https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11156497/

reference to this ^

I've been contemplating discussing this for a while but I'm tired of holding it in out of fear that I might hurt the other person after the absolute lack of consideration they gave when violating my trust and trauma.

So some fucking asshole took advantage of my vulnerability and completely destroyed my progress by sexualizing my childhood trauma. I had complete faith in this person after years of friendship and opened up about an extreme traumatic event that they absolutely sexualized. They've played games with me and my underage sister, they've known me for years, and yet the betrayal was so bad that it had ruined my trust in other people and put me in such a horrible mental state of re-living trauma and made me feel extremely unsafe and objectified. I'm doing better than the initial fallout, but I've locked back up and am filled with rage and anger at that type of audacity and selfishness. I'm trying to not let it affect my creativity but it's really fucking hard.

I just don't want to lock up and become absent again. I don't want them winning by ruining me and my newfound passion. I'm angry and I'm frustrated and I'm extremely hurt. I'm not interested in doing a callout, but I'm never talking to this person ever again. All I have is betrayal and rage where there was once love and compassion and nothing can fix that damaged relationship now.

I'm trying to be transparent so I can find more support and rebuild trust in others again. I really need kindness and compassion and positive reinforcement right now.

For the past month I’ve been unraveling my trauma and working through it. My childhood was filled with so much severe abuse that it caused extreme shame and insecurities.

However, For the first time ever I feel like I truly love and respect myself and I’m tired of hiding.

With that comes vent art and kink exploration. I’ll be doing much more personal art and introducing a lot more characters.

I wanted to give a preemptive warning in case these are things others don’t want to see.

Im happy ❤️ and excited. And I hope you all are too!

Vending on Sunday at FWA at the artist alley!

If you’re interested in getting art this weekend I’m doing pick-up crayola doodles($30)/portraits($40) and line($25)/colored($35) index cards.

Colored index cards use alcohol markers and colored pencils!

Please DM me for more information!

Here’s an example of the work! https://bsky.app/profile/chioro.bsk...../3lonuiigtfk27

Come join and myself as we get horny and creative!!

I am streaming!! Doing personal art then $1=1min sketches! Minimum is $10!

Some important facts!
-if I make a mistake the timer will be paused!
-if I spend too much time on an area just to redo it the timer will be paused during the redo!
-if I pause for too long the timer will be paused for the amount of time I was afk if the timer isn’t already paused!

Please come and keep me company and consider getting a sketch!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

I’m currently working on some personal creative projects and want to know if anyone wants to help provide input or creative critiques. I’m interested in a wide variety of perspectives and minds. Not everything will be NSFW but almost everything will have very mature themes so 18+ is required.

I have a few novel ideas, comic ideas, merch ideas, etc. I might even try some animation memes or ideas!!

Please let me know here or in DMs if this interests you. I have a small secondary server I’m working on using this for. While I’m not expecting anyone to put a ton of effort into it, I do expect everyone who joins to, at the very least, contribute to polls and opinions/critiques on ideas and be willing to discuss stuff publicly or even in calls. I will even ask for writing feedback!!

Thank you for your interests and please let me know if you have any questions!!!

I am streaming NSFW art!! Drawing a new character to share with everyone! 💕

Please come and keep me company!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

I am streaming!! Doing $1=1min sketches! Minimum is $10!

Some important facts!
-if I make a mistake the timer will be paused!
-if I spend too much time on an area just to redo it the timer will be paused during the redo!
-if I pause for too long the timer will be paused for the amount of time I was afk if the timer isn’t already paused!

Please come and keep me company and consider getting a sketch!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

Working on my AC image then I'll accept $1 = 1 minute in stream commissions! Come check it out and keep me company <3

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

Accepting $1 = 1 minute sketch in stream commissions! Minimum $10usd

Went back to work this week and it’s been HELL on my back! I need to decompress with some art!

I’m opening up to those now who want to request a slot in advance! Please DM me if you’re interested!

More info: requesting a lot doesn’t mean you pay now! But please let me know the time zone and timeframe you’d want this slot and the amount of time you’d want to pay for!

More money = line work and color!

Thank you!! 🩵💛🩷

Working on personal NSFW art and commission work!! Open to another commission

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

STREAMING!! Working on AC card first and then I'll do a mix of personal art, commission work, and accepting in stream commissions!!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

Today is mine and 14th anniversary! 14 years with my best friend and the love of my life!! To celebrate we ordered Texas Roadhouse for pickup and are binging the LOTR trilogy while I draw!! Come say hi and have fun in the chat!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

I had my sutures removed today. The recovery looks so good that the surgeon felt comfortable removing them 2 weeks earlier than originally anticipated. I’m gonna be out of commission for the rest of today and then some. I also have a lot of recovery and medical updates on my server’s vent channel that’s too much to do here, so if you’re interested in reading that consider joining my discord

https://discord.gg/RQgpAcEQ

I’ll for sure stream again this weekend at the absolute latest!

Thank you to everyone who’s been so kind and supportive. Every day I learn a new thing about my body that’s increased my quality of life. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, below the L5-S1 had been slowly losing function for ALMOST THREE DECADES and I’m grateful to no longer be in pain like that. I appreciate life so much more now. Recovery will be long, but totally worth it!

Our current hypothesis is that this started during the toddler years!! My mom always talked about how active I was as an infant that by 6 months I was running (there are pictures and videos of this I’ve seen during home movie days) and because of this I had to wear special leg braces (similar to the ones Forrest Gump wear) and that was the beginning of the end, because I’ve had symptoms relating to this from early childhood that I always thought was a different issue until it, too, went away post surgery. We all discussed this with the surgeon and he agrees that he thinks it’s what caused the bulge.

I wanna do a QnA sometime soon. I’ll probably post a picture about it to give people an opportunity to ask personal or even invasive questions regarding my surgery and recovery if they want to know more. Please let me know if that interests anyone. I want to be able to at least provide insight so if anyone else is experiencing something similar they can potentially find answers.

Thank you again!! I love you all so much!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Doing a stream!! Taking $25 per chara in stream colored sketch commissions! I’ll also be working on ych in between commissions!!

https://picarto.tv/Chioro

I’m still recovering from surgery and am not making any money for two+ months from work so please come help support!!

Alright TMI time!

There hasn’t been much Movement in my bowels so they’re going to give me an enoma. It’s gotten to the point where I’m feeling sick from eating because I’m becoming backed up. Once that’s done though they’re finally going to send me home. They suspect I’ll be discharged in an hour or two! They’ve been so nice but I’m so grateful to finally go home.

Copied this from my discord server. Consider joining for more smaller updates instead of waiting for me to post on FA!

https://discord.gg/RhRk6aGzs2

One big massive update!!
As you all probably know I’ve had major back surgery. A herniated disk had calcified and was at risk of causing partial paralysis. This is an issue the neurosurgeon thought has been going on for 15ish years. It’s also most likely the cause for a lot of pain and problems other doctors had suggested were from different sources and nothing ended up working.

My pain levels right now are at about an 8, but compared to the agony I was in when I called 911, around a level 20, an 8 is an absolute blessing. By the time the EMTs came to get me I was unable to move and they had to help dress me into a night gown because I was completely nude and unable to move to even dress myself. From then on every doctor and nurse and assistant I saw was very attentive and worked diligently to make sure I was taken care of. They even let me listen to LOTR music while they did my mri.

The surgeon they got for me was head of neurosurgery department at the best hospital in the state and he drove almost an hour just to treat the severity of my injury. He even drove almost an hour late last night after all of his scheduled surgeries to check on me. This man has changed my life.

The herniated disk was impossible to remove or replace due to the calcification so part of my bone was removed instead to relieve pressure and give them the ability to clean the area up around the nerves. I have numbness in part of my right foot and leg, and potentially other areas, but it is only surface level and I can still use the muscles just fine to walk. I haven’t been able to have any bowel movements since Saturday so I am worried about that. Let me know if y’all care to get a poop update. The reason I say this is because if the herniated disk wasn’t taken care of, my bowels were at risk of being paralyzed. They’ve been giving me stuff to soften the stool so here’s to hoping everything works fine down there ❤️ due to how low the surgery was on my spine pushing down there hurts a lot still so there’s potentially other reasons outside paralysis and the nurses and doctors are all aware.

I’ll be out of work for the rest of the year and then some, all unpaid, but I have a social worker on my case that’ll help try to get me on paid disability. I hope it works out.

I feel very vindicated. I’ve had pain for a very long time that has been treated like it was all in my head, hips, legs, uterus, bad posture, being overly sensitive, needing more exercise, etc etc and now that I know that this has been going on for half of my life, it’s both so very frustrating and also very reassuring that I had an extremely legitimate reason for all of this pain. Im really hoping I have no side effects because I’m so ready to live my best life after this. In fact, and the doctors all think this will improve my quality of life. We’ll let y’all know when I’m finally discharged! About to eat breakfast!!! Love you all so much! Thank you so much for your care and kindness!!!

i am bed ridden. I’m not sure when I’ll be able to stream again. I cannot sit and I can barely walk. Even laying down is painful. I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow for an mri. I went to the emergency room yesterday but with little help. None of the medicine is really helping. I had an X-ray and that came back normal.

Once I have an idea of what’s going on I’ll let y’all know. But I can’t draw or stream or get on my pc for the foreseeable future.

Thank you all for your patience and kindness. I feel I’m ready enough to slowly get back into commission work. Tenderness is still a thing with my arm and I will need to be taking breaks, but with the stress of getting hurt on the job, workers comp running circles around me, and my job letting me go, it was all really upsetting and I still cry over not working with them animals anymore. Thank god for right to work states amirite?

Everyone who commissioned me before this entire ordeal happened I have your information still. If you have any questions please dm me.

Once again, thank you ❤️

Hey, everyone! Hope you're all doing well. here updating to inform that Chioro won't be streaming for the next couple of weeks. They got some pretty heavy injuries last week that prevent them from talking on stream and makes drawing difficult. In the meantime, they will be working on commissions, but progress will be slow as they work through physical therapy. Thanks for your patience!

I'm looking for someone who is good at video editing and can help me create art video's for youtube for money! Please comment below or note me if you're interested!!

today is the last day to get in my April queue! If you’re interested in getting a rough colored sketch ($50), a refine colored sketch ($75), a bunny suit ych ($75) or a Happy Breeding Ych ($100) please DM me or comment below! Thank you!!

I’m still accepting a few more commissions to be done in the month of April. Is anyone interested in getting a rough colored sketch for $50 or a refined colored sketch for $75? If so, please comment below or DM me ❤️

I am officially opening up a limited number of slots for refined and rough colored sketches! These will be completed by the end of April!

Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51484814/

If you’re interested please either send me an FA note or email me at apochistudios[at]gmail.com

Refined: $75usd per character
Rough: $50usd per character

Shading is offered at an additional cost of $100usd.

Please comment below or note me if you have any questions!

T.O.S: https://docs.google.com/document/u/.....FG7x2fYUd-FV8I

My Carrd: https://chioro.carrd.co/

If you'd like to participate and watch, please join! Mic on!

https://www.twitch.tv/chioro_

I'm looking for stream mods!! I'd like about 4 or 5 mods at least for PicArto and Twitch so I can have at least one mod at all time while streaming. If this interests you then please fill this out ❤️

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....DSIgA/viewform