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General | Posted 7 years agoIm back with less talking, more action.
Happy 2019,
wish you all
the success,
health
and worth you deserve
in this new year
And please stay all cute and femboy this year :3
Happy 2019,
wish you all
the success,
health
and worth you deserve
in this new year
And please stay all cute and femboy this year :3
On the right track
General | Posted 7 years agoI decided to write this new journal way ahead of any thought i might have before i get the opposite feeling to do so.
I feel tired; burnt.Like my body is constantly feeling a need for something i shouldnt feel the urge to have.Im trying to get stuff to keep my head grounded instead of trying to float somewherebetween the sadness and the uselesness of my reality.
My mind is quivering sometime just like his own will might be gone in a second or two, and i let him hope in a stupid way that i might get a boy that im into...just 2 keep myself out of danger. However its the first time in year that i got a kind of crush on someone, so, it might be a good trick to use this to use this to stay out of the mood to do stupid thing that could do nothing good for me.til' today it worked perfectly, could be a way to keep myself on the right track.
I feel tired; burnt.Like my body is constantly feeling a need for something i shouldnt feel the urge to have.Im trying to get stuff to keep my head grounded instead of trying to float somewherebetween the sadness and the uselesness of my reality.
My mind is quivering sometime just like his own will might be gone in a second or two, and i let him hope in a stupid way that i might get a boy that im into...just 2 keep myself out of danger. However its the first time in year that i got a kind of crush on someone, so, it might be a good trick to use this to use this to stay out of the mood to do stupid thing that could do nothing good for me.til' today it worked perfectly, could be a way to keep myself on the right track.
hyatus and opening up my heart like a a private diaries
General | Posted 8 years agoTL;DR version: I will do everything to make a come back, and an opportunity is maybe on the way.
14 march 2018 update
Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6sIchnRuZY (feel free to listen to it while youre reading to get my mindset)
Current mood: Desperate
Hi everybody,
This journal is kinda painful for me to write, cuz i don't like begging/complain and talk about thing that are mostly negative.But it has a positive outcome...otherwise i wouldn't bored you readint it^-^'
This is why, among the other, this journal take so much time for me to do. Even tonight, i procrastinated it really much before i decided to do it in one final shot.
First thing first, I feel sorry guy if you've waited news or artwork for me and didn't get anything. In this journal, I will explain the reason of my long idling and why my production has just suddenly stopped.
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It's been so much of a long time i didn't uploaded something here, despite my promess to upload new femboy every week.
Sadly, i've been unable to produce any digital art has my graphic tablet has broken and im not good/popular enough to start a fundraise for a new one. Also, i'm a femboy of honor ;-3 I wanna deserve my due with honesty and hard work; not charity.
Theres more to say...It feels like word are just leaving my mind has i'm writing.
I'm too emotionnal lol.
I love Fa and my profile and I *STILL* would like to accomplish myself by becoming a Professionnal Furry Pr0n Artist.It may sound childish to write , but I will NEVER *ever* change my mind about that and im still sure even when i'll be 50 yrs old this is what i wanna be.Furry may become overdated by this time, but i'm sure has hell I won't change my mind.
I love you so much...You are the most adorable and cute comunity I could have seen in my entire life.
I'm mostly sure nobody will read that aha...So its almost like writing in a private diary lol. Thinking that is making me opening with more ease, and gosh guy this is what i need...need to show you how much of a good person I have, cuz yeah, i'm open to coaching, collab and will be till i reach a point where i dont need it. And i'll try my best to give credit to the person who will have helped me afterward.
[complaining paragraphs upcoming SKIP THIS*honestly its up to you =p, but i dont wanna annoy you with childish complain]
Lately, i'm mostly drawing traditional in my manga old style when i'm in a good mood.When my tablet broke, i spend a couple of month without drawing since i was feeling like my traditional style was even more worse than it was. Its hard for me to draw when i dont feel fine, even thought drawing is making me feel better...but you know...when you feel depressed...there nothing you wanna do really and every thought you do have is just pushing yourself further down.
During Christmas, my mother gave me a best buy gift card.I was (and still) planning to afford a new tablet from it...The only thing is that i'm too COCKY when its time for a change.I rather stay with my old all-broken thing, than try a product that i have to arrange and be deceived with some features.So, i'm always thinking about BIG upgrade or same old product.My bamboo is not availablein store, and i have to admit, it was not the best thing to have. SO....big update that i want? An erase on the opposite side of the pencil, sound easy to find, no....?SO HARD TO FIND.I spend some entire day looking for that feature on sub-brand ( huion sounded really attractive) and still, I learned that Wacom still own the patent for this!
So yeah, guess my only affordable option was the good old bamboo pen and touch; if i was lucky enough to get one in used condition, or wait to have more money for an intuos, get sub branded or a used kijiji tablet on kijiji while I wait. I checked a couple of deal and NEARLY got an intuos pro for 175 on kijiji, but i wasnt fast enough and the elder sir sell it to somebody else.I were unlucky, but eh!It happen.Have to say that at this point, I'm still becoming more and more desperate, but yeah...I shouldnt be that cocky though.
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But thing could change...And i wouldn't dare to make this journal if there wasnt a positive outcome fromt it.(and here why it take me so much time to wrote it, i had hard time and i couldnt find any positive in whatsoever).
A friend of mine make me a proposition. I dont know how much serious he is about it, but I kinda reach the point where if someone is forcing me to draw in any way it will just help me to get thru this hyatus.Basically, he said that if i do a cute femboy Faun he might pay half for a cintiq(im not asking for so much so i will lower the offer to an intuos pro if he accept one of my draft)
Now, i have to prove that im worthy enough on traditional art to deserve this gift.I kinda feel like its my first real ''commission''.I'll keep in touch with you guy in the future, and i will post the faun once it will be completed.
Thank you so much for reading....this means lot more than you think! <3
14 march 2018 update
Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6sIchnRuZY (feel free to listen to it while youre reading to get my mindset)
Current mood: Desperate
Hi everybody,
This journal is kinda painful for me to write, cuz i don't like begging/complain and talk about thing that are mostly negative.But it has a positive outcome...otherwise i wouldn't bored you readint it^-^'
This is why, among the other, this journal take so much time for me to do. Even tonight, i procrastinated it really much before i decided to do it in one final shot.
First thing first, I feel sorry guy if you've waited news or artwork for me and didn't get anything. In this journal, I will explain the reason of my long idling and why my production has just suddenly stopped.
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's been so much of a long time i didn't uploaded something here, despite my promess to upload new femboy every week.
Sadly, i've been unable to produce any digital art has my graphic tablet has broken and im not good/popular enough to start a fundraise for a new one. Also, i'm a femboy of honor ;-3 I wanna deserve my due with honesty and hard work; not charity.
Theres more to say...It feels like word are just leaving my mind has i'm writing.
I'm too emotionnal lol.
I love Fa and my profile and I *STILL* would like to accomplish myself by becoming a Professionnal Furry Pr0n Artist.It may sound childish to write , but I will NEVER *ever* change my mind about that and im still sure even when i'll be 50 yrs old this is what i wanna be.Furry may become overdated by this time, but i'm sure has hell I won't change my mind.
I love you so much...You are the most adorable and cute comunity I could have seen in my entire life.
I'm mostly sure nobody will read that aha...So its almost like writing in a private diary lol. Thinking that is making me opening with more ease, and gosh guy this is what i need...need to show you how much of a good person I have, cuz yeah, i'm open to coaching, collab and will be till i reach a point where i dont need it. And i'll try my best to give credit to the person who will have helped me afterward.
[complaining paragraphs upcoming SKIP THIS*honestly its up to you =p, but i dont wanna annoy you with childish complain]
Lately, i'm mostly drawing traditional in my manga old style when i'm in a good mood.When my tablet broke, i spend a couple of month without drawing since i was feeling like my traditional style was even more worse than it was. Its hard for me to draw when i dont feel fine, even thought drawing is making me feel better...but you know...when you feel depressed...there nothing you wanna do really and every thought you do have is just pushing yourself further down.
During Christmas, my mother gave me a best buy gift card.I was (and still) planning to afford a new tablet from it...The only thing is that i'm too COCKY when its time for a change.I rather stay with my old all-broken thing, than try a product that i have to arrange and be deceived with some features.So, i'm always thinking about BIG upgrade or same old product.My bamboo is not availablein store, and i have to admit, it was not the best thing to have. SO....big update that i want? An erase on the opposite side of the pencil, sound easy to find, no....?SO HARD TO FIND.I spend some entire day looking for that feature on sub-brand ( huion sounded really attractive) and still, I learned that Wacom still own the patent for this!
So yeah, guess my only affordable option was the good old bamboo pen and touch; if i was lucky enough to get one in used condition, or wait to have more money for an intuos, get sub branded or a used kijiji tablet on kijiji while I wait. I checked a couple of deal and NEARLY got an intuos pro for 175 on kijiji, but i wasnt fast enough and the elder sir sell it to somebody else.I were unlucky, but eh!It happen.Have to say that at this point, I'm still becoming more and more desperate, but yeah...I shouldnt be that cocky though.
[/skipped]
But thing could change...And i wouldn't dare to make this journal if there wasnt a positive outcome fromt it.(and here why it take me so much time to wrote it, i had hard time and i couldnt find any positive in whatsoever).
A friend of mine make me a proposition. I dont know how much serious he is about it, but I kinda reach the point where if someone is forcing me to draw in any way it will just help me to get thru this hyatus.Basically, he said that if i do a cute femboy Faun he might pay half for a cintiq(im not asking for so much so i will lower the offer to an intuos pro if he accept one of my draft)
Now, i have to prove that im worthy enough on traditional art to deserve this gift.I kinda feel like its my first real ''commission''.I'll keep in touch with you guy in the future, and i will post the faun once it will be completed.
Thank you so much for reading....this means lot more than you think! <3
journal update for 9th january-happy new year(sorry im a lat
General | Posted 9 years agoHi everybody and hapy new year!(sorry im a late person, i should have wished that to you on 2nd january^^' i didnt though about that loll)
Sorry for that late update!I'm keeping myself real busy lately, doing a lot of art stuff just for you guy'z ^-^
I changed my profile info, putting some of my philosophy in it which i strongly believe into(about believing in you and how i believe in me even tho people telling me i'll fail).
My favorite youtuber(Markiplier), as made a video about new year resolve lately, and i strongly believe in the quote who say the difference between motivation and discipline...and has I beleave, its real better to got discipline than motivation.I mean motivation is the key but not what will you improving to something every day.Discipline is what you'll need to keep improving better.
I wish you guy all you need in this new year!2017 is gonna be a gr8 year...at least i hope so! :P
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My own stat(as of 12 jan 4:34 am):
(for my personnal purpose, and to take people aware of what progress i'm making,I'll make an update about my stat every week)
View:182(+32 if we compare with 2nd january where i was around 150)
watcher: 7(1 lost)
Most viewed art: Kitten taken in hostage(24 views)
Sorry for that late update!I'm keeping myself real busy lately, doing a lot of art stuff just for you guy'z ^-^
I changed my profile info, putting some of my philosophy in it which i strongly believe into(about believing in you and how i believe in me even tho people telling me i'll fail).
My favorite youtuber(Markiplier), as made a video about new year resolve lately, and i strongly believe in the quote who say the difference between motivation and discipline...and has I beleave, its real better to got discipline than motivation.I mean motivation is the key but not what will you improving to something every day.Discipline is what you'll need to keep improving better.
I wish you guy all you need in this new year!2017 is gonna be a gr8 year...at least i hope so! :P
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My own stat(as of 12 jan 4:34 am):
(for my personnal purpose, and to take people aware of what progress i'm making,I'll make an update about my stat every week)
View:182(+32 if we compare with 2nd january where i was around 150)
watcher: 7(1 lost)
Most viewed art: Kitten taken in hostage(24 views)
Journal of the 2nd january 2017-not so a fail...
General | Posted 9 years agoBy now,
I'm gonna make an update of my journal every week in monday,
I feel exhausted.Didn't tell you already guy cuz im not a kind of whore, but i actually stopped working because of the pain due to a wound i hold for more than 6 months.Either way, i took the responsibility to be a full time artist and to post on Fa frequently as long as i wont have any work since im wounded.
I take this really seriously even though i didnt have many view right a way.Inside of me, there something telling me I have to do that and i wont stop till i suceed.Maybe its just the music im listening to lol.(Die trying from art of dying)However, i dont want to stop at the point i reach.Its the first time I dare that much to make yaoi stuff and all lol, and i know its worth.
But....what if im just trying without any objective...i will lack of energy tomorrow or later.Thats why i put 500th view ten day ago.That challenge were far too crazy for my actual state and i knew it.However it make me made such outstanding improvement for me.AS i know now i made it to 150th view(i won 50 views as today, 1 favorite and 3 new watcher(thanks to my Fb friend Arizona and Psychetic :D ) Also, when i check up the stat in a userpage, its not rare to see people having a couple of thousand of views but also here for like 2 or 5 years lol.
Right now, i think im enough talented to pass it to the next level.At the end of this week, I plan to ask some popufur who bought a lot of art if they're interested having free commission from me and posting it to there profile right after, so it will help me getting some visibility I really need.Also, I wanna get an add on the website in the next month!
Hey!that's just project x3 It makes me keeping everyday happy as i know i still have opportunity waiting forward :P
Anyway guy, thank you so much for reading and remember youre my main inspirationnal source! :)
I'm gonna make an update of my journal every week in monday,
I feel exhausted.Didn't tell you already guy cuz im not a kind of whore, but i actually stopped working because of the pain due to a wound i hold for more than 6 months.Either way, i took the responsibility to be a full time artist and to post on Fa frequently as long as i wont have any work since im wounded.
I take this really seriously even though i didnt have many view right a way.Inside of me, there something telling me I have to do that and i wont stop till i suceed.Maybe its just the music im listening to lol.(Die trying from art of dying)However, i dont want to stop at the point i reach.Its the first time I dare that much to make yaoi stuff and all lol, and i know its worth.
But....what if im just trying without any objective...i will lack of energy tomorrow or later.Thats why i put 500th view ten day ago.That challenge were far too crazy for my actual state and i knew it.However it make me made such outstanding improvement for me.AS i know now i made it to 150th view(i won 50 views as today, 1 favorite and 3 new watcher(thanks to my Fb friend Arizona and Psychetic :D ) Also, when i check up the stat in a userpage, its not rare to see people having a couple of thousand of views but also here for like 2 or 5 years lol.
Right now, i think im enough talented to pass it to the next level.At the end of this week, I plan to ask some popufur who bought a lot of art if they're interested having free commission from me and posting it to there profile right after, so it will help me getting some visibility I really need.Also, I wanna get an add on the website in the next month!
Hey!that's just project x3 It makes me keeping everyday happy as i know i still have opportunity waiting forward :P
Anyway guy, thank you so much for reading and remember youre my main inspirationnal source! :)
My first drop--and the inverted tools sai's flip tool
General | Posted 9 years agoFor the first time in a while I feel down about the art Im making.
the reason to that is because of the inverted tool in the sai application.I means this tools is just incredible,... it is so useful to see youre draw in another perception- just like another personn- might see it.However, it make me realise how bad i can make mistake sometime.I always tough that my line art was good and now i realise that my real strenght is in my sketches-on lineart- i need to be like REALLY focus to make a good one.
So, since a bit, i started delaying thing i planned to finish today and... instead, post a really simple faced character with no body.I mean its not wrong(i guess) to do so, but it make me feel like i will never be able to do an entire character i'll be proud of.Honestly i just have these thought in my mind and start writing just for not still having it in when i come back drawing right after this journal.
I know it would be hard to make a comeback online and even more harder to try here on FA rather than DA.(geting view favorite and supported is a lot more easier).Deviant art is also good, but right now, its to make furryes that im focusing on.I pushing hard to myself-at the same time that im deceiving myself i still feel overwhelemed about all the thing that are still undone in my sai library.Each evening before im going to sleep, i have pictures of furry character i could draw on the next day, but when i use this tools-again-it come out that im so deceived by the result i let down about my idea to go with something a lot easier.
Anyway, if you have any advice just tell me, i would be glad if you guy could have a little help for me :)
the reason to that is because of the inverted tool in the sai application.I means this tools is just incredible,... it is so useful to see youre draw in another perception- just like another personn- might see it.However, it make me realise how bad i can make mistake sometime.I always tough that my line art was good and now i realise that my real strenght is in my sketches-on lineart- i need to be like REALLY focus to make a good one.
So, since a bit, i started delaying thing i planned to finish today and... instead, post a really simple faced character with no body.I mean its not wrong(i guess) to do so, but it make me feel like i will never be able to do an entire character i'll be proud of.Honestly i just have these thought in my mind and start writing just for not still having it in when i come back drawing right after this journal.
I know it would be hard to make a comeback online and even more harder to try here on FA rather than DA.(geting view favorite and supported is a lot more easier).Deviant art is also good, but right now, its to make furryes that im focusing on.I pushing hard to myself-at the same time that im deceiving myself i still feel overwhelemed about all the thing that are still undone in my sai library.Each evening before im going to sleep, i have pictures of furry character i could draw on the next day, but when i use this tools-again-it come out that im so deceived by the result i let down about my idea to go with something a lot easier.
Anyway, if you have any advice just tell me, i would be glad if you guy could have a little help for me :)
My 100th views on furaffinity- and whats next!? O_o
General | Posted 9 years agoHi everyone!
I actually made it! 100 view in less than a month! phew! Guy im so glad I’d be able to make it!
Thanks to all of you, even tho I am the one who publish thing here, you are the people who come and watch my art.I wanna hug each one of those 100 people personnaly if I could eh! ^-^
Since im 17 years old I wanna be an artist and im proud to have succeed the first milestone I gave to myself,However, you might ask yourself now: ‘’ why such a journal entries just for celebrating 100 view…hes not even able to make great art yet and he’s done quite horrible at everything he did back then?’’ or ‘’what he’ll do now he made it’’ ?
Firstly, I do this entry for you guys.To tell you how much I am grateful, and to tell you the most wonderfull Christmas you could ever imagine.The second thing is all about time, I spend many time of FA lately and I saw people who had barely around 500 views in 2 year on FA….they probably don’t invest as much time that I do on the website and publishing as much as I do, but I got time, so why not taking it as a way to share some art with all of you ^-^…and rememeber guy, the promise I made to you guy, I am really serious about it and I wanna you guy to remember it that I will improve my art in any way possible…It doesn’t matter the amount of time I take to do so but if you just passing here once per week or even per moth y’ou’ll see a huge difference!
however, from now I am proud of the accomplishment I made todays…sincerely, and its all because you guy are here…so thank you so really much for it.
Secondly, what I’ll do now? Gosh.. it’s a good question!But don’t worry, I’ve got an answer for that!Now, my first objective has been accomplished, I’m ready for taking thing even more seriously and I’ve got a really great challenge upcoming for me!I WANNA GET 500 PAGE VIEW IN THE NEXT 2 WEEKS and at least double my watcher(past from 6 to 12!)Thats real crazy!XD I don’t think I’ll be able to make it honestly xDDD but you know what I’m gonna still try to, cuz why not giving at least a try lol!Also, I will make a list of 100 achievement I wanna make in another journal entries, so you guy could see my progress in real time, I will cross one achievement each time ill made one.There’s gonna be 3 kind of achievement.The active(achievement that I plan to success in an accurate amount of time) and the passive(thing ill plan to success eventually) and the other one I call relaxed achievement; there will never be anytime for me to succeed it.
Nonetheless, that’s ain’t all!From now on, I’m gonna make a steady schedule.My art wont be publish at random time from now on.So, expect a submission everyday in the week (Monday to Friday) before midnight(time of my local area: Ottawa-Montreal).We might call it the steady full time artist challenge lol.On the week end, sometime you might see an artwork popping out of nowhere cuz I’ll be doing some even if I’m in my day-off lol!
So, really guy, again thank you very much for it, and…I know I give myself a lot of pressure with all that, but I wanna do it all for you guy, cuz I think the furry community deserve a new artist having is really own style and I’m pretty sure my collaboration into the Fandom can be appreciated in some way since my inspiration source for furry is really unique, as well as the style I wanna acquire.You could disagree, but lets have a chat about it in the next 22 december of the next year and thing come up that maybe a couple of you have changed your mind! ;)
I wish you’re well, and having a maaaaaaaarvelous Christmas :D
And remember, ze shadows cougar is still around and support you ;)
Cheston Ghost
I actually made it! 100 view in less than a month! phew! Guy im so glad I’d be able to make it!
Thanks to all of you, even tho I am the one who publish thing here, you are the people who come and watch my art.I wanna hug each one of those 100 people personnaly if I could eh! ^-^
Since im 17 years old I wanna be an artist and im proud to have succeed the first milestone I gave to myself,However, you might ask yourself now: ‘’ why such a journal entries just for celebrating 100 view…hes not even able to make great art yet and he’s done quite horrible at everything he did back then?’’ or ‘’what he’ll do now he made it’’ ?
Firstly, I do this entry for you guys.To tell you how much I am grateful, and to tell you the most wonderfull Christmas you could ever imagine.The second thing is all about time, I spend many time of FA lately and I saw people who had barely around 500 views in 2 year on FA….they probably don’t invest as much time that I do on the website and publishing as much as I do, but I got time, so why not taking it as a way to share some art with all of you ^-^…and rememeber guy, the promise I made to you guy, I am really serious about it and I wanna you guy to remember it that I will improve my art in any way possible…It doesn’t matter the amount of time I take to do so but if you just passing here once per week or even per moth y’ou’ll see a huge difference!
however, from now I am proud of the accomplishment I made todays…sincerely, and its all because you guy are here…so thank you so really much for it.
Secondly, what I’ll do now? Gosh.. it’s a good question!But don’t worry, I’ve got an answer for that!Now, my first objective has been accomplished, I’m ready for taking thing even more seriously and I’ve got a really great challenge upcoming for me!I WANNA GET 500 PAGE VIEW IN THE NEXT 2 WEEKS and at least double my watcher(past from 6 to 12!)Thats real crazy!XD I don’t think I’ll be able to make it honestly xDDD but you know what I’m gonna still try to, cuz why not giving at least a try lol!Also, I will make a list of 100 achievement I wanna make in another journal entries, so you guy could see my progress in real time, I will cross one achievement each time ill made one.There’s gonna be 3 kind of achievement.The active(achievement that I plan to success in an accurate amount of time) and the passive(thing ill plan to success eventually) and the other one I call relaxed achievement; there will never be anytime for me to succeed it.
Nonetheless, that’s ain’t all!From now on, I’m gonna make a steady schedule.My art wont be publish at random time from now on.So, expect a submission everyday in the week (Monday to Friday) before midnight(time of my local area: Ottawa-Montreal).We might call it the steady full time artist challenge lol.On the week end, sometime you might see an artwork popping out of nowhere cuz I’ll be doing some even if I’m in my day-off lol!
So, really guy, again thank you very much for it, and…I know I give myself a lot of pressure with all that, but I wanna do it all for you guy, cuz I think the furry community deserve a new artist having is really own style and I’m pretty sure my collaboration into the Fandom can be appreciated in some way since my inspiration source for furry is really unique, as well as the style I wanna acquire.You could disagree, but lets have a chat about it in the next 22 december of the next year and thing come up that maybe a couple of you have changed your mind! ;)
I wish you’re well, and having a maaaaaaaarvelous Christmas :D
for celebrating it and show you how much i feel grateful about it, i'll offer a free commission raffle every week till january 9. so ensure that have you in my watchlist! so be sure to check your note in case you'll be the winner of the raffle come back to me after I send you a note with which kind of commission you want from me, if i have no answer in the next 24 hours imust give the chance to someone else :(
Next free commission raffle: expect one when ill go 20 follower And remember, ze shadows cougar is still around and support you ;)
Cheston Ghost
almost 100 views
General | Posted 9 years agojust created this account on 8 december and got already nearly 100 view...woah!i feel so grateful!even tho i dont have any favorite yet i'll be working on that.As I was mostly a traditional artist, i think my ''digital'' transition is going really well, as each day is a chance for me to impress myself with some new digital art that overcome the previous i had made!
Im looking each day some tutorial on sai and working really hard to create my own style as you guys have a new and unique style to add really soon and to watch as i go further to progress and create more stuff!
So enjoy and keep yourself well till next time :D
Im looking each day some tutorial on sai and working really hard to create my own style as you guys have a new and unique style to add really soon and to watch as i go further to progress and create more stuff!
So enjoy and keep yourself well till next time :D
