LoL so yea gonna make a new account AGAIN.
My is watching list has gotten so huge again and many of the artists have stopped submitting anyway(plus the 2000 subs a week is annoying). This is far more convenient than un-watching someone =D

It will be obvious when I watch you that my new name is by the plant creature icon watching you XD
Outside of that I won't be reference linking to it in anyway.

But if you read my journals my name should be obvious enough D:

So I took it... ITS PRETTY FUCKING ACCURATE!

5 - the Observer

Thanks for taking the test !

5 - the Observer
you chose BZ - your Enneagram type is FIVE (aka "The Thinker").


"I need to understand the world"



Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.



How to Get Along with Me

• Be independent, not clingy.

• Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.

• I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.

• Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.

• Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.

• If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.

• don't come on like a bulldozer.

• Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.



What I Like About Being a FIVE

• standing back and viewing life objectively

• coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects

• my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure

• not being caught up in material possessions and status

• being calm in a crisis



What's Hard About Being a FIVE

• being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world

• feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all

• being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be

• watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally



FIVEs as Children Often

• spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on

• have a few special friends rather than many

• are very bright and curious and do well in school

• have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers

• watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information

• assume a poker face in order not to look afraid

• are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict

• feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected



FIVEs as Parents

• are often kind, perceptive, and devoted

• are sometimes authoritarian and demanding

• may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate

• may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions

Gonna keep this account as its to much fuss to re-fav all my favs, But my name is now Niji :3

Working on a Mandala (mandara?) for my name and character as well though finishing it significantly is probably a long way of as i need to learn the theoriums behind Mandalas (mathematically) to draw one up right =)

But yes in the future please refer to me by your own personal nickname for me, or my real name Montana, or my fur and rpg name of Niji

A few of my old rpg buddies are still welcome to call me that nick of Cocoa i went by for years =)


NIJI OUT!

APPARENTLY someone came up with the name at almost the same time I did(think they had me beat by a day or two) of sticking a flower over their face('shoped, cause I saw the pixels looked different!), and they called that a Florasona, which is supposed to be a flower that represents you... Given the physical appearance of such pictures they should just be called Floralsonas as it is just a flower covering their face :( :(

Anyway since in a time related manner I was beaten to the term(even though their meaning is greatly different than a plant kingdom persona along the lines of "fursona"). I must relinquish the word meaning to them and find a new one >.< GOD DAMN IT! COINCIDENCE BLOWS ASS when it actually happens!

Soo I will return to calling my plant butt my "Plant(plant kingdom) Persona" supah fail. WHY CAN'T MONTANA EVER HAVE NICE THINGS!?! MY WEEK HAS EATEN SHIT SO BAD. First I move and have like 4 bomb shells droped on me, that I would have rather have dropped BEFORE I moved so I wouldn't have moved! god damnit and now this and all my finance shit and the car deals falling through....UGHHH

WHY MUST YOU TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME FA!!!!

XD

So... i like how furries have the term "fursona" for there furry persona, soooo I after seeing an amusing status text by
 alphachimera -kun I have come up with the new term Florasona, pronounce Flora-sona.....and well it should be obvious what it means XD

ANTHRO PLANTS UNITE! BY YOUR POWERS COMBINED. I AM....HE-MAN!

Finally upgraded my number one lover song/gonna dance to at wedding etc

Previous: Donna Lewis - I Love you Always Forever

NEW AND BEST: Lou Rawls -You'll Never Find, Another Love Like Mine.

also he has an epic voice and name.

Because It amuses me and since all my video games are packed away in prep for my move on saturday :3 They are only passionate sounding because I write them in a brief momentary flash of passion or annoyance.

Please feel free to disregard everything I ever post I could not care either way! Though comments posted to other peoples pages ARE genuine (though I prefer to troll journals, I do not and will never troll an artists picture or commission journals etc.)

this happens EXTREMELY often for me... I meet a guy get to start to be really awesome and close friends with them then at some point they lose their GF(or didn't have one to start) and suddenly start making passes at me... and I am like WTF NOOOO! I just want to be friends don't drag that shit into this relationship! I finally made a solid broskie straight male friend! AND YOU TURN ON ME!?

What is amusing is 99% of my non-straight friends do not care for me at all that way(which is why I keep them but I can't do to much manly straight guys with them except three of them, they know whom they are. but are also far from me.).
I've somehow magically turned at least 15 really manly guys into *unmentionable words*. it REALLY REALLY Creeps me out because I always lose them as friends when I really push it through their thick skulls that I DO NOT swing that way especially not for them! I might like guys a bit(haha cocks abs and ass, and purely physically cept these two guys I know). But really WHY?! WHY ME!? I am pretty down right not good looking, below average and skinny and what have you. Is it because I am really close with them and show them that guys can care about your feelings and shit too? Seriously I want to know what is it that this happens to me. I CAN'T KEEP A SINGLE STRAIGHT MALE FRIEND without them turning for me eventually. At best I can keep my distance from the ones I meet and not get close or be nice to them(I like being a complete dick anyway but yea) but the danger seems to always lurk around the corner and now I am always paranoid so am passing up some great friendships out of fear of losing them and shit cause I don't want them "That Way." I know its probably real bigotry and shit that I "want straight male friends" and what not, but I mean I love my non-straight friends too! Just that I can't do things with them without it being innapropriate and shit(no not sexual things, I can't explain it to you or them though).

*shifty eyes* It has me really on edge ALL THE TIME cause 3 of my most important at the time and closest male friends seemed to systematically turn "gay for me" or some shit like that, and so I did some stuff with them(of a semi-sexual/heated nature) which I pretty bad did regret some years back and soon our relationships fell apart and we just stopped talking to each other and rapidly drifted apart, one of them has started to rekindle our friendship cause he is happily mated to his girl.

My problem: I can't say no to my close friends. So things will tend to spiral faster.
Question that I am asking experienced people in this matter: How do I prevent this from ever happening again D: While still staying close friends with them? Most people scoff or find this all hard to believe but it is rough on me non-the-less and true. (Let us avoid subject matter like "well everyone is Bi/Gay at some point in their life you can't necessarily avoid you triggering it" etc, al.)

Should I do things like, not be so close with them(impossible for me not to) or comfort/care about them(also impossible for me to not do -_-)


PS: I know FA is probably a BAD place to talk about it but yea, oh and gals if you have some answers too anything will probably help I am trying not to lose friends here after all so other perspectives are godsends!

Seriously the only furry art I've seen of any decent quality of some good old fasion M/M with Cloaca fucking is done by  gamma-g god I love built tiger 4 so much :3 I want to have a hard copy of it though and figure out the story someday X3 it seems so interesting...

BUT SERIOUSLY FA ARTISTS I WANT MOAR MALE x MALE CLOACA SEXINGS DAMNIT!
DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON BIRDS, if it wasn't for  falconmccooper making them so damn hot, I would write scaything crits on every bird sexing picture on here that isn't anatomically correct(SEXUALLY). Just be thank full I like Blazikens enough not to care either!

But I mean god DAMN IT, birds and reptiles have such fucking interesting and amazing sexual organs and reproduction methods/rituals there is so many phenomenal ways to do drawn sex between them and other species/same species! but you all just do what you are used to as humans...and EVEN WORSE the most boring of ways for humans to do it with that missionary position or doggy style at best crap D: go get REAL LAID LAME-Os! Or read some illustrated Tantric shit!

Post here if you AGREE or DISAGREE I want some serious conversation on the matter, Falcon and Gamma are free from participation(and their supporters/fans, or antis as well) as they are the best at or transcend boundaries respectively.

Discuss.

So my moods have been just batshit crazed, and all over the place, BUT BUTT BUT, they are in line with my mood swings of 6-9 or so when I would "get out on the wrong side of the bed" as in just random clusterfuck moods, no rhyme or reason behind why they are the moods I am in. What this means is I might FINALLY be going back to my original personality at long last! and all its zany juicy craziness. WHAT THIS ALSO MEANS don't interact with me if you see me extremely cranky, as I will bite your head off for no reason =D, certain people are exempt from that rule a bit more than anyone else but yes, not totally! CAN YOU TAKE IT!?

Why this is important: It means I may not be "depressed" anymore in the clinical sense and that all my MEDicationS ARE FUCKING FINALLY WORKING LIKE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO. This also means I will not be drinking hardly ever, except for the sake of making food taste better/accompaniments. DO NOT LET ME DRINK. Not that you could stop me though =D but try! So I know to keep hold of myself and weigh the risks vs rewards of drinking at that time! This also means I can finally start working to some semblance of happiness! :3 HOWEVER DO NOT BE SHOCKED if I start acting very childish in some sense(s). To end this mood part: "Squee!"

ART: So I've decided to stop being a douchebag, and upload some of my old murrsona and characters art from the past few years(ok 10 years). Some people mentioned to me that they wondered how I drew, what characters looked like, etc.
So enjoy I guess =D there is like 5-9 certain people on FA that I want to comment on some pictures, if they do I will do something special, if they don't well, oh well =3

AION: OMG OMG OMG OMG IT'S SO GOOD!

When It launches I will tell in a journal what server I am on.
All beta-event invites with purchase of Collector's Edition FOR THE MUTHER TRUCKIN' WIN!