well i got a new avatar so chat it out by hitting refresh or F5. and well im comming up on almost 3 years at my current job and its hard to belive. my baby nephew is walking already and im gonna be headding to the MRDD place here in my town to see why my brain is so odd. anyways im still staying as a littlefur so yea if you see my fursona wearing a diaper its becasue im like 2 in the pic or im just having some fun. well thats all for now guys ttyl

as the title says. i think i may be a littlefur. as you see i have a lot of littlefur/babyfur art in my gallery. i been thinking long and hard on this. and please don't think im weaird. i just like to role play as a little kid. its sorta becasue i miss being a little kid. wish i could be a kid again for one day. but i digress. please don't think im a freak or nothing. its just me.

i found out that i have a extremely enlarged thyroid. its whats making me feel like crap all i want is to feel normal again *curls up*

hey all just a update. well the past few months have been hell. starting with this guy at work who is a brown noosing little weasel ((no offense to any fur of that race)) he picks on me and causes my time there to suck. also my uncle is homeless and now spending his days with us and sleeping at a homeless shelter. he is loud and rude.... but i do love him he is my only uncle who i love and care for. my hair is falling out due to all the stress i am under. but honelsty on a good note i am turning 23 in a few days and i finanally found my calling in life. i wanna be a auto mechanic. i love cars so much. my goal is to work on exotics. well in all this as well i found a dear friend. she is a close friend on deviant art. well anyway i will try to do journals more. see ya guys

i feel like i pull myself out of a rut then just fall right into it again. at times i feel like im a complete loser. my life has seem to come to a crawl. i wanna meet to woman of my dreams. i wanna be a daddy so bad. i love kids i wanna watch one as they grow and mature. helping them along the way protecting them showing them love. i wanna become a history professor sharing my love and passion for the past and teaching them how to learn form it and how it shapes today. i know im just ranting and whining. its just i have a lot to think about. i just don't wanna sound like a drama queen is all.

i feel i may have pushed a few of my furry friends away. i think i was a little over enthusiastic with them and now they never talk to me. i guess i feel like my friend ben sometimes. someone who is just socially awkward. i meant no harm its just i really liked the guy and guess i annoyed him a little bit. i know how that feels. oh well live and learn i guess

that i am hurting right now over the death of my beloved 13in MacBook. it fell off my bed and the screen cracked. i had plans for it when i finally replaced it. was gonna hand it down to a friend of mine. but not no more. the poor thing died today.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3781235/

what happnd to  spiffyart i kinda wonder what happend to her. i wonder if she/he got really busy or somthing

if im invisible. i post journals and yet no one ever comments on em. oh well. at least im not a popufur. that would be a nightmare for me lol.

hey all ask me anything. its TMI tuesday

just a few days ago a very very large storm ripped my state a new one. it knocked out power to many people and the power company is still working to restore it. its made my mind very shaken and i feel worried all the time and just anxious. well anyway if you want more details on the storm check out this website. https://www.NBC4i.com

hey all i been pretty good. im training new people at work for now and i love my job. it took a woman blareing AC DC in the parking lot to remind me why i love my job. i get to meet so many new cool people. there are also downsides to it though. there are these really mean people. most are morbidly obese people that ride in the stupid power carts. they are so mean and yell at me when they are all uncharged and never thank me when i help them. but still the other people are well worth it. well hope you all are doing good. ttyl

hey everyone its my birthday and well i turn 22. im excited i have always loved my birthday. well take care everyone.

we have lost the Apple CEO Steve jobs. this makes me so sad. he was a person who was not scared to be diffrent. for the longest time there motto was "think different" and thats what he did. he made smartphones sexy and fast, tablets are big becasue him. i am a apple junkie. i love the computers and everything they make. please keep your rude and hatefull comments to yourself i can care less what you think olf the company. i lost a hero today he was someone i wanted to meet and talk to. and i mourn his death.

rest in peace Steve jobs :1955-2011

of an artist that could make an fullmetal alchemist brotherhood pic for me. id love to be drawn as scar from it

i am a person that suffers with severe dyslexia. i see letters backwards, can't tell left from right, and forget things pretty fast. but if its somthing i care about deeply i remember it for ever. i also know a whole lot about history. i made my history teacher feel like a moron when i proved him wrong. but anyway i just feel i was not taught right or something i feel in my heart what i believe in is correct but i don't understand why i seem to be walked over by everyone. i just feel like im a big push over. maybe i should not be a furry or anything for that matter. maybe i need a break from the net. or a long talk with a preacher. i don't know. i don't even know why i write journals. im not famous on here so people don't seem to care that much. im sorry i just am dealing with many things. bankruptcy and the fact i can't seem to save money or get myself motivated to join the navy. again thanks a lot for reading if you took the time to read it all.

oh that first part is a product of my sever ADD

hey guys sorry for the last rant journal that everyone ignored. im feeling a lot better. got to talk to a good friend from collage and she said she would help me explain furry to my folks. anyway i love my job at carnival foods. its great the people there are great they really care. i also found out my friend will finish my fursuit head for me. well thats all for now. ttyl all

while i was at origins i purchased a set of zebra ears and a tail. they are really neat. i like em one of ym sonas is a zebra. i wore them a bit then took them off when i left the con. i mean come on im not gonna wear the all the time. just Halloween and conventions. but my parents under the one time look into the fandom via CSI think all furs are freaks. *sigh* got flack for that. im 21 and know in my heart and mind that not all furs are yiff happy weirdos. i just wanna have a little fun and be silly. i mean im not a LARPer and will never participate in a orgy. and i wanna attend Anthrocon but just for a day and meet people most fursuiters just wear them every now and then and not all the time im not going to hell just becasue i like furrys. i know they don't want me going down a bad road i did my reaserch i know not everyone is fully consumed/ cornwal is a prime example he has a job collage education and dose not suit at work or all the time he is not a freak. and he dose not have sex in his suit. he is "normal" in normal standards. its a hobbie like building models and video games are for me. well i think im done for now. wish me luck guys.

sorry for the rant

lately i have been forgetting things. like forgetting i have left things in friends cars or houses. and i don't know why it might be the fact i been working and trying to get use to the fact im working or that im just not careing. i don't know. but on a lighter note i had a great time at origins. it really was a fun time met some furies and saw some silly costumes. it was role play con but oh well it was still fun.

would you guys do that to help fight cancer and prove that not every furry is not a yiff happy weirdo like that damn CSI episode. the 501st walks in the relay for life sometimes and i know furs help raise money for the AHSPCA. why can't people understand that not every fur is a weirdo? well hope to hear a responce

wanting to know if any of my furry buddys are under the gun with this severe outbreak. my heart and prayers go out to the people that have been hammered by these unrelenting storms. please my furry friends please be okay

if you all like classic rock. and like to listen to the radio you need to turn it to 96.3fm. thats QFM96. its the single best radio station ever. just wanting to put that out there. catch all yall later.