It's has been awhile since I last wrote journal so I'm gonna keep this brief as possible...
I hope you guys doing well and having and awesome Christmas, mines couldn't been better for the most part, more or less I guess...

Now I will announce few things regarding my future plans after the holidays. I wanted to get bCk to drawing and writing fan fics or what not but due to what has been happening and what I'm going through I am afraid to say it's null and void. So I will apologize for everyone who is looking forward to see my sketches and fanfic again. I will however comment and favorite other pics from other artists, writers, etc.

I know this is suppose to be a cheerful Time and of spending this holiday with friends and family but to be honest I lost interest in the holidays and other special occasions.

So to confess I am acting like this due to still mourning of my father which lost of you should know has past away back in 2018, almost 2 years ago and I am STILL mourning and missed him. And the fact he is gone drastically changed my perception and how I live my life altogether.

It's even worse now because I have to walk out of my job because the retail company I was working at were being a bunch of money grubbing assholes, but I didn't walk out empty handed though I made sure I have the last word that could not cripple but let them know to not fuck with me especially in the sour and sour mood I was in on that day. (only to ended being accused and then threaten with lawsuits and crinimal charges for stealing their money but ended up doubling down and instead ended up just state wide banning from shopping at their stores)

Now I do have family left but sadly my family I severe ties switch them and the only family I have left is my brother (and you should already know him already but hardly goes to FA anymore due to living his life with his actual girlfriend (now his fiance) but he too spending time with his friends.

So yeah I am just gonna treat the holidays from hear on out as another casual day. Whatever holiday spirit I have is now gone. And don't worry bout me everyone, I'll be fine more or less. I do wanna thank one good friend for cheering me up and tried to keep my spirits up. With that being all said. I am truly sorry for the inconveniences, I'm sorry that won't make future fan fics and pictures as much as I want to. And I am sorry to put it bluntly wasting your time of reading this journal.

Merry Christmas everyone.

For those who are wondering what the hell Im talking about and due to my sanity is whithering away to the point I want to slash my wrist open or put a bullet in my head allow me to explain but however Im not going explain what this discord group is nor who the owner is but I guarentee to the owner that Im gonna explain myself or as he/she were say "un-tard" myself. But of course its not gonna matter anyway because I didn't survive at least 10 minutes in the group before I get kicked out of the group for being a complete "dipshit faggot retard"

Yeah... And my only response to this is that yeah Im retard but also responsible but obvious i was completely oblivious and clueless of what the hell is going in the group so either I logged in at the wrong place and/or at the wrong time.
So one of the members and the owner immediately shot me right off the bat with a question of "top 3 fuckable pokemon" at first I thought they meant most well known fuckable pokemon, and there is countless fuckable pokemon. So I chose the most well know, to my knowledge, Lucario, Greninja, and Charizard. Then they fire back with my name being ChrisWOLF but don't wolf pokemon in the list. So which Means I could't put my own personal pokemon choices as "fuckable" from likes of Lycanroc, another personal favorite pokemon, or Arcanine. But of course lets completely disregard that fact Lucario is technically a canine specie pokemon as well because he is based off of a egyptian jackal.

So after that little fiasco the owner, who I still keep as anonymous, ask me if I own lets go Pikachu/Eevee. I simply said "Sadly no" and explained why. And the reason is that I don't own a switch, simply because I couldn't afford one. And then this one user, being a complete utter smart ass decide to repeat my message with his comment saying "implaying money is a limited resource. "
I don't know if that was intentional or it was a fucking joke but listen you here, you fucking jackass, yes it is limited resource to me because I have to literally go fucking broke and then go into fucking debt to pay off my fucking rent because my landlord and Landlady are couple of scamming fucking assholes and getting shit ready for the holidays and I guarentee you gonna start laughing your asses off when my fucking electrical bill shoots through the roof. Combine with that I am going through one helluva a holiday depression for so many reasons and I just explain most of the reasons why. And the other reason and this one is a big fucking bombshell, that absolute major reason is that my dad fucking passed away in the beginning of 2018 of Janaury. Yeah what a fucking time of year to start it off with, losing one of the two only family members you have at the start of the year while the rest of your family members including your own fucking mother being a straight up fucking cunt through out your entire year after your dad tragically passed away from diabetes infection. The only family I have now is my brother and he and I are living together along with his fiance and couple of his friends. Im technically another roommate to them. And me and My brother are gonna have to celebrate Christmas without our father.

"then why don't you go over to your so called" fucked up family" anyway and celebrate your christmas with them."

Well shit call me even more of a "dipshit faggot retard" the last thing that me and my brother want is going to a house full of drama queens and especially going back to the fucking she devil that is my mother after she has been constantly harassing me in the course of entire fucking month and celebrate our christmas with her. Not gonna fly nor swing that way. I would rather hang myself from my fucking house on the roof then to go anywhere near that fucking bitch for any reason let alone celebrate the holidays with her. No fucking way.

So getting back to this discord group that I didn't even last 10 minutes or a singoe night until they gave me the boot. The owner goes on a tangent explaining that Lets Go Pikachu/Eevee is a piece of shit game for so many reasons, and the owner doesn't explain why. To be honest I can get pass and respect the owner's opinion to why he/she hates the game and to be more brutally honest that I don't really don't care that much about the game anymore simply because I don't own it nor the switch itself to play it but I still try find some positives such it is mostly played by people who loves playing pokemon go and those who are new to the series and younger audience such new generation of pokemon. Yes I know pokemon Lets go pikachu/eevee is another remake based off of the first pokemon games that is over 20 years like she mention. But like I said back then the old pokemon games is very limited thus very flawed compare to pokemon games we today.

Now that being the everyone labeled as "Dipshit faggot retard" and before I can see what else of a shit hole I can get to into group and possibly know more of the users of the group the owner decided to its time to drop the ban hammer on me on the spot and give me the boot out of him/her group follow by "go back to the village you came from, they want their idiot back" so yeah that was it. I tried to explain myself but it came off the wrong start. I just log into the servers to see what kinda mess I am gonna get into since I have nothing else better to do. He/She wanted me to do something to "un-tard myself" and I simply said "alright then, shoot" as in go ahead and ask me anything else and before I knew I got fucking canned by him/her. So yeah nice talk to ya people, nice knowing you all even though it didn't evsn last for the rest of the night before sending me off with a "fuck you" and pernament marker graffiti of a dick drawn on my forehead.

So again I am not gonna say who this owner is and what discord group he/she is currently an owner off but I will say when you do find this discord group or its owner, take my advice and do not harrass him/her and the users on that group. Thats all I have to say and to the owner let me say this. Thanks for inviting me to the group enjoyed the moment while it lasted but I will say to take it easy on the harshness. And your pokemon porn of your OC being fucked by pokemon is good and all is just as entertaining as the group despite being very short.

So yeah, if you may all excuse me Im gonna treat myself with some bleach before falling sleep and hopefully never wake up...

Why am I saying trump can go to hell? Well I just found the REAL reason why Tumblr is going on full purgery of all NSFW material on not just tumblr now its going to happen on Twitter and we don't even know. As it turns out apparently some fucking freak of nature decided to upload child pornagraphy on the tumblr and now since this causes Tumblr to say "Fuck it" and wipe all NSFW. Leads to another. Problem apparently its the fucking SOPA and PIPA incident all over again. For those who doesn't know what hell I am even talking about. Trump release article 13 to form the following of SESTA ( Stop Enabling Sex Trafficking Act) and Fosta (Allow State and Victims Fight Online Sex Trafficking Act)
And it has been register by that fucking cockatail haircut fucktard, Donald Trump on April 11, 2018

Yeah you heard me fucking right, some fuck head at the senate house hold and the Bill of rights turned this outrageous stupidity into a Fucking Law back in April of this year and we disn't even knew about it.
And guess what? Facebook, Tumblr and soon Twitter being force by this fucktarded internet law to reuglated all "offensive material" from their websites. So yeah don't bother trying to move your shit over twitter. Especially there Are now rumors spreading that even Pedophiles and I do mean actual pedophiles are even heading to Twitter to spread their cancerous actions on that platform.

Yeah so you know what? Fucking this world!

Well people its official (and I maybe late to the party. )
Tumblr just shot themselves in the foot because they are gonna change their guidelines where ALL NSFW content (aka Porn) is no longer gonna be allowed on their website, and this change is gonna be finalized on Decemeber 17th.

So better save up those porn pics/gifs or find a way to sign a petition to get Tumblr to not change any guidelines or you can kiss those dicks and tits pics goodbye.

And for those who are just using Tumblr that are using it for NSFW content. I suggest find other websites to post your work of art elsewell cause Tumblr went full OD on either Stupid or Retard pills or possibly both. Not only that there is an viewing filter to prevent minors or possibly oversensitive idiots seeing Porn pics.

What I am saying is batten down the hatches and keep an umbrella in head, cause this shitstorm is about to begin. So merry fucking early christmas.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29.....#cid:133813727

I wanna thank you all for your replies and concern of me not voting. I heavily appreciated it.
However I wanna go off say that I may have the power to vote but you want to know what else that we all entitled to? Free will. I don't have to vote unless I want to.
 sikfock666 you may have a point regarding how voting is important and may have consequences for not voting as well. So maybe I am pawn and just doing exactly what they want ans I know every has died for this right to decided who is gonna sitting in a office doing paper work while spewing out political bullshit while doing shady things behind the media's back. I know thats all Trump's doing, proving the point he is the most hated person on the planet as he is still treating everything like its somekind of game show while destroying every amendment under the sun. But my point regardless whether or not I am giving them what they want and being a pawn. As I said its my free will if I wish to vote for one of them or not, even if they a gun against my head and ready pull the trigger if I don't vote. I will stand my grand and say I will not vote. We can do whatever we want as long we follow the law and not step out line and overstep any boundaries. Now as for why I am still not vote is because it is my right and my free will to do so, after all the voting system is just fucking game of "raise your hand if you want this person in a room of power" and hope that person doesn't fucking everything up. Hell I didn't vote for neither Clinton nor Trump because one is complete insane person and the other is a money grubbing sociopath. And that fucking cockatail hair style always gives me a fucking headache everytime I look at it.

Bottom line you guys wanna vote, by all means its your right to vote and again you are right that people had died to gain the right to vote. Appreciate your suggestions and enthusiasm for me to vote. But my decision stands and its final. I choose not to vote. And I will choose not to vote in the future.

Something is bothering me and it's weighing me down pretty hard. I will be very slow on responses if not may not respond at all. Just mildly depress and will cheer a bit.

Anyways don't worry just need some for myself and hopefully perk up a bit.

So Yeah its my birthday. So anyone wanna send me gifts that's fine too. But keep in mind I have to celebrate my birthday without my dad so...either way I am still hanging in there.

So unfortunately my father, John Allan Barnes, had just passed away. Was fighting his Diabetes for 20 years and now it has relapse and took a toll on his body. All of hos organs are shutting down. Doctors did everything they could but the toxins in his body is doing more damage. They pulled the plug under our consent and toxins took over his body like a wild fire and he was pronounce dead at midnight...and I stood by his side holding his hand just as they pulled the plug.


My brother is scared because Dad is how we made it this far and why I am being strong and put up with all the shit that we have gone through. Now the only family I have now is my brother.

Sl what happens now? I don't know...all I can suggest is love on the best we could on our own.

Oh boy...where do I even begin with this, lets start off with why I was a bit inactive.
many of you should be wondering why I was bit silent at the moment, its not just because I was doing housework nothing to frantic but I also grew addicted to Fire emblem warriors which I was able to get my hands on at its release date. that's right I got the game on the day it was release in stores and I had a LOT of fun with it. too much fun in fact and just about to complete it. so this makes it my 3 game I had ever completed. all I can say is to those who love fire emblem (and not shoving it down our throats like the fucking idiots I am about to talk about) and like Dynasty/Samurai warriors? then this game is for you like it is helluva fun and very creative, the strategy and triangle system is implemented from the main core games is done very well and the AI is fucking supernatural we're talking Bioshock Infinite Elizabeth AI super natural. so I recommended this game to those who loves it.

now onto the rant. so what is it that they decided to bitch about the game itself to the point I want to vent out my frustration on these toxic assholes out and for legitimately pissing me the fuck off? is it because they think the game is a piece crap, poorly design and poorly made? (not true because its made pretty well hell even the 3DS version, which I own because I don't own a switch sadly. so yeah missing out here) the gameplay being shitty? (also not true the game play is also pretty good)

no they decided to bitch and say Fire emblem warriors is the worse game every made because ROY AND/OR IKE AND WHO-THE-FUCK-EVER IS NOT IN THE GAME OR GONNA BE DLC'S.

*sighs* okay let me explain in full detail what the hell is going on. ever since all the playable characters have been revealed including the unlockable characters, (female Robin, Male Corrin, Lyn, Celica, and Anna) people are wondering "where the fuck is is Ike or Roy?" then say "well they have to be DLC's" but then when the DLC packs were announced (well not announced but leaked due to the DLC packs translated from Japanese) it was revealed that DLC packs contains characters that were not playable such as Oboro, Owain, Niles, and Navarre but the rest of the characters to be revealed in the rest of these packs. so let list the following characters in each DLC pack.

Fates Pack, Release Date December 2017 (no confirm full date)
Oboro (already in the game however not playable)
Niles (also in the game but not playable)
and Azure (due to her play as the biggest role in the fire emblem fates games)

Shadow Dragon Pack February 2018 (happens to the month of my birthday, how sweet! ^///^ )

Minerva (who is gonna be another flying mount axe wielder like Camilla, I am assuming)
Navarre (already in the game along with Oboro and Niles but sadly also not playable)
and Linde

then finally the Awakening pack March 2018.
Owain (already expected as he is featured in the game but sadly not playable)
Tharja ( possibly due to her fan base for being complete and utter fucking pervs aka LEWD fan base)
and Olivia.

when these packs and character were revealed every fucking fire emblem brain dead retarded fans are fucking spewing out bullshit after bullshit and throwing a tantrum on the fucking floor because their precious Ike or Roy is not in the game.

REALLY?!? that's why you are giving bullshit comments like "no Hector, game gets fucking 0/10" or "this game fucking sucks because Roy or Eliwood is not game" or how about this fucking comment.

"the Nintendo fucking pulled a Marvel Vs. Capcom Infinite on Fire Emblem warriors"

okay to begin with; First of all. DO NOT fucking bash the game because Roy, Ike, Hector, or who the fuck ever is not in the game.
that is the most down right asinine and fucking retard reason why the game is hated on. could you fucking idiots out there for once, FOR FUCKING ONCE, at least play the game and get at least SOME enjoyment out of the game?
that is like if started playing lets say BlazBlue or Guilty Gear and immediately bash on it because its all Japanese dub and no English dub. (personally I prefer English Dub over Japanese Dub but that is my own personal Bias and I Digress.)

What the fucking shit hell is wrong with everyone. is everyone this fucking brain dead retarded? is everyone seriously demanding what they want in their games they take it into the fucking extreme? seriously get the fuck over it!
no one gives a flying fuck or two shits in a fucking pot, you are not part of the development team or the director of the development team of the game so you need to shut the fuck up.

and before guys say anything; YES I FUCKING KNOW!! as a developer you need to listen to the fans and suggestions then know exactly what they want in their games. HOWEVER keep in mind that some but now most of these brain dead fucking idiotic fans will take things way too fucking far will demand what they want in their games that will make no utter fucking sense in the god damn slightest!

look what the SJW's/feminazis did with games like Hyrule Warriors, they fucking demanded a female link as a playable character and when they almost got a female character name Linkle, they throw a fucking shit fit and Nintendo called these fucking cunts out and told them "we are not gonna make Link a female character, so please enjoy what we have given you and have a good day" and the fucking feminist cunts and brain dead retards fans went fucking went ballistic.

and that is one of MANY incidents that game fantards will take things way too fucking far. there is always gonna be that or few special snow flakes with a such a care and problem free life and nothing else better to do, pops right the fuck outta no where and stir up problems and taking things way to fucking seriously. no one likes you, nobody likes you and they don't give an absolute flying fuck and two shits about you asshole, take your problem stirring pot elsewhere and leave us the fuck alone, you fucking cunt sucking piss stain of a killjoy, or go home.

now on to the second issue; WHO THE FUCK cares if they pulled a "marvel vs. Capcom infinite" on fire emblem.
first of all you are talking about and comparing two different franchises that are not the same fucking thing you fucking idiots. You are comparing a game from a company that has barely gotten off the ground again ever since Resident evil 7 to a multi Billion dollar company that is the pinnacle of the gaming community and Sega is now trying to rival em. despite their flaws
analyze what the fucking you saying before submitting it like a fucking retard that you all are.

that's the first thing down now on to the second issue; and I can't believe I am saying this and going against on my analysis on What should be on the game to begin (still suggesting that DLC's is the bane of all gaming) do you know why Fire emblem warriors (this can go with other games that has this problem) has featured characters but now playable at the moment? its because they can only fit so much characters and other features as previously mention in either a game disc or cartridge and it is now relied on the storage on either an Hard Drive and/or SD card. now yes it is still completely asinine that game publishers/Developers including Nintendo has to make you pay for following content for the game you have purchased.
but you know what I know it fucking blows. I know what they are doing is Shady as fuck but you know what I say get the fuck over. put the fuck up or shut the fucking hell up. get good or get out! get used to this type of business practice cause it has been going on for a very long fucking time. and while I was growing up there is no such thing as Downloadable or Disc Locked Content.
you just play the game under certain requirements and you get an unlockedable and keeping doing until you either finish the game or complete it.

so to every fucking idiot out there wants to spew more fucking bullshit about Fire Emblem warriors, step the fuck up. I will gladly collect each and every fucking head of yours and em on my wall or the front of my brother's car.

and before I end this journal entry I can hear so many people with some common sense and go "well Chris you have to keep in mind that these Bullshit nonsensical people may be crazy but it is safe to say that it is only their opinion so there is no reason to insult them because they are ruining Fire emblem warriors for the most bullshit reason"

and Yes it is their opinion and it is non-argumentatively if they have the same opinion. BUT there is a tiny flaw of the whole "opinion." call me crazy because I am truly am after hearing so much bullshit spewed out of these fuckers mouths, you see when you play the Opinion card you have to at least provide some evidence and/or clear statements on the subject, topics and Debates.

but where we are discussing is a fucking video game. something that is meant for one purpose and one purpose alone and that is to entertain. there is no reason for something that is meant to entertain to be bashed on because of something they didn't like and it gets harshly ridiculed and then severely scolded on all the while shoving that Ridicule and scorn down its throat.

you can address the problem and it can be approved on in time sure but what these fucking idiots are doing is basically raging on that is not in the game and deemed it "the worst fire emblem spin off ever" therefore the sole called "opinion" is completely invalid.

so the end this off I must say this. Fire emblem fucking retarded fans out there. you all need to shut the fucking hell up and understand. the DLC Packs that were just announce is possibly the first batch of more Content that is yet to be release.
also the game has been release just recently for almost 3 weeks ago, there is no way in hell that Fire Emblem warriors future content is gonna end like that. look what they did with hyrule warriors and Hyrule Warriors Legends. especially Hyrule Warriors Legends. they released more Downloadable Content when it was thought that the legends of Hyrule pack was release.

and for all we know they might do it again with Fire Emblem Warriors and who knows. Roy, Ike, Hector or hell even other fan based suggestions besides Tharja might make it into Future DLCs.

with that said I am done.

I am in constant pain, splitting headache, lower back pain, wisdom teeth pain returning With a vengeance, incredibly painful sore throat that not even cough medicine could help and nasty eye infection which caused a lot of irritation.

Now you maybe all thinking "well get some rest"

If only it was that simple because traveling to Oregon to see the solar eclipse is fucking insane and it tested my sanity and my patiences. I was patient enough but my sanity is screwed. Lets see you can't sleep unless you lay your head next to the window due to 2 people squeezed in with you due to my size. Sitting in a car for 9 hours maximum and the fucking heat. 97 degrees of pure sunlight and clear sky and that mother fucking heat! And also lets be remindful that this took place 3 days AFTER my confrontation with my mother and still recovering from it. So combined. Ow I just wanted to put mywelf out of my misery and pain.

Or yeah and to add even more insult to injury, people think was making it up and/or making excuse just to bitch and moan.

Mother fucker if you were in my shoes right now. You'll be singing a different fucking tune like I did.

Thats how much I have gone fucking crazy. It got back to the point I just wanna sleep until either the pain goes away or never wake up again!

...i can't handle this anymore. Let me say my supposely final words.

Don't ever forget me.

I am kicked out of my home because of my fucking retarded mother for speaking my mind freely and try to be reasonable and serious with her.

If anyone lives nearby where in out outside of California. Let me know.

Here's my phone number in case you can reach me, text only though.

831-596-2640.

So hopefully i'll see you all again.
Please let me be remembered if anything happens to me. You are all awesome and possibly the most well known and respected people i have known.

Oh and  ZoraFear please always think of me. Hopefully i can meet you person.

So...I guess this is good bye...for now.

So yeah in case you are wondering,  Wolf-Fox01 speaking on the behalf of my brother who wants me to upload this to show his support for the game...after showing links to this game and now I am...turned on? 0/////0;

well here it is.

Chronicles of Acorn
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23538643/

Team Acorn has teamed up to create a brand new and Original Hentai Role Playing Game and possibly. Free to Play due to the game using copyrighted Characters of Sega. now if that is a big bonus allow me to list the folllowing features of the game word for word.

-Original artwork, original sprites, original assets, original SFX, original story!
-It may be an RPG Maker game but we're goin all out with it! We want this to be OUR game! As it grows, we'll be fleshing it out into a top-rate professional indie level project.
-An original soundtrack composed by an amazing musician we've been working with over the last few months, who wishes to go by the name Cilantro!
-Princess Sally as the heroine! Along with her friends Nicole, Bunnie, and the shady Fiona. (more Characters Later on in future installments)
-Tons of bosses, dungeons, exploration, complete side missions for your favorite girl to unlock some romantic scenes.. and powerful stories!
-> (this was already explained so my bad on redundancy on my part) -Completely free-to-play, this is non-profit! We don't own the rights to Sega's characters and do not wish to make money off them. This project is simply a passionate way for fans to express themselves.

Now I did ask Sallyhot and Blazymix about the content and features. and they give pretty valid and legit answers all of which got me looking forward to the game. So I can't wait to see this game in action when at least when the demo is release. and who knows I might be lucky to get a hold of the demo early to check it out for myself.

now what is the progress of the game this far? currently right now the game is still in progress and going for the enemies because they just started a contest for a robot baddie boss design. and the winner will have their design will gain recognition but also their design will be register in the game as the games Super boss, pretty much how one of the of the original Kingdom hearts super bosses did it, not only that they also get tons of other prizes including gaining access to the game beta version of the demo.

here's the link to the game's robo-baddie contest below.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23668276/

if you guys wanna participate and help team acorn out with this game. you will gain recognition as well for you support and anticipation.

now what are my final thoughts when this is complete. that I cannot say since its the WAAYY early stage to discuss if this game is good and all. but the idea of how they are gonna do this what got my attention so you know I am gonna help out and spread awareness about this and hopefully everyone in and outside of FA gets this news and its gets escalated across the internet.
it may not be easy but I guaranteed you, when at least the Demo is release I hope the game live up to my and every fan of sally acorn and gals fans expectations. now there will be changes and some of the features may not be in the game since after all this is a early stage. please support Team Acorn on this game by going to their Patreon and pledge. the amount of money you pledge will get tons of cool rewards and possibly recognition from Team Acorn themselves or more specifically  SallyHot and  Blazeymix themselves!

with that being said. I wanna thank you guys for ready and supporting. again spread awareness of this game and hope it lives up to it's expectations.

Patreon account for the game!
https://www.patreon.com/posts/chron.....es-of-11177026
peace out!

Since tomorrow is gonna be the biggest day. Aka finally going to fanime, a anime convention, thought I might celebrate by doing a little fun on the journal. Yes I am doing cards against humanity which became my favorite games. So i am gonna make 5 statements in the journal and you have to fill the blanks of what fits well with that question/statement. And it could be your own answers.

Why am I doing this? Because just for kicks and fun. And I might wanna comment on your statements. So here they are!

1: Stop, Drop, and Roll. And I don't mean a _____.

2: this _____ is the Generation of ______.

3: In Gmod Prop hunt, my favorite prop I like to play as is _______.

4: Everytime I look at a _______, It reminds me of ______.

5: how many times do I have to tell you, _______ and _______ do not mix!


Now answer away!

before I get started on expressing my thoughts and opinions on this topic. thank you all for supporting me regarding the incident. things have somewhat cheered up. now with that out of the way lets get to the topic in hand.

the first ever sonic game where they introduce custom character in the new WIP game Sonic Forces. now before this feature came in. Many people lost their shit over the fact they thought the silhouette in one of the trailers of Sonic forces was Bubsy Bobcat, you know, that obnoxious Cat wearing a white long sleeve shirt with an big ass red explanation mark and heavily known by this quote "What could possibly go wrong?" and tried to get into the mascot war with Mario and Sonic only to get his ass pound and flatten to the ground so hard his legacy died before reaching to the era we are living now? yeah that Bubsy. But guess what, as it turns out that retarded assumption was debunk and was reveal it is a custom character you can now make into Sonic forces.

Now to be honest when I first saw the trailer I was flabbergasted that we have been waiting this long for a fucking sonic game where you can now finally create your own Sonic character into a official Game published and Created by Sega in a PS4, Xbox One and the Nintendo Switch. no fucking kidding. Why think this through and waited for so long that we finally have chance to have character customization in a real sonic game and not another sonic fan made game?! it not only blows my mind but I am down right confuse.

then the shit fest really hits the fan as it turns out not to many users via Youtube didn't take to kindly of this. how they explain that this a game made specifically for sonic fans on deviant art. and I, hate to admit this, SOMEWHAT agree with them. what I mean by that is that most of the users in deviant art, not all of them, has sonic fan characters that were made by their hands with very little to no personality or originality. lets take an example and that is Freedom Planet by Galaxy Trail, a Game that was so popular on steam not only it was release on other consoles including the Wii U but is currently making a sequel, the Original Freedom Planet started as a sonic Fan made game but after making it's own game and massively redesigning the characters, the layout and the story among other things. it became heavily popular and so much so, as I already explained, it was released outside of steam and on to home consoles and a Sequel is currently being Work in Progress.

what I am trying to get at with this is that Most of the Sonic Fan characters tries to be original but it comes out as lack of context and consistency. now don't get me wrong, there are some Sonic Fans out there that tried to put in originality into their sonic OC's.
but unlike most other sonic fans out their, such as Chris Chan (god just bringing him up to use an example in this topic just makes look like more of an asshole) with his "Original Character" Sonichu, which is two copyrighted characters fused together. puts very little originality in their characters.

but then we got another person who actually brought up a very excellent point. when South Park Stick of truth customization is featured, Many people liked it but when Sonic Forces customization was introduce, everyone loses their shit. so why is everyone getting on their High as a kite horse over this for?

now to be frankly fair I am listing two sides of the same coin here, I am looking at both sides of the story, the pros and cons, the Positives and the negatives. and that is there is a right way and wrong way to do character customization in any game. Soul Calibur, Assassins Creed Unity, Fire Emblem, WWE games, etc. those games are prime examples of how to do character customization.

however Games like Mortal Kombat Armageddon where the entire game where you can customize your fatalities with not just your custom characters but every Character in the roster of 72 characters. this is pretty much the most laziest way to make a game just to extend the roster.

now I just hope that Sonic Forces do the Character customization right, other wise it's not gonna be good if not its gonna turn into a trainwreck.

Sonic Forces you better not disappointed us. you hear me?!?

This is the last straw and i am gonna go fucking insane. Everyone its time i confess everything what is really going on on my end feel free to spread everything I am about to say and go ahead and criticize me for it because. It just shows everything in my family is flawed and yes I know we humans tend to make mistakes and learn from it and adapting to it. But apparently with the exception my "Family" if you even call em that now because again as the title explained I had enough of this shit and its time yo confess EVERYTHING what is going on. And brace yourselves; most of you are either are not gonna believe me or just gonna simply say "you're speaking absolute nonsense" which will be the case cause I am now officially insane and I don't talk about this I am gonna go even more insane and possibly going to become an insane outlaw and no I am not over exaggerating I am literally pushed over the fucking edge and I am about to fucking explode.

So lets start off by explaining the first problem with my life. For the past 6+ years, I have been living with my family since almost my entire life but we're not always happy AT ALL. Almost everyday we have encounter a fucking of problems ranging from insane bills, fucking nosy ass neighbors. But since I've gotten older and moved into previous house own by my fucking cunt of a landlady who started as a close friend of my mothers as we move in. Then that's where it becomes down hill, a fucking nose dive.
Around the time my father was strong and moving about but he has a completely unhealthy obsession of coke cola sodas and literally drink 3 liters of it a day. And his obsession with coke cola and meat like stakes got so out of hand he ended up with diabetes which he suffered most of his life, and gotten so bad he ended losing most of his teeth and ended in the hospital because of heart problems cause complications of diabetes but after he got back from the hospital and paying hefty hospital bill my father is now fearing that he go blind because of diabetes then believe it or not his fear actually came true as he is now blind in one eye and partially blind in the other but luckily one of the eyes he is blind in was easily treatable but his other eye is now getting worse and cause by cataracts which is also caused by complications from diabetes. So why is he a problem. Because he even he trying to recover to he is completely arrogant and tends to forget things easily. But he knows how to cheer me up so he is the least problem i have with my family but still a problem regardless today because another habit he does is that he also loves iced tea but what he ends up doing is making a mess and i am force to clean it up. And keep this in mind by the time i am writing this insanely long journal about my life that'll make Chris Chan a run for his money, my father's vision is slowly returning and he just need to get his cataracts removed from his eye as the other eye has fully healed and can see clearly in that one eye so he should see the mess and do something but no he goes back to the room which I must remind everyone and brutally honest here; its a fucking mess. Like a fucking tornado just came over it as unhealthy as he is, the room is a disaster but thats only half of it. The other thing he does he never notifies that he is gonna use the microwave which he uses to make his ice tea and tatter tots.

Okay please follow me on this; the issue is that we have a pretty good internet connection but we also have a pretty powerful microwave. And great number of you are thinking "well whats the issue with the microwave and what does your internet have anything to do with it?" the problem is that the microwave when turned on interferes the internet connection of our routers causing em to go haywire to the point internet access cannot be use therefore it disconnects itself but eventually when the microwave is turned after the internet access gets back online a brief moment later after the microwave is used. And consider the fact my family and I play a few of online only games like Overwatch and Destiny any use of the microwave cause the internet to go fuckin nits then disconnects itself. And therefore whenever overwatch or Destiny being played will be disconnected. So the new rule is that much notify everyone when the microwave is gonna be used only one person defied this rule and its my father.

Now onto the second offender and that is my mother, in short term shes a pathological liar like myself and yes I also tend to lie as well back in the day but not as much anymore. But anyways back to my bitch of a mother. Back then she was kind but now....she is just fucking strict beyond belief. Whenever i do anything and not dressed up the way she likes it, as it shows a day before my birthday regarding THE INCIDENT (basically my mother shaved my head till its completely bald and her friend berated me) she will flat out bite my fucking head. Trying to make room of freezer and its filled with stakes, hamburgers, meat loaf and porkchops and I need to cook one or two to creat space she ridicules me. Dress in all black, she ridicules me, or hell walking out of the bathroom after getting out of the shower to get a fucking towel to cover yourself and there is no one around or no guests, she will ridiculed me. Literally she will fucking flat out ridicule shit out of me whenever I do ANYTHING. Now i need to mention she is also fucking irresponsible. For example she would go to a store and say "I'll be back in 20 minutes" or " I'm just gonna get a few things" she'll be gone for like a fucking hour or hell 2 or 3 hours in the god damn store picking and buying pointless shit we don't need like a bag full of jellybeans and snacks and treats like pop tarts ONLY FOR HER. And this is all done by some who claim to have a back problem but very suspiciously able to spend a fucking hour in a store when someone has a very crippling conditions such as scoliosis. For those who doesn't know (and to those who do know because i told them personally via PM on here in FA) mother was inflicted with sciolosis, which a malformation of the spinal cord form an S shape horizontally and not straight as an arrow, in her teenage years and was incredibly painful to her, but luckily with the help with her family she was able to get treatment done and straight her spinal cord to normal surgically and has made a full recovery. But then claims to have limited ability which she does HOWEVER she was to able to do lifting and bend over. Yeah. But now onto the biggest problem i have with her. Again she is basically beyond irresponsible and this shows how much if a cat person she is. Now you maybe all thinking "what does she have like 200 something cats in the house?" well yes but not that many cats but still have too many animals in the house. Mother has, get this; 18 cats in the house with the additional of 5 kittens in her room/ my OTHER brothers room (I'll get to him later because he is THE MAJOR problem with my family) and another 7 kittens in the back room (and this happened just 2 days ago) that makes a total of 32 CATS!! Yes that is fucking ridiculous but there is a reason for that and that my mother is responsible for our cat problem because she didn't get the female cats fixed and we have few females but a lot of male cats so yeah combined we are gonna be having a fucking cat infestation. It is THAT BAD. Because my mother say "oh we gonna get them fix" but every fucking excuse she makes is either "or i don't have the time or money" or "I couldn't because of my back" while she is doing nothing in her room but laying on her bed watching golden girls on hulu/netflix on her ps3 or playing breath of the wild or skylanders imaginators on her fucking nintendo Switch while chowing down on her treats which she claims "help her lose weight" the only time she ever leaves that room is either she needs to use the rest make something to eat or take a shit in the bathroom, leaving for work or one of my dads eye appointments or doing her homework. So she has time to play games and the golden girls while doing her other work but oh no she doesn't have the time OR money to deal with the cats thats all on my and my my OTHER brother's roommate who is currently living with us (that'll i get to in a bit) and when she does have the time and money (more specifically she FEELS LIKE IT) to the get the cats fixed. All the females are pregnant. Which means more fucking cats while the adult cats are turning our living room which i hardly go to and only person who does goes in there is my father occasionally, into a disaster area like my fathers and couches is saturated with piss and shit and my mother being the dramatic bitch as she is points the finger at me for not doing anything about which I do but it was too much and there is limit of what I can do.

Now onto the major problem i have with is my fucking Brother and not I am not referring to my brother CJ which i need to remind everyone that he FA to continue on to his own life and succeeded in being salesman and currently working for Game Stop and his store is not full of fucking dicks like the other Game Stop stores/districts, my Other brother is ironically enough is nickname CJ but he prefers to be called Christian. And this fucking kid...oh my fucking god where the fuck do I even begin with this obnoxious retarded bastard child? Well lets start with this fucking asshole is incredibly rude, like down right completely fucking disrespectful beyond belief. While my mother bites my head off. Christian takes it to a whole fucking god damn level, he would fucking treat me like im the child while he is the parent and my mother takes up on his favor and NOT mines. oh yeah did I forget to mention they both fucking treat me like a outcast and fucking black sheep of the family, while Mom, Christian. And my father treat each other like an actual family while i stood aside like i am non existent to them, yeah they did that as well.

Now back to Christian, this fuck child will go by far treating me like scum bag. I ask him a question despite the fact i am showing care for him, he only respond with silence or "its none of your fucking business" and yes he actually says that and among other harsh statements towards me. He also tends to chew my ass out including if i am playing a video game, back seating driving how i play the game. Also he likes to barge in my bedroom without knocking or without my permission and when he is done chewing me out he doesn't bother to close my room door all the way and or doesn't shut the lights off upon exiting. And every time i confront him about it he will flat out assault me both verbally and physically while my mother turn a blind eye. He will always tell me to shut up whenever I say anthing or hell even trying to finish a fucking sentence.

And today is where i have finally snapped. Because what happen was i had enough of Chrustians and my mother's bullshit and decided to first confront my brother.

What happened was i was watching Dmc4 cutscenes with Christians roommate who was the second person I respect because was kicked out of his families home and decided to live with my family. We both are commenting on the cutscenes until load and behold Christian walks in and and tells me to shut up while making false accusations like i complain about video games and their characters. To me that is very insulting because not only i am gamer but also i have every right to expressed my opinion on the game and what is that call? Oh yeah its call freedom of speech. And he is attempting taking that away from me and its that point where i decided that enough is enough. Just as i am about say he says shit again but i say "Dick head" out of fucking no where he picks up a wrench and hurls it at me luckily it didn't hit me. Then that's when i decided to confront him completely while giving him a taste of his own medicine which shows how much of a big fucking hypocrite he is its okay for him to disrespect him, he gets angry for it. So i started yelling at him " I don't give a flying fuck what you say I have the right express my opinion" he stood up and walk straight towards me and literally right up in my face he goes "you wanna run that by me again" I decided to stand up for myself and then grab Christian by his shirt still giving him a taste of his own medicine but then gets more Angry while showing me a big fucking hypocrite he is as he attempts to retaliate by put his hands on me so i shoved him on to the ground and spit on him. Getting my point that I was done with his shit. It was pretty wrong of me of doing that but it felt really good to the point i must savor it.

But that savouring moment short lived as what my mother did was fucking unforgivable.
As I head out of the back room my mother was at the hallway as she heard what happened. She grabbed me and force me into my room by throwing me in the there and told me to stay in my room.
A few minutes have passed and my mother comes knocking on my room door. I opened and mother is holding my San Jose anime convention ticket and ID that i got for my birthday. I was looking all over for it and learned that Christian snuck it out of my room and gave to my mother 3 days prior before what today. As she was holding my ticket and ID she pulls out a pair scissors. Right away I knew exactly what she is about to do with it but before i could anything; SHE DESTROYED MY TICKET AND ID, cutting it up into pieces till its pikes pieces in her hand then throws the pieces of wgats left of my ID and ticket at my face before slamming the door. All i did was look at the pieces on the ground as i falk to my knees and pick up some of the piece of was supposely my birthday gift from one of my friends. And i can hear Christian saying "serves him right"

That was the last straw and therefore I am about ready to go completely crazy. So for now on I am gonna stay off the internet until either I fully recover or find a new place to live. Cause I cannot do this anymore. It just goes to show how fucked up my family is and ironically. My mother left her family because they were dramatic. Which i don't know what to believe anymore.

This is my story and I hope every spread this. Put in the history books of internet. Anything...

Since freedom planet two is just around the corner. I thought i might wanna bring Flaria back.

For those who doesn't know; Flaria is a second oc i created as a original character for freedom planet.

Heres the link of her freedom planet 2 design.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19416958/


So ask her anything including lewd questions.

I don't know what's worst, my hair shaved bald or the most important day of my life AKA my birthday because a bunch if fucking idiots at the DMV not paying attention and not doing their jobs and almost got my mother arrested and her car impounded!

So yeah...right now i am gonna be official and say i am emotionally hurt...no scratch that emotionally MURDERED by this...my birthday plan is cancelled because again, someone is not doing their jobs.
Long story short mom was on her way back from tutoring/class with her students. Yes she is a teacher now after gamestop closed down her store and one of her employees throws her under the bus.

She was pulled over by a salinas police officer and learned that she has been driving with a expired licenses when she just renewed almost a year ago. Only to learn that the fucking idiots at the DMV gave her. Registered ID instead of a drivers license. So unless she gets her license renewed again and serve the ticket. We ain't going fuck all...

....no....i can't say no more or fuck all...my most important and best day of my life is fucking ruined by bunch of fucktards.

Im gonna go to sleep for the rest of the day...and i pray to any fucking Deity i won't wake up ever again.

Have a nice day....if not...see you in the next life...

especially since I am still in emotional and mental recovery and to add more insult to injury, my birthday is in two days from now!

...you know what; what the fuck I have to get this off my chest since he has been on my mind and known him for over almost 2 years now. \

who am I talking about, dare I say his name; Phil Burnell AKA DarkSydePhil. or as myself like to call him, Dick Swine Phil or DSPig gaming.

for those who doesn't know who he is because either you have been living under a rock or never been on the internet or youtube before in your life. to put in in short term; he's a beggited money grubbing douchebag who is heavily known for lying while shitting on his own fanbase and donators and did it for the money and has been also heavily known for playing video games, and not just bad games in general we're talking classic titles that we all love and grew up with, Jak and Daxter, Street fighter, Scar Face, GTA etc.

to keep it simple he is a absolute "gaming" douchebag on youtube.

so why am I talking about him. is it because I am just ranting about him because he doesn't know how to play a video game? or is it because he treats everyone around including his own family and friends like shit with the exception of his "full time Girlfriend" (no i am not kidding, he really called his Girlfriend, "a full time girlfriend")

the answer is no, it's one thing to be a bad or horrible gamer, even though this guy clearly doesn't learn and adapt while taking a loss also instead of blaming himself, he blames the game and the game's developers.
there is a saying "don't blame the game, blame the player" which obviously he doesn't quite get, AT ALL.

but that's not what I want to discuss about. I want discuss about his recent Vlog which was reuploaded by Sons of Kojima which is youtube group that was form to personally attack and harshly criticize Phil and all of his mistakes and titled "Lets Endure: my life is fucked" which the title says alone, Phil is FINALLY getting punished for all the years of shady and dishonest shit he has done over the past 9 years now.

I'll send you the link in the journal so you can check it out for yourself. I will warn you all though, the video is 4 hours long, and that is because Sons of Kojima is exploiting and explaining everyone wrong with the vlog video especially one part where Phil made a comment which sums everything all up.

also my own comment is within the video as well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HKqqoidGb0

Now what I want to discuss about is at the 3 hour and 47 minute mark or so where Phil brought up a particular comment where his detractors said that Phil is bored.

what Phil said next had absolutely enraged me and one of the commentators of the reuploaded video by the Sons of Kojima because it summed up how fucking stupid this retard fat fuck is.

"I wouldn't be Doing this (his "Business") if I was bored"

that comment not only floored me but also made me absolutely pissed off and made my hatred towards him sky rocketed even further to my fucking core and very fabric of existance.

I never added this in my comment because I was so mad I just wanted to posted the comment already. i was fuming because that comment alone negated everything he has said about how is FORCED to have this job then tries to spin his statement around and say "I love my job" and all that complete utter fucking nonsense

let me reiterate what he just said and what he is implying.

"I wouldn't be doing this IF I WAS BORED"

He is implying that everything he has done for 8 fucking years of his "career" as youtube gamer, scamming his fanbase while fucking their wallets and their nostalgia while defecating on his own fanbase and donators, treating his parent's like absolute fucking shit all because they didn't get him a fucking first year wolverine action figure when he was a kid. he ripped off his two best friends, John Rambo and Howard. stealing his fanbases money multiple times while exploiting the Youtube/google Search engine. everything he has done for the past 8 fucking years because he was bored...

let me repeat that so you can sink all of that in while realizing how fucking heartless this piece of shit is.

THE SHIT HE HAS DONE FOR THE PAST 8 FUCKING YEARS OF HIS YOUTUBE CAREER IS ALL BECAUSE HE IS BORED!!!

wow...I mean just wow...

no I can't write in anymore. that's all I have to say. watch the video to the fullest if you have the time unless you have work or other personal agenda's to do. let all that sink in. I hope this guy gets thrown on the street. I want to see this guy and punch him so hard I wanna see teeth fly out of his fucking swine mouth or swallowed as he chew his own ass out.

I'm done. my birthday is in 2 days. still recovering and i wanna drink all my sorrows away on my birthday.

For your kind and appreciated words. Even i am still hurt and ut may be a very long while till i fully recover. But now i see how the world really is.

So to show how much I now despise this world i write a poem or monologue how you see it to show how much emotional and mental pain i am in.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....t?usp=drivesdk

Please be sure to send this to everyone you know. Make it go public. Do anything you can to make this perfectly clear.

Merry Xmas and i hope you had the best Xmas ever as i did! Cause guess what i may not be able to get a hold of FFXV yet BUT not only I got Pokemon Sun but I also got a brand new NEW 3DS XL!!
So if anyone of you is getting a friend code. Thats me!

So start Sending me your 3DS codes if you wanna play games or trade pokemon with me and/or Battle.
On ORAS that is! I also got tons of OTHER brand new stuff for my Xbox such as a new awsome pair of mic phone headset because my other pair of headphones don't work anymore.

In case your wondering i have been using my BROTHER's 3DS so be sure to register me again to my brand new 3DS.

I hope you guys are having a very awsome xmas. Spending time with friends and family. Cracking a few jokes and drinking or taking a peek of one of your christmas presents you recieved from your closest friend or lover.

As for me justing kicking back and helping mother wrapping and deliver her gifts to her friends and possibly make our new years feast, given to one of my mom's friends!


Well checking up on you guys, leave a comment or ask questions down below on what your doing.

I am holding up okay so far, still a bit bummed about my allowance and wish list situation. But to those who are still lending me a hand, thank you.

Anyways I am just checking up on all over you and see if you all are doing okay.
So what plans are you guys doing this Xmas, which is 7 days from now?
Me? I'm gonna spending with my family like always. (Hint hint)
While trying to recover from a cold. Sneezing like crazy.

So yeah. just wanna come by and see if you guys are doing alright and hopefully had an awsome xmas.

what the fuck, I need to let all of my frustration go.
I only explained most of my problem on my wish list journal so allow me to explain what is REALLY going on.
most of you have already discovered my problem but the REAL problem is the following.

I never wanted to talk about this because it's very personal and should be kept confidential (meaning it's a secret) but due to my situation I have to talk about this, really I need to talk about it so you guys can the full detail on whats going on my end.

So you all read my Wish List journal Entry where I discuss about what I wanted for Xmas and explained how I was stuck between either Pokemon Sun or Final Fantasy XV. but the decision was made and I decided to get Final Fantasy XV for the Xbox One over Pokemon Sun because as I explained to some of you via Skype, Nintendo/Game Freak has made an announcement where they are gonna do a update patch on their PokeBank App for the 3DS where you can transfer your Pokemon from the DS and 3DS Pokemon Games to Sun and Moon, However though the Update Patch won't be Available until next year on the 1st or later in January. so in other words...I have wait until another month or so for me to get Pokemon Sun for not only so I can transfer my Dream team that I have finally completed to the game but I will not use the Pokemon until almost at the end of the game. where the game ends...I don't know I never played the game but I did watch a couple of Playthroughs of the game on YouTube.

Now on to the REAL reason why I wanna talk about this. you see Unlike most of you guys are making a living by either through Commissions, Auctions and YCHs, monetizing Videos on Youtube or doing stream's on twitch, Blip.TV, Etc. or it could be In real life jobs where you could be flipping Burgers at a Fast food joint, being a janitor or hell even tutoring Kids that have learning Difficulties.

but for me and to tell you all the honest truth; I DON'T HAVE A JOB.

"wait a minute, hold the phone. you mean don't have a job at all? then how are you making a living?"

Simple: Nothing, that is because I currently living with my actual Family. because currently we are pretty much in financial vice at the moment but now they are living off of my money. more specifically my Disable Insurance.
allow me to actually explain the whole detail to why I don't have a job and is forced to live with my family which I still am today.

currently right now I am under a special but very Strict Disability Insurance due to me being Autistic, meaning I have problems communicating with other people both in media and people around me in real life, which I am trying to improve my social Skills so not only I can outgrow my Autism but also learn to be more social and i won't have my parents talk over me to other people of what I am about to say.

"really? are you seriously blaming your autism for why you can't make a living on your own, "Chris-chan?"

yes I am blaming my autism for why I can't make a living but also why i was deemed disabled by the government which it is why I am under Disability insurance in the first placed. and the reason why I consider the insurance company very strict because of their rules.

1; I am unable to get a job or make any sort of money unless it's under the table.

2: I am unable to move from my parents Residence.

if I break any of these rules or trying to find any loop holes through these rules. the insurance company I am currently under will discontinued my claim and my Family will be ruined.

"okay Chris buts whats your problem?"

my problem is I barely do ANYTHING around my families home because I was so bored out of my fucking mind I just wanted to bash my head against the wall till I am literally brain dead.

but in all seriousness I really don't do anything around the house except cleaning the house and taking out the Trash, recyclables and yard waste out to the curb every Sunday morning. and due to the fact I am at the age where I am SUPPOSE to live on my own and get a job while finishing up college and Acing the classes I am in which I am doing so right now since this is my last weak of school.

my biggest dream of getting a job is working for GameStop, despite tons of shady shit they have done over the years but I really wanted to work for them, not just because I love video games, its not just because I wanted to interact with other People and customers to get them the product they need. it's because I wanted to improve my social skills which I have been doing for a while now.

but thanks to the Disability Insurance and their fucking Strict Rules, my dream of being a GameStop employee has been Crushed. the dream I wanted to ACTUALLY support my family without having them living off my insurance is crushed and me living in a house of my own is also been crushed.

everything I always wanted to do is smashed into ashes and blown away. but what rages me even more is that my mother WAS a GameStop Employee at one point but she was fired because the fucking idiots. the people of 24/7 snap fitness AKA the fucking GYM, the person who owns the building that is part of the 24/7 snap fitness and the Game Stop decided to sell the business of that building where my Mom's work once was to 24/7 snap fitness. not only that but Game Stop currently being filed for a lawsuit for not letting my mother back in her job because of her disability, her back problem from Scoliosis, which limits her abilities and movement. therefore Violating the American's with Disability Act.

but here's the thing though. just because I am autistic doesn't mean it cripples my performance. I do not have ANY back problem or other injuries that limits my mobility and my communication issues can be resolve which I am doing right now, therefore making her Back problem disability and my Communication issue disability COMPLETELY different.

but then when I told her I wanted to work for Game Stop, what she ended doing is using her disability and what happened with her while she was working for Game Stop and implied it on me therefore hindering me of what i can or can't do. which was both depressing and infuriating.

just because I can be bipolar (Being honest & focused or bored & lazy) doesn't mean I can't do things that she can't.
I maybe her son but there are things I can overcome, I have so much potential that she failed to see or understand.
which is why I rely on talking to my father because not only he is calm and collected but he fully understands how I felt and always be man of his word. why my mother most of the time never fulfill her word and when she does, it's already to late.

she said be back in a few minute, she'll be gone for almost an hour if not longer. I can understand that Patience is future but this was getting fucking ridiculous.

so yeah my whole is I am trapped in my own cage while my own family is living off of MY money to keep a roof over our heads and food in our stomach. and its down right depressing that I can't get a job nor leave the house to live on my own. while every single one of you is possibly living the dream you wanted. to be frankly honest and to be very blunt. I FUCKING HATE THAT!!

So now I am willing to say this to start asking for donations (By Xbox live currency and/or Nintendo E shop money cards. I don't have or use Pay Pal or other Money websites) since due to fact I can't make a living unless its under the table and my allowance is extremely rare to get. therefore I am physically broke.

if you guys can at least help me out by sparing $5 or so in Xbox Live or Nintendo E Shop currency codes that'll be great.
if not then that's okay, it would be more appreciated if you spread the word and lend me a hand.

for those that are currently helping me right now. thank you I'll take anything I could get and it's better than nothing at all.

that is all.

Xmas is just around the corner. Yeah i know is 16 days away but this Xmas is gonna be very complicated because this year had some very awesome games, from titan fall 2, Attack on Titan Wings of freedom and many more.

However there are two games I want to get this Xmas but the only problem is i don't have any money physically, and also I do not have Pay Pal. So getting money through the internet is not gonna be easy as it looks. Like seriously how do you guys do that? Whelp anywho, so the only solution i can do is get Xbox live Currency Cards and Nintendo e shop currency cards. These will come back later.

Now what are these two games i actually wanted so bad for Xmas? Well these two games are Final Fantasy XV for the Xbox one and Pokemon Sun. (Not going for moon because of midday Lycanroc and so many OTHER reasons) now onto the first problem i have is which one i want if i can't have both.

These two games are really good games and have been on my mind for a while and i just wanted to play em both like i am on crack and on a sugar /caffiene rush. but there is a circumstance where i am force to pick one over the other. Both have pros and cons like any other games have. They maybe very good games however not perfect. So lets get the first Elephant out of the Room and discussing FFXV.

About 10 long years of Development, while delaying it several hundred times, Square Enix had finally released supposely the most hyped up Final Fantasy game with a brand new combat system mechanic since the kingdom hearts games and Lightning Returns Final Fantasy XIII (or Final Fantasy XIII-3 Lightning returns if you want to be more spercific) and possibly their greatest masterpiece, Final Fantasy XV. Now i am gonna spoiler a little bit since i have watch a couple of playthroughs of the game Via youtube. First off the exploration and Combat system is very fluent and the A.I. is super cooperative. We're talking Bioshock Infinite Elisabeth Cooperative...okay maybe not THAT cooperative but the A.I lends you a hand or two and helping your other ally A.I.s. now back to the combat system what i really like about the combat system is the Parrying. In the game you have two formations by simply pressing the button. Circle (or B button for those who has it on the XBox one version) For Attacking, and the Square button (or X button, again for the Xbox one) for defending. You need to constantly switch between two of these formations. If there is a group of enemies surrounding and you cannot block all of em, no problem. Square Enix decided to be even more generous and added a dodge button by simply double tapping the square or X button which happens to be your defend button. Now back onto the parrying system. In random or crucial circumstance while fighting enemies pressing the defend button is good and all but what will happen if you time your defend stance at the perfect timing just as the enemy is about to hit as a red shield icon with the block button appearing? Well you did what is called parrying in FFXV and what it does not only stunn the target but allows you to counter em with a devastating attack that heavily damage or cripple your enemy target, allowing you to finish them off. Now onto the two awesome features in the combat and that Warping and Warp-Striking and weapon changing. So lets get the weapon changing system outta the way and save the warp and warp strike for last. The character you playing as, Noctis, has the ability to change or switch different weapons in AND outside of battles. Which he can switch either range weapons such as Shurikens, Guns and Crossbows. Long reach such as Spears, Axes and Greatswords, and medium to close quarter weapons such as the Sword, Katanas and Dual daggers. Not only that but he can cast tons of magic in his arsenal. Making him a a full fledge offensive balance Character, as the rest of the characters that are AI controlled, they can only use one or two weapons. Gladious or Gladio is a slow but heavy hitter that can take tons of abusement with his Great sword, making him the shield of the team. Next is prompto a joker but excellent sharpshooter specialize in long range attacks his trusty revolver. And last but not least, Ignis specialize in careful planning and with trusting magic and dual wielding dagger combat he is quite an impressive ally to have but outside of battle he is quite the gentleman and just happens to very intelligent and a great cook.

Sorry getting off topic. Back to the weapon changing system. What i like about this feature PERSONALLY is that it allows to player to use what weapon that'll fit the situation. Its exactly like Star Fox Assault for the nintendo Gamecube where changing weapon to fit what situation is crucial if you wish to prevail. In FFXV you can pretty much expiriment what weapon you wish to have and fit what situation and you can switch between four different weapons in and outside of battle and you can change em in the status screen any time outside of battle. Now the only problem i kinda dislike with this mechanic is that only noctis can use this feature. Gladious, Ignis and Prompto can't switch weapons or change Weapons. And due to the fact you'll find better weapons later on in the game you can equip each of your allies with their signature weapon with one of your own wrapons you have gathered and bought through out your adventure. Now lets talk about the war and warp striking. This is possibly the most badass feature in the game. Now what this feature or ability does is basically giving you the ability to teleport and dart around the battlefield. And you can warp or teleport just about almost anywhere while in the heat of battle. While outside it allows to get to certain spots in the game you couldn't reach. Now the question is it more helpful DURING battle? Actually yes it is. Because during battle you gain a target reticle which tls where the warp is gonna take. Pressing and holding the warp button which is Triangle (or Y for Xbox one) you can warp and latch on to any surface. Now this is where we bring up whats called a warp strike, the warp ability can actually be used on enemies and when it does it turns into Warp Strike. So therefore, shooting myself in the foot here; having ranged Weapons in your arsenal pretty much unreliable. But there is one or two tiny flaws with this mechanic which i am gonna get to in a bit. But the warp striking allowing you to go in and get up close and personal with the enemy but at the cast of leaving yourself open for a small brief moment.

Now lets talk about the cons of this game, Gameplay wise, ranging from rolling my eyes at em to raising an eyebrow. First off again the weapon changing system is okay and all but only noctis can change and switch weapons at will while Gladio, Prompto, and Ignis can't. C'mon Square Enix this your franchise we talking about here that started off as a turn based JRPG for the NES, for god sake!
Hell even your Bravely Series has tons of weapons AND options to choose from to make up your team that way while being diversed on your team.

Second problem is that while in combat, your attacks and Defending and dodging and yes even your warping abilities has a LIMIT. How are they limited you maybe asking; simply put its determined by your MP gauge. And yes i know at first glance i thought it means "Magic Points" and yes as i said before you can use magic in FFXV but its also limited because they are consumable ATTACK ITEMS.

Now back to the MP gauge. Each time you either attack, Defend, dodging or warping, your MP goes down and when the MP gauge is empty you enter a stasis status which unables you to do any of your combat actions including defending for several seconds or longer. Basically to simply put this, you are left completely wide open for your enemies to close in on you and gang bang the shit out of you and pushing your shit in. So the key to each fight is cordinate your attacks just perfectly as possible with your AI team to avoid suffering a stasis status from you going all trigger happy on your enemies.

Now in terms of gaining experience; yes the level up system is back but its not gonna be like "gain this amount of EXP and you can be Leveled up" each time you complete a battle you gain two types of points, Experience points and Ascend points. Experience points is as i said before it helps you level up however it is done differently but has been done before. The only way to level up is to cash in your experiencing by going to the resting areas or sleeping in hotels. Let me repeat that, you gained levels by cash in your experience you have gained through battles by resting hotels.

And now i am gonna be getting tons of raised eyebrows and being asked "how did this mechanic have been done before?" well believe it or not. Its not from any of the final fantasy games in the franchise. Instead it came another game series.

Now before i get to what game series I am gonna be talking about, let me warn everyone that this could have been a huge coincidence with this mechanic. And my biggest fear that Square Enix discovering this and may have to do some major changes in the game which will piss a lot of people off and fingers are gonna be pointing legitimately at me for bringing this up.

The series I am gonna be talking about is the hydlide series. Yes Hydlide that game of the year of the NES that everyone consider as the worst Zelda clone ever made, believe it or not the game had a series, it had 2 Sequals (however hydlide 2 was never released in the US and only in Japan on the PC and MSX) and a remake. The Hydlide game i am gonna be talking about to compare the Level up system in FFXV is Super Hydlide, or specifically Hydlide 3, for the Sega Genesis. In super Hydlide by killing enemies you gain Experience points which acts as Currency which allows you to cash em in to learn new spells or got to a specific shop in the first town of the game to gain LEVELS.

Let me reiterate and imply that in a better and specfic description; you gain experience by killing enemies, go to a shop with the experience you have gained, cash em in to level up!

MIND. FUCKING. BLOWN!! HOW DO YOU EVEN!?!?

This cannot be a huge ass coincidence and if it was I bet everyone will be more mind blowned myself included. Like holy shit Square Enix!

Okay let me just explained how the ascend points are used very quick and go straight to talking about sun and moon. The ascend points can be spent to gain new abilities and upgrades for Noctis and his team. Basically its just like the Final Fantasy 10 series and Final fantasy XIII and XIII-2 crystalium system.

Okay now onto Pokemon sun and moon. Now right off the bat on what i like about this game is they brought the character Customization back. Something i have been looking forward to since X and Y. Though i Kinda notice that the customization is very limited compared to X and Y Customization, Correct me if I am wrong and just seeing things. Anyways the Starter pokemon is already got me interested, Eversince i saw their evolution line. So shut up Gen Whiners, this is where the REAL fun begins.

First we have Rowlett, possibly the second dual type starter of the beginning of the game since Bulbasaur, a Grass and Flying type Owl. Litten, a Pure Fire type kitten pokemon with a "i don't give a flying fuck" expression but will involve inti the best tiger pokemon that no one wants to from, that not even that Tiger from that frosted flakes cereal box doesn't want to fuck around with. And Popplio a very cute and playful clown seal that everyone keeps turning down because simply because of its design, disregarding the fact that his/her final evolution is part fairy and therefore uneffected towards dragon types and can take up with ease. So if any dares try to despise Popplio for anything stupidest or retarded besides its design including not providing strong evidence to back up your reasons should be promptly shot!


Now onto the Z crystal system. For those who hasn't gotten or played Pokemon Sun and Moon, Z crystals are equippable battle items that allows the pokemon to use said item to perform a whats a call a Z move. Basically it acts like a powerful special attack and it does MASSIVE damage to the target. But its only limited to be use one time per battle just from how frequently it has been used. Again i never played the game nor do i had the chance to get it but hopefully i will soon, like really soon.

Now what I really do like in Pokemon Sun and Moon is the trials. The only slight nitpick i have with the previous pokemon games is that all you have to do to beat every pokemon core game, non competitive wise, is to collect all 8 Gym badges in order to gain access to the pokemon League. The only two issues is that the pokemon League in the later Generations after Gen 2 is usually at the end of the game and some of the HM moves that requires gym badges to activate them are accessable but they cannot be used outside of battle until you get a specific gym badge to activate it.

Luckily Pokemon and Sun and Moon fixes BOTH of those problems by not only making these Trials much more intersting by adding some puzzle solving and twist and turns, etc. but also when you defeat the trial captain not only get a Z crystal to specify that you defeat a Trial captain but get a new feature called Poke Rides which are special pokemon which can summoned that is not from your party there making HM moves no longer needed. Again huge approvement. Also the pokemon in Alola are freakin cool. Including the legendary pokemon Solgaleo and Lunaala. So yeah compare that along with the other Gen 3 through 6, to your precious gen 1, Gen wunners or should i say Gen Whiners.

Well thats enough explaining. Now onto the cons of this game. Let me reiterate that the customization seems a bit more limited than it was in X and Y. But don't get me wrong. If i could do some customization, thats okay I guess. So its either that or nothing.

Second problem i have with the game is the music. The visual graphics though is fantastic, don't get me wrong. Though the music could be put more effort into. If they could make X and Y music sound epic including the music for ORAS especially's Wally's theme at Victory Road, Zinnia's theme at the Sky Pillar or hell the Primal Reversion of Groundon and Kyogre, even deoxys's Theme sound badass then what the hell happened Game Freak? Put more love and effort into possibly the gen 4 remakes in terms of music next time alright?

Last but not least my major problem with Sun and Moon. You can't transfer or trade your pokemon you possibly put countless in, EV and Hyper Training it to the maximum and giving em some very unique moves, etc. Into Sun and Moon. The only way to do so is through pokebank but guess what? You still can't do it. However Nintendo/Game Freak did announce they are gonna release a patch update where you can transfer your pokemon from any of your previous versions to sun and moon but the update is not gonna be released until next year starting at January 1st or later on in that month.

Basically to put this simple, i have to wait another entire month till next year in order to get my lucario and my dream team in sun and moon.


So right i am complete tied here on what I should get first if i can't have both. So what are your guys thought? Should i get FFXV or pokemon Sun? Please let me know in the comments below and if you help me out to get FFXV or Pokemon Sun. I'll be forever grateful.

Thanks for reading and see you soon.

Still looking for a hidden ability Staraptor but nothing pisses me off that the person that is willing to give away a staraptor wants a legendary pokemon for it.

So what am I talking about? Well lets start off the obvious to what made me make this rant journal.
I don't have pokemon sun or moon yet, but while waitong for my chance to get a copy i need to get my team setted up and ready to go. Aka my dream i have spent COUNTLESS hours on training leveling up to maximum with many ribbons as possible with the exception of the contest ribbons. EV training the shit out of my team so thet are all ready for the adventure on alola.

But there is one pokemon i do not have in my dream team. That pokemon is staraptor and not an ordinary staraptor, a hidden ability Staraptor. Now onto the problem i have of finding a hidden Ability Staraptor; the only way for ne to get a hold of a Staraptor is trading from the X and Y games. So since i no longer have X or Y because i have lost mines. Just getting a regular Staraptor or one of the 3 three pokemon of the starly line will be extremely fustrating and very difficult if not impossible.

Thats the first part. The second part on the other hand absolutely pissed me off. So basically i have tried getting a Staraptor through one place and that is the Global Trade system or GTS for short. Now for those doesn't know or have been living under rock or you are one those gen wunner fantards out there. GTS is a special mode where you trade pokemon from anyone across the globe. Now what is the problem? I'll half if the fucking retards out there wanted a legendary for one Staraptor that has his/her hidden ability. And get this its not just a legendary or no no no no, these people wants a fucking meloetta for one normal pokemon with its hidden ability. Let me say that a again in all caps. THESE PEOPLE WANTS A FUCKING MELOETTA FOR ONE NORMAL POKEMON WITH ITS HIDDEN ABILITY.

And keep this in mind i even try searching for the any Starly evolutions with its hidden ability i even requested it to have its hidden ability. Every single fucking result is this person; "I got pokemon you wanted with its hidden ability BUT you gonna have to give me a event legendary pokemon that is meoletta" its like are you fucking kidding me?! Don't these fucking idiots realize you can't trade Event pokemon?!

So yeah at this point i am gonna to go "Fuck this and dream team i have put countless in, super training em and EV & iv traing the fuck out and giving them the best of the best attacks and abilities for this point cause everyone in the fucking GTS is fucking retarded."

I just can't wrap my head around this why in the holy mother of fuck do want an a event pokemon that cannot be traded?! All i am asking is a fucking normal pokemon with its hidden ability. I am not asking for a fucking legendary because i got pretty much most if not all of them not just by trading or by event but also by in game in ORAS. In in other worfs most if nof all of my legendaries that i have cannot be traded.

Hell i even off a fucking absol with an egg move, punishment at level 50 for a fucking starapter with its hidden ability.

Oh yeah i forgot to mention that. Just recent i gave away my pokemon to a fucking troll. Long story short he has the pokemon i wanted but fail to fucking tell me ON PURPOSE i mind you that the pokemon is a FRENCH starly with its common ability. Guess wgat he wanted in return. My male gardevior with its ability synchronize. And it just also happens to have synchonoise as one of his moves. So yeah i was fucking pissed so i tried contacting this guy and to no avail.

So yeah at this point i am just about to give up and say "fuck this, I'm done"
Now if anyone of you is willing to help me out and even just lend me a Staraptor with his/ her hidden ability, Reckless. At any level i don't care its level 20 or higher, if you can just lend me one. I'll be sure to repay you.

If you can't then...thanks anyway.

So yeah thats my rant and I am gonna hit the showers and cool off.
And to the fucking troll. Hope you are enjoy my male Gardevior that i have spent hours on for. Because one day i will take it back and give you back your starly that wasn't even EV iv trained, you dick!