artistic liberty! I will decide if it’s a headshot to a full body piece, but you get to chose the theme. Not sure what to pick? I can do that for you too ;)
I will be using pencils, markers, gel pens and paints to create these. Want it shipped to you? Just say and I will send your work laminated to your doorstep.
Note me for deets!
1 experimental traditional piece - £10!
Posted 7 years agoHi all!
I want to try and participate in Inktober this year at least to some extent, so I am taking one experimental commission!
This will be traditional media, artistic liberty, and completed by next weekend latest.
£10 is the price!
First come, first served <3
I want to try and participate in Inktober this year at least to some extent, so I am taking one experimental commission!
This will be traditional media, artistic liberty, and completed by next weekend latest.
£10 is the price!
First come, first served <3
Anyone with exp having a dedi box in US?
Posted 7 years agoMy partner’s gaming clan have had a load of American’s join, and to compensate are thinking of getting a US dedi box to support their games.
Apparently there are a load of companies but we would like to know if anyone has any personal experience with any, and who would be recommended?
Let me know! Thanks!
KO-FI DONATION ART GIVEAWAY!
Posted 7 years agoHey all!!
To help me recover my finances after moving, I have revamped my Ko-fi page!
http://ko-fi.com/chandraken
For every £25 raised, I will chose a random donor and draw them some gift art <3
The minimum donation is 3USD, which they recognise as one coffee. For every 11 coffee's donated, there's a chance at free art! Make sure to include your username in the donation if you want to have a chance, otherwise I won't know to include you!
So whether you want to help me with $3, or $20, everyone is entered the same number of times so it isn't pay to win ;) The prize draw will happen after I have moved and set up in my new house (week of the 30th July) so there are no delays in making the gift art ;)
Anything is seriously appreciated, as so far this move has cost me almost £3k
Moving is hella expensive, am i right??
To help spread the word please retweet https://twitter.com/Chandraken/stat.....42277784612864 and hopefully spread this around as much as possible!!
To help me recover my finances after moving, I have revamped my Ko-fi page!
http://ko-fi.com/chandraken
For every £25 raised, I will chose a random donor and draw them some gift art <3
The minimum donation is 3USD, which they recognise as one coffee. For every 11 coffee's donated, there's a chance at free art! Make sure to include your username in the donation if you want to have a chance, otherwise I won't know to include you!
So whether you want to help me with $3, or $20, everyone is entered the same number of times so it isn't pay to win ;) The prize draw will happen after I have moved and set up in my new house (week of the 30th July) so there are no delays in making the gift art ;)
Anything is seriously appreciated, as so far this move has cost me almost £3k
Moving is hella expensive, am i right??
To help spread the word please retweet https://twitter.com/Chandraken/stat.....42277784612864 and hopefully spread this around as much as possible!!
Aaah ;____; bye money...
Posted 7 years agoWaaaaaaaahhh
Why is moving so expensive??? oh my crisps.
£400 on ref fees
£950 holding fee
Now another £950 for deposit
Then there’s the white goods for the kitchen putting me back £500
A moving company wants £600 to move our furniture, and we are a little screwed because I certainly am not strong and my partner has a spine condition so we may have to go through this. I am going to try and convince him that we can rally the troops and just hire a van but even that is like 200 at least!!
On top of that my car MOT is tomorrow which never escapes unscathed.
Then there’s fumigating the old house as per contract for having a cat, and settling bills before we move as we leave the contracts....
It’s so fucking tight idk how I can afford the groceries tomorrow. Gotta do it though, we can’t not eat! Then in the back of my mind I remember I am going to turkey for my dad’s wedding in September and I have to book transfers and then pay for jack and I while out there....I have no idea how I am going to manage that one
-flop-
Just needed to get that offloaded. Life is costly. Who knew??
⭐️⭐️⭐️COMMISSIONS OPEN⭐️⭐️⭐️
Posted 7 years agoI am moving in the next month and a bit, so gotta pay for van hire and such.
To that end I am open for one or two commissions! Prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27749619/
First come, first served ❤️
To that end I am open for one or two commissions! Prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27749619/
First come, first served ❤️
Wanna watch a shadowrun game?
Posted 7 years agoHey all!
In two hours I am starting my first shadowrun campaign! Think dystopian future with magic and cyberpunk mixed with DnD
It is being streamed by the group. Would anyone like to watch? I can drop a link if people do!
Thought I would offer ;)
https://www.twitch.tv/pixelapocalypseuk
<3
In two hours I am starting my first shadowrun campaign! Think dystopian future with magic and cyberpunk mixed with DnD
It is being streamed by the group. Would anyone like to watch? I can drop a link if people do!
Thought I would offer ;)
https://www.twitch.tv/pixelapocalypseuk
<3
CLOSED
Posted 7 years ago🌟🌟🌟
Hey all!
I am open for one commission of any type!
First come first served!
Prices are here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27337697/
🌟🌟🌟
Hey all!
I am open for one commission of any type!
First come first served!
Prices are here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27337697/
🌟🌟🌟
