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Posted 2 years agoThis new update is obviously too risky for me to stick around. I've got some things to say, but I'll start with my other sites in case you don't have time. Unfortunately, none of them are as well kept up as this one, but I'm working on fixing that.
Twitter: https://twitter.com/ChoshiGaiden
Sofurry: https://choshigaiden.sofurry.com/ (Probably my most up to date)
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~choshigaiden (I might be able to vouch for you if you need to make an account. I don't really know how this works lol)
inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/ChoshiGaiden (no stories yet)
FurryNetwork: https://furrynetwork.com/choshigaiden/ (haven't posted stories here)
Furbooru: https://furbooru.org/profiles/ChoshiGaiden
Okay, now I doubt I need to explain to anyone that this is a shitty change. If you follow me, that's a pretty high chance you like the kind of content they're banning. You know what you consider to be okay and what you don't.
What I want to focus on is the quiet part. They're calling us all pedophiles. It's blatant. If you like any of my pokémon drawings, then they're calling you a pedophile. That's what they're saying. If these posts are being removed because they're children, then anyone who likes them likes children. My guess is that you know you're not a fucking pedophile.
There's a very clear historical and contemporary precedent for calling people with harmless queer interests pedophiles. It's been used since queerness existed. After the Allies freed everyone in the concentration camps, each country brought the pink triangles to their own prison camps because homosexuality was classified as pedophilia. I doubt I need to tell you, but just in case, there is an ongoing anti-trans panic that's calling everything to do with us 'grooming' kids. It's gotten to the point that groomer is considered an anti-trans slur.
How damn effective that is rhetorically, huh? That they can call trans people groomers so much that it is considered a slur for us. Anyone can point to that information and make some pretty fucking shitty faith interpretations. I saw this all happen first hand as it happened. "Well, if you're not a groomer, then we're not talking about you!" and now, my state is trying to make it illegal to transition. They pointed to anyone defending trans people from being called groomers and shouted that they were defending grooming kids. It was an incredibly fucking powerful silencing tool because it blackens the reputation of anyone they come for and anyone who tries to defend us.
It makes you untouchable.
I'm not going to pretend this is anywhere near that level of influence. Obviously this fucking website has no institutional power. They're not rounding anyone up in camps, and no moderators have any special ability to enact political change. But this rhetoric is the same.
Pride month is coming up. Every year, there's a 'controversy' about having Kink at Pride, and every year is the same. It's always assimilationist bullshit. It's the log cabin gays trying to distance themselves from the depraved degenerates like me, someone assigned male at birth who also likes taking estrogen and growing tits. This is how they delude themselves into thinking that the people in power won't come for them, and it's a fantasy. Once they manage to kill off all the trans people, they're coming for all the bi people, then the lesbians, then the gays.
Never fall for it.
I wanted to share this here because, all things considered, this is small beans. Getting banned from a website won't get anyone killed—but this rhetoric has. Pedophilia is something that everyone (rightfully) detests. You can pretty easily convince most people that killing is okay if you frame it right. Hell, we live in a world where chucklefucks will say rape is no big deal. No one in their right mind will touch pedophilia with anything but a fast moving lead pipe.
Remember this. In all I've learned in the many controversies I've watched and taken part in through the years, I've learned one thing above all: dig. Look at what they tell you, then look at the facts. Learn to politely grill people on the details. Ask someone what exactly they mean. If something sounds off to you, dig. When someone says that drawing eevee, pichu, or fucking riolu makes you a pedophile, fucking dig. In the words of That1Guy, "You can't just keep on/ Hanging around/ Put your eyes to the ground and/ you've gotta dig dig dig dig it out." (it's a really fun song look it up)
If you're reading this, I love you. This past year has been the worst of my life, so understand how fucking much I mean it when I say that all of your support has meant the world to me. It's saved me in ways I can't ever quantify. Every favorite, watch, comment has consistently brightened my day. My numbers aren't anything noteworthy, but I'm still amazed by them. I can't believe I've gotten as many favorites on my most recent story as I have, even. Figuring myself out has always been through art, and having people show any kind of love, any kind of support made me feel safe to be who I am. That's not something I can repay, and I thank you all.
But it's not all gone. This site fucking sucks. It won't be easy, but it'll be worth it.
Always, above anything and everything else, remember: You're the only one who knows the true You. Never be anyone else but You, because You are beautiful in a way no one else is. Be You. Just be You.
I'll see ya. After all, for every meeting, a parting is sure to follow—but that parting need not last forever.
Twitter: https://twitter.com/ChoshiGaiden
Sofurry: https://choshigaiden.sofurry.com/ (Probably my most up to date)
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~choshigaiden (I might be able to vouch for you if you need to make an account. I don't really know how this works lol)
inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/ChoshiGaiden (no stories yet)
FurryNetwork: https://furrynetwork.com/choshigaiden/ (haven't posted stories here)
Furbooru: https://furbooru.org/profiles/ChoshiGaiden
Okay, now I doubt I need to explain to anyone that this is a shitty change. If you follow me, that's a pretty high chance you like the kind of content they're banning. You know what you consider to be okay and what you don't.
What I want to focus on is the quiet part. They're calling us all pedophiles. It's blatant. If you like any of my pokémon drawings, then they're calling you a pedophile. That's what they're saying. If these posts are being removed because they're children, then anyone who likes them likes children. My guess is that you know you're not a fucking pedophile.
There's a very clear historical and contemporary precedent for calling people with harmless queer interests pedophiles. It's been used since queerness existed. After the Allies freed everyone in the concentration camps, each country brought the pink triangles to their own prison camps because homosexuality was classified as pedophilia. I doubt I need to tell you, but just in case, there is an ongoing anti-trans panic that's calling everything to do with us 'grooming' kids. It's gotten to the point that groomer is considered an anti-trans slur.
How damn effective that is rhetorically, huh? That they can call trans people groomers so much that it is considered a slur for us. Anyone can point to that information and make some pretty fucking shitty faith interpretations. I saw this all happen first hand as it happened. "Well, if you're not a groomer, then we're not talking about you!" and now, my state is trying to make it illegal to transition. They pointed to anyone defending trans people from being called groomers and shouted that they were defending grooming kids. It was an incredibly fucking powerful silencing tool because it blackens the reputation of anyone they come for and anyone who tries to defend us.
It makes you untouchable.
I'm not going to pretend this is anywhere near that level of influence. Obviously this fucking website has no institutional power. They're not rounding anyone up in camps, and no moderators have any special ability to enact political change. But this rhetoric is the same.
Pride month is coming up. Every year, there's a 'controversy' about having Kink at Pride, and every year is the same. It's always assimilationist bullshit. It's the log cabin gays trying to distance themselves from the depraved degenerates like me, someone assigned male at birth who also likes taking estrogen and growing tits. This is how they delude themselves into thinking that the people in power won't come for them, and it's a fantasy. Once they manage to kill off all the trans people, they're coming for all the bi people, then the lesbians, then the gays.
Never fall for it.
I wanted to share this here because, all things considered, this is small beans. Getting banned from a website won't get anyone killed—but this rhetoric has. Pedophilia is something that everyone (rightfully) detests. You can pretty easily convince most people that killing is okay if you frame it right. Hell, we live in a world where chucklefucks will say rape is no big deal. No one in their right mind will touch pedophilia with anything but a fast moving lead pipe.
Remember this. In all I've learned in the many controversies I've watched and taken part in through the years, I've learned one thing above all: dig. Look at what they tell you, then look at the facts. Learn to politely grill people on the details. Ask someone what exactly they mean. If something sounds off to you, dig. When someone says that drawing eevee, pichu, or fucking riolu makes you a pedophile, fucking dig. In the words of That1Guy, "You can't just keep on/ Hanging around/ Put your eyes to the ground and/ you've gotta dig dig dig dig it out." (it's a really fun song look it up)
If you're reading this, I love you. This past year has been the worst of my life, so understand how fucking much I mean it when I say that all of your support has meant the world to me. It's saved me in ways I can't ever quantify. Every favorite, watch, comment has consistently brightened my day. My numbers aren't anything noteworthy, but I'm still amazed by them. I can't believe I've gotten as many favorites on my most recent story as I have, even. Figuring myself out has always been through art, and having people show any kind of love, any kind of support made me feel safe to be who I am. That's not something I can repay, and I thank you all.
But it's not all gone. This site fucking sucks. It won't be easy, but it'll be worth it.
Always, above anything and everything else, remember: You're the only one who knows the true You. Never be anyone else but You, because You are beautiful in a way no one else is. Be You. Just be You.
I'll see ya. After all, for every meeting, a parting is sure to follow—but that parting need not last forever.
Poképorn Communities
Posted 3 years agoI know there're loads of specific discords out there for specific things, but I've never seen one for writing furry or poké smut. I feel like they have to be out there, right? This kinda thing does have to be somewhat hush hush for obvious reasons, but I do wish I could find some of them. Communities are great for writing, but I can't just hop into a writing server and start posting stories of pokémon getting railed just anywhere, lol.
Update: Fuck
Posted 3 years agoThings aren't going too well. I mentioned the incoming troubles in this journal (https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10269739/), but it's easy to summarize here. Despite having no income and never receiving any up to this point, I got rejected for financial aid for being in school too long. That was basically my last hope for income. I've appealed it and applied for disability, but they said that takes eight weeks, and I need a new place to live before then. And applying to jobs, obviously, but when even wal*mart won't hire me, well...
I asked for support in the other journal, but honestly there's no way I could get enough in time. I didn't expect or want to, either. I know how building an audience goes, so I don't expect to get enough to make this a job for at least a few years, if ever. If I'm being totally honest, asking for money feels like shit, too. I've gotten more support on my work recently than I ever thought, and turning around to try monetizing it feels like cheapening it. Even if it comes from a place of desperation. Sure, labor is labor, but I dunno. I'm sure every creative feels the same and just powers through it.
So, yeah. I'm really not sharing this to get pity bucks, and you'll just have to trust me on that. I really don't know why I'm sharing this. Mostly just screaming into the void since I know people don't really read journals (I barely do, either, lol). I guess to explain any sudden drop in activity. I have been posting a lot more recently, so I don't know how much of that I can keep up for a while. At least until any of it's stabilized.
The worst part is this entire financial tailspin started because my dad died. I never had a great relationship with him, but I would've hoped I'd have a place to live until the body was cold. Family says they love and support me until I explain what's actually happening, and they look at me like I'm full of shit. No, actually, going to the place didn't spontaneously convince the manager to hire me. Shit like my brother telling me I'm stagnating over the phone while no one steps in to support me or tell him to fuck off. Of course they wouldn't, though. If calling me a sexual degenerate wasn't enough to perk their ears, I doubt anything would.
Everything is falling apart around me. I've always tried to have faith things will work out. Somehow. It's hard when everywhere I look is another opportunity closing right before my eyes.
If anyone reads this, just know I really do appreciate that you like my stuff. If nothing else, I've made art that people love. A lot more people than I expected. It was the dream ever since I was a kid, and I accomplished it in at least a small way. I still hope I'm just getting started, but at least I have works to be proud of. Every favorite and follow makes me feel heard, like someone out there felt the same things I did when I made it. It's a kind of time travel, to send your heart into a void and let someone else connect to what you created. No matter how much time passes, the connection is there. It persists even if I don't.
So, genuinely, thank you for whatever support you've given me up to this point. I hope I can keep it up and repay y'all with more art, stories, whatever, but regardless, thank you for everything. I'll see ya 'round.
I asked for support in the other journal, but honestly there's no way I could get enough in time. I didn't expect or want to, either. I know how building an audience goes, so I don't expect to get enough to make this a job for at least a few years, if ever. If I'm being totally honest, asking for money feels like shit, too. I've gotten more support on my work recently than I ever thought, and turning around to try monetizing it feels like cheapening it. Even if it comes from a place of desperation. Sure, labor is labor, but I dunno. I'm sure every creative feels the same and just powers through it.
So, yeah. I'm really not sharing this to get pity bucks, and you'll just have to trust me on that. I really don't know why I'm sharing this. Mostly just screaming into the void since I know people don't really read journals (I barely do, either, lol). I guess to explain any sudden drop in activity. I have been posting a lot more recently, so I don't know how much of that I can keep up for a while. At least until any of it's stabilized.
The worst part is this entire financial tailspin started because my dad died. I never had a great relationship with him, but I would've hoped I'd have a place to live until the body was cold. Family says they love and support me until I explain what's actually happening, and they look at me like I'm full of shit. No, actually, going to the place didn't spontaneously convince the manager to hire me. Shit like my brother telling me I'm stagnating over the phone while no one steps in to support me or tell him to fuck off. Of course they wouldn't, though. If calling me a sexual degenerate wasn't enough to perk their ears, I doubt anything would.
Everything is falling apart around me. I've always tried to have faith things will work out. Somehow. It's hard when everywhere I look is another opportunity closing right before my eyes.
If anyone reads this, just know I really do appreciate that you like my stuff. If nothing else, I've made art that people love. A lot more people than I expected. It was the dream ever since I was a kid, and I accomplished it in at least a small way. I still hope I'm just getting started, but at least I have works to be proud of. Every favorite and follow makes me feel heard, like someone out there felt the same things I did when I made it. It's a kind of time travel, to send your heart into a void and let someone else connect to what you created. No matter how much time passes, the connection is there. It persists even if I don't.
So, genuinely, thank you for whatever support you've given me up to this point. I hope I can keep it up and repay y'all with more art, stories, whatever, but regardless, thank you for everything. I'll see ya 'round.
Ko-fi!
Posted 3 years agoHey! I've started setting up a ko-fi. I'd like to say it's because the recent support's stroked my ego enough to think I deserve it, but really it's because I'm kinda on hard times. That's not your problem, and I won't try to make it by sharing all my woes, but if you do want to help, I'd really appreciate it.
It's not thankless support, either! If I get enough (read: any) support, I'll start working on a new "Supporter Story" thing where supporters help "suggest" ideas to me for one story a month. I'll try to get everyone involved as I can, but please keep in mind I'm still new to this. I hope that's a good incentive, but it's your money in the end.
Don't think I'm starving out on the streets. Stuff's just tight now. Only support if you can.
With far too much ado, here's the link: https://ko-fi.com/choshigaiden
Whether you support or not, thanks for reading.
Sincerely,
Choshi.
It's not thankless support, either! If I get enough (read: any) support, I'll start working on a new "Supporter Story" thing where supporters help "suggest" ideas to me for one story a month. I'll try to get everyone involved as I can, but please keep in mind I'm still new to this. I hope that's a good incentive, but it's your money in the end.
Don't think I'm starving out on the streets. Stuff's just tight now. Only support if you can.
With far too much ado, here's the link: https://ko-fi.com/choshigaiden
Whether you support or not, thanks for reading.
Sincerely,
Choshi.
YCH Incoming!
Posted 3 years agoKeep your eyes out for a ych I'll be releasing soon! Especially if transformation sequences are your thing. UwU
More details will be in the post proper, but I'll put what I do know down for now. As well as a four image sequence, I'll write up a small (roughly 5k words max, 2.5k minimum) story to go along with it. For both of those, the price is gonna be fifty USD. The drawings themselves will be fully colored and shaded with a simple background. Hoping this will spark interest!
The slot'll be first come first serve, so be sure to check frequently if you're interested. If you have any questions, lemme know here.
More details will be in the post proper, but I'll put what I do know down for now. As well as a four image sequence, I'll write up a small (roughly 5k words max, 2.5k minimum) story to go along with it. For both of those, the price is gonna be fifty USD. The drawings themselves will be fully colored and shaded with a simple background. Hoping this will spark interest!
The slot'll be first come first serve, so be sure to check frequently if you're interested. If you have any questions, lemme know here.
Calling All Gengar
Posted 3 years agoHello! I'm going to do something with a gengar, either a drawing or a short story (<1k) but probably a drawing. If anyone has a gengar oc that is a girl or likes girls, lemme know! It'll be first cum first serve. I just want more gengar shortstack material in the world and I am willing to contribute.
Otherwise, check out my most recent story! It's about zangoose and I'm super proud of it!
Otherwise, check out my most recent story! It's about zangoose and I'm super proud of it!
Probing Commissions
Posted 4 years agoHello! I've gotten a decent number of followers. I'd like to gauge interest in commissions. I'm thinking $30 (U.S.) for a doodle and a one to two thousand word story. Would anyone be interested in something like that?
How to Get Posted on e621
Posted 4 years agoWhat's a gal got to do to get posted on e621? I submitted my stuff before, but it got rejected. I can't remember if it was just not good enough, or it was because I was uploading my own art, but both were mentioned.
It's not a particularly huge deal. I guess it'd just be cool to be recognized, even in such a small way. Or maybe I'm just desperate for fame, who knows.
It's not a particularly huge deal. I guess it'd just be cool to be recognized, even in such a small way. Or maybe I'm just desperate for fame, who knows.
