So,  xdewyx is having some troubles, as you can read here

I'll be trying to help by making some adoptables this friday n weekend, so if any of you have any suggestions or themes, literally any idea what you'd like to see, please do tell~ Information is v important to me.

Auctioning or set prices, or should I just half some and some into either. Just wondering how it'd be better for you guys.

So, I've been going to training for 3 days only, and I love it so far!! I have 4 training mates and two of them I'm really friendly and close with in just a few days and It's really comfortable and sweet. The one other guy who is on the german project with me I'm the closest to tbh he's real nice to talk to. Dude's like, almost twice my age lmao.

I've been learning A LOT about desktop and laptop hardware and functions and troubleshooting, we sit like 6-7 hours just listening to this one guy talking to us and teaching us so it's been a lot of info in a short timespan. I don't complain, I frankly love being a lil infosponge lmao...and time passes by pretty fast thanks to it.

It's pretty relevant for my uni and line of work, too, so I'm happy and grateful to have this job for the year.
I have very little experience in stuff like this since i'm young as shit, and it helps so many of my disorders to socialize, learn to be formal and businesstalk, and generally just have a healthy routine and sleep schedule (i'm kinda forced to sleep now lmao, waking up early so...FINALLY). Plus it's in german, and I started getting rusty so I'm glad I can finally build it back up and for once actually talk german vocally. I've always been doing fine in writing, but my highschool had been kicking out german speaking teachers so much we eventually barely ever spoke german outside german classes, which was pretty...bad for our speaking skills tbh.

I've also gotten much better physically, I'm not severely malnourished and underweight anymore, and my stomach burns and cramps and sickness/vomits have gone away too! I rarely ever get them and when I do they're not debillitating like before. I can also eat now, I still have a hard time realising my hunger needs but slowly It's getting better, and my actual feeling of hunger kicked in for the first time in a good long ass time today! Like, genuine hunger. I was really happy to feel it again.

The only bad stuff I guess are that I still had breakdowns here and there during these months of recovery, and slipped cutting and bruising myself again (so sad and disappointed in myself about it tbh but im trying to move on) . I've been having extreme anxiety and feelings of worthlessness while I was rotting in my home 24/7 and smoking from time to time helped ground myself and blow some steam, but shit still happened and slipped a bit. I'm just so lucky and happy I have Xylo...they're the sweetest and they give me so much love and care, despite being so busy and stressed too. My sweetheart is my main drive <3

Essentially, I'm much, much better now. This job and recovery are a big step for me, both for my character growth and health. Now my main goal is to get my digital art devices to work finally lmao, and do way more studies and painting/style experiments inbetween my work. I've been feeling like I'm at an impasse ever since I was so excited to finish my WIP paintings and my shit broke, and I don't like that. I'll be getting back to watercolors and other trad stuff tho, too, now that my strength is back.

 bwifey has been practicing her furry art and THE SHIT SHE'S BEEN SHOWING ME IS ABSOLUTELY ?? FUCKING AMZING??? For a anthro beginner she's doing the human/animal mix so well tbh, considering she's been drawing strictly humans and barely any animals.

BUT SHE WONT POST...

Like, fuck. I've been bothering her to post her new art for months smh, I will smack her next time we go out bc that shit good

I'm just really proud of my best friend and wanted to be loud about it

I wish I could show you guys tbhhhhh, I'll persuade her harder smhhh

(rn btw if you send her messages she might not reply at all until she actually uses the account. she's shy and insecure about her art and left the account for a while, but she's been workin hard and studying and it really fucking shows in her work,,,,Just hope we can actually publicize it sometime this decade too ayy)

I'm running out of and looking to get some:

- Fineliners
- Inkbrushes
- Gouache
- A ball pen that doesn't smudge and break every 2 strokes

I'm not very experienced with brands and such, all I know is that anything art-related here in romania is overpriced as shit, and can be really bad at the same time too.

If you know some good stuff I'd really like to order. I'm tired of the shit prices and quality in actual shops tbh.

It has to ship to EU tho...

Thanks a lot to any suggestions! I'd really appreciate it~

A peaceful DAPL protester who literally only walked around giving water bottles to other protesters got critically injured by a "stun" grenade, had to have arm amputated.

Please, tell me again how american police isn't fucked up.

They used water cannons when it was literally fucking FREEZING outside, on MOSTLY SENIOR PROTESTERS.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news.....-standing-rock

I'm fucking tired. Haven't you stolen enough?

To make a point besides the vague ass journal: no, I don't support Hillary either. Yes, she was corrupt, but the most she could've done is keep the already corrupt and bullshit american status quo going.

The point is, that if you ALIGN with Trump's bigoted opinions, you are a danger to me, as a nb lesbian. A danger to my other q* friends and loved ones in america, a danger to disabled people who already barely survive there, and a danger to my loved ones who live in countries that will be put into immense turmoil and physical danger by the promises and wants of this cheetohitler.
It doesn't matter if you're american or not, endorsing this mentality and identifying with it is DANGEROUS.

Innocent people have been hurt for the skin on their flesh, for their orientation, for their ethnicity, for their religion. People have been attacked and slurred at. Families are at risk. My family, as a romanian minority there, is at risk. Especially since some of them are borderline non-white passing.

Trump himself as a politician might (HOPEFULLY ) not be as much of a problem as the fascist, hateful Ideologies spreading like wildfire and the community he has built around him. And you, endorsing this, is a threat to human empathy, tolerance and co-habitation.

I understand that lots of supporters have been misinformed and/or manipulated, that has been the average America since its enstablishment, but that DOES NOT excuse the hate crimes currently happening as a result of that mentality.


So, yes, If you endorse all of this, regardless of political hoo-hoo, please, kindly LEAVE until you have grown out of it
I used to be bigoted too. Despite being a nb lesbian, I used to be a transphobe, a homophobe, and even genuinely RACIST due to misinformation and manipulation as I was younger. I, too, used to hatefully scapegoat and willingly ATTACK people
I have tried to be objective ever since, to learn, to listen to both sides, to put myself in the shoes of others past my clouded perspective. And it has been enlightening and relieving. I've learnt so much from surrounding myself with people from different backgrounds than me, and even people with similar identities and histories.

I'm not proud of my past, but I'm thankful of having had the experience to see both sides, and understand where this hatred comes from. Going through this gives me hope that people like you can also grow and learn to love and be more analytical.

However, until then, you're a danger to me and my loved ones. Just like I have been a danger to others. That is why I ask you to unfollow me.

I believe in change and empathy, but I have also been personally aggressed and attacked for my identity, for no other reason than these "harmful opinions", and I, as a mentally ill and still recovering person, have unfortunately no tolerance or energy to handle people like you anymore. Others might, others might have the power to educate and pull you out, but I don't. And for that I am sorry, and for that I ask you to not be around me.

PS I am not open for discussion. I have went 24 hours without sleep doing this and I'm fucking tired. I-m tired of giving sources and correcting misinformation. Fucking educate yourself.

I am adamant about my stance.

Please unfollow me and block me. Or I will.

Made a tumblr account for my sfw shit, might post sketches I don't post here:

https://monokromae.tumblr.com/


Also, I will be using  monosex again for my nsfw bullshit.

Just wanted to sepparate the two. I'll upload nsfw there from now on.

Take a shot every time you see a dani and/or mushymutt ripoff browsing fa (take a bigger one if they emulated the same style too)


You'll get wasted

And it's really good, easily beyond my expectations! I will sign the contract tomorrow, start training on the 21st for 1 month, learn all the ropes n such, polish my german and start working after. I didn't expect to get such a good spot so I'm really anxious too, but I'm sure everything will be fine.

I'm terribly sorry for postponing commissions, I will be working on them today and tomorrow and hopefully finish both of the PWYW ones in the queue rn. Interviews have been taxing and filling my weeks, but now that's over, I can finally get to work!

I'm going to try and get a new pen for my tablet asap for the digital ones, as I know I've postponed the start of some of them. I'm still not getting paid until these 2 months are done, so trad commissions are the only way to get money for that damn pen rn.

They're still open here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21520395/

And I'll make some fullbody examples too, both for example and for myself since I have so many ideas i just have to draw and I've been frustrated bc of lack of art time. So, expect more activity from now on!

If you post other people's instagram/facebook/selfie pictures as your own just to entice thirsty furry fuckboys for attention you're on a whole new level of low
(and also possibly fucking up those people's lives if their faces are related to whatever questionable shit you're doing here. I mean, It's FA.)



Just stop using other people's faces

Find another way to validate yourself without dragging others into your shit

My pen is fucked and I can't draw on tablet anymore.
It keeps clicking and dragging and the sensor seems to be beyond repair.

I tried everything.


The official pens cost around/over 80 dollars and ...is there no other cheaper alternative? Repairs would cost just as much so it wouldn't make sense.

I'm really bummed out. I started a lot of full painting projects and I really wanted to keep going, aside from needing to do commissions.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21514205/

Ahh just dropping this here too ;;

I have literally never done them, and wanted to make some since I LOVE designing and I love the idea.

I would make my first ones pretty cheap of course( 5-15 euros? I have no idea? What prices would you prefer? I'd prefer input on prices if you actually plan to order) , It's my first time and I just want to make sure it'll come out right.

Anyone know better specifics/have done it before?? I would make the usual eggs with color palettes and marking ideas, and maybe a few keywords for the customer to input? Of course if you only want me to go ham on the design with just the palette and none of your input i'd be glad to, you'd just have no idea what you get lmaoo

I'm just curious how others do the keywords/input thing and how much control i should give you guys over the hatched designs

EDIT: Holy shit they said I exceeded their expectations??? I might actually get that one job I wanted the most??? FUCK IM HAPPY??


I'm waiting to enter my first interview right now, and unfortunately its my most important and wanted one too... (really good company of 90% student workforce, also german position)

My entire soul is shitting and pissing itself but i've prepared as much as I could and informed myself as much as possible too @ the company

Aaa wish me luck i feel like 1 year gets razed off my life expectancy with every passing minute lmaoo

I just applied on a jobsite for a call center position since I know english and german very well, and not many know german so it's valued.

And I just got...4 calls in one day??? For interviews and I'm. I'm SO FUCKING SCARED LMAO. I'm a poor 19 year old fuck who hasn't really worked anywhere else but voluntariates for kids and @ my mom's typography so, going to work for other people properly is giving me huge anxiety.

Also, I stutter so much at interviews. Which is bad because this position is specifically for people who have to communicate and talk a lot and I'm shitting myself tbh. I don't know how to handle this anxiety any better than meditation and weed and I can't smoke weed and start doing sleep-yoga at an interview.

I really need the money though, we've never went through harsher times as a family and my tablet started breaking down too. Shit keeps happening and I really need to start saving up for my school laptop, tablet and next years' tuition and rent. Before the government would pay a part of my tuition bc my parents simply were too fuckin poor lmao, but I'm afraid since I paused my year I might not get that either??? IDkfuckk

It sucks to be poor. I have immense guilt over treating myself to literally anything right now and feel like a drain and waste on my family's resources. I know it's wrong and a distorted view, but having lived as REALLY poor for most of my childhood and teenhood really didn't help. Was less poor later on, now we're in literal danger again and it's tiring.

I just hope I can get the job and work fine in it. At least like this I can provide for myself and stop feeling like a waste of space and self harm all the time.

does anyone want me to turn their female characters into buff fluffy muscle babes

yes/no?

post refs

I'm going to read it anyway - just wannaknow what to expect.

(DONT SPOIL PLS :( )

Yeah, my computer that I JUST GOT and wanted to do comms and works with to get money for a new one died. It kept turning itself off last 2 days until it just stopped turning on altogether.


I literally get my income and do my school work on this pc and if i can't get a new one before next summer, i'm royally fucked and can't go study Game Design anymore.

I was considering doing trad commissions only but i doubt anyone rly cares of b&w pencils. My only other way is to get a job which i'm trying rn. My parents are too poor to get me a new one, i have to get one myself.

Just really pissed and demoralized, this entire year has been the worst i've ever been through,easily the unluckiest.

Making fun of and demeaning people's genitals, wether it be big labia, pubes, cut/uncut (i hate this discourse) foreskin, and etc. is asshole behavior and you should stop.

Having preferences about genital shape and such is fine - shitting on it and demeaning others' preferences and body is just disgusting and you're a piece of shit if you do.

This stigmatizing needs to stop. Do any of you realise how much this encourages body dysmorphic disorder? People have tried MUTILATING themselves because of shit like this, myself included when I was just hitting puberty.

This is harmful.

the bottom twinks of the furry universe

concerning what i've seen in FA's tag

drop some characters idk, it's free art lmao

my laptop is still gone so i wanna practice some excessive expressions and fill up some pages
tired of reworking and drawing my own characters for now

impending design spam ( i fucking love it and looking at peoples characters so yes <3)

All i have left is the specialization exam and the interview!

There's lots of people fighting on places, 65 admitted and only 40 places, so, wish me luck lol.

The second exam is pretty hard, i'm gonna need tht shit

Didn't want to do absolutely nothing during my 1 year pause, so I signed up for the romanian arts uni 'til i'm coming back to Game Design ( nothing bad happened, i had good grades and the school was perfect, just have some personal issues rn to fix).

I'm not entirely happy with arts school here, or overall the country, it kinda sucks. A lot. Most of it is corrupted and cuts the wings of any artists who don't do 100% what the old ass teachers want you to, but it's better than doing nothing lmao, aside from me getting a job.

I thought it might still be some kind of experience, and I wanted to check it out. It's 1 year anyway. I have nothing to lose, really. And It'd help me mentally to get off my ass.

So, yeah, 6 hours tomorrow, 6 hours again some other day lmao

It's nothing new really but the 4 models (theonly models) the institute has all across entire sections are rly shitty and move all the time, if it's the same ones i had during practice i'll get rly mad. They find the worst models and pay them jack shit, so, i'm not surprised of the quality. I don't really mind motion excercises since they're really good for the eye, but in the case of an exam board where pinpoint accuracy of anatomy is needed...it's kinda evil to do for the kids imo

This is why i went overseas in the first place 8 )